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rawliverandgoronspice · 3 months

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My time to invade 👏 2. Anything that you'd like to write but feel like you're unable to?

10. Top three favourite fic tropes. 28. Any writing advice that works for you and you feel like sharing? 40. Write a 9-word fic. (Because SOMEONE inflicted this on me so I must inflict it on someone else)

Invade away!! (even though that LAST ONE!!!!)

2. Anything that you'd like to write but feel like you're unable to?

So I mentioned romance/smut, and it's not like I absolutely want to write that well (it's fine to have an uneven writing skillset I think) as much as I feel like that's a missing tool in my trusted toolbox of putting characters in Situations and examine their reaction. And as much as I know myself capable of writing characters isolating themselves and breaking down over time, and the occasional bonding moments and even potential recovery and rekindling of trust and genuine connexion that may ensue (I am an angst writing through and through u_u), I have a hard time letting characters being plainly happy and enjoying themselves and being vulnerable without being punished for it in some way. And it's a shame, because I love when authors manage to pull you alongside a genuinely good time and making you feel like you're building precious memories that will stay with you forever alongside the characters living through them. I'd like to be able to do more of that, and with less effort! Or just, plain unpunished vulnerability. I think that would be nice!

10. Top three favourite fic tropes.

Hmmm in general I'm open to everything as long as it's good, but I guess if I had to pick...

I'd say Hurt/Comfort, I had pretty transcendant experiences reading really good Hurt/Comfort fics that kickstarted a lot of wonderful things in my real actual life, so.

Found Family Tropes (or just platonic/friendship bonds being explored in general, when it's well written it can be so incredibly excellent)

Experimental Bullshit. Aka plays with the formatting, temporality, point of view, crossmedia stuff... If you take fanfic as a genre/format and make it an active part of the text, I am kissing you on the top of your head.

28. Any writing advice that works for you and you feel like sharing?

I think my core advice is pretty generic and maybe stupid, but embracing it helped me a lot so here it goes: there's no good or incorrect way to write. As long as it makes sense to your specific brain, it couldn't matter less whether it happens prettily or not. I tend to write completely out of order, sometimes across an entire project and sometimes in the same scene. I tend to write all of my dialogue at once, then put "//" and highlight it in yellow where I need to come back and add more text. It looks like hell. But I don't care: my brain feels constricted by linearity, so it makes sense, and so I let it happen and I actually write things instead of letting weird expectations about how one "should" write slow me down unnecesserily. It's been particularly helpful in cases where I actually *have* to write and can't afford a writer's block because of a deadline, etc. It's important to try stuff out and accept "bad" habits if they are actually just your own natural rythm.

40. Write a 9-word fic.

(argggh)

(okay so all of my attempts ended up at 12 words for SOME REASON so here's to the best I could do.)

Tetra promised the shore this time would be different.

(and another attempt (MidZel-adjacent!!! I tried!!!!), where I pulled an insane cheat but it wouldn't have fit otherwise I'm sorry ;;)

Lips dusted with mirror-shards, Zelda murmured: I know why.

#asks #writing #fanfic #midzel #tetra #thanks for the ask!!!#the last one is super challenging but a fun exercise!!#again I don't know how to be fun :((((#unfortunately

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fierce-little-miana · 10 months

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(1/3) hii im the anon from before, thank u for the answer, i don’t mind the length at all!! the games being old/some never translated officially and a lot of weird possible bits about Chizuru’s life before the shinsengumi being ignored bc “otome mcs are blank slates, it’s not that deep” means it’s rare for ppl to try and analyze chizuru’s mental state and I think it’s such a shame like I’m aware that they could have done so much more with chizuru’s oni nature and sword skills (kinda infuriating lol) but I love her as a narrator and I think she’s an interesting character overall, she’s babygirl❤️. Kodo is inconsistent but he always has an agenda for taking care of Chizuru (especially bad in Saito’s and in Sannan’s route)

Hello again anon,

Sorry for the delay in my answer. I was very happy to receive this ask but a gap in internet connexion and some personal issues prevented me from answering it sooner.

To continue on Chizuru being emotionally isolated, yes Chizuru never thinking about getting married is what brought to my attention that something was wrong in the way she saw her own future. If all the lies Kodo fed her had been true, the most likely outcome for her life should have been to marry a man (either an assistant of her father he would have adopted, or another doctor or someone of similar social standing). I am not saying Chizuru should have been eager to get married. But, as a 16 years old girl, she should have started seriously considering it. Because it was an extremely likely scenario for how her life was going to play out.

Yet there is nothing, no dread at the idea of marrying someone, no eagerness, no annoyance at the prospect of having the same life for the rest of her life… Nothing. As if the idea had never even occurred to her. And since she did not have any other plan to replace this one we are left with what? Her staying with her father forever? How was she supposed to live if anything happened to him? It is as if she did not have any life, any future, outside of him. Something was very wrong there.

More than Chizuru's sword skills, on which I already gave my opinion when commenting on the movies (basically I am fine with Chizuru's strength not being her fighting skills and find her reluctance to enter a sword fight despite having some skills to be a perfectly valid character trait but I wished she was showed ready to use it in specific situations, in which she is defending people, more often), it is her relationship with her oni nature that frustrate me the most. Chizuru is not human, period. And she is so very not human, that she is even less human than some other oni and that makes her extra special even to oni. This discovery should be earth shattering for her, especially considering how human she is in the other sense of the word. And it is not really explored. It is explored a bit, like when her and Souji bound on their newfound 'monstrosity', but not enough to my taste. I wish Hakuouki dived into this way more than it did.

Considering what you are saying, I am sad to not have an access to Sannan' route (though I am still hoping for a Switch release of the newest translated games). Worst case scenario I will try finding it on youtube or something like this.

I am pretty sure Kodo said he was "wrong to let Chizuru have any freedom at all" in the movie. Death to Kodo! Death!!!!!!

You talk about her finding punishment (or punishing behaviors) normal and the things is I am not even sure that at first Chizuru recognized some behaviors as punishment. They are just normal behaviors to find in normal relationship. Nothing to see there. And that is why I say again: DEATH TO KODO!

Your "I can't believe he thought about my feelings 🥺" has me like 😭😂 because this is exactly how I read this scene and it is infuriating from an outside POV. This man is doing the bare minimum, THE BARE MINIMUM, and Chizuru is like "has anyone being that kind to me before?". I want to shake everyone inside the Shinsengumi, including Chizuru, like an old grandma who is not getting her way at the local farmers market.

I think Chizuru actually has a lot of potential for development as a character, besides some inconsistencies that are linked to the fact that she must fit several different 'routes', and I am very happy that we are taking time to discuss her.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts!

#hakuouki #hakuoki #yukimura chizuru #yukimura kodo #anon ask

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gryphis-eyes · 2 years

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From witchcraft asks 41, 52 and 93 💖

Hello 💐

41. What’s the craziest witchcraft-related thing that’s happened to you?

I often talk about this one to people who talk to me about my craft ; I physically saw the demon I interacted with after asking for a confirmation, he looked like a tall shadow figure for some reason I was afraid but also felt so calm when I saw him (kinda sad it happened once in the beginning of my practice and now I rarely see stuff)

52. What is your biggest witchy pet peeve?

New ager/wicca . At first I tried to just avoid them, then after joining the divination community I was face to face with them so I was just telling myself "k act like you tolerate it's not your practice it's ok" but oh boy new age is making a lot of damage where I live, almost erasing other types of witchcraft. I'm truly tired of seeing people talking about appropriated stuff (spirit animals or Lilith) without making a lot of research or they just look at ressources that agree with them :| or they say "but I don't mean any harm" ok then stop ? Also they are still using twin flame related stuff while we all know where it come from etc but "no I don't mean any harm while talking about it, I'm not talking about the evil twin flame" no no there is only one twin flame concept and if you want an other term there is simply "soulmate" even if this term got lost in a lot of false belief. I'm saying that here because I mostly see new ager/wiccan do that but I'm sure other people from other belief system do it, acting like everyone got the same belief as you. The easiest exemple can be the whole drama about curses and that if you do one it goes back to you 3 times but there is an other one. As a someone who works a lot with demon how many people I saw talking to me or an other person in the same kind of path that involve demon saying "demons are harmful being and straight up evil !!!"... And ? First of all demons are neutral, second... Why are you saying this to someone who work with them, exchange with them and see them in a total different way ? Oh you're going to show me their description from goetia who isn't something we refer to and is not even the surface of those beings🥹?

I'll stop there because I can't stop talking haha but you get the image there are some other stuff but that's the biggest one, the second one is the obsession with astrology but with my lack of knowledge I can't say more it just makes me feel weird that people tell you "you got free will" then tell you everything is writed on your chart... So it's like Naruto you say destiny doesn't exist and you're the one shaping the futur but in the end destiny exist and everything was writed from the beginning?

93. What’s one piece of advice you’d give someone who is searching for their matron and patron deities?

Oh boy my first advice will sound annoying but I've been there, the short answer is don't search for your matron/patron it's like searching for a lover and only wanting your soulmate, the long answer is yes search for that but it need a lot patience (also the term patron/matron comes from Wicca, I think but people always end up with a "main deity"/patron)

I'm going to show you a simple exemple I'm in a group of people who started witchcraft togheter (we are 4) and evolved together, one of us chosed her deity right in the beginning, two of us ignored their true call (I'm one of those two 🫣) and the last one was just waiting for things to fall on his laps

Now we are on our 8th year of practice, yes we all found our main deity now (and it took a lot of time)except the one who was waiting for things to fall on his lap but he know where to search.

1. Don't wait for a deity to chose you, maybe you got some connexion with one but don't know it yet it's possible but from my experience no one is chosed

2. Since you're a kid is there an entity or an archetype that always inspired you, for me it was Lucifer (I've made a post about it maybe it can help)

3. Do you truly want a patron ? Here it's pure on my pov, having a patron mean it's an entity you'll be bound to, it's being devoted to them maybe now without being into it you tell yourself it sound good and yes it's nice to know that there is this being you can trust and got your back but it also mean you have to put the work etc

4. Let's say you really like Artemis but you're not a big fan of the Greek pantheon and their belief in general, do you like Artemis or do you like the moon ? The hunter archetype ? That she is a goddess ? The animals associated with her ? Or you can ask yourself those questions without having a deity in mind

5. Time spend with a deity ≠ they are my patron

I've been working with Leviathan since many years, he isn't my patron and I'm not his devotee, Lucifer made many appearance but I've not spent that much time with him, he is now my patron. Asmodeus was presented to me as having the potential to be my patron but when I worked with him I didn't felt like it or maybe it's meant to happen in the futur who know but in the end I'm not working with him anymore

6. Know that in the end you'll find your patron/main deity. It's someone that you find along the way sometimes it's someone who's just next to you but you're not looking at the good ones, you are free to chose and free to meet as many deity as you want until you tell yourself "damn I love that one we got a amazing bound". Be patient, it's ok to meet and entity you work well with but then they leave or you don't feel like working with them anymore, it's ok if you search thousand of pantheon as long as you go in those place with sincerity. Hell, i've been from Tyr to Loki then to Apollo and many others I've even tried to approach Tiamat, yes it's a lot of deities but when I was on their side I was doing it with sincerity and pure wish of wanting to learn from them and "pay back" for their services. Even now if I have found my path I told myself many times that I miss Apollo but it really wasn't for me, same with the Egyptian pantheon I truly love them but I felt so distant just like when I worked with the Norse pantheon I didn't find a home but I found a pantheon that accepted to welcome me in their home and let me learn then let me leave once I was ready.

(I hope I didn't went too far haha)

#ask #note that my answer are purely based on my experience and my group's experience you don't have to believe in the same thing as me #talking in English after taking a big break is hard omg

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dark-eyes-under-the-golden-sky · 1 year

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flake salt and himalayan pink salt?

Hello!!! Thank you for your ask!! I'm going to be talking about Scara/Wanderer in this ask!

flake salt - Do you have a favourite au with you and your f/o? Tell us about it!

So with Scara, I usually self-ship in the canon genshin universe (which is unusual for me, because I love aus lol), but I've been playing a lot of Pokemon recently and I've been inspired to make a Pokemon au. In this au I like to think that Scara was part of a villainous organization, the fatuis (which are like Team Galactic in this case), before being defeated by the traveller. After his defeat, he realizes that the organization was using him for his abilities and decides to leave and help out the traveller where he can instead of collaborating with the villains. This is where he meets my s/i! My s/i is also a trainer who helps out the traveller when he can. I like to think my s/i would be a researcher/scientist that studies pokemons, but also battles occasionally. In fact my s/i and Scara met because my s/i was very interested in Scara's team and the bond he has with his pokemons (Scara has a mean exterior but I think he would take great care of his pokemons and have a strong bond with them).

I like to think that though Scara uses electro and anemo as his elements in genshin, he would not be an electric or flying type trainer! I think he'd be a dark and/or spectre trainer. I don't know, I feel like that fits him more? In his team I definitely see a mimikyu or a banette. I think its funny because my s/i is mostly a fairy type trainer. So my s/i has pokemons like sylveon and jigglypuff on his team lmao.

Himalayan pink salt: tell us about one of your favourite moments between you and your f/o!

Hmmm this is tough, because I have many favourite moments! I think my favourite moment that I spent with Scara was when he finally felt comfortable enough to be vulnerable around me. I know it sounds weird, but nothing made me feel more loved than being able to comfort and be there for him. He doesn't let anyone get close to him usually, so for him to trust me enough to open up and drop the tough facade was very touching!

Another moment I enjoyed was when he noticed that I got very overwhelmed by commissions. In lore, my s/i is essentially a traveller (a wanderer if you will) who takes on various jobs at the adventurers' guild (there's more to it, notably the fact that my s/i is not human and has some connexions to some of the game's events). So one day Scara saw that I was getting overwhelmed by my commissions, not because they were particularly hard, but because they required me to go to the city often and interact with people (which is very draining for me). Of course, I kept telling him I was fine, but he obviously didn't believe me. He knew I could handle myself and let me finish my commission. However, afterwards, he planned a retreat for the both of us, away from the city, where we'd have a chance to relax, just the two of us. Of course he denied that he did this for me, claiming that it was to get away from Lesser Lord Kussanali who kept pestering him and that he only took me with him because I'm the only person he can actually tolerate. The way he cooked my favourite meals (even though neither of us really needs to eat), brought my favourite books to read (and offered multiple times to read them to me) and took care of me for the entire retreat, however, tells me he did have my well-being in mind when he planned all of this!

#ask game #This was really fun thank you for sending an ask!!

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tiny-tigers · 5 months

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✨ Omg belgian chalamet noooo - somehow even worse because his baby face makes him look even younger than 24?! 😳

Instead of thinking about Dec as a 'jacky thing' maybe make it a friendship/English thing - you'll be back here with your girls! You can explore Leicester a bit more, get some cute xmas decs, I'm sure there will be xmas markets of some kind by then! ❄️🎁🎄🍷

New projects are good! I think making one of those projects a fitness goal would help your mental health so much! It's done wonders for me! I personally like lifting weights and I'm slowly getting back into my running - but a friend of mine recently recommended a YouTuber called 'grow with jo' who does these free aerobics videos lasting anywhere from 15-75 mins long and omg they are addictive! She is an actual angel and I am hooked - they get you properly sweating but don't actually kill you? 😆

I'd start doing 3-4 of those a week - all completely free - and you will feel the difference in no time! 💖

It is true that 'this too shall pass' covers both sadness and happiness, but instead of dwelling on the happiness ending, just focus on how good it is when you have it, and how it will always come back around again.

[I apologise if anything I say doesn't help or resonate - but I am quite happy by nature so I don't find myself dwelling on the bad times too much because I know they're only fleeting]

What am I scared of? Well I'm a massive over thinker and have talked myself out of so many things over the years - I've also been a bit of a perfectionist my whole life so have been reluctant to start things as I know I wouldn't be great at it straight away and that bothers me - which is ridiculous I know. But I'm working on both! Going to start throwing myself into things even if I'm scared or worried about not getting it right first time...!

I can still totally seeing you living in the UK one day, even if its not right now! Maybe look into museum/gallery/archive work in London anyway? Until then I would maybe focus on what you're already good at! Your drawing for example - have you ever thought about setting up a separate insta page for your art? People get massive followings from that now and go on to sell copies of their work on Etsy etc.? And if you don't fancy that then you could set up a 'sporting' YouTube account - I've seen your edits, they're really very good. You could earn ad revenue from that?? [you'd have to maybe make videos of players/teams you're not in love with but you could do that! 😜]

Whatever it is you end up doing - it needs to be for YOU! No plans with Jacky in the back of your mind. Do what is best for Amelie. The second you start prioritising yourself and focusing only on you, doors will magically open up for you.

💖💖💖 sending so much love 💖💖💖

*2024 is YOUR year*

P.S apologies for the length of this 👀 and for going all therapist on your ass 😆😭🙈

Speaking of which, I need your advice because in 2 weeks I'm invited to my ex-job christmas party (sounds weird). He will be there and idk if I should go.... It feels awkward on so many levels, I loved them and maybe it will be seen badly not to got and less connexions for future works but???? Idk I'm lost

very much aware he shouldn't be my priority and yet again I'm planning on watching 31 match...

We should do some missions and challenges when I'm abroad if you are ok to give me some ideas

like idk eat something new , talk to one stranger... Those kinds of challenges to make this trip more unusual without any plans but only surprises so no deceptions.

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ah well forget it now I guess.....

and I cannot live in England without visa and they are impossible to get.

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nimphontheshore · 8 months

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Full moon tonight,

Perhaps it’s because there’s a full moon that I can’t seem to fall asleep right away. I’ve been looking out the window, hoping to catch a glance of her; for you. But she’s hiding tonight. Or perhaps she is sleeping, somewhere in the clouds, with you. My mind wonders a lot… It’s known, right? It wonders and it wanders. But is always about you. Tonight, in-between looking at the moon and doing my nightly routine (=stalk you on your socials); I thought about us. I thought about how in love I am with you, with our relationship. How I love everything about it since the beginning, the good and the bad (there’s none). Generally speaking, I love how drawn we were to each other. I love the first time I slid in your dms… Avec le prétexte de t’envoyer un film. Je me souviens encore que j’avais seulement tweet ça, in hope you would wanna talk to me, in private. I also remember that I didn’t talk to anyone else, except you. I remember looking for a movie, and for some reason, this one got to my attention. It’s weird, when I think about it. Yes, I did really like the movie, but it’s not even one of my… best favorites. But it felt so right. As of today, I think it was also meant to be. Wasn’t it, Doll? Babydoll? So yeah. I remember it all. I remember how excited I was to talk to you, rushing to my phone to reply. And you know — I don’t know how to express this — but it was just : You. Since the beginning. C’était pas une question de timing, or anything, tout ce que j’ai toujours ressenti, toutes mes émotions, c’était because it was YOU. I had many great convos with a lot of people, some that would resemble the one we had the first couple of days, like, — obviously no other convos will ever be like ours, but you get the idea. It’s not like I was missing deep conversations, it’s not like I was looking for attention. I had attention, if I wanted. It really was You. I was excited because it was you. I was rushing because it was you. I couldn’t stop talking because it was you. I was so comfortable because it was you. I felt so incredibly self but also so fucking vulnerable. Even when I wasn’t actually and physically showing my vulnerability, I was — since the first couple of days — feeling naked, right in front of you. It’s a weird feeling, something words cannot even describe. I felt like I known you, for so long, I felt like I’ve been in the same room as you in the past; I felt it right away, I knew you were gonna mean something to me, I knew it damn straight. Even if it didn’t feel this obvious back them… It was just a gut feeling.

When we’re in love, I guess we can feel biased. We can make up « meanings » in order to put some sense into it, or because we always wanna be… Bigger, than everything else. Because we wanna feel like there’s more than just feelings and connexion. Sometimes we’re just silly cheesy beings, delusional even. But I really don’t think that’s the case for us. I thought a whole lot about our relationship, about the first time we really met, about everything else in the middle until now.

I really feel like everything lead me to you in this life. I prolly didn’t tell you about this… Because I thought it was creepy but; you know the painting, nymph of the shore ? From which I got the inspiration for nymph on the shore… Well. It has nothing to do with chance.

This painting has been with me through my whole entire life. I was a kid when I first stumbled on it. It was the first « naked » painting I saw. I found it in a book, and asked my grandpa why this woman didn’t have a face (it was the sketch) and was standing like this. I thought it was a picture. I don’t remember much, I was so young. Couple of years later, I found it in London. At a museum (I don’t remember which one) and it felt like the world was so small. I grew actually attached to this piece of art, because I thought it was following me around. Plus, I was a little nerd, right? I loved learning about the meaning of words, their history. So I learned about nymphs, about Greek creatures. All of that. Now, the crazy part. (…) Fast forward… I’m back in Canada, I’m at a museum in Ottawa, and you will not believe what I had, in front of me. The painting. Or sketch. Well whatever it’s called. My nymph of the shore was right in front of my eyes. I couldn’t believe it, I felt so many emotions. I mean, baby, c’mon, I know it’s silly. I mean, I didn’t even like the actual painting that much? It was just. The whole meaning of it, the fact that it looked like it was following me through the most important times of my entire life. Last February, I mean, February 2022, I went back to this museum (with you know who); she was looking at other paintings while I wanted to go back and look at this one. While I was standing in front of it, for the third time, I felt so many emotions. Once again. I don’t know why? The same night, I was in my bedroom, and I knew this had to end. I knew I didn’t want this life there, I knew it wasn’t my person either. Everything made sense. But it does not stop there, nah. The day I learned about your real name, it struck me so much. I was like… Wait a minute. Why is there nymphs everywhere around me ? I felt so weird, in a good way. Plus… You were appearing in my life so soon after the loss, right when my life was being upside down and ready for a new start. Anyway, couple of days later, following the passing of my grandpa, I found couple of books in his room. I think I told you about that. He had made a stamp collection, one for me, one for my sister. When I was looking through it, it had many many themes. But one caught me again. It had a lot NYMPHS themed stamps. And you will not even believe that… The stamps, on the page, were dated February, February. February. I didn’t know your birthday back then, but I was just like… Wait. Nereid, Nymphs? Et tu sais, sur le moment, j’ai jamais interprété ça comme un signe ou whatever. Plus comme une coïncidence. Maintenant je vois les choses plus clairement mais before? No. I just thought it was weird, positive, but never… Metaphysical. Now I found it super… Wow. And I wanted to tell you about it, but I wanted to do it properly. Like this. So yeah… Baby. So many things. Can you believe? My phone password too. Which has been your birthday since I’m literally 12 years old. It’s so scary but so. Fucking. Meant to be. You’ve been with me all my life, it had to be you. It’s so clear now. (Please don’t think I’m crazy. I’m not even… religious but. Life is surreal sometimes).

J’ai omis des tas de détails but yes. Everything lead me to you. Everything made me a better version of myself — I hope — for you. And I will cherish every moment I have by your side. Quand je regarde notre liste Letterboxd je pense déjà à tous ces moments et y’en a des centaines de milliers d’autres, which is crazy. I feel so lucky and grateful that you chose to spend your time with me. Obviously. Time is so precious, we won’t ever get it back. I know we think we will have time forever, but it’s never certain. So yeah, thank you for choosing me right now, and always.

I wanted to tell you about all that for our 7 months but I needed to write to you tonight. And also, I can still bring you to the painting as a date on the 8th. But I will, someday, I promise.

I hope you’re sleeping well my doll, I will close my eyes right now.

I love you, and I love being yours. As cringy as it sounds, the truth is

Ton Kier

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xomamu · 1 year

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I hate phone calls. They stress me so much. Usually I'm not socially awkward at all. I love talking to people, making new connexions and stuff, going to overcrowded places as much as going to nearly empty museums. I'm always confortable no matter how much people there are. Nothing makes me uncomfortable. Nothing except phone calls.

Phone calls are weird. I can't see their face, I have to hold the device up to my ear. I can't fell emotions. I just have to listen to my phone, like some voice message, except I can't delay it. It's the worst thing. But an even worst thing than getting a phone call is making one.

I mean, I have to explain why I'm bothering you in one or two sentences without stuttering, and it gets so awkward when I can't find appropriate words to articulate with my mouth. Ban phone calls from existence.

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tenrose · 2 years

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Shout out to the aro community, because I’ve spend so many years thinking something was wrong with me because love really isn’t my thing, I’m approching 30 and never have been in a serious relationship, but I had so many days feeling shit about it. But I’ve come across so many aro positivity posts (even though I don’t reblog much) and I’ve realized that I don’t feel bad because I am alone, but because people makes me feel bad about it. Like, most of the time it’s family (ughh), friends, who brings the topic. And I’m so tired of the “don’t worry you’ll find someone”. Like, maybe will, but maybe I will not? Who cares? This is not the topic, and also I didn’t ask. I would be lying saying I haven’t been feeling shitty because I’m single, and sure having someone could be cool... But it shouldn’t be my main goal life. And one day I’ve realized I didn’t even thought about it for so long. And Valentine’s Day came, I nearly forgot about it this year, and I just didn’t care, and I didn’t felt bad about it (also proud to announce I’ve lifted a coworker’s spirit about it) and basically wouldn’t have noticed if it wasn’t brought in the conversation. And I just don’t understand why a lot of people make a fuss about it? And I know it’s a day with many suicides, and it just is so fucking wrong. Like, what the fuck went wrong with society to the point people feel so bad about being alone that they kill themselves? It’s so tragic. They were valuable people on their own.

But anyway, I’m minding my own business, thinking about shit, but then someone brings the topic of relationship (not to mention the eldest in my family who think I’m straight and will have kids while I’m a lesbian and also actively thinking about getting rid of my uterus if I have any chance to so) and then suddenly I feel like shit, and worthless. And not all of them have bad intetntions. Like, my friends would tell me I will find a girlfriend to cheer me up. And literally some people are shocked when I say I’m not looking for someone (like girl I’m not leaving home except for work and groceries do you really think I’m searching except for food???) and I’m like “Whyyyy? What’s so shocking???”. Also personally, I think it is really weird to share your bed with someone’s else like every fucking night??? How do you sleep???? My cat already takes too place... Also how do you do when you need to be alone in your bed??? Anyway, I’m digressing...

But basically, yes thank you to the aro community because they are literally the only people who don’t make everything about romantic love. I’m not sure about using the aro term for myself, because you know, maybe one day I’ll realize I’m not??? Maybe some day, after all someone will find me? Or maybe not? Who knows? But right now I’m very happy about accepting that I absolutely don’t need a relationship to feel complete. And the fact that aromantic is a term that helps me feel like “this is not an illness, that’s something other people experience and yes it has a name!” is great. It’s funny cause I’m not new to the term, but the idea of a romantic monogamous relationship is so deep in me, that I didn’t thought it could apply to me, and I directly thought, “nah something is fucked up with me”.

Also I do want meaningful relationships, just not romantic ones. Actually I am constantly seeking for a deep bond with a few people. I crave intimacy, but not this one...

Also I just wish for people who want to share a big house, with one room for each to be at peace, one good wifi connexion (non negociable)0, and just want to have nice meals, and watch lotr extended version (but other movies are allowed) and basically doing stuff together when we wants, we would have cats (also totally non negociable) but being alone when we wants too, and with no obligation other than like.... paying the bills (but fuck who you want, fuck who you like etc.,), and just knowing that we would have each other we need comfort.

#misc #aromantism #i miss my roomate and i having deep conversation about space at 3am lmao #that was so great #being able to talk openly about anything #and tbh i think you can talk the best with friends #we're still close friends even though we live far #but really when i'm feeling alone #im not necessarily thinking about having a gf to be with me #just someone to talk to anything (no physical contact)#knowing they are here #sometimes going into each other room to discuss #but also having our space #also this time i would do right and make a list for everyone and everything that has to be done #so if you like lists...#to refer from my previous post #single in english doesn't sound nearly as bad as when someone refers to me as single in french lmao #also I'm embracing the crazy cat lady concept #pls just give me the money to have an ominous mansion in the middle of nowhere and people are scared of me and my army of black cats #suicide tw

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I'd watched a movie, one of those real weird art-house type deals, and was reading Letterboxd reviews afterward to try and piece together what the fuck I'd just looked at, and what threw me at first was that people were calling it a love story, because the characters were... well, just kind of fucked up, because a traumatic event had brought them together in the first place, which is of course a rocky foundation for a relationship, but it is a foundation for a relationship, it happens all the time, but their dynamic was just not at all what I'd interpret as... well, romantic, I guess. not that I'm any expert but I'll have you know, I've seen a lot of movies with romance in them lmao ~*

but the thing that I remembered is that... well, love is a neutral property. it's not inherently "good" and it doesn't automatically guarantee goodness, despite the intense amount of propaganda that would have us believe otherwise. ask people who study love for a living and they'll talk about the cocktail of chemicals that dance together in our brains, that seem to arise for reasons more arbitrary and less intelligently-designed than we're willing to admit. the presence of this cocktail doesn't [necessarily] drive us to do good. it drives us to seek more of those chemicals, by whatever means necessary. feeling love, ostensibly, makes you want to feel it more. sometimes the route to feeling more of it isn't a pleasant one for the other person involved. sometimes we were taught to get more love-feelings in not-so-nice ways. sometimes when we're traumatised, any sense of connexion is better than none. (and connexion can be symbiotic or it can be parasitic.)

so, sure, it was a love story. there are many love stories in the world and some of them are fucking awful. some of them end in tragedy. some of them begin in tragedy. some of them are rife with abuse and manipulation and codependency. but it's short-sighted of me or anyone else to say that those people didn't love each other, just because it doesn't fit our vision of what love should look like. the no-true-scotsman fallacy remains a fallacy no matter what it's applied to

everyone who participates in the act or art or science or religion (however one wants to think of it) of loving could stand to remember that their love is no less subject to corruption than anyone else's, and in fact the potential for corruption is inherent, and what makes loving an act (art, science, religion) is how diligently people strive to make their love into something good, something fulfilling, something that uplifts and comforts and delights.

and... not everyone who loves you is going to treat you well, and not everyone who treats you well is going to be comfortable with a love-based narrative. maybe decoupling love from automatic goodness is worth a try

#singularity.txt #just some Thots #from. you know. a mostly loveless individual lmao #but this kind of thing is partly WHY i identify that way #(the other part is i just don't experience the chemical cocktail thing with human people)#(but that'd be fine if this entire fucking planet wasn't so obsessed with that being the linchpin of relation)

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Thurs 4 Feb ‘21

Confirmation is here at last of Harry’s role in the film adaptation of My Policeman, brought to us by queer fave Greg Berlanti (and his husband). Harry will costar with Emma Corrin, who you may remember from the at the time inexplicable seeming Harry/Emma cross promo last August-- given the pains they took then to emphasize that the relationship was platonic, one assumes this film will go for a different promo tactic than the current one! They share a stylist though, so they’ll no doubt be beautifully coordinated. Harry will play Tom, which some people object to on the grounds that Harry is the wrong person to play the role of a closeted man which is certainly… one opinion. Aaaaand there’s plenty more of that discourse (and about him playing a policeman) to come over the coming months so I’ll just leave it there for now! Anyway and as for that current project, we got more DWD set pics today, featuring Harry in various costume outfits! There’s ones where his character looks bloodied, and ones where his character looks clean but absolutely terrifying, grown up frat boy from hell looks to give you CHILLS, plus some of Harry as Harry in a bright orange hoodie designed by his friend Kunichi Nomura.There was also {moustache spoilers} some weird facial hair on display. Okay then!

Project Defenseless has been launched to push Defenseless up in the streaming charts and push for radio play! The fan single project offers resources and organized pushes to get people streaming and promoting on all the platforms and reaching out to radio, and has fans making lots of very cool edits besides! “I see what you’re doing with defenseless! You are all incredible!” said Louis. That song is such a fitting choice for this kind of project! Its journey has been all about the fan response from back when Louis played it for us for the very first time in 2019 (it was the one everyone was screaming about from soundcheck clips for the few hours between that and hearing the songs for real even) and afterwards he told us about how although he’d always liked the song it clicked for him in a new way after getting the fan reaction, saying “something happened to it when I performed it live, and ever since then it really kind of got me,” and “the fans make everything sound amazing, they made it sound so good,” and “the fans for whatever reason really took to this song, so now it has a special place in me heart definitely”. Plus of course there was the long saga of fan stress when it seemed like it might not be on the album and rejoicing when Louis finally definitively confirmed that it would be, after what seemed like might have been a reversal on his part due to the outcry about it. And now she’s climbing all kinds of charts like a the star she is! The song shot up on itunes (#3 worldwide, #1 in 16 countries) just for starters and the project has only just got going. Louis commented on the stats-- “An album track off an album that’s a year old. You lot blow my fucking mind! Thank you so much!”

Louis also commented on a Jack Saunders (BBC indie music DJ) tweet and followed guitarist Johnny Took of the DMAs on twitter which is weird only in that he didn’t already.

There’s news about Zayn’s Zach Sang interview, and it’s not the most surprising news but it is very sad; Zach says “hi beautiful humans, this convo was scheduled for last week but we got a rain check from his team. this conversation can still happen, it ain’t over yet! we’ll keep ya in the loop. I listened to this album 7 times! we’re determined” Well... damn. However Zayn DID pop up with some spon-content but like… the WEIRDEST ad content?? It’s for Coors Light and, well I’ll let Zayn tell you about it! “They’re gonna see if they can put a commercial inside your dreams... which is kind of messed up.” HAHAHAHA I have nothing to add! What Zayn said!!! “So we’re gonna give that a go and uh see if it works,” he says, sounding appropriately skeptical, followed by “wish me luck”. Does this kind of sponcon count as malicious compliance? Technically he DID say the stuff he was supposed to- and he’s doing an instagram live for them Sat, supposedly. I can’t wait to see how that goes! Wish him luck! The latest installment of the NIL comic book video series is also out today, but just one this time instead of a pair. This week’s song is Connexion and the new comic shows us that the figure pursuing our hero is, drumroll-- himself! The call is coming from inside the house!

Unlike interview shy Zayn, however, Gigi is out there ready to overshare, as long as it’s to Vogue. She has plenty to say about giving birth to zaby Khai (newly revealed nickname: Khaiba) at home at the Pennsylvania farm. The article says that they decided to have the birth at home due to COVID placing restrictions on hospital births that would have prevented Bella and Zayn and Yolanda all being present, and after she and Zayn watched the documentary The Business of Being Born. “They placed a blow-up bath in their bedroom and sent their three cats and border collie away when the midwife expressed concern that the sphynx and Maine coon felines might puncture the tub with their claws,” the interviewer learns while horseback riding with Gigi. The article also says Zayn “caught the baby” but it isn’t a direct quote from Gigi and I’m thinking a bit of an exaggeration perhaps. Gigi had the baby at the Hadid family farm but she and Zayn have since relocated to live at his farm, which is nearby, where they say they will be raising the child, with Z’s mom Trisha coming to stay to help out for the first month, that Khai sleeps with them, and that Zayn said his experience of the whole thing reminded him of the birth in a lion documentary they’d watched. Neither mentioned it but it has been spotted that Gigi and Zayn each now have tattoos of the name, Khai, in Arabic.

Meanwhile, Niall surfaced only in golf guy mode- a Modest Golf announcement and a podcast appearance to promote the new Modest initiative to get young people into playing golf. He says they want to “get rid of that thing that’s been holding golf back for a long time, that it’s a boring sport…” and I know he means he’s trying to combat that idea but when I tell you I LAUGHED!

#Harry styles #louis tomlinson #zayn #niall horan #a week before Louis confirmed that Defenseless would be on Walls he said in an interview that the rock version of Just Hold On was on the al #album #it seemed like that got bumped in favor of defenseless due to fan rallying #there had been things he’d said that made us think defenseless wasn’t on the album #which UNFORTUNATELY I COULD NOT FIND which is very annoying but I remember that there was a reason we thought that #he had said some things #Barry McGee #the degrees of separation between Harry and myself get thinner every day but will I ever meet him? NO :(#tbh do I even want to in some weird awkward way maybe also no but still sigh #4 feb 21 #greg berlanti #the zaby #Kunichi Nomura #emma corrin #jack saunders #johnny took #zach sang #project defenseless #zigi #gigi hadid #me: just peacefully trying to crank out a huge post about the history of defenseless and fans #stuff: KEEPS HAPPENING all DAY

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azumilaselo · 3 years

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Hellooo!~ Can I ask for Jack Howl with a shy Ignihyde S/O, fluffy headcannons please! Tysm! <3

Hi! Thanks for this request. I don't know exactly what fluffy means, is it SFW, NSFW? I don't remember, so I did SFW!

Warnings: gn!reader, lovely reading moment, confidence +100! 💗

Character: Jack Howl

💞

-When you guys met, there already was a powerful connexion between you two.

-Him being a little reserved as well, Jack saw himself in your personality. That's one of the reason he knew how to act near you, unlike some of the students that just found you "weird" for being too intimidated in certain situations.

-Jack became your best friend as well as your personal guardian.

-You two always do some lovely walks together before his bedtime, it's really calming for both of you. You like it because nobody is around, at this moment you feel like Jack and yourself are the only two left in this wonderland.

-Even if you guys have totally different dorms, you don't see it as a problem and always find out a way to see eachother more and more; on breaks, lunchtime, maybe common classes, and of course night time.

-He likes to warp you in his arms, he feels like is protecting all of your being, your body and your soul.

-You were so flustered to see that he could hide you just when hugging, you seem small next to him, even if you have above the body average size (weight and height💗).

-He was embarrassed at first, but loves to kiss your nose and cheeks. Sometimes it even feels like little licks and it tickles, making you laugh softly and him asking if he did something wrong.

-He loves you, your personality, your body, your being. He adores everything about you and can't get enough quality time at your side.

-Elo

#twisted wonderland x reader #disney twst #twisted wonderland imagines #twistedwonderland #twst #jack howl x reader #jack x reader #jack howl #azumilaselo

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ectora · 3 years

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So, after the post of season 2, I decided to continue with season 3. I wanted to do Until episode 9 cause that’s the strict half but I knew there was along break after episode 10 so I was like let’s do until ten. For the second part, I might do it for every episode separately in some sorte of episode review or whatever, or just wait for the end of the season and do a global season 3 post. We’ll see I guess, I’m an indecisive so I hate taking decisions lmao. Anyway, let’s get to it.

Screen time

Macy : 3h03m10s (10/10)

Mel : 2h47m12s (10/10)

Maggie : 2h40m57s (10/10)

Harry : 2h09m34s (10/10) (+Jimmie 7m37s)

Abigael : 47m40s (5/10)

Jordan : 1h02m24s (9/10)

Again, those numbers are not to the second but scene wise. The only time I would separate the screen time in the scene itself was if the focus was completely on one character (vision + sound) and we know another character is there but we don’t really see them).

As before, here a graph of the screen time per episode for each character.

*harry and jimmie’s screen time are mixed for the graph but again, Jimmie’s is like 7 minutes.

And here a graph of all the characters screen time by episode so it’s more easily comparable.

Now, again, the screen time is pretty obvious on the fact the sisters are and stay the focus of the show. But far. Though I’m Ngl, I was really surprised to see Maggie being the last of the three sisters. She had way more screen time in season 2 but idk in season 3 it also felt like she was also a bit ahead. At least of Mel. But I think that’s a question of how they handle the story. I think Maggie is actually the one with the best treatment out of the three sisters, with the more consistent development. So maybe that’s why she feels more present. Because she’s actually getting development. Mel, imo, can’t really say the same. She doesn’t have that much more screen time than Maggie and yet, to me, she feels a lot more less developed. Macy had her story focused around men last seasons. And if this season hasn’t fixed that issue when it comes to Hacy imo, I do feel she gets a bit more personal development. But still, Maggie feels the most developed to me.

Jordan is more present in the story so that’s good. I love him and I hope they can find him a good place in the story as a human because he’s a sweetheart. To be honest however, he could have a bit more screen time Ngl. Same can be said for Abigael. I personally have the feeling that the story she has now wasn’t necessarily planned if I’m being honest, which is why it feels so detached. And obviously she needs to have her story more liked to the main storyline and TCO so her presence can be more natural and cohesive. However when you think about it, half the episode when we’re half way through the season, for a regular/main character, it’s a bit weird. I hope going forward, they’ll fix both these issues. Have her be in more episode and linking her to the main story.

Detailed screen time

As I did last time, here are the tables with their detailed screen time with each other main characters.

* group means 2+ characters of the core six that doesn’t involve all three sisters.

To be honest, these tables brought light on issues we - I think- were already aware of. Mel/Macy for example is basically inexistant. It’s really sad to see them barely share scenes just the two of them. Like Mel and Maggie have really nice scenes together where we can see them talk and bond. Macy has that sometimes with Maggie too. But Mel and Macy ? We barely even know what their relationship is if I’m being honest. Like it feels like Maggie and Mel have each other and they make Macy have Harry. He is her one to go, the one they develop her relationship with the most which, imo opinion, shouldn’t be the case.

It brings me to my next point. I know it’s only half season but TCO purely together isn’t even the biggest screen time anymore. Hacy actually is. Love them or not, that’s not the topic, I think there is the need of a discussion about how they slowly shifted the focus of these two characters toward each other. The pairing isn’t an issue, the way it’s handled kinda is. Because at the end of the day it’s also a disservice to both of them. I know COVID is to be taken into account and that they’re limited in the interaction and that Harry is the most integrated of the three main supportive characters but it is still an issue. Even in the story, Harry is all about his relationship and sometimes forgets his duties. Macy’s first thought is basically Harry. They could have used some of this time to develop further the sisters between themselves. Like Maggie and Mel don’t feel as centred on their romance while Macy definitely feels like it’s the major characteristic of her character right now. Same with Harry.

In a general manner however, they’ve been doing better with the sisters sharing scenes that aren’t all about fighting but there is still some serious work to be done. As said, Mel and Maggie for example have some nice scenes where it’s a bit more domestic. They talk about their actual lives more. Maggie has that a bit with Macy too but it’s mostly Mel/Maggie. While Macy talks to Harry.

When it comes to their personal time, by that I mean without the core six, they have around the same time so that’s good. Tho again, as I said before, they have around the same time but it feels like some character just have better written development.

I’m also glad to see Jordan and Abigael share screen with a bit more characters but also would like to have more mix between the mains. It’s almost odd at this point to see Jordan interact with anyone else than Maggie and Harry. I loved his episode with Macy but it almost felt random because he shared 90% of his time with Maggie. Abby it’s a little bit less the case because I feel like in season 2 she had the opportunity to share scenes with all of them (and I want more cause I love it) but now I would like to see her interact with others more too.

PAIRINGS

Hacy : 53m11s

Joggie : 18m18s

Abimel : 12m37s

Melby : 5m58s

That’s probably one of the things that annoy me the most in the show so bare with me.

Let’s start with the small things. I’m Ngl, I’m a bit confused about Maggie. Jordan is pretty obviously supposed to be her love interest I think we can all agree on that. I don’t know if they’re trying to throw some love triangle drama or fake drama with Antonio but well. In any case, I think they’re just a bit more slow burn. And I do think they’re actually the best written romance in the show since the beginning. Maggie never feels centred around Jordan. And tho Jordan does majorly gravitates around Maggie, he also gets a story and development. And yet their love connexion is obvious. Don’t know why they can’t do that with others.

I think I made my issue with Hacy rather clear. Not the ship itself but the way the show does it. I mean their time is clearly superior to everyone else (and i know it’s because Harry is technically the fourth character in terms of importance and is integrated in the story but still, I think there are still things to be fixed about this) and I think the way the show tend t have these two continuously gravitate around each other first is a disservice and just too much at this point. Like in ten episodes they have had more than the entirety of season 2. I’m pretty sure it means something.

Which leads me to my last point. And the most annoying one. Mel. It’s a whole other level. The show has a serious issue on their hands. Mel is the only sister that isn’t straight. And her relationship are not even remotely treated the same as her sisters. Season 2 was one thing. But season 3 makes it so painfully obvious. And it’s not ok. She has two potential ships. And yet, the screen time of these two combined is barely above Maggie’s with Jordan. And not even half Hacy’s. And that’s a genuine issue. I need the show to start treating their lgbt relationship the same way they do the straights. I’m tired of ghosts. I’m tired of unseen. I’m tired of two dimensional. Of the lack of development. Or the unbalance with her sisters. It’s enough.

Talking about her potentiality, the show definitely has me confused with the whole Abimel/Melby situation. They’re hinting hard on the first one while keeping the second in the background. Which is entirely confusing. And low key a problem too. Because yes I ship Abimel but I do think Melby deserves better. And if the show is just keeping melby while they can develop Abimel then that’s just weird too.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, Melby just doesn’t feel like a relationship the show has any interest of putting effort in. Ngl, when Mel said at ClexaCon that the writers didn’t really give them backgrounds or anything, it didn’t sound like freedom, it sounded like they just didn’t care enough to develop it. Sometimes, it almost feels like they just kept it around because of the Abigael backlash, so have a sapphic relationship while they can develop something else on the side. Ruby has a charming actress so she has that working for her, but her character is very superficially developed, they didn’t bother to give her depth and it doesn’t feel like it was meant to last with the whole not wanting to be involved in magic thing. I’m not trying to bash anyone or any ship, but that relationship does feel very superficial in terms of writing. And honestly if they’re just keeping it around while building something else, it’s in itself annoying due to the nature of the relationship. Like at that point it’s not even the bare minimum.

Abimel seems more build up already. They’ve been hinting at it since season 2, poring them all the time. The lines. The tensions the chemistry. The connexion. It genuinely feels like that’s were they were going toward. Because it just makes sense. It also makes sense in terms of pairing. All three sisters have their love interest in the main cast. Enemies to lovers trope. As said, it makes sense. But also who actually knows. Because let’s be honest, the show has an history with not treated sapphics the same way as straights. Which is even more obvious in this first part of the season and looking at the numbers. Again I understand Ruby is not a regular (which reinforce my previous points). But likes. That’s what brings me to say again and again that at this point, the show needs to either actually commit to that relationship and make Ruby an actual part of the show or let it go. Because what we have right now ? Not ok. Because they give us zero energy. And I’m pretty sure that if they wanted to actually do more, they definitely could have. Right now, the show is under a pretty bad light when it comes to lgbt characters and their treatment. It’s a bit ridiculous and it’s just not right.

Anyway, I think this concludes my rant. I’m sorry it’s very, very long and for WHAT 😭 I have too much time on my hands I’m telling you. Anyway, if you read all of that I hope you’re enjoyed but also you probably, too, have too much time.

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Major Light in the Mist spoilers !

Okay so I just finished the last The Broken Book, and BOI do I have opinions..

First and foremost : So much fighting for no reason in my opinion !! Why do they always have to fight each other so much, and more importantly battles that we don’t really care about ? Sure it’s interesting at first that they have to fight the possessed spirits, because it’s dangerous as they were former clanmates or loved ones, but afer one or two fights yeah we got the drill dude maybe we could sitch from the whole fight / flight receipe and think of clever strategies instead.. IDK Also I was quite stunned by the fact that our protagonists didn’t have to hunt even once in these books it’s been a while since we didnt see them patrol or hunt at all, it felt kinda weird for some reason, but I’m pretty neutral on that one.

I liked the bit where Bristleforst or Rootspring (can’t remember wich one) clearly read their opponent’s strategy while being chased, comparing it to rabbit hunt, it was a nice and interesting take !!

________ I hope I wasn’t the only one who was disapointed by the Starclan patrol that was sent to help the main characters in the dark forest ?

I mean we were teased this whole final battle between good and evil kinda like we had in the Great Battle and Starclan sends what, 8 cat total maybe ? Isn’t Starclan supposed to be filled with some of the greatest warriors of all time ? It would have been such a nice way to introduce iconic mythology !

also Where are the Sisters gone after the battle and everyone awakes ? Did I skip a chapter or did they just dissapear ? Why the heck is Darktail here ??? Why bring Darktail back ? What’s the point, what’s his opinion on the whole thing, what’s his deal in this fight and what does he win in this ?

WHERE WAS YELLOWFANG ?? Why didn’t we get a proper apology / aknowledgement of her mistake ? Where is Bluestar ?? These were presented to us as important Starclan figures for a while and none of them is present to explain the whole Ashfur deal.

Also what was the point of the “connexion” between Shadowsight and Ashfur ? what did they have in common exaclty except that Shadowsight had to take care of him as the impostor in Shadowclan and being fooled by him time and time again ? Why did Shadowsight see himself so much in Ahsfur when we KNOW he was just tricked and lied to the whole time ? Is this supposed to be a metaphor for abuse victims being hurt by their abusers, leaving them broken after the relationship end ? Then how is Shadowsight losing his connexion to Starclan supposed to be a “good ending” ? The kid’s just scared for life, forever, and wont be able to heal from it for no reason. I guess I feel kinda robbed with Shadowsight’s ending too, because since we clearly know that it was Starclan’s fault that Ashfur gained so much power and got a possibility to endanger everyone this bad, why does Shadowsight have to get punished and be held “responsible” in so many ways by loosing his connection to Starclan in the end ? What did he do wrong, trying to please his ancestors the whole time and beliving blindly in a Clan that end up putting him aside like wet cardboard ??

Also Bramblestar should have just retired, since they clearly don’t want him to die for SOME REASON ? Please make him take a stand back especially if ther leaders where suspicious of him after his time in the Dark Forest, what better way for him to end than to finaly let Squirelflight shine after everything she’s been throught just to save his ass ?

#warriors #warriorcats #lightinthemist #thebrokencode #erinhunter #shadowsight #rootspring #rambling #justtalking #metalking #idk #i'm confused and angry I guess #there's so much more to add but I can't find a trail of thoughts honestly #might come back later to post MORE

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elmaxlys · 3 years

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In which Ainosuke and Kiriko met in high-school. Kiriko was that person always studying with few friends, Ainosuke was the rich and cool kid. It was a good private school, quite expensive, Ainosuke's family just payed, Kiriko got in with a scholarship.

Despite his popularity, Ainosuke rarely hangs out with the rest of the class but people don't mind because he sneaks in alcohol and cigarettes or something. The only times he's allowed to stay later is with the excuse of a group project: rare are the students who ever went to his house. He's very secretive and even when they have PE, no one has ever seen him shirtless.

Next to that you have Kiriko, always working her ass off and she's in a one sided rivalry with him over grades. He keeps placing first yet Kiriko knows he fools around all the time so she lowkey hates him.

Idk whether to make it a full AU or a past hc, depending of that it could go different ways.

1) past hc

Because of his background as a politician's son, rich, smart and going to study abroad - yet smoking and drinking whenever possible, and never getting caught by the teachers - Kiriko was suspicious of him as soon as she found out he was going into politics when they met again in uni, immediately branding him with the (future) corrupt politician label.

Because they met again in uni. There, they somehow ended up spending a bunch of time together. This is when Ainosuke started calling her Kamakiri. She always hated that. She thought he was too confident, she hated his attitude so she would have preferred to avoid him but the guy was involved about everywhere. Plus, since his dad was a politician and he was rich af, everyone wanted connections with him. Kiriko was still always studying and working, so that's how Ainosuke remembers her. He knew all along she didn't like him very much but he didn't mind because she always stayed polite and sometimes gave him the benefit of the doubt (that is until she found out he was involved with Takano and bribing cops). Still, he thinks it's funny to mess with her (hence ep6 :3)

2) full Adakiri AU 😊

As long as they're high school student, they don't grow much close. Kiriko is annoyed by him, Ainosuke barely knows she exists - he's more preoccupied with skateboarding and hiding it from his family and she's more interested in keeping her grades up anyway.

Then he's transfered and finishes high-school abroad. Kiriko forgets him, everyone is sad bc he was a useful and charismatic dude.

They meet again in uni. As above, they keep meeting everywhere because everyone wants connexion with the Shindo guy, you know? At first, Kiriko is like great he hasn't changed. But little by little she notices he actually has changed. He still offers to pay when they go eat in groups but he only smokes when he thinks no one can see him, and he rarely ever drinks. She notices that he seems always hyper aware of his surroundings and that his smile is super fake. He doesn't trust, doesn't rely on people. Kiriko is like what the hell happened to him in a year? that's scary. But he always keeps a front and they're not close so she can't really ask him, can she?

Anyway study group session with a bunch of people, it keeps going super late and in the end they're the only ones left awake. They decide to take a break and it's awkward, with just them there. They don't have much in common so to find a subject of conversation they start talking about high school and they talk a good chunk of the night and they're actually having fun. Ainosuke remembers she was nicknamed Kamakiri by their classmates back then and picks it back up. She says she hates him for that but there's no bite.

After that, they start hanging out more often. He's more open about his smoking habits around her, too. She's quite observant so she notices. Their friendship progresses.

After some time, she finds out he likes skateboarding, he teaches her the basics when they're taking breaks from studying. She doesn't like it much but he's having fun. After a while, he invites her to S. She goes by Mantis and doesn't skate herself, she's a spectator and ADAM's friend. She gets to meet Tadashi and she thinks it's weird that even though he clearly disapproves of S he still does whatever Ainosuke wants in regards to it. She doesn't pry further.

They grow up, Kiriko is the 2nd person after Tadashi who knows the truth about him and who sees him unmasked. She doesn't know much about his family, tho. He still becomes a politician, she still becomes a cop. She helps keeping S open. If I keep going it'll morph into EDENMantis so I'm stopping there ❤️

#anxiety acting up so i'm rambling #sk8 the infinity #sk8 adam #shindo ainosuke #kamata kiriko #adakiri #sk8 fic #sort of #so i can find it again

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animescenarios · 4 years

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I saw that the request box was open 👀 so I will ask a scenario with the GOM+Haizaiki during Teiko times who develops a sudden big crush for a girl they hated ( she felt the same for them) while in fact they could have been friends before and that they always had a sort of connexion but for childish reasons they started to become ennemies ?! Their feelings are so heavy and it's difficult for them ( the crush too) to admit, they don't know what to do! Hope you understand my idea 🥺 🥰thanks.

I’m not sure if I described the confusion in their feelings well enough but well, I tried! Hopefully it’s not as bad as I think but let me know~

The memories kept ringing in his head. How did it all start? When? He’s never realized how far it has gone, even though it started off innocent and small. But for some reason you became so mean to each other, every time he’d see you there would be exchanging gazes and making comments. And looking back, he had no idea why it’s like this. Other people must’ve thought there’s something heavy between you two, meanwhile he couldn’t even remember what was the reason in the first place. And you probably couldn’t either.

And as if it wasn’t enough, he began to think that maybe… just maybe, he has some kind of feelings for you. But how was he supposed to tell this to his enemy?

How childish.

“That’s it, I’m finally gonna end this today” the thoughts were there in his mind for the whole eye-opening night. Why has he never noticed what was going on? And would you, if he explains and apologizes? For some reason he still despised you, he really did, but seeing your smile directed at other people made his heart flutter.

Approaching you, he took a deep breath and noticed your glare. It’s going to be even more difficult than he thought, huh?

Kuroko: “Hi Y/N-san” he started off friendly, as if nothing has ever happened between you two. “Can I sit here?”

You slowly nodded and shrugged, glancing at him suspiciously from the corner of your eye. You focused back on your phone and tried to ignore Kuroko’s presence but the boy spoke up a minute later.

“Hey, I’m sorry for all this. I guess I really crossed the line a few times” his words made you roll your eyes. “But really, sorry. I don’t want to fight anymore”

“Oh” you let out, looking at Kuroko surprised and felt your mind give in noticing the small smile on his face.

“Can we do this?” he said, meeting your eyes. Can you? You really didn’t expect him to ask.

“I don’t know. Let’s just try, I guess. Though it’s gonna be weird” you noticed.

“But better” Kuroko replied, standing up.

True, you thought. Finally you were about to grow up and move on.

Kise: “Y/N” he spoke up, trying to seem casual and returning your gaze. His heart was so loud in his ears you could probably almost hear it too.

“What do you want?” your voice was harsh, not used to the tone he just pronounced your name with. Kise sighed deeply, reconsidering his decisions.

“Listen, let’s finally end this”

“What? Do you think I’m your girlfriend or something?” you asked with a fleer. He clenched his teeth.

“You can be if you want” he teased, regaining his confidence. He had no choice but to cover up his true mixed feelings with playfulness. What he didn’t expect though was your awkward expression.

“You’re being stupid now, you know that? Why are you even talking to me?” you glared again.

“Because I want us to stop fighting like children. I’m sorry, okay? Even if you don’t accept, I won’t be mean anymore. How about it?”

Your surprised face was enough of an answer. Finally, he did something well.

Midorima: “Look who’s here, Mr. Smartass” you mocked his expression as he fixed his glasses. First step was done, he approached you. But what now?

“I’m sorry”

“What?” you raised your brows, not believing your ears. “Excuse me?”

“I said I’m sorry. For acting so stupid for this whole time. I don’t know if you’d like it but let’s forget about all that and start again”

He became silent and watched as you kept glancing at him, speechless. Well, he’s already made a fool out of himself, right? So maybe it wouldn’t hurt to make it worse?

He reached out his hand, ready for you to shake it, which you slowly did, still very hesitant. Both of you were thinking the same – why didn’t you do this earlier?

“So what, do we just forget all the ugly situations? How is that even possible?”

Midorima looked you in the eyes and slightly shrugged.

“I don’t know. But we can try, right?”

Aomine: “Oi, Y/N” he exclaimed, poking your arm when you tried to ignore him approaching, making you flinch and send him an offended look.

“What?!”

“Let’s stop being stupid”

“Excuse me? Talk for yourself, idiot”

This whole situation made you so confused. Why did he approach you like that when all this time you’ve been avoiding each other? Any time you two found yourself in one room, it would end with a fight, both your personalities making it impossible to move on without a mean comment.

“I said” Aomine came even closer, looking down to meet your eyes. “Let’s stop being stupid. Don’t tell me you haven’t noticed how dumb we are with all this arguing”

You frowned at his words. In fact, you just recently started thinking the same. Your feelings towards Aomine were very mixed and being mean helped you cope with having a crush on him. But what now?

“Alright” you said slowly. “But if you start being a moron again, I won’t hold back”

Murasakibara: Approaching you, who has been so mean to him for the past months, was already a lot. He was acting like a child paying you back for this, now he could see that but still, weren’t you going to laugh at him for doing this?

Talking with his friends about it, he knew their opinions that encouraged him to at least try. But trying meant 50% chances that he’ll just make a fool out of himself. Was it worth it? Those weird feelings for you he noticed recently said yes.

Murasakibara came up to you standing alone and ignored your glare. You expected everything but not what happened next.

He plopped his big hand on top of your head.

“I forgive you”

“What the heck?!” you swatted it away and looked up at him, annoyed.

“I forgive you for being so mean to me. You won’t do this again, right? And I won’t be mean back to you so we can stop fighting”

What did he just say?

Akashi: He knew all along that his behavior was childish. He knew well that deep inside he wanted to be closer with you, get to know you more and at least once become the target of your beautiful smile you showed everyone but him. On the other hand, he knew you hated him. Or at least really, really didn’t like.

Seeing you alone, it became a great opportunity to finally change your relationship and stop fighting. That is, if you’d want it too.

“Y/N-san” he spoke up and you jumped up, hearing his unusual tone. Where did it come from?

“I’m deeply sorry for acting rude towards you for the past year. I know it’s not easy to forget but I just wanted you to know that I won’t be doing this anymore”

You were speechless, not expecting him to apologize. Looking at him, you noticed how genuine his gaze was and your heart skipped a beat.

“Well… I guess I can try?”

He smiled. Even small progress was fine.

Haizaki: “Don’t look at me like this, it’s creepy. You’re creepy” you said as soon as he approached you, not trusting his weird smile. What was he about to do and say this time?

He raised up his arms, implying he’s giving up.

“You won”

What? - you thought and said just that.

“I said that you won” he leaned over your ear and spoke louder, tapping your head. “Hello, is anyone home?” you swatted his hand away and glared.

“I heard you. But why did I win? For making you look stupid?”

“Not this time, honey” you cringed at the sarcastic name. “I’m done messing with you. Congrats”

“Huh?” his words made you confused but Haizaki just waved and left, leaving you alone with your thoughts.

Was he for real? No, he couldn’t be. It’s probably another prank. But is it? You looked at his back from a distance and wondered. If so, would you finally be able to make up? You really hoped so.

#kuroko tetsuya #kise ryouta #midorima shintarou #aomine daiki #murasakibara atsushi #akashi seijuro #haizaki shougo #generation of miracles #kuroko no basket

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