#sooooooooo heartbreaking

[forza-hamilton]

ITS RACE WEEK 🤠 (please don’t perceive me, I’m not doing well)

#I’m SOOOOOOOOO happy #bengals lost yesterday #I can’t take anymore heartbreak #honestly #I actually hate sports #F1? #NFL? #bad #at least I can be a hater #i🐍

[whoslaurapalmer]

okay!!! got my thoughts together about in stars and time!!! many spoilers.

spoiler-free review -- Wow, There Are Certainly Things That Happened In That There Time Loop !!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!! !!! ! ! ! !!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!! !!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ! !! !!!! ! ! ! ! this game broke my heart like six times. you should play it. heed those triggers though cause i probably maybe did not do that as much as i should have

-i! will think about this game for the rest of my life probably

-me at the beginning of the game, a seasoned player in shouting 'it's the human connection!!!!' at media, bc it's my favorite thing in the world: it's the human connection, siffrin!!!!!!!! talk to your friends!!!!!!! me at the end of the game: IT IS THE HUMAN CONNECTION. I AM IN TEARS. MY HEART IS IN PIECES -gets me every fucking time.

-odile: you loved us so much you were going to break the whole entire world and honestly that's cute. sif: :( -it's so much. it's precious it's heartbreaking it's everything. odile's not wrong though!!!!! -me, regularly about cats doing Things: they just want love!!!! me, about sif, now: THEY JUST WANT LOOOOOOOOVE

-and it's not just the human connection!!!! it's being able to rely on yourself, too!!!! to show yourself the kind of kindness you need too, to be capable of being kind to yourself, not just accepting help from other people (as important as that is, as important as being able to ASK for it is, for siffrin) but accepting help from yourself -if that makes sense -helping yourself!!! you don't forget about your past self, or any self!!!! -'my self-loathing isn't that strong that i'd literally kill another me.' EXACTLY!!!!! IT NEVER IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that line took me out -i hated fighting loop so i was so happy. that one kinda worked out

-oh man loop being a sif from a different universe was not on my bingo card at all for this game (-i didn't have a bingo card. but i was wildly theorizing about OTHER things while i was playing.) -and that sif can start to be the person they needed? that loop needed? -MAN!!! AND THAT PUTS SO MANY OF LOOP'S STATEMENTS IN A DIFFERENT CONTEXT -when they're like. 'wow! what if you ARE manipulative and disgusting :)' - :( - :(((((((((((((((((((((( -loop i hope you can be happy.........wherever you are................................ -i want to have more thoughts about loop but right now i am still at 'aaaaaaa.......... :(' -'i asked for this job, stardust.' they asked to help themselves :') they asked to hurt themselves :') they asked to keep themselves trapped in the horrors :')

-one of the things i love about the game is that there's sooooooooo many little details that you pass as you go through the loops that you have to come back to bc they become important, like the carving tools, the weapon room, the books!!!!! -going through and seeing these details over and over and then going 'OH SHIT WAIT! I HAVE TO GO BACK THERE' -it's just built so well!!!! i liked that. -needing to try all of bonnie's snacks so you know what their favorite food is!!!!! -how sif's reaction to the same items changes!!!! -the list in the head housemaiden's office!!!!!!!!

-minor disappointments that there was no real resolution for the country that disappeared, just bc so much was made of it? -THAT'S what i was wildly theorizing about -but also, like, it still........doesn't ultimately matter? -like, i definitely would've liked to have known! -i feel so stupid saying this bc my favorite book series is literally a series of unfortunate events and i will defend the lack of answers in the end for my entire life!!! -but there's also. definitely enough to theorize about it all, too

-but yeah! ultimately in the face of other things in the story -- sif's deep-seated self-loathing and desire to remember and be remembered -- remembering, specifically, their home, as pivotal as it is, is not........necessarily the point -it's about identity, but there's lots of kinds of identity, lots of pieces of what makes up someone's identity, what contributes to a new identity when something about you has been taken away from you, what are the pieces of you in the first place? -and not just for sif, for odile, too

-and part of it is. sometimes, you have multiple homes. sometimes? your home isn't the Home you had, it's the people you come to love, and that doesn't make it less than the home you had before, but you can still feel the gaping absence of a "natural" or expected home, you can still feel the loss of what you did have and could've kepts to -/lulu vandelay sits up in a cold sweat bc she literally just wrote that exact same thing in her most recent headcanon ramble fic, and has to take a moment to stare at the wall about the joys and agony of the human connection again, and how precious found family stories are

-there's so much in this game that i feel like i could still unpack more boxes. gosh

-i put 55 hours into this game over like. a little over a week? almost two weeks??? -actually it was more like 45 -- there were some stretches of time i was not close to a save point and had to put my switch in sleep mode for a few hours until i could go back to it. so the game counted a little more than i actually played -I POWERED THROUGH. I WANTED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED NEXT EVERY TIME SO BADLY -and i love how. it's like, a little hard to get stuck. at least the way i played, i feel like it unfolded pretty consistently -i would, perhaps, have. played a little slower, though. just. -bc the game hits a point where it starts to get VERY HEAVY. it stays good but i was concerned about the time loops from the get go (i love time loops. i love the thoughts that come with time loops! and oh boy did this one.........bring the thoughts........) so by the time sif was starting to lose it about the time loops I WAS ALREADY THOROUGHLY LOSING IT ABOUT THE TIME LOOPS -also i'd put the game down and go 'no, lulu, you yourself are not in a time loop.' -it was very quickly breaking my heart!!!! sif was hurt and IT HURT!!!! sif's heart was breaking and SO WAS MINEEEEEEEE -sometimes it's like, cathartic in a way to experience those feelings through someone else -- sif being trapped, feeling trapped, feeling like he's always doing something wrong and it's always his fault, maybe if he didn't do this it would work out and it didn't, trying again and still getting punished for it, not wanting to be forgotten (so desperately that you trap yourself in a time loop bc you don't have a home!!!!) but it still hurt!!!!! it still hurt a lot!!!!!!!!!! -in a great way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but it's so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god.

-i do kind of want to replay it, though. maybe not right away bc it's a game that works beautifully the first time you play it bc you uncover things at basically the same pace sif does, and right now i think i would just go, 'sif you need to act out of disrespect now and read marc's notebook, sorry.' -but i. would like to experience this story again. when some time has passed!!!!

-okay. look. -i was considering the diary in the orrery as either sif's or the king's; that either one of them was 'the original' and the other was 'the wish craft one' (-how else would the king have gotten that diary?) (-or, well, idk, maybe he found it. makes you wonder.) -bc the parallels between sif and the king were REALLY GETTING TO ME. there were SO MANY. literally wrote down 'oh sif you're not beating the 'actually the king' allegations here' -and that the power of that wish craft was what caused the country to disappear (which the ka buan book speculates anyway) -and -- also not that sif needs a reason to have a terrible memory, like that's fine on its own absolutely -- being the 'copy' was the reason they kept forgetting things, or being the 'original' was the reason bc they were missing parts of themself -or maybe it was someone else's!!!!!!! -mysteries............

-oh i should have thoughts about the king literally being frozen and at that point. getting the memories of his country -you cannot...........always stay in the past...............bc you cannot move forward...........bc we are always moving forward...................

-i don't mind not having an answer about the like, "ghost" sifs though -- that works fine as it is to me -pieces of past loops? pieces of future loops? a piece of the sif that went through the house alone -omg. i got the scene where the rest of the squad talks to the ghost sif bc i fastforwarded to floor 3 all unlocked on one loop but went back to the change god bc i didn't know if i got the keyknife or not -i then realized i could've just checked the inventory. -IT WORKED OUT THOUGH BC I GOT THAT SCENE //AND// FOUND OUT IT WAS MIRA'S STATUE, SO!

-i think there were a few loop conversations i missed? just a couple? -but i got the croissant one, which i was very thrilled to find out the story for -i did not get the dagger though (although i stg i used so many tears.) -and you know what????? i think that is for the best :) maybe next time :))))

-oh the croissant reveal did not disappoint!!!!! just like......... -being confronted with something you hadn't really thought about. and realizing suddenly how much it means -and ascribing so much terror to an innocuous piece of the situation bc it has to go somewhere. that you never want croissants again, you never want the reminder -but still keeping the coin to remind you, you never want to not remember the important thing, the current one, your family, this family, bc they mean so much to you and you've never been happier, you CAN'T REMEMBER being happier so this is what's important -so you'd hurt yourself to remember them!!!!!!! if that was what it took!!!!!!!!!!!! -I'M SCREAMING

-i was thinking, it wasn't necessarily the deeper wish at the favor tree, for sif (-although the second they made the wish at the tree i was like '............is it gonna turn out that the wish he made is what's trapping him. no. ...no. .......yes? yyyyyyyyyyeah.') -but. running from the boulanger while holding the coin, and desperately praying not to forget, not to be forgotten -bc A Coin is a ritual, too, and siffrin knows them subconsciously -but his wish and vaugarde's wish getting tangled together, is interesting too

-also. so i had like 55 loops total bc i also tried to go straight through the house as often as possible to get as much information out of each loop as possible (and i loved sif's 'touch exposure therapy' in the gardening room and always wanted to go back there specifically) (i was also DESPERATELY trying to see if odile would at any point ACTUALLY specifically comment so i was always letting sif be as weird as possible and look at stuff he should not have known) (and i loved the bathroom scenes, too. those were worth going through the whole house.) -oh anyway anyway sometimes i would loop forward though bc sometimes you do, in fact, have to -me: i am trying to loop the least amount of times. i feel so bad for sif and it's only the beginning of the game. sif's not even feeling bad yet about the loops!!!! the game itself: you WILL loop more and you WILL feel worse :) -AND THE GAME WAS ADDING LOOPS -like, i think if you fast forward over all the floors, it adds more loops, bc after i was like '......wait, for real? that many loops?' i checked as it saved one time after i skipped floors or something

-the gang: /talking about wish craft me: THE FAVOR TREE. THE FAVOR TREE IS RIGHT THERE. YOU HAVE ALL BEEN TO THE FAVOR TREE, GUYS!!!!!!! a loop or two later: /the tree book me: HALLELUJAH

-oh speaking of waiting for sif to notice something (but honestly not that long, which was nice) -i think this was........after you beat the king for the first time? me: sif. sif the change god's statue face as changed. sif. SIF THE FACE HAS CHANGED. LOOK AT THE FACE, SIF!!!!!!! SIF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -he does in fact not notice. that's okay, sif.

-i love that all of them want to stay together for a little longer, too!!!! like!!!!!!!! no but that's so good -bc, how do you end this kind of journey??? how do you really just go your separate ways right after????? how do you..........stop after you just saved the world -none of them want to let go yet and that's okay and they can say it!!!!!!! -THEY'RE FAMILYYYYYYYYYYYYYY -but sometime they'll have to. and sif will have to be okay with it. but there's still time to grow. there always is!!!! there's time to. change. whatever that change is.

-the change god being real was A SURPRISE!!!!!! holy shit. that was scary. -WITH THE MOST CHILL SPEECH STYLE. THAT WAS HILARIOUS (-me, reading the change god's text: ........i miss you roxy lalonde.......)

-me: i want to do the 'sif helps everyone' tasks again bc they were such sweet and precious and comforting moments and doing them all in one run was the best thing ever (and then sif refers to everyone as their family afterwards which was shattering!!!!!), but doing them again after the first time would just cheapen them, for sif to have to relive such pivotal moments knowing this loop probably isn't the loop it'll stick........like, i could not redo them now, and i could not fast forward through them. i cannot do it. it would feel like a terrible corruption!!!! sif in act 5, going through his millionth nervous breakdown: hold. my. fucking. beer. me: 😫😫😫😫😫😫😫😫😫😫😫😫😫 -AND THAT THAT'S THE LAST FUCKING LOOP -bc it can't be perfect, sif!!! you have to let people help you!!!!! you have to cry!!!!!!!!1 it won't be perfect it will be messy and terrible and people will get hurt but that's not the end of the world!!!!!! -i mean they really went for the gut in those convos, though. oh sif.

-i love that sif finally gets a chance to just sit and cry and gets a whole big squad hug at the same time. -and they're going to keep trying!! keeping growing!!!! keep going!!!!!! learning!!!! and so will all of them!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-mal du pays: /appears me, with literally ten years of french practice: .............................................................................. still me: /googles me: OH FUCK HOMESICKNESS -i was mistranslating mal for a hot second there, okay. somehow. -fun fact, my favorite french word is malheureusement. (my least.....favorite.......is......fucking chaussures) (uggg, i can just never pronounce it right. chausette is fucking fine! but shoes.............)

-i would die for bonbon. the best chaos child. -i am picking them up and putting them in my pocket. i want them to make me snacks. -i want those madelines!!!!!! i love madelines............. -and the palmiers!!! good ol elephant ears -i love that, canonically, they do the naruto run. they are such a precious little kid my god

-isabeau: /talking about the cracked egg keychain me: utena??????????

-sif: will i ever like bananas again. me: what i want to know is if they will ever like PLAYS again. -i love how the banana is there so you can just. skip right to the house from dormont if you so choose (a few times towards the end of the game i did)

-i assumed sif stopped carving bc the depth perception was harder after losing their eye? -i hope you carve again too, sif...............

-also them starting to lose things that happened BEFORE the loops started bc they'd been going on for so long and there was so much more to keep in mind, forgetting odile's name one time and forgetting the vodka story and even forgetting THE YEAST JOKE........... -crying. screaming

-i spent most of the game with memory of bomb attached and then ONLY USED THE BOMB ONCE, I KEPT FORGETTING!!!!! -that was great. goddamn -i found all the bomb components pretty early but actually for the life of me i CANNOT remember where the long thingy-thing was so i never picked it up again. where. where was that........

-the game's universe being so casually lgbtq+ was so fun!!!! i love the bonding earrings and how. you'd make as many earrings as people in the relationship!!!!!!!!!! -giving your children multiple names in case they want a different one they already have more options!!!!!!!!

-i took. so many screenshots while playing (like. over 500) bc i just like to screenshot important or powerful lines or favorite jokes but tumblr is being dumb and does not want to put them in so i will just have to list them. -odile going 'as the kids say, yoink~' -BELLE LEARNING HOW TO CUT VEGGIES????? -i will literally never forget, ever, 'meow meow, cat's paw, can't cut my fingies nya!' -sif: /smacks into counter the squad: did you just say nya -sif you're not beating the catperson allegations either -'HOW BLINDINGLY WONDERFUL, FOR A ROLL OF TOILET PAPER TO BE THE ONLY HOPE YOU HAVE LEFT RIGHT NOW!' -it really do be like that. trying to appreciate something small in the throes of 'sometimes irl depression feels like a legitimate time loop of i have to do THIS AGAIN EVERY DAY!' turns into 'this is the most absurd thing in the entire world what the fuck :')' (-the game-universe-specific swears..........LOVE that. love small worldbuliding) -mirabelle's dangly thingies on her dress and her going 'pretty :) goes ding-ding when i walk :)' -speaking of ding ding! -THE FUNNY NOISES APPRECIATION CREW!!!!! i feel like that is such a perfect description of mira and isa and everything about them. i love them so much. i love their friendship. -bonnie going 'i am a child. i have a lot on my mind. i cannot help.' -THE VODKA WAS WATER. IT WAS WATER -pie smell......... (pie smell! pie smell! pie smell!) (the little moments of 'we're going to repeat something charming!' are SO GOOD!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!!) -odile going 'but i would do anything to protect all of you. horrible things, to be honest.' -god. yeah. goddddddddddddddddddddd -bonnie going 'do you see me!!! do you see me!!!!!' before they touch sif bc they think that will help is so precious oh my god

#isat spoilers #ahahaha this post got......so........long.................. #i swear to god this is as long as the notes i made while playing and this isn't even THE NOTES I MADE WHILE PLAYING. #i don't know if i want this in the tag but i'm also like. no someone please talk to me about this game. goddamn. so at least #official spoiler tag for now #might put the others in later. #isat #in stars and time

[eerie-night]

i always like stumbling across fic rec lists so i thought about compiling a list of some of my favorites and linking the tumblrs of the authors (but if i cant find them ill link twitter or ao3) bc theyre all fucking awesome

BSD

and all i loved, i loved alone- @featherxs

“An ability?”

— on the past, present, and future of one Edgar Allan Poe.

SOOOO GOOD!! its what originally got me so into bsd and its such a good reread too

(don’t) stop the rain- miniekooki

Akutagawa Ryuunosuke finds himself taking care of the Twain family after an unfortunate turn of events.

And he also finds himself considering Mark Twain as more than just an annoying prick.

(ALTERNATIVE TITLE: the domestication of akutagawa ryuunosuke)

i loveeeeeeeeee this and how it goes about describing the family its sooooooooo good

Haikyuu

as bright as a blackhole; and twice as dense- cereal_whore

“Kageyama’s being bullied,” Yamaguchi grits, expression steeled.

Tsukishima lowers his book quietly, and stares, eyes wide.

“As if he has enough social competence to realise he’s being bullied.”

“Tsukki, please.”

Meant to be 5 times Tsukishima accidentally and very reluctantly saved Kageyama from his own social ineptness, and one time Kageyama does the same for him, but we ran into problems bc OP can't count.

(or: everyone is srsly stressed over kageyamas existence, but kageyama, despite having the common sense of a Five Minute Crafts video, is like those buff himbos within the tsundere category. so he somehow ends up wholly unscathed throughout this shit, while everyone else doesnt)

tldr: kageyama lacks forethought, and everyone but him suffers the consequences of it.

i eat this shit up omg omg its great its funny and it makes my day better read it

but not for spring to well up- tookumade

Miya Brothers

Sellers & Buyers of Antiques & Curiosities

Suna Rintarou squints at the small sign attached to the front door of the brick shopfront.

He wasn’t sure what he’d been expecting. Something flashier? More brass? The Miya brothers could do with a pot plant out the front. The shopfront has one single large window that’s covered by a plain white curtain, so maybe they could open that up and have some of their antiques and such on display so people get an idea of what they buy and sell. Maybe a paint job for the door, which is the most boring brown Suna has ever seen. There is nothing he can say about it—it’s not nice nor ugly, it’s just boring.

Or, maybe Suna could stop giving any more of a damn about this shopfront and just get his appointment over and done with.

After ending a relationship with a fiancé, Suna returns home and tries to heal from heartbreak. Here, he finds friends in the form of the Miya brothers, and learns patience, forgiveness, and what happiness means to him.

this sounds repetitive but…..SOOOOOOOO GOOOOOD i love the emotion and how it deals with sunas ex and like everything about this fic is gold

JJK

“To Chase”- @diggingupgrave

Megumi has never thanked the man who raised him.

god…no words except read it you will not regret it

FE3H

A Fair Day’s Work- featherhearted

“I may have some coffee in the place for you,” said Prime Minister Aegir. “Let me show you how much better I have become at brewing it to your taste.”

“If you insist,” said Minister Vestra but he sounded pleased. To Delarivier, who had literally made it her profession to attune herself to his tone (usually ranging from sort-of-murder-y to extremely-murder-y), Minister Vestra sounded very pleased indeed.

Ferdinand and Hubert's long-suffering aides figure out a way to work fewer hours.

im a whore for outsider povs and this one takes the cake and does laps around my brain when i try and sleep

TMA

a glass essay- fairbanks

Right out of university Jon's run out of time to run from the Web. The only way he knows to escape one domain is to give yourself to another, and he's always been good at being alone.

He really wasn't imagining the Lukas family would take him in at all, let alone arrange him to marry some smarmy ass named Peter Lukas.

yet again something to reread till you memorize every word and still cant get enough

now for authors that i recommend HIGHLY and a fic or two from them:

@blackkatmagic

i recommend everything shes written but my top favorites currently are:

Cor Cordium

Fox dies. He wakes up. And then things start getting weird.

its so so good and kats soooo good at characterization and descriptions and could prob make paint drying interesting

out of night (out of nothing)

It's the duty of the Temple Guard to keep the Sacred Spire, the Force nexus at the heart of the Temple. Feemor's always done his duty gladly, kept it safe, kept the light burning. Order 66 changes everything. Changes him. Changes the Spire, too.

Hevy, Cutup, and Droidbait are just caught in the currents and trying to make the most of their second chances, but an unstable Jedi and new powers don't make anything easier.

the concept is so cool and the execution is even better she could probably sell me air and id go crazy for it

trade your heart for bones to know

A week after an attack that nearly killed him and his son, Jaster Mereel finds Mostross dead on a battlefield. His killer is a Jedi, grievously wounded, who Jaster takes into his care. By Mandalorian tradition, Jon Antilles owes him a life-debt, and Jaster is cunning enough not to let such a thing slip away.

It's meant to be an entirely political arrangement. It doesn't stay that way for long.

not to sound like broken record but god this is fucking fabulous

i totally recommend checking out ALL her works but these were the first ones i thought of out of the ones that are currently updating

@x-authorship-x

she has written sooo many good fics im just going to recommend my favorite series and you can go from there

Eyes

Shisui is way too strong to have his eye taken by Danzo

He's the only one smart enough to master the simplest of techniques to legendary proportions

He was sweet and kind and, despite everything he'd seen and all the things he'd done, he wasn't afraid to hope. To dream for something better.

A series for Shisui

the characters, the plots, the descriptions all add up to something amazing

llamallamaduck

do yourself a favor and check her out, you will not regret it. unfortunately, i will restrain myself to only recommending one fic but DO check the rest out

With no root in the land —(To keep my branches green)

He is not a human and he is not a beast and he is not a creature, but he is. He is a being, then. A being that changes and learns and lives. He thinks his name is Ani.

this is the fic that i first read by llamallamaduck and its a really good introduction to how fucking amazing she is at doing crossovers and writing in general

i hope you enjoy these as much as i have :)

#fic rec #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bsd ranpoe #haikyuu #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #fire emblem #fe3h fic rec #fe3h #tma #the magnus archives #star wars #naruto #shisui uchiha

[flowereclipsie]

something something henry saying “i can love you and want you but still not want that life. i’m allowed, alright” is sooooooooo heartbreaking like i don’t know if i’m prepared to see nicolas act that because it’s so powerful in the book already. like baby talks about never feeling like he’s been able to choose but with alex he’s Always choosing, just a lot of the time he’s choosing based on fear and i just want to hug him and shake him and tell him he is perfect and he doesn’t need to hold alex at an arms distance, he can put him in his heart and keep him safe behind his ribs like HE IS YOURS !!! YOU CAN CHOOSE THAT !! but wanting alex vs the life he comes with is so different because he’s finally Finally putting up a clear boundary that he Doesn’t want something - less based on fear and more based on just wanting to be a normal person; as he mentions before their first kiss - it’s a real full circle moment esp because alex says right after this talk that he doesn’t know if this is goodbye. but henry’s life has been all about going with whatever he is told to do but with alex he’s open and vulnerable (even if he’s been hunted down from washington dc to be vulnerable) he allows himself to speak that boundary.

idk i just love him. and will cry many tears watching this. will rewatch it and probably cry every single time.

#rwrb #prince henry rwrb #rwrb alex #rwrb movie #rwrb trailer #casey mcquiston #prince henry fox mountchristen windsor #alex clairmont diaz #firstprince #shut the flo up

[idealspawn]

i wrote a poem for the guy im seeing and he said he will save it to open it in paris when he misses me bc in a few weeks he will go travel through half of europe w his friends and we wont be able to see for a little while.... we also hid secret positive messages all around the city with pink ribbons on for others to find!!! it was so fun it felt like we were fairies doing a quest in a fantasy video game. i introduced him to one of my closest friends too!! and they got along so well. invited him to join me and my friend for this open-air cinema in a few days!!! im sosooso happy he is sososososo sweet. and our top love languages are the exact same. quality time and physical touch!! i showed him around all the secret places in the city that i go to and told him all sorts of stories with those places. we talked abt our friends and family and i love it so much. i love listening to ppl talk abt the ppl they love. we shared our heartbreak stories too. he is coming over to my house when my parents are away and i will cook him tom kha soup (well... a slight alteration of it). he also invited me to his place in this other city one last time before he moves out to my city officially!!!!!! aaa a aaaa a aa a a. I HAD MY FIRST ICE CREAM THIS YEAR WITH HIM. the last time i had an ice cream was a year ago and then also like a year prior. i very rarely eat ice cream bc of my ed and the sugar content and all but i did it with him!!! because he loves ice cream a lot. and i didnt die!! once again i didnt die :DD sometimes im scared im too much for him but he said he likes girls that are a little crazy hahahaha but in a good way. so i guess he likes me :D when i ran down from a hill he caught me into his arms and kissed me. it was sooooooooo cute. we also went on swings!!! i love swings. it is so cute how he completely crashes when i randomly am affectionate sometimes ahhahaha. like he loses his train of thought completely. i randomly bit his shoulder in the store playfully and he was in the middle of answering one of my questions and he told me to wait bc now he cant process the question cause all he can think of is me ahahhaha and the same way when we were lying in the grass and i started to trace shapes on his forehead. he said he listens to our shared spotify playlist we made all of the time!!!! he said he likes it when i mess up his hair. fuck. aaaaaaaa. im so fucking happy wtf. after he left a swiss tourist came up to me and asked to take a picture of me bc my silhouette looked so beautiful in front of the sunset and talked to me for like an hour. that was so cool too.

[rivertigo]

SAYYYYY IT AINT SOOOOOOOOO YOUR DRUG IS A HEARTBREAKER MY LOVE IS A LIFE TAKER!!

#Spotify

[jobazzle]

books i've read in 2024

i meant to start this post in january but of course! i forgot! so here it is now!

January

Babel - R.F. Kuang ★★★★★ one of the greatest and most masterfully written books i've ever read in my entire life oh my god i will recommend this to everyone from now until the end of time!!!!

Yellowface - R.F. Kuang ★★★★½ never hated a main character more oh my godddddd what an infuriating read (the half star off is bc i didn't love the ending but like the ending is kinda the point so like i get it but I DON'T LIKE IT)

In A Holidaze - Christina Lauren ★★★★ went into this being like "lol i already know exactly how this book is gonna go!" and then somewhere in the earlier chapters Something Happened that made me gasp in shock like what the HELLLLL. finished this in like 2 days i NEEDED to know what happened next

People We Meet On Vacation - Emily Henry ★★★★★ book lovers is my favorite eh book buuuut this is such a close second!!!!! (friends to lovers is my favorite silly little book trope so like. this was written for me. i was destined to love this)

February

Daisy Haites: The Great Undoing - Jessa Hastings ★★★★ the second half of this > the first half (god one specific main part of this book was painful to read like i knew exactly where it was gonna go and UGH. IT HURTTTTT)

A Court Of Silver Flames - Sarah J. Maas ★★★★★ favorite book of the entire series but i can't stop thinking about this one critique i saw online about the plot that's like...so true....so true....i do agree....but also....love these characters...so is this book perfect? NO do i adore it? YES

Only When It's Us - Chloe Liese ★½ hated this so much oh my god it made me so mad i was so annoyed for a majority of it...only gave it the stars i did bc of the relationship between the main character and her mom...other than that BOY WAS THIS A PAINFUL READ

Magnolia Parks: Into The Dark - Jessa Hastings ★★★★★ i love and adore (and deeply relate to) this like oh my god this book has my whole heart i love these characters i love their growth i love their flaws I!!!! LOVE!!!! THEM!!!!!!

Heartstopper Volume 5 - Alice Oseman ★★★★ immediately decided this was my fav of the series and i can't wait to see it play out on the show in the future!!!

The Bodyguard - Katherine Center ★★★★½ this is sooooooo miss congeniality x every real person fanfic i read when i was a teen (affectionate). i was blushing i was giggling i was kicking my feet this was sooooooooo so so so romcom ugh i loved every second of it and i want (NEED) a movie/tv adaptation so baddddd

Always Only You - Chloe Liese ★½ i thought "ok i hated the first book in this insanely long series but let me give the second one a try" NOPE. SHOULDN'T HAVE. MIGHT'VE HATED IT EVEN MORE THAN THE FIRST ONE. despite loving the characters the writing was so terrible to me that i had to give up (and i was rly looking forward to the book in the future about two rival soccer players who fall in love but I SIMPLY CANNOT READ ALL OF THESE TO GET THERE. I GIVE UP)

From Blood And Ash - Jennifer L. Armentrout ★★★★ was this the most predictable book I've probably ever read? yes. was it an insanely fun and quick read? ALSO YES. idc this was surprisingly enjoyable and sooooo silly at times (was rolling my eyes sm and was screaming "HOW HAVE YOU NOT FIGURED THIS OUT YET" fjdjfjd)

March

The Winter of the Witch - Katherine Arden ★★★★★ read the first book of this trilogy in 2022, the second in 2023, and this one FINALLY in 2024...what a journey it has been!!!!! The action!!!! The character relationships!!!! The heartbreak!!!! What a wonderful conclusion. Literally loved every second!!!

Throne Of Glass - Sarah J. Maas ★★★★½ actually so confused bc i saw reviews saying how difficult it is to get into this series/that they find the first book (so, this one) boring???? I WAS ENTHRALLED. OBSESSED. WANTED TO BE READING IT 24/7. CAN'T WAIT TO START BOOK 2 AHHHHH (which will take a while bc my brother has to read it first and he is a slower reader than me 😀)

A Kingdom of Flesh and Fire - Jennifer L. Armentrout ★★½ wtf happened between the first book and this one??? how did it get so much worse???? my god was this a whole lot of NOTHING. full of confusing world building/lore and oh my god the conversations between characters went in circles. NOT A FUN READ (except for the very end which was a little redeeming lol)

Lovelight Farms - B.K. Borison ★★★★★ what more could i want in a book liiiike this literally has everything i love about a romance book put into one beautiful wonderful heartwarming cozy endearing story (i should've read this during christmastime)(literally it haunts me that i didn't read it in december last year)(WHAT A MISSED OPPORTUNITY)

Mile High - Liz Tomforde ★★ cringed a lot. some parts were uncomfortable to read. had one of my least favorite book "tropes". the plot motivation made no sense. didn't enjoy.

The Right Move - Liz Tomforde ★★★★½ far from perfect and won't be for everyone but when i say i loved pretty much everything about this!!!! i mean it!!!!!! so glad i gave this a shot despite not loving the first book!!!!!!!!! i adored this so much i made a spotify playlist like...i'm obsessed

Caught Up - Liz Tomforde ★★★★½ that feeling when you're reading a book you love so much you almost don't want it to end so you start reading slower was FELT as i read this. and MAYBE it made me tear up A LITTLE.

Bride - Ali Hazelwood ★★★★ super fun except i'm not used to reading supernatural/fantasy books that take place in the modern day like wdym you're on a computer or using a cellphone but also vampires and werewolves existfjenfjfb

Wildfire - Hannah Grace ★★ what a waste of time i wish i'd never read it oh my god.

One Italian Summer - Rebecca Serle ★★★★★ reading a story about dealing with the grief of a parent dying while dealing with the grief of your own parent dying 😀 ouch ouch ouch pain pain pain my thoughts in book form i sobbed every chapter and i'm in awe of what this book now means to me

April

In The Weeds - B.K. Borison ★★★★★ i read a romance book so beautiful i started crying? (no actually i teared up reading this I LOVE LOVE AND BOY DOES THIS AUTHOR KNOW HOW TO WRITE A LOVE STORY)

The Crown of Gilded Bones - Jennifer L. Armentrout ★ absolutely 1000% done with this series....how do you make the first 500 pages of a 600 page book boring??? and then make the last 100 filled with everything i wanted from the rest of the book??? I AM: DONE (will be reading the synopses of the rest of the books so i know what happens but THAT'S IT)

Done and Dusted - Lyla Sage ★★★★ when i say this was a quick read i! mean! it! (no literally i started it on april 3rd and finished it april 4th i was hoooooked)

Swift and Saddled - Lyla Sage ★★★★ the book mentioned taylor swift and bake off (two of my favorite things) of COURSE i enjoyed it (ok the end annoyed me a little but that's a me specific thing i don't think it was a bad ending!)

Murder on the Orient Express - Agatha Christie ★★★★★ so um this left me in shock fhdshfkds i also jokingly guessed the ending (and thought "but there's no way. that would be ridiculous" lmaooo)

Come Back to Me - Mila Gray ★★★★½ this was a reread and i can confirm: i am still so deeply fond of this book <3 (and despite knowing everything that was gonna happen i still! sobbed!)

Stay with Me - Mila Gray ★★★½ another reread/comfort book <3 not as good as the other book from this author (i hate you miscommunication trope!!!!) but overall still fine)

Run Away with Me - Mila Gray ★★★½ another!!!!! reread!!!! would've loved it more if my copy wasn't riddled with typos and minor plot errors (i remember being obsessed w this book but like...not anymore oops)(it's fine)

Watch Over Me - Mila Gray ★★★½ would! watch! a! movie! of! this! (they will never make it so i'll have to just reread it every few years lol)

Fall Into Me - Mila Gray ★★★½ i am unfortunately not immune to the charms of a bodyguard romance ok this was...slightly endearing despite its errors/plot that was a little too fast-paced for me (also: a reread)(and my fancast for this one! IMPECCABLE)

Mixed Signals - B.K. Borison ★★★★★ oh this had me gigglingggg i was emotionallllll i adore this sweet little small town romance series <3 (also!!!!!! when an epilogue ties into the premise of a book so perfectly!!!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!!!)

Flawless - Elsie Silver ★★★★ what do you mean this book says seriously "you wear the hat, you ride the cowboy" PLSSSSS I LAUGH EVERY TIME I THINK ABOUT IT HFJKDHSKFJHDSK. anyways this was a quick read!!!!! and had an interesting "plot twist"!!! OVERALL V FUN

Heartless - Elsie Silver ★★★★ the more i think about it the more i wanna rate it a 4.5 but FOR NOW it's just a 4 (but like A HIGH 4)

Powerless - Elsie Silver ★★★★★ what can i say, i'm a big fan of friends to lovers in any form any iteration any plot any characters....i! love! it!

Reckless - Elsie Silver ★★★★★ this has my fav couple of this series from this author i'm obsessed w them i'm obsessed w their love story i literally read the second half so slow i did NOT want it to end 🫶

Hopeless - Elsie Silver ★★★½ this felt rushed and the pacing was weird and there was a weird nickname for one of the love interests BUT it's not like. an offensive book or anything. overall just...ok! a decent time!

Funny Story - Emily Henry ★★★★★ in. tears. feeling. so. many. emotions. EMILY HENRY YOU HAVE DONE IT AGAIN!!!!! may she continue writing forever bc I WILL BE READING

#yeah i've kiiinda been reading a lot this year for some reason #like how is it only just now the end of march and i've completed that many books????? #(it's definitely bc i have an ereader now and reading somehow takes less time on there) #books i've read in 2024 #books i've read #personal

[bumblebyaf]

miraculous ladybug is so full of heartbreaking concepts that are sooooooooo goooooooood but the writing is soooo badddd its so tragic

#i love it tho

[buzzcutmase]

So, I have a few thingssss so say 🙂‍↔️ I have way more but I can’t think straight

Down Bad is so catchy 💆🏼‍♀️

I understand everybody’s obsession with so long, London -hello, the lyrics??- but I would’ve loved it with a different music..? If that makes sense? 🥲 doesn’t slap like it could imho

Also thanK you aIMee - hahah 😂 “I don’t think you’ve changed much” ~ spot on! I think Cassandra also references KimK..?

And why is nobody talking about the alchemy? CUTE & CATCHY 😍

Black dog is about MH? The bridge is chefs kiss tho!

Fortnight has a kinda 80s vibe in terms of the music? 😌 Reminds me of a great 80s version of Adore You by Harry I found years ago on YT, btw!

I hate it here - “I'd say the 1830s but without all the racists. And getting married off for the highest bid. Nostalgia is a mind's trick. If I'd been there, I'd hate it.”

Love how shes romanticising “the good old days” whilst also heavily criticising doing so by pointing out the racism, sexism - ugh. Yes.

OK OK first of all i really love how you came to me with all this, i'm obsessed with it actually soooooo i'll use this as an excuse to give you all my thoughts on the whole album! (bare in mind i've not listened to the second part of the album yet because i've been busy today so i only had the chance to listen to the first part twice to understand the lyrics more!) 😌

fortnight: i completely agree with you on that one! it's such an 80s vibe and i love it, also the lyrics are soooo ugh! "i love you it's ruining my life" give her the grammy NOW!.. i do wish post malone featured more on it though bc i really like him and his music so!

the tortured poets department: LOVE! the chorus is soooo good! when the track titles got released i was actually most excited about this one bc i just couldn't think of how she would include a line like that into a song but obviously she made it work bc she's a mastermind :')

my boy only breaks his favourite toys: so catchy! so matty coded tbh so she ATE with that one!

down bad: SOOOOOOOOO CATCHY! it's such a banger tbh and so relatable like "fuck it if i can't have him i might just die it would make no difference" (makes me think of mase hehehe!)

SO LONG, LONDON: the perfect song to be the special track 5: heartbreaking and earth shattering like the lyrics make me cry ESPECIALLY the 3rd verse!!!! "you swore that you loved me, but where were the clues? i died at the altar waiting for the proof, you sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days and i'm just getting color back to my face. i'm just mad as hell cause i loved this place for so long, london. had a good run, a moment of warm sun but i'm not the one" UGHHHH! and knowing how much this means to her is soooo insane and i can see how you might've liked it with a different music but i actually think it's super fitting because it's the sped up beat like there is going to be a climax in the song somewhere but there isn't and the slow singing of the words kind of counteract it which was what taylor and joe's relationship felt like... like there would be a climax in the relationship with a wedding and babies but it never came and she spent all this time waiting just for it to be over in the end you know? :(

but daddy i love him: I LOVE how she adressed the fact that every single time she dates someone people on the outside who don't know shit about her personal life want to include themselves in it and give their opinion and i love how she wrote the song in a sarcastic fuck you way BUT since it's about matty i feel like most of the opinions on their relationship are justified bc of who he is and the things he said so i feel like most of us were just looking out for her in the way we were against it you know? like there were reasons why people hated them together so much. ALSO SHE NAME DROPPED ME??? EXCUSE ME TAYLOR???

fresh out the slammer: BANGER! the classic "came out of a heartbreak from a long term relationship and need a rebound for some time" LOVE!

florida: not too sold on it yet but i feel like i need to listen to it a few more times before i can really have an opinion on it 😌

guilty as sin?: i love this song so much. the vibe? the lyrics? i'm in love, it's so relatable aswell LIKE

who's afraid of little old me?: FAVOURITE SONG ON THE ALBUM! BY FAR! the way she wrote about the fame ruining her and her mental health and turning her into someone she never wanted to be is so fucking beautiful honestly like it's devastating but so beautifully written. and the first "who's afraid of little old me?" the way she's screaming it. YES YES YES. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

i can fix him (no really i can) : it's so sexy??? like the way she sings it and the lyrics? like she's so sexy like yes queen if anyone could change a man IT'S YOU!

loml: sooooooo heartbreaking and such a masterpiece... how it goes from love of my life to loss of my life... i'm going to CRY. i'm conflicted whether it's about joe or matty though... maybe both? i'm not sure but it's beautiful either way. 💔

i can do it with a broken heart: it feels like bejweled... but in a suicidal "i wanna die" but on crack way! it's so fun though??? like so sad how she had to put on a smile ever single night on tour even if she felt like shit but i'm so proud of her always for making it through and being happy now and i hope we as fans had a good impact on that too!

the smallest man who ever lived: again... conflicted who it's about but it's such a great song and whoever it's about will have to fucking deal with me soon bc HOW DARE YOU HURT HER LIKE THIS.

the alchemy: as you said SO CUTE SO CATCHY! so happy she found happiness with travis and it's all good now and she's healing from all the heartbreak and the hard times she faced the past year :( no one deserves happiness more than her! ❤️‍🩹

clara bow: LOVE LOVE LOVE! it feels like it's the second part of "the lucky one" if you know what i mean... and her singing about herself but not in the way she sang about clara bow and stevie nicks with them being heart capturing icons everyone loves but in a self depricating way... heartbreaking bc she sadly still think of herself as an imposter in all this but so beautifully written again. also taylor swift name dropping taylor swift on a taylor swift album???? INSANE. 🥺

SOOOO basically, i feel like this album was made from the deepest depths of taylor's mind written specifically for the people who get her and have been loving and supporting her for a long time... like there is no proper poppy single or song for the general public on there which is why i think so many people on social media have slammed the album and said she really missed the mark with this one but if you get it and if you understand the situations she sings about bc you've been thorugh them with her it's such a meaningful abum about her heartbreaks, mental struggles, struggles with fame and not feeling like real person but also about her healing journey and seeing the funny side of people having an opinion on your every move you know? i love her. i truly do. mastermind. ❤️‍🩹

WILL CHECK BACK IN AGAIN WHEN I LISTENED TO THE SECOND PART OF THE ALBUM! HEHE!

[freezethunder]

Top 5 dra/sdra2 characters

I'll do both because it seems like fun and I want to differentiate them

Top 5 DRA Characters

1. Akane

As far as supporting characters go, Akane Taira is certianly up there. She’s positive and very trusting of those she hold dear to, which is very heartbreaking seeing how she dull and empty she became at the start of chapter 3. And of course we have to talk about her mastermind personality. I think it is very shocking how someone so close to the cast, especially the protagonist could be the mastermind behind their killing game. It’s like Tsumugi done right! Not much has changed about her from her time with the cast, she’s just very unhinged and incredibly acrobatic to make all those leaps. Look at her go. I like Akane a lot out of the main cast and dare say she even beats some of the canon characters in most aspects.

2. Rei

Female and Better Byakuya. I’m kinda cheating here honestly this list is of DRA characters but I’m also taking into account her time from SDRA2 sooooooooo…..Rei. Like I said previously, obviously a female Byakuya, I mean she even shares some of the same sprites as him as well as the notes. A tall, smart, and stuck-up jerk who constantly berates the crew and doesn’t want to put up with them for a majority of the run time. Golly, where have I seen this before?~ The reason why she is so much better than her predecessor comes down to two factors. One, her growth comes from not finding the game boring or not wanting to participate like long legged lemon boy, but rather; “…..well fuck. These sentiments got to me. Now I have to help” And two, how she behaves when we next see her in other material, primarily SDRA2. She’s a lot more emotional and compassionate, even striking Tsurugi during that shit he pulled in Chapter 6. Like, let’s go girl! Yaaas! Get hiiiim! Queen shit!

3. Utsuro

I want to go more in depth on the masterminds at a later date, so for now I’ll just say I’m very on the fence about. There are some days I like him and some days I don’t. But I will say that the twist of the protagonist being the mastermind was done really here, and in order to get to the true ending, you have to go down the darker path which is a really nice twist and one I can’t say I could have done better.

4. Teruya

Also kind of cheating with this one but uhhh…sue me :/ Anyway, Teruya was one of the comedic goofballs right behind Haruhiko and Satsuki. Single brain cell trio. I also love his growth, from fighting with Haruhiko in Chapter 4 to wearing his goggles the rest of the game, that character design I love to see! And it carries over in the sequel too. Having Teruya be the one with the killing game experience is a neat concept, even if that aspect wasn’t used all that much. A shame what happened to him though(STUPIDFUCKINGPSYCHOCOPTSURUGIIHATEYOUIHATEYOU-)

5. Kanata

Kanata is a sweet girl, nothing more too it than that. But there ain’t nothing wrong with being a simple, polite, short cinnamon bun. And it really was a shame she had to go like that, I would have liked her to stick around some more. And I’m kind of interested to see what really was LINUJ’s intended purpose for her was……..y’know considering another character he made in the sequel, I don’t want to know actually, Nevermind.

Top 5 SDRA2 Characters

1. Sora

I want to go more in depth with the protagonist’s another day too, but let me just say that SORA IS AN AWESOME CHARACTER AND PROTAGONIST! HELD BACK BY THE FACT THAT SHE ISNT ENTIRELY CANON! SHE WOULD DO GREAT THERE! Ahem! …..Sorry. I love everything about Sora, her sassy attitude, her snarky comments, even hints of showing something darker within her. Sora is a top tier character in my book!

2. Mikado

Also want to talk more about him at a later date, but Mikado is my favorite mastermind! Hands down, bar none, literally beating all of the ones from the main cast! Revealing him right from the jump was genius, because then it was the cast constantly hating him and roasting him. He’s so wacky and goofy that for half of the game, you kinda forget he even is the mastermind. From his charming personality to his cool design and powers, Mikado Sannoji carries the entire game on his back along with Sora.

3. Yoruko

A pink haired love interest for the sassy amnesiac protagonist? Where have I seen this before?~ In all seriousness I think Yoruko’s cool. Her angry behavior and yelling at others can get old at times and some are even unwarranted such in Chapter 4 to Yuki, but underneath that facade lies a girl that is trying her best to protect those close to her after some many hardships in the past. Her relationship is Sora is just adorable and it’s crazy that after Chapter 4 and beyond, she’s the most sane person there. Yoruko may be a tsun-dried-tomato, but she’s the best tsun-dried-tomato Ive ever seen. (Can tomatoes be pink?)

4. Hibiki

Before playing the game: Oh wow, a bully character to the shy girl, again?! Oh geeeez! I can already tell I’m not gonna like her.

After playing the game: OH MY GOOOOD! IM SORRY HIBIKI SWEETIE! DID NOT DESERVE ANY OF THAT!

Getting right to it, I think Hibiki should have survived! Unlike Hiyoko who’s only character development relegated to a blink and you’ll miss it moment in the third chapter. Hibiki was trying from the end of Chapter 2 onwards, so why waste the actually, good, DEVELOPMENT?! I guess it is interesting to see a Chapter 3 with only one victim and two killers this time, but there was no need to drag Hibiki down with it. The general consensus is right, this was wasted potential. Go look up some Hibiki lives AU to ease the pain.

5. Iroha

Ahto-Bleh incarnate. Iroha seemed like the overly kind, ditzy sort of character made for comedic relief, and she is. But making her out to be one of the voids was pretty neat I suppose. It does set her up for some development to overthrow and turn her back Mikado to be with her friends and, …wait what? That, that didn’t happen…? ……GOD FUCKING DAMMIT LINUJ! So Iroha just stays this bratty, annoying, and fearful child the whole way through and learns nary a thing in the process. So I have to ask: why even bother?! Now you may be wondering, why is she high let alone top 5 if I have these issues with her. Well for one, I think she’s kind of funny with all her reactions and expressions, plus knowing the identity of one of the Voids in the group builds tension, and her drawing book has helped several times in trials. And it could just be me imagining a better character than what we actually received. Death to the author folks!

#asks #ask meme #answers #n00dl3gal #super danganronpa another 2 #freeze speaks

[ikosburneraccount]

if you had to pick a fav chapter out of any of the books, which would it be? (you can do one per book and/or multiple chapters lol just curious)

im answering this on mobile so if the formatting is fucked im sooooooooo sorry 😭 OK one per book here i go!!

cinder: the chapter where kai gifts her the silk gloves! mostly because during my reread i COMPLETELY FORGOT that this chapter happened and omfg the KAIDER in this scene was so intense. like kai’s thoughtfulness of the gift…like he never pushes her to take off her gloves but instead gifts her gloves that make her feel not only safe, but beautiful. literally on the verge of tears thinking about that scene because it was so tender and beautiful and like a testament of how much he thinks and CARES about cinder…also its his way of showing how much it matters to him that she attends the ball. like that scene makes me wanna SCREAM AND CRY AND CURL UP INTO A BALL!!! especially because of its cruel bittersweetness like kaider angst hits like nothing else…like i love kaider fluff but their angst…theres something in the sauce with them

scarlet: one chapter is so cruel for this one like the plot development in this book is probably the best bc of its pacing IMO like there are so many moments across the book that really make it SHINE BUT if its only one chapter it has to be the opening chapter where scarlet (bad bitch) gets up on the tavern bar and defends cinder!!! she is the ONLY character that takes into consideration and expresses empathy for cinder and her AGE and NEVER holds her cyborg or lunar status against her!!!! also the shirt comment in front of wolf is LMFAOOOOOOO LIKE NOBODY SAID THAT!!!!! but that is my favorite chapter. marissa meyer put her wrussy (writer pussy) into that one

cress: during my original read this was my FAVORITE but on reread this is now my least favorite book! too much cresswell not enough scarlet/winter or scarlet/wolf content. like marissa meyer did a great job giving us kaider angst and mutual pining but absolutely FLOPPED on the wolflet front like cmon girl. FAVORITE CHAPTER HMMMMMMMM its the one where cinder tortures thaumaturge sybil! its a testament to her growth and mastery of her glamour like she really is so powerful! i wished she used it more in winter TBH but yeah her torturing sybil was soooo satisfying and i wish she did it more. like she really is the GOAT

winter: okay this is gonna sound crazy but its tie between cinder throwing herself off the ledge into artemesia lake and cinder getting stabbed in the heart. I CAN EXPLAIN 😭 I AM NOT CRAZY!!! cinder herself off the ledge is absolutely FUCKING insane i won’t lie it makes me giggle cause like GIRL I GET IT BUT THROWING YOURSELF OFF A 5+ STORY BUILDING WAS NOT THE ANSWER!!!!! IT REALLY KILLED ME READING THAT LIKE CAN YOU IMAGINE WITNESSING YOUR GF THROW HERSELF INTO DEATH LIKE THAT….OKAY FOR THE OTHER SCENE i loved the cinder being stabbed in the heart scene which sounds SO fucked up but i liked it because marissa meyer did a phenomenal job carrying cinder’s voice and depicting the absolute exhaustion that cinder felt during that moment. like cinder was TIRED like she’s BEEN THRU IT!!! her getting stabbed in the heart was really a culmination of this pattern where cinder expresses kindness and forgiveness to those who’ve deeply harmed her and her showing levana empathy even after levana tried to MURDER her and everyone cinder loved is so…cinder is so selfless and loving and her getting stabbed was peak heartbreak (which i realize is a pattern. i loveeeee suffering) but also i desperately want to know how/why kai left behind the earthen leaders and how he FUCKING FOUND HER SO QUICKLY! also the fact that her last sight is of the boy she loved but she felt could never have just really makes me burst into tears like cinder baby girl if only knew how much YOU (not your princess or queen or fugitive status) were worth it to kai and everyone in the rampion crew GAH IM CRYING I JUST LOVE HER SO MUCH!!

I SOUND SOOOOO UNHINGED BUT THESE ARE MY FAVORITE CHAPTERS <3 CINDER BABY GIRL I LOVE YOU. i just love so crazy quickly deteriorating from wholesome kaider/wolflet to cinder just…suffering LMFAO

thank you for the ask!! <3

#mine #the lunar chronicles #text #ask

[jemmo]

In akk's imagination ayan kisses him fiercely, passionately. Like he thought of him as fire that could burn him. In reality ayan kisses him gently, softly. He's more like water. He has this whole tsunami in his heart from all the hurt but its like all of that chaos calms down when he's with akk.

oh anon you put this so perfectly i could cry

bc yes, that’s how akk manifests that moment, as a huge relief, as a chance to take everything he can, or in his case be given everything he’s ever wanted. it’s a moment of indulgence that isn’t guaranteed so he takes it for all he’s worth.

but in reality, that isn’t what this kiss is for ayan. no, for ayan it’s quiet and gentle and calm, it’s a display of care and understanding. akk wants to be broken but ayan handles him so carefully so as to not let a singe crack form, he cares about him too much for that. he’ll take what he can without letting it shatter in his hold. and i think that’s really helpful for him, bc he does have all this anger pent up inside of him and he’s more than happy to unleash the full force of it on other people, but not with akk. he empathises with him too much, cares for him too much, so he restrains himself. ayan is this huge tidal wave being funnelled through a tiny stream, so steady you’d never expect it to be caused by a dam breaking. and it hurts to think that he might act like that bc he’s so acutely aware of how easily the things he cherishes can be taken from him, so he both cherishes them more fiercely but also treats them more gently, like they could disappear at any moment. it’s heartbreaking but beautiful and that’s why i adore it so so sooooooooo much

#wow anon this whole metaphor is so beautiful #like I love this contrast I didn’t even think about it #bc it’s almost like akk doesn’t have a full gauge on just what he is to ayan #how much he means to him #what he does for him in terms of simply giving him something to smile about being someone he can joke and have fun with someone with whom #everything falls away and when stripped down they can just be two boys that like each other #it’s escapism in someone that embodies the thing you’re trying to escape from and that’s SO FUCKING INTERESTINGGGGGG #the eclipse

[polyampanbyautywaffle]

Heartbreak High is very loud

Don't get me wrong, it's amazing seeing the representation from Quinni but it's very raw to see it

Just watched the Angeline episode and there were sooooooooo many things that vibed with me which makes sense because same condition but like, so many things

#actually autistic #autism #heartbreak high #quinni heartbreak high #chloe hayden

[poltergeist-coffee]

OK but brunim being forevers first love but then after being separated not being able to find him again, until he finds a fisherman who has a striking resemblance to his love

initially his love for phil was purely aesthetic, simply because he looked so much like his lost love. then slowly but surely this fisherman worms his way into his heart with how kind he is, how caring he is towards forever

then he starts to notice the differences between the two where brunims eyes were cold and icy, Phil's are warm and kind. we're brunims eyes were the colour of a harsh winter storm, phils are brighter than the oceans blue and clearer than the open sky. where brunims words could be sharp, phils are only ever soft and sweet.

slowly the differences add up and forever realizes he's not chasing after an old love anymore, he's creating a whole new one that instead of making him freeze, it melts him and lets him free

he will always love brunim, but his love for philza is so much more than just chasing what is gone, it's new and exciting and maybe this time it won't end in a heartbreak

-🪶

I’m combusting into flames AS WE SPEAK my heart is SHATTERED in IN SHAMBLES this is sooooooooo !!!!!!!!!!

Oh my god he starts noticing the differences and falls in love all over again but it’s different because it’s with someone new and he gets to find out all the things that make Phil him and about what humans can really be like not just hunters??? Excuse me I need to cry

#✉️ asks or whatever #poltergeists mermaid au #🪶anon

[taekeofyourclothes]

[PROLOGUE] encrypted to you. (for-life series)

pairing astrophysicist!v x extra-terrestrial!reader conspectus after experiencing heartbreak on their home planet of grhamemor, y/n decides to leave and find themself on another planet. they land on earth, where they end up in the nasa astrophysics laboratory, feeling lost and alone. it's there that they meet taehyung, an astrophysicist who has a passion for understanding the mysteries of the universe. taehyung is immediately drawn to y/n, and the two hit it off, spending long hours together in the lab and exploring the beauty of earth. as y/n's feelings for taehyung grow stronger, they start to forget about the troubles that led them to leave grhamemor in the first place. however, one day, y/n receives an encrypted message that intercepts their peaceful life on earth. the message urges them to return to grhamemor immediately, warning that something terrible will happen to taehyung if they don't. y/n is conflicted, torn between their love for taehyung and their duty to her home planet. as y/n struggles to make a decision, they are reminded of their true identity as an unearthly being. the message they received was a warning from her home planet leaving taehyung's fate unclear, but it's undoubted that y/n will never forget him, and the memory of their love will stay with them forever. word count 1.2k notes FIRST SERIES AAAAAAAAAAAA - this will be a five chapter series, and incase your new and confused KJDAKKJSD this isn't actually a "for-life" series those are my story indicators meaning this series will be both fluffy and angsty soooOOOOoo now that's cleared up - again, all this is fiction; please feel free to leave feedback and criticism!! love love, elio x

your words fall on deaf ears once again, and nguyheat repeats them verbatim, unable to read between the lines. "this is pointless," you snap, exasperated. "you always do this, nguyheat. i am stripped of everything, and you come here to chastise me with your pitiful excuse of a relationship!" his eyes flash with anger at this then moves with a menacing stride towards you, his towering figure intimidating. despite being together for almost three grhamemorian years, you knew this moment would be one of those memories that you'd dread remembering, it was as if it were a never-ending millennium on this desolate planet. you never thought you would fear nguyheat, your knight in shining armor, the one who'd always remember you if everyone forgot, the one who rescued you from agony when grhamemorians with unknown intentions tried to harm you, you've forgotten them for they were a long-gone thought until today which reminded you, these past few months have been cruel. your once-great planet is now ruled by a crooked monarchy that makes anyone who opposes them disappear in the blink of an eye - your family fell victim to their malfeasance. you can hardly remember the color of your mother's eyes. and now, even your love has become corrupt. all of this.. you've been trying to wrap your head around it and nguyheat being the last piece of this unbecoming puzzle, it was all an invitation.

to leave grhamemor, all of the happiness in your brain was dissipating by the second every single minute you lingered still on these melancholic grounds. "y-y/n.." his eyes pleading; reaching into yours touching the frontal cortex to attempt hindering these forming evocations of your new found fear of him only to fail, this new idea of him would forever be embedded in your memory and it had your hearts contorting into the most bizarre configurations from the most excruciating shapes and forms and it was the last straw, that was it - this would be the final curtain call. "get for me your memories of us, nguyheat. and forge new ones elsewhere." you tried to whisper but he refused to listen to that chant, he'd hug you for the last time.. and spoke softly into your ear "everything but that, honey... curse me, pain me, leave me, just please... i beg of you, don't ever forget me.." and he'd hold back his tears from trickling by closing his eyes but instead of looking at now, he'd look to see the you that wasn't scared of him - he stays in this dream leaving him oblivious of your departure from your togetherness as you ran and ran knowingly and were now outside in the public braver than ever and ready to take that leap of faith to disappear and to abandon home adieu. "GRHAMEMOR," your voice rings all throughout for all the world to hear you - "LIBERTY IS WITHIN US, NOT UPON US." and here it begins, grhamemorians paralleling your now former lovers action of listening with ears closed by opening their window to look at you and hear you out.. "LET US BRING JUSTICE AND ABOLISH THE MALVERSATION OF OUR CORRUPT GOVERNMEN!-" you were about to say when your sights begun blurring and the peoples noises roaring for your speech to continue slowly became this unnerving frequency and you find yourself in a glowing blue confinement of a room.

unsettling feelings seeped into your bones as you pick yourself up, feeling less lighter than normal and extremely uncomfortable - "good god this place was anything but grhamemor..." you thought in jittery, where the lleh were you? was this the after-life? was this white room that emitted a light blue glow the nevaeh your parents would always tell you about? all these thoughts tower higher and heavier on your shoulders compelling you to breathe out a sad sigh.. however despite the torpor feeling you were experiencing, you bring yourself to examine the chambers you find yourself in - bumping into multiple files that were named "project aigrette" with ebony bird feather doodles plaguing said folders and inside were perfectly written words in this upside-down lexicon of your very own tebahpla from grhamemor, after realizing so you learn of this new language and though there were new words from this text - there were perfectly detailed little scaled paintings beside the indented articles of exploration, usage of numbers in the millions to explain the planet's "weight and height", "the distance of this new planet from the sun", "its rotational axis" and whatnot, studies on this unnamed planet that just so happen to perfectly resemble yours.. does the afterlife really have to investigate your life after you had passed? what is the purpose of this nevaeh's curiousity of grhamemor, it had you in a daze truly - but you felt furthermore baffled as your curse of wondering lead you to continue dwelling on the subject of your home.. the scripts never went beyond grhamemorians all of this was just describing the surface level of your planet and how it was a "new discovery" despite grhamemor being a celestial body thats been existing since the beginning, but no in nevaeh for some reason it's named planet 72656D656D626572... "what a ridiculous name" you uttered in a low voice. y/n closes the files no longer wanting to entertain the curiousity in her head to then meet eyes with.. nguyheat? "how the hell did you get here?!" you both yelled in unison.. well nguyheat saying so backwards for some odd reason, "even in here, nguyheat? you really plan to torment me up to neveah!" you furiously raise the volume of your voice to be shushed by your approaching past lover? up closer he looks different.. "excuse me? i don't know who you are and what you think you're doing but i know well that you are trespassing my private quarters and you are illegally disclosing my classified research for unknown purposes which i can have you imprisoned for." he was not intimidating at all though, i mean he didn't have you at ease but his sternness was not something that had you feel guilty rather than fearful.

"my apologies? is this.. not neveah?" you lightly croaked out with a deer-in-headlights expression on your face looking at the living terrestrial who was a split image of your past lover... "neveah? nguyheat? listen here, you think your plan is clever? well news flash, spy. it's not working, i will have security handle you." he was about to head towards this crimson circular button and raise his arm to press it but you'd stop him as you didn't wish to leave.. neveah and be sent to a possible lleh.. as you were still confused, "wait wait, please i am not a spy! don't have them..! my-uhm, my name is y/n! y/n l/n." you lively stutter and looked like a lost animal, making him cock an eyebrow as he hesitantly brings back his arm no longer planning to have security handle you perchance. "are you a new recruit?" his demeanor lightly sheds some sternness while he leans on the pristine inclined rectangle desks in this enclosure, "so this was a military unit?" you thought.. having you decisively lie responding with a "yes.." you look down at your lower appendages awaiting his reaction to only hear a heart-fluttering baritone laugh - "oh.. my apologies for overreacting then y/n, i.. uhm am just not used to company here.." you look up to see him smiling shyly.. one which you returned, "my name is taehyung, astrophysicist." he reaches out his right hand, which for some reason urged you to hold it with both of your hands and shake it up and down - taehyung chuckles at this, he was something new.. © live laugh love kim taehyung, good boy.

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