#the fucking code goes to google docs

[phossyjaw]

i hate retail

#this lady was like I AM NOT SCANNING A RANDOM QR CODE. i work in CYBER. like ol #ok* #this is petsmart though #the fucking code goes to google docs #not Virus Supreme #then some other people kept training their dog in front of my room of dogs making them scream their heads off and try to fight through #the glass #please go anywhere else. mother fucker l

[kichimiangra]

Tell me more about "Daddy I'm a Zombie"?

Oh. FUCKING. BOI. Don't get me started on Daddy I'm a Zombie!

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Anyway we'll start with this google doc I wrote like ten million years ago when I was Spurgburgering out over this and decided to rewatch the movie and write down what happens in every single scene:

(It's not written in a format to explain shit to people who didn't see the movie though)

and THEN I bitch!

Now that that's done and out of the way, this film has a very interesting concept... or at least interesting to ME! It's effectively "The Wizard of Oz" but with Zombies. Now this is also probably just a me-problem, but I feel like the most satysfying structure to a wizard of oz style story is like so: -Protagonist has an issue in their mundane life

-gets isekai'd to a fantastical world and meets fantastical counterparts to those in their mundane life

-by helping those in the fantasy world the protag recontextualizes their mundane problem and gains the insight of how to solve it before returning to their mundane world (Often in a "It was all a dream" ending)

This film kind of does this. We have Dixie having the worst day of her life i guess before a tree branch bashes her head in and kills her, waking her in the fantastical Zombie world. Most of the people she meets along the way are clearly expy's of people from her mundane life;

In life her friend Julia friend breaks up with her and is dating the red headed boy (Ray) that Dixie had a crush on, while in death she has Isis who wants nothing more to be her friend like a touch starved golden retriever and also doesn't get along with the red headed Gonner who romantically adores Dixie, thus making 0% chance of stealing him from her.

Piroshka is clearly multiple characters, including Dixie's bullies and possibly her unseen step sister with the way Nebulosa adores her(?)

Vitirol the Wandering Zombie uses the same character model (And I think voice? At least in english I think) as her father and his Hippie aesthetic aligns with her view of her father as a passive hippie.

One of the only things we know about Dixies mother is she loves her plants, especially her Bonsai trees and Nebulosa is first introduced pruning a Bonsai tree. etc.

And when she finishes her adventure and gets back home her problems get better via (?)The lesson she learned on the adventure(?)

Nebulosa and the stories moral is easily two of the biggest issues I have in this film.

The recurring moral of the story is "You get back what you put out, like a magnet" which is basically a different way of saying "What goes around comes around". That is to say the moral that Dixie must learn to solve all of her mundane life problems is to put out positive vibes and your friend will refriend you, your bullies will stop bullying you, you parents divorce will... I dunno stop the bad vibing? But this moral is rather disconnected to the Zombie world plot. Even worse so using that moral insists that Dixie herself is her own worst enemy, and the narrative seems to confirm that as by the end of the film she stops being a miserable twat and in the sequel we see that things have really turned around for Dixie, even befriending her bullies, having other friends, making up with Julia and befriending Ray, has a better relationship to her parents, and is even running for class president! All in all changing her mood and outlook DID solve her mundane life problems!

The issue with this though is that her opponent in the Zombie world, the hurdle she has to overcome to get home and back to her life is Nebulosa, the character clearly coded as her mother. Her realtionship to her mother in the first film is strained but mostly exists as floating ideas. Her mother is the one who gave her the films magguffin; the Azoth, though it never explains where SHE got it but this connection to her mother seems to be important as it was the last gift she got from her before her parents divorced. Near the beginning of the film she is supposed to be visiting her mother but shows disdain for the idea, and finally at the end of the film she seems to have gotten over it as her mom picks her up from school and she smiles getting into the car saying "Hi Mommy" with a cheerful tone. What ever issue she has with her mother is solved but I don't really know what that issue is or why Nebulosa represents her mother when she spends the early part of the film interacting and blaming her father for her shitty life, meanwhile her father is treated as the force of good, the Wizard if you would, within the fantastical world.

The plot about Dixie's Primary issue should be her strained relationship with her mother if Nebs is to be the mother's counterpart, while if we want the moral to be "Dixie is her own worst enemy, sabotaging herself with her bad attitude about literally everything, then the opponent Dixie should have to face is Dixie herself, as such Nebs should be Dixies own counterpart instead.

A lot of this film also feels like it's just putzing around with talking head scenes while trying to get to that confrontation. Unfortuantely Dixie and Nebs are just... completely disconnected in the story. Nebs and Dixie don't even come face to face until the final confrontation. In fact after her last scene in the first graveyard Piroshka doesn't interact with the heroes either aside from Gonner, and later Dixie just one time. It often feels like there's no Hero-Villain synergy there aside from Nebs telling her minions to bring her the Azoth, and Dixie having that.

On top of THAT Nebs evil plan is just... the worst. She is colelcting all the Zombies in the Zombie world to brainwash them and then use the Azoth to open a portal to send them back and just... spread her evil. We don't know why

Wouldn't it have been a more satisfying ending should Dixie use the Azoth's power to open a portal, only for her and Nebs to get sucked in together. The portal takes them to the point where Nebs died, perhaps she died a cruel unfair death that she herself caused allowing Dixie to tell herself the moral to Nebs, that she was her own worst enemy and had she just done xyz her life wouldn't have been shit and lead to a shit death. She gets through to Nebs and the old bitch steps out of the portal,s safe zone stepping back into her life before she died to try and correct the results. Dixie is sucked back out into the void and then wakes up back to her own life and chooses to follow the advice she gave Nebs, and then among the people she researched from her 'dream' she also see's that Nebulosa managed to turn her life around before dying with no regrets, as such no longer returning to the limbo that is the Zombie world.

Wouldn't that be better than just Nuking the bitch?

Also there's a SEQUEL film and Nebs is at least a little more active as a villain but still how the fuck did she survive getting nuked????

Some of the world building loses me as well. The zombie world seems to be a different world itself but Isis is afraid of the farmhouse because there might be mortal humans there but... this can't be just... zombies hiding among the normal mundane world because of the big plot point of finding Vitriol by the old Egyptian cemetery. Are there just Egyptian cemeteries in Spain??? And also Zombies just chilling around? And Also Neb's evil lair is the fairgrounds from the beginning of the film but the surroundings look different so this has to be the ZOMBIE WORLD counterpart of the fair right??

Now I'm gonna rant about Gonner

Gonner had a lot of potential to be the roguish love interest. He's a cool pirate, he has a backstory where he didn't want to be a pirate, but a poet instead, he's got some anithero vibes because he secretly works for Nebs so that has a lot of delicious "OH NO THE BETRAYAL!" dramapotential but like.... He's such a little bastard. I think that him stealing the Azoth from Dixie and giving it to Nebs because technically that would keep Dixie safe is a good drama mindset but then when his girlfriend is chasing him around with her axe and trying to kill him for cheating on her and wants to know why he just says "Eh, she's hotter than you." and that's it. No better person or shit like that? Petty little bastard. This is then made worse in the sequel in the most egregious way. When Dixie seemingly might be grabbing herself up a human boyfriend he feels betrayed and returns to his ex, Piroshka who is just fucking super forgiving considering her got her killed in the last film and I'm okay with this this is perfect setup for SOME KIND of drama! Either Dixie realizes she pushed Gonner away and the yummy drama fills the belly OR Gonner realizes he made a mistake and tries to return to Dixie's side but is caught by Nebs and is now a hostage! TWO POTENTIAL ROUTES FOR DRAMA! The film does neither of them he just walks over back to Dixie's side like "sup?" Dixie literally didn't even know he switched sides like wtf you had the perfect drama setup and you fucking wasted but literally doing nothing with it!

The sad part is the worldbuilding is also bland and a LOT of the scenes are just talking head exposition scenes, some of them jumping rapidly between team Dixie and Team Nebs while the two never really cross. It actually can be an exhausting watch because Oh look they're walking and talking again. A lot of tell, not show and that makes me mad because the concept of Wizard of Oz but with colorful Zombies sounds so good it's like my jam but the Story is so unfocused and disjointed that it feels like it was passed back and forth between two writers who wanted to write different things and ignored what the other wrote and then sent it to the animators so any concepts brought up just don't get pushed far at freaking all!

And that's it for my rant. I literally ocd'd over this film just not doing anything with the tools it had while being a concept I enjoyed that I started YEARS AGO on and off of an "Original the character" fix it fic story where I just take the concept and work from there but that's off in the void until it figures out what it wants to be when it grows up

#kc rambles #kc answers stuff #Daddy I'm a zombie #daddy im a zombie

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

HIII DUDE good afternoon how r u how's the tokyo ghoul rewatch going!! i would. Love 2 hear ur ghostkicks and/or tg thoughts literally at any given time. taking ur joke tags absolutely dead serious because im trying 2 figure out How To Write Them currebtly & we're doin a bit of wrangling in the google doc 😭.

u know i have the brainrot so so so badly because im on episode 3 of tg and all i can think is "i can make a pd au out of this" so im feeling rlly normal abt it basically. im blaming it on unravel.

ANYWAY. ANYWAY. ANYWAY. YEAH. HI. GHOSTKICKS. they are soooooo. tired depressed introvert gets adopted by a loud bubbly extrovert trope. at least on the surface. like how they behave at school in season 1. thinkin abt jimmy going "what is UP with bro behind u" and william just ominously lurking there. and how dakota defends him later !!!!!!!! idk how much of this youve gotten to yet bc i dont remember when it actually comes up in canon bc its such an ingrained part of his character but dakota is soooooo. guard dog coded. this hits especially hard in the "what if pd were villains" oneshot but its sooooo prevalent in canon too.

they both hold each other in the highest respect. william sees dakota as the prime (ha) example of what a hero should be. hes brave hes kind he does his best to protect everyone no matter what. hes all the things that william Isnt. BUT !!!! dakota also looks up to him !!! hes so smart hes good at problem solving hes so curious about everything and asking questions and poking his nose into things that nobody else would even consider. dakota knows hes not smart so he automatically looks to william whenever he needs a plan or someone to tell him what to do when he feels lost. they complement each other and they dont even !!!!! know it !!!!!!!

also regarding williams powers. fuck dude. season 1 he was so fucking scared of himself and ashamed of the things he could do . he hid every time he had to use wisp form !!! but dakota always thought it was so cool and was not QUIET about it. boy went fucking STAR EYES the first time he saw wisp form !!!!!! i will never stop thinking abt the first rolled for season 2 where charlie goes "if dakota hadnt left, he probably wouldve been able to convince william to keep using his powers and not to completely disregard their existence like he has been" and . considering what william is like in season 2... god this wouldve been a COMPLETELY different fucking campaign. theyre so. incredibly soulmates to me. theyre so important to each other theyd do anything for each other. i cant say too much more without accidentally giving you spoilers bc i WILL keep talking and not be able to shut up but GOD fuck ghostkicks enjoyers eat so well in the latter half of s2. moirails. 2 me !!!!!!!

#anyway pd tg au: will as kaneki dakota as hide vyncent as touka . #tempted to say tide is yoshimura but for some reason i vaguely remember him being fucked up evil. dont know if thats actually true or not. #also trying 2 decide whether mal or kimuri would fit better as rize. not the exact character but like the. #oh youre being haunted by this guys soul. actually probably kimuri is better but hes not like. Evil yknow. #i will likely regret saying all of this once i get 2 later episodes. if i stick with watching this idk if i will or not lmao #but i remember none of the overarching plot of tg so im going solely on the characters up to ep 3. #anyway im not ever going to do anything with this but this is a fun little peek into my twisted cycle path mind #this is how i enjoy media when im obsessed w something else #THANK U FOR THE BEAFT. WHAT A LOVELY SHRIMP YOU HAVE #aauagahagahghhhhh. ros i cannot wait for u to have the ghostkicks knowledge i have. g #im going to start biting things. they make me crazy. theyd do literally anything for each other. #i loooove ghostknife dont get me wrong. im a huge ghostknife warrior #i love williams lamebass awkward teenager crush so much. and i think they should kiss. #but also platonic soulmates ghostkicks takes up so much of my brain space these days. theyre just so. extremely important 2 me. #matesprit vs moirail etc etc #dakota is williams wingman. etc etc etc. #anyway. im chewing through wrought iron bars currently #asks #friends!!! #intertexts

[blood-injections]

you should tell me about the band au i'm so fascinated by the band au

YES I SHOULDD I FINALLY HAVE WIFI BACK(hopefully it doesnt disconnect Again .its been a frustrating week) AND I CAN FINALLY BRAINROTPOST ABOUT IT OKAY SO

Where to start lets seee. This au is at the like. "Google docs loredump but ive been obsessed with it enough that ive been drawing and ive written a couple little silly but not quite significant bits" stage still lol. Theres funkobra and jetpoison but the funkobra is like SLOW slow burn theyre just weird gay besties that fuck around and make out sometimes but arent actually Together in any way so theres this horrible tension and theres bits of like. See kobras a little slut so hes being gay with sandman and show pony and even an oc that has his own band and so the funkobra is. They dont know why the tension is like that until like. The literal last chapter when they're . Ohhhh shit. We GAY gay. That makes sense. At least thats the plan. The jetpoison is a lot less slow lol they meet and are like ooh you pretty and yeah.

So the first like half of this au is set in the city and actually its less of a fab four band au and more just Kobra's rebellious punk phase au because its focused around him and the Band isnt all four of them together until like. Way on in the story. Poison is even a sort of antagonistic foil character until then too. Because hehe venom sibling angst and theres a few moments where its poison thats the catalyst of Kobra's like. Character growth via spite. Also this au is kobra kid 🤝 jet star being some badass motherfuckers like damn.

So they're in the city, Kobra's like seventeen, not Kobra yet, knows hes trans but not a word for it and isnt out to Poison but Poison Knows enough that hes like. 'Hey i know you dont like this' whe they have to dress to a code or something, and they cae up with a name he likes when he was like way younger bc he hated his deadname so hes already Koda. But hes never been like hey I'm a boy. Poisons a couple years older and works a lot because its just them so he has some office job he hates and the city is on his ass for crow training or something which. He really doesn't want. Because hes in no way loyal to bli hes risking a lot just by keeping himself and kobra off the pills and keeping bli from realizing that. He isnt thinking of being a rebel yet or getting kobra out like in most fics or headcanons no its kobra that ends up dragging poison out. Poisons super overprotective to the point of being a asshole about it because its just them and hes seen too much and knows that you cant get away with getting into trouble forever, and kobras always getting into trouble, and better living has a eye on him because hes autistic and also poisons like labelled as Kobra's caretaker by the city since its just them, and bli is also on poisons ass with that because they want kobra for some kind of test because hes aging out and wont be like a minor and they want to 'fix/cure' him. So poison worrys, poison babys him, because his only goal is to keep kobra safe however he can because hes fucking terrified that his little brother is going to be taken away and hes seen what people come back as when bli takes them to be 'fixed.'

And kobra gets this, he does, and he loves his brother, but he hates him, he hates it, he feels trapped and coddled and between poisons sternness and what the city wants with him and even the city regulations on how he as a female has to look, he feels he has no freedom or privacy and hes cooped up as all hell. So he gets into trouble. He sneaks out no matter how poison tries to keep him from it or ground him, he sneaks out and hides his hair and steals poisons clothes and goes and bes a boy where he can because to the city his days are numbered and hed rather risk it all to have a little fun every night and just be himself than live some boring lie like hes medicated and obedient like everyone else. He doesn't want to rot like that. Poison wants to keep him safe, wants to keep him alive, but Kobra wants to live. Because his mindset is a very reasonable one of 'whats the point of being alive if you're miserable,' but not in an 'i want to die because i am miserable' way but in an, 'out of pure fucking spite, i will change my circumstances, i will be what i want and i wont be miserable and maybe i will die trying but i will have died being happy' way. Because this kid is running on pure spite and rage and envy, of his brother, of friends, of killjoys, of martyrs. Hes angry about it all, Poison is just scared. UGH. me when the venom siblings. hghhdfjdjs.

So he sneaks out, stirs up trouble with street kids and droids and Show Pony, who legit sneaks into the city every so often just to cause chaos and stir up rebellion in the streets. This fic can pretty much be explained as: show pony is pete wentz and the battery city rebellion is the 2000s emo scene. They know everyone and they've got their claws in every little crevice. The suitehearts probably exist because of them, its their actions that domino to what ghouls doing when kobra meets him, and its how they meet that causes them to become friends and start a band, and it all traces back to Pony, its hilarious.

So he meets Ghoul and Sandman, because they're street gremlins together, and they jam a lot and basically play protest songs on the street with people watching out for crows in case they need to scatter and its just Sandmans bad singing and playing a diy guitar while Ghoul drums on some buckets, and sometimes Crab is there with an actual bass but he isn't that good lol. But its punk its to be expected. So he becomes friends with them and when they realize he can sing theyre like omg you should jam with us. And hes like ehhh but eventually does and realizes he loves it. And as time passes they all get more skilled and protest songs in the street turn into actual shows at underground clubs and like, these speakeasys that hide just under blis noses. And being a band is hand in hand with being a juvie halls because if bli was to catch them they'd be so fucked, so if you play music you might as well participate in all the other rebel stuff, and they do, kobra does, he becomes known and the makeshift band of fab four/suitehearts members before theyre the conventional weapons becomes known, he comes up with the name Kobra as a rebel name and hes surrounded by people that treat him like the boy he is.

Meanwhile his relationship with poison is getting more and more strained. Poison is getting desperate and starts trying to follow kobra when he sneaks out but kobras really good at losing him. When kobra is home hes hardly talking to poison anymore. Then some Shit comes. Poison finally manages to follow Kobra to his destination, and its on a night that the bands show is a big fucking dangerous distraction that they purposely gave bli a tip about. So bli storms the concert and the juvie rebellion uses the distraction to break recently caotured killjoy prisoners out of prison. Jet Star is among them.

So poison finds this concert, his quiet little sister up on stage, singing, with a buzzcut hes been hiding. And he storms throigh the pit to up to the front of the stage and kobra sees him and his singing falters and poisons pissed, he expects kobra to be pissed that hes here, but no, kobra looks fucking horribly terrifed at the sight of him and that makes poison falter in turn. And then better living fucking busts in, stun guns firing, and poisons in total shock and kobra grabs him and he ends up running from crows with the band until they get to the underground and its just. A mess. The killjoy prisoners arrive and this is like. Halfway or more through this story and the fab four are finally all in one place. And their band doesn't even exist yet.

Anyway poisons in on it all now and has whiplash and like, well kobras not stopping because his brother knows about the band or rellion or his being a boy, and actually poison sees the change kobra fucking made with that show and is sympathetic to the killjoys and oh that one is really pretty and so theyre terrified but actually pretty supportive of it all and so more time passes and kobra just starts. Dragging them along to practices and stuff. And they find themself learning bass and getting involved with the rebellion and then joining the band when they play and theyve just. Become party poison at some point. Jet star got back out to the desert before long but poison taked to them a bit and totally likes them. I havent planned what happens to make them finally leave the city, but poison, kobra and ghoul all leave to become killjoys, the band is just theirs now and they need a guitarist and like pony steps in sometimes and other friends but they don't have a permanent one. Poison reunites with Star and they vibe and shes hanging around a lot and just. Joins the band somehow. And they become the fab four and the conventional weapons and yeah. Thats the bones of it. Theres so much more and little things 💀 Oh and Ghoul and Jet are both spanish speakers and im rusty but its getting me learning and stuff again so im actually writing their spanish bits out and the venom sibs learning it and its honestly so fun. Star cursing out a exterminator in spanish is. Whew.

#the conweps

[m0llygunn]

director’s commentary on “eddie’s notes” pls pls pls! 🫶

omg i forgor sorry i took so long to answer this BUT YES directors cut ask game link to eddie's notes

thank you for this lil directors cut request!! especially with this fic, i feel like i've never really talked about it (maybe i have?). i look at this fic with a soft fondness because to me, this was my 'breakout' fic, if you will (humour me). it was the first time i ever had actual feedback on my stuff, so it is very special to me, but also!!! it makes me rescind into my own body like i have a physical reaction to the cringe whenever i attempt to reread it so im going off memory here lol

basically this fic had a few inspos! first was the scene from the movie the first time (with dylan o'brien (<3)) where they have their first time! spoiler!!! but it goes badly and then dylan (i dont remember what the characters name is) basically blames britt robertson's character, which yuck!ew!gross!, but just the awkwardness of the scene kind of set the stage for eddie's notes.

this fic was also inspired by the way that i was doing 'research' for my other fics. For the second part of same old song and dance I was perusing reddit forums where men were describing the best blow jobs they had ever received (i don't usually care for men on reddit's opinions but i was looking for new perspectives and feeling descriptors lol), and I was taking key words and choreographing the head scene based on some of the commentary there (quite literally taking notes in my google docs), and i had this moment where i was like .....okay what the fuck am i doing right now.... and then from there the idea was kind of born.

i think my favourite part of the fic is the beginning when reader says she's a virgin and then eddie's like "oh me too" as if he didn't already say it. I think its so lame and corny and eddie coded. My least favourite part is the contingency error with the timing of day (that i added in as an after thought without realizing it messed up the timeline (it was afternoon and by the time they were done fucking the second time the sun was setting, but it was summer time which means they fucked for hours??? because the sun sets at like 9pm in the summer????? and reader who talked about living with her parent never had them come home from work??? i fucked that up but you live and ya learn))

despite the error, i do think this is a really special fic for me because it was the first time i ever felt connected to something here. also i like attention and i got a lot of attention from this <3 (seriously though, all of the kind messages i received felt life changing in a way. it sounds dramatic, but i never share stuff with people in my life so sharing something and receiving that level of positivity really reached out to a deep part of my soul and schmacked a huge big honking wet nasty kiss on it, and i'll remember it forever and ever and ever. also just having people relate to your art always feels so special, and i'll never be able to describe how cool and all encompassing the feeling is that comes with it)

#THANK YOU FOR BEING INTERESTED IN MY FICS #<33333 #sorry for taking so long to get to this I forgot my inbox existed

[painterofhorizons]

The classic adhd hyperfixantion moment. 🙈

It's 11:30 pm. After finally recovering from covid to a state where I feel like myself again for 75%, and the end of year coming closer, (and having had my first coffee in 1.5 weeks today,) brain is all like "okay here's the things we went to change next year". (mind me, I don't even believe in new years resolutions...)

Which has me think: it would be nice to track things. And also maybe I can finally start to journal. And it would be nice to have an app that combines both, because as much as a love physical notebooks we have been here before and it won't last longer than a week.

Which has me browse the app store for journal apps.

Which has me think, maybe better look up online good apps instead of clicking every single one in the app store.

Which I then do.

Which leads to: maybe make a list first what you want from such an app.

Which I then do.

Which leads me to google a little more specific for what I search.

Which leads me to etsy sellers for google docs tables that come close to what I think I want.

Which, neat!

Then I'm like: now it would be neat to also have this or that on top.

Also I once had some excel classes (many many many ages ago) so the brain goes: what if we do it on our own.

Not that I actually know how to do that. But I know I'm a stubborn bitch who knows how to find out things. And coding in excel always was fun (those ages ago when I did it).

So I'm googling how to link excel and word stuff for starters.

All while it's fucking 11:38pm and I should be fucking sleeping.

#adhd #I'm very tempted to boost up the laptop again and actually start working on units #This* #BUT I SHOULD BE SLEEPING

[architectual--bloom]

Hello everyone, This isn't the kind of post that I normally make, but its a special day for me and I've been trying to parse what I've wanted to say for the better part of a week, so uh,,,, here goes.

@grahamnesspayser, happy almost one year anniversary <3

Okay. We are under the read more I get to ramble now /lh

I have a hard time making connections with people, but with you it was different. We bonded almost immediately when we met almost 3 and a half years ago. It's really been that long? It feels like I've known you all my life ... and in a way I have, all our kin timelines that intersect in familial and romantic ways prove that.

I loved you for way longer than this year, and I know you know that, but I just want it written out too. I've been by your side in the ugliest of times and the most energetic of times, through all the emotions known to man (and shrimp. I think you finally reached shrimp emotions at some point this last year). I think about the time I wanted to boycott my old college's community action committee for calling me from a number in your same area code while I was waiting for information on you and scaring me half to death thinking something happened to you.

I care for you so fucking much. I've seen you grow so fucking much since we met, seen you through your first T shot and every single crisis your mind spiraled up and there's nowhere I would rather be than by your side. My worry when you were on the plane was an unconscious worry I didn't even know I would have until I desperately sluthed out what flight you were on to calm me down.

It's not just you either. It's all of the system. I care so much for each and every one who talks with me. From me and cathals sandwich sharing and platonic-familial bond, to storm's friendship bucket i gave them, to ceecee and I separate relationship, which has an anniversary coming soon - but that isn't the point. The point I'm trying to make is that we as partner systems are so intertwined that it warms my heart. We have made a family between the two of our systems, whether we've noticed or not.

I'm getting tired of talking so I want to share some screenshots then I'll get into more mushy things. If people who aren't Graham are reading this, these are direct from our greatest hits google doc. For Graham, yes these are from the doc but they make me laugh so hard so I want to share them with the world.

( ^ that one especially, I remember this so clearly like it was yesterday. we were in call when you sent that message and i couldn't stop laughing )

okay uhhhhh I promised that I was gonna be sappier now. I don't think I can get sappier actually. but,,,,

Graham, the other week you said something that I think is absolutely true. We often forget to explicitly say "I Love You" unless we are going through a crisis. Even if its true, we still say it without saying it. It's constantly checking in on each other, It's the sharing in each other's special interests and streaming them at the same time to each other. It's you listening to me ramble about genshin men and me listening to you ramble about the toontown cogs and finding joy in listening to it all. It's our stimming back and forth in an otherwise silent call.

We are both aro-slanted; it is difficult for us to say "I love you" and mean it a hundred percent of the time. Even so, what we can't say we make up for in our actions and time with each other. I can't wait to see you again and just lay together cuddling you, scratching your scalp until you fall asleep in my arms and knowing you are safe and calm.

I love you, my little pacesetter. I love you so fucking much.

Signed with the most sincerity,

Your Shining Aether

#cyn speaks #caspy

[zepandovski]

You said to send asks but i had no clue what to send so here's some excerpts of lore from my Sonic AU's google doc I guess !

The Chronophage ”Chrono” or Time Eater : Beast that controls the passing of time. Born of people’s hearts, there’s a piece of it inside every person. Its form changes as understanding of time in humanity evolves, though it is formless originally. In Sonic’s era, it features mechanical clock patterns, like gears and clock hands, and notably, a grasshopper mechanism. In Silver’s Era, it’s a really weak entity, as most ways to tell precise time have been destroyed, and current technology is focused on survival purposes. In that time, it appears as a dark void and features patterns reminiscent of code and bells.

Rumor has it that if you see a grasshopper in your garden, it’s a sign you should do something you’ve been putting off. In Silver’s future where nature is extremely rare, grasshoppers are a legendary animal and a superstition goes that seeing a grasshopper in your dreams or waking hours means the end of your time. Because of this legendary status, grasshoppers are a popular image to tag for survivors to signify their presence.

This is a recent addition because I learned recently that the Time Eater looks reminiscent of an actual clock ! And the mechanism it uses looks like a monstrous grasshopper, it's pretty cool !

My AU's not about it in particular ( it's a reimagining of the whole canon ), but it's apart of it so I thought it was interesting to share.

What's a Sonic creature or boss fight you find interesting ?

YES YES YES YES TY FOR THE LORE MEAL!! I'll gladly accept any lore snippet from your au! Im still very curious about it :D

Thats a pretty interesting interpretation of the time eater, even more the grasshopper symbolism, i loved how different it is on silver's era and it makes sense!

Now for the lil question, hm, for the creature..ngl the black arms still gives me interest, like we dont have much information about them besides of wat we have in Shadow's game [and thanks to him we will never fucking know more about them TY SHADOW FOR MAKING THEM EXTINCT/sarcastic]

I haven't played much sonic games so for me to remember some creatures and boss fights will be difficult KWBDKEND

Another one that i find interesting is just, all of the unleashed dark gaia creatures, dark gaia itself and our boy the werehog! I wished we could have got more about them just like the black arms..

For the boss fight, i'll just grab frontiers and well TMoSTH if that counts, i found the think levels so cool and interesting but also irritating OWNDLEND

#ask box #lore sharing

[strititty]

per my last reblog i decided to ramble in about nerds aint got shit, my most popular fic.

well, ostensibly i’m rambling about that but honestly i have 3 am motormouth and i took an edible so im just in that sort of mood, you know. all philosophical like. more under the cut

i wrote that fic in 2015 for drone season, when i was living in - and i cannot stress this enough - the MIDDLE OF FUCKING NOWHERE, though not as much as i would be the year afterward. my internet was shitty cornfield hotspot net and it was the summer after my first year of college so i had a helluva lot on my mind already.

the original document was just a little notepad file with word wrap turned on cuz that’s how i used to write all my shit, and i’d send people wips via pastebin. can you even imagine? PASTEBIN? i use google docs now but sometimes i wonder if i should go back to notepad lmao. smaller size, less evil google involved. when i was a kid i used word, though i can’t remember when that stopped being a thing. might have been during high school.

since i wrote nerds aint got shit so shortly after i had graduated high school i had a very clear picture of my OWN high school in my head, which probably lends itself to some weird stylistic quirks. my high school was very very small. i shan’t name it, of course, lmao, what am i some sort of fool? but it was tiny as hell and that tends to infect any sort of high school adjacent au i write. rereading it i can so clearly picture MY high school that it’s frankly a little funny.

fortunately my high school only had one creepy teacher and it wasnt the PE teacher + we got his ass fired, but fiction makes for a much more fun place to explore these sorts of ideas for me. idk why i have such a thing about age differences & teacher/student fics but i SURE DO.

i can still remember the summer days writing this fic, kind of, in a hazy way. i remember my phone being the only way i could connect with my friends and loved ones, and the sun beating down, and the way things were far too hot in my little room. my cat had gotten out and gotten pregnant by a farm cat, so i had to cough up money to get her fixed - she should have been already but the people i lived with were less concerned about that sort of thing and i’d been at college so i hadn’t been able to make my case. the kittens were cute but tiny and stunted b/c my cat was very young and small & only two of them survived. i think the third one was stillborn and that my cat ate that one, but since i wasn’t there when they were born i didn’t get a lot of the details.

i still think about this fic sometimes for the memories it draws up and the plans i have to revamp and add on to it--my initial idea was a sort of 7 day format where dave goes back to bro every day of the week, but that was a plot for when i was a more prolific writer with a clearer grasp of smut. now im lucky if i can get a coherent smutty fic down in a few weeks god save me lmao. i don’t know if it’s because i’m older or just a little more burned out.

it was a fun idea though and i do semi frequently consider revisiting it, especially when i get the energy and inspiration to write strider stuff. right now that energy is being conserved for certain other works but hey you never know.

i feel like there’s also a hundred points i could make about how my most popular fic is also my oldest homestuck fic, like. yeah, okay, homestuck was more popular back then, so it makes sense that it would have more kudos and what not. hs fanfic is a much quieter affair now, between the fandom controversy, the natural drop that happens after something ends, and how half of all fandom seems to be girlbossing too close to the hayes code. brodave used to get you 200 kudos and now you get like 20!

and you know i don’t like. hate that. i do post for engagement but i never really expected to be POPULAR you know what i mean? more like sharing this thing i wrote about something i’m interested in-- “i wrote this for me but you can read it too, please enjoy!” energies. but i think that it’s so interesting that something that is now approaching its eighth birthday (What The Fuck) had its biggest surge of participants ages ago. i wonder what they’re doing now and actually whatever theyre doing i hope theyre having fun with it but i don’t need to know because i’ve been burned before okay. ppl turning into fancops or whatever. shitty as hell.

the hour grows late so i shall return to the actual topic at hand:

nerds aint got shit’s ill-begotten romance. that shit was gonna be so toxic. i was definitely gonna write dave growing to sympathize with bro, kind of, with his crush fueled by terror kicked into overdrive. bro’s kind of a sad and pathetic weirdo even though to dave (and this is real, not imagined, dave’s not making it up) he is a significant threat. and dave was going to start to pick up those sad jerk vibes in addition to the horny vibes and start to, in an almost lalondian fashion, romanticize the shit out of it.

in a manner of speaking, anyway. im not sure if that was my full plan or what but there’s also just the gremlin brain breathing heavily going “god this is my favorite dynamic” which back then was fairly true. i had also written almost 20k of original teacher/student fiction so romanticizing that was not a new concept to me. i think there’s a part of me that does want to be in that place, you know, but from a safe distance where it’s also just fun and games.

that’s why fics are fun! that’s why trashy romance is fun :) insert something about ace kink here. i do not want to actually touch it but mentally touching it is ok.

nowadays i don’t write so much teacher/student fic tho im still hells of deep in my love of age differences. more often than not i find myself kind of drawn to a cougar/kid in their late teens dynamic nowadays for original fiction, tho i also love ancient vampire/regular human and just minor age and experience differences.

(jotting down ‘rose lalonde as a cougar’ for a future fic idea thanks)

i think ive grown away from this fic mostly, but it feels like a wild time capsule to me, and maybe one day i will unearth it to add more. maybe in 2025 for the a ten year anniversary.

#lime rambles #drug use mention #animal death #christ almight 3 am motormouth makes me morbid

[umilily]

Hiii it’s Shoey! So sorry for my absence, I’ve been busy with work sadly (ヽ´ω`)

Buuutt I'm here back with my meru rambling teehee, I've been thinking about him and kaname a lot

1) thinks about. kaname at some point waking up and meeting the reader in coffee cups and the absolute mindfuck and shenanigans that happen after. It would either "why are fucking my brother." or he looks up to you? Somewhere in the middle ground? Kana waking up and being back in sync is definitely a pot hole of itself but it's a fun thought

2) hi. bunny meru. been thinking about him again and. Just imagining putting on the outfit he has on or some sort of alternate outfit. It's such an outfit but I think it would be fun to wear ya know? boobs might be a problem but hey and plus himeru yume goes crazy I need to see his reaction to reader putting on the thing

3) do you ever stop and think about how kaname is butterfly coded and oremeru is moth coded. yeah

anyways I'm gonna go night its late here so if these feel lackluster sorry it's the sleepiness getting to me kay byeeeee

- shoe anon

welcome back shoe, good to hear from you <3 i hope you're not too stressed out from your work :)

yesss... rambling! i've been so busy lately, this feels like a real treat. i much prefer to think about kaname and meru than about biochemistry lmao thanks for always sharing your thoughts with me <3

1: “why are you fucking my brother” lmaooo don’t tempt me to actually put that line in a fic. But yeah, I’ve been thinking about that scenario as well. it’s probably the biggest thing I haven’t actually decided on whether I should have that happen in the series or not. It’s so tempting and I have a lot of thoughts on what could happen in that scenario, but also I’m worried that the sheer amount of issues that would arise with that development might be a little too much to properly fit into the format of the series, if that makes any sense. I imagine that Kaname would be very torn between how much he looks up to his brother and being angry about meru just taking over his life and acting like he’s doing Kaname a favour. Between that and meru just being completely overwhelmed by the situation and being too emotionally inept to understand Kaname and act accordingly, I imagine the overall situation in the household to be quite tense with poor reader just stuck in the middle of it and trying to mediate. Because of course meru (being a bit of a control freak) would insist that Kaname moves in with you when he gets discharged from the hospital. Imagine being home alone with that kid while meru is at work and Kaname just constantly switches between singing the highest praises about his brother just to be grumpy the next minute, complaining that his brother treats him like a child and doesn’t take him seriously. Also, consider the following: I think the reader and Kaname would end up getting along just fine and naturally meru is happy about that and it puts his mind at ease to know that his brother isn’t lonely when he himself can’t keep him company. so everything’s just peachy, right? Think again, because when is anything involving these people ever not complicated. i would imagine that once meru thinks about it, he’d actually get jealous (a little or a lot? lol) when he considers that Kaname and him basically look exactly the same and considering the type of person he himself is and how complicated he can be, he starts to worry that reader could ditch him for his little brother. (as if they would ever lol) and of course that trainwreck of a man would not say anything and just bottle it up until he snaps and- well what would happen in that scenario might be a thought for another day (that I may or may not have a WIP about, buried somewhere in my fic folder on google docs lol)

I haven’t given up the hope that we might get some more crumbs on that whole topic soon, so I’ll be a little patient before I actually decide on whether to write about that or not.

2: I feel like if you’d actually wear his clothes secretly and he caught you, he’d try to act annoyed about it like “you’re gonna stretch the fabric” and all, but he’d also find it way too cute to actually be mad and you could tell lmao just imagine trying on the bunny ears and he just comes home and stands there in the door like 🧍‍♂️ when he see you. he’d probably be so embarrassed lol

3: … actually, I’ve never made the moth connection, but now that you point it out, he really is :o if you have any further thoughts on that, please feel free to elaborate, I have to ponder on that for a bit… also: this is a very random thought that is only vaguely connected to this (?) but do you ever think about how most people like butterflies, but at the same time think that moths are creepy? (or is that just the case with the people I encounter?) Anyway, rude! What did moths ever do to them? they’re cute, fuzzy little friends… now I’m thinking about meru in a very fluffy sweater lol

#lily answers #shoe anon

[neurodiversebones]

autistic brennan !!!

in my autistic opinion... here you go. a SLIGHTLY more organized version of what i have dropped in the DMs of anyone who is willing to listen, copy and pasted from a google doc i have so eloquently named "bones is fucking autistic" !!

this headcanon is like. 95% confirmed, which kind of makes my heart do a little "!!!" <3 idk brennan means a Lot to me and always did as a young autistic afab person :-) so here you go !! (under the cut)

okay SO here is my explanation for my headcanon, explained in bullet points- this took up multiple google docs pages so i hope you're ready

emotional display:

has absolutely zero poker face- we see this frequently. there are too many instances to count where she cannot hide her facial expressions !! it is also referenced by booth in late season 8, and i think a few other characters have mentioned it throughout the series?

this is especially in the earlier seasons, but her response to stress and trauma is Very Neurodivergent. she rarely has an outward response- it's so rare to see her cry before season 7/8 ?? this could also definitely be a trauma thing but like,,, trauma symptoms and autistic traits are unfortunately hard to differentiate between because autistic people tend to go through more traumatic situations

not exactly emotional display, but similar- she clearly has alexithymia, or something of the sort (basically, she struggles to recognize her own emotions). this is exhibited a few times- the one i can remember right now is "i don't understand what i'm feeling" "you understand happy, right?" (conversation with angela, season 9). this is actually something i have rarely seen in a character- at least not done well. it makes me very happy !!!

empathy:

she struggles to understand why others would think differently than her- her view of the world is Correct in her eyes, and she finds it difficult to look from someone else's point of view. this frequently ends in her criticizing those around her- her view of the world is incredibly black and white, so when others disagree with her, she believes they must be wrong.

extension of the black and white thinking- she doesn't understand concepts, no matter how hard she tries. she needs evidence and proof. examples of this would be her views on god/religion, love (pre-season 6), and marriage (pre-season 8)

despite her lack of empathy toward people, she exhibits a lot of empathy toward animals. this is actually a really common autistic trait?? examples of this would be her emotional attachment to the dogs in 4x04, or her explosive reaction to finding out the tiger was killed in 8x04

social/conversational skills:

this is probably her most obvious and easily recognizable autistic trait- it's what made me go "she's autistic" after watching a few episodes

she does not understand jokes or sarcasm very well- she frequently gets confused by jokes, explaining why they aren't funny or don't make sense, especially pop culture jokes. when she does understand jokes or pop culture references, she gets very excited and explains them out loud, even though everyone around her already understands (just adding- i love this so much ?? her explaining jokes is Very Cute. i'm sorry i'm a simple gay who can't go ten minutes without declaring my love for her)

struggles with small talk and social niceties- this is used as a joke in nearly every episode. she doesn't do small talk well- preferring to talk about topics that are actually important or interest her. she doesn't see the need for most social conventions either, which leads to her frequently being seen as rude.

she misses social cues in conversations- she frequently brings up topics that are probably not Appropriate for the setting (talking about dead bodies in a restaurant, talking about sex while standing over a dead body, etc.)

she is incredibly literal, and doesn't understand metaphorical speak. this goes hand in hand with the not understanding jokes- she takes many phrases at face value, sometimes confusing others

tone:

she frequently comes off as cold or blunt without meaning to be- many people read her as "heartless" or just uninterested because of the way she speaks, even when she is very invested.

i don't know how to explain this other than her speaking pattern is Very Autistic- the way she pauses mid sentence all the time, the facial expressions she makes while speaking, it's all autism babey !!!

intense focus on one topic:

okay it's very obvious that her special interests are forensics and anthropology

she gets hyperfocused, often losing herself in her work and putting herself through the ringer for it. she puts her work above (almost) everything, and has stated on multiple occasions that she would be nothing without her work.

she often explains the things around her with references to anthropology and ancient civilizations- she uses these references to explain her feelings, the situations she's in, and frequently, to solve crimes. things make sense to her when she thinks about them like this.

not engaging with peers in an "expected" way:

she is often showed to have difficulty getting close with people- she doesn't like showing emotion to others, and would rather just talk about the task at hand. this could very well be explained by her trauma background- but i believe it's probably a bit of both.

she finds it difficult to bond with her peers over common things, like pop culture, and rather talks about work or other things. she doesn't open up to a lot of people, even those who she is incredibly close with.

other/misc.:

stimming !! this doesn't have enough instances to get its own section, but i like to interpret that wonder woman scene as vestibular stimming, purely because i love to spin and jump !!!!

detail oriented, to the point of obsession. it's common for autistic people to get caught up in the details of things, which she definitely does.

views on sexuality differ from the "norm"- she is very critical of monogamy during the first half of the series, and does not see the point in marriage. also she's definitely arospec, just putting that out there <3

i am autistic and i love her therefore i'm right

final notes:

i think she's one of my favourite autistic characters to exist- i usually despise the socially awkward detective trope, but it's handled well here. the people around her don't expect her to change the innate aspects of who she is- rather, they love her unconditionally (even if they are exasperated at times- which is natural to feel with people that you love)

i very much like that they didn't go with the socially awkward + smart = unattractive trope either- she knows that she's hot, and so do the people around her. i'm so sick of nerdy girls not being allowed to be hot 😭 especially when it comes to autistic-coded characters- let autistic people have sex lives 2k21

she just,,, holds a very special place in my heart. as an undiagnosed autistic afab kid, she meant a lot to me. i saw a woman on screen who was smart like me and sometimes confused people because of her intelligence, who didn't really get social situations, who didn't know how to express how she felt. she was like me- and she loved herself, and people loved her. she's a very important character to me and has been since i was really young <3

thank you SO MUCH to anybody who read this- brennan is the loml and i will infodump about her until the end of time

#bones tv #bones on fox #temperance brennan #bonestv #brennan #emily deschanel #autistic headcanon #autistic pride #actuallyautistic #autistic brennan #autistic bones #autistic characters #autism #autistic #neurodivergent #my headcanons

[sapnapsimper420]

Feral Boys Gardening Headcanons

❥︎ genre // fluff

❥︎ characters // feral boys

❥︎ warnings // dnf jokes (no genuine shipping, briefly mentioned in dream's bit)

❥︎ reader pronouns // not mentioned

Dream:

• wouldn't be the first to bring it up

• but would ABSOLUTELY be thinking about it long before you bring it up

• "hey hon can we plant a garden?" "yES"

• as soon as you ask to plant a garden he spends the night researching different types of flowers + how to take care of them

• made a Google slideshow + accompanying Google doc explaining in detail proper plant care

• beelines for the sunflowers immediately

• has this one favourite flower that he places in the "best" spot. he named it George as a joke

• if he's ever asked about them he just lights up like a Christmas tree and goes off

George:

• didn't bring it up first and is kinda indifferent about it

• "yeah that'd be cool"

• goes with you to get the flowers, but doesn't offer much input aside from "marigolds keep mosquitos away"

• needless to say you buy so many marigolds

• sorta falls in love with them

• starts to research and pay more attention to the flowers and how to take care of them

• "Minecraft should add marigolds" tweets every other week

• "today we coded it so that Minecraft has marigold flowers" on the other weeks

• does actually code that and takes you on a cute virtual date with marigolds scattered everywhere

Sapnap:

• you both ask each other for a garden at the same time

• "hey y/n can I ask you something?" "I was about to say that, you go first" "can we have a garden" "THAT'S WHAT I WAS GOING TO ASK"

• it was a 5 second discussion on what the first flower you'd get would be: tiger lilies

• your reasoning is because it reminds you of him and his is just that it's pretty

• "that's why it reminds me of you" "y/n shut uP"

• neither of you tell Dream about it until you're halfway through planting them

• Dream walks into the backyard "hey guys how- what the fuck"

• you both invite him to join you and he just kinda sighs and joins in

• he plants two of them a little closer than the others and tells you that it's the two of you

Karl:

• brings it up first, and it was definitely at the most strange time too

• 3 am he just rolls over and goes "y/n can we start a garden"

• "sure love"

• proceeds to drag you to the store at 8 am for flowers

• listen it's been a thought of his for a while he's EXCITED okay

• buys clay pots so you can paint them together

• spends 30 minutes looking through flowers before deciding on pink carnations

• he doesn't tell you why, he just kinda giggles and says it's lore

• so you google it and find out pink carnations mean "I'll never forget you" and just melt

• he blushes when you confront him about it and it is just the most pure moment ever

• jumps right back into chaos by naming a few after the feral boys

• tweets about them every single day

• "garden update number 12: George is looking better!"

• twitter is overtaken with flowers

Quackity:

• you ask him in the middle of a stream

• "hey can we plant some lilies" "what the fuck y/n"

• agrees after some convincing

• you mostly buy orange lilies

• he cannot garden for shit

• gets sidetracked about 40 times

• so you eventually give up and just ask him to hand you the tools necessary for getting the garden done

• jokingly takes all the credit anytime he's asked

• the one time you weren't on the call to defend yourself you entered his room and threw a wooden spoon at him

• "I PLANTED THEM"

• genuinely loves them and has definitely named half of them after people he's friends with just so he can message them various jokes based on the flower

• "hey bad you and skeppy are growing apart a little, are those dms open? ;)"

#dream smp headcannon #dream smp imagine #dream x reader #sapnap fluff #dream fluff #georgenotfound fluff #karl jacobs fluff #quackity fluff #sapnapsimper writes #sapnap x reader #georgenotfound x reader #karl jacobs x reader #quackity x reader

[tomurasprincess]

Top Ten Posts of 2020

Thank you @bakatenshii for tagging me! This was definitely interesting to look back at, and weirdly emotional all at once.

Made using this site here

Two of my top posts were my fic masterlist and Kinktober masterlist, so I subbed them out for the next top 2. I didn’t realize how many Kinktober fics landed on my top 10 until I did this, and I am really grateful that it did so well. Also I swear it’s going to be finished soon.

Conflagration (Alpha Bakugou x Omega Reader)

Of course a Bakugou fic is number one. Of fucking course. But nah, in all seriousness I really do like how this one turned out. It was one of my first times writing full fantasy AU and I had a blast with it. It’s also extremely close to a huge note milestone for me and I am super excited about it.

Daddy’s Little Girl (Step Dad Enji x Reader)

Honestly this one was a huge shock for me of how quickly it blew up after posting it. I was a bit nervous to venture into stepdad territory, AND it was my first time writing for Enji. Definitely not my last though 👀

Aerie (Alpha Hawks x Omega Reader)

I have a soft spot for this one because it was my first attempt at A/B/O. It’s a trope that I absolutely love so I was both excited and nervous about attempting it! So many good A/B/O fics out there that I wanted to try and do the trope justice. 

Blood Ties (Dabi x Reader x Shouto)

Ooh boy, surprised to see this one on here. When I was writing it, I felt all tingly but was also like “...I am going to get so much hate for this one, I can just tell.” Good thing you guys are all deviants like me 😂

The Skeld (Dabi x Reader x Hawks)

Omg this one was so much fun to write but also difficult. I had multiple map pages and info guides on Among Us on one screen and a google doc open with an outline of who was where, who was accusing who, and who was dead 😂 Shit I practically needed a flow chart, but obviously it paid off.

Black Coffee (Gang Orca x Reader)

Sugar daddy Gang Orca grabbed me by the cooch and would not let go. Surprised that a less popular character did so well, but it just goes to show you that people like massive whale cock breeding your coochie and taking care of you. 

Vault 68 (Shigaraki, Dabi, Muscular, Kurogiri, Spinner x Reader)

God I hated writing this one at first. I had never written anything beyond a threesome and keeping track of everyone’s positions, body parts, and dialogue was so fucking hard. Ended up color coding the whole document for each one’s parts which seemed to work okay. Both looking forward to and dreading writing the sequel for the last day. (Spoiler alert: probably going to have a section for each character solo with one big gangbang at the end, assuming I’m not being over ambitious)

His Biggest Fan (Hawks x Reader)

Scumbag Hawks is best Hawks, you cannot change my mind. I loved the idea of Hawks taking advantage of some poor civilian by using his wings to hide him utterly ravaging her pussy and reader being too much of a fan to stop him.

Rising Star (Bakugou, Deku, Shouto, Kirishima x Reader)

I had an absolute blast writing this one too. I really tried to make all of the guys different and unique in the way they talked/fucked reader and got to throw in a bunch of kinks into one fic. I think it turned out really well.

Mirror Image (Twin Shouto x Twin Reader)

Honestly this is one of my favorites from Kinktober and another one where I went “the hate I’m going to get from this is going to be incredible.” But nope, very little hate and now I have people begging for a part two. My wonderful little deviants 💞

Tagging: @thewheezingwyvern, @hisoknen, @trafalgar-temptress, @katsukikitten, @dee-madwriter, @lemonlordleah-shinzawa-kitten​ 

#mari muses #top 10 #and lemme just say one thing #the fact that there is no solo shigaraki on this list is an abomination #who am i #what am i doing with my life #no top 10 shigaraki on a blog named after shigaraki #the world is a cruel place #press f in chat for mari's sadness

[destinationtoast]

Ted Lasso time codes for 1x01 (Pilot)

When I'm writing I'm frequently scrubbing through episodes trying to find when different things occurred so I can study character expressions or refresh my memory on details. So I started making lists of time codes of any time they were onscreen, for easier reference. Sharing in case they are useful to other writers, gifset makers, etc.

These are currently focused only on Roy, Jamie, and Keeley, but if others were interested in broadening these to include time codes for other characters -- and/or helping to do this for other episodes -- I could start a Google doc where other folks could collaborate. Or if this kind of resource already exists elsewhere, please clue me in! :)

Edit: I made a Google doc! Please feel free to help flesh out my notes! Right now I have detailed notes for the first two episodes and sparser notes for the rest.

1:00 Jamie playing during training

12:24 Roy & team watch Ted’s press conference

12:28 Jamie lifting weights by himself

12:31 Roy’s going to start punching dicks if he doesn’t hear silence

13:09 Roy responds to Ted’s statement that he’s never coached football at any level with squint to lowering head and raising eyebrows and saying “Jesus”

14:35 Roy responds to Trent’s “is this a fucking joke?” by closing his eyes

14:50 Roy – “nobody can understand you”

18:28 Roy out on the pitch during training – “Jesus, Mary, and fuckface Joseph! Eyes on the man you’re marking!”

18:35 Beard describes Roy Kent: “Team captain. Classic old-school box-to-box midfielder. Definitely lost a step.” Nate: “But you know he’s a legend. Won a Champions League with Chelsea, so…” Beard: “Eight years ago.”

19:15 Beard describes Jamie Tartt right after he takes an amazing shot (like a kitty spooked by a cucumber): “Top scorer on the team.” (Jamie, sitting on the pitch: “Fuck off.” slaps away Sam’s offered hand.) Nate: “He… He’s great. You know, at football.”

20:40 Jamie enters locker room, gives Ted an incredulous look

20:45 Roy enters locker room, gives Ted an angry look

20:57 Jamie putting on shirt

21:09 Keeley enters locker room: “Knock, knock! Is everyone in here decent?”

21:25 Jamie’s going to get waxed because he takes his shirt off whenever he scores a goal

21:38 Roy (shirtless) gloweringly watches Ted to see how he responds

21:41 Jamie fist bumps Ted on the way out

21:44 Jamie says “after you” to Keeley, not because he’s going to be a gentleman now, but because he’s going to watch her ass. She laughs and hits him. “Fuck off.” then sashays out with a “Watch it and weep”

21:54 Jamie turns back to point at the team as they cheer

22:05 Roy (shirtless) watches Ted leave after his speechus interruptus

22:55 Roy comes into the office.

23:10 Roy: “never thought it would end being coached by Ronald fucking McDonald”

24:03 Keeley walks in on Ted putting tape over her topless photo in Jamie’s locker

24:08 Keeley shouts “what you doing in there” in what might be an impression of Jamie? Or just a random footballer?

24:10 Keeley as Ted bumps his head, first worried and then amused, “Oh shit are you okay?” … “I shouldn’t laugh”

24:50 Keeley sees her picture with the tape over it

24:55 Keeley “helps” with the BELIEVE poster

25:05 Ted high fives Keeley, and she says “Old school!” then introduces herself. She says Ted is trending hard on Twitter right now.

25:26 Keeley never knows how to respond to a grown man beatboxing in front of her

25:40 Keeley tells Ted if he goes on Twitter to avoid #Richmond, wanker, and dick. Then she faux-curtseys to welcome him to England

#ted lasso #ted lasso 1x01 #roy kent #keeley jones #jamie tartt #ted lasso time codes

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✨Modern Sebaciel Headcanons that I wrote in November!!✨

Some are a bit NSFW so be careful.

🍼 Ciel and Sebastian have banged in almost every room. Sebastian’s office, the shower, the kitchen, Sebastian’s room, and Ciel’s room. They have yet to bang the loft. Sebastian almost got Ciel on him but he was playing Splatoon 2 and online with several people in a group Discord phone call. Who could hear Sebastian’s seductive words and Ciel’s reaction which involved many squeaks and yelps of “Daddy! Daddy not now! Daddy! They’ll hear!” And lewd moans. Once Ciel had evaded Sebastian and refocused on the game, the other players congratulated him on getting a sugar daddy, much to Ciel’s embarrassment.

🍼 Sebastian makes Ciel hold his hand while crossing the street.

🍼 All of the female and some of the male nurses at Sebastian’s work have a crush on him and constantly flirt.

🍼 Ciel is spoiled. Very very spoiled. He’s so spoiled he can’t even put his plate in the sink.

🍼 Sebastian has been called up to Ciel’s school so many times for various reasons. Dress code, back talk, and cussing, getting his phone taken by teachers. And for injuries too. Sprained ankles, twisted wrists, and other things, along with injuries he made up just to get out of class.

🍼 Sebastian can and will take Ciel’s phone away if he is bad.

🍼 Ciel loves it when Sebastian calls him “Baby” or “Baby Boy” or even “Princess”. It makes him feel special and like Sebastian would take care of him forever.

🍼 At school Ciel is known as the slut because he often has hickeys and bite marks on his skin but no one can figure out who fucked him along with the slutty clothes he wears. He says with a cute little smile “I don’t kiss and tell~” and it drives his friends insane. Then he will stare at nothing and fantasize about Sebastian and get horny, a blush across his face. He would text Sebastian and see what he was doing.

🍼 Sebastian has two favorite lingerie sets he likes to see Ciel in. One is a Victorian piece with a corset and a petticoat and the other is a cat piece with a tiny skirt and a lace top with cat ears and a tail. Ciel likes the cat one better because he gets to use the tail, which Sebastian loves to see used. But put next to each other Sebastian would pick the Victorian piece out of nostalgia.

🍼 Ciel has sex toys galore. An entire box full of vibrators, dildos, flavored lubes, beads, and such. All different sizes and different vibrating strengths. He plays with these when Sebastian won’t give him attention when he needs it.

🍼 Ciel is a depressed child. He does his best to not show it but one can always tell when he is having a bad day when he gets really quiet and distant. He feels like a burden and like a useless child. He doesn’t say anything but he really struggles with that. He knows Sebastian loves him, but people love useless things. It doesn’t mean he has a redeeming quality or a purpose. He’s just Sebastian’s fuck toy. Ciel doesn’t take antidepressants or anything. Sebastian doesn’t know the extent of his troubles and thinks he’s just sleepy or upset over something small. If he did know he would have pills and medication and therapy. Ciel doesn’t want that. He’s just a guilty, upset, conflicted, and sad baby. He doesn’t tell anyone anything about this and does his best not to let it interfere with his daily life.

🍼 When Sebastian goes into the school with Ciel to talk to a teacher Ciel gets jealous of all the girls looking at Sebastian. So he stays real close. When Sebastian picks him up and kisses his head it sends a message that he is married and he has a child. This puts the girls off.

🍼 When it comes to jewelry Ciel loves it and constantly asks Sebastian for new pieces. Sebastian has jewelry, ring bands, just black onyx he wears for business sometimes. But the watches he has. Italian, Swiss, German, beautiful things. His favorite brands are Chopard, Buccellati, and Cartier.

🍼 Ciel has tons of jewelry from Tiffany’s, Harry Winston, and Pandora. He is a child after all and is going to gravitate towards a more cutesy jewelry. But Harry Winston is his favorite. He is constantly begging Sebastian to buy him a specific piece of jewelry from there.

🍼 Jean Paul Gaultier among many other designer brands are what make up Ciel’s closet. He loves that brand because of how beautifully gay it is and has male clothing that makes him feel good about himself.

🍼 Ciel is loud in bed, like really loud. He used to keep his hands over his mouth at all times but now he just is loud. Sebastian loves to hear his little voice.

Okay!! These are really old and have been sitting in a Google doc. They are one of the first pieces if ever wrote for this fandom. Thank you so much for reading!!

#black butler #kuroshitsuji #black butler sebastian #kuroshitsuji ciel #sebastian michaelis #ciel phantomhive #black butler ciel #ciel #Kuroshitsuji Sebastian #modern black butler #modern kuroshitsuji #modern sebaiel headcanons #kuroshitsuji headcanons #black butler headcanons #sebaciel

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hey jenn...

so tell me about your plot planning process

oh chi i hate this question so much askfjajfakds

okay okay so i had to think about this because?? i don't do a lot of this consciously. have any of y'all looked at writing advice stuff and tried to make it work for you?? i keep trying and idk... i really tried to be the type of writer with like, outlines and bullet points, and usually i might have notes of some sort somewhere... it's all very much a 'trust the process' um. process. so here's stuff i do? in some semblance of order, but more like for your reading benefit than how it might actually happen.

first of all - i start with a concept (that fucks, obviously). considering the current spn fic i'm writing and the last longfic i wrote (marvel fandom) were both borne of that age old 'i read all the fics with this trope so now i have to write my own', i guess that's a pattern?

second, once i have the beginnings of like, a Thing I Want To Read Badly Enough That I Will Bite The Bullet And Write It Myself, how can i write it, considering like, who i am? for heard from your mother, a spn character getting sent back in time to fix things isn't a totally unique plot, but i am someone who 1. has not actually watched that much spn and 2. really enjoys the early seasons. so pretty quickly i started to think along the lines of 'writing a time travel fix it would require an in-depth knowledge of canon that i don't have past like, s3'. then my brain starts spinning off in all these other directions which leads to -

plot, i guess? by the time i put out the first chapter of heard from your mother i knew how cas got sent back in time, kinda sorta what would happen, and a rough idea of the ending, but no real sign posts. i think the main other thing i knew was that dean and cas end up together before the end of the fic, but even then, i didn't really know how. i also thought it would be a fun idea to give cas a cellphone that sends him anonymous messages as another draw/guide to the story. since pre-pilot was mostly focused on dean and cas meeting and getting together, a lot of energy was focused in trying to get them to be in the same place at the same time, bond, and eventually become an item. which also means -

what stories happen within the story? in any of my longer fics, there's usually an A/B plot going, which can shift and morph and intertwine as the story goes on. In heard from your mother, the A plot is probably dean and cas getting together, up until s1 starts, in which case it's the 'find dad' s1 plot, and the B plot throughout the fic is 'cas needs to figure out what he is and how he got where he is now'. there are shorter c plots (like offscreen stuff that happens with jess, bobby, pamela, etc.) but they're shorter lived.

another thing plot-wise that i don't consciously think of too much but is still important is payoff. these can be big or small, but this fic is SO goddamn long that it's good to idk, give the readers *something*. early in s0, this was dean and cas meeting up again after doing their own thing, like, yay! fun treat! good times! or another clue to what cas is (aka the RIBS chapter). some fun reveal, like seeing an old character pop up again, or maybe another emotional moment, like the resolution of the scarecrow episode rewrite, where dean finally comes out to sam. these are all moments that i personally really enjoyed writing, and if you're in this fic for the long haul, i imagine you're reading and going 'omg, finally!' or 'whoa, cool' - just something to make you pick your head up after however many words.

when i actually sit down to write a chapter, i kind of know where i want things to end up? like a lot of s0 was making sure certain characters met each other, s1 was more or less the same as the canon s1 with more focus on how the characters have grown/changed, and everything else is made up on the spot. like the hunts in s0 were made by me thinking: 'oh this monster got mentioned in an early season of spn, dean probably hunted that before. let's find a town for it to take place in, and maybe write it in a way that highlights one of his character flaws' very much an early monster of the week type of fic - creature story with an aesop somewhere inside that prompts dean (and usually cas) to confront something about themselves and hopefully push themselves closer together. we see this in the chapters dealing with the gillepsie family and the crocotta, probably the most obviously? i try not to beat anyone over the head with it. heard from your mother has a writing style that is sort of like 'here it is, you make sense of what people are thinking/feeling bc i'm not narrating that' which is very spn and male coded of me i think.

if i ever get stuck on how to approach something, i usually will put the fic down and listen to music or read something else, or i just talk out the ideas i have (to a lot of people on tumblr actually! thank you!!) a lot of my writing is latent and i just kind of let it happen. there are definitely deliberate choices for some things i do in this fic (i mentioned this with a previous ask about putting stuff in the plot that could help the characters from being backed into a corner later on), but heard from your mother is still something that to me is like 'this is a fun little story, watch me type away at my google doc and see what happens!'. like i take it seriously, i want people to enjoy it, but i want to enjoy writing it just as much.

i guess my writing is just: find what you want to read, figure out how you could write it taking into account your personal hangups, get it started, know kind of where you want to end up, and have fun figuring out the stuff in between (and leave some breadcrumbs in the middle there so if you end up way off base and you're already putting out chapters you can write your way out of it).

#also if it makes me laugh it's going in the fic :) #asks #writing #i really did start typin huh