#still need therapy tho

[ur-mentallyill-wench]

Not to brag but in my latest session I made my therapist cry and got her to listen to Boygenius so I think I beat therapy

#still need therapy tho #✨trauma✨ #boygenius #silly goofy mood 🤪

[shima-draws]

I’ve mentioned it before but I’m a fucking sucker for unhealthy dependent relationships. There’s just something about them that is so. Chef’s kiss 👌

Anyway I’m still thinking about how Law was so attached to Cora and was so traumatized by his death that he literally devoted thirteen YEARS of his life to revenge killing Doflamingo. Even though all Cora ever wanted was for Law to just be free and live his life happily. And Law spending all his time in a hateful revenge spiral is literally the exact OPPOSITE of what Cora wanted for him. BUT WAIT THERE’S MORE. If the thirteen years of endless devotion to avenging his savior wasn’t enough Law 1. Named his pirate crew the Heart Pirates in honor of Cora, 2. Covered himself in permanent heart-themed tattoos in honor of Cora, and 3. Fashioned his Jolly Roger to be a mockery of Doflamingo’s and ALSO to honor Cora. Homie is a walking memorial for a man he only really knew for six months and again crafted the most intricate plan known to mankind to murder Cora’s killer. Because losing Cora fucked him up THAT much. Because even though Cora set him free, the moment Doflamingo shot him Law was chained to the memory of a man who no longer existed. Law literally fashioned his entire life down to his own appearance after Cora and it makes me so insane. I cannot even imagine what went through his head after Dressrosa I mean how do you move on after a thirteen year grudge is put to rest. What is he supposed to do now. Avenging Cora was literally his entire existence, his entire reason for living for half of his life. He needs therapy probably. If Cora somehow ever did come back to life Law would lose his fucking mind. The dependency is SO unhealthy and I am SO here for it

#Anyway this is not me promoting unhealthy relationships irl #If you are that dependent on someone that you can’t bear to live without them. Get help! Therapy!! Actually!!! #In fiction tho it is a wonderful treat. Haha yes I love to watch my faves suffer. #One Piece #Trafalgar Law #Donquixote Rosinante #Donquixote Doflamingo #Doflamingo #Cora #One Piece Cora #One Piece spoilers #Dressrosa #Shima speaks #I AM SO. HNNGHHH. I AM UNWELL. I probably also need therapy. LMAO #Oda why did you do this why did you kill Law’s dad (again) #Law: Feel like shit just want Cora-san back #Also I didn’t even get into how much Cora influenced Law’s life VS how his actual blood family influenced his life #Flevance was traumatic as FUCK and yet all of Law’s notable trademarks are still Cora-themed… #(Bc Cora saved him. Bc Cora gave him a reason to live after he thought he’d lost everything) #Slams my head into the wall and howls

[tobeos]

rei giving koga his guitar is all fun and games until you realize that people will gift their belongings to others when they're set on dying soon......

#*drops to my knees in agony* AUGGHHHAUGHHGG OUUAHHHGGGGGGGGG #rei's depression during second yr was genuinely devastating to read #he needed therapy. SO bad (he still needs it) #but anyways kogy gets a cool new guitar :33 #HE WAS SO CUTE IN THE ANIME DURING THIS SCENE!!!! WAHHH!!!!!! #ensemble stars #enstars #koga oogami #rei sakuma #reikoga #kogarei #tagging ships but i was leaning more towards platonic with this one #its up to interpretation tho!

[synthshenanigans]

Johnny Cash doesn't sound like a real name to me anymore I'm too far gone, christ

#guys run while you still can #there's no fixing me #ive fully switched #this is my 2+2 is 5 #in my winston era #sinston wmith if you will #okay but like actually tho im losing it #bro rewired my damn brain #the chonny jash propaganda is working. the jashaganda #that looks like jash agenda which also works i guess #the gay agenda? nah sorry im apart of the jash agenda #maybe i do need therapy #my therapist is gonna ask like “so whats going on in your Mind?” & im gonna fuckin lose my shit #there is no saving me. they WILL send my ass to the infirmary & this WILL be a mind electric reference #this is my mind electric #chonny jash #moss post #im sorry im like this #why is my brain this way #KJ is losing its mind again

[himbionn]

Bet you can’t guess what I finally watched.

#invincible #mark grayson #invincible fanart #i made some shitpost art too #so that will be posted at some point maybe #I’m already attached #i got attached quick #he needs therapy #with a capital T #or just a lot of hugs #he still girlboss tho #love him to bits #got those piercings and freckles in #no one can stop me

[polaroidcats]

I'm still such a beginner at sewing but I just made my first pillowcase (on my grandma's old, almost 60 year old sewing machine!) and I'm so proud of myself!! It looked really nice and then I messed up the buttons, had to cut out the fabric where I had tried to do the buttons and inserted another piece fabric to fill the gaps where the failed buttons were but still!!! I made an actual usable pillowcase!!! leaning against the pillow as i am typing this, 10/10 experience, pillow is fully covered by fabric!!

#yes i'm aware that's literally one of the easiest things to sew bc it's just straight lines but still #i had such a shitty therapy session today and still feel really shit even tho it's hours later but all i did since therapy was make this #so i need to celebrate it as a win haha #anywayss #sewing #ramblings

[aroacettorney]

we talked a lot about how the incidents in delica absolutely broke ludger, but tbh, casey didnt come out of it unscathed either.

imagine how lonely you must have been to willingly travel to such a distant land just to see someone who was potentially like/similar to you. and when you thought you finally got a best friend who could understand you in a way that no one else could, they turned out to be something you would absolutely abhor with your entire existence. they gave no explanations. they bothered not with excuses. there wasnt even enough time for you to grieve what you just lost because they forced your hands to fight them in a death battle. without a word, they just simply vanished as if your friendship in the past few months meant absolutely nothing to them and you were left alone again, trying to navigate when and what went wrong all by yourself. there was a mix of burning hatred, betrayal, and sadness inside you, but there was no longer anyone for you to talk about it — no one that could understand it. you endured all those feelings for three years with no one to share while chasing after your old-best-friend-now-turned-archenemy for answers because they never gave you the closure you deserved.

even when you finally learned the truth, you realised that they had never trusted you nor your abilities enough to even consider working together. rather, they took on the most extreme measure and didnt hesitate to make you their biggest enemy all the while keeping all their troubles and pains to themselves. best friends, friends, friendly acquaintances, private detective and their client — it turned out that your relationship was neither of them. was it truly your one-sided assumption after all? or perhaps, was it because you failed them when you could have known better and done better? still wanting to keep believing that your companionship was once real, your guilt started gnawing on your conscience. not only you couldnt save them, but your inadequateness also doomed them to their worst fate possible.

then, the opportunity came. you finally mustered up all the courage to utter an apology. even though they acknowledged it, they made no intention to accept your peace offerings. they reminded, "our alliance is temporary". they stressed, "enemies are what we are destined to be". what a fool you were, trying to save a relationship that never existed. either that, or you had never truly been forgiven. they wanted nothing to do with you. they needed not saving by you. it wasnt a closure you wanted but its still a closure you got. in the end, you were left alone once more, with the knowledge of a possibility that you also might not be able to save them again this time.

#academy's undercover professor #academy's undercover professor spoilers #aro ludgercasey propaganda #selmore's undercover husband #this is caseys pov. to her ludgers true feeling is an enigma because he auto crits on deception. #ironically i think casey was/is much lonelier than ludger. #when she was bedridden for a month ludger seemed to be the only one who came for a visit??? (feral fans dont count) #what was marias even doing???? #ludger tends to think he is alone but he still has a lot of comrades openly caring for him. #even tho the delica incidents hit him hard he still at least had hans as his trusted emotional supporter. #meanwhile casey had to process everything by herself. there was no one holding her hands through it. #there is betty but i dont think she would be good at processing these complex and contradicting emotions that casey were having. #caseys going through the same thing ludger used to experience. the helpless feeling of not being able to save someone you most care about. #with the guilt eating her up under the right conditions she has the potential to become ludger 2.0. #personally i think the trigger would be ludgers self-delivered death. #it could break her for good considering how much guilt she already has over the delica incidents — the one event that changed everything. #anyway in conclusion casey also needs therapy. both of them need couple therapy.

[yardsards]

fanon lumity in s1:

luz: just a simple bright-eyed happy sunshine girl

amity: bottomless pit of angst

canon lumity in s3:

luz: as blatantly suicidal as you can get without increasing the show's age rating

amity: unlearning unhealthy mindsets, finding happiness despite her circumstances

#eliot posts #toh #the owl house #lumity #luz noceda #amity blight #suicide mention #i always found s1 fanon lumity to be extremely reductive but #i must say i really didn't expect amity to straightup become The Mentally Healthy One by comparison #proud of her tho lol #still carting her off to therapy tho. but AFTER i cart luz off to therapy #luz needs therapy so so bad

[maranescence]

Hi lmao here’s a cute edit I did of Butler N like last month hahaha

Also happy fucking Easter bitches 😎✌🏻🐣 🌸💐

#murder drones #glitch productions #serial designation n #n murder drones #cute #it’s like 3 am and I have no idea what to post lmao #haha please laugh at these silly tags #all I did was just mess around with brushes on PicsArt #he still looks so damn cute #seriously tho this poor baby boi needs a lifetime of therapy #I wish I had edibles rn

[mrsfeiix]

*A wild fox has appeared*

#star wars #the bad batch #foxy #the clone wars #commander fox #coffee #this man needs therapy #also needs sleep #and possibly a hug #give this man a hug #still hate him tho #fives supremacy

[crazybiaatch]

reading a silly little fanfic in the middle of the day and getting to a scene that so perfectly mirrors my own experiences with one of my friends that hurt me so deeply I still worry about it 3 years after the fact and feeling like the author just ribbed my ribcage open, hollowed out my insides and spilt them on the page

it was a fucking atla modern au and I started sobbing 😭

#fanfic #fanfiction #atla #zukka #it was a zukka fic #i need therapy #the way the fic gave me more closure than my actual friend #i still am friends with this person #but some how zuko climbing in thru a window and apologising helped me more than still knowning this person #is it trauma or is it character development #the only thing i devolped was trust issues tho #oh well

[nr1carambakinnieandfan]

Raimondi is deeply growing on me its not even funny anymore

He's so underrated bro I love him sm

He and Caramba are such cool character like their designs and their personalities are so fun and their duo is also what is so cool about them like they went from wanting to beat eachothers ass to becoming best friends in a span of idk 20 minutes?

#raimondi #caramba is still my ultimate fav tho #Raimondi needs more love man hes so cool #what if bro dies next season☠️🙏 #:3 #skullivar needs to be in a psychward holy shit bro #i need to see caramba and raimondi bonding in season 2 because they were such a cool duo #raimondi is probably that typa dude that gets offened at someone splitting the pasta in half #pretty sure caramba did this once #someone take this show away from me #zak storm #also are we not gonna talk about that raimondi told the 7cs that he sometimes talks to himself not even 5 minutes after meeting them #Raimondi probably needs therapy after all of this because bro got captured and threatend to be killed if he didnt work on the machine☠️🙏 #not to mention bro wouldve been ☠️ if caramba didnt pull him away #anyways hes a silly dude love him #i want his backstory and the lore

[th3e-m4ng0]

if all the bots do remember what happened while they were mind controlled, how do you think twitch feels about megatron? or what’s your take on how megatron would approach this?

they're all very traumatized, me thinks. i don't think they would be able to be around each other for a while, twitch would probably never forget the blinding light of megatron's cannon slowly charging up right at her face, and how powerless she felt at the moment. imagine being aimed at by your own relative !! a close one at that, regardless of mind control, you're still staring at their body pointing a loaded weapon at you, i would be scared shitless and have a panic attack if i saw them again

megatron would totally and completely feel violated and extremely, extremely guilty. she knows it wasn't Her who was aiming, but it also,, Was,,, Her, like, it's his arm pointing at twitch, and his fusion cannon charging and ready to fire. she wasn't able to stop his own body from issuing that Fire command, and if twitch hadn't moved when thrash called her oughhhhhhh !!!! i feel like megatron would Try to approach her to apologize, but the vivid image of twitch's eyes staring at her, wide and terrified, would appear in his mind and he'd just. retreat to his room

i doubt they would ever talk about the incident, but i like to think that eventually, after a long, long time of avoidance, one ends up inching closer and closer to the other until they're hugging tightly (borderline crushing !), whole body quivering. no words are said, but they'd both understand how they feel

#.txt #earthspark spoilers #i dont think their relationship would be the same after that #but they'd try to play like the old days #maybe megs would detach her fusion cannon whenever she knew twitch would be around. she would still carry it around tho. on her back.. #(just in case it's needed. for defense !! ) #but perhaps she could ask nightshade for one of their hologram thingies so megatron can use it to make it 'invisible' ! #in conclusion. they need therapy. they really really need therapy #i hope this makes sense. sorry if it doesnt. words are hard !!

[almond-tofu-chan]

chainsaw man makes you think its a sick action anime where a horny guy made of chainsaws murders a bunch of guys and gets a sorta fucked up found family along the way, but then you watch it and its actually about a 15 year old boy getting groomed and everybody hates everyone else but theyre mostly busy hating themselves and then everyone dies

#csm spoilers #chainsaw man spoilers #they introduce like 8 characters in one episode and then kill them like two episodes later #half the characters in the intro dont show up until yhe very last episode and they all get like one line apiece #not eyepatch finding out denji is a minor and then STILL TRYING TO SLEEP WITH HIM??? #'i didnt take advantage of you last night right? oh good i totally wouldve gone to jail' #HELLO????? DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF???????? #ik anime is like that but i still just couldnt stomach the show after that #she died like 5 minutes later tho so it was fine #you lied to me i was promised found family #and i got a bunch of fucked up teens who need therapy but instead get groomed #feel bad show of the year #i get its not supposed to make you feel good by the end #and maybe its really effective for that #but i was upset by the wrong things i think #i didnt care when any of the characters died because they had just been introduced like one episode agu #i didnt even remember any of their names #honestly not a good show #ive never liked mappas stuff #theyre allergic to filler and thats their proboem #they dont take the time to make me care about the characters before they kill them #tl;dr i didnt like it #chainsaw man #csm

[lowcallyfruity]

ROLLO FLAMME KISSER🫵🏻🫵🏻🫵🏻🫵🏻🫵🏻

NOOO NOOO NOOO NOOOOOOO

IM NOT A ROLLO KISSER I SWEARRR I SWEARRRRR 😭😭😭😭😭😭

I JUST LOVE HIS CHARACTERRRRR

#i do need therapy tho #💀💀 but hey projecting onto characters is like therapy #how I feel (as a queer) after being obsessed with a character that will probably tell me to burn in hell for all eternity bc I’m a sinner 🙁 #it’s okay I still love him 😍 #girl what am I even saying #sorry mah 🙁 #💛! asks

[possiblytracker]

coughs loudly. scheduling this post for slightly later today so i have time to get lunch and not chicken out before it goes up

firstly i gotta apologise for dropping off the face of the earth. in hindsight it was creeping up on me for a long time I just didn't think anything of it/had enough stuff going on to ignore it for a while, but ive been wrestling with pretty abysmal mental health that just kinda hit me like a truck back in august. i wont get too much into it but things just ground to a halt and in the span of a week or so it legitimately felt like i stopped being a Person- i just stagnated, felt like i lost the ability and will to do anything or enjoy things or create like i used to, all my energy went into keeping it together in front of my family, and it made me way too anxious and ashamed and guilty to want to show my face. like who would want to put up with my stupid bullshit, right (wrong! that idea just made me unbelievably worse and i regret it extremely, but my anxiety was going extremely unchecked at this time). i don't think i've ever been that depressed before and i didn't at all know how to handle it or begin to claw my way out

fortunately, a combination of getting exercise + touching grass regularly and new enrichment/hyperfixations to latch onto like an orphaned duckling are very recently kicking some life back into me so to speak. who wouldve thought. and now where i used to still feel stomach-turning dread and paranoia thinking about getting back on tumblr and discord a week or two ago, it finally feels like i can handle dipping my toes back in. i'm making this post first bc i know most of my friends will see it, and that feels less taxing than explaining myself a bunch of different times over and over and dragging it out, but ofc i will try and get back into conversation when and as i can (askbox and discord is still best to reach me if you wanted). i'm just really sorry, and I hope you can forgive me, for making you worry or otherwise

i'm not sure what to do from here (i'm considering maybe moving main blogs to a clean slate eventually? this one will still be here i couldnt bear to get rid of it, i've just had it since i was 16 there's Baggage attached) but i'll be trying to ease my way back into relative normalcy before doing anything big ofc. in the meantime i will be vaguely floating around here again. see you around and thank you for your time..

#cryingcat.png #god i hope tumblr doesnt send out a stupid notifcation to all followers that i posted i dont know what the time limit for that is but augha #here i am tho either way #vent/ #i have missed people the entire time it is very hard to describe how stupid and cowardly it feels knowing i Could come back at any time #but also being utterly paralysed and afraid to do so. like surely i could just suck it up and i Tried but i am so so mentally unwell #i need to work on how fucked up my freeze/flight response to stress is really bad it ruins my life but i am still too unemployd for therapy #so my broke ass just has to deal with unpacking my own shit for 2 months/j #anyway the point is even tho i am getting better somewhat irl ive still been struggling to pluck up the courage to come back online #but i can't keep it up forever and completely shut down just bc it makes my anxiety superficially feel 'safer' #so here i am. feeling slightly less full of dread. bc i at very least owe it to everyone to let you all know im not dead or something idk #and i also owe it to myself to not be miserable on purpose forever!! #now i just have to get everything unmuted and wait for this to post see you on the other side