#the way we all yearn for love

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: death mention / family death mention / ]

Mhmm I sure love thinking of the reality where we did get more time to really know Karai and her dynamics with the bros. Losing her hit hard in the finale, but it would’ve hit much, much harder had we known Karai longer and really saw her relationships develop with everyone.

I especially would have been interested in her dynamic with Leo, as past iterations often have the two of them clash in ideals and the like while still sharing many characteristics. Two sides of the same coin, and all that. Her specifically being the bros’ Gram-Gram also adds a whole new dynamic as well.

Imagine how interesting it would be, to have Karai start off on Leo’s side for once, showing wholly just how alike the two are at their cores and bonding as family without the worry of betrayal or animosity that other iterations suffer through, only to have Karai die anyway. Their parting hug and the desperate look of horror Leo wears later on would have hit that much harder, I feel.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rise karai #rise leo #rottmnt karai #rottmnt leo #I think a lot about these two in particular #and how that dynamic could have flourished #the way it was depicted in the finale is so purposefully unique and painful like #that hug man #can you imagine how much more heartbreaking that would have been if we knew her longer #not that it wasn’t already sad but we just simply didn’t know her long enough to be completely attached #also imo having more episodes with her and in general would have presented something I’ve been thinking about since the finale #so like - I like to think each bro kinda immediately leans more toward certain family members #Mikey has Draxum #Donnie has April #Raph has Splinter because this is another one that would be SO GOOD and make the finale moment where Raph sees his memories hit harder #if they had an ep or two more of Splinter and Raph together bc I really do feel like Raph respects Splinter most of the four #and finally- Leo has Karai #and then he loses her #imo? this would align with the movie even more #because it was the act of heroism that kinda killed her in a way - makes sense that Leo would initially be leaning away from that #and yet he ends up exactly like her anyway #haha sorry for rambling I just really love the interesting dynamic these two tend to have #and it’s a shame we didn’t get to see it really explored in rise #but yeah make no mistake while I’m focusing on Leo here I wanted more for all the boys and karai #Mikey’s little moments with her were so sweet and we already know how much he yearns for more family #Karai being from an age long gone would mean she’d be super impressed by literally any invention Donnie has (adult validation!!) #and could you imagine her training with Raph - with this training being referenced in the finale?

[biblicalhorror]

Aroace Riz real but also Fabian is SO clearly in love with him and Riz has no idea

#honestly fabian might not even fully know yet #a core part of fabians character is that he is so deeply afraid of rejection that he is never going to pursue the people he actually wants #i do think he likes Maezy a lot but i think he only knows how to pursue hot toxic women that will discard him at a moments notice #which in a way protects him from ever actually dealing with heartbreak #is he a gay man dealing with comphet? ehh maybe #i could see that #but I think the vibe i get is more about how he has these platonic friends he completely adores and is fully devoted to #and then in another category he has the people that he does not have any actual attachment to that he will allow himself to pursue #and crossing the boundaries in between those two categories or allowing himself to pursue someone he really cares for #would require a level of vulnerability he is in no way prepared for #in his home life he has an emotionally detached mother who is well liked but kind of floats through interactions on a surface level #and a father who is extremely concerned with fame and glory and attention but doesnt seem to have ever stopped moving in his life #genuinely fabian does not know what a safe loving partnership would look like #and we see him constantly oscillating between emulating his mother and his father in relationships #but just beneath the surface is a little boy who wants so badly to cling to his loved ones so tight and be squeezed right back #with no way of knowing how to even ask for that if he wanted #and riz is his best friend in the world and he knows on some level that riz is simply not interested in having that kind of relationship #not on the level fabian needs #but that also makes riz a safe target for these feelings of devotion #theyre just friends! just besties! fabian never has to reckon with his own loneliness or harmful patterns #if he channels all of his yearning for closeness onto his best friend #anyway! this boy needs therapy #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fabriz

[cyberpunkboytoy]

My DID-having ass is experiencing so much world-envy for the fictional country of Vaugarde I'm going to throw up

#Didn't realize how much I needed a society built around the concepts if change and reinvention but holy shit I do. I need it so bad. #The legally normal concept of being given multiple names to transition between or change to... #the societally accepted and easy ways to craft a new body... #the traditions built around reinvention and throwing away aspects of your old life that you wish to discard #that also acknowledge that reinvention involves the destruction of something else. & the grief from yourself or others that comes with that #literally have never resonated with anything to this level and I am YEARNING #like. my life would literally be so much easier in that society #the fact Vaugarde also highly values queerness of all kinds only helps #going insane over this world-building tbh konda wanna overthrow my government & rebuild my country in its image tbh #I am Decidedly Not Normal about this fake country #no spoilers if you respond to this btw. Not done with the game #In Stars And Time #hi dev I know you have a tumblr so if you see this: I love you #thank you for creating this world and letting me have a peek into it #they say we can't build a better world if we can't imagine what that world would look like and #now i can. I know what my ideal world looks like. #textpost

[widowshill]

— I couldn't care less about your future. — Well, you'd better care, because you're part of it, and so is your wife.

r/v/b for @tortoisesshells.

#victoria devlin starring in: i gave up trying to find my father so i just got a few boyfriends old enough to be my dad. or my uncle. #tortoisesshells #➤ roger collins & victoria winters & burke devlin. ┊ to know how it ends‚ and still begin to sing it again. #➤ edits & art. ┊ the evans cottage art gallery. #gifs. #i've been accused of not exactly truth-telling when it comes to posting about r/v ... well. #this is lies. we made it up. but look at them! aren't they just darling! #thank you 60's daytime television. #this is my unethical polycule. the nonmonogamy is consensual and negotiated we're just evil in other ways. #(one of them framed another one for vehicular manslaughter and sent him to prison. #two of them have been the other one's employees at one point or another. #they have all — at some point — accused each other of murder; except for accusing vicki who is by all accounts an angel #and who would NEVER frame her boyfriend for her manslaughter on purpose. although this does happen in canon. accidentally.) #also that she stabs roger with a knife in the au but that's not *really* her fault because she's under hypnotic vampire influence. #(and – moreover that roger a. deserves it and b. enjoys it) #because they are doomed to reenact the machinations of collinsport's tripartite love story. #because a woman in possession of josette's (& laura's) locket; of an adventuring‚ prosperous husband who builds her a home in collinsport; #of a vampire-coded boyfriend also in love with her but doomed chiefly to yearning and the occasional bite; #of a foretold fate of falling from the cliffside; and on top of all that is a brunette – well‚ she must be josette.

[dramarants]

Wanting more homoeroticism in the tension between the show’s leads as the narrative introduces greater intimacy and higher stakes between them, especially in a landscape that lacks queer representation who isn’t a villain or dies within one or two episodes, but also recognizing that core values/motivation for these characters lie in their relationships with one of two major female characters in an on screen sausage fest where the only other woman is a morally reprehensible femme fatale and erasing and/or vilifying female leads in favor of conventionally attractive males is a common practice observed in fandoms that’s rooted in misogyny and justified under the guise of rejecting heteronormativity, thinly veiled double standards, or claiming the woman is simply not interesting enough and not wanting to bolster that mindset

#the worst of evil #you know who’s not interesting enough? haeryeon!! bibi’s acting the hell out of her and slaying while doing it #but idk anything besides she’s willing to subvert her dad for dick and values money over everything else #and also she’s hot which is great for me!! but also the male gaze #and I also get it - we don’t know much about euijeong in her limited screen time besides her relationships to junmo/kicheol #but she is given so many traits that are silently conveyed like compassion and bravery and sacrifice #she brought a fucking gun to her date with kicheol like the conflicts and motivations here are SO JUICY #her exasperation guilt and despair with the investigation; esp after listening to the voicemails #what’s the self respecting thing to do; do I still love my husband if he loses himself; can I continue a game I never wanted to play #at the cost of my life or my family’s life? #even though a lot of her choices are for her marriage she’s using whatever agency she has in her own terms #kicheol works to be an honest man and make a difference partly bc of her #not trying to place the burden of fixing men on her but ignoring her impact in the boys’ lives is wild #ship whoever you want hate whoever you want but don’t deride a woman just cuz ‘she’s in the way’ ya know #all this being said; kicheol bringing junmo home after he RAMPAGED seemingly on his behalf - literally who else is doing it like them #the yearning all around - I get it now; we need gangster mob!throuple to get any shit done around here (and for all 3 to stay alive 🫣🙏) #but the reality next week is gonna be so so bitter

[lavend3r-stardust]

Bro the way my heart actually speeds up and I feel my chest constrict when she bends down to my level as she's explaining some wack ass concept i can't wrap my head around

Like her mouth was so close to my neck and i could almost hear her heartbeat in my ear and her breath was warm against my back and mmmmhmmmm lowkey love the way she talks

Makes me wonder if she'd ever guide me through an orgasm and murmur praises in my ear when I cum and she calls me 'her good girl' when my pussy clenches harder around those nimble fingers

Then again, I can barely stand to look at her because she's so fucking cute and I can't help but smile sheepishly every time those warm eyes look into mine and all i can do is let her grip my hands mmmm we yearning fr right now

#queer shenanigans and all that #head empty no thoughts just the way her voice drops and she sounds so fucking sexy 😫 #we pining and fiending rn bro #hxrny musings i suppose #brain empty just yearning #queer longing #queer smut #queer love #queer ns/fw #queer nsft #queer stuff #queer thoughts #queer #wlw thoughts #wlw smut #wlw ns/fw #wlw love #wlw #wlw nsft #wlw pining #wlw longing #sapphic yearning #sapphic stuff #sapphic smut #sapphic #bi ns/fw #bi nsft #bisexual #wlw yearning

[natsmagi]

thinking about yuri is my job(the manga) as natsumugi i think im going crazy....... hime as tsumugi and natsume as yano and sora can be the little girl that breaks her arm i forgot her name

had never heard of it before but

i think ur onto something

#hime is the blonde one and yano the brunette BUT POINT STANDS #as we all know i do not watch anime or read manga or consume any romance (het/gay/lesb/any i just dont consume romance) period but honestly #this series seems funny as fuck i just might check it out #theres just something abt what im seeing in these screenshots that is very captivating to me #these women at all they just have that dumb loser energy that i deeply yearn for and i mean this in the best way #i could be completely mistaken but thats the energy i get from looking at them #i love lesbians who dont know how to act #i wish yuri was my job. #ask

[soldier-poet-king]

WAILS

#it certainly is a monday..... #worried about [redacted] #brain keeps giving me the softest kindest dreams only to wake up and be like. well. time for work #its dark and cold and rainy #usual family bullshit. careee bullshit. etc #im MAYBE getting sick which cant happen i have tattoo work scheduled for Saturday #bro1 (aged 23) is getting his ears pierced and i was giving him advice #and he straight up was like oh im getting both done because just one ear is gay #He said that. to my face. im. #i need to move out. i need to get a s/o. i need to hold hands and go on cutesy little dates SO BAD #i love romance ok. im tired of pretending i dont #i don't really care abt the sex bits like sure itd be nice #but i dont yearn and pine for it like i do the casual romantic intimacy of it all im. im. #WHY IS IT NOT SOFT AND KIND. LIFE SHOULD BE SOFT AND KIND TO ME OK. I WOULD BE SO GOOD AT ROMANCE-FRIENDSHIP #just like. the gentleness. the kindness. the fun. im. going to be SICK #im also sosososo sleepy and sad. #oh the national on repeat for hours we're really in it now #wish we could invent a way to be lonely and wanting that isnt completely cringe!!! #and guilt inducing bc there's bigger problems and i should be helping and doing and not navel gazing about love #and yet!!!!!!!!!!

[hubbaslubba]

don't care that the cgi was bad in wild blue yonder because my prevailing thought was like if they are willing to do weirdo freak shit with it im happy. also they cooked up a gayboy doctor so im blissed out

#doctor who #doctor who spoilers #actual review is: thought the premise and character moments were what id been yearning for so much it was excellent BUT #they really lost me near the climax because all this atmospheric tension was resolved by telling telling telling explaining which didn't #feel satisfying or revelatory at all. and although i did say i don't care about the bad cgi i do mean the body horror elements i loved them #i laughed about them with my sister all part of a good dw experience we were crying at dt running on all fours like a dog #but i wasn't a fan at all of the main ship not because the design was bad i loved the changing environment but #it was soooo distracting to me that donna and the doctor just did not look like they were physically there #to the point that the really ridiculous body horror was more believable to me than the environment they were in #overall though this is what i wanted there were times i was so delighted and surprised by the show in a way i havent been for 15 years <3 #feeling sososo positive and excited for ncuti #sorry i turn into a dw blog on saturday nights now

[teen-spirited-away]

Finished a feast for crows, surprisingly no crows showed up.

Jk but halfway through the book i was like hold on, where is the north and daenerys povs? I didnt know it was split with adwd 😆.

Overall i liked the new plotlines, its the aftermath of a war so i expected less action. Arianne my sweet failgirl, alayne and margaery stuck babysitting, omg cersei's self sabotaging paranoic beef with the tyrells, euron's crazy ass plans???, brienne and company's adventure quest across the war destroyed riverlands, jaime freeing himself from cersei, sam-gilly-maester aemon's journey to the citadel??hello???they meet arya?

This book (and probably adwd too) was more about setting the characters in place for a bigger thing coming in twow. I still like asos the best though.

#the real feast was the crows we hanged along the way 🤔 #also did the hound really die??? #omg cersei watch out heisinthewalls!!! #also was taena merryweather really on cerseis side or was she a double spy bcs i kept thinking they were all fooling cersei #i also love how brienne would catch herself yearning for jaime and would then be like NO i meant renly I LIKE RENLY #ok girl we believe you 😏 #affc #asoiaf #a feast for crows

[irbcallmefynn]

Hahaha I'm really feelin it right noww. Andby "it" let's justr say.. the yearning,

#the yearning #fffffuck man i need to be a shapeshifting wolf dog thing of indeterminate gender (maybe fem leaning?) so so so so so so so baddddddddd #and i need to be able to live with the people I love and we all just relax and enjoy life with each other with no worries about money.... #like. OUGH it fucking hurts i feel it in my gut #my body just doesn't make me very happy and the way my life feels right now is so boring and repetitive and tiring #im tired. tired of this body tired of every day being the same tired of always having to do things for people. #im not going anywhere. don't worry. but fuck does it hurt.

[rmemebrt]

Every time I make a new beatles connection to add to my mega beatles gay theory its like I unlock a new level in a game. Anyway McCartney 2 is really weird huh.

#Coming Up is easy cause it's the catalyst for Just Like Starting Over #On the Way compliments Waterfalls with wanting love #average beatles yearning #but then you get lines like “like a castle needs a tower” or “like a garden needs a flower” #idk guys what iconography do we all like to compare the Dakota to + who has an epic garden that we also know #I think I'll make a seperate post about it all #but seriously this is all really strange in an evil gay way #paul mccartney #john lennon #george harrison #the beatles #cavern queers #mclennon #mcharrison

[x-adoringvoid-x]

Kiss practice (because it is hard to draw kisses with these face shapes) + Some small cleaned up doodles ♡

#real yearning hours are happening #i love them!! #want to hold want to be held #this is all very overwhelming sometimes! #they are kind of overwhelming in a way #but in a way that they're happy to see me and to be like nearby as much as possible #which might sound bad but they're reasonable enough that we could just chill and not have it be a battle of will or whatever #which is what it feels like with my family. we butt heads a lot in an exhausting passive aggressive way #sometimes with other people too. just feeling like my wants don't fit with other people's wants or interests is tiring #I feel like I could hang out with Hadri and even if they didn't really understand stuff about me they'd still be interested #I could also ask them for stuff or tell them no without it being a problem #i can trust what they say they're feeling which is why it makes it much easier to see myself with them #other people just worry me because of the societal nuance #it's easier to believe i'm not forcing Hadri to do anything #ahh this went on longer than i planned #to sum it up Hadri is comfy <3 #f/o #oc f/o #fictional other #f/o art #self ship community

[emypony]

.

#damn babygirl i wish people checked up on me more #this self conscious catgirl is so tired #sometimes i WISH people just came into my dms to ask me if im ok #i do it constantly to others because i hope theyre not as sad as i am feeling in that moment #genuinely afraid to have made someone feel bad and drive them away from me #and omg i feel nyself running thin again just bc im afraid to lose the interactions we have altogether because i cant process certain media #in a healthy way whatsoever and i get super hung up on thinfs that really dont matter that much in the end #YEAH IM RAMBLING IT'S 5:30 AM AND I COULD BE SLEEPING RIGHT NOW BUT INSTEAD IM JUST CRYING FOR A STUPID REASON!! #i think ive only had one person check up on me based off the vibes in chat i gave off alone in the past couple of months #which was baffling and surreal btw and i think it broke something within me #it came from someone i wouldve never expected to even notice because sometimes it feels like its such a vast difference between us #i sometimes even wonder how are we friends in the first place #like do i even deserve to call this person my friend do they feel like that? or are we just discord acquaintances? #anyway all this just made me sad and my dumb ass is crying and yearning to be loved by my online peers thats all lol. meows pathetically #idk i guess i just.want to hear / see it more rather than just teying to tell myself that over and over hoping im not deluding myself abt i #personal #sorry for the emotions dump idk whats wrong with me tonight actually #me having to come to terms with the reality that i actually have a following and this might get boticed by more than 2 ppl #bc not everyone follows 3k blogs like i am :skull emoji: yknow #im probably gonna delete later because im actually a super self conscious person to the point i get nauseatingly anxious about it holy shit #i dont vent often and im 120% keeping it in but when i do oh boy #the dam bursts and im left like a sopping wet dog on the floor looking like a sad blob #which i am feeling like right now! #vent #emy rambles #ALSO LIKE THIS ISNT TO SAY IM NOT GRATEFUL FOR MY FRIENDS OMG I AM #k really am #sometimes its still like. idk. unbelievable to me that people are genuinely interacting with me and the things i write or headcanon #and i shouldn't expect them to know whats wrong with me or if i feel bad if i dont say it or communicate that to them #but yknow one can yearn

[xamaxenta]

Stresses me out alot that i cant physically bind anymore idk what happened in the last few years but any kind of compression hurts and it sucks it was the only thing i could do now i cant even do that

#so i think abt my faves with huge honkers to make myself feel better #it doesnt work really but i guess the fictional solidarity as a concept helps #dysphoria #another day of absolutely hating my body and the government and yknow just being poor in general #idk what i can do #nothing ??? nothing hurts so much tho #i yearn for absolutely fucking nothing i just want to be blank straight edges no discernible gender features #looking at my body makes #me want to throw up die bury the parts i dont like #structurally its all wrong but im already biologically an adult the fuck can i do about it now #being trans is an absolute nightmare for me i hate every second of it honestly because i have nothing #i can do to help it or fix it or progress it #im angry and upset to say its dangerous for me to do anything about it. #and that im not brave enough to go fuck it. im envious of the people who love themselves enough to say fuck it we ball we do this our way #because i love myself and im doing it to be my authentic self #i envy those people a lot #wish that could be me. #but. also wish i could be algae or smth lol #same shit same woes #same as always and no money to afford professional help

[arcaneyouth]

started making a power point presentation about my ocs, made 2 slides, and then just stopped. i <3 creativity

#vent post #negative #mainly for the tags. heres your warning i got sad #to be fair. MOST of the problem is i want to make a power point presentation studying the themes of the story and every characters arc #which is a lot of fucking things! and i don't know how to organize it at all. and it of course has to touch on spoilers #but the other problem is overwhelming thoughts of 'nobody wants to see this' 😔 #which is so frustrating cause i have so much proof its not true #people tell me they love my stories and characters all the time. i'm so lucky for that #oh wait lol figured it out. i don't want to make a power point presentation actually #it just feels like the only way i'll ever be able to get across all the thoughts i have without being a bother #but i have a difficult time actually working with power points so it's not actually that fun to make #so i'm not even doing this for my sake i'm doing it for everyone else again god damn it #huh. i don't even really want to ramble about The Themes and the character arcs #i think i just want someone else to do it. to prove that i'm not the only one that sees it or something #to engage with my story and show me They Get It #it feels unreasonable to want but i do want someone to point at the themes and point at specific panels and give me their ideas on it #so we can bounce back and forth discussing the meaning and how the story functions which is my favorite thing ever #but i can't ask people to do that. that takes a lot of effort especially Right Now when everything is awful all the time #and i accept that cause jesus christ everything is awful all the time #but boy can i yearn #hyperfixating on my ocs is very cool. i do love it. i love caring so unbearably much about some guys i made #it does get lonely sometimes tho