#someone threw hate at me

[xero013]

"You could never get rid of us."

"Of course I can't."

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(Added this to the recent chapter of the collection)

#nimbasa trio #submas #nimbasabattleshipping #conductorshipping #subway boss ingo #subway boss emmet #gym leader elesa #subway boss nobori #subway boss kudari #elesa #thirdrailshipping #they are living in my head rent free #they're so soft for each other #flustered elesa will never not stop being something i love #you just got this confident girlboss who's got it all #but melts immediately when near her lovers #god i wish that were me— #someone threw hate at me #Spite gives me motivation to draw #and so I drew this in retaliation

[satans-knitwear]

My eyes are up there ^^ keep going, at the top. 👀

Treat me ~ Tip Me ~ More of me

#It's a good hat. We're all looking at the hat. #But also my hips look very nice. Someone should get their hands on those. #cheeky #satans knitwear #girls with piercings #alt pinup #pinup girl #Mesh lingerie #bi girl #uk girl #Pupdate: my babydog is still poorly and not eating. Am up every hour giving her water with a baby syringe #She threw up bile a bit last night but she has managed to eat some yoghurt today. Her course of meds ends tomorrow so we shall see #My poor little baby is not having a good time. My heart hurts so much. #She still wags when she sees me tho so she doesn't hate me for forcibly hydrating her or inflicting gross medicine on her

[moeblob]

Surgery is at 9:45 (finally, thank the heavens cause I'm going insane here at how bad hospital communication is) so! Pen doodles before I'm drugged up on anesthesia.

OCs of mine as a comfort in my suffering (and it's easier in pen bc they're boring designs unlike fanart I'd want to draw).

#my characters #its been a miserable experience tbh #the surgeon kept putting off surgery bc of other tests that he wanted #which would be fine if the stuff ever got done #i was told monday that i couldnt eat after midnight #fine cool i get it then i was brought food i had to turn away #then they told me surgery wouldnt happen and im like cool its been #16 hours since i was last given food can i have something #and three people said yes #then someone came to get me to one of the tests #so that took over an hour and then i was miserable and hungry #and then instead of clear liquid diet the doctor said i could have #any liquid not just clear so that was cool until i threw it up hours later #and im pretty sure after not being allowed food OR water or anything for 17 hours #my body wasnt expecting it at all so yeah. wild #i hate eating as is and put it off as long as i can but #17 hours is a long time when you cant sleep bc pain or discomfort

[minnesota-fats]

Yay i did it

#fun #cute #:3 #dcxdp #dcxdp fic #dcxdp ship #dcxdp spirithalloween #still hate that ship name tbh #hell ozzy Osborne would have been a better ship name #dead bat #get it #cuz ozzy bit the head off of a dead bat someone threw at him on stage #ignore me #its late #i need sleep #… #headlessbat #owo #uwu #fic #fanfiction #danny fenton/bruce wayne #fluff

[astrogenica]

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#all caps #vent #vent post #venting #text post #failure #fear of failure #low self worth #mental illness #<< admin tags #IM A FAILURE IM A FAILURE IM A FAILURE #I NEVER AMOUNTED TO ANYTHING #I CRUSHED MY FAMILYS DREAMS OF FINANCIAL SECURITY WITH MY SELFISHNESS #I THREW AWAY RELATIONSHIPS I CHERISHED JUST BECAUSE I WAS FUCKING SAD #I WORRY EVERY DAY IS THE DAY MY HUSBAND LEAVES ME #I STILL DONT HAVE KIDS OR A HOUSE OR EVEN A FUCKING DOG #I NEVER WENT TO GRAD SCHOOL #IM TOO SICK TO HAVE HOBBIES OUTSIDE MY OWN HOME #I CAN'T EVEN MAINTAIN MY HOME #THE ONLY THING I WAS EVER GOOD FOR WAS MY BRAINS BUT I LOST THEM #I HAVENT CREATED ANYTHING BEAUTIFUL OR PROFOUND OR WORTHWHILE #I HAVENT MADE BANK #I HAVENT DONE ANYTHING TO MEDICALLY TRANSITION #IVE NEVER KISSED A GIRL #I STILL CANT AFFORD TO VISIT MY NEPHEW #I STILL BARELY KNOW MY SISTER #I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE #SOMEONE LET ME OUT OF MY OWN HEAD I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE

[girlwithfish]

my ex literally did treat me like a rag doll like literal wife beater vibes something was wrong with him <3

#abuse tw #like no its not normal to shake ur partner so hard n being careless w them 'accidentally' hurting them ie when my head wld hit the wall #after he threw me into a chair and wld just shake me and id get punished and gaslit and psychologically manipulated if i ever resisted or #spoke against him or got physical back #LOL #and hed cry abt being a man saying he hates hiw society views him as a man and automatically thinks hes abusive like #if ur acting like that girl like yeah stop the pity party nd u sound like an incel or something. #not normal to grab someone or push them into a chair or couch (resulting in the couch leg breaking as well as the chair breaking cuz of how #forceful hed be with me and wld force me down if i tried to get up like WHAT????? #how did i eber think him just being aggressive and violent was ever normal or like my fault lolol. brainwashed

[fisheito]

@milkeumilkeou so far i have 5/8 and the only one that has a story to it is the foxy tantrum (more on that in the tags...)

#rusted nation #i am missing numbers 2/3/6 #will extra hilarity or sadness find me in those stories :):):):):)))) we shall see #when i read the shipwreck note i just imagined #was kuya worse at controlling his form back in the day #like he was too tired by nightfall so he just reverted to his foxy self for honkshoo bedtime #but this sailor saw him and kuya threw a fit like those mythical creatures who pride themselves on their rarity #so kuya's all How Dare plebian eyes grace my vessel u must all perish for this transgression #or. wait. did kuya have fox self esteem issues back then #so was it more like someone walking into a teen's room uninvited #while the teen is trying to cover up their pimples in the mirror #so now they're embarrassed and hormonal and the only option is to lash out? #like GOD mom [drunk sailor] GET OUT OF MY ROOM!!!! *sets ship on fire* #i mean I'm glad that they survived (assuming) #but what was huey thinking... like sure kuya sink the ship doesn't matter to me either way #wait no THIRD hypothesis #kuya hates boats bc he gets seasick. not a water fox i guess #so he whines at huey and huey's like idgaf teleportation is not a thing right now and i want to tinker with these strange artifacts #while eavesdropping on the stories of all these stowaways #so kuya harrumphs and just sulks in the cabin until the sailor finds him and #ok well no that's the same story as the second hypothesis. it's just kuya getting embarrassed #and reacting with 12x more violence than he should to being discovered. #is he really so reactive? so baby? is this my vision of him? oh well

[rpcrimeboys]

Me after the genloss matpat video

#genloss #I hate everything #Slash negative btw #I dislike matpat already but this made me very upset #It feels like someone threw cold water on me

[bo0zey]

anyone else ever get in those silly goofy moods where u just hate urself sooo much that u instantly feel physically almost violently ill just thinking abt urself and also even tho u worked a 12hr shift w no breaks or water running off of the 2 cups of coffee u had for breakfast 20 hours ago, the thought of eating instantly sends bouts of nausea coursing thru ur soul while churning in ur stomach bc ur brain hates u so much that its convinced ur body that u don’t deserve sustenance or anything else that’s life sustaining or promotes ur physical well being because u subconsciously convinced urself that ur such a shit excuse for a human being that u neither deserve nor have any right to anything regarding maslow’s hierarchy of needs bc u r such an awful thing u deserve to be neglected n treated like the nonliving object ur own brain sees ur living body as or am i just mentally ill lol

#laying in bed everytime i think abt myself i feel literally nauseated n like it’s so weird #this feeling comes in waves intermittently just even .01 sec of ‘hm i’m hungry’ FFFFFNOPE HRRGRHFFF VOMITTY #i want to curl up in a ball and die forever i don’t care about me i don’t want to take care of me anymore i’m not even good at it #whyyyyyyyy did i stop taking my meddsssssss i guarantee y’all this is why i’m being such a crybaby on the dash lmaoooo #i have a headache i’m def dehydrated from crying n sniveling n barely drinking any water today while sweating like a mf at work #imma go to bed 🛌 if i don’t wake up i will be soooo pleasantly surprised y’all have no idea FINGERS CROSSED🤞 #real talk tho can someone tell me why my body is literally reacting this way for like no real reason #like am i truly that disgusted with myself i make myself nauseous just thinking abt me #ok yeah the answer is yes lol BUT LIKE WHY THATS SUCH A DRAMATIC BODILY RESPONSE TO MY BRAINS DUMBASS THOUGHTS??? #ik the body and mind have a super powerful link n the brain influences the body like crazy but like #why this why does my brain literally want me to berate and degrade myself and isolate me and make me cry alone n starve me that’s so mean #i’m not starving btw i’m literally always eating just these past 2 days i’ve been such a fuckup my body won’t let me do anything #i had a chocolate poptart for dinner last night (thurs) n threw myself to bed #i hope i don’t end up hurting myself that would be so lame #i literally don’t have time for that like i am Not doing wound care duty off the clock for my damn self lol #also don’t want to take care of myself so i wouldn’t bandage myself up properly sooo yeah i’m not gonna do anything actually #cleaning ur wounds r super important ok yall ur literally playing god if u don’t do good aftercare snfjfbdj #i can’t believe i’m in this nasty ugly depressive episode i hate this so much i don’t have time for this i hate this cycle #i hate being bipolar 2 n my moods n meds have been so fkcdd up lately that i don’t even have the rlly fun hypomanic episodes anymore #i’ve just been constantly having mixed episodes im unbearable to be around im so sorry for everyone that’s ever spoken to me im insufferable #ok that’s enough im done being dramatic lmao #im gonna give myself a bolus PRN dose of clonnie then i’m going tf to bed #ramblings #shut up cianna

[bootyful-seventeen]

Cozy rooms can be a double edged sword cuz one hand it is my sanctuary but on the other hand it relaxes me so much I never wanna move unless necessary

#making your room into your sanctuary takes some serious time and I’ve been here for almost a year now #and rn it’s just me trying to donate more clothes that I never bought but ended up in my room cuz I don’t need them #and so I can get rid of the dressers cuz I hate having so many bits of furniture I don’t want #but at least my grandma wants to empty tf out the garage so I can get some of my stuff that got chucked in there #😭😭 I’ll finally be able to use my rengoku and Tengen mugs again #and I can even reach the 4 candles I know someone stuck in the garage when I left them in my room #ooo and I can find the vinyls and maybe hit up a thrift store to see if anyone’s donated a record player #but that’ll probably come after I get myself a dvd player and a stand to prop my tv on #cuz for some reason my tv has this little ball sack of a recover point that juts out under the tv #and I don’t think any dvd player will fit with that thing in the way #but yeah she wants to empty the garage and I want to get rid of shit too so we’re gonna be having a garage sale soon I hope #and I even suspect that someone threw my kpop posters in the garage too but most of them were in the tube except maybe 1 or 2 #so I think they’d be safe for the most part but if not I’m gonna be mad that they got ruined when people know how easy it is to ruin posters

[bigolgay]

GUYSGUYSGUYSGUYS I FOUND A TIKTOK THATS SO FOR ME I CANNOT HANDLE IT I JUST JIGGED AROUND MY KITCHEN SK HAPPILY BECAUS EOH MY GOD

IVE ALWAYS HATED IT BUT NOW PRETTY PERSON SAYS IT CUTE SO NOW I DONT HATE AND OMG IM SO HAPPY HEHEHEHEHEH

I’ve watched it so many times now.

I’m literally acting like she said it directly to my face. I’m straight blushing bro what the hell.

Heheheheheh they think I’m cute and adorable and I’m gonna be riding off this high for the next 3 months. Be ready.

#like not to get sad #but I hate smiling in pictures because of it because it looks so silly to me #(silly face and closed mouth smiler right here folks💪💪💪) #and like I’m over 16 so I don’t get free dental care anymore and braces are… oh so expensive #so I was like kind of accepting I’d be stuck with it forever #BUT SHE THINKS ITS CUTE #THIS YEAR HAS BEEN WILD #FOR LIKE THINGS THAT USED TO BIG INSECURITIES OF MINE AND THEN TK FOND OUT THAT SOME PEOPLE ACTUALLY LIKE????? WHAT. #anyway #I’m gonna keep watching this now #this is probably the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me ever and she didn’t even say it to me #(although yesterday someone said that stars reflected off of the water reminds them of me and that was… good lawd. my heart😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨) #im gonna sob #actually no #I’m gonna sit on my kitchen floor and rewatch this video and blush to myself🫣🥲 #who threw the tennis ball!?!🎾

[seventh-district]

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#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw misogyny #cw period mention #cw vent #cw vent post #it’s one thing to know that someone hates you #but its another to hear them red-faced screaming it at you while you’re sobbing and shaking and- #-picking up 50 pieces of your scattered paperwork and the folder that they just threw and hit you with #i stood up for myself for once though and even though i was trembling like a chihuahua and openly crying. i feel better. #dare i say i feel stronger. it feels good to stand your ground for once. instead of letting a man stomp all over it #time and time that tumblr post with ‘Speak the truth even if your voice shakes.’ painted on the side of a barn.. it keeps ringing true #wish i could find that post again #also. i will personally fight any man that trivializes someone’s experience just because they’re currently menstruating #if you dismiss someone’s distress and pain just bc you know they’re on their period i will fucking fight you. i will throw literal hands #*Insufferable Cis Male mocking tone* ‘i must be on my period every day of my life then’ SHUT THE FUCK UP. SHUT YOUR SORRY MOUTH BEFORE I DO #OUR EXPERIENCES ARE NOT COMPARABLE AND THAT'S NOT WHY I'M LIKE THIS. I'D BE PISSED REGARDLESS #i will tear your dick off and shove it straight down your throat if you say that to me again #*deep breath* #okay that’s enough oversharing for one evening #to delete later #…perhaps #in other news Gunpowder and Lead by Miranda Lambert is a very very very good song #and that’s not some subtle hint at anything. i just think it’s a very good song that i haven’t listened to and appreciated in a long time #it holds more meaning to me now though. i Understand it now. when i was a child i didn’t really Get the lyrics. i do now. #it’s wild re-listening to all the country songs i grew up on. and realizing all the lyrics i heard back then would one day be relatable #its… something. and makes the music mean a lot more to me #i would make a list of which old country songs are like that for me but honestly just see my ‘Seven’ playlist. it’s got ‘em on there

[ferdieinceladoncity]

girl help I just watched torchwood end of days

#oogh #I hvae #so many thoughts! #okay first off gwen for a start broke me her actor is so. fucking good at hysteria #like omfg #I think I saw someone mention this on Tumblr like. earlier. but the way jack is so tender with her wiping blood off her hands. means a lot #overall other than that hated jack in this episode why does he suck #but I can live with that because I get to see gwen and tosh and Owen and ianto #Owen was so good! Owen standing up for himself! Owen's first though being to go and comfort gwen when he saw Rhys all dead! Owen crying int #jacks arms at the end #they got me cheering for Owen fucking harper man oh what's the world coming to #and you know what the awful cgi demon threw me out of it but i needed that. #I needed to be thrown out to collect my thoughts #but god fuck that cgi was! IT WAS SOMETHING! it was not good! #but everything before that was so peak #mine #torchwood

[marvelsswansong]

It's nearly midnight and I want to write another super long slow burn fic with Eddie based on "gold rush" by Taylor Swift

#summer says #I KNOW Y'ALL DONT WANT IT BC I JUST THREW UP THE 17K EDDIE FIC MESS THAT IS U MADE ME HATE THIS CITY BUT #PLEASE LIKE PINING EDDIE AND LIKE CHILDHOOD FRIENDS TO EVENTUAL LOVERS #I CAN SEE IT ALREADY SOMEONE STOP ME

[jvzebel-x]

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#when i was growing up my mom Only gave me incredibly inappropriate advice lmao. #i was raised by my toxic high school best friend-- except she was like that my whole life lmao. #she told me once to corner this girl i had problems w in the bathroom during class one day&beat the fuck out of her #&if i did to call my mom before i did it so she could call school&tell them she was taking me the period before so i had an alibi lmao. #she gossiped about me to my friends when she was angry w me-- something that actually ruined my life in a real way #when she was angry at me so she told a friend of mine i was cheating on my boyfriend at the time so that 'friend' told him #(she just wanted him to know he deserved better&she was there for him if he needed someone to talk to :)) #&he beat me almost to death+threw me off the back of his motorcycle lmao. #when i mentioned that he thought i was cheating on him to my mom bc of a friend telling him i was my moms immediate response was to #deny vehemently that she has anything at all to do w it-- something i had not thought of until right then&realized the time my then bf #thought i cheated on him my mom was the only person who knew i had gone out. shed actually threatened to tell him herself #bc i was out bc i was arguing w her at the time lmao. #every memory i have of that woman makes me feel queasy lmao. #every time she yelled at me&told me i was depressing&i ruined everything w my horrible attitude. #the time she told me she didnt want to wait for me while i was limping up stairs bc she was in a bad mood&we were late for a movie #she wanted to see so she literally stomped her foot before yelling at me to hurry up lmao. #every time she called me selfish&cruel&insisted that the problem in every relationship i had was me #ESP the relationship i had w her. #i miss my mom sometimes. i hate my mom a lot of the time. #but more than anything i am just so fucking grateful she's out of my life. #i dont think ive changed a whole lot at my core throughout my life but im absolutely positive cutting her out of my life made it possible #for me to be a better person just in general.