#talks with grey

[inkskinned]

before you know about women, you hear that you do not need to love the man, just that you need to love him through his manhood. which is to say you have seen the future painted in lamb's blood over your eyes - how your mother shoots you a look about your father's inability to cook right. how your aunt holds her wineglass and says i'm gonna kill em. men, right! how your best friend bickers with her boyfriend, how she says i can't help it. i come back to him.

you learn: men are gonna cheat. men aren't going to listen when you're talking, because you're nagging. men think emotions are stupid. they think your life is vapid and your hobbies are embarrassing. men will slam things, but that's because men are allowed to be angry. if you get loud, you're hysterical. if a man gets loud - well, men are animals, men are dogs, men can't control their hands or their eyes or their bodies. they're going to make a snide comment about you in the locker room, about your body, about how you're so fucking annoying. you're going to give him kids, and he will give you the money for the kids, and you're going to be running the house 24/7 - but he gets to relax after a long day, because his job is stressful. the man is on stage, and is a comedian, and says "women!"

and you are supposed to love that. you are supposed to love men through how horrible they are to you - because that's what women do. that's what good women do. wife material. your father even told you once - it'll make sense when you're older. it was like staring down a very lonely tunnel.

it feels like something's caught in your throat, but it's all you know, so. it's okay that you see sex as a necessary tool, a sort of okay-enough ritual to keep him happy, even though he doesn't seem to care about happiness as-applied-to you. it is relationship upkeep. it is kissing him and smiling even though he didn't brush his teeth. it is getting on your knees and looking up and holding back a sigh because he barely holds you as you panic through the night. it's not like the sex is bad and you do like feeling wanted. and besides! he's a man! like... they're another species. you'll never be able to actually communicate, right. he isn't listening.

you just don't get it. you don't feel that sense of i'm gonna climb him like a tree. mostly it just feels fucking exhausting. you play the part perfectly. you smile and nod and are "effortlessly" charming. and it's fine! it's alright! you even love him, if you're looking. you could have good life, and a good family, and perfectly happy.

in the late night you google: am i broken. you google i'm not attracted to my husband. you google i get turned on by books but not by him. you google how to get better in bed.

the first time he yells at you, it almost feels like blankness. like - of course this is happening. this is always how it was going to end up. men get angry, and they yell, and you sit there in silence.

you mention it to your friend - just the once - while you're drunk. she shrugs and says it's like that with me too, i just try to forget and move on. men are always gonna hear what they want to. pick your battles and say sorry even though he's in the wrong. you play solitaire online for a month. you go to your therapist appointment and preach about how you're both so in love.

after all, you have a future to want. nobody lied about it - how many instagram posts say marriage is hard. say real love takes work. say we fight like cats and dogs but the best part is that we always make up. how many of your friends say happy anniversary to the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. if you really loved him - loved yourself too - you'd accept that men are just different from you.

the first time she kisses you, it's on a dare at a party. something large and terrifying whips through your body. you wake up sweating from dreams where her mouth is encrusted with pearls and you pick them off one by one with your teeth. fuck. you sit at the computer and your almost-finished game of sim city. you think about your potential perfect life and your potential future family. you google am i gay quiz with your little hands shaking.

you delete each letter slowly. you don't need to love him. you just need to keep going.

#warm up #writeblr #this is also about being ace btw #my identity has slowly shifted over time and maybe if everyone is REAL cool i'll talk bout it #bc it's complicated and nuanced. but this is like #trying to warn u that if you find it “relationship upkeep” to have sex with ur partner #and don't actually enjoy it or seek it for urself. u might just not be attracted to them. #which is fine ! ace ppl can be perfectly happy in any relationship they feel good in! #but also i wasn't as straight as i had expected! #> the first time i saw dick i was like. huh. oh okay that's fine i guess #> the first time i saw pussy i was like. WAIT ACTUALLY HANG ON I GET IT #i just assumed sex wasn't all it was cracked up to be ya know #but also like. btw? this IS NOT saying ''u might be gay not ace'' #bc tbh i'm grey ace/demisexual #it's saying u might not be into ur partner. explore urself & ur feelings. turn inward. #TAKE THIS IN THE MANNER IT WAS MEANT> GENTLE AND KIND #AND NOT IN A WEIRD INTERNET WAY PLEASE #bc the truth is that there ARE ppl who are gay who assume that they just ''don't like'' sex #and ace ppl who might need a different partner w/different needs #and i would have REALLY needed to hear ''check in w/urself about if u actually like sex'' #WAY EARILIER in my life. but nobody said anything bc they assume if ur having sex. u like it. #not just the actual act of sex. not once ur turned on. do you ACTUALLY like it. or is it a burden? #even if ur gay. check w/urself. maybe ur more ace than u realized. in which case. ADDITIONAL FLAG BB #i love collecting my flags. i'm at like 354 at this point #but also btw this is about how toxic relationships are SO normalized that u can be in one #and have everyone around u being like ''THATS JUST MEN LOL''

[arealtrashact]

Look at my therapy group, dawg. ( I'm never improving my social functioning )

#Housebroken #my art #character design #these are from last year (when I was sick / couchbound and at the mercy of whatever happened to be on TV) #I will say I found this show to be much more tolerable than I anticipated #then again I do have a soft spot for anything containing talking critters. #My favorite character was The Grey One. #he reminded me of my old cat </3

[greykolla-art]

The documentary crew put that glitter filter on them, not me! ✨

#grey art #fan art #wwdits fanart #wwdits #nandermo #wwdits comic #what we do in the shadows #guillermo de la cruz #nandor the relentless #just really soft and gentle moment #they’ll soon ruin it by talking… #pretty idiots

[forget-me-ghost]

I may be delulu when it comes to Alastor but at least I'm not as delulu as those people who were genuinely surprised when the serial killer cannibal acted like an asshole. Like, really guys?

You poke the mentally unstable man, you get the mentally unstable response.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel alastor #alastor #alastor the radio demon #I may believe that from the morally evil Al will shift towards more of a grey area #but I never got manipulated by his cheerful persona #you wanna talk about Charlie getting manipulated by Alastor? #how about we talk how this man manipulated half of the fandom without even trying

[exocynraku]

what's up with there being no more cats described as blue in the series by the way . they did bluestar mistystar stonefur and dappletail's one kit and just ? no more ? Okay

#i mean unless i'm TOTALLY blanking on someone else i cannot remember anyone being described as blue #i know that blue is the more genetic term for grey so technically all of the grey cats in the series are blue #but. i want a cat SPECIFICALLY described as blue Please #warrior cats #wc #ray talk

[walrus150915]

I feel like people underestimate Ballister's actions in the movie and dumb him down to be just a guy with sad big eyes when he's literally a metaphor for transphobic gay men who participated in the system based on violence and hate. He's so much more than what fandom makes him out to be and he's quite flawed

Like :/// yes he's cute but let's not infantalize him???

#im sorry did we watch the same movie #<- me when i see people talking how non-complex movie Ballister is #like yes hes less morally grey than in the comic but did we. did we forget the scenes where he says some questionable stuff to Nimona #“most people arent as accepting as me” DOES IT LOOK LIKE AN INNOCENT GUY WHO DID NO WRONG #he does wrong things and thats why hes great #Ballister is literally my fav character dont do me like that man :/ #nimona #ballister boldheart #nimona 2023

[blackkatdraws2]

Stanley's raspy voice surprised Narrator (Grey.) I think he likes it.

⬇ a little bit of background information down below ⬇

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This is an AU called Achromatic Loop and IT TAKES PLACE AFTER THEY ESCAPED THE PARABLE!!

When they were still in the Parable, one of the games rules was for the protagonist to be silent in order for the Players inhabiting Stanley's body to self-insert themselves into the story.

The game didn't remove Stanley's voice, but it did change something within Stanley so he had more control over his own voice (-so he doesn't accidentally yelp and scream whenever he's surprised. As for why the game didn't remove Stanley's voice completely is still unknown.)

Since Stanley wasn't allowed to talk, it caused his voice to become a bit hoarse and raspy. Talking for a long time hurts his throat so he prefers to whisper. He likes to drink lots of water because it soothes his throat.

#he's so not normal for Stanley's voice #hey there little mama let me whisper in your ear #Stanley's voice has too much power #Narrator (Grey) would do all the talking just so he doesn't have to get flustered whenever he hears Stanley's voice #tsp #tspud #the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tsp narrator #narrator tsp #tsp stanley #stanley tsp #stanley x narrator #narrator x stanley #stannarator #stanarrator #stannarrator #tsp au #tsp achromatic loop au #tsp comic #my drawing museum

[ghost-bxrd]

Just saw artwork of Jason doing the heads in a duffle bag thing and—-

I’m sorry but there’s just something so visceral and horrifying about a teenager sawing heads off people in a display for power.

Were they bad people? Yes. Did they deserve it? Probably. Did it send a message? Absolutely. Is it still horrifying? Heck yeah.

Just—- knowing Jason and his background, it’s just so heartrendingly tragic. I don’t even think he liked doing it, I’m just imagining him having to throw up afterwards before putting his helmet back on and playing tough crime lord again. The amount of self loathing he must feel whenever he thinks too hard about his actions. Falling asleep and seeing that—

Just— emotional repercussions, man. They’re real…

#sorry this one’s a little deep #see this is why I usually go with pit madness #one of the many reasons #like the put kind of numbs the part of you that feels guilt over something so atrocious #greys out your moral compass #if you can’t fall back on that— you’re doomed #in Jason’s case pls don’t quote me on that #anyway yeah #just #musings #ghost talks #jason todd #red #it was awesome art btw #just got me thinking tho

[carrinth]

I'm sure it's fanon that the Warden-Commander must make the most random non-sequitur comments about their Origins Love Interest during Awakening or what's the point???

Marzel missing his witchy lover. Everyone then played 'Shape-shifted mage' or 'Actual Giant Spider WTF Commander'.

#dragon age stuff #marzel amell #grey wardens of vigil's keep #marzel spent most of awakening being sad and talking about his possibly spider gf #Warden missing their respective LI #“My baby mama is carrying the soul of an Old God in her womb. I hope she's eating right.” #“The love of my life tried to kill me too when we first met.” #“My love would have been here too but he had to go become King.” #“This is like that one time my girlfriend's ex tried to shank me.”

[annanuna-arts]

Mornin'

#sketch #baldurs gate fanart #art wip #bg3 #rolan #rolan bg3 #holy rolan empire #hot rolan #bg3 rolan #grey sweatpants #fancy widow robes #don't talk to me before coffee #doodle

[whatisgoingoninmyhead]

saw an anti ace-spec people post on the asexual tag today so I wanted to make a post:

for anyone who fits anywhere on the ace spectrum, no matter how you define sexual attraction and how often you feel it, no matter your past, no matter your other orientations, and no matter how confident you are in it. Have a happy international asexuality day, this day is for you :)

#aroace posts #aiming for a positive post #asexual #ace-spec #acespec #i don't know all the acespec tags so if you reblog with more I'll probably add them here #grey ace #gray ace #ace #international asexuality day #iad #1k #i talk

[greykolla-art]

Can you draw urban fantasy?

Just a little bit, curious.

Love your art, by the way.

What an interesting question. 😂

I do have a KIND OF urban fantasy graphic novel, that I’ve been working on for 4 years with my writer buddy.

It’s got a lot of houses.

And sewer vampires.

And magic and blood.

That’s kind of urban fantasy at least.😂

#why do you ask friend-o?😅 #grey answers #original comic #grey art #graphic novel #its in Icelandic if you’re curious about the gibberish words #😜 #love my graphic novel I’ll take any opportunity to talk about it!

[yakeisoda]

drew kaeya w my cat bc i can

my cat w kaeya plushie under the cut

#genshin #genshin impact #kaeya #kaeya alberich #totally not a personal experience idk wat ur talking abt #anw hes fat n stinky n a snob but we love him #also sumtimes he reminds me of alhaitham bc theyre both grey w green eyes w an attitude #doodles

[greysfields]

let me start over again. in my dreams we’re hip-to-hip in a small kitchen, baking pastries and loving each other and ourselves without having to hide. if i lived a thousand lifetimes i would still remember your face, eyes scrunched shut in happiness while i grinned at you over my shoulder. if i loved a hundred lovers i'd remember you as the one who taught me how to love

#I wrote this for someone last year and never got around to posting it #he was a very dear friend but we don’t talk any more for very valid reasons #and the sentiment of the post remains #love is the force that keeps things going #it’s stored in everything and I still have so much love for my friends and the world in me #grey talks

[versacherries]

#bella hadid #the greys that i talked about in my video!! #Its giving futuristic indie sleazy

[jimmywilsonschutzpah]

Wilson and Thirteen relying on playing Truth or Dare as a social lubricant so they can interact by themselves in Lockdown has to be one of the funniest things about the ep.

#you’re telling me neither of them could come up with decent small talk or common interests? no work related things to discuss? #amazing #house md #james wilson #remy thirteen hadley #messy queers who had to discuss their sex lives instead of doing small #talk or talking shop #grey thoughts