#sorry for the essay in the tags but yeah. i think about this moment a lot

[tottenhamhotsperm]

i think about this moment all the time

#aew #young bucks #matt jackson #nick jackson #golden lovers #kenny omega #kota ibushi #video #first of all screw off jr for calling it a double v trigger and thank you excalibur for using the CORRECT name #i just. love how the bucks use the golden trigger on him the move that he and ibushi created so thats just. a huge fuck you to him #as one reddit user said its like reminding him 'this is why your ex broke up with you' #and kenny retaliated by kicking out at 1 #god. the crowd reaction was amazing too i mean cmon jr if all those people in the crowd know the story behind it shouldnt you too #nicks expression after kenny kicked out. perfect. kenny hitting the mat. amazing. they dont make matches like this anymore #sorry for the essay in the tags but yeah. i think about this moment a lot #gl classics

[henryhas2moms]

ouat s7: regina is doing great! she has finally found some peace with herself and she is not drowning in self loathing anymore.

me: that’s wonderful! she’s come so far and it’s good to see her happy🥰🥰

ouat s7: she still has no sense of self preservation and she’s gonna try to sacrifice herself at least twice though.

me: 😅🙃🫠

#if you’re wondering i’m talking about the time she drops a tower on her head to get drizella to use magic to save her #the time she tells wish henry it’s fine if he kills her— she won’t be mad. and the time she sends all her potential allies away and #goes to fight the big bad with only a baseball bat #sorry for fixating on regina’s martyr complex as if i can help it #but actually i love all these moments bc the drizella one is a flip on her magic lessons with emma and a parallel for her lessons with mal #and the henry one is a cool flip of her relationship with her own dad #and the gothel one okay only half her allies she sends away by choice- some of them are… absent. despite her hopes #so she’s not alone entirely by choice but she’s still gonna fight cause she’s sure as hell not gonna give up #AND THEN we get another regal believer tlk 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 #but yeah she……… needs help :-( #regina mills #s7 #sacrifice #tw suicidality #……. heavily implied :/ #sorrrrrrrrrry i think about this a lot bc she is tempting death twice a season minimum (and i think that’s a severe underestimate actuall) #she stresses me the fuck out istg #but that’s our regina! #oh #tag essays #i’m kind of annoyed about this though (at myself for feeling the need to make this post and typing so very much in the tags)

[maskspurpose]

what other two fics? just curious, you don't have to answer ofc

LOL no worries um the first one started out as 2nd year watarei but is currently kind of spiralling in terms of scale and may just end up as a general 2nd year-centric fic. kind of encompassing some of my rship headcanons for them and some wataru gender stuff (which is why its been growing in scale because i realized the conclusion im leading towards in terms of gender stuff may be kind of ummmm depressing depending on your own perspective).

the other one is post-canon watayuzu! specifically like one year in the future when tori is the only fine member left at yumenosaki and maybe a bit about the way that might shake of fine dynamics (clearly, since its watayuzu...)

#the gender stuff is 'depressing' in the sense that i think 2nd year wataru has some like Gender Moments but ultimately decides that like #exploration and everything else aside theres Too Much Happening to worry abt this stuff rn so they kind of decide to 'play' a 'boy' #bc thats one less thing to worry about! and ofc we can like argue abt how successful that is considering the theater club stories etc #but um yeah. #the whole premise for that fic was just the line wataru has to natsume abt how like any teenage boy will inevitably crossdress to #impress someone in like a romantic way from rocket start #and how its phrased etc etc #and ALSO me personally thinking it would be rlly funny if like wataru at age 20 or whatever was like hold on. i have gender. #and looking back on idk lesbian romeo and juliet from their third year and being like HOW DIDNT I NOTICE??? #hm sorry tag essay and not a rlly coherent one either

[olderthannetfic]

Fanvid anon here again. Sorry for this veeery long ask!

In reply to this: /728290706491375616 Holy shit, thank you for the fandom history lesson and the video recommendations, I will go through all of them! (Not right now yet as I'm currently procrastinating studying for two uni exams that are next week and for which I have done almost nothing yet, oops. Will sit down to watch them this evening though.) I feel you on the "motivated by spite" part. "Oh, you think they aren't cute together and you think it's silly/stupid/nonsensical to ship them? Well, let me gather all my reasons for this being my OTP and smash them in your face then!"

Also thank you for the advice, I'll probably refrain from tagging it as ship manifesto then, heh. And about most fanvids not being on AO3, I sent this ask late at night when I was sleepy and tired, and when I saw your reply, I was like "oh yeah right, the fic itself on AO3 would just be empty if the link were broken due to takedowns, not automatically removed, the fuck was I thinking" XD

In reply to this: /728297732625907712 Thank you very much for the programme recommendations! I recently had a tiny look around at what people use for cutting and editing videos and then spontaneously downloaded Openshot. I'll definitely check out DaVinci Resolve. Btw the reason why I thought about getting into vidding was that I tried to make gifs again after not having done that in years, and my files were over 200mb because I had forgotten how to gif for tumblr, ha! Had wanted to put those gifs on a ship manifesto-ish thingy on tumblr, but then thought that many of those moments go on a little too long to put into one gif each, and thought I might as well try to make a fanvid of their moments together.

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I don't think anyone will be offended if you tag 'ship manifesto'. I just think they'll be expecting a little essay to go along with your vid. Given how underused the entire manifesto genre of meta is on AO3, I don't think anyone's going to be too bothered by "extra" things in the tag.

Gifsets can be nice, but honestly, the amount of work to really make them tidy and pretty probably isn't any less than to make a basic vid, yeah.

[prototypelq]

This is by no means hate, but putting that one post in the BG3 tag was an interesting choice. The tag is predominantly occupied by fans of the game and kinda comes off as a bit needlessly antagonistic? I just don't want people to be hurt and I also don't want you to end up receiving hate. Again sorry if my tone doesn't come through very well in this, this is just meant as a friendly heads up type thing. Hope you have a good day!

Hi, thanks for the message. No worries, your post doesn't come off as anything but a cautious message for me. And it's warranted.

Eh, I don't care about upsetting some toxic fans, they will be upset no matter what you do, and I think this is an issue worth highlighting. Obviously, a big fandom attracts...I can't phrase this any better - a bad crowd. And, well, while I am outside the fandom I can kind of not care about them most of the time, but the one comment about BG3 deserving the Best Narrative over Alan Wake 2 had me a bit foaming myself xD

I value arguemented opinions of all kinds, but fans like those are usually just rabid. Mostly for Astarion. Which, yeah, from what I've seen he had the most of the writer's an animators attention, so it's valid he is a fan-fave, however it does come at an expense of Almost Every Other Companion and you can't really remove or ignore that context now, can you. Thing is, again, not really my problem at the moment.

What is my problem is when the hype goes so out of hand it starts spreading out of it's fandom containment. If I see a person claiming 'BG3 is the best game ever', or 'RDR2 is the best game ever' or 'Witcher 3 is the best game ever' or any other popular title, I can and will confidently say in your face - No. It might be the best game TO YOU, and that's great! Everyone should have a favourite title!

But no game is perfect, so having a favourite doesn't mean you can barge everywhere screaming 'my game is so superior why didn't it get every single award i'll write death threats on twitter about it'. And those kinds of rabid fans usually are the type to do just that.

I would gladly listen to anyone discuss/write an essay about their favourite game, and it can absolutely be any of the titles I mentioned above, they are popular for a Reason, after all. At least, in these cases they are popular for a reason, that's not applicable to everything in my experience. But, when it comes to critics awards things are different, that should be a time for a more critical view. Which, to be fair, is extremely freaking hard to do, as being objective about anything is impossible, and being 'objective' about thing you're Emotional about is impossible by definition. That's why the end of the year awards are such a conflicting time and topic to discuss. Valuable critics opinion is also absolutely NOT to be expected from TGA as it's a hype train for the hype train and ads sake, but it's also a cool fun show, and we can enjoy what we get there.

tldr Alan Wake 2 absolutely deserved that Best Narrative Award, BG3 fans I am open to discussion about this. oh, and all rabid fangirls get immediately blocked, of course, I don't need you here or anywhere on the internet at all.

Anon, again, thanks for the warning, but I'll be fine) I also hope my reply doesn't come off as antagonistic to you in return. Have a great day yourself!

#i guess im feeling brave after taking on vergil xD #eh i think rabid fangirls need opposition in every fandom #its a loosing battle though and im aware of that #the game awards #bg3 #baldur's gate 3

[t4tcecilos]

omg tell me abt josh crayton .....

hiiii omg twirls my hair <3 its essay time <3 @itawalrus also asked ^w^ tagging bc. i can.

okay im super attached to him as a character first off. hes just. hes SO night vale.

like!! to me. he really represents one of the core aspects of wtnv, which is showing humans being humans, and overall humanity being humanity. hes a shapeshifter!!! and yet!!! hes still so HUMAN and REAL!!

hes described as "a boy of many forms but only one self.” which first of all. cool as hell. second. hes genderqueer to me. tbh.

he got stuck. as a waterfall. for A While. because he was anxious!! which yeah ive never done that personally BUT I GET IT!!!

theres one moment in it devours! that ive been thinking about which when nils is questioning him about one of the pits that appeared, and he says: “I wish I could help you more. You seem like a nice lady with good intentions. But I don't want to get in any trouble. And I'm just a kid. I like to think I'm more than that, but sometimes I'm just a kid. I'm sorry.”

hes a highschooler at that point in the story and it just. hits so much. hes just a kid!!! hes a shapeshifter yeah, and he likes to think hes more than just a teenager but at his core hes still a kid. which. IDK i related to that lol

i just think its so interesting how this background character who’s not technically human is written to be so realistic and real. he’s literally a highschooler hes my friend josh!!!!! he’s insecure and he pretends he isn’t!!!!! hes struggled throughout his life in many ways (not just bc hes a shapeshifter)

he loves his mom and he loves his sister even if he struggles w that sometimes!!! he likes multiple genders!!!! people understand him and his emotions even when hes a creature/idea/thing that cant show them!!! he loves being cute animals….

im a sucker for inhuman characters being some of the most human characters <333 ilove josh crayton hes my best friend

#posts #HES !!!!!! ONE OF MY FAVS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #theres also something to be said about how ingrained he is in the night vale community!!! hes IN the story <3 hes there<3 #weve never even heard his voice . blinks #asks #wtnv #welcome to night vale #josh crayton #idk if this is coherent but its fine. dances #shoutout to josh crayton. one of the most boygirls ever

[lollytea]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Mar tagged me in this. Thank you Mar <333

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

22

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

358,837

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Owls....for now and the foreseeable future. Other things in the past but....owls. Owls and nothing else.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

There's Sunshine in Your Smile

Atlas and the Avid Reader

A Little Change

An Exercise in Understanding

Girl Talk

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I don't, I'm sorry!! When I first started posting on ao3, I answered every comment I got, but as more came in, I realized I was running out of ways to respond and it felt like I was just copy and pasting "thank you so much omg!!!" again and again and it felt awkward and disingenuous. (I meant it tho!! I did!!)

Also I never have any idea how to respond to long essay type comments that were picking the fic apart and highlighting everything they like about it. I ADORE those comments!!! They make me happier than anything else on earth but HOW can I respond to them?? A one liner thanks feels cheap and meaningless, but a long ramble about my own stuff feels arrogant.

So I just stopped replying to comments altogether. But listen please listen!!! I do read them!!! I read every single one of them and I love and appreciate them with all my heart!!! Thank you so so SO much to anybody who's ever left a comment on anything I've written!!!

6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don't really write angsty endings. I guess atlas and pages both ended on a bit of a bittersweet note? Maybe.

That one ducktales fic Fearless left off on a kinda angsty cliffhanger, only because I never finished it. So it's technically an ending

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Man I dunno most of them are kinda open ended (or unfinished) I suppose A Little Change ended on a sickeningly sweet note. Like disgustingly sweet (because I was 19 and stupid and had no concept of subtlety) Penniless Promises ended with a marriage proposal.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

No the only hate comment I've ever gotten is this one

It kinda annoys me. I consider your first hate comment to be a special milestone in your fanfic writing history. I've been waiting years for this. And then I FINALLY get it but I have no fucking idea what it means.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I've written bits and pieces over the years but I don't post any of it. I think the last "smut" I posted was weird werewolf knotting shit in like 2017

What kind? Fuckin uhhhhh. It's always very fluffy. Usually there's nothing weird going on. Sometimes there's monsters involved but the monsters are usually massive sweethearts who just want love.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

No

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yes. A few times. And it's always fucking wattpad. At one point, somebody put my fic through Google translate and reposted it in Spanish. I would have been completely unaware if somebody hadn't messaged me about it.

The process of getting them to take it down was a fucking circus. Their ability to use Google translate suddenly vanished the moment I contacted them.

I reported it and had to go back and forth with Wattpad support because the fic was IN SPANISH, so they just kinda glanced at it and were like "This is not the same thing that you wrote. These are different words. Spanish words." I was losing my MIND!!!!!!

They took it down eventually. Anyway...sorry I went on a tangent, I just think this is a funny story. Moral of the story is there are probably several stolen fics on wattpad and run through translators, and we have no idea. There might be more of mine on there but honestly I do not have the energy to be monitoring the stupid site. I hate wattpad so much its unreal.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

As we have just learned from the above story, yes :D!!

But also yeah, some people asked permission to translate my stuff and post it with credit. Sunshine has been translated into Spanish and Ukrainian!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No I can barely manage to write them myself

14. What’s your all-time favourite ship?

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

Undocumented Events of March 23rd. I might update it at some point in the next five years. But I had so many chapters planned that it will probably never reach the ending at the pace I'm going with it. But I love the jungle book husbands. I get back to them at some point in time

16. What are your writing strengths?

Word disease is the worst fucking thing ever but it CAN be a good thing in some circumstances. A huge meaty chunk of a fic. Something to dig into. Having a lot to say can lead to a lot to write. And the more you write, the more likely you'll get some quality stuff in there.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I repeat. Word disease is the worst fucking thing ever. And when it's coupled with a complexity addiction, UGGH!!! It's a blight on my life. I can't just write a simple straightforward fic, without getting carried away and the ideas just get bigger and bigger. Suddenly I'm implementing more elaborate concepts, scenes that need to be handled delicately. Everything takes absolutely all of my brainpower because I'm a neurotic overthinker who can never just RELAX and write something fun. And I WANT all of it. I want to execute all the plans that exist in my head but then I get overwhelmed by how big and complicated everything has gotten and I get burned out. Which is why things so rarely get done.

I'm a perfectionist. A horrible terrible one. I struggle to write ANYTHING without carefully constructing every individual line of it. Which makes progress so slow and tedious. I get scared to even START fics because I'm afraid I'll make myself feel awful again if they don't turn out good.

My grammar is very imperfect but I'm working on that.

I can be very unnecessarily wordy and take forever to get to the point. I've reread my own stuff and even I have difficulty following it because the sentences just have so many bells and whistles for no good reason. I completely forget a huge chunk of vocab and don't realize they are simpler way to phrase things.

My attempts at executing believable emotional scenes often fall kinda flat. Writing drama is hard but I'm amazed by some people's capability to master it so I'm chipping away at it, hoping to get better.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I don't really have any thoughts at all about them. Literally none.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

I'd like to say it was Trolls but it was actually Hetalia when I was like 14. But I do everything within my power to distance myself from Hetalia, so I like to say it doesn't count. But....need to be honest.

20. Favourite fic you’ve ever written?

Currently, at this point that I am at, the ones I used to be the most proud of now feel like they were a waste of time. I'm sure that will change again in a few months. How I feel about my own stuff is never consistent. The way that this question is phrased implies a forever favourite. Something I loved then, I love now and will love in future, and that is just never the case.

But also I don't wanna be an Eeyore about it, so I'll say a trance, a dance, a romance perchance?

I really do love my fairy Willow. She's so special to me :D!!

Tagging: after writing this whole post, I now feel very weird tagging people specifically and being like "HEY YOU! Look at this post I made <33" This is like a don't look at me post. BUT I do have lots of writer mutuals. And writer followers. If you're one of them and you see this....you!!!! Tag youre it!!!!

[lydiaisgeeky]

Meant to Be

Jason x Reader Fanfic

1. Meeting (w.c. 1667)

I've always kept a low profile at Gotham Academy. Not really worth it to call attention most kids here were rich and well I was here on scholarship. I did well in school- I knew I would have to make my own way. My family wasn't poor in any way but we certainly weren't rich. We live in Gotham because it's cheap. Rent is low due to the criminal activity however we noticed less activity happened at Gotham Academy so I did my best to get myself there. But now I'm standing at my locker praying that my locker neighbor wouldn't show up. Richard Grayson. He seems sweet but so do the rest. He typically hangs around the locker all morning with his friends who always seem to be changing.  Either way he wasn't here right now and I'm hoping he won't be here today. I grabbed my books and put them in my tote. The dress code was so strict that you had to have a specific colored bag. I didn't want to deal with comments about how I didn't have a designer bag so I went with a simply canvas tote. My school rented laptop was the last to go in the bag. I shut my locker and debated on staying here. If Richard wasn't coming I could sit here and work on homework or I could head to the library as always. I decided to head to the library because I didn't want to risk it and have the embarrassment of leaving so off to the library I went.

"Hey y/n! So this is where you disappear to everyday? Huh so thats studious you isn't just an act. Wow crazy" I snapped my head towards the sound. Sure enough there comes Richard with someone in tow. "What are you working on?" He started flipping through my homework "Wow you know this essay isn't due until next week" I nodded. It was true but school laptops can't leave the school or you have to pay crazy insurance.

"I uh my home laptop is well um broken so you know I have to get this essay done plus one for history and I also have to type a script for an elective and there is only so many hours you know" Maybe I kept a low profile because I couldn't keep myself from rambling. Richard smiled at me.

"Oh yeah well that's alot. I think we may have a spare laptop or two at home that we were going to donate right Jason" the kid next to him shrugged "Oh I'm sure we do - do you want one you are more than welcome to donate it after your done." I began to shake my head no but he didn't really look for my response he just continued on. "Oh this is Jason by the way he's in your class uh maybe you two can check your schedules." He leaned over me and pulled up my schedule. He was my TA so I wasn't surprised he could do that what I was surprised about was how Jason's schedule matches mine almost exactly. Same home room and same core classes same elective times but different electives.

"Cool it looks like we have most of the same classes" the other kid said. I had been keeping my head down not really looking at him but at that moment I looked up and saw the most handsome guy I had seen. He had this amazing dark hair stunning blue eyes. He was thin but fit. He look no different than I did. His uniform disheveled and it looked like he had a completely normal non recognizable bag.

"Yeah we do" I smiled. "You just transfered here? Cus you are more than welcome to borrow any of my notes I don't take them home. Most of my school stuff stays here anyways and um I'm sorry hi - I'm y/n"

"Anyways I was going to show Jason the rest of the school did you want to tag along y/n? I have a feeling you don't even know everything about Gotham Academy." Richard's blue eyes were shinning with excitement.

"Sure" I said running a mental to do list of what I could rearrange to make up for the lost school work. Richard was beaming. He gave a great tour of the school. Jason didn't seem too interested in the tour. The bell rang and so Richard handed the tour over to me to get Jason to the first class.

Jason stopped me before entering. "Tell me how stupid do I look? This is such a fancy school - am I fucking this up? I wish I could just go back to my old school." He spun around and hit a locker. I jumped a bit but then put my hand on his arm.

"Hey you look fine to me. Besides if you keep your head down the elite tend to not notice you. Richard seems to break that mold but I haven't seen anyone else even remotely care about me. You wouldn't be in these classes if you weren't good at school so you'll be fine."

"The elite? What's that supposed to mean everyone here is the elite."

"Right. Everyone. Certainly there's no one here on scholarship. I'm going to go inside being late draws attention." I turn away and shrink - why did I think he could be like me. I found my seat just inside the classroom door. I was in the front but out of the way. I figured this might be a good time to make up for lost time. Jason slid into the seat next to me.

This was pretty consistent for the classes we had together. Then lunch hit. Richard grabbed Jason. I assumed they were going off campus so I found my corner. It was a little alcove hidden away by the classic books. There weren't any desks in the area so I'd sit on the floor with my back against a bookshelf. I put on my headphones and worked on my homework. I made a huge dent so I decided to grab my favorite Jane Austin book off the shelf and to my shock I saw Jason grabbing a Jane Austin as well.

"That's a good one" I say to Jason. He turns to me as if he was caught. I smile and held up my book "I've read Pride and Prejudice at least 5 times and I've read" I look at his book "Emma at least 3 times" He was still frozen in horror "Don't worry I won't tell".

I sat back down lost in thought. I knew Jason was essentially a stranger and every girl my fantasize about the new kid but he just seems so genuinely cool. I tried to push him out of mind as I finished the school day. I was going to my locker fairly confidently as Richard never hung out there after-school. I was switching my bags and grabbing my change of clothes about to head to the bathroom to change and look like a Gothamite once again.

"Y/n good I'm glad I caught you." I integrally groaned Richard was running up the hallway. "Jason will need someone to get him caught up did you want to come over some day and do a tutor session with him. We can drive you home or your driver could pick you up I am not really sure how it would be go down for you"

"I wish I could help but I'm not sure I could feasibly go to your house. Richard-"

"Dick"

"What?!"

"No no no" He laughed and smiled "Dick call me Dick outside of school it's a nickname for Richard my parents called me that. It's what they called my grandfather so"

"That's cruel but okay. Dick. I'm on scholarship here. I don't have money okay and I don't think your driver wants to be driving through my neighborhoods especially at night and I don't have a car yet so I just don't think it'd be a good idea."

"Jason has a motorcycle. I can almost promise you he'd drive you back but we don't really care about where you live. Come over for dinner and study and someone will take you back. My adoptive dad is always trying to get us to bring friends over. Please" He asked with a puppy dog look.

"You have plenty of friends bring one of them"

"Please no I don't I have people who want to get into Wayne Enterprise someday. I have people who want to sleep with me but not anything else. Trust me I don't really have friends."

The internal stuggle was real. I just couldnt say no to him at this moment "Fine but I have to call my parents or they will think I've been kidnapped- like I said we don't live in the best area."

"Sure, sure" I walked away from Dick messing with his hair and hear him getting on the phone.

My folks were totally fine with me going over to someone's house they were happy I was making friends. So I suppose that's a good thing. I changed into my normal clothes cursing myself for not wearing something nicer. I came back to Dick sitting against my locker and Jason on Dicks. Both of them looked up at the same time with the same expression of their faces.

"I'm sorry I had to change if I wore my uniform in my neighborhood I promise I'd get mugged" I put the uniform in my locker after the boys stood up and grabbed my keys and looked at Jason. "What notes do you need. I can't take them home so what ever you need you'll need to bring back tomorrow" Jason shrugged so I continued. "Let's take it all I'm sure I'll be fine tomorrow". I grabbed my note books being careful to leave my laptop. And we headed outside.

#jason todd x reader #batboys x reader #jason x reader #robin #red hood #nightwing #batfamily #batman #gotham #gotham academy

[arsquare]

For the Wip challenge

6. Traitor arc real

9. Height difference 1

10. Cycles

17. Pathologic

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WOW we got some diversity in this ask. to start off we have 6. Traitor arc real, which was an illustration that I did in a fit of madness after I saw some tags alluding to Sagisawa's Lost Traitor Arc <- go read @kitreadsbirdmen's essay on this I am no longer asking

So yeah it's a wildly unpolished drawing that was going to make me explode if I didn't get it out of my system. @midnight-revelation has better words than I do about this so behold:

NAAAURRR!!!!! SAGISAWA!!!! ABANDONED ON THE STEPS!!!!! FOREVER WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO WILL NEVER RETURN!!! AS EISHI SLOWLY BECOMES TAKAYAMA, SAGISAWA SLOWLY BECOMES EISHI: A BIRDMAN LEFT BEHIND. A BIRDMAN WITH GREAT POWER, LEFT LARGELY UNTAPPED. SOMEONE WHO FINALLY MADE THAT CONNECTION THEY HAD BEEN LONGING FOR ONLY TO HAVE IT YANKED OUT OF REACH. SAGISAWA‚ THE ABANDONED. SAGISAWA, THE TRICKSTER. EDEN IS COMING. WILL YOU STAMP YOUR FEET WITH HOW UNFAIR THIS IS OR WILL YOU CONTINUE TO FOLLOW HIM IN ADORATION? WHICH PATH WILL YOU CHOOSE? Sagisawa just looks so… tired in this piece‚ like he's been waiting for so long, and the longer he waits, the more time passes, the further and further he gets the heavenly rays of light, until he wakes up and realizes that he fell asleep waiting. The sun has completely set. The light is gone. Eishi is gone. He's not coming back. And neither is he. And he takes his first step on the path of darkness in his traitor arc.

Look, I can't do a Traitor Arc rewrite justice but I'm just saying that someone out there should do it. I have so many feelings about this. Also everyone should know the blur in the window is Karasuma.

9. Height difference 1! It's the only one on the list that's about the characters from my ballroom dancing manga lol. they're idiots your honor

technically I suppose this is done, but there was supposed to be more pages to this. I can't even really remember what was supposed to happen afterwards though LMAO

I love them! At some point I will probably start posting more about them... Well, I'll have to get myself out of my birdmen hell first. We'll see how long that takes.

10. Cycles! This one is a fic! Karasuma Eishi & Umino Tsubame!

The basic premise is that, well, you know that thing where Karasuma's vision gets fixed, Kamoda's digestion is better than ever, and Sagisawa's dust allergy goes away after they become birds? Well I think about that every time I can't see something or have a tummyache or have a dust allergy moment and one time I was having my period cramps and I was like "damn. I bet this never happens to Umino. I bet she wouldn't get period cramps. I bet they wouldn't even have periods at all. I bet they would just reabsorb their uterine lining instead of doing this stupid thing that the human body does"

Obviously, while I think getting periods is kind of a cringe flaw of the human body, NOT getting your period is also scary as hell. (<- guy, having had absolutely zero sex and a late period: wow what if I am secretly pregnant though. what if I'm about to become the next virgin mary. did you think about that)

Essentially Umino misses her period and freaks out and goes to talk to Marilyn and Tatsume about it, and it turns out Karasuma (<- trans guy in this fic) has been experiencing the same thing. It's a coming out fic in a way I guess.

I just think the premise of transgender Eishi is the funniest thing. Like sorry Umino I was not deliberately trying to hide it from you or anything but while it doesn't really come up in conversation it DOES become kind of apparent in the teambuilding group stripping exercises that you happen to be excluded from so uh. lol. hi. sorry. uh, same hat ?

Here's a snippet of all time from it:

It is only one sentence. I know. HOWEVER it is a sentence of all time SO!

17. Pathologic! So it's like a well-established trend at this point that if I get overly weird about something I always manage to find a way to connect it to Pathologic. DCMK got hit with it, and BIRDMEN got hit with it too a while back. It's not a serious AU by any means, but I DO think Sagisawa would make the birdsties do the stage play for fun (Karasuma isn't having fun though but that's fine)

I am extremely correct in casting Takayama as an executor, Karasuma as the Bachelor, Kamoda as the Haruspex, and Sagisawa and Umino as the two halves of the Changeling. I just think it would be neat. (Takayama is the perfect Executor. Come on, nobody breaks the fourth wall like the Executors and Tragedians. Bonus points for Executors being birds.)

I don't know what was up with me when I drew Takayama's hand but it's a hand of all time. And that's Eva up on the wall btw. if you even care

#asks #vampiregokudera #wow I really do have can't shut up disease lol #yeah sure we'll put this in the birdmen tag #birdmen

[agerefandom]

Hey, thanks to everyone who commented on my DNI question (whether I should expand my DNI to be more detailed). I really appreciate everyone who sent an ask or commented on the post or reached out to me privately! 

Upon reflection, and with people’s suggestions, I think I’ll leave it with the barebones version for the moment. 

I’ll expand on that under the ‘read more,’ but warning for discussions of various types of blogs and discourse, as I’ll get more into the specifics of who I block and who I allow. 

Part one: Blogs That I Block 

There are very few types of blogs/content I block on sight: those are thinspo, pro-s//lf-h/rm, and anything with a lot of graphic nsfw or gore content prominent on their page. I find mentions of both of those first two to be quite triggering and I don’t like when they’re on people’s DNIs because it just reminds me that they exist and it makes me sad, so I don’t include it in my official DNI, but I do block liberally when it comes to that kind of content. 

Kink and nsfw are on my DNI, but I don’t automatically block them, since they could be side-blogs for agere-safe blogs. If they reblog anything or comment anything, they get blocked, but until then I just keep an eye on them (unless their icon is explicit, and then they get blocked). 

I don’t like gatekeeping blogs (ie. terf, transmed, ace exclusionists, fakeclaim blogs, anything like that where people presume they know other people’s identities better than the people themselves). I definitely block people if that’s in their bio or they post discourse about it, but I don’t really like having it in my DNI because I feel like there are people who are like “yeah I’m not sure about {insert identity} but I’m not going to be a jerk or bully people just because I don’t understand it” and sometimes those people get turned away by DNIs like that when they really just need more education and exposure. 

So, yeah. I don’t want it in my DNI because it’s complicated, but if anyone is openly proud of being a queer exclusionist, they get the block button!!! Outta here! 

I’ve never had anyone interact with me who openly identified themselves as racist or pro-trump or or anti-SJW or pro-MAP or anything, but those would definitely get a swift block. But I don’t feel a need to have them in my DNI because I just don’t believe they would respect a DNI if they’re stealth and not obvious enough for me to block on sight. 

Part Two: My Comfort Levels 

I got a lot of very sweet messages encouraging me to expand my DNI because they didn’t want to accidentally request characters or media that bothered me. 

I really don’t feel a need to have any specific media in my DNI, since there’s nothing that regularly bothers me enough that I can’t even see it mentioned. 

I always feel bad turning down people’s requests if they’re something I don’t feel comfortable with or capable of, but I think that’s part of running a blog! And that’s how I make sure that I respect my own boundaries. 

I’m sorry that I can’t offer hard-and-fast rules, so people never have to worry about being politely turned down, but unfortunately my limits are complicated and ever-changing. For example, I’m uncomfortable creating for most police media, but X-Files and My Hero Academia are on my fandom list. It doesn’t make sense! 

The only thing I can promise is that 1) every fandom gets tagged so other people can avoid it or block it, and 2) I will never get mad at anyone for what they request from me. 

At the end of the day, there’s no media on my DNI list because I don’t really judge people for their taste in media. I’ll keep my own limits and decline requests that I don’t want to do (whether too uncomfortable or just too complicated), but I don’t hold anyone else to my personal media standards. 

I know that half the fandoms on my list are problematic for one reason or another, so I’d feel like a terrible hypocrite if I started listing ‘irredeemable media’. 

--

Whoo, thank you for sticking through that absolute ESSAY of a post. Feels good to have it all written out, a lot of this has been unspoken rules, and I like having it all typed out somewhere, even if not many people will read it. 

These boundaries have been developed over the three years I’ve been running this blog, and the ten years I’ve been on tumblr, so you can ask me to expand on them, and I will likely have more thoughts. I’ll probably keep discussion to a minimum to avoid discourse breaking out, but yeah! There’s the whole shebang. 

Imagine if I tried fitting all this into a banner! 

#blog update #tldr: nothing is changing #but i do give everyone a peek behind the curtain #at the blogs that i block #and the ones i keep a close eye on #hark i say nothing #discourse mention

[metalmaul]

finally getting around to blocking porn bots.. following people back.. i actually didn't know people elected to follow me after I assume the few funny posts I've had about like maul star wars and stuff that have made their way around.. hi sorry that my tags are deranged rambling disjointed thoughts and irrelevant stories and I just reblog stuff I think is funny most of the time because my #1 priority is having a laugh, also that like I don't tag most anything properly I'm an impulse in the moment reblogger. a true adhd haver jerma985 style. if you needed me to do that you could send me a message about it I get not wanting to see certain stuff. idk if anyone reads these fuckin essays other than my crossover mutuals but yeah tumblr has not been my habitat of choice for like 11 years at this point and idk how to talk to people here now or like even follow people I feel awkward anxious the whole kit and kaboodle. so. yeah. ok peace and love on planet earth goodbye

#man im fucking dizzy hooo #i need to go to bed

[tasteleeknow]

Hi! I am wondering do you read romance books and if you do what are your fav tropes/ books/authors? Thanks for providing us with such amazing steaming hot fanfics <3

omg your timing.. i was just thinking about this earlier today. i read a lot or i usually do but i haven't since i started writing in september. practically all my free time goes into writing at the moment.

i've had lots of different phases with romance though! i think my most recent was historical romance and then i had a reverse harem (one woman x multiple men) phase before that. they were always like soulmate au but theres like three men and each one fills like a different role like one was puppy and soft and one is tsundere etc etc you get. i've also read all the typical mainstream ones like court of misty and fury (winged dark soulmate who is all soft inside sigh also i think its chapter 52 ??? reread that a lot).

the most recent historial romance i've read was kerrigan bryne's victorian rebels series. the thing about the romance genre is you have to get past the titles and book covers to find gems hfdj. anyway yeah some of those just hit the spot for me. historical romance is really good for like forbidden romance vibes ya know lots of pining. also i literally cannot leave out pride and prejudice. the book and the 2005 film are my comfort media.

i think in terms of like common themes i like it's usually like a dark on the outside but soft on the inside love interest who basically ends up borderline obsessed with the heroine but it isn't toxic ya know? lots of pining required hfjds i actually had like a dramione phase for awhile (even though i've never read the books and don't actually care abt harry potter) because of the dynamic a lot of authors write them with. he's all dark and brooding and he ends up really soft and like desperately in love. 'manacled' is a fic on ao3 which has really dark themes but has some of the best writing and plot and characters i've read in fic (or in general). but yeah BIG trigger warning, read all the tags first. i could rec a lot of fics in that pairing that are really good even if you are like me and don't care abt the original source material at all.

i'm realising i've written an essay. i really could talk about this forever lmao i'm sorry!

#answered

[theteapotofdoom]

I was really afraid you lost interest in bnha and shigadabi so I'm really glad that you still like them

Oh don't worry, these boys have hooked for life at this point!

And I still care about MHA a lot, just not AS MUCH as I used to. But it just means that MHA went from "number one obsession only thing on my mind ever" to "one of my favourite things that I like a lot". I'm just more casual about it these days, but I'm still working on my shigadabi fics, still following the manga from afar and still lurking in the shigaraki tag!

But yeah I'll be honest: you're probably going to see less MHA content on this blog at the moment. Again, I will still talk about it, but it won't be the main thing on my mind. To tell you the truth, it was a matter of time. I've been on Tumblr for almost ten years, and for many years, I was very much a multifandom blog switching from one obsession to another every two months. So it's genuinely impressive that I managed to stay hyperfocused on MHA for four years!

My life has changed a lot since I first got into MHA, I also changed a lot, and MHA itself changed a lot. And that's how things should be! As the manga is slowly coming to an end, it feels almost appropriate that this part of my "fandom life" is changing too. It will always be incredibly important to me because I made lifelong friends thanks to this manga and it genuinely impacted the way I write and the way I view storytelling. But, as you surely know, the MHA fandom can be ... a lot to deal will. It wasn't always nice. I mentioned it before, but there was a time when a certain part of the fandom almost made me drop MHA for good. That was also on me though, because I was just waaaaay too invested in this fictional world and these fictional characters. I try to be more casual about my fandom interests these days. But yeah, this fandom is intense, mostly in the best way, but sometimes in the worst way.

So I think I got some sort of "MHA fatigue" after a while. At times, it feels like we're all running in circles and having the same arguments over and over again. But again, it doesn't mean that I'm quitting the fandom for good or anything! Just that I'm taking a step back and enjoying other things. And honestly, it will only help to keep my love for MHA more vibrant every time I come back to it!

I'm still very much in the shigadabi fandom though. As I mentioned before, I'm a guest writer on the TouTen zine Monochrome! I wrote two stories for this awesome project (one sfw and one nsfw) so if you love the Touya x Tenko pairing, don't hesitate to get your bundle right now!

Okay so as always, I turn a very simple ask into a full-on introspection essay I'M SO SORRY ... It's just that since there are some changes happening on this blog and since I know that a lot of people got to know me through shigadabi, I always feel the need to "clear the air" and make sure that everyone knows where I'm at right now.

But in conclusion: I still adore Shigaraki and Shigadabi, I still read MHA, I still write for Something Good and all my other shigadabi fics, I'm just more low-key about it, and I also want to share other fandoms with you guys :D

[anthropwashere]

Got tagged by @ladyyatexel last October so that should really tell y'all where I'm at on replies for like, 99% of anything you want me to see. Sorry not sorry. I'm not trying my best even remotely but boy, I'm trying.

ANYWAY.

Last song: part of a frankly enormous playlist of an FMA AU I've kind've touched on over on AO3, but that version is frankly very different compared to where the current reluctant brainworms want to take this one. Either way we have this:

We also have the entire Puscifer remix album of Money $hot Your Re-Load which I'm fucking ADDICTED to at the moment, please treat yourself to The Vibes of some fantastic fucking remixes

Currently watching: Brainworm hell means I can't commit to any proper series more than like. 3 times a year? So right now I'm splitting my viewership between rewatching literally all of Game Grumps' 10 Minute Power Hours for like, the 15th time each vid just for the giggles and random actually intelligent YT essays by people I already follow.

Look man, if their voices are nice or they make me laugh, that's about as much as I can appreciate currently. I want to rewatch Good Omens again and I'm probably going to commit to that this week if that's anything?

At this very particular moment I stopped watching Caffeinated Dad's playthrough/summary of FFXIV to make this post, and he's amusing enough to plug

(If you don't FFXIV his summary vids are an excellent newbie catchall/breakdown. He's still a newbie himself and it's very cool to see his reactions to decade-plus old content considering what I, a 90% caught up player, knows. Oh the storm coming his way! :DDDD)

Current Obsession: BOY this one is in a weird place? Gimme a minute to lay this one out.

So like, I'm literally 6 years into having New Daily Persistent Headache and Fibromyalgia/probably Sjogren's Syndrome, which basically means I've had some flavor of migraine 24/7 since Feb 27 2018. My capacity to do like, literally any kind of creativity has goddamn motherfucking shitkicking cuntscruggling TANKED over the last several years. I am, mentally speaking, not doing great!

So instead of writing I spend a lot of time thinking of Very Silly AUs of writings I might, one day, maybe, attempt to commit to. The stories I spend many hours huddled in the dark thinking about are stories so displaced from any kind of canon there's really no point in trying to write them down and share with all of y'all. They're for me as a distraction from how much pain I'm in so many hours of every single goddamn shitkicking day of my life. More specifically, migraine hell is quelled at least a little bit by very silly Time Travel AUs of Bad Times Happen To Your Faves AUs.

So this week I'm thinking about an AU where Edward Elric loses his right arm again for keepsies years post-canon, adopts a kid OC, realizes that the way he defeated Pride accidentally turned him into a homunculus comparable to Bradley, and decades later finds himself temporally flung right back into the shittiest time of his life (AKA the canon timeline).

Is this any kind of fic worth writing? Not really, not without like, at LEAST 300k worth of pretense. In my hunchbacked hating life and physical sensations day-to-day life however? Yeah, yeah, it's funny. It's silly and pointless and poignant and distracts me by thinking of ways how an older Ed could manipulate canon events (or at the very least convey them to canon versions of everyone before the canon shit can hit hit the canon fan). It's all Very Funny and Interesting to me. Will I ever write it? Absolutely not. Will it live rent-free in my brain for years to come? Oh, abso-fuckin'-lutely. Time Travel AUs of Wild AUs I'll Never Commit To Publically are the bread and butter of my brain's capacity to tolerate like, existence, at this point in my life.

#if my brain cooperated the way i wanted it to y'all would've had a deeply upsetting and detailed Resembool zombie outbreak AU YEARS ago #just to start on the upsetting FMA fics i'd love to inflict on y'all #as things stand: well. i'm laughing to myself at 3 a.m. at AUs y'all will prob never see #it's a coping mechanism? #it's better than dealing with my goddamn motherfucking shitawful roommates either way #anyway thank you LYX for tagging me #Youtube

[tenshindon]

You unlock your third eye when you go from thinking tien would shy from tactile love to realizing that since he’s trash at actually vocalizing how he feels and all of his acts of love and care purely come from his actions his love language would absolutely come in the form of physical affection

#snap chats #callout post for myself 😔 #I still like the thought Tien’s just a little hesitant with affection sometimes though #just a little 😔 I am a weak man at the end of the day 😔 #getting back into DB has been what we call An Adventure #I love thinking about tien and yamcha it makes my serotonin skyrocket :^) #it’s like playing with a Rubik’s cube #a never ending Rubik’s cube <3 #k but forreal tho I read A Homie <3’s tags on my art and I sat in my corner to think a bit #like obvi with strangers Tien’s more reserved #but dude literally carries chiaotzu around like a baby at any given chance #this really do be an enlightenment moment how have I not seen this before #I’m gonna cry as I write my essay draft wowie #gonna accidentally write one of the docs I’ve been wanting to write damn #‘sorry I couldn’t hand in my English draft teach do you want my yamtien fic instead it’s cute :^)’ #oh yeah ps my presentation went well :) it was short and I mean I Am Well Versed In My atopic #alright gonna uhhhh Flee Now I’ll see y’all when I get another thought or something :)

[luveline]

summer shower [Fred Weasley x reader]

Summary: Fred makes your asthma play up.

Tags: reader-insert, fluff, friends-to-lovers, pining, mutual pining

word count: 1.3k

When you were just turning 21 years old, you met a boy. He was in his third year to your second of university, funny as could be, and beautiful.

Fred Weasley was a man of many secrets, which you'd come to accept the longer you'd known him. You had no idea where he was from, where his parents lived, or even if he had any family. You didn't know where he'd gone to school before this. You certainly didn't know why he liked pumpkin pie so much!

There were many things you did know.

His eyes turned from brown to almost black in the sun, superheated and lovely. He squinted one eye against the sun when you lounged in the courtyards in an endearing attempt to always keep an eye on your face. He never crushed flowers when he walked and he always trapped spiders in a cup with a piece of card instead of killing them, seeming endlessly bemused at the small creatures.

It was a warm summers day. You were trying your hardest not to smile as he lay in the grass. Your friends had all departed, claiming headaches and essays that needed to be submitted, though you thought these were all just white lies to allow you some alone time.

It didn't matter. No amount of free time would finish the game between the two of you. Well, you hoped it was a game: Fred pretended he didn't fancy you and you pretended you didn't fancy him.

You shared a tenderness with him that was unlike any relationship in your life.

He was smirking up at you.

"What?" You asked, pouting playfully.

"You look like you're trying to solve world hunger," he said through a grin.

You shook your head, fixing your gaze back down on the book in your lap.

"Maybe one day," you said without looking up.

Fred laughed. It was a perfect laugh, infectious and happy. You smiled despite your best efforts not to.

The pages were thin between your fingers, almost a thousand condensed into a 3 inch textbook for your course. The tip of your pencil rested against the page, though sometimes it felt appropriate to bring it to your mouth, contemplative. Fred watched silently as you underlined and questioned the subject, only quirkiness an eyebrow as your frustration became obvious.

"I don't understand," you admitted finally, "how that is relevant to anything. Look at this!"

You poked your pencil angrily at the figure in question. Fred's eyebrows creased as he tried to make sense of what he was seeing.

"Doll, you know I don't understand a lick of it."

You sighed, closing the textbook mournfully. It didn't surprise you that Fred couldn't understand, you couldn't understand and you were actually taking the course for the last two and a half years. He was doing a completely different subject.

You threw yourself down flat, much too close to where Fred himself lay on the grass, knocking the air out of your lungs. You tried not to get too wound up, worried any agitation would cause a flare up.

You'd had a very bad asthma attack only a few days ago and had spent a day or two feeling very fragile and sorry for yourself. You didn't want a repeat.

The grass was cold and a little damp from the early morning dew.

You nibbled at your lip, searching the sky for something it couldn't give.

Fred was watching you.

"Oh my god! What do you want, you hooligan?"

Fred rolled his eyes. "You looked at me."

"You were looking at me!"

"Doesn't sound true. Falsehoods of such a nature are unkindly and uncouth."

"You're uncouth!"

"Yeah?" Fred asked, eyes hot.

Your mouth dried up. He was especially tempting like this, looking all homegrown and hand spun. His hair was lightened by the sun cover, strawberry blonde against his tanned and freckled face. Tanned now only after months of suffering sun burn miserably.

"I know what you're thinking." He said. You paid close attention to his mouth.

"Which is?"

"How did I get to be so devilishly handsome? Honestly, it's a question I ask myself often."

You withheld the urge to turn your face into the earth and scream.

He wasn't entirely wrong. You had been thinking about his good looks.

"How did you know?" You asked. You'd tried for bravado, for sarcasm, but it came out wrong. A little too sincere. You cleared your throat.

Fred pushed up onto an elbow so that he was looking down into your face. He studied the slope of your nose and the laugh lines you'd slowly gathered since meeting him. He reached forward, too slowly, to place the pads of his fingers gently on your cheek. You could pinpoint the exact moment he rested his palm on your skin.

He smiled gently. You beamed.

"Can I ask you something?"

You tried to read his face, preemptively guess the question.

"When do you ask my permission?"

"It's the kind of thing that requires two consenting parties."

Your mouth quirked into a waiting grin. Fred's ears grew red.

"Not that."

"Fred Weasley, embarassed. Somebody call the news."

He didn't answer, pushing the hair out of your face in a repetitive motion that sent tingles down your spine and a hot flush to your tummy.

You tried not to read into it, closing your eyes against the waves of excitement and happiness roiling through you. You didn't permit yourself to think of what it meant, because what else could it mean? Friends don't do the things you both did. Friends didn't gaze down into your face with unspoken feelings.

You lay there for some time, the excitement slowly turning to bone deep contentment, feeling yourself drift into an almost sleep. The breeze was soft and sweet, the ground beneath you cushioned by grass, and the handsome man hovering above you only sweetened the deal.

"Y/N?"

"Hmm," you said, tilting your chin to prompt him to continue.

"Will you look at me a second?

You opened your eyes obligingly.

"I wanted to ask you, do you -"

He cut himself off, peering up into the sky. You frowned, only to feel the unwelcome spatter of heavy sudden rain drops on your face.

You gasped, rushing to collect all of your things into your bag. Your textbook was already dampening by the time you'd fit it all. Fred pulled you up and began to run. You followed, laughing and struggling to be heard over the summer shower.

By the time you reached his dorm building, both of you were breathing hard. Fred said something through a laugh. You struggled to answer, hands on your knees.

"Y/N?"

Despite having asthma all your life and suffering many attacks, each time felt just as urgent and scary as the first.

Your eyes filled with tears.

"You're okay! You're okay. Where's your pump, huh? In your bag?"

He didn't wait for an answer, reaching into your bag as you gasped, though insistent on leaving one arm on your arm. The pressure was reassuring.

You tried to manage your breathing as you always did, gasping and gasping and gasping.

"Here, princess. Open up," Fred said.

You covered the hand he held your inhaler with your own, clamping down on his hand so hard you could feel the fine bones under his skin.

It took a while for you to settle down, thought this attack wasn't anywhere as bad as the one you'd had days ago.

"My hero," you coughed out, lungs aching.

Fred grimaced. "I'll always rescue you, my femme fatale."

"Misogynist."

"You have paper lungs, my love."

"That I do, Freddie. That I do."

Fred rubbed your back, insisting on carrying you up the steps to his dorm room. If you acted much more frail than you felt, it was nobodies business but yours and Fred's.

#fred weasley x reader #fred weasley imagine #fred weasley fanfic #fred weasley #fred #x reader #reader insert #friends to lovers #mutual pining #harry potter imagine