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#they both simply need to be left alone but in opposite directions. god bless
judesstfrancis · 1 year
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buck's problem is that no one has ever been mean enough to tell him to shut the hell up and stop feeling sorry for himself and eddie's problem is that way too many people are telling him to shut up and stop feeling sorry for himself. hope this helps
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seadem-on · 3 years
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“Blessed are you who are poor, for yours is the kingdom of God. Blessed are you who hunger now, for you will be satisfied”.
- the Gospel of Luke, 6:20-21
Your probably too long to read, incomplete and obscure introduction to the themes of loneliness and forgiveness in the Good, the Bad and the Ugly (including religious references).
Image there just for cuteness. Let’s go!
1) Loneliness
Tuco is a tragically lonely character. The layers on which this loneliness is played out are multiple. Not only he is cast away from his family - having deserted it - and morally from religion - as his priest brother points out he has done nothing “outside evil” - and from the law-ruled society - being Tuco a literal outlaw, with a long rap sheet to testify for it - but also he is spiritually outside of God’s grace - “while I wait for the Lord to remember me” he says to his brother Pablo.
He does seek out company - he tries to reintroduce himself in his family at the monastery, when he meets his brother again after 9 years. The scene with his brother draws a parallel between Tuco and the “Prodigal son” of Jesus’ parable, who left his family for a life of sin. His angered brother Pablo cannot understand the reason why he came to visit and underlines the evil he has done. The scene does not only show the derangedness of traditional familial relations; it also expresses a strong anticlerical statement showing how far the Church is from putting into practice the original spirit of brotherly love and solidarity.
He has no one on his side. No God - when Tuco says that God is on his side something happens that contradicts his statement. No brother - being rejected by Pablo. No friend - being betrayed by Blondie at the beginning of their partnership.
The symbol of loneliness and lack of human connection is the desert. The torture of Blondie at the hands of Tuco takes place in the desert. The film itself begins with a long shot of a desert landscape which is immediately filled by a gigantic close-up on the face of a killer. In this desert we are immediately welcomed by a threatening figure: it is really the only kind of humanity that can be found there - ruthless and keen to murder.
Tuco is deeply violent too. He is a murderer, a torturer, a thief, a criminal. He is the lowest a man can get. And he is fully aware of his own nature. The image of the dog wandering at the beginning of the film in the ghost town embodies the way Tuco moves in the world - belonging to none, hungry, constantly threatened, constantly looking for company and food. He is in fact chased by the afore mentioned killer but manages to escape.
Though it is never stated outright, Tuco’s real quest is to find a friend. But in the kind of world painted by Leone “friend” is someone who can potentially turn on you. A danger. Society (food sharing, family) is embued with violence and threats. One has to put up a facade to hide their weakness and survive.
But this desire is persistent in Tuco. Through his lies he states it to Blondie: he needs to know that “even for a tramp like him there is always a bowl of soup”. He needs to know that there is someone out there that can fulfill this hunger for company. Someone who does not point out his sins like his brother does. Someone who loves him for who he is - a tramp, a criminal, a bastard, a sinner.
2) Presence
“Were you gonna die alone?”
Is there anything more absurd than loving your enemy? After all that Tuco has done to him, Blondie - the archetypal rebel - makes a disruptive gesture. He kindly offers Tuco the cigar passing it from his mouth thus symbolically offering himself.
The cigar is a part of Blondie, as we cannot imagine his character without it. Furthermore he is literally taking it from his mouth, as if sharing with Tuco a part of himself.
The parallel with the wafer of the eucharist is evident as the gesture - and its orality - symbolically represents union and community. From this moment on Blondie and Tuco form a partnership which is hard to break - that draws them back together when they are apart - a kind of connection that does not entail money. Furthermore, the wafer in the eucharist is the body of Christ - offered “to wash away humanity’s sins”. This meaning is carried out to the end of the film. “He who eats the body of Christ does not die”.
Blondie reaffirms his offering himself multiple times. When he reunites with Tuco, Blondie tells him to kill Angel Eyes and his henchmen, and then joins him in the fight, asking him mockingly “were you gonna die alone?”. He makes it clear he is on Tuco’s side, and actively supports him.
Finally during the last showdown Blondie offers him protection - right when Tuco is at his weakest. Blondie’s gaze and nod in his direction calm and steady Tuco.
This goes to close Tuco’s quest to find a friend; a competitor, a rival, and enemy who also is on his side when needed.
Blondie’s actions are aimed at mending the relationship with Tuco with forgiveness and love - making Blondie the bearer of a “love thy enemy” message. And this is clearer if we look at the parallels between Blondie and Christ: he is tortured, (almost) dies and comes back to life, loves the one who hurt him, and protects him (see citation at the beginning of the post).
Blondie is even seen occupying the same position as a statue of Christ - see image below.
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By this I do not mean he is painted as a superior being - actually it is the opposite. I mean more simply that as a character he carries a worldview embued with forgiveness, kindness, and love. He still is a criminal - but he is capable to feel tenderness despite his violent actions. Both he and Tuco show this “duplicity”, or ambiguousness. Moreover, in the film he and Tuco switch roles at different times - sometimes Blondie embodies Christ, as the “innocent” victim, whereas at the end Tuco takes on the position of Christ (and of course to they respectively embody Judas too, betraying each other for gold). That goes to show how thin the line is between victim and perpetrator, how there is both good and bad in our our nature.
Looking at the symbolicism again, Angel Eyes (whose name is originally Sentenza) embodies judgement, which opposes forgiveness. Tuco can finally escape judgement and death thanks to the presence and forgiveness of Blondie.
Also ultimately it is not Blondie who acts alone and saves Tuco. He lets Tuco take his decision. He lets Tuco make the choice to shoot first - choice which is possible since Tuco trusts that Blondie has his back. Tuco is freeing himself from the violence ridden world choosing partnership, trusting another person.
The most absurd thing of it all is that Blondie - the unbound rebel, the embodiment of individualistic self interest, and most of all the victim of Tuco’s torture - actively chooses to be by his side. This choice is disruptive in many ways. First, it is an act of tenderness in a world ruled by violence. Secondly, their partnership allows Tuco to find a haven out of the systems of religion, law and society that have excluded him. And ultimately it saves Tuco from death as a form of punishment for his crimes (forgiveness vs. Judgement).
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ladyy-grimm · 4 years
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~Corvid Bride~
Dire Crowley x F reader
*In inspiration of the Ghost Marriage event - as well as watching one too many dramas - I present whatever AU this is.
“I’m sorry dear, I’m so, so sorry...” Is the only words your mother gave you. Her voice strained and hoarse.
The day, which was as gloomy as a funeral - was your wedding day.
The hushed murmurs of your friends and neighbors were your accompaniment, instead of celebratory music as you made your way towards a lone black carriage.
“So, she’s to be the bride?”
“Poor thing, she’s so young...”
“Thers’s nothing that can be done...If we don’t offer someone then, then we will starve. All of us..”
“We have to calm him...”
By whatever good grace yet remained in the world did you find yourself in the carriage with what remained of your closest friends. One of them adjusting your white veil, giving you the pitiful excuse of remaining hidden for your “groom”. They couldn’t bring themselves to look at you, not with what awaited you at the end of the carriage ride.
“Please don’t hate us.” One of them finally dared to speak. Yet somehow it made the small space quieter as they spoke. “We didn’t want this to happen...None of us. But, I’m glad you are going.”
“We’re very grateful to you.” Another spoke up.
“We can now all live because of you.”
You wanted to scream.
How dare they. How dare they try and make you feel better. They were just glad it was you and not them. That it was not their daughter. It wasn’t their fault you were unlucky, there needed to be a sacrifice anyway. It may have been an old fairytale, but they didn’t care so long as the crops and animals were blessed back to what they once were. As long as it wasn’t them, it didn’t matter.
Despite all that, your lips remained shut. As you arrived at your destination did you remember as to why you should remain so. The wind was still, despite being so high up into the mountains. The horses nervously whinnied behind you, your heels crunching under the stone as you made your way towards the cliffs end. Your bridesmaids giving you a wide berth as you made your way towards a large iron birdcage, alongside an old iron crank.
There were no final goodbyes nor tears as you made your way inside. Your veil and gown semi spilling out as you were lowered to the blanket of fog below. The air grew colder, your breath began to appear as from above you could hear your wedding party scrambling to leave. Leave behind all memory and with time - all traces of you. In resignation did you sit down, not even a bubble of a sob surfaced to your throat.
What point would tears give you? It didn’t help Lettie; as she was torn away from her widowed mother and not given a chance to be a proper bride. Or how about Amilie whom had tried to run away with her lover, condemning them both.
‘At least they died together.’ You couldn’t help but muse. You? You had no one besides your family back home, if you could even call it that anymore. They were just as part of this as any other. Yet any hatred you wanted to direct was cut short as you shivered. The cold had begun to set in.
Halfhazardly you wrapped your wedding gown around you as best as you could, aiding you a little. The birdcage swinging back and forth at your movements, causing slight nausea to set in. Repeatedly like a prayer did you tell yourself not to look down, though even if you did not but fog would greet you. How you wish it had deigned to surround you as well, that way you wouldn’t have had to see the other birdcages littered around you. All human sized, rusted, frosted, some even broken while others still housed their “residents”.
You didn’t consider yourself fortunate in the least at seeing the skeletal remains. A corpse should be best left alone after all, at least that is what you wished for yourself.
Would you freeze to death first? Or maybe you would attempt one last daring escape and fall to your death? Which was quicker? Or perhaps, you would wait for him? Whatever it was your village gave offerings to for a plentiful harvest, that had suddenly decided to stop granting such a boon. Devil? Fae? It didn’t matter so long as there was food at the table and all was well.
But obviously, not anymore. Not for a long, long time now.
“Having fun? Thinking of your final moments?”
You would have fallen to your death had the bars of the cage not been small enough, as you jumped in shock at the sudden voice. Wildly did you look around, seeing no one - except of course for one lone crow at the opposite side of you. It cocked its head, curious at you as it sat between the bars.
“You haven’t lost your mind yet.” It stated as to what you were thinking, its beak curving into the hints of a grin.
“I wish I was.” You blurted in response, earning you a cawing of sudden laughter.
“Ooh, decided to give a clever one away did they? That’s a pity for the arts.” The crow continued to laugh.
The statement was enough for a small smile to tug at your lips, only a small one though as your mind had caught up to what was currently happening. “I’m sorry, you are -“
“Hmm? Wish to know my name? I’ll give you mine if you give me yours.” Here the crow extended a wing, as if it were extending a hand.
Such an action caused your mind to reel. Memories of your grandmother teaching you the way of fairytales rushing to mind. The cold caused your voice - now laced with caution - to crack out your lie. “Y-You may call me Ainsel.”
The crow, appeared to grin more and his eyes to turn from a shiny black, like twin pebbles. To glowing moons. “Ah, you are indeed a clever one.”
With that there was suddenly a large puff of smoke, and there at the other end of your already small cage appeared a man. He was draped in a dark coat with a cut to resemble wings, and obscuring his face was a long beaked mask that only shown his glowing pupils. The birdcage was too small for him to stand fully, but he had no need to as with a flourish did he remove his top hat and bowed at his waist to you. His eyes glowing in delight as they looked towards you.
Instinctually, hurriedly did you try to stand. Only realizing that you had wrapped your wedding gown around you for warmth too tightly. This caused the man to laugh.
“‘Tis alright, I’d much rather have you remain sitting as to what we are to discuss little bird.” With that he knelt before you, being mindful of your gown and giving you plenty of room to breath. You did just meet after all. “Now, I’m sure you have already figured out who I am and what I do. So, let us cut the chase and have me ask you; What would you like to do now?”
“What?” You couldn’t help but ask.
“Hmm? Did you simply think I just fly in here and gobble you ‘brides’ up?” He chuckled at his own dark humor. “I’m kind enough to give you brides a choice, when you were given none.”
His words gave you pause, so he continued. “You can choose to try and get back up towards the cliffs. Some have made it and have lived to see their childrens children. Others, falling to a death of their own will. Others, I will say have chosen to remain in this final resting place - whilst I - well, can’t refuse what whatever God has left before me now can I? Or if you prefer I could give your corpse to those animals as a “blessing” if that is what you wish.”
The information given both baffled yet made complete sense. As was the won’t of the lands of Twisted Wonderland. With a jolt did you suddenly recoil back. He had outstretched a claw ringed hand towards you.
“I’d very much like to give you more time to ponder your choice but, it grows darker by the moment and colder as well.”
How right he was. Your teeth were now chattering without you realizing. It wasn’t much of a choice you had to admit, but it was a choice nonetheless. More than you had been given, and there was only one that you had in mind.
“Your name...” You mumbled, lips beginning to freeze.
He cocked his head to the side.
“I’d, I’d like to know my husbands name....”
He smiled, gently taking your hand in his as he drew you towards him. Weakly did you stumble into his embrace, your legs having become numb as the iron floor had frosted and your gown as well. Yet you had no need to walk a he opted to carry you as any bride wished to be. He was pleasantly warm, his overcoat framing even you a bit. As if it were a large pair of wings.
“Dire Crowley.”
You smiled, thinking of how your name matched with his. It had a nice ring to it.
~
In the days to come the people of your village would be back to the cliff side to check on you. They would find your almost empty birdcage, and be filled with fear immediately. The bars remained intact. Your corpse did not hang, nor had it been coated in frost or even be eaten by the wildlife that could reach you. Nay, all that remained was your bouquet as fresh as the day your mother had picked it.
Far, far away you would be found laughing happily alongside your husband. Eccentric and troublesome as he was, he had given you the choice that only ever mattered. That choice was to live, and having him at your side was a pleasant bonus.
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big-oof-bi-goof · 4 years
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So there’s this meme going around with TMA fans, the whole “hello Jon” thing, but it kind of disappoints me. We, as a fandom, are capable of more. We can do better than this. We just need to Hello Jon. Apologies for the deception, but I wanted to make sure you started reading, so I thought it best not to announce myself.
I’m assuming you’re alone; you always did prefer to read your statements in private. I wouldn’t try too hard to stop reading; there’s every likelihood you’ll just hurt yourself. So just listen.
Now, shall we turn the page and try again?
Statement of Jonah Magnus regarding Jonathan Sims, The Archivist.
Statement begins.
I hope you’ll forgive me the self-indulgence, but I have worked so very hard for this moment, a culmination of two centuries of work. It’s rare that you get the chance to monologue through another, and you can’t tell me you’re not curious.
Why does a man seek to destroy the world?
It’s a simple enough answer: for immortality and power. Uninspired, perhaps, but – my god. The discovery, not simply of the dark and horrible reality of the world in which you live, but that you would quite willingly doom that world and confine the billions in it to an eternity of terror and suffering, all to ensure your own happiness, to place yourself beyond pain and death and fear.
It is an awful thing to know about yourself, but the freedom, Jon, the freedom of it all. I have dedicated my life to handing the world to these Dread Powers all for my own gain, and I feel… nothing but satisfaction in that choice.
I am to be a king of a ruined world, and I shall never die.
I believe there are far more people in this world that would take that bargain than you would ever guess. And I have beaten all of them.
Of course, this desire did not manifest overnight. When Smirke first gathered our little band – Lukas, Scott, and the rest – to discuss and hypothesize on the nature of the things he had learned from Rayner, I felt what I believe we all felt: curiosity, and fear.
But as he compiled his taxonomy and codified his theories on the grand rituals, I began to develop a very specific concern. Smirke was so obsessed with his ideas on balance, even as our fellows began to experiment and fall to the service of our patrons.
I began to worry that if one of them successfully attempted their ritual, then I would be as much a victim as any, trapped in the nightmare landscape of a twisted world.
At first, I attempted prevention, but the cause seemed hopeless. The only way to ensure I did not suffer the tribulations of what I believed to be an inevitable transformation was to bring it about myself. So what began as an experiment soon became a race.
Beyond that, I was getting older, and mortality began to weigh more heavily on my mind. How much in this world is done because we fear death, the last and greatest terror?
I convinced Smirke to work on Millbank, leading him to design it as a temple to all the Fears in equilibrium, such that my own modifications to the design of the Panopticon went… unremarked.
It. Took. Years, for the dread of the prisoners to fully suffuse the place, and I was an old man before I made my first attempt at the Watcher’s Crown, sat in the center of that colossal eye, the great ring of cells encircling me like a coronet.
It was… flawed, of course, as all Smirke’s rituals were, and none of the inmates survived as the power I attempted to harness shook the building almost to pieces, and the murky swamp upon which the prison was built consumed it.
But it left me a gift: For sat in that watchtower, I could see everything I turned my mind to.
It was a dizzying power, and one I discovered I maintained even as I found vessels to extend my life. Of course, I had to make sure the location was kept under my control while I worked on revising my plans, and so I moved the organization I had founded to assist in my research down to London, and the Institute as you know it was born.
I’ll not bore you with details of my bodies and failures through those intervening years. Suffice to say I kept busy, both planning my own next attempt, and doing my best to stymie those others who tried versions of their own.
Surely my interpretation of the Watcher’s Crown had been incomplete; there had been some element of the ritual I had overlooked.
It was not until I met Gertrude Robinson that things began to really come into focus.
You see, the role of Archivist has been part of the Beholding for as far back as my research can go. This isn’t uncommon for the Powers; most of the beliefs around them are guesswork and fallible human interpretation, but there are certain throughlines and consistencies that can be spotted, regardless of the trappings.
But Gertrude was unlike any other Archivist. She simply did not care about compiling experiences or collecting the fears of others. She was driven to stop those who served the Powers.
More than once I thought she must secretly be of the Hunt – but there was never that sick joy in her, that thrill of predator and prey. She had simply decided that this was her position in life, and went about it with a practicality that even I found disconcerting at times.
I once asked her what drove her, what had started her down that path. She told me the Desolation had killed her cat.
I don’t know if she was joking, and, to be honest, I could never bring myself to look into her mind and find out for sure.
In any case, Gertrude’s ruthless efficiency in derailing and collapsing rituals threw into stark relief a question that had been bothering me for almost a hundred and fifty years: In the whole span of humanity, why had nobody ever succeeded?
Perhaps there were a long line of Gertrude Robinsons throughout history, but I found that hard to credit. Could it be, then, that there was something in the very concept of the rituals that meant they couldn’t succeed?
She was clearly having similar thoughts in that last year, all of which culminated with the People’s Church.
When I saw that she was making no preparations whatsoever to stop it, I realized she was putting into practice a theory, and one she couldn’t afford to be wrong. She was going to wait, and see if the unopposed ritual succeeded, or if it collapsed under its own strain as mine had all hose years ago.
Knowing Gertrude, I’m sure she had a backup plan if she had miscalculated – but she had not. The ritual failed. And all at once, I realized what had to be done.
You see, the thing about the Fears is that they can never be truly separated from each other. When does the fear of sudden violence transition into the fear of hunted prey? When does the mask of the Stranger become the deception of the Spiral?
Even those that seem to exist in direct opposition rely on each other for their definition as much as up relies on down.
To try and create a world with only the Buried makes as much sense as trying to conceive a world with only down.
Every ritual tied itself so closely to a single power as to render itself impossible. They could bring their patron close, but never sever it from the others, and eventually it would be violently pulled back into the place next to reality where they dwell.
The solution, then, is simple: A new ritual must be devised which will bring through all the Powers at once. All fourteen, as I had hoped I could complete it before any new powers such as Extinction were able to fully emerge. All under the Eye’s auspices, of course. We mustn’t forget our roots.
And there was only one being that could possibly serve as a lynchpin for this new ritual: The Archivist. A position that had so recently become vacant, thanks to Gertrude’s ill-timed retirement plans.
Because the thing about the Archivist is that – well, it’s a bit of a misnomer.
It might, perhaps, be better named: The Archive.
Because you do not administer and preserve the records of fear, Jon. You are a record of fear, both in mind as you walk the shuddering record of each statement, and in body as the Powers each leave their mark upon you.
You are a living chronicle of terror.
Perhaps, then, if I could find an Archivist and have each Power mark them, have them confront each one and each in turn instill in them a powerful and acute fear for their life, they could be turned into a conduit for the coming of this – nightmare kingdom.
Do you see where I’m going, Jon?
It does tickle me, that in this world of would-be occult dynasties and ageless monsters, the Chosen One is simply that – someone I chose. It’s not in your blood, or your soul, or your destiny. It’s just in your own, rotten luck.
I’ll admit, my options were somewhat limited, but My God, when you came to me already marked by the Web, I knew it had to be you. I even held out some small hope you had been sent by the Spider as some sort of implicit blessing on the whole project, and, do you know what, I think it was.
Of course, I had to bide my time, get a measure of you before I began to push, learn how you worked – So I decided I would wait until something came for you, and see how you reacted. Attacks upon the Archives were not uncommon during Gertrude’s tenure, and, while she was always prepared, I made sure you would not be.
I reasoned if you couldn’t survive a single encounter, you were unlikely to make it through all fourteen. So, when Jane Prentiss attacked, I watched eagerly, one hand on the gas release from the start.
You acquitted yourself well enough, so I decided to see how far you would get, though I waited until the worms were in you before I pulled the lever. I needed to make sure you felt that fear all the way to your bones.
The discovery that one of the Stranger’s minions had infiltrated the Institute in the aftermath was certainly a pleasant bonus. Even if that sliver of paranoia, that vague wrongness you couldn’t quite place wouldn’t count as a mark, it was only a matter of time before it confronted you in a far more direct and affecting matter.
Admittedly, given the advent of the Unknowing, I needn’t have bothered. But what’s the old saying about hindsight?
More important to me was Sasha’s encounter with the Distortion. If it had taken an interest, then I very much wanted it to cross your path.
So I found one of its current victims and convinced her to make a statement.
Poor Helen. I actually had to put her in a taxi myself, she was getting so lost in those narrow London side streets.
It worked, though.
Between the stabbing and at least two desperate flights into its doors – you’re marked very deeply by the Spiral.
Jurgen Leitner was a surprise, of course, and I was forced to improvise. I had no idea how much Gertrude would have told him, and he could very easily have derailed everything if you learned too much too fast.
I… justified it to myself saying I was going to have to send you out into the world anyway, if you were to encounter more of the Powers, but I can’t honestly pretend it wasn’t a… rather rash move.
Still. I’d requested Detective Tonner be assigned to the case when they found Gertrude’s body in the hope that having a Hunter in the mix would eventually lead to a confrontation, and setting you up as a killer certainly hastened that.
Then it was just a matter of feeding you statements to lead you to a few Avatars I thought were likely to harm you – but probably would stop short of actually killing you.
Jude served her purpose exactly as I had hoped, as did our dearly departed Mr Crew, marking you for the Desolation and the Vast.
Honestly, I had – nothing to do with Melanie and her Slaughter adventure, but when I saw the situation, I made sure to trap her here, so when her rage bubbled over you would be right there, a ready target.
I didn’t foresee the mark coming from surgery gone wrong, but it was a very pleasant surprise.
The Unknowing was a distraction, but not an unwelcome one. For this to work, you needed more than just the marks; you needed power. And that was something the Unknowing served to test, though it posed no actual danger in the grand scheme of things.
And it did serve another purpose, of course. It inadvertently pushed you to confront death, a mark I had been very worried about trying to orchestrate. If I tried too early, you’d just die. Too late, and you might be powerful enough to see the attempt coming, and maybe even understand why.
As it was, it was just right, and once again, you came through with flying colors.
By this point, your abilities were coming along in leaps and bounds, and I was concerned that meeting face-to-face might end up with you Knowing something you shouldn’t.
I had initially planned to go into hiding, but when your colleagues surprised me with the police, well. It was simple enough to cut a deal.
All that remained, then, were the Dark, the Flesh, the Buried, and the Lonely.
I was a little put out when that idiot Jared Hopworth misinterpreted my letters and attacked the Institute too soon, before you were even out of the hospital, but then – Ho, you should have see my face when you voluntarily went to him.
I couldn’t see what happened in there, of course, but given how you came out, I’m very sure it counts as a mark.
I suspected the coffin might turn up again, and once it did, it was simply a matter of getting any, uh… restraining factors you might have had flying off on a wild goose chase, and waiting.
Honestly, Detective Tonner has been proving invaluable through this process. I’d been racking my brains for months about what I could use to lure you in.
And, of course, I knew the Dark Sun was just sitting there waiting. So when it came time, I just whipped up another apocalypse and sent you on your merry way.
Then all that remained was the Lonely.
Poor Peter. He really should have left well enough alone. Or just done what I’d asked in the first place.
Ah well. He knew what I was attempting, and was very unwilling to cooperate until I made him a little wager about Martin.
Of course, he had no way of knowing that, in addition to setting you up for the final mark, he was giving you all the tools you needed to escape from it.
How is Martin, by the way? He looks well. You will keep an eye on him when all this is over, won’t you? He’s earned that.
And there, I think, we are brought just about up to date. I have enjoyed our little trip down memory lane, but past here lies only impatience.
You are prepared. You are ready. You are marked. The power of the Ceaseless Watcher flows through you, and the time of our victory is here.
Don’t worry, Jon. You’ll get used to it here, in the world that we have made.
Now. Repeat after me.
You who watch and know and understand none. You who listen and hear and will not comprehend. You who wait and wait and drink in all that is not yours by right.
Come to us in your wholeness.
Come to us in your perfection.
Bring all that is fear and all that is terror and all that is the awful dread that crawls and chokes and blinds and falls and twists and leaves and hides and weaves and burns and hunts and rips and leads and dies!
Come to us.
I – OPEN – THE DOOR!
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les-mooserables · 3 years
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Hello, John
[AS SOON AS HE BEGINS SPEAKING, A WHIZZING STATIC KICKS IN FROM THE BACKGROUND.]
ARCHIVIST (STATEMENT)
Apologies for the deception, but I wanted to make sure you started reading, so I thought it best not to announce myself.
I’m assuming you’re alone; you always did prefer to read your statements in private. (slightly strained) I wouldn’t try too hard to stop reading; there’s every likelihood you’ll just hurt yourself. So just listen.
Now, shall we turn the page and try again?
[THE ARCHIVIST MAKES A PAINED COUPLE OF SOUNDS OUT-OF-STATEMENT-CHARACTER, AS IF HE’S TRYING TO TEAR HIMSELF AWAY FROM THE STATEMENT AND PHYSICALLY CANNOT.][WHEN HE PICKS THE STATEMENT BACK UP, THE WORDS SOUND LIKE THEY’RE BEING TORN FROM HIS LIPS.]ARCHIVIST (STATEMENT)
Statement of Jonah Magnus regarding Jonathan Sims, The Archivist.
Statement begins.
[A SLAP ON THE TABLE – OR A CRACK? SPOOKY.]
I hope you’ll forgive me the self-indulgence, but I have worked so very hard for this moment, a culmination of two centuries of work. It’s rare that you get the chance to monologue through another, and you can’t tell me you’re not curious.
Why does a man seek to destroy the world?
It’s a simple enough answer: for immortality and power. Uninspired, perhaps, but – my god. The discovery, not simply of the dark and horrible reality of the world in which you live, but that you would quite willingly doom that world and confine the billions in it to an eternity of terror and suffering, all to ensure your own happiness, to place yourself beyond pain and death and fear.
It is an awful thing to know about yourself, but the freedom, John, the freedom of it all. I have dedicated my life to handing the world to these Dread Powers all for my own gain, and I feel… nothing but satisfaction in that choice.
I am to be a king of a ruined world, and I shall never die.
I believe there are far more people in this world that would take that bargain than you would ever guess. And I have beaten all of them.
Of course, this desire did not manifest overnight. When Smirke first gathered our little band – Lukas, Scott, and the rest – to discuss and hypothesize on the nature of the things he had learned from Rayner, I felt what I believe we all felt: curiosity, and fear.
But as he compiled his taxonomy and codified his theories on the grand rituals, I began to develop a very specific concern. Smirke was so obsessed with his ideas on balance, even as our fellows began to experiment and fall to the service of our patrons.
I began to worry that if one of them successfully attempted their ritual, then I would be as much a victim as any, trapped in the nightmare landscape of a twisted world.
At first, I attempted prevention, but the cause seemed hopeless. The only way to ensure I did not suffer the tribulations of what I believed to be an inevitable transformation was to bring it about myself. So what began as an experiment soon became a race.
Beyond that, I was getting older, and mortality began to weigh more heavily on my mind. How much in this world is done because we fear death, the last and greatest terror?
I convinced Smirke to work on Millbank, leading him to design it as a temple to all the Fears in equilibrium, such that my own modifications to the design of the Panopticon went… unremarked.
It. Took. Years, for the dread of the prisoners to fully suffuse the place, and I was an old man before I made my first attempt at the Watcher’s Crown, sat in the center of that colossal eye, the great ring of cells encircling me like a coronet.
It was… flawed, of course, as all Smirke’s rituals were, and none of the inmates survived as the power I attempted to harness shook the building almost to pieces, and the murky swamp upon which the prison was built consumed it.
But it left me a gift: For sat in that watchtower, I could see everything I turned my mind to.
It was a dizzying power, and one I discovered I maintained even as I found vessels to extend my life. Of course, I had to make sure the location was kept under my control while I worked on revising my plans, and so I moved the organization I had founded to assist in my research down to London, and the Institute as you know it was born.
I’ll not bore you with details of my bodies and failures through those intervening years. Suffice to say I kept busy, both planning my own next attempt, and doing my best to stymie those others who tried versions of their own.
Surely my interpretation of the Watcher’s Crown had been incomplete; there had been some element of the ritual I had overlooked.
It was not until I met Gertrude Robinson that things began to really come into focus.
You see, the role of Archivist has been part of the Beholding for as far back as my research can go. This isn’t uncommon for the Powers; most of the beliefs around them are guesswork and fallible human interpretation, but there are certain throughlines and consistencies that can be spotted, regardless of the trappings.
But Gertrude was unlike any other Archivist. She simply did not care about compiling experiences or collecting the fears of others. She was driven to stop those who served the Powers.
More than once I thought she must secretly be of the Hunt – but there was never that sick joy in her, that thrill of predator and prey. She had simply decided that this was her position in life, and went about it with a practicality that even I found disconcerting at times.
I once asked her what drove her, what had started her down that path. She told me the Desolation had killed her cat.
I don’t know if she was joking, and, to be honest, I could never bring myself to look into her mind and find out for sure.
In any case, Gertrude’s ruthless efficiency in derailing and collapsing rituals threw into stark relief a question that had been bothering me for almost a hundred and fifty years: In the whole span of humanity, why had nobody ever succeeded?
Perhaps there were a long line of Gertrude Robinsons throughout history, but I found that hard to credit. Could it be, then, that there was something in the very concept of the rituals that meant they couldn’t succeed?
She was clearly having similar thoughts in that last year, all of which culminated with the People’s Church.
When I saw that she was making no preparations whatsoever to stop it, I realized she was putting into practice a theory, and one she couldn’t afford to be wrong. She was going to wait, and see if the unopposed ritual succeeded, or if it collapsed under its own strain as mine had all those years ago.
Knowing Gertrude, I’m sure she had a backup plan if she had miscalculated – but she had not. The ritual failed. And all at once, I realized what had to be done.
You see, the thing about the Fears is that they can never be truly separated from each other. When does the fear of sudden violence transition into the fear of hunted prey? When does the mask of the Stranger become the deception of the Spiral?
Even those that seem to exist in direct opposition rely on each other for their definition as much as up relies on down.
To try and create a world with only the Buried makes as much sense as trying to conceive a world with only down.
Every ritual tied itself so closely to a single power as to render itself impossible. They could bring their patron close, but never sever it from the others, and eventually it would be violently pulled back into the place next to reality where they dwell.
The solution, then, is simple: A new ritual must be devised which will bring through all the Powers at once. All fourteen, as I had hoped I could complete it before any new powers such as Extinction were able to fully emerge. All under the Eye’s auspices, of course. We mustn’t forget our roots.
And there was only one being that could possibly serve as a lynchpin for this new ritual: The Archivist. A position that had so recently become vacant, thanks to Gertrude’s ill-timed retirement plans.
Because the thing about the Archivist is that – well, it’s a bit of a misnomer.
It might, perhaps, be better named: The Archive.
Because you do not administer and preserve the records of fear, John. You are a record of fear, both in mind as you walk the shuddering record of each statement, and in body as the Powers each leave their mark upon you.
You are a living chronicle of terror.
Perhaps, then, if I could find an Archivist and have each Power mark them, have them confront each one and each in turn instill in them a powerful and acute fear for their life, they could be turned into a conduit for the coming of this – nightmare kingdom.
Do you see where I’m going, John?
It does tickle me, that in this world of would-be occult dynasties and ageless monsters, the Chosen One is simply that – someone I chose. It’s not in your blood, or your soul, or your destiny. It’s just in your own, rotten luck.
[THUNDERCLAPS.]
I’ll admit, my options were somewhat limited, but My God, when you came to me already marked by the Web, I knew it had to be you. I even held out some small hope you had been sent by the Spider as some sort of implicit blessing on the whole project, and, do you know what, I think it was.
Of course, I had to bide my time, get a measure of you before I began to push, learn how you worked – So I decided I would wait until something came for you, and see how you reacted. Attacks upon the Archives were not uncommon during Gertrude’s tenure, and, while she was always prepared, I made sure you would not be.
I reasoned if you couldn’t survive a single encounter, you were unlikely to make it through all fourteen. So, when Jane Prentiss attacked, I watched eagerly, one hand on the gas release from the start.
You acquitted yourself well enough, so I decided to see how far you would get, though I waited until the worms were in you before I pulled the lever. I needed to make sure you felt that fear all the way to your bones.
The discovery that one of the Stranger’s minions had infiltrated the Institute in the aftermath was certainly a pleasant bonus. Even if that sliver of paranoia, that vague wrongness you couldn’t quite place wouldn’t count as a mark, it was only a matter of time before it confronted you in a far more direct and affecting matter.
Admittedly, given the advent of the Unknowing, I needn’t have bothered. But what’s the old saying about hindsight?
More important to me was Sasha’s encounter with the Distortion. If it had taken an interest, then I very much wanted it to cross your path.
[THUNDER CONTINUES AS HE GOES ON.]
So I found one of its current victims and convinced her to make a statement.
Poor Helen. I actually had to put her in a taxi myself, she was getting so lost in those narrow London side streets.
It worked, though.
[SOMETHING CREAKS. ANOTHER LOUD SNAP/CRACKLE.]
Between the stabbing and at least two desperate flights into its doors – you’re marked very deeply by the Spiral.
Jurgen Leitner was a surprise, of course, and I was forced to improvise. I had no idea how much Gertrude would have told him, and he could very easily have derailed everything if you learned too much too fast.
I… justified it to myself saying I was going to have to send you out into the world anyway, if you were to encounter more of the Powers, but I can’t honestly pretend it wasn’t a… rather rash move.
Still. I’d requested Detective Tonner be assigned to the case when they found Gertrude’s body in the hope that having a Hunter in the mix would eventually lead to a confrontation, and setting you up as a killer certainly hastened that.
Then it was just a matter of feeding you statements to lead you to a few Avatars I thought were likely to harm you – but probably would stop short of actually killing you.
Jude served her purpose exactly as I had hoped, as did our dearly departed Mr. Crew, marking you for the Desolation and the Vast.
Honestly, I had – nothing to do with Melanie and her Slaughter adventure, but when I saw the situation, I made sure to trap her here, so when her rage bubbled over you would be right there, a ready target.
I didn’t foresee the mark coming from surgery gone wrong, but it was a very pleasant surprise.
The Unknowing was a distraction, but not an unwelcome one. For this to work, you needed more than just the marks; you needed power. And that was something the Unknowing served to test, though it posed no actual danger in the grand scheme of things.
And it did serve another purpose, of course. It inadvertently pushed you to confront death, a mark I had been very worried about trying to orchestrate. If I tried too early, you’d just die. Too late, and you might be powerful enough to see the attempt coming, and maybe even understand why.
As it was, it was just right, and once again, you came through with flying colors.
By this point, your abilities were coming along in leaps and bounds, and I was concerned that meeting face-to-face might end up with you – (sigh) – Knowing something you shouldn’t.
I had initially planned to go into hiding, but when your colleagues surprised me with the police, well. It was simple enough to cut a deal.
All that remained, then, were the Dark, the Flesh, the Buried, and the Lonely.
I was a little put out when that idiot Jared Hopworth misinterpreted my letters and attacked the Institute too soon, before you were even out of the hospital, but then – Ho, you should have see my face when you voluntarily went to him.
I couldn’t see what happened in there, of course, but given how you came out, I’m very sure it counts as a mark.
I suspected the coffin might turn up again, and once it did, it was simply a matter of getting any, uh… restraining factors you might have had flying off on a wild goose chase, and waiting.
Honestly, Detective Tonner has been proving invaluable through this process. I’d been racking my brains for months about what I could use to lure you in.
And, of course, I knew the Dark Sun was just sitting there waiting. So when it came time, I just whipped up another apocalypse and sent you on your merry way.
Then all that remained was the Lonely.
Poor Peter. He really should have left well enough alone. (cruel laugh) Or just done what I’d asked in the first place.
Ah well. He knew what I was attempting, and was very unwilling to cooperate until I made him a little wager about Martin.
Of course, he had no way of knowing that, in addition to setting you up for the final mark, he was giving you all the tools you needed to escape from it.
How is Martin, by the way? He looks well. You will keep an eye on him when all this is over, won’t you? He’s earned that.
And there, I think, we are brought just about up to date. I have enjoyed our little trip down memory lane, but past here lies only impatience.
You are prepared. You are ready. You are marked. The power of the Ceaseless Watcher flows through you, and the time of our victory is here.
Don’t worry, John. You’ll get used to it here, in the world that we have made.
Now. (cruel, cruel laugh) Repeat after me.
[WHEN THE ARCHIVIST BEGINS TO READ THE INCANTATION, A HEAVY, DENSE STATIC RETURNS AND BEGINS TO BUILD, ADDING IN HIGHER PITCHES AS IT DOES SO.]
You who watch and know and understand none. You who listen and hear and will not comprehend. You who wait and wait and drink in all that is not yours by right.
Come to us in your wholeness.
Come to us in your perfection.
Bring all that is fear and all that is terror and all that is the awful dread that crawls and chokes and blinds and falls and twists and leaves and hides and weaves and burns and hunts and rips and bleeds and dies!
Come to us.
I – OPEN – THE DOOR!
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Jaskier was still eighteen the third time he met a witcher.
Two new witchers in one year. It was officially his favourite age so far.
He was also beginning to suspect that he had a type.
He’d always loved freely and had never really considered the idea of him having a type before. He didn’t care about looks or gender. He simply just fell in love with whoever was standing in front of him. It was both a blessing and a curse. Sure he had his preferences in bed but that was less about the person and more about the variety of sex, but even then he could adapt his own particular interests to suit his partners. It was all about working out what worked best for both of them and he was extremely good at it.
He was playing in a tavern in Posada when he saw him.
Geralt of Rivia.
Now this was a witcher that needed no introduction. He was infamous, the Butcher of Blaviken. His silver hair drew Jaskier’s attention over the crowd. He was sat alone in a dark corner of the tavern and Jaskier almost missed a note when he realised that Geralt was staring at him.
And oh those eyes.
The same as Eskel and Lambert.
Witcher’s eyes.
Like the finest honey in the Continent.
He finished up his ballad as quickly as he could without completely destroying the performance and then bowed to his adoring audience. They tossed coins in his direction which he hurried to scoop up. He gave a handful to the barkeeper’s daughter as she passed, and picked up a full mug of ale, never taking his eyes off the witcher. He couldn’t. He was trapped in Geralt’s eyes. They lured him in like moths to a flame. Like he was a vampire and Geralt’s blood was the finest he would ever taste.
No.
That was shit.
And gross.
He would stick to honey and flower metaphors in future. He was good with those.
He leant against the pillar and smiled seductively at the witcher who was still staring at back at him in a way that made his heart sing. “I love the way you just sit in the corner and brood.”
Geralt smirked and picked up his drink. “You’re the bard.”
Jaskier tilted his head, flicking his fringe from out of his eyes. “I’m a bard.” He agreed. “One of many I imagine. It’s a popular profession.”
Geralt growled and Jaskier was gone. His heart now belonged to this man. He was gorgeous and sexy and to the gods Jaskier wanted to drag Geralt’s leather clad ass upstairs to his room immediately.
“Why do you do it?” Geralt asked watching Jaskier with an intensity that was honestly killing him.
“Do what exactly?” He hummed as he slipped onto the bench opposite the witcher and licked his lips.
Geralt’s eyes flickered down to his lips and Jaskier did a little dance in his head. Finally!
“The songs, the coin, the poems.” Geralt tilted his head. “No one else gives a fuck about witchers. So why?”
Jaskier rested his chin on his hands and watched Geralt as he thought about his answer. “Why not?” He settled on. “Eskel saved my life in Oxenfurt, and I thought it would be a good way to repay the debt. I never dreamed it would be so successful.”
Geralt raised an eyebrow. “That’s not how Eskel tells it.”
Jaskier smirked as he leant forward on the table. “How does Eskel tell it, my darling witcher?”
Geralt leaned forward so that Jaskier could feel the heat of his breath brush his cheeks. “That you tried to seduce him, begged him to take you home.”
Jaskier’s cheeks felt like they were on fire as he took a shaky breath, arousal flooding his senses. He bit the inside of his cheek to stop himself from whimpering like a fool and cocked his head. “Well, you can’t blame a man for trying, Geralt.” He purred the witcher’s name and looked up at him through his eyelashes.
Geralt reached across the table and grabbed Jaskier’s wrist tightly, bringing it up to his nose. He sniffed deeply and Jaskier furrowed his brow before raising an eyebrow at the witcher’s antics.
“You aren’t afraid?” Geralt breathed huskily.
Jaskier laughed and moved his hand in Geralt’s grip so he was cupping the witcher’s cheek. There was a prickle of silver stubble beneath his fingers and he couldn’t help but stroke his thumb along Geralt’s cheekbone.
“My dear witcher.” Jaskier smiled fondly at the man in front of him. “Why would I be afraid?”
Geralt growled and pulled away and then gestured to the crowd in the tavern behind Jaskier. “Ask any of them.” Jaskier glanced behind him and scoffed.
“They simply don’t know you.” Jaskier rolled his eyes.
“You don’t know me.” Geralt muttered.
Jaskier let his hand rest on Geralt’s arm and squeezed gently. “Not yet, but I wasn’t lying when I said Eskel saved my life. He saved my life and ensured that I got home safely when there was no reward for doing so, even though I was quite honestly being a bit of a brat.”
Geralt chuckled.
Jaskier grinned sheepishly. “We all do things we’re embarrassed about when we’re sixteen.”
Geralt raised an eyebrow. “So what’s your excuse with Lambert?”
Jaskier laughed as he remembered his encounter with the prickly witcher from earlier in the year. “Oh come on, Geralt.” He whined but continued to trail his fingers along Geralt’s arm. “Why must you shame me in this way?”
“Seems you have type, bard.” Geralt chuckled fondly and stopped Jaskier’s flirtatious caresses on his arm by catching Jaskier’s hand in his.
Jaskier was incredibly pleased with this latest development. He smiled softly at his witcher. “Perhaps,” He laced their fingers together. “Or perhaps every breath, every rejection, every missed opportunity was just leading me here. To you.”
Geralt scoffed. “Romantic fool.”
Jaskier pouted at the new love of his life. “Geralt.”
Geralt frowned.
“Bard?” He asked looking a bit confused.
Oh.
 Oh.
“Oh Melitele, You idiots don’t even know my name!” He gasped and fell back in his seat, pulling his hand away from the witcher.
Geralt grumbled something under his breath.
“No no no. Use your words, witcher!” Jaskier snapped. “I sing your praises all over the Continent for two bloody years and not one of you knows my name! I am a famous troubadour Geralt!”
“It’s not our fault you have so many bloody monikers. Dandelion, Daffodil, Fleur-de-lis, Buttercup, Daisy, Marigold.” Geralt sniped back. “Two years, bard, and not one person has been able to tell me your name.”
Jaskier smiled coyly. “You’ve been asking about me?”
“Professional curiosity. You’ve made all our lives a lot easier, bard.” Geralt mumbled. “It seems only fair to know who we’re thanking.”
Jaskier tilted his head at the witcher. “Aren’t you a gentleman?”
Geralt just hummed gruffly and Jaskier patted the witcher gently on his cheek. To his surprise the witcher leant into his touch ever so slightly, he was certain that Geralt hadn’t even noticed he was doing it.
Jaskier was falling in love even more with every moment that passed between them. Yes the witcher was, like all witchers, fucking sexy, but he was also gentle and kind, thoughtful and surprisingly vulnerable? He was certain that most people would call him mad for saying that but Geralt seemed genuinely hurt that the world saw him as a monster.
Jaskier just couldn’t comprehend that at all.
He was dangerous and lethal yes, but only when he needed to be, or at least Jaskier assumed as much based on his encounters with Eskel and Lambert. Eskel in particular had never drawn his sword unless he absolutely had to, Lambert admittedly was faster to attack but then he was less forgiving to the world that showed him no mercy and Jaskier could hardly blame him for that.
“So, Geralt…” Jaskier hummed thoughtfully. “Tell me a story.”
Geralt rolled his eyes and smirked. “No.”
“No?” Jaskier cried. “What do mean no?”
Geralt grinned. “You’ve had enough second hand stories, bard.”
Jaskier narrowed his eyes at the witcher whilst he considered his words, smiling as he realised the implication behind the words. “I can come with you?”
Geralt hummed and nodded his head. “As long as you stay back and do as I say. Vesemir would kill me if I got you killed.”
Jaskier tilted his head. “Vesemir?”
Geralt grunted but didn’t elaborate which was fine! Jaskier would draw out more details from the witcher eventually. It seemed no witcher was totally immune to his charms.
“So when do we start?” Jaskier leaned his chin on his arms and looked up into Geralt’s eyes, happily getting lost in their swirling amber depths.
Geralt shrugged. “When I get a job.”
Jaskier grinned and leapt up from the table, bounding back to where he’d stored his lute behind the bar. There were still a few songs left in his witcher centric repertoire that he had yet to play, he could easily tweak the lyrics a little, make them about the witcher tucked away in the back of the tavern… the Butcher of Blaviken.
No.
That wouldn’t do.
He appraised Geralt thoughtfully and grinned as his muse came to him.
The White Wolf!
He took a deep breath, brushed his fingers against the strings of his lute and the tavern fell silent as he began to sing.
Geralt hadn’t intended to invite the bard along when he noticed him dancing and flirting with the crowd. He had had no doubt that this was the one. He was Eskel’s bard. He’d watched completely enraptured by the bard’s performance. His gaze drifting over the bard’s surprisingly muscular body. He’d imagined him to be slight and effeminate, like many bards were but that wasn’t the case. His legs were long but muscular. As he perched one foot on a bench and strummed freely on the strings of the lute, Geralt hadn’t managed to stop his gaze from being drawn to the man’s calf.
And his voice.
He’d played effortlessly with the melody and even Geralt’s untrained ear could tell that singing came as naturally to this man as breathing. He didn’t have to strain to reach any of the notes and his voice didn’t shake no matter how much he danced and spun and flirted with the patrons of the tavern.
No, Geralt hadn’t intended to do anything more than simply introduce himself and find out what the damned bard’s name was and yet, here they were travelling side by side towards  the fields where the supposed devil had been spotted.
And he still didn’t know the idiots name.
He swore, silencing the chattering bard who looked at him curiously.
“Everything alright, Geralt?” He asked, cornflower blue eyes shining in the bright sunlight.
“Why flowers?” He asked the troubadour who smirked and gently dampened the resonating sound of his lute strings with his hand.
“We all have our secrets, witcher.” The brunet winked and strode on ahead.
Geralt frowned and ignored the surge of desire that rushed through him at the bard’s easy flirtations. “Well which one is it?”
“Which one is what?”
Geralt grabbed the bard by his shoulders spun him round so he was facing him. Geralt didn’t miss the spike of lust in the bard’s scent and filed that away for later. Not that there would be a later. One adventure, one song and some extra cash. That was all this would be.
“You know damn well, bard.” He spat out and gripped the man tightly so he couldn’t escape this time. “No changing the subject.”
“As if I would do that!” The troubadour gaped in offence and a quick sniff of the air told Geralt that he was only teasing him. “In all my days.”
“Bard.” Geralt was half-minded to forget the whole thing and gallop away on Roach but he was pinned in place by the mischievous twinkle in the bard’s gaze. He sighed and released his grip on the man.
“I call myself Jaskier.” He answered with open arms and a dramatic bow.
“Jaskier.” Geralt frowned. “From Novigrad?”
“Oxenfurt.” Jaskier corrected. “I am rather delighted that it was translated differently across the Continent. Although it does make it a little harder to make myself known.”
“You’re the bard that sings the songs of the witchers, of Kaer Morhen.” Geralt hummed. “The name didn’t matter as much as the stories.”
Jaskier cocked his head. “It did to you.”
“Hmm.” Geralt agreed. “Jaskier’s not your real name.”
“No.” Jaskier admitted.
“Will you tell me?” Geralt asked.
Jaskier shook his head. “Not yet, maybe eventually, dear heart.”
Geralt’s heart didn’t soften at the newest term of endearment.
Witchers were made of sterner stuff than that.
But he did smile fondly at his new companion behind his back as they headed deeper into the farmland.
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Warnings: There will be swearing, mature themes, mentions of alcohol at times, and mentions of sex. I will update warnings as I go if needed.
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Azriel couldn’t remember the last time that he was this happy. It had only been almost a week since he and Elain had kissed, and he couldn’t help but smile whenever he thought of it. The way that she held him gently as they did so, the little noises that she’d made when he’d deepened the kiss, and the way she had smiled into it whenever he let a groan slip. It just all felt so real. Kissing girls was never like that; people always said there was some spark or some other mushy feeling, but he’d never experienced it. Not until she walked into his life. They had called every night since, he’d ask about her day, how she was feeling, what she would be doing the next day, and then he’d tell her that he couldn’t wait until they got time alone together again.
She’d wriggled her way under his skin and he wouldn’t have it any other way.
They were all currently sat at a table in the cafeteria. Elain was sat opposite him with Nesta, Cass and Lucien, while he was sat wedged between Feyre and Rhys. He just wanted one day where they weren’t connected from head to toe. Every chance he could get, he would sneak little glances at her, making her blush if she caught him. It gave him some smug satisfaction to see the pink staining her cheeks. That was until he saw Lucien glaring at him. He knew why of course; Elain had said that she’d told him about the night of the party because she was scared and confused. That he knew about the baby, simply because she didn’t want to be alone when she took the tests. Part of him was jealous at first because that was their night- what they could remember of it, anyway –and it was their baby. His baby. He felt he should have been there when she found out, but he hadn’t known then. They hadn’t spoken until after that and she hadn’t thought he’d care, that he’d want anything to do with her. With either of them. But it still hurt for some reason.
Azriel was brought out of his musings to the sound of both Cassian and Lucien’s very unhappy groaning. Looking up he saw that both Nesta and Feyre had their eyes, now furiously cold, glaring in the same direction. Cass had his head tilted to the ceiling like it was the most interesting thing in the world, Rhys was rubbing his temples as if a headache was brewing and Lucien looked as though he was trying to disappear. Elain was desperately trying to tuck herself into Nesta’s side, as if that was currently the safest place for her. He turned his head in the same direction that the two girls were looking in, and when he saw what they did, he struggled to hold back a groan of his own.
Ianthe was strutting across the room, acting like she owned the whole goddamn place, right towards their table. When she reached it there was a slight smirk on her face as she placed one hand on her hip and used the other to twirl her awful bleached hair around her finger, but before she could speak, Rhys beat her to it.
“How many times do you have to be told, demon spawn, no one here wants anything to do with you. Leave.”
Her pinched face twisted up into something horrid for a moment before the smirk was back and she was opening her mouth, speaking in that nasally tone that made him want to stab himself.
“Now now, Rhysand, don’t be like that. I’m curious about something. All of you boys except for Lucy dearest turned down this,” she made a flourished gesture at herself, “beautiful piece of work for a trashy lower model.”
Before Feyre could get up, he was pulling her back down, and the whining from the blonde continued.
“You for Tamlin’s sloppy seconds, Cassian for the cold bitch that probably doesn’t put out, and you, Azzie? You did it for the virgin freak over there. I just wanted to know how you all managed to snag an Archeron sister.”
Everything had gone deadly still. Cass was gaping like a fish, Rhys had an eyebrow raised and he could feel Feyre glaring daggers into the side of his head. Lucien had dropped his head into his hands while Elain was wide eyed, pale and her hand looked like it was beginning to shake. He wanted to reach out to her, to hold her close, to let her know that everything was fine. But he could do nothing. Nothing but stare at Nesta as she flicked her eyes to his, an angry fire burning within them.
“Azriel you have about thirty seconds to explain to me what the hell the bitch is talking about, or so help me god, you will have no balls left.”
He knew that they’d have to tell people eventually, but this is not how he wanted to tell her sisters that they were dating.
Motherfucking shit fuck.
“It’s true, I saw them leaving the diner not so long, hand in hand. They looked very cosy.”
He vaguely saw Ianthe turn on her heel and saunter away after that, satisfied that she’d caused enough damage for one day. He was about to say something, anything, to dissolve the situation, but Elain beat him to it.
“Nes, please calm down. We had only just made it official between us this week. We weren’t ready to tell anyone yet, but I like him. I really like him, so, can’t you be happy for us? Please Nesta?”
It was official, he was dead. There was no way he would be allowed to live his life now that it was confirmed. And if she acted like this just because they were dating, how the hell were they going to be able to tell everyone about the little life they had created? Luckily for him Feyre managed to calm Nesta down, bless her soul. She and Azriel had always had a different sort of friendship and right now, he was so grateful for that.
“Come on Nes, we know Az. We know he’s good enough for her and that he’ll treat her right. And think, we can do triple dates now, won’t that be fun?”
“Fine. But know this Az, if you hurt her in anyway shape or form, I’ll break your fucking legs with a hammer.”
He let out a breath he hadn’t known he had been holding at the averted crisis, mouthing a ‘thank you’ to the girl beside him, receiving a gentle smile in return. Suddenly, his phone buzzed in his pocket, so he pulled it out while everyone was distracted, and reading the text on the screen, he couldn’t help the grin that stretched across his face.
Uh, I have an appointment booked at the clinic. It’s the twelve week scan because it’s good to have one then; or so I’ve read. Would you like to come? You don’t have to obviously, I can go by myself, but I thought I’d ask. No pressure.
-El
Stretching his leg under the table to hook his ankle around hers, he saw her jump before she started playing back while he answered;
Of course I’d like to come. I can’t wait to see him/her. I told you I was all in, Elain, and I meant it. Every scan and every check up, I’ll be there to hold your hand. We do this together.
-Az
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here4theheartbreak · 3 years
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Skating Into Love (VMin)
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✩ AO3 Link Here!
✩ Relationships: vmin (Jimin x Taehyung)
✩ Genre/Universe: fluff, domestic, getting together
✩ Rating: General
✩ Tags: fluff, meet cute, Halloween costumes, minor NamKook, minor Sope, past Taemin x Jimin, pre-relationship
✩ Summary: Jimin isn't exactly excited to go to the costume contest as the back end of a centaur. But it might be his lucky night.
✩ Word Count: ~2.2k
✩ A/N: Written for @btsholidaybingo​ for the square Costume Contest.
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In reality Jimin didn’t want to go. Costume contests weren’t his thing. Nor were roller skating rinks and boisterous, drunken crowds. But Jungkook had a face Jimin simply couldn’t say no to. And it would do him good to get out, he knew, especially after the breakup.
Get a rebound! Jungkook had cried when Jimin reluctantly agreed to the party. But they both knew that wasn’t in Jimin’s nature. He loved easily and got hurt often for it. But that easy love was also wholehearted. Rebounding, using someone for short term fun or sex or anything that could break someone’s heart – it wasn’t in his nature. So, there’d be no rebound tonight, but he did promise Jungkook he would try his best to have fun.
Realistically, Jimin knew what Jungkook was dragging him along for. The party was going to be at the local roller rink. Which meant there was a ninety-nine percent chance the local ice skating (and roller skating) champ, Kim Namjoon, would be there. And Jungkook, bless his young heart, had the biggest crush on Namjoon. But anxiety got the best of him at the worst of times, and he tended to clam up when face to face with said crush. Jimin often helped alleviate that stress. Jungkook had been planning to ask Namjoon out during this Halloween party for weeks.
“I cannot believe I let you talk me into this,” Jimin lamented, his voice muffled.
“Oh come on, it’s fun,” Jungkook argued. He reached back and patted the side of the ‘horse’ from his point at the front of the costume. A handsome centaur, of course.
“You made me the horse half.”
“Well you’re not the one looking for a date, so no one needs to see your pretty face. You’ll steal any boyfriends I might want,” Jungkook said.
Jimin kicked forward, his sneaker making contact with Jungkook’s calf. He laughed when Jungkook yelped, leaning down to rub where his shoe hit.
“The only boyfriend you want is Namjoon and I have zero interest in that walking disaster.”
“You’re one to talk. You ran into the door yesterday.”
“So you put me in the costume piece with minimal vision?”
“Yep. You get to hold onto me though, I’ll keep you safe.” Jungkook leaned forward and grabbed the door so they could both enter the building. It was a gorgeous little community center, really; with a nice sized roller rink in the center, and surrounded by a little eating space, a video game room, and a door on the far side connected to a bowling alley.
“So how do you plan on doing this, genius?” Jimin asked.
“Let’s meander a bit, see if we can find any of our friends. We can separate and eat and then go skating if we want to.”
Jimin nodded, holding a little tighter to Jungkook’s waist. He could see his feet moving through the open part in the horse’s stomach, and it was making him a little dizzy. Jungkook chatted with people as they passed, and Jimin was both annoyed and relieved to be hidden by the costume. Though he would have liked some acknowledgement as they walked through the crowds, it was nice not to see that pitying look people had been giving him so often since his breakup with Taemin.
They reached the counter finally, and Jungkook ordered, nudging Jimin. Jimin stood, separating the horse body, shaking his hair from his face. He grinned at the counter girl who did a double take. He ordered and winked at her before heading with Jungkook toward where he spotted Namjoon and Yoongi sitting.
Namjoon was dressed head to toe as a large tree trunk, his face made up to match the pattern of the bark. He had large gloves that made his fingers look like thin branches, which made his attempts to eat his hamburger quite comical.
Next to him sat Yoongi in an entirely grey outfit, his eyes half closed as he scribbled on a notebook next to his half-eaten nachos.
“What are you?” Jungkook asked as he sat next to Namjoon.
“I didn’t dress up,” Yoongi mumbled.
“He’s the boulder to my tree,” Namjoon said, beaming at Jungkook. “What are you?”
“Centaur!” Jungkook said excitedly. He nudged Jimin, who groaned and stood just as soon as he’d sat down. He leaned over, grabbing Jungkook’s waist and shrugging the costume over his head. Jungkook stood straighter, grinning broadly. He was wearing a tank top that was damn near see through, allowing a great view of his abs.
“Wow, that’s awesome!” Namjoon said.
Jimin stood again, taking a seat next to Yoongi and stealing one of his nachos. “Except I’m the ass.”
“Well, someone had to be.”
“And we all know you need to impress N—” Jungkook slapped his hand over Jimin’s mouth, giggling shyly in Namjoon’s direction. Jimin rolled his eyes, pushing Jungkook’s hand off his mouth.
“Well, you need to impress the world’s most oblivious tree trunk.”
Jungkook’s eyes widened and Yoongi chuckled. “He’s not wrong.”
“About what?” Namjoon asked.
“Nothing!” Jungkook cried, clearing his throat.
Jimin rolled his eyes again. He rose, bowing to the woman bringing their food as he went to get the tray from her. She smiled broadly, swaying her hips a little as she walked away.
“She’s flirting with you,” Yoongi commented as Jimin sat back down.
“I know.”
“So… Ask her out.”
“Why?”
Yoongi shrugged. “I just figured. After Taemin…” He drifted off when Jimin’s smile dropped from his face. “I just mean—”
Namjoon cleared his throat, giving Yoongi a pointed look.
“It’s fine,” Jimin said, grabbing his burger and taking a bite. He offered a half smile. “I’m over it,” he muttered with a mouthful of food.
The conversation shifted easily, much to Jimin’s relief. He looked out over the rink as the others chatted, watching the skaters. Lots of zombies, sexy witches, nurses, ghosts… And one mummy that seemed absolutely terrified of his roller skates.
Jimin watched the mummy shift, his feet sliding out from under him the second he moved away from the wall. It was sort of cute.
When the group of friends finished their meals, Namjoon rose, heading to get them all skates. Jungkook, as usual, followed. Yoongi chuckled. “He’s so in love with that guy.”
“Right? How does Namjoon not know?”
“I don’t know. Namjoon likes him too. That’s the worst part. If these two would just pay attention to each other they’d see that and stop annoying us.”
“Were you dragged along as backup too?” Jimin wondered. Yoongi nodded.
“Of course. I have far too much to do to waste time here. After you guys start skating honestly I’m probably gonna take off.”
Jimin nodded. “I would except I’m an actual part of his costume. I feel bad ditching. Oh! Is that Hoseok?”
Yoongi perked up at that, looking back in the direction Jimin was looking. Hoseok was on the rink already, dressed in a garishly bright sunflower headpiece and a green shirt and pants.
Yoongi grinned ear to ear. “On second thought…” He rose, heading over to grab the skates from Namjoon as he and Jungkook approached. He hurried toward Hoseok, waving.
Jimin smiled and rolled his eyes. He took the skates from Jungkook, sliding them on and rising. He turned, waiting for Jungkook and Namjoon, until he realized the two were already deep in conversation, skates forgotten for the moment beside them.
Jimin’s face drooped a little. He looked toward Yoongi and Hoseok, who were skating close together as they chatted. As always. He sighed softly and headed out to the rink, skating between the couples and happy groups of friends alone. It was stupid, being so broken up like this. But he’d been truly happy with Taemin, and there was no good reason the other could give as to why he’d dumped him. At least, not beyond wanting to focus on his career. Which, Jimin supposed, was as good a reason as any. He needed to get over it. He needed to get over him.
Deep in thought, Jimin didn’t notice the mummy as he approached. He did, however, notice when the mummy’s very long legs went in opposite directions, and his arms flailed, nearly knocking Jimin over. He grabbed onto the boy without thinking, stabilizing him.
The mummy cried out in shock, looking over at Jimin. Despite the makeup and bandages on his face, Jimin could see that he was around the same age… And strikingly beautiful.
“Thank you,” the mummy said, his voice a low rumble that went straight to Jimin’s belly. “I’m sorry.”
“Don’t worry about it.” Jimin bit his lower lip. “You don’t look too sure of yourself on these skates.”
“I’m horrible at rollerblading,” the mummy confessed. “I only came because of my big brother, and he ditched me earlier to go make out with his partner. I can move well enough as long as I have someone to hold onto.”
Jimin rolled his eyes deeply. “God, same. Do you want me to help you get out of the center of the rink?”
“That’d be great, yeah,” the mummy said, laughing a little. Jimin grinned. He hooked his arm in the mummy’s, moving toward the wall slowly.
“Just match my movements. Left, right, left, right,” he said, leaning close to be heard over the music. The mummy did so, managing not to fall on his ass.
When they reached the wall, the mummy sagged in relief.
“Thank you.”
Jimin paused. “I’m Jimin.” He stuck out his hand.
“Taehyung,” the mummy said, shaking it.
“Nice to meet you, Taehyung. Your costume is cool. It looks professional.”
Taehyung nodded. “My brother is a stage performer. His partner made our costumes.” He pointed off the rink. “That’s them.”
Jimin looked, his eyes widening. A tall, broad shouldered man dressed as a very realistic werewolf was snuggling a beautiful person dressed as an elf, broad chested and tall. Jimin gasped then. “Wait, is that Kwon Solbi and Kim Seokjin?”
Taehyung nodded. “You know them?”
“My brother has the biggest crush on Solbi. I absolutely adore their work. Seokjin is newer, isn’t he? He’s so good. He has so much talent. Seokjin is your brother? Or do you refer to Solbi as--”
“Seokjin, yeah. He met Solbi when he was a stage hand for their play last summer. They’ve been inseparable. Which is fine. I like Solbi. But I wish… You know…” Taehyung drifted off then shrugged. “What about you? What are you supposed to be?”
Jimin’s smile drooped again as he looked down at his ridiculous “costume” – which, without Jungkook – looked like brown pants and a white t-shirt.
“I’m a horse’s ass,” he mumbled.
Taehyung laughed hard, shaking his head. “You don’t look that bad. What is it? Really?”
“No, I’m being serious. I’m the ass end of a centaur. The front half is over there—” Jimin’s voice halted a little when he looked. “with his tongue shoved down that tree’s throat.”
Taehyung looked over and chuckled. “I see. And you got relegated to the ass end, what? Because he wanted to impress someone?”
Jimin nodded. “He’s been crushing on our friend – the tree- for ages. I’m glad he finally made a move.”
“What about you, Jimin?”
“Hm?” Jimin turned back to Taehyung and tilted his head. “What do you mean?”
“You seem… Alone. Most folks have already split off into their groups. And you were willing to be the ass end of the costume, which probably means you’re not looking to impress anyone.”
“Oh, yeah, I’m single.”
Taehyung nodded. “Got it.” He bit his lip. “You know…” He hesitated. “Cute ass.”
Jimin’s eyes bulged. “I’m sorry?”
“You make a cute horse ass. Or… You have a cute ass, however you wanna take it.”
Jimin felt his cheeks heating up. He rubbed the back of his neck, laughing a little helplessly. “Taehyung, I—”
Taehyung shrugged. “Not gay?”
“Oh no, I’m gay. But I just went through a breakup. You seem nice but… I don’t wanna do a rebound. Especially not with a nice person.”
“Understandable.” Taehyung smiled, tilting his head. “Then how about we start as friends? I need someone to go roller skating with and everyone we know has ditched us. I need a new friend anyways, don’t you?”
Jimin relaxed a little. Taehyung looked so honest and kind, it was refreshing. “I always need a new friend.”
“Then we’ll be friends. We’ll see what happens after.”
Jimin grinned and nodded. “Deal.” He held out his arm for Taehyung to take. The two began to skate again, moving slowly as Jimin made sure Taehyung wouldn’t fall on his (very cute now that he looked at it) ass. The two began to talk easily about everything under the sun, finding both a lot in common and many differences that brought on fun debates. It was as if they’d known one another forever.
Taehyung ended up winning the costume contest, a gift certificate for two to a nice restaurant in the city. And, though it was a romantic restaurant, Jimin gladly accepted when Taehyung invited him to share the prize that following weekend. Friends could go to romantic restaurants together, couldn’t they? Though, Jimin had to admit, as they exchanged numbers and Taehyung planted a surprise kiss on his cheek before they separated for the evening… He hoped that by the end of that date, just maybe, they’d be more than friends.
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bubble-tea-bunny · 5 years
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until the night collapses
[leon s kennedy x reader]
author’s note: leon is hella good looking in the remake and my eyes have been blessed
word count: 3,056
Driving through rain, especially at night, always warrants extra caution. As such, Leon’s foot is steady on the gas, having been cruising at a comfortable speed for the past several miles. The roads have been mostly devoid of traffic, though he had passed one or two cars going the other direction. It’s an emptiness he’d considered a little strange at first, but he’s quick to brush it off. He’s just glad he doesn’t have to worry about anyone tailing him before swerving to the opposite lane to pass. A downpour still wasn’t enough for some people to slow down. But when he pulls into the Mizoil gas station to fill the tank, he learns the rain is the least of his problems.
It’s a hell of a first day, that’s for sure. He thought he was the only one at the station with a still beating heart (at least after watching an Arklay County officer get a nasty bite to the neck from… something, which left him good as dead) until Claire had shown up. A stroke of luck would have the keys still in the ignition of the police cruiser, and they were off.
If someone asked him what he would’ve expected his welcome to Raccoon City to be like, he couldn’t give a straight answer, but it definitely isn’t this. Abandoned cars are pulled over to either side of the street, and he drives through the open center, intended for emergency vehicles no longer anywhere in sight. Eventually even that’s blocked off, and in a fit of timing he struggles to say was good or not, the welcome committee arrives in the form of a fuel truck narrowly crushing the car to scrap metal. It kills any of the zombies trying to pry the doors open to get to him and Claire, but the force of the collision throws him forward, and his head collides with the steering wheel none too nicely. If he were to look into a mirror right now, he’d see a nasty bruise darkening on his forehead. He doesn’t need to see it to know it’s there, for light pressure applied to the offended area with the tips of his fingers and the ensuing throb let him know just as well.
This last hour had merely been the tip of the very large, very precarious iceberg. The fire caused by the cruiser exploding gave him no choice but to split up with Claire. Arriving at, and diving within, the museum turned police department is his personal journey down the rabbit hole, but this is no Wonderland on the other side. Or maybe it is and the author of the whole sick story had a fucked up sense of humor. But what did he know? If this was a book he was only a character, at the mercy of the words and whatever would follow with each turn of the page.
He’s seen more death and gore than anyone should have to see, and it’s a level of carnage he can’t help but recoil at. Being a police officer requires not only an iron will but an iron stomach, but he thinks he should be given a pass this time. Fighting his way through hordes of undead as he tries to find out what the hell is going on was not listed in the job description. When he’s trekking down what feels like the millionth dark corridor, blood and guts stuck to the bottom of his boots, he muses half with cynicism and half with fatigue, for it has been a long night, that maybe it’s because if it had been mentioned, no one would apply. And maybe there are some who would jump at the chance to play hero, but in the end logic wins out and prompts many of them to stay away, since it’s something else entirely to be thrown into the mess and realize one is vastly outnumbered, and against an enemy with nothing to fear.
At the west office, he cracks the first smile in what feels like an eternity. It’s a small one, followed closely by a quiet chuckle at the scene before him. Streamers dangle from the ceiling, and a banner stretches across from one wall to the other: Welcome Leon. He reads the note on his desk and feels a twinge in his chest. These were supposed to be his colleagues. Life would’ve been so different if the keep away message hadn’t been sent to him a week prior, if there hadn’t been a reason to stay out of the city and the wheels were still turning like they’re meant to.
He passes by one of the desks, and his flashlight passes over a nameplate with your name on it. Your workspace, much like the others here, is thrown in disarray. Papers are scattered and various trinkets you had to decorate the area are broken. There are sticky notes still stuck to the edge of the shelf attached to your desk, some of them quick reminders of tasks to do and others silly notes from your fellow officers.  
Cracked glass hidden in the shadowy corner grabs his attention, and he reaches a hand out for it. His fingers curl around a wooden frame, which he gingerly picks up, mindful of the sharp point of the glass. This must be you in the photo. You’re in a graduation uniform, diploma in one hand and your dog held in the other. It’s not looking at the camera, but rather up at you, who smile widely, a toothy grin that reaches your eyes. The time stamp in the bottom right corner indicates this is a recent photo.
There’s so much personality at your desk, and in your bright gaze captured forever in a picture, that for a moment he swears he feels less alone. He feels like he knows you. Maybe he’d be one of the officers to write small notes to tack to your desk, or maybe you would do that to his. Maybe he would’ve met your dog. What’s its name, he wonders?
With a sigh he sets the frame back down, and reality rushes back, and he hopes he won’t see your body laying around somewhere, discarded and almost unrecognizable. Chances are high that you’ve been infected and haven’t survived, but all the same, he doesn’t want to come across you. He’s not sure why he wants to grasp so tightly onto the image of your smile, and to not allow it to be tainted by visions of a corpse. Perhaps it’s because it’s his last hold to something humane, to something that could help retain his sanity in the midst of the chaos. Lieutenant Branagh had already succumbed to his wounds, and Claire was nowhere to be found. Leon doesn’t know if she’s still alive. So all that left was you.
Ada turning up proves he isn’t the only one remaining in the whole building with his wits still about him, and with his heart and brain in tact. She isn’t keen on sharing much information, and what little she divulges only raises more questions. He couldn’t have begun to guess what caused this shit storm. All of it sounds crazy, but judging by Ada’s tone, this is no tall tale.
They had stumbled upon Annette Birkin. There’s no better word for it. They train their guns on her, and Leon thinks to himself that she doesn’t seem threatening, and definitely not as dangerous as Ada had made her out to be. But maybe that’s how it goes. The most dangerous could be the least assuming. He doesn’t know to what lengths she will go to protect the G-Virus, but he’s not left speculating for long, for she brandishes her own gun and opens fire, and he doesn’t hesitate running towards Ada, shielding her and bringing them both to the ground.
The bullet in his shoulder registers as a low burn, and his vision is becoming hazy. It becomes difficult to ignore the pain, and he remembers telling Ada to go after Annette before passing out from shock. He hadn’t even been aware of the transition from consciousness to unconsciousness. He was simply awake, though weakening fast, and then he wasn’t.
Now he’s in a house, one he doesn’t recognize. The sun is shining outside, and his feet are carrying him through the hallway like they have a mind of their own, for he isn’t willing himself to walk. He just is. They bring him to a bedroom where the curtains are drawn back, the light flooding in a bit too intense to be normal. The edges of everything are out of focus and no matter how many times he blinks, they stay fuzzy.
I was wondering where you went. The figure in the bed sits up slightly to look at him better. Your hair is ruffled and you watch him with a sleep-riddled grin. He knows he should be surprised to see you there. None of this is adding up. This isn’t real. But he’s not deterred by any such thoughts as he smiles back like this is the way things always were.
He crawls beneath the sheets to join you, apologizing while he does. Sorry. At first he wasn’t certain if he actually was in control, or if he was only watching everything play out like a movie, like there was a script. But if it had at the start been the latter, it was now the former, as he starts to play along, eyes sliding closed as you lean in to kiss him. The spot where your lips meet is warm, and his arms curl around you to bring you closer.
Once you pull away, you murmur that you love him, and he feels his heart stop. He brings a hand up to caress your cheek, where a rosy flush has settled, and says he loves you too. This prompts you to smile that beautiful smile of yours, and it’s still just as captivating when tinged with fatigue. He runs his thumb across your bottom lip, smooth and plush, and he wants to kiss you again so he does.
In the back of his mind he knows this isn’t real, but God, he wishes it were. His fingers tangle in your hair, his free hand sneaking beneath the oversized shirt you wear to run along the heated skin of your waist, and everything feels fine. Everything feels perfect. He’s reminded of that saying, of one’s life flashing before their eyes, and he wonders if this is it. Or something close. Because this isn’t the past. He doesn’t know what it is. It would seem he had held on to you so securely that he’s started to dream of you. His stomach is doing flips like a cage of butterflies has just been let loose, and you’re smiling again, and it’s the flower they’re all searching for.
Are you okay? you inquire gently, brushing his hair from his eyes.
He stares into the depths of your own and they feel so much like home that he’s not pretending anymore. His chest is bursting with a love that feels too real to be mere imagination. And he starts to believe it, that life has always been this way, and would always be this way, and he’s just had a bad dream he won’t trouble you by sharing. He doesn’t want you to worry. Yeah, I’m okay.
Maybe this is his life flashing before his eyes, but it’s less about life in the sense of all the years gone by, and more about life in the form of a person, of the one who means the most to him. And despite knowing so little about you, his subconscious pulls at the image of you he stored away, bringing it to the forefront so that he’s convinced you are his life. That’s why he sees you now, and why he desperately clings on, to this blissful moment, suspended in time. He never wants to let go.
It’s also why he feels so helplessly hollow when he finally wakes—reluctantly, and with a heaviness closing in on his heart. He’s back in the cold corridor, back in the station, sitting up against the hard wall with Ada’s trench coat acting as a makeshift shock blanket and his injury wrapped with gauze stained dark red. You’re in his periphery, your warmth and your smile gradually fading away, and he’s thinking Don’t go or maybe he’s said it out loud, muttered to the air with a cracked voice.
They say things get worse before they better, but in this case, they get so bad Leon doubts there could be any improvement. He ventures lower underground, in pursuit of Annette and the G-Virus. He fights monsters he never thought could exist outside horror movies, and uncovers truths he had suspected but that he wanted to hope weren’t true at all. If Annette’s words were not sufficient confirmation, the fact he’s staring down the barrel of Ada’s firearm is.
Suddenly a gunshot rings through the air and a bullet sinks into Ada’s skin, but Leon hadn’t fired. Twisting around, he gets a short glimpse of Annette before the bridge collapses and the G-Virus sample tumbles down to the depths below, but Leon grabs Ada before she can fall too. Attempts to pull her up put stress on the already unstable bridge and it sinks to an even sharper angle, and he spits out a curse of frustration.
The two of them can’t remain like that forever, however, and he feels his hold slipping. Ada doesn’t look worried, wants him to let go because otherwise, they both die. It’s not worth it. But to Leon it is, and he knows she’d never understand why. He had to let go of you and leave you behind once he returned to consciousness, and it had hurt more than it should have. So perhaps he’s thinking of you as he holds onto Ada, for he doesn’t want to go through that again. This time, he won’t let go.
But reality is quite literally crashing down around them and the reality is he’s holding on to Ada, not you. And her wrist slides out of his grip, and she disappears in the darkness. He stares into the abyss, extending so far it’s like there is no end. His breaths come out rushed due to adrenaline, corners of his eyes pooling with tears refusing to fall, but there’s no time to mourn as he kicks himself into gear, standing and moving to steadier ground. The self-destruct sequence has begun. He doesn’t have long to get out.
His way of escape is at the bottom level of the lab, and he’s shooting his way through hordes of zombies when he hears it: echoes of another firing into the packs of undead. He follows it, thinking it’s Claire, but it’s not. He stops firing in his surprise, and he’s caught so off guard he’s unable to even exclaim your name in a quiet huff of disbelief under his breath.
You catch sight of him, and not letting yourself become distracted at finding someone else still alive in here, you call out The exit is up ahead! You haven’t noticed his shock, a second he spends looking like a deer caught in headlights, for you’re too preoccupied with other more urgent matters to have done so. Leon forces himself to look away and help take down the remainder of the zombies blocking the path. Past the exit door, the lights of a train begin flashing on the walls, and at the first opening, you sprint through, Leon following close behind.
His wider strides let him catch up to you, and he’s first to hop onto the train, grabbing the bar to swing himself up. Then he holds a hand out to you, stretching as far as he can. Come on! There’s an explosion and the building starts to crumble, and the strength of the blast pushes you forward. With a lunge, you thrust your arm out to grab onto his hand, and he pulls you up with the last bit of adrenaline coursing through his veins.
Both of you collapse against the train car, breathing hard. Leon’s in rough shape, but you’re no better. You’re littered with cuts and bruises, your clothes are filthy, and your tied up hair is half falling out of the ponytail you had it in. It’s silent for a while as both of you calm down, and then Leon sneaks a glance at you. A part of him had still been skeptical that it could be true, that you’ve been alive this whole time, but it’s unmistakable. He’d burned that photo of you into his brain, and it’s a match, and he knows he’s not imagining you here next to him.
As though you can feel him staring, which you most probably do, you look over at him and meet his eyes. Now that you’re breathing normally again, you speak quietly, the fatigue finally setting in.
“Lucky we got out just in time.” You smile, and Leon’s heart is twisting to see it for real, and it’s more amazing than what he’d seen in the picture, or in his dream. He never wants you to stop looking at him like that. He wants to get lost in that gentle curve and in your soft gaze. After the hell he’s been through, he thinks he could fall asleep in them forever.
He chuckles. “Yeah, it is.”
He introduces himself and holds a hand out, and you tell him your name as you shake it. Without even fully realizing it, he’s grinning with a fondness that could only come from familiarity and a fulfilled longing, and he states Nice to meet you, [Name]. It’s really something to be saying your name out loud. It feels perfect on his tongue, his lips curling around each syllable with incredible care, like he’s reciting a prayer.
Maybe what he’d dreamed wasn’t what could’ve been; maybe it was what will be. And as the train rushes out of the ruined city and you drift off in well-deserved rest, head drooping to lean on Leon’s shoulder, he knows he’s already in love with you.
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CTM fic: Love was his meaning
So, my first *ever* Call the Midwife mini-fic. It is a small extra scene before the Shelagh and Sister Julienne scene given to us in S4 Ep2, because I just wanted to build on it a little bit.
I hope you all enjoy :)
What is love if it cannot be acknowledged?
The words echoed in her mind as she made her swift exit from the garden and up to her private room. The letter should have not come as a shock to her, for she'd been expecting it, and indeed had asked for it, since last visiting Charles. Nonetheless, now she held it in her hands, a wave of emotion - sadness and some guilt – washed over her, threatening to overwhelm her and show itself as tears rolling down her cheeks. But she swallowed them, for she was always in control of her emotions and these were selfish ones that she didn't want to be overcome by.
Pacing her room for a moment, clutching letter in hand, she came to the bookshelf and pulled out the Revelations of Divine Love. A book well thumbed over the years. Opening it, it fell to the page, or more accurately the photo, that had occupied it for so many years. The photograph that reminded her of the path she hadn't taken. It was both painful and beautiful in equal measure. Clutching the book, the photograph and the letter, Sister Julienne knelt down beside her bed and began to pray, a familiar prayer subject over the years – of the path she had chosen not to take and for the courage for the one that she was now on.
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Even thought Shelagh knew that herself and Sister Julienne had been blessed to have a particularly special bond over the years, it still seemed peculiar to her to be the one going to offer her support, and not the other way around.
Whilst out, Tom had stopped her to say that he felt her presence might be needed at Nonnatus house, because it looked as though Sister Julienne might have received some bad news by way of a letter. Shelagh had changed her direction immediately, unsure of exactly what she had to offer. All she knew, was that if she was needed by Sister Julienne then that was where she should be.
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Who's to say that we would have found as much together, as we did apart?
Charles words went round and round Sister Julienne's head as she gathered up the picked flowers from the garden and made her way to the chapel. Her work was all she had as way of comfort for now, and the simple act of gardening and refreshing the vase of flowers was all she could bring herself to commit to, at present. She set down the book, letter and photograph on the chair whilst starting to change the flowers.
“Sister?” came a quiet voice from the entrance of the chapel.
Sister Julienne closed her eyes briefly, a flick of relief and emotion swept over her. It was Shelagh.
“Forgive my intrusion, Sister,” Shelagh began.
Sister Julienne turned, looking her young friend in the eye as she came towards her, “My dear, you are never an intrusion.”
Shelagh smiled and came to stand opposite Sister Julienne and took her hands. This had always been their symbol of support for one another, the physical sign that they were always a strength for each other in times of difficulty.
Sister Julienne allowed herself a smile giving the hands a squeeze, “What can I do for you, my dear?”
Shelagh shifted almost awkwardly and let go of the Sister's hands. Never breaking the eye contact between them, she put her hands on Sister Julienne's upper arms as if to create a place of safety between them – of love. “I'm here for you,” she began.
A look of confusion crossed the older woman's eyes – how could Shelagh possibly know her currently fractured heart?
“I saw Tom outside earlier,” Shelagh said by way of explanation. “I thought you could use... a friend,” she offered.
With one nod of the head, Sister Julienne granted her well-constructed wall to dissolve slightly and allowed the former sister to embrace her. Who could understand her inner turmoil better than Shelagh, who had faced something so similar in the recent times?
Sister Julienne gestured to two chairs at the front of the chapel, and once seated she handed Shelagh her copy of the Revelations of Divine Love, and then, carefully laid the photo of her and Charles and the letter on top. Sister Julienne watched Shelagh gently unfold the letter and read, a sad smile on her face. She looked up, catching Sister Julienne's eye who was waiting for her to piece together the story, to realise this was what she was referring to in the Sanatorium when Shelagh was so racked with indecision over the path to take.
Folding the letter back up, Shelagh gently picked up the photo of the young couple, turning it over as if it were made of the most fragile glass. Sister Julienne appreciated her gentleness.
“I...” Sister Julienne stammered. “I loved him.”
The words tumbled from her, falling from her lips before she hardly had time to stop them. But she knew they were safe with Shelagh. She had not even dared think them since joining the Order let alone utter them out loud.
Shelagh nodded. She understood. She understood the the pain of deciding between the path you were called to and the path you thought you once were. For Sister Julienne, the call to the religious life had been the strongest, but that didn't make letting go of what could have been, any less painful.
“I hurt him so very much,” she added. “And it is a regret I have always carried.”
“The choice you made? Or the hurt you caused?” Shelagh asked – it was a question she suspected that Sister Julienne has been to afraid to ask of herself at times.
“Sometimes I hardly know,” said Sister Julienne, her words scorched with pain and sadness. “In those early days I was so confused and so angry that God had made me choose. I know that this is the path I was always supposed to be on. Of course I know that. I just hardly know why I had to cause hurt and pain to get here. To Charles. And to myself.”
“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.” Shelagh quoted. “I do not know why, Sister. But I do know that your journey has meant that your compassion and gentleness for others is greater and stronger for it. And I hope that that can provide some comfort to you on the darker days,” Shelagh offered. In truth, she could think of no-one in the world who ever deserved less pain and suffering than her Sister and it hurt to know she had faced such difficult and dark times.
Standing up, Sister Julienne returned to the flowers that she was carefully placing into the vase. Such a strong admission of emotion required a physical distance suddenly, or she was in danger of being overcome. She was not afraid of emotion, only simply that she had come to know her place at Nonnatus. She was the strength and wisdom of all that she came into contact with. She supposed some might call it pride, but she felt it was God's direct calling to her now – to be the physical symbol of the strength he provides. She could certainly use some of that right now.
“Who could I turn to if not you?” she said as if speaking her thoughts out loud to Shelagh, who was looking on at her with great compassion. “Who would console me if not you?”
“You don't need me to console you - the words are in here,” Shelagh said carefully, gesturing down to both to the letter that had been so carefully written, and to St Julian of Norwich's book – which contained such wisdom. “And you know them in your heart as I do.”
Careful not get to caught up in the emotion, Sister Julienne responded to the more practical matters at hand, “The money he left us will restore the building to such good order. Our clinical certificate will be renewed without question. We can carry on serving the people who need us.”
“Do you not believe that it was meant? The chance you didn't take was intended all along...?” Shelagh knew the answer to this already. She knew that Sister Julienne knew it deep down in her heart as well.
“I don't know...” her voice began to falter. Turning to look at Shelagh she added, “and I don't know how to not know any more. I have so often had to be the wise one.”
“It is in here, Sister,” Shelagh said gently, both referring to the book and to her own heart, “Just as much for me as it is for you. What, do you wish to know your Lords meaning in this thing? Know it well. Love was his meaning.”
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makeshift feels from the opinion lab
kafka wrote in a journal urhmherm of being limited to prague, then his room, then his bed, then nothing at all. to be limited at last to nothing at all. well. turns out i guess the most kafkaesque sentiment came from franz kafka.
enjoi ya rickety gethsemane while it is still to be dreamed, young writers, young writers of youth.
after a job on a hot day back in april or may or something i started listening to this while walking out of the truck towards the gas station convenience store and abruptly pivoted away from the sliding doors to sneak around the side and weep near the green fencing around some boilers. it occurred to me how little i could ever forgive myself for doing.
the shit ive done, all of it, i havent forgiven myself. if i did it and it was bad, or even meagre, dumb, really no big deal, bet yr ass it still keeps me from thinking i deserve happiness. i do not forgive myself for anything ive ever done. no deed is too temporal to etch itself cleanly into my head as something unforgivable, if only it makes a small point.
i know this is true because no joy i ever feel is felt fully, because i do not think it is deserved; and because i allow myself to be joyous only when i think of the truth of my unforgiven, unforgivable state. never to be. Never will.
and that is what is depression.
There must be something here, in me. Here where the jackals caterwAul Like streetcats Mewing their gizzard After this night’s heat, What’ll it be Jackals, Buzz off, shit man
i feel like the key to life is knowing that 90 percent of anxiety & depression, either in degree or in its truth, and at least somewhere not wracked by war, is unsubstantiated (the ten percent being actual crises, like fear of violence, a death in the family, etc). The problem is how persuasive these feelings can be that lead to the fulfillment of the very fear or solidifying the reason for being depressed. But with positive feelings, the least thing, whether true or no, can always be rewarding. A bit of happiness must be allowed to be felt, indiscriminately, because it is more useful to us than a bit of sadness. Take the fierce dialectic u use to establish a depressing ‘truth’ and persuade yourself of something good. If one is far fetched, let it be the something bad. Until it happens, after all, all of it remains in your head, to do with what u will.
You don’t get to lower taxes on the rich and gut social services at the same time. The reason social services are in place is to provide a fair shake for john q public. Mostly investors are feeling the benefits of the corporate tax cut. They’re not giving the money towards a better product that would help the people. but one day there will be no sesame seeds on the bun of yr Big Mac and you’ll wonder how that’s possible with an entire sesame seed dept that just got a pay raise.
tax reform should be done to help a free market, so that the rich can be poor and the poor rich. Taxation helps the people so that social services become less necessary. Social services were developed because the percentage of taxation was unequal between higher and lower class. Poor folks felt the pain while rich folks shrugged it off.
Thats why I say you can’t do both: social services are a protection against the world being entirely controlled, if it’s not already, by those from the very swamp this president wants to drain. T**** hasn’t drained shit.
i feel like writing takes over for your thought process. You can’t think and write at the same time, or something. something turns off or it switches where it’s doing the shit it’s doing to a different place, like yr hands. I don’t think you can write down one linear thought with another thought being thought in your head. This is why people say their mind goes blank in extended periods of inspiration. The functioning has gone from being untethered and temporal, ie wandering thoughts, notions, speculating, to being possessed in a focused place, ie yr hands, which usually leads to a more focused expression of perhaps a thought of particular value, enough in the first place to require writing down. But tho this can be easy for some talented people, who might, as Joyce said, polish their nails while writing some genius thing, what does not come easy for anybody, because it is imposssible, is thinking two disparate things, of the everyday and of some behemoth philosophic concept, for example, without either one taken place after or before; or, one of them being intermittently disturbed, tho linearly, by the other, like a notification on yr phone- until at last one of the two breaks down, and the foxus superseded by the one left. This is especially novel. One thinks; one does not think and also think. That would make it two people in one head. Therefore we can presume that ones identity is found in the unity, or internal focus, of their story in thoughts down one narrow wire: thought can cross many paths and examine everything under and beyond th sun, but per person it is still in the singular. It cannot divide into two simultaneous paths of equal focus. there can be multilayered thoughts with a similar core concept behind them, and these can be thought simultaneously as much as one can ante up and dole out shades of emotion and shades of thought, and so on. But I cannot think of a teleological explanation for all creation and with the same focus Apply myself to letters in the mail. There is a dominant voice, and the rest, the mundane voice, is seen thru that lens.
ya cant say yr colorblind then gripe about people hatin ya cuz u r white. contradiction of terms no? if you really didnt see color, ud say people hated yr ass because yr a damnfool entrylevel, grunt-ass lowbrow. not because of the color of ya skin, which ya recognized and put to the forefront in making that very statement.
feel like uh, a priori is not intuition alone. Intuition is a function of the mind, while a priori is, if I understand Kant correctly, a representation synthesized before there is an object of focus available for the senses to interpret, ie an essentially true conclusion drawn, that has no need for a combined manifold, as, Kant tells us, is offered by merely living in space and time: time to extend and progress from cause to effect to cause, and space to do it in. In other words, intuition is cognitive- psychological, and a priori, theoretical- logical.
Pathos is the one thing most divine about people, for i see that in my worst state I can still grieve for the savaging of life’s last hope, and be uplifted, feel tears, at least for a little blessed while. There is no state so low that does not inspire one to at least pity themselves, and feel the comfort of passions, however mistaken or wretched the person.
i feel that / Some subjects do not even allow to be proved through the scientific method, yet they are still issues of a scientific nature and not just mysticism. the line is very thin however, since usually these subjects devolve into mysticism. In fact, if science only worked with that which could be proven, from the outset or otherwise, we’d have a pretty limited roster of discoveries. Sometimes discoveries can be made along the way towards proving; sometimes, discoveries can be made, scientifically, thru means that for lack of anything better, are entirely theoretical. And sometimes the search is not to prove something true but to clarify something. Science is not out to be incontrovertible.
The man in mismatched sox inhaled not as deeply as he would have liked at such a crescendo, even if on the third listen in a row, then, looked up at the massive pure blue upwards, cloudless, felt likely to cry for joy, but in the end simply mouthed the words:
“I’m gonna die of loneliness, fo sho.”
So often doth trespass our intuition upon realms and pathways of a more intimate enumeration of cause and effect than could be available to any witness, and that is available only to the actioning of objects involved in the event seen and analyzed by what and who were no player.
The crisis paid goodbyes in the form of telling your ass off, is what he said. But we all knew he thought he was merely a parable often enough already. We didn’t listen to the crisis, deliberately shut our ears like boxing them very slowly ourselves before anyone else could. Later in the year many terrible events would occur that were the direct result of ignoring his words. But nobody came around to believing he did it. The crisis was way off teaching prophecies someplace probably foreign. But if I refuse to be confined to learning from my own folly I should at least give the follies of others a chance. Fatass karma, and more hell than handbasket.
What the crisis he said was
HEY YOU DONT WANT TO FACE JACK, FACE? TELL ME ABOUT HOW CRUELTY CAN BE ELEGANT AGAIN. YOU ARE FACING NO SUCH BURDEN OF SIMPLY LIVING. TELL ME WHAT HALLUCINATIONS ARE, YOU SWOLLEN, DYSPEPTIC SHIT.
And to this day All I remember is him Looking slain already Like he’d be on the slab In days Or even hundreds of years from then And it’d be how, uh, how He looked then Slamming the door While my sister and things Was gatherin they buckets for weeping later In that queer disease of spite where You grieve for the vanquished enemy.
all triumph is in some sense humorous, for in itself triumph is the opposite of tragedy. that is why the soldier laughs as he shoots at a retreating enemy. there is an element of rowdiness that is somewhat comedic, taken in itself.
Numbers are the only symbols that stand for what they are. In this way they are more like hieroglyphs
is bed porn a thing? it should definitely be a thing.
THIS LIFE IS FILLED WITH DARKNESS THIS DARKNESS IS SO LIGHT GOD IN HEAVEN QUA SKY MUST BEAT WINGS TO KEEP ON GROUND NOTHING MUCH IS EVER FOUND NOTHING MUCH IS EVER FOUND. No symbols where none intended etc etc
No art is permanent, in that its aims in being created do not last, do not translate between epochs. I will never experience Homer as one living in Ancient Greece. Have not closely read Homer, but when I do it will be as myself in my time, with all the sullying context of those years from then to now only left to unguide me.
Kierkegaard tricks you into thinking he knows his insanity is illogical, the side effect of writing his labyrinths. The frightening moment comes when you realize how fiercely logical his insanity seems to him, and how insane the World actually is, and you wonder if it is that you do not understand it or just do not accept it.
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SkyTalia Chapter 2/??
Chapter 2: A Face to a Name
Rating: T (maybe M later)
Warnings: Not many for this chapter
Summary: Son of some of the most prominent nobles in Solitude, Alfred soon finds himself stranded in the Reach. A mysterious and seemingly lonely hunter lends him a hand.
Chapter Summary:  Alfred had just used a simple spell to heal his leg, but his saviour doesn't take too kindly to magic users.
A/N: :’D I’ll try to make them longer next time, but I’m very busy rn. I’m moving in 9 days AHHHHHH
Chapter 1, Chapter 2
Dagger at his neck, Alfred could feel the regret seep into every crevice of his mind. The kindly stranger was breathing heavy behind him, almost as if he were in some kind of panic. Using magic so openly had been a bad idea, though Alfred should have expected that. No matter how many times he used this gods forsaken skill, something bad happened. Hopefully he could talk his way out of this.
“W-Woah there! I didn't mean to frighten you, it just hurt so damn much-" He was cut off as his back hit the rocky cavern wall.
Venomous green eyes bore into his very soul with a look of such scathing hatred, it honestly almost made Alfred soil himself with fear. Now that Alfred could get a better look at them, he noticed that the scars on this man's face were not only bear claws, but also faded frost burn scars across his right cheek and onto his neck.
Nervously, Alfred held his hands up. They were visibly shaking now, and he prayed to all the divines that this would not be his end. After a few tense moments of silence, the dagger was sheathed, but a strong arm kept him pinned to the wall.
“If I had known you were a mage-" The man began to speak, but Alfred quickly cut him off.
“I'm not! I'm not a mage! I-I only know a bit of basic healing magic!” He shouted in a panic, too scared to stop. “My nanny would teach Mattie and I all about restoration and alchemy and only one destructive spell of fire because she wanted us to be safe and if we ever needed healing or defense then we would have it but my mom found out and had her sent away and oh please in the name of Talos and the Eight, please don't kill me!”
Confusion was the first emotion Alfred recognized on the stranger's face. He could practically see the words being picked apart within the mind of this lone hunter. Well, Alfred assumed the man was a hunter. His leather armor and the pelts strapped to his belt gave a few clues, as well as a bow and dagger being the weapons of choice for him. Not to mention he lived alone out here. All were telltale signs of a poacher or hunter.
“Could you, uh, let me down?” Alfred asked weakly, trying his best to smile, even a little.
“If you're well enough to walk, then you can leave. Now get out.”
“Wait, what? But it's dark out now, can't I at least--"
“No. I don't want anything more to do with magic users of any kind, or anyone for that matter. Get. Out.”
Alfred stumbled as he was released from that tight grip, though he didn't dare leave the cave yet. He had to at least stall and try to convince this man that he could stay the night. Hopefully he could even get an escort to the nearest city, though he doubted that very much.
“Please just... just let me stay for tonight? I don't even know which direction to go from here and what if more Forsworn come? I couldn't defend myself against a toddler if I wanted to!”
He felt desperation leak into his voice, but there were no other options for him now. Going outside this cave on his own would almost certainly be suicide! Not to mention he'd used all of his magic energy on that healing spell. The wound had been large enough that it simply sucked away all of his magicka as it healed.
Tension filled the stale air of the cavern, and it almost became unbearable before a heavy sigh broke the silence.
“One night.”
Alfred could feel hope rise in his chest. “Oh Gods above bless you! I don't even think I could walk very far alone anyway... I didn't quite get it healed all the way through, but it was enough to stop any bleeding. I wish I knew--"
“If you keep talking, I will cut your tongue out and leave your for dead in the woods.” A sharp glare and those words had Alfred shutting up instantly.
For about five minutes anyway. He had always been a talker, especially when he was nervous or upset. Parents being dead and left for the wolves definitely fit under the upset category, and his nerves still hadn't quite settled from the threats before.
“So...” Alfred began as he took a seat by the fire, “You got a name? It's kinda hard to just keep referring to you as ‘Scary Hunter’ in my head.”
He got no reply at first. Then after about the tenth time asking, that very same dagger from before was being held up to Alfred's mouth.
“If I give you a name, will you stop talking?”
“I'd say that's fair.” Alfred gave a little nod of affirmation, eagerly awaiting the name of his terrifying saviour.
After another silence, Alfred was about to speak again, but he was cut off by the very name he'd waited to hear.
“Arthur.” Green eyes watched the fire, expression unreadable. “My name is Arthur. Now go to sleep and stop talking to me.”
Well, that was a start. Alfred watched as Arthur stoked the fire, even more questions popping into his mind. Sadly, he'd agreed to be quiet, so instead of asking anything else, he tried to get comfortable enough to sleep on the rocks.
There was always tomorrow.
When tomorrow did come, Alfred was slow to rise. The entirety of his sleep had been plagued by nightmares of the attack, leaving him mentally drained by morning. Those nightmares must have been heard by Arthur, because there was food waiting for him as he sat up, and even a dried bear pelt had been placed over him at some point in the night. Maybe this guy wasn't so bad, or maybe Alfred had just sounded super pathetic.
After eating what had been left for him, Alfred went to the entrance of the cave, where Arthur was using a stone to sharpen his tools. He was greeted with a glance and a grunt, Arthur not really being one for conversation once again. That was fine, Alfred could hold both ends on his own.
“Thanks, uh, for the fur and food. You’ve been real kind to me, and I wanna repay you but...” Alfred fiddled with his torn clothing. “I wanted to ask of you could help me out one last time.”
Arthur set down the rock, not even looking at Alfred as he answered. “No.”
“B-But I didn't even tell you what it was!”
“I don't care. I said no.”
“Please? My only family lives on the other side of Skyrim, and I have no way to get to him! Not alone!” Alfred wanted to kneel and beg, but he tried bargaining instead. “I could get you a new bow! Or, um... I could give you my inheritance!”
Arthur didn't even spare him a glance. “I live just fine out here, I don't need your money. However...”
That word had Alfred perking up, some hope rising in his chest. Was there something he could give Arthur? He would do almost anything!
“A new bow does sound tempting... if you could get a Daedric bow.” The smirk on Arthur's lips made it seem like he was teasing Alfred for fun.
“Deal.”
It was worth it already, just to see that smirk vanish in favor of surprise. Alfred knew he could afford it, though finding one on the market was the real challenge. Maybe his brother would know where to find one. In any case, he was willing to buy it from the damn thieves guild if it meant he would have an escort.
Arthur eyed Alfred suspiciously, most likely wondering if he was lying, and to be fair, that was one hell of a promised payment.
“You're serious?” Arthur stood and held the dagger in Alfred's face as a threat. “If I take you to your family, you will get me one?”
“I swear it to Talos.” Alfred replied easily, a smile growing on his face. “I'll get you one soon after you take me to Winterhold.”
“Winterhold..? Bloody hell, that really is the other side of the map... and full of mages.” Alfred watched Arthur debate with himself.
“Hey, they aren't so bad over there... at least they have rules. I think.” He wasn't entirely sure, but Matthew would definitely make some if there weren't many.
Eventually, Alfred heard a resigned sigh leave Arthur's lips, and he knew he had won the man over. Hopefully things would keep looking up like this for him. He needed some good luck, especially after he'd felt abandoned by the very gods he believed in.
“Alright, you're just lucky I need to travel to that end of Skyrim anyway. I'll take you. That bow had better be in my hands fast, too.” Arthur stomped out of the cavern. “Gather whatever you feel you may need, we leave at dawn tomorrow.”
With that, Arthur vanished into the woods, likely going to hunt for their dinner. Alfred was left at the cave, though he felt fairly safe in the area. Taking that advice to heart, he strayed outside just a but to look for ingredients that would help them on their journey.
Hopefully his troubles were over for now.
Index of lore
Daedric: Something made by/belonging to Daedra.
Daedra: The malevolent opposites of the Gods, there are 17 Daedric Princes, genderless beings that reside in the realm of Oblivion. (they can take on either a male, female, animal, demonic, or even a mix of all forms when they show themselves to mortals) The Princes rule over the hoards of lesser Daedra and enjoy meddling in the affairs of mortals for their amusement.
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l0chn3ss · 6 years
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questions with answers
Written for @souleaterpolyamweek Soul Eater Polyamory Week 2018 Day 5- Closer
Black Star, Death the Kid, Tsubaki Nakatsukasa | Day 5 Read on FFNET or AO3
There were always rumors circulating around Black Star. Some were probably true, others were maybe half lies. But one thing's for certain: the subject himself was complete and utter shit at confirming and debunking them.
Usually, it's always easier for a person to go to the source to clear up any confusion, a person may think. In fact, that was how many of Black Star's classmates treated some rumors at first. He was always eager to overshare or to speak about some outlandish adventure that he wanted to embark on. It should have been a piece of cake for them to talk to someone as honest and unshy as he, and yet there they stood, more irritated than ever.
He answered with unclear confirmation, following questions with impressed nods and "sure" or "I guess, yeah." Those words and actions solved nothing, and yet Black Star always left with a pleased smile, as if he had contributed something else to the grander scheme of things. If anyone tried to continue the conversation, then he would look back to them, and then say, "What else ya need?"
Shut down.
So, of course, people were always quick to turn to his closest companions for answers. They sought them out, waiting for the rare occasion that Black Star wasn't around to catch them. Unfortunately, those friends of his were as unhelpful as him.
Maka, with the sweetest of smiles, said, "Just ask him yourself! Let's call him over. I'll help you. Go on." She tried so hard to be the opposite of a problem, yet usually became the cause of it- bless her heart.
Kilik treated everything as a joke, slapping his knee with the most wild of rumors. "Gods, I wouldn't put it past him to do that!" he laughed, then added onto the pile of rumors to clear. "Listen, listen, ok? I heard…"
Jackie reprimanded people for spreading rumors, so it backfired to ask her for the truth.
It was too hard to speak with Patty. With her cryptic tongue and looming, glaring sister, she was the wild card. "Stockholm Syndrome," she said, with the utmost confidence. "Gotta be. It's his age, right sissy?"
Liz often cut in. "I swear, if you talk about Black Star's puberty one more time, I'll shoot everyone in this room, and then myself."
The last on the list, though for a good reason, was Soul. No one dared to approach him for answers, just don't bother. It wasn't because he was intimidating or anything of the sort; it was because he was never seen alone. So asking him would ultimately result in him directing the question to the person with him.
And if that person were Maka, then it was better that they didn't ask at all.
Instead of playing a game of chase with the eccentric elite, people generally roped new students or naive underclassmen to find out answers for them. Those young ones' spirits weren't broken yet and so were the perfect mouse to throw into the trap. If they got answers, then they would be the lucky ones.
Black Star was approached by two students one day, wide eyed and in awe.
"You're… The Black Star?"
He wasted no time, standing up straighter and puffing out his chest. "The one and only. Stand back, don't want your eyes to be blinded by these guns," he grunted, flexing a little extra.
"You're disgusting," Kim said, leaving for the cafeteria without him.
People were still filing out of the classroom, and so the two kids and Black Star stepped to the side to talk.
"So, what can I do ya for?"
"We just had some questions about you, 'cause no one knows or something."
He rubbed his nose, "Yeah, well, only I would know me best."
They ooed and awed.
Poor chumps.
"Then you'll answer for us?"
"Guess I'll have to."
"Okay, so, do you have a boyfriend or a girlfriend?" one of them giggled.
"Yeah."
"Cool! A boyfriend or girlfriend?"
"That's right."
"Uh, so, you're definitely dating someone… huh?"
"Yeah, buddy. They're super great."
"... And they are…?"
Black Star cocked his head to the side, "... pretty cool?"
The other kid couldn't contain their curiosity and threw their entire game plan into wack. "So is it Tsubaki or is it Death the Kid?" they blurted.
Their friend gasped, but Black Star wasn't fazed. He merely smiled and answered simply.
"Yeah! So you know!"
The both of them slapped their foreheads, and once they realized that he wasn't going to say anything that they could understand, they both decided to leave in defeat. They thanked Black Star for his time weakly, and he patted the both of them on the head despite them being taller.
"Train hard," he said, giving a thumbs up.
The students scurried away quickly.
"Strange youth," Black Star said to no one in particular.
But another set of people heard him. They finally exited the classroom together and looked at the other two students' retreating form.
"I thought you answered them pretty well," Tsubaki smiled, reaching to take his hand. "But you probably should have said it in a complete sentence. Otherwise, people will misunderstand again."
"Try harder," Kid added, taking Black Star's other hand.
"Yeah, yeah," he said, squeezing both lightly. "Can we go eat now? There's a ramen special today at the cafeteria."
He walked a little ahead of the other two, swinging their arms in an alternating pattern. While other people stared, Black Star wondered how people managed to not get it, especially when he answered so directly.
Some people, man.
Can't please 'em.
Prompt-
Someone: Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Me: Yes! But wait, there's more!
Thank you to Rebornfromash for betaing!
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27.“I don’t want to feel like this tomorrow.”-silverflint
For you @ellelan! Sorry it took me a while. 💕 I wrote you some illness hurt/comfort with just a hint of Silvermadi (and maybe an implication of future Silverflintmadi, idk). I hope you enjoy!
Flint is alone in his room on the island at dusk when Madi comes through the open door with a look of alarm on her face.
“It’s John,” she says, approaching the chair he’s sitting in, her feet soundless on the wood floor. “He’s taken ill with a fever. I’ve done what I can to make him comfortable, but he keeps calling your name.”
Flint’s up from his chair as soon as she says Silver’s name. He follows her to Silver’s room, frowning when she pushes open the door. The room is warm, almost unbearably so, and the air is thick with a sweet, stomach-turning sort of smell.
“His leg?” Flint asks Madi, and she nods, her brow creasing with worry.
“He won’t let me look at it, I think he’s afraid I’ll— he’s concerned about what I might think of it,” she says, standing at the side of Silver’s bed opposite Flint and stroking Silver’s sweaty hair back from his forehead. His eyes are shut and his teeth clenched, his body visibly drawn tight with pain. He’s got only a sheet draped over his nude form, but he’s sweating profusely regardless. When Flint touches his forehead, it’s burning.
“John. Can you hear me?” he asks, pouring him a cup of water from the pitcher nearby and holding it to his dry, cracked lips. “Drink.”
Silver opens his eyes for a moment and takes a reluctant sip, then turns his head away. “James,” he rasps. “Please.”
“Please what?” Flint asks, but Silver only groans in response and shifts restlessly in the bed. His back arches and he clenches his jaws with such ferocity, Flint has the urge to put something soft in his mouth and spare his poor teeth.
“He keeps having fits like that,” Madi says softly, taking a damp rag from the nightstand and swabbing Silver’s chest and throat with it. “You don’t think he’ll...?” she asks Flint, her luminous dark eyes boring holes into him.
“I don’t know,” Flint says honestly, miserably. Silver can’t just die - he’s lived through so much, such unbearable things he won’t speak of them, not even to Flint. This can’t be the end of him; he can’t simply shuffle off this mortal coil bested by a fever of all things. Resolved, Flint pulls a chair up to the side of Silver’s bed while Madi mirrors him on the other side. They sit looking at each other over Silver’s bare, heaving torso.
“Will he permit you to touch his leg? I have something that might help his sickness, but in this state he won’t so much as let me pull the sheet away,” Madi says. Flint thinks she mutters ‘stubborn ass’ under her breath and it makes him smile a little in spite of everything.
“I can try,” he says. He reaches for the sheet and starts to slowly move it down, but a hot, clammy hand on his wrist stays him. “It’s me, John. I need to see your leg so that I might help you. I’ve done this before, remember?” he murmurs in his most soothing tone. The hand recedes reluctantly, and Flint pulls the sheet out of the way to reveal Silver’s inflamed leg. It’s red and shining at the blunted end, and it feels warmer than the rest of Silver’s body when he touches it lightly. He looks up at Madi and she reaches across the bed to hand him a small wooden bowl with something thick and dark in it.
“Spread this on his skin. It will help draw out the infection,” she directs him, and he does as she says, applying the poultice to Silver’s scarred, angry stump. Silver flinches every time Flint makes contact with his skin but doesn’t yell or cry in pain, just hisses through his gritted teeth. Bless him.
“Now what?” Flint murmurs when he’s done as Madi instructed, eyeing Silver’s helpless, prone form. He’s shivering and sweating by turns now, muttering curses under his breath.
“If it works the way it should, his fever will break by morning. If not…” Madi trails off and locks eyes with Flint again.
He understands.
She takes Silver’s right hand in both her own, and after only a moment of hesitation Flint takes his left. Silver stirs, his blue eyes opening to narrow, hazy slits.
“I don’t want to feel like this tomorrow,” Silver whimpers, gripping Flint’s hand tight while his body shakes. Flint reaches out with the other hand to pull the sheet back up over Silver, covering him so that he might not feel so chilled. “I'd rather die. It hurts,” Silver chokes out as his fingernails bite into Flint’s palm. “I can feel them taking my leg again. God, James, help me, please,” he whispers urgently, trembling, curling in on himself.
Then he lets go of Madi’s hand and rolls toward Flint, eyes shut against the pain, blindly reaching for him. Flint doesn’t even think about it, just climbs into the narrow bed with Silver and takes him in his arms, Silver’s fevered brow tucked in the space between Flint’s neck and shoulder. One of his hot hands grips the front of Flint’s shirt and the other rests limply in his lap. Flint’s never known Silver to cling so, even in their most intimate moments, but he holds him close, trying to give him what he needs.
Slowly, Silver calms, and his erratic breathing gradually evens out. He’s fallen asleep, Flint realizes, cradled in his arms.
“He’s sleeping,” he whispers to Madi, looking at her over Silver’s lank curls in the dying light of the nearby lantern. She smiles at him wearily and stands from her chair, turning to leave. Flint is about to ask if she doesn’t want to stay, perhaps take his place in Silver’s bed, when she pauses by the door, one elegant hand resting on the frame. She drums her fingers there for a moment, like she’s considering her words carefully.
“I trust you,” she says quietly, and he knows it’s part reassurance, part pointed reminder - she’s choosing to trust him and could also choose not to, of her own volition, at any time. It’s a powerful thing to have, her trust. He won’t take it for granted.
“Thank you,” he says, and then she’s gone into the warm moonlit night, closing the door softly behind herself.
He dozes off with Silver’s damp, shivering body in his arms, hoping beyond hope that this man’s indefatigable stubbornness is enough to see him through another crisis and save his life yet again.
When he wakes, his internal clock tells him it’s close to dawn. A strong, warm breeze is howling outside, and the occasional squall of tropical rain batters the front door of Silver’s room. In his arms, Silver sleeps on unperturbed, clinging like a limpet and drooling on Flint’s shoulder. He feels less feverish, and when Flint lifts the sheet to peer at his leg, he can see that the swelling is much reduced and the skin underneath the poultice is slowly returning to its normal hue.
He’s about to ease himself away from Silver and out of the bed when the door creaks slowly open. It’s Madi, her hair loose, silhouetted by the rising sun like a benevolent goddess.
“How is he?” she whispers, drawing close on bare feet. She touches Silver’s forehead with the back of her hand and looks at Flint, visibly hopeful. “His fever’s broken.”
“I think he’s on the mend,” Flint agrees. Silver stirs in his arms then, opening his eyes and peering curiously at Madi, then at Flint, then beaming like he can’t quite believe his luck. Just as soon as the wide, boyish smile appears, it is gone, replaced by a more typical John Silver smirk.
“What’s happened here? What’s on my leg, and why am I naked? James, you know that you only need ask me if—”
“Enough,” Flint interrupts him, feeling such incredible relief at Silver’s overnight recovery that he doesn’t even mind too much his attempt at a witty remark. “Rest. You’ve been through an ordeal.”
“I’m perfectly well,” Silver argues goodnaturedly, then reaches for Madi, resting a hand on the back of her neck and drawing her down into a sweet, thorough kiss that makes Flint’s cheeks flush. “See?” Silver purrs when he pulls away, sprawling back against Flint with a contented sigh.
“Such a spoiled boy, to have not one but two people who care for him so,” Madi murmurs affectionately, settling herself on the bed next to Silver and smiling over his head at Flint.
“Lucky,” Silver corrects her softly, taking Flint’s hand in his own and twisting to look at him, the expression on his face stirring something in Flint that he hasn’t felt in years. “Not spoiled, but incredibly lucky.”
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01/04/2018 DAB Transcript
Genesis 8:1-10:32, Matthew 4:12-25, Psalms 4:1-8, Proverbs 1:20-23
Today is January 4th. Welcome to the Daily Audio Bible. I am Brian and it's great to be here with you today as we move through our first week together this year. And as you can probably see, the Bible launches us like a rocket, like, we just take off, and there’s so many interesting things going on. And, so I'm excited. I'm excited about today, I'm excited about this first week, and I'm excited about this year. So, we’ll pick up where we left off yesterday and read Genesis chapters 8 through 10. And we’re reading from the New International Version this week.
Proverbs:
Okay. So, we've come to our reading from Proverbs today. And, true to what we been doing the last couple of days, we've been just doing a little bit of an overview of what the book is that we’re reading and where it comes from. And so, we did that with Genesis, we did that with Matthew, we did that with Psalms yesterday. And, so, today, Proverbs. And I’ve mentioned this, Proverbs is an invaluable book of practical wisdom. In the structure of the Old Testament, Proverbs is the main book in what is called the collection of wisdom literature. The others being, Ecclesiastes, the book of Job, and part of the Psalms. And these portions of Scripture are called wisdom literature because they're more intended to speak a direct lesson, rather than to be a narrative where the reader follows a story and then gleans meaning from it. The wisdom literature, or the books of wisdom, speak directly what they are trying to teach. So, most of the Proverbs are attributed to the great wise man, King Solomon, although there are a couple of other characters involved that lend their wisdom to the Proverbs. It seems that the Proverbs may have been collected all along, but weren't really put into a collection until the time of around King Hezekiah. And most biblical scholars think that some of the Proverbs could predate Solomon and were a series of oral traditions and oral wisdom that had been handed down from generation to generation and, finally, placed into the collection of Proverbs. And the Proverbs all address the human experience and transfer wisdom that has stood the test of time to what we, as people, experience both with each other, and with God, and inside of ourselves. And it gives us the ultimate roadmap to life. It's the ultimate book of wisdom, the greatest collection of wisdom that mankind has. Proverbs tells us, whatever you do, get wisdom because wisdom is more valuable than anything else. If you have wisdom everything else can be achieved. And the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. And, so, our reading from Proverbs today will be from the first chapter, versus 20 through 23.
Prayer:
Thank You Father for Your word and all of its facets and nuances and for the way it speaks so relevantly into our lives and our stories. And, even though we’re only four days into this year, Your word feels so safe and so familiar, and we grant it access to our hearts and invite Your Holy Spirit to speak through Your word into our lives as we take a step forward every day through the scriptures. Come, Holy Spirit. We pray in Jesus’ name. Amen.
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Community Prayer and Praise:
Hi family. This is His little Cherri from Canada and I’m really enjoying Brian read the last of Revelations. Finally, the happily ever after that is coming for us. But as I’ve been thinking about how wonderful it would be to finally experience complete shalom, it occurs to me that this life here and now is my only chance to love God in the middle of a mess. Because when I'm in heaven, I’ll see Him as He is. I’ll love Him as He loves me. But it will be too late then to offer Him what I can give Him now, which is to worship Him, thwarts and all, to trust Him before I’m healed, to come to Him even in the middle of my addictions. And I know that we’re in the process of being saved. We do experience redemption hear and now, but none of us are perfect yet. I know I'm not. And so many times I feel that my feeble attempts to love and obey God must just be a joke to Him. But, actually, I think it's the exact opposite. I think He must treasure every offering that I bring, weak and broken as it is, because it’s a rare and precious thing to Him. So, family I just wanted to remind us that we don't have to wait to come to God until we get our act together. Let’s run to Him now in the middle of our mess because this is our chance to give Him something we can only give Him now, our brokenness. God bless you family.
Hey family. This is Jordan from Michigan. December 31st, __ the end of another year. This is the second time I’m finishing the Daily Audio Bible and the second time that I’ve read the Bible because of the Holy Spirit and by God’s providence finding the Daily Audio Bible. And, so, I’m just so grateful for all of you and all your prayers that you’ve been praying for me over the past couple of years. And it’s really made such a huge difference. And, if I could, I would like to request that you would just pray for me for the next year that God would transform my teaching. This is the first year that I'm ever going to be in the same job for a whole year. And I’m a teacher. And I really just need…I really need the guidance of God because I am really struggling with that. So, thank you and happy New Year. Love you guys. Bye.
Hello Daily Audio Bible family. This is John calling from Bethlehem, Pennsylvania. It is the 31st day of December 2017, the final day of December 2017, and I just got through listening to the 31st of December program and finishing up the last transcript for the program of the year. And I couldn’t make the call here right away because I was just crying…just tears of absolute joy over being able to get here…not that though…but it was just being here with all of you and getting to know you. So, Brian, thank you, thank you, thank you so much for your dedication and commitment and loyalty and integrity and truth and for everything you do in your ministry here in sharing the word of God. Thank you to the family, the Daily Audio Bible family and your family, Brian. You folks are amazing. This community has changed my life forever and I know it’s doing work in your hearts as well as it’s done in mine. So, I can’t thank you all enough. You’ve been such an inspiration and a blessing to me. I’ve cried with you, I’ve laughed with you. And I just want to leave Brian with the same words that he left us this morning. May the Lord bless you and keep you. May He make his face to shine upon you, Brian, and be gracious to you. May He lift up his countenance on you and give you peace. May the strength of God go with you. May the wisdom of God instruct you. May the hand of God protect you. May the word of God direct you. May you be sealed in Christ this day and forevermore. Amen. And God bless you. We’ll see you next year guys.
Hi family. This is Purely Pampered of Maine. I’m calling in for prayer requests for a few of you that I continue to pray for regularly but haven’t heard from in a long time, some of you, years. If you’re still listening, will you call in and give us an update as we continue to pray for you? Marie with your daughter, Elizabeth Joy, and your now toddler, how are you doing? I’m praying for you. Valerie, you used to call in regularly for you and your husbands physical health and for the situation where you were being taken advantage of by your grandchildren. You’re in my prayers. Nana Jones, I’m still prying for you, for your daughter Tiffany, who was an exotic dancer and your now, must be, eight-year old grandchild. Crystal, you had seven children and you contemplated abortion or adoption for your eighth. But you decided to keep that baby who now must be a preschooler. You’re in my prayers. And Kevin of California and your three sons, Levi, Moses, and Takoa that you hadn’t seen in two years. Now it might be close to three. I’m praying for you all. Oh, Creator and Sustainer of all, I lift up each of these brothers and sisters in their situations to You. I pray for healing, for restoration, and for Your supernatural peace that goes deeper than their painful situations. Fill each of them with hope Lord. I lift them up to You. Amen. Love you family. Bye for now.
Good evening. It’s Beloved for Him from Gloucester in the UK and it is Sunday the 31st of December 2017. Just going to read a couple of words from Hebrews that I got read at my church today. Keep your life free from love of money and be content with what you have. For He has said, I will never leave you nor forsake you. So, we can confidently say, the Lord is my helper, I will not fear. What can man do to me? Remember your leaders, those who spoke to you the word of God. Consider the outcome of their way of life and imitate their faith. Jesus Christ the same yesterday, today, and forever. And that’s from Hebrews 13. Yes, you know, the old year is done. The new year is coming. And I just wanted to take a few to say thank you for all of your prayers, love, and support this year and bring on the next year. And just a reminder for us to pray for our leaders. Pray for Brian and those involved behind the scenes in the Daily Audio Bible. But also pray for our local churches as well, that they’ll be encouraged. So, I’m just going to pray now. Father God, thank You so much for what You’ve done for our lives in 2017. Thank You so much for placing this burden on Brian to read the word…and it’s like 12 years that he’s finished Lord and that is amazing. Father God, but we’re not focusing on what’s happened Lord. We’re looking ahead. Lord, thank You so much for 2018 and this new app that we have and I Pray Lord that You be bringing people to find the app and find the podcast and to get through the Bible and join us. Lord, help us spread the message of Daily Audio Bible and how important it is to be reading Your word, but also help people find it Lord. Bless this coming year Lord. In Jesus name. Amen.
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Match Made in Heaven (Wonwoo x Reader)
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Prompt/ask: Could I have a scenario where SEVENTEEN's Wonwoo and you like each other and pretty much everyone knows but the two of you so the other boys plan to get you two together? Thanks! (:
Fandom: SEVENTEEN
Genre: Fluff
Pairing: Wonwoo x Reader (female)
Warnings: danger? I guess, but other than that, none!
Word Count: 5494 (got a bit carried away lol)
Authors note: Ahh thank you so much for the request! My first one! And for my bias from Seventeen, no less! I really hope you enjoy this ^^ I got a bit carried away writing this, but I hope you like it. Feedback is appreciated, so don’t be afraid to talk to us! This is quite long so it’s under the cut!
When you thought of Wonwoo, the prominent emotion you feel is happiness. A happiness that can described in many different ways: respect, fondness, adoration, giddiness, love. There was not one thing you didn’t love about Wonwoo. Whether it was his seemingly cold exterior that was a façade to the warm-hearted individual he really was, the stony resting face he wore that turned into the most beautiful nose crinkling smile you’ve ever seen, or even his calm and collected nature that switched to the dorky personality when he was having fun, you knew you loved every bit of him. His good looks, adorable and goofy disposition, his love for reading, and his passion for music and writing, there was simply nothing to not like about Jeon Wonwoo.
Unbeknownst to you, Wonwoo felt the same way about you. The boy who prefers to keep to himself can’t help but be drawn to you when you’re in the same room, his cool façade crumbling when speaking to you. He feels dull in comparison to your bright and beautiful exterior, feels like he shouldn’t even have the chance to speak with you because you’re just so amazing, so perfect, so you. Whatever he did in his past life certainly payed off in this one, blessed to know you and see you and love you. And he does, oh god, he does. There’s no controlling the swarm of butterflies in his stomach when you laugh, the redness of his cheeks when you lock eyes with him from across the room, the sweaty palms when you talk and joke with him. You fit him perfectly, like a puzzle piece he didn’t know he needed. He finds he needs you like the air he breathes, and you need him like a plant needs light.
A match made in heaven, isn’t it? Two individuals who adore and love each and every perfection and flaw of the other. One can find no better pair to be together.
Well, it would be a match made in heaven, if you were actually together. The two of you had been dancing around each other for years, since you were introduced to the rest of the members by your childhood friend Seungkwan when they had still been trainees. It had practically been love at first sight, and since then, your friendship had blossomed and you became closer than ever, knowing the ins and outs of one another better than your own. The two of you are oblivious to your feelings with each other, too afraid to make a move for fear of ruining a sacred friendship due to one stupid move. So, for years, longing glances tossed across rooms, horrible pining and denial about feelings was what both of you dealt with.
Everyone else, however, are completely aware of the blatant feelings you both have for one another, and they’re sick of it. Especially, Lee Jihoon.
He loves the both of you with all his heart, even if he’d never admit it, and just wants the best for both of you. The two of you are like family to him. He treats you like a sister. But he’s sick of watching all this stupid, lovey dovey pining. Makes him sick, to be honest. Which is why he calls the rest of the members with the help of Seungkwan (a fellow sufferer who just wants to see his closest friend happy with another one of his friends) to the living area of their dorm, Wonwoo conveniently hanging out with you (as he usually does on Friday nights, watching movies and talking) and was out of the dorm while Jihoon addressed the other boys.
“Yah, why are we all here? I was about to go for my shower,” Hoshi complains, giving Jihoon a pout. Jihoon rolls his eyes and glances at Seungkwan sitting beside him.
“Well, we’re here to talk about Wonwoo,” Seungkwan supplies, staring at each of the boys in turn. Joshua perks up at this.
“What? Did something happen to him? Is he ok?” Joshua fires off question after question, concerned for the silent boy. The other boys also look concerned for their bandmate, exchanging glances and biting lips.
“Well, yes. There’s no easy way to say this, but something is wrong with Wonwoo. He’s sick,” Seungkwan replies, brows furrowed and a devastated look on his face. The group panics, some rising to their feet and pulling out their phones, ready to contact Wonwoo and freak out. They stop, however, when Jihoon gives Seungkwan a shove that topples the boy over from his seated position on the floor and shoots him a glare. Seungkwan straightens, sighs, and turns back to the boys.
“Wonwoo is sick, He’s been bitten by the lovebug. For a few years, actually.”
A chorus of shouts and groans fill the room as the band members shout at Seungkwan, who grins in response.
“Why do you have to be so dramatic?” Vernon groans, throwing a pillow at Seungkwan’s head.
“Yeah, we were really worried! Don’t do that again,” Seungcheol warns.
“Alright, alright, everyone shut up! Now, we brought you here today, because I want something done about Wonwoo and Y/N. It’s been years, this has gone on for too long. They need a push, and we’re going to help them,” Jihoon explains, his intentions clear with the group now.
“Aww, how sweet Jihoon. I never took you to be so selfless,” Minghao croons, flashing a smirk at Jihoon, who returns it with a scowl.
“I’m just tired of looking at the puppy dog eyes they get every time they even think about each other. They need to get together, for my sanity and theirs.”
“I agree,” Jeonghan pipes up, “they clearly have feelings for each other, but they’re too scared to do anything. We need to help them.”
“So, how are we going to do this? Do we lock them in a bedroom together with candles and rose petals and let fate do the rest?” Jun wiggles his eyebrows, ready to say more but was cut off by Mingyu ‘s outraged cry.
“No! We are not corrupting Wonwoo like that! He’s too pure!” Mingyu cries, feeling anxious to protect his friend’s dignity for a bit longer.
“So, what’s the plan? How are we gonna get them together?” Seokmin beams, excited to be helping young love blossom.
“Well, we just wanted to bring up the idea to everyone and get everyone’s input so far. Any ideas?” Jihoon asks, eyes expectant as he scans the group.
A few ridiculous ideas were thrown out (“no, Vernon, you can’t rap about their love to them. And no, Hoshi, you can’t dance about their love either. Those are just weird.”), but none of them were working so far.
Chan, who has been quiet since everyone was gathered in living area, clears his throat, everyone turning to look at him.
“Uhm…why don’t you invite her to watch us during dance practice?”
He glances around wearily at the boys, gaining confused and deadpans stares from them.
“But Y/N comes to our, dance practices a lot. How would this be any different?” Mingyu inquires.
“Well, the rest of us could leave early, and let them have some alone time, give them some space to confess.” Chan replies.
It’s silent for a beat, and then “Yeah! We can lock them in so they have to confess to each other, or we won’t let them out! Good idea, Chan!”, that was Seokmin, and that wasn’t what Chan intended at all.
“Wait, no. That’s not what I meant,” but poor Chans attempts at rectifying the situation were futile, as surprisingly everyone agreed to this stupid idea, claiming it was ‘fool proof’, and ‘sure to work’.
Oh, how wrong they were.
-
The day started like any other. It was a Monday, you dragged yourself out of bed to head to your morning classes in college, did some work when you went home and were about to settle down for a bit of rest when around 3pm you received a text from Seungkwan, inviting you to attend another one of their dance practices. Not one to pass up on watching their dance practices (or seeing Wonwoo), you quickly sent a text back agreeing to come and got ready, oblivious to the scheming happening in the studio.
Wonwoo could tell something was off, he wasn’t stupid. Mingyu avoiding eye contact, sly smiles from the china line and Vernon stuttering whenever he spoke to him was a definite tip off if he didn’t feel like something was up to begin with. A smile too innocent directed at him from Seungkwan really set him off, and as he was about to ask what was wrong, you walked in the door with Jeonghan at your side and his throat closed up. God, you were just so beautiful. Great, now he was going to be distracted with you here during his practice and probably fall on his ass. Again. He supposes he could live with it like the last time it happened. Anything to have you fawning over him and giggling softly at his clumsiness again.
Your eyes searched the crowd of boys, each greeting you with a smile or a hug, when your eyes found his, and your heart burst. Seeing him just brightens up your day. He sends you a smile, the prettiest one, and you return it in kind, moving to settle by the side so you can watch the boys safely.
After a few dances, the boys are well and truly sweaty and exhausted. Some start to migrate out of the room, a few stragglers remaining. Wonwoo walks over to you and grins, moving to give you a hug but you step back, aware of the state he’s in.
“You’re sweating buckets, Woo, I’m not going near you,” you laugh, watching as he narrows his eyes and steps closer. You immediately catch on to his challenge and run towards the opposite end of the studio, away from the door, as Wonwoo follows and tries to catch you. You both don’t notice the other members left in the room make their quick escape out of the studio, leaving you and Wonwoo alone. You’re too busy laughing and running away.
Wonwoo catches up to you, wrapping you up in his arms and rubbing his sweaty head against yours, laughing amiably as he does. You squeal and try to escape, longing for his arms to be wrapped around you in a different, dryer, situation.
“Wonwoo, let go! You smell,” you laugh, trying to push out of his hold. He releases soon, when he realises the two of you are alone. He looks around in bewilderment.
“Wow. They left fast,” he muses out loud, walking towards his stuff to pack up. “Want to grab some food? My treat, I’m starving.”
“Well, since it’s your treat I guess I’ll come. I’m not one to pass up free food,” you grin cheekily, and Wonwoo scoffs.
Walking towards the door, Wonwoo puts his hand on the knob, ready to pull when he encounters a problem. It doesn’t budge. He frowns in confusion.
“Everything ok there? I can feel myself fading away from the hunger. Or maybe it’s your smell. Either way, I’m dying,” you speak from behind him.
“Uhm,” he begins, “the door won’t open.”
“What?” You push past him, reaching for the handle yourself and pulling. Nothing. What the hell is wrong with the door?  
Meanwhile, on the other side, the rest of the band are crowding around the door, craning their ears to try and hear what’s going on inside. They’re hopeful for proclamations of love. Unfortunately, that’s not what’s happening at the moment.
“I can’t hear anything!” Jun exclaims, elbowing Mingyu to get closer to the door.
“Well if you shut up, maybe we could hear something!” Jihoon snapped back at him, nearly squished against the door.
Chan stands to the side with Joshua, both feeling apprehensive about the plan now that it’s actually happening.
“Hey, uh, maybe we should unlock the door and leave. I don’t think this is going to work, it just seems really dumb now,” Joshua tries to reason with the group, but his hopes are dashed.
“Nah, it’ll work! It’s simple, they’ve no choice but to confess now! They can thank us later,” Hoshi replies, aiming to slip in between Seungcheol and Minghao.
Back on your side, Wonwoo is trying to calm you down.
“Oh god, Woo, I had so much to live for. I’m too young to die. I was gonna buy a goldfish this week and try to be a responsible person. I’ll never see the light of day again. I’m going to die in this sweaty, smelly practice room, aren’t I? I can already see the headlines. ‘Girl dies in dance studio, tragic, had no achievements. Leaves behind no legacy.’”
Wonwoo has his hand on your back, rubbing up and down in soothing motions while simultaneously trying to rip the door open and stop you from breaking down.
“Y/N, please calm down, the doors probably just jammed. I’ll get it open for us, ok? Just, deep breaths for me,” Wonwoo replies to your babbling. “Also, you are a responsible person, and you do have achievements, ok? So, don’t sell yourself short. You’re amazing.”
At this, you look up from where your head had taken refuge in your hands, and meet Wonwoo’s eyes. The two of you stare at each other with shy smiles before you’re interrupted by a thud on the other side of them door, both of your eyes snapping towards the sound at once.
Wonwoo clears his throat. “Hey, maybe the guys are outside. Hey! Can anyone hear us? The door is locked, or something. We can’t get out!”
On the other side, Seungkwan is clutching his forehead in pain.
“Ow! What the hell, Seokmin?” he glares at said boy, who accidentally pushed him face first into the door.
“Sorry, Kwan, I just can’t hear anything,” he grins guiltily.
“Yeah, well, watch it. Or else I’ll-“
“Shut up, I hear something!” Minghao exclaims, and all falls silent as they hear a muffled voice through the door.
“…the boat is docked?” Hoshi asks, relaying what he heard to the other boys. Suddenly, he gasps, “he’s taking her on a BOAT?!”
Seungcheol whistles. “Wow. He works fast. Who knew he was smooth?”
Jeonghan looks dubious. “Uh, I don’t think that’s what he said, to be honest. Where would he get a boat?” he looks around, and no one can give him answer. “Wait, I think I hear more.”
A beat of silence, and then-
“…we’ll plant it out?” Vernon wonders, scratching his head. “Plant out what?”
“The seeds of love!”
“Shut up, Hoshi,” Jihoon says, exasperated.
Chan talks above the rest of the boys’ bickering, garnering their attention.
“I think we should let them out now. They’re probably freaked out right now.”
Joshua agrees. “Yeah, I don’t think this was the best way to get them to confess. And… isn’t Y/N a bit of a panicker? She could be seriously scared in there!”
All at once, the boys’ eyes go as wide as saucers, realisation dawning on each of the members faces before they scramble to open the door up, desperate to save you from breaking down.
However, on your side, you just so happen to be pulling furiously on the knob.
“God! Just open already! I want to leave!”, you whine, pulling harder at the door.
A faint clicking sound can be heard, along with shuffling. Wonwoo picks up on it, and moves to stop you, but he’s too late.
“Uh, Y/n-“
BANG
The door was opened, at least. Shame that hit you full force in the face, knocking you backwards onto your butt.
Wonwoo is quick to rush to your side, and the other boys file in the door, faces plastered in shock and guilt.
“Oh my god, are you ok? Can you see me? God, what if we need to bring her to the hospital?” Wonwoo panics uncharacteristically, concerned for your wellbeing after what just happened.
“Oh my gosh, Y/N, we’re so sorry, we didn’t think you were on the other side!”, Hoshi apologises, and the rest murmur in agreement, looking shame-faced for the trouble the caused. You vaguely hear someone say to get an ice pack, but everything is hazy to you right now. This hurts so much.
You looked up with a groan. “This really hurts. Does it look bad?”
Some members let out horrified gasps before being promptly smacked and glared at by Jihoon.
“Oh, uh, no Y/N, it doesn’t look bad at all,” Mingyu laughs uneasily, “that big red mark on the side of your face will be gone in no time!”
You give an alarmed sound at that, and cover your face with your hands once more.
Wonwoo shoots a deadly glare at the group, causing their blood to go cold. He accepts the ice pack that Chan hands him and places it gently on your face, careful to not press too hard.
“C’mon, let’s get you home. I’ll order some food for us, ok?”
You nod, and with his help, you stand and walk out of the room after grabbing your things, Wonwoo’s arms wrapped around your form. He points one last stare at the group before leaving with you.
“Well, that failed,” Vernon announces, and everyone collectively groans.
-
It’s a few days after the ‘Door Disaster’, as Minghao put it and the guys are gathered in the living area of their dorm once again. After sending various texts with apologies and chocolates to make you feel better, you told the boys that you were cool with what happened. It was just an accident anyway, so you weren’t worked up about it. Pity about the giant bruise on your face.
Wonwoo has barely left your side since the accident, doting on you and your injury as if you were a child. While bothered at the babying, you certainly weren’t going to complain about all the attention he’s giving you, spending nearly every waking moment he can with you.
The boys apologised profusely to Wonwoo, who just ignored them and warned them to be more careful next time.
Which brings them to their current position, deciding what ‘Plan B’ was going to be.
“Look, I don’t think we should try anything anymore. Half of Y/N’s face is purple, thanks to us. Maybe we should just call it quits and let them sort things out themselves,” Joshua offers, glancing hopefully about the room.
“See if we do that, it’ll never get sorted. We just need to come up with a more obvious plan. One that screams ‘I’m in love with you and this is a confession’,” Jihoon replies. “The first plan was dumb.”
“That was technically Chan’s fault,” Jun supplies, ignoring the youngers yells of ‘excuse me?!’.
“Look,” Jeonghan sighs, “it doesn’t matter who’s fault it was,” (‘but it wasn’t me!’), “what matters is creating a better plan than the last. That failed miserably. We need to add a bit of romance. Which is why I propose a romantic candle lit dinner at our dorm.”
“Won’t it kinda defeat the purpose if we’re all there, too?” Seokmin asks, and Jeonghan fixes him with a deadpan stare.
“We’re not going to be there. We’re going to make them think it’s a group dinner, as an apology, but then we’ll leave at the last minute.”
“That’s a great idea! It’ll work perfectly,” Seungkwan agrees, elated at having a plan already.
“That’s what we said last time, and look what happened…” Minghao mumbles.
“Ok, so Mingyu will cook a nice dinner, Joshua and Jeonghan can help him, and the rest can help set up the room,” Seungcheol announces.
“Well, maybe let only some set up the room. Like Jun, Minghao, Chan and you, specifically,” Jihoon answers back. The room erupts in shouts, the other boys indignant and wanting to help. “I don’t want you messing anything up.”
“Yah! We won’t! We want to help!”, Seungkwan complains, desperate to be a part of the plan.
“Look, you can help clean and set up. Everyone gets a part. Everyone helps,” Seungcheol answers, and his word is final.
-
Fast forward to Saturday evening, Seungkwan receiving a text from you saying that you were getting ready before coming over. Wonwoo was ‘sent out’ to get a specific brand of cheesecake for dessert, and was told to not come home until he gets it. Good luck finding a cheesecake that doesn’t exist, Wonwoo.
The boys were excited, days of planning this meal to perfection. ‘It’s foolproof!’ ‘Great, now we’re jinxed.’ This was going to work, they were sure of it. Everything looks perfect. The boys had scrubbed the place down, top to bottom, and the dining was transformed. Candles were strewn about the room, a lavender scent wafted around the room, and a vase of roses was set on the table. They really went all out. Mingyu was in the kitchen with the others, preparing a delicious meal he knows both you and Wonwoo love, and everything was going perfect.
Until Mingyu’s phone started ringing.
He answered the call quickly, hoping to get out of it as soon as possible, when his face dropped. It was his aunt, and once she started talking, she did not stop. Mingyu tried to tell her he was busy, oh god he did, but she was having none of it. She wanted to talk to her favourite nephew, after all. Throwing an apologetic look towards the others, he ran out of the room. And then there were 11.
This wouldn’t be a problem, everything was set up. If only the rest knew Mingyu’s recipe. Deep breaths, Joshua, this shouldn’t be too hard. Seungkwan popped his head in to tell them Y/N was on her way, and deep breaths turned into quick pants. He started to panic. This wasn’t going to be finished, no one else knows how to cook this, it’s going to ruin the plan-
“Joshua, breathe. We’ll get this, it doesn’t seem like too hard a recipe,” Jeonghan tries to relax Joshua, feeling nervous himself. It’ll be fine. Yeah.
Hopefully.
“Hey, I’m texting Wonwoo and telling him to come back now,” Jihoon announces, looking around the kitchen. “Where’s Mingyu?”
“He got a call from his aunt, so he had to leave.”
“Are you serious? Ugh, of course something like that would happen. Just our luck. You two know how to cook the dinner, at least?”
Silence.
Jihoon narrows his eyes. “You do know how to cook the dinner, don’t you?”
“Uh…kind of?” Joshua laughs awkwardly.
“You know what, I don’t even want to know. Just cook the dinner, put it on their plates, and get out of here.” And with that, Jihoon leaves the kitchen.
Okay, stay calm. Everything will be fine, right? Just season it, turn the food over, and add some sauce. They hear the doorbell ring shortly after cooking the food some more. Wow you were fast. No need to fret, nearly finished. Just time to add the sauce. Joshua picks up the bottle closest to him, turning it over and gets ready to shake the bottle in the direction of the pot.
Jeonghan looks over at him as he’s about to do, and his eyes grow wide.
“Wait, don’t! That’s the-
WHOOSH
-OIL!”
The pot goes up in flames and both boys jump back in time to miss the eruption. The fire alarm rings above them, and the screaming starts.
“What is that?!” “What the hell is happening?” “I’m gonna die! I’m too pretty to die!” “Shut up and call the fire department! Where’s the fire extinguisher?” “Somebody blow out the candles in the dining room, we don’t need more fires.”
You’re frozen in your spot, watching the chaos unfold before your eyes. The boys are running around the dorm in a rush, panicking and screaming and you were almost sure you heard someone wailing. You almost didn’t hear Wonwoo come up behind you, having ran up the stairs, hearing the commotion from basically a mile away.
“What’s going on here? What happened?” he asks, bewildered beyond belief. He left for an hour, and he came home to this?
“I-I don’t know? I just got here and next thing everyone started freaking out when the fire alarm went off,” you reply, finding it hard to tear your eyes away from the scene.
Mingyu runs out of his bedroom, and towards the centre of the disarray.
“What did you do to my food? It’s ruined!”
“Mingyu, we have more pressing matters at the moment than burnt food!” someone replies.
The fire department came in record time, stopping the flames before they could expand throughout the dorm. The lot of you stood in the kitchen after the firemen left, staring at the black stains along the wall. At least nobody got hurt.
Except for pride.
“So,” you speak up after a bout of solemn silence, and glance around at the band, “anyone up for pizza at mine?”
-
“This is getting ridiculous. And incredibly dangerous,” Seungcheol says, fed up with everything at this point. Everyone was still reeling after the ‘Fire Fiasco’ (“Minghao stop doing that”), and everyone was starting to give up on helping you and Wonwoo get together. But Seungkwan was not having it.
“We’re so close though, I can feel it! They just need one more push,” he reasons, and while some agree, others are apprehensive.
“Haven’t we cause enough damage? First, we bashed her face against the door, then we nearly set fire to our apartment. I think we should just leave it for a while, don’t you? Just let them relax after everything that’s happened,” Seungcheol speaks out. Quite frankly, they could all do with a break. Speaking of…
“Aren’t we supposed to have a weekend off next week? Let’s just chill and have fun! It’s rare we get days off, anyway. Let’s live it up while we can.”
Being reminded of the weekend off, everyone agrees to give the matchmaking a rest for a while.
“What are we doing for it?” Chan asks.
“I think we’re going to the beach,” Jihoon answers.
“I haven’t been to the beach in forever,” Vernon muses. The boys talk about past experience with beaches for a while, reminiscing on memories, when Jun gets and idea.
“Hey, how about we invite Y/N with us? It’ll be fun,” he offers, “plus, Wonwoo will get to see her in a swimsuit,” Jun smirks.
Hoshi nudges him, but agrees with the notion of you tagging along. “It wouldn’t hurt to try one more time, would it?”
The group looks doubtful, but figures it might not be a bad idea.
And so here you are a week later, lying down on a towel, soaking up the summer sun with Wonwoo at your side. When you had received the invitation off Seungkwan, you were uncertain (“A tsunami isn’t going to come, is it?” “Ha ha. Very funny, Y/N”), but decided to go when Wonwoo insisted you came along as well (how could you ever resist him?).
The day had been fun, the car ride to the beach filled with singing, jokes and laughter. The beach was even better, playing volleyball with the boys and getting ice cream, the trip was nothing but entertaining. But it came to a stop when Seokmin decided to start dragging you into the sea with him when Wonwoo went to use the bathroom. Now, it’s not that you don’t like swimming, it’s just that you can’t. Well, not very well. So, when he started to drag you out towards the big blue with him and a few others, you tried your hardest to stop him, but he just picked you up over his shoulder and carried you towards the group. You can’t really fault him for anything, he didn’t know about your lack of swimming abilities, only Wonwoo and Seungkwan knew (who was nowhere in sight, probably buying souvenirs at the local shops).
To say you were scared when you were thrown into the water would be an understatement. You were terrified, terrified of drowning, of getting hurt, of looking dumb for not having a basic ability. When the water rushed around you, you panicked and started to throw a fit in the water, frantic to find the surface so you could breathe again. But it never came, and all you could see around you was blue and bubbles. Your chest tightened, becoming so uncomfortable, and you really believed this was the end. Until a pair of arms wrapped around your waist and hauled you out of the water.
You gasped and tried to suck in as much air as possible into your lungs. You couldn’t hear much other than the ringing in your ears, but you could feel yourself being carried to the sand, saw Wonwoo shouting at the others who’s faces were full of shame and fright, felt a towel being wrapped around your shivering frame and your body being encased by a larger one, whispering soothingly in your ear.
“Y/N, we couldn’t be more sorry, I didn’t know you can’t swim, I’m so, so, so sorry,” Seokmin was devastated, this was the last thing he wanted to happen.
“You should have thought of that before dragging her out!” Wonwoo was furious. He never felt so scared in his life when he came back from the bathroom to see you missing from the towel and instead struggling to breach the surface of the water as the others messed around you.
“W-Wonwoo, it’s fine…” you began but he cut you off.
“No, you could’ve drowned or gotten seriously hurt. It’s not ok,” he concluded, and rounded on the others, still covering your shivering body. “What is up with you guys lately? You’ve all been acting weird lately, and you’re all acting so suspicious. It seems like whenever we’re around you, something goes wrong.”
You nod from beside him, and everyone shifts awkwardly on their feet, careful to avoid eye contact with you and Wonwoo. Jihoon groans and rubs his forehead, his shoulders sagging. He feels a headache coming on.
“I can’t do this anymore. This is happening now, I’m done with trying to ‘help’ them any more.”
Wonwoo fixes his stare on Jihoon, choosing to ignore the shocked and anxious faces from the others. “What do you mean?”
Jihoon sighs, and look at the two of you. Before anyone can stop him, he opens his mouth:
“Y/N, Wonwoo likes you. A lot.”
You freeze underneath Wonwoo’s arms, and it’s his worst nightmare. No no no please, don’t do this. He doesn’t want to face rejection from the one person who never fails to make his day better, who makes him smile like no other, who is always there for him, who-
“Wonwoo, Y/N likes you a lot, too,” Seungkwan adds.
What?
“What?” he questions out loud, turning to stare at you as you look back at him with confusion, but your eyes hold a glimmer of hope to them.
You swallow, and ask “is that true, Wonwoo?”
His chest tightens, his hands are probably shaking, but I guess it’s now or never.
“Yes…,” he clears his throat, building his courage, “yes, it is. I do like you, Y/N, I like you a lot more than just ‘like’. I have since I met you years ago when Seungkwan brought you in to meet us. I love every piece of you, every curve and edge, and I’m head over heels for you,” he laughs at that, and goes to continue, but you interrupt him by pressing your lips to his.
Despite the cheering of the boys around you, it feels as if it’s just you and him, so wrapped up in each other. You feel light headed in the best way, stomach erupting in butterflies that never fully went away in the years you’ve known him, and you honestly can’t picture a happier moment in your life than right now, feeling his lips on yours and his hand around your waist, pulling you even closer to him.
You pull back with a grin full of love, and whisper “I’m head over heels for you too, Jeon Wonwoo.”
He grins the brightest grin you’ve ever seen him make, clutches you as you laugh and run your fingers through his hair, the boys still cheering the both of you on.
You loved absolutely everything about Wonwoo, from the little things to the big things. Everything that makes him, him, you appreciate and adore with all your being. And Wonwoo loves everything about you, every inch of you and your soul, and he couldn’t imagine a more perfect half to his being.
A match made in heaven.
-
“Well, ‘Beach Bust’ ended up being the most successful plan, who would have thought.”
“Minghao, stop!”
“You still have to answer for all the weird stuff that’s been happening.”
“But Wonwoo!”
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