#to be clear i mean this in the kindest way possible

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

Hi. I’m sending this anonymously but if tumblr glitches and it isn’t anonymous please don’t post this because I’m absolutely completely entirely mortified.

I’m 20 FtM. About a year and a half ago, when I moved out and started at college, I discovered fandom, and began to get really into reading fics on AO3. My parents had heavily restricted my internet access growing up, and as new adult I began to discovered the barrage of content online.

Soon enough, I was spending about an hour or two every night reading smut fics. I never thought anything of it, because, well, it’s just words, it’s not *actually* porn, right?

Recently I did start watching some explicit videos but tried to limit myself to only once or twice a month because the shame I felt as well as the strange dissatisfaction just wasn’t worth it.

After doing some research, I found a study that said that watching porn for more than an hour a week was unhealthy. I thought, yeah, okay, fair enough.

Then I realised: does my fanfiction reading count as pornography?

I kept thinking to myself that because it was text it didn’t count, but —does it? Is that the reason that lately I’ve been feeling strangely dissatisfied and empty after reading/watching? Will I feel like this when I eventually have sex?? (still a virgin, mainly for dysphoria reasons)

I found all this stuff online that says porn addictions can screw you over for life, that you can’t find sexual satisfaction with a partner.

Should I cut back?

I don’t normally masturbate while consuming porn. I feel too ashamed. I normally just sit there and read/watch.

Am I a porn addict?????? Should I quit reading smut? Help.

If you can’t tell, I wasn’t raised in a very sex positive environment and I feel very ashamed. I don’t really know who to talk to and I just feel very guilty so I’m resorting to an anonymous ask on Tumblr.

If you read this, thank you for taking the time. I appreciate it.

— Jason

hi Jason,

I don't think you're a porn addict. I think you're probably just an anxious 20 year old from a pretty restrictive background and now that you have a little more freedom you're kind of nervous about it, which is very normal.

I want to be super clear: written porn is porn. porn is any sexually explicit material designed to titillate; it's existed since WAY before the moving picture existed and it will exist long after the internet has crumbled to dust. people like porn! and it's okay to like porn. the text-based stuff is particularly high on the list of porn that's pretty unambiguously fine, morally-speaking, because you never have to worry that the performer you're watching has had their video stolen by pornhub or that, god forbid, anyone onscreen isn't a willing participant, but I want to be super clear that liking sexually explicit photos or videos of real people is also 100% fine.

obviously I have no idea what study you read, but I'd be cautious about any study being boiled down to such black and white, attention-grabbing headlines. you can interpret a study to mean virtually anything if you want to, and there are a lot of interest groups with a vested interest in demonizing porn. if reading smutty fan fic makes you happy and isn't interfering with the rest of your life, you should do that.

unfortunately it sounds like it's not making you happy lately, dissatisfied and empty feelings. in the kindest way possible, I don't think much of that is being caused by the porn itself. it sounds like it's coming from your gnawing worry that you're a porn addict. maybe it's best to take a little step away from porn and smutty fic for a while, if only until you feel able to engage with it without feeling bad.

also, speaking of porn addiction: that's a very dubious condition, and one that's not scientifically or medically recognized. to be certain, people can develop a reliance on porn that disrupts their daily function and can wreak havoc on their lives, but that's true of anything that causes your brain to spit out happy chemicals. anything that become a maladaptive coping mechanism, including and especially things that are fine and even necessary in small doses. sleeping, exercising, and going shopping are all things that can be life-ruining if done to harmful excess, but that doesn't mean you're doing anything wrong if you like to sleep in, go for runs, or browse your favorite online stores every once in a while.

if reading smut isn't causing you to skip out on your more important obligations, fail to take care of yourself, or bringing on bankruptcy, I think you're probably alright. the biggest danger I see here is you beating yourself over the head with your own anxiety about this, which may be a sign that it's a good idea to take a step back for entirely different reasons than you were worried about.

#sex edventures 2024

[pumpkaaboo]

funniest part of utena is when first time watchers are like "everyone is so awful to anthy. anthy i will protect you!" you are not immune to using the victimization of the rose bride to prop up your own self-image

#rgu #rgu spoilers #cloudtalk #to be clear i mean this in the kindest way possible

[chiangyorange]

Question; do you know 3 fics goes by " Leonardo calm down ", " Dead man's deal " and " Reunion "?!

Because idk the links 🥺😭

uhhhh i think this is right??

i know theyre all from 1 author so

#i mean this in the kindest way possible but google is free #<if that sounded mean its bc i just read a fiction workshop that doesnt know the reader is smart enough to know what a spear was #to put it lightly it was. an irritating read. #let me b clear i am NOT mad at you byw!! #chiangy answers

[shortwave-radio]

unreleased soad songs save me

#i mean this in the kindest way possible. i know the exact songs on steal this album! id trade for them #friik literally one of the songs of all time.... it makes me Sob therell probably never be a clear recording of it #MARMELADE TOO starts biting the bars of my cage #friik and marmelade r like. some of if not my fav songs by them. literally so good #ill be real marmelade may be my fav song of all time #its so. Ugh. screaming #i love soad so much. oh my god #illytxt

[zerofoursix]

Will you draw Ange Ushiromiya? She is a cool character!

she IS a cool character! but i don't take requests. like i said in a previous ask, i'm very sick right now and rarely draw anything for myself, let alone for others, and i tend to prefer taking commissions anyway. but if i ever do decide to take requests, i'll make a post asking for some!

#asks #i'm bad at typing with a clear tone so #i mean this in the kindest way i possibly can: next time you ask about a request consider asking if the artist takes requests first! #it takes pressure off the artist instead of having to say no to your specific request ^^ #i'll be sure to add a note about requests to my about and header so ppl dont have to ask ;; #046 text

[jayktoralldaylong]

Thinking again about Lang Qianqiu's and Xie Lian's relationship because it is under-discussed (especially with the new Donghua episodes).

Watching the Donghua after reading the book is like re-reading the book and then you see all these fresh new things that you overlooked before. Things that were misinterpreted because of circumstance but now hit with a whole new meaning!

First of all, how proud Xie Lian is of Lang Qianqiu when he's first introduced.

TGCF BOOK SPOILERS.

It's clear that Jun Wu introduced them just for the stake of stirring the pot with their past, but Xie Lian held no animosity or hate towards Lang Qianqiu, prince of the enemy kingdom. If anything, he was so very fond of the boy that reminded him of his younger self. They have a student/teacher relationship but I see them sometimes as child and parent because of how proud Xie Lian is and how far he goes sometimes to protect Lang Qianqiu. In the book he said a line that summarised could basically mean that he'd take all the blame, punishment and pain, he would endure any suffering if it meant that Lang Qianqiu could keep living innocently and pure, believing in good people and kindness. More than anything, Xie Lian wanted to protect that boy's heart.

Poor Lang Qianqiu who he'd raised to believe in kindness and peaceful coexistence, who had come in late for his birthday party which was the only reason he hadn't ended up dead. He'd just been a little late. He was excited, looking forward to seeing his father and mother. A young lad of seventeen. I bet Xie Lian was also looking forward to Qianqiu's birthday, might have even prepared a gift for him. Yet what happened? He discovered a terrible plot much too late, everyone had already been killed. Foolish people who lived in the present and believed that Xianle would rather die than dine with their enemy. The poor people didn't want that, the people dependent on Yong An's kindness and generosity would surely perish. Yong'An's mercy was the closest Xie Lian had come of saving the people of Xianle since his fall. For the people he'd failed to protect, he just wanted them to have a safe house with the kindest prince of all ruling over them.

Those selfish rebels wanted to start what would have been a terrible civil was that would have ended tragically for all the people of Xianle, they would have been stamped out like ants until they were no more. To make things worse, just as Xianle had chased away the last of the rebels, he discovered that the King was still alive. The dying King of Yong'An had just one request. He wanted the people of Xianle to pay. In that moment, what decision could the prince of a failed nation possibly do? The King wanted revenge, one couldn't fault him of that, but innocent people would suffer. The rebels were a small group, they'd taken decisions on their own. The King wouldn't care about that, people would die, children would die. To crown it all, just after Xie Lian had made a decision. Just after he'd sunk his sword into the King to silence his vengeance....who would walk in but the student he was proud of the most, seventeen year old Lang Qianqiu who'd finally made it to his birthday party.

The whole thing....was a mess.

That poor child. Imagine seeing the person you admire the most yanking their weapon from the lifeless body of your parent, and surrounding him are all of your relatives and nobles of the kingdom covered in blood. Of course such a thing is traumatising. Of course he buried Xie Lian in a hole. When a person feels that much pain, their only desire is to make the one who hurt them understand how much it hurt.

Of course Xie Lian took the blame. A a nameless and faceless Guoshi, they wouldn't be able to connect him with the people of Xianle. The people would be free of blame, and he would suffer alone. Lang Qianqiu would just have to do with his pain and his pain alone.

The way Xie Lian looks upset when Lang Qianqiu gets hurt. The way he'd rather lie over and over again, than let Lang Qianqiu believe that he was wrong for being kind.

Xie Lian remembers what it was like to be like Lang Qianqiu. He also knows how trauma twisted him into a monster that he's regretted for all of his years. He couldn't bear to imagine Lang Qianqiu going through the same. For as long as he can help it, he will mindlessly shield the boy from the ugliness of politics.....because Xie Lian loves him so much. (⁠T⁠T⁠)(⁠T⁠T⁠)(⁠T⁠T⁠)(⁠T⁠T⁠)(⁠T⁠T⁠)

That's basically his son. He's so proud of him.

I love what Xie Lian said to Lang Qianqiu, I'll love it round the world and back. I can't quote it but basically "You're not the one who did wrong, the people of Xianle are not wrong too, the wrong people are the evil doers. It is not your fault that wicked people took advantage of your kindness. You're not to blame....for being kind."

Felt like he was talking to himself for real. (⁠T⁠T⁠)

#Xie Lian and Lang Qianqiu #xie lian #lang qianqiu #tgcf #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #Xie Lian's boy

[wordbunch]

SFW Alphabet: Frodo

a/n: anon requested, this is for all the frodo girlies out there - y'all are one of the pillars of this fandom, truly! i feel like (and hope) this is very cute <3 enjoy and be kindly reminded that all feedback/reblogs are so appreciated xxx and my drafts are almost cleared out - stay tuned for new things!

A = AFFECTION (how affectionate are they and how do they show affection?) He needs a little bit of time to get completely comfortable with being openly affectionate to you, but once he does, there is affection galore! In many little ways - running to hug you after being apart, making you tea, reading to you, questioning you about your interests. And he likes to feel you close at all times, whether it’s just pinky fingers interlocked in a public setting, or an evening cuddle session.

B = BEST FRIEND (what would they be like as a best friend and how would the friendship start?) He would be a really nice best friend, you would be able to confide in him about anything, you’d lean onto each other during tough times, but it would also be balanced out with a good amount of jokes, little adventures, and of course trading books!

C = CUDDLES (do they like to cuddle & how?) He is a cuddly person through and through, he will initiate it relatively often, but if you want to make him extra happy, you be the one who suggests a cuddle session. He likes to read with you while you cuddle, so a common position would be your head leaning on his shoulder and one of his arms around you, while he holds a book in the other.

D = DOMESTIC (do they want to settle down; how are they at cooking/cleaning?) Probably yes, he loves his home and he is comfortable there, but what would make it even better is if you stayed forever! Frodo is pretty neat and clean, maybe not the best cook, but at least he is tidy. If you like to cook, he will enthusiastically learn from you, or just hang around while you do it.

E = ENCHANTED (what was their first opinion/feeling about you when you just met?) He was eavesdropping on you a little bit as you talked to a friend of yours about something you were passionate about, and he found it so charming that he immediately decided he needed to build up the courage to go and talk to you, because you sounded so interesting. And he loves an interesting conversation!

F = FIANCE(E) (how do they feel about commitment; how quickly would they want to get married?) Commitment - yes, for sure! However he takes a bit of time to make up his mind about taking such an important step, and he wants to know as certainly as possible how you feel about it. He’d never want you to feel forced into anything or to regret such a big decision, maybe he even overthinks it a little bit.

G = GENTLE (how gentle are they, physically and emotionally?) Come on he is The Baby!!! He is so soft and loving towards you in all the possible love languages and he is absolutely the kindest little soul!!!

H = HUGS (do they like hugs, how often, what are they like?) Big fan of hugging, he will hug you at any given opportunity, he’ll literally run to you and hug you when he sees you after a few hours of being apart! His heart flutters when you do the same, especially if it’s in public, since his reputation isn’t exactly the most amazing - it means a lot to him when you show him off a bit.

I = I LOVE YOU (how fast they say the L-word) I think he falls in love pretty quickly but he would push the feeling aside, or try to, because at first he thought he doesn’t have much of a chance with you… wrong! Even after you begin to return some of his affections, he would put the “L-word” on hold, but eventually when he confessed it was super romantic - maybe a poem or a letter with rose petals inside of it while he waited anxiously somewhere behind a corner to see your reaction.

J = JEALOUSY (how jealous do they get and how they act then) Frodo is not jealous at all, he is literally too pure for that and he trusts you endlessly. In case someone is bothering you a bit too much, you can just give him a “save me” look and he will be there in an instant, more worried for you than jealous. Sometimes he will deem someone more suitable for you than himself, so he might grow a little quiet while pondering his insecurities, but if you kiss him on the lips in front of everyone, the negative feelings will dissipate rather quickly.

K = KISSES (what are their kisses like, where do they like to kiss you/be kissed?) He’s a little bit shy when it comes to kissing you and a little hesitant, so he appreciates it if you take charge when it comes to that, at first. Later on he will kiss you without a second thought, and he relishes in kissing you on the cheeks, you’re just so cute and precious (oops)!!! Maybe he won’t go for it in public, but if you kiss him on the lips in front of others he will blush FURIOUSLY but he will be unable to wipe the smile off of his face. Also he’s very respectful and will kiss you on the back of your hand a lot.

L = LOVE LANGUAGE (what is their love language and how they show you love) Acts of service and words of affirmation! I don’t think I need to explain the ‘acts of service’, but as for words of affirmation, he’s a nerd who reads a lot and has a wide vocabulary in more than one language - you’ll often find him lavishing you with compliments and sweet declarations of love. Maybe quality time as well.

M = MORNINGS (how are mornings spent with them) I think he could be a morning person! As much as he wants to cuddle with you a bit longer while you’re still asleep, he will most likely get up, open the windows, put some tea to brew so that you wake up to fresh tea. If he wakes up early enough, he will even go outside to pick you a few flowers to give you as soon as you open your eyes so that your day starts in the best possible ways. 

N = NICKNAMES (do they like to use cute nicknames for you/you for them?) Actually not so much, he likes to stick to the classics like ‘dear’ or ‘love’, and he likes it when you call him that as well.

O = OPEN (when would they start revealing things about themselves; everything at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?) Somewhere in between. You two build a solid friendship, and then a relationship, through a lot of talking about all things, and a lot of pretty good communication, and some things just pop up with time. He grows to trust you more than anyone and knows he can confide in you with basically anything, however big or small.

P = PATIENCE (how easily angered are they?) Literally never ever, especially not at you! He gets more annoyed than angry with things, and he will absolutely vent to you about anything. At some point he will stop himself and be like “sorry, did I burden you too much” but you think it’s kinda cute when he’s ranting about something.

Q = QUIZZES (how much would they remember about you – every little detail you mention in passing or do they kind of forget most things?) He remembers quite a lot and he likes to learn things about you, about things you like, things from your past, things you love. He will ask you to elaborate on anything and everything and then listen to you with a smile on his face.

R = REMEMBER (favorite moment in your relationship) When he first introduced you to his besties!!! He was and is SO proud to be with you, and he had a feeling they would love you but he was still a little bit anxious because that’s just how he is. But of course you hit it off immediately, and before you knew it you could turn to Sam for advice, or have inside jokes with Merry and Pippin, and all that makes Frodo so happy - he is close to them, and you’re his special person, so his heart triples in size when he sees you getting along.

S = SECURITY (how protective are they; how they'd like to be protected and how they protect you) A moderate amount - he has a lot of respect for you and your independence, but at the same time he can be a little anxious. If needed be, he will stand up for you, or get you out of a situation as soon as you give him The Look, but he won’t necessarily step in if you seem to have everything under control. Sometimes you can be a bit too defensive of him, which is especially understandable after the quest, so if you shut down any rude comments he will be relieved, but sometimes reassure you that you don’t need to expose yourself for his sake that much. 

T = TRY (how much effort do they put into dates, gifts, anniversaries, everyday stuff) Frodo is a very romantic soul, and he will try to create special moments with you as often as possible, but still manage to keep you on your toes. On some extra special days, like birthdays and anniversaries, you can expect really well-thought out gifts (gifts, plural), which show that he really knows you and really listens to what you say and what you want. On other regular days, he will get you flowers in the morning, get you your favorite book for no special reason, or ask Sam to help him prepare food for a romantic picnic on a hill at sunset.

U = UGLY (some bad habits of theirs) He can be in his head a lot and he can zone out relatively easily, especially when he’s bored (he hates being bored so he often turns to his imagination). It’s not necessarily that bad of a habit

V = VANITY (how concerned are they with their looks?) As long as he’s clean and has clean clothes on, he is good to go. He will most definitely ask you for your opinions, and if he notices that you particularly like when he wears this or that shirt, he will make sure to wear it more often. Maybe he even likes to match with you in subtle ways!

W = WISH (something that they really want to do/experience with you?) He would love love love to visit Rivendell with you once more, but this time without any burdens or threats. It’s such a magical and comforting place, and he would love nothing more but to enjoy it with you in peace, listen to elvish music, take long walks and appreciate all the stunning nature. 

X = XTRA (a random headcanon for them) Not the best of singers, but he’s very talented with words and writes quite decent poetry. At first he doesn’t want you to see it, maybe only for your birthday or anniversary he might write you a little something. Obviously, you love it, and that boosts his confidence and encourages him to show you more of his works.

Y = YUCK (what are some things they dislike generally or in a partner?) He despises violence, obviously even more after the quest!!! Boy just wants to live in peace!!!

Z = ZZZ (a sleep habit of theirs) He quietly mumbles nonsense in his sleep on the nights when he’s extremely tired, and sometimes it can be super funny! Also it’s a habit that he pulls you closer in his sleep if he doesn’t feel you nearby anymore… adorable!

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[inbarfink]

‘Death’ really is one of the coolest episodes for Character Analysis of Yellow Guy and Red Guy. Both because it has them dealing with the uniquely difficult emotion of Grief and because it has them in the rare position of actually being kinda-authority-figures themselves to someone else - Stain Edwards. 

Because Yellow, usually the friendliest and kindest of the three, is so mean to Stain! But this meanness IS born from his usual friendliness, he’s lashing out at Stain as a result of his grief over his lost friend and the idea that he can be ‘replaced’. 

And meanwhile, Red clearly also misses Duck. If nothing else it’s clear from what he did to Stain there at the end. 

But he’s also the one trying the most to move on as quickly as possible, to try and deny he misses Duck.

"it's not that bad, we didn't really like him anyways. Remember how he used to bite you?"

And I think more than anything that probably comes from his conflict-aversion. Like, his resistance to the Teacher’s lessons and to addressing the fact that he misses Duck both come from that aspect of his character highlighted in ‘Jobs’ - he would much rather Not Do Stuff most of the time. And actually confronting his own emotions feels like kind of a lot of effort, doesn’t it?

So from his POV, ‘just moving on cause we didn’t like him anyway’ is just the easiest solution for both himself and Yellow Guy to deal with the problem. But the fact that Yellow Guy can’t see Red Guy openly share the same sort of grief that he does just makes him feel more isolated and thus has a harder time dealing with his own grief. 

And Red is kinder, or at least more polite to Stain Edwards then Yellow is but I think that is driven less from his kindness as much as it's also come, at least partly, from his desire to Not Cause a Fuss. And he can also kinda lash out at him with his Unresolved Grief, he’s just more subtle about it.

"Well, you seem like a little... thing with.... and you don't even... and that other guy at least had his own clothes."

And since he’s so driven in this episode to Take the Path of Least Resistance with his grief, he naturally discovers that the ‘easiest’ way to deal with Death, the ‘easiest’ way to move on is…

To deny it ever happened in the first place.

#don't hug me i'm scared #dont hug me im scared #don't hug me #i'm scared #dhmis #dhmis tv series #dhmis tv show #dhmis analysis #dhmis death #dhmis red guy #red guy dhmis #red guy #red guy dont hug me im scared #dhmis yellow guy #yellow guy don't hug me i'm scared #yellow guy dhmis #yellow guy #stain edwards

[lokisprettygirl]

Under his influence (Post Avengers! Loki x female reader)

Read chapter 20 here //Series Masterlist

Chapter 21

Summary : You meet Frigga and she makes it clear that she doesn't like you.

Warning: 18+, more Sex, smutty soft smut, mention of stalking, mention of psychological torture, angst, insecurities, ptsd, self deprecating behaviour, panic attack, praise kink, soft loki, sub loki (it's not mentioned but everytime they're having sex he's always using a condom )

"Okay open your eyes now ..This looks good right?" He uncovered his eyes and looked at the most gorgeous woman he had ever laid his eyes on. You.

"You look ethereal my darling"

"Awwn" you melted for a moment only to go back to stressing about the dress again.

"No but seriously, is this good for Thor's birthday party? I mean is this classy enough?"

"Define classy" he chuckled so you crossed your arms

"Why don't you have a look in the mirror?" you mumbled as you lowered down the dress from your body, you had purchased it today because Loki wanted to take you to Thor's birthday celebration, it was a full length skinny cocktail dress that seemed elegant enough or at least it did to you. Of course nobody still had any idea about you two so you were going to be there as Jane's Friend Stacy again.

"What about the gift? What could one possibly gift the god of thunder? I mean i gave a crappy dress to Jane on her birthday" You rambled on and on and when you looked at him he was just smiling as if you were the best thing in the whole nine realms.

You had also decided to tell your mother about him soon and this relationship, you knew she'd be mad but you were done hiding from her and lying to her.

As you took the dress off and stood there in your lingerie he titled his head and gawked at your figure shamelessly. It's been three weeks since you had gotten back together and he couldn't have been happier with you, everything about you made his heart skip a beat. He couldn't remember if he had ever felt such thrill and satisfaction at the same time in his life before. Satisfaction wasn't in his nature after all but with you he felt completely sated in every way a man could be sated. He loved being around you and inside you, he enjoyed having to listen to you talk for hours, every little thing you did made him fall in love even deeper than the last day.

He walked towards you and hugged you from behind before his lips latched onto your neck. You sighed and leaned your head down on his shoulder, you were a nervous wreck at the moment.

"I know you're apprehensive darling but like I have said before to you, you do not need to impress anyone there" you hummed as he said that.

"I am sorry ..i just want to blend in with those people Lo"

"I'm afraid that is impossible because you're going to stand out no matter how much you try to blend in" you turned around and got on your tiptoes to wrap your arm around his neck, his sweet words always made you feel giddy.

"I love youuu"

"I know you do"

He placed his palms under your butt and easily lifted you up before he wrapped your legs around his waist. Taking you to the sofa instead of the bed he laid you down and got on top of you.

"You're the sweetest, kindest and the most gentle man i have ever known..you know"

"So are you" you laughed as he said that and it made him smile too.

"Mmmm and you're so hot, so pretty and so sexyyyyyyy" his cheeks flushed as you said that, he always blushed at the praises as if he wasn't used to hearing such things about himself.

"Thank you princess"

"And –" before you could say something else he pressed his lips onto yours and you were just starting to enjoy the moment when you heard a knock on your door and flinched, since that horrible incident you have just been extra paranoid.

"It must be Mrs Geller Darling, no need to be afraid" he caressed your cheek softly so you nodded. You got out of his clutches to get dressed as you were in just your underwear and bra.

For a week after Ronald was arrested Loki spent every night with you but he wasn't able to get out of work related commitment one day so you spent the night at Mrs Geller but of course you couldn't just intrude her privacy like that every night and had to stay in your apartment when Loki couldn't make it even though you didn't want to be alone.

He stayed on call until you had fallen asleep, you needed to have your window shut, blinds off, the lights on and the sound of his voice on the phone speaker to put you through sleep but it was slowly starting to get better. He was gone, you had nothing to worry about. You did have a scary dream though where you saw Ronald again and in the dream you had called Stephen late at night to tell him that you were being stalked. You never understood why you were having such dreams about Stephen, maybe it was because you always thought about how disastrous that meeting was and it somehow always remained in your subconscious mind.

Next day as you reached the tower for Thor's birthday there were several people just staring at you and that made you even more anxious than usual. You met Jane as soon as you had reached and she was wearing the dress you had gifted her on the birthday.

"Y/n thank you for this, I put it on yesterday and I just knew I didn't need anything else" she told you excitedly and your eyes teared up, you didn't say anything but hugged her and then you reminded her that she was the prettiest woman at the party.

Thor and Loki weren't at the party, you hadn't seen Loki since Thor had brought you here, he did text you though that he'd be there soon. Though, you had no idea why Thor was missing from his own birthday party. You made your way to the bar and ordered an orange juice, just a minute later a man sat next to you and he ordered a drink for himself.

"Having fun?" You turned your head and you saw James. Loki had told you about him. Apparently he was the Captain's old buddy from the war time and the Winter Soldier the team had gone to retrieve a few days ago.

"I am trying" you chuckled so he smiled. Loki had also told you that he was going through intense therapy sessions almost every other day.

"What's your name? You seem familiar" he said to you.

"I do? I'm Stacy btw" you lied to him so he shrugged.

"James"

"I know"

He kept staring at you and it made you feel a bit awkward.

"Where are you from?" He asked you so you looked at him,

"I live in Minneapolis, Minnesota..been there?" You didn't know if he understood what you had said but you noticed that he seemed affected by your response.

"Minnesota? Any chance you were outside that fancy restaurant la blaire some time ago??" He asked you so you raised your brow before you remembered something. That was the restaurant where you had your first and last meeting with Stephen.

"I might have why?"

"Yeah pretty sure I hit you with my bike there a few months ago..I was confused at first but now I'm hundred percent sure" you looked at him shocked as he said that.

"Just so you know I did come back to see if you were fine but your boyfriend had it all covered so I …nice to meet you" he grabbed his drink from the bar before he walked away from you. He was the one to hit you with his bike? What was he doing there? What were the odds that it was him out of all the people that had hit you? You felt a tap on your shoulder and assuming it was James again you were ready to go off on him but you looked to the side and it was Loki instead. He was dressed in a black suit with a white button up shirt underneath, he hadn't straightened his long curls tonight and the look had somehow made him million times hotter.

"Hello miss, I saw you from a distance and couldn't help myself from approaching such a beauty" you smiled as he said that. Okay you can play the game.

"Hello sir, big fan of yours, I'm Stacy by the way" you brought your hand out so he grabbed it and gave it a formal kiss.

"So tell me Stacy, once the feast is over would you like to share a night with me in my chamber?" You gasped as he said that.

"Misster misster you are naughtayyyy" he smiled and looked around but some of the Avengers were looking at him so he walked away from you and you saw him approaching a random woman at the party and he started to flirt with her the same way and then he did the same with a few more, all of them seemed overly excited by his presence. Ofcourse, you knew he was doing it to divert the attention away from you but it still bothered you to see him flirt with other women, he kept it lowkey though, no other invitations had been sent to spend a night in his chamber, only you got it..

A few minutes later you spotted Thor along with Jane and the whole room had gotten silent all of a sudden, you looked at him and he had someone else by his side, he had his mother Frigga along with him.

Frigga the queen of Asgard.

You recognised her immediately because you had seen her on the news when Loki was hiding in your apartment.

Why didn't Loki tell you she was going to be here? You looked at him for answers but he seemed equally surprised by her appearance, his eyes were teary, there was that puppy look on his face that you loved and hated, depending on the situation, he also seemed paler than usual.

Thor introduced her to everyone and she was as elegant as you had thought her to be whenever Loki had talked about her. He was frozen in his spot and you were about to go comfort him when you saw Frigga approaching him.

"My sweet prince, have you not missed your mother?" She hugged him and you noticed how he immediately melted in her arms, he hadn't seen her in so long and he was still angry about the lies she had made him believe all his life but you could tell he had missed her motherly love and care for him. Your eyes met with Thor and he seemed happy too. You walk towards Jane and she seemed nervous too but she was excited as well.

"Did you meet her?" You asked her and she had a huge grin on her face.

"I did, I think she likes me, she gave me this" she showed you a bracelet on her wrist and it made you smile. It also looked expensive as fuck.

"This is gorgeous. Did you know she was coming here?"

"No, Thor didn't either, she just gave us all a surprise "

You sighed as she said that, well at least you weren't the only one who had no clue of her visit, if you knew you'd have prepared yourself better.

"May I have a word with you in private?" Frigga asked Loki and took him to the balcony of the lounge. You saw them from a distance, several emotions were at play here, there was crying and then they started to smile and hugged each other again but he seemed at peace and that's what mattered the most because you knew even though he hadn't said much, deep down he was struggling with this for a long time. You noticed Loki approaching you and he looked around before he held your hand and took you to the balcony. He made sure to cast an illusion so other people won't be able to see you interacting with him or Frigga.

"Mother this is y/n" he introduced you and all of a sudden you had no idea what to do or say. This wasn't your first day out in public as a human but that's exactly how you felt in the moment. You had never met a queen before so there was that.

"Hello Mrs Frigga" she raised one of her brows and you thought you had offended her so you corrected yourself "Your highness, it's an honor to meet you" you mumbled nervously again and you felt Loki's palm rubbing against your back in a comforting manner.

"Hello dear" she finally smiled but it didn't reach her eyes you could tell "Loki darling would you go bring for us something to drink? I would like to have a few words with her till then" he nodded and your heart sped faster than ever, he gave your hand a squeeze before he kissed your cheek and walked away. You smiled at her but if you were being honest to yourself you were so close to shitting your pants.

"My son is very fond of you" she said.

"Well i hope so" you chuckled and she nodded "I'm very fond of him, he is one of his kind, he's a gem" she smiled again and that made you feel a little relaxed but the feeling wasn't going to last for long.

"I know dear, he lost himself for a while but I could see him making his way back to his roots. Once his punishment here on midgard ends we would like to return the people of Asgard both of their prince's in all of their glory, his father is awaiting them both" you nodded as she said that.

"Did he ever inform you that he was betrothed to the Princess of Vanaheim, Atrishia?" She asked you so you nodded again, the way she wasn't even looking at you while talking to you was making you feel like a peasant in front of her which you probably were but it would have been nice if she had acknowledged your presence.

"He mentioned her once"

"She is still waiting for him to return" your eyes teared up as she said that "I truly appreciate that you protected my son and helped him come out with the truth about Thanos but I need you to understand that the union of marriage in Asgard is amongst the equals, you are not his equal, you are not a princess of your realm now are you?" You looked down as she said that, you always felt insecure about him choosing you because you knew he deserved the whole world and that you'd never be able to give him that.

"No but I can assure you that I love him and he loves me" she smiled as you said that and she caressed your head in a patronizing manner.

"You are naive my dear. I know my son fairly well, he gets deeply invested at first but it's going to fade soon, it is not going to last. Do you really think you're the first woman to own his heart this way? Do you think you possess what it takes for a man such as him to stay interested in you for long?" You just continued to look down as tears spilled from your eyes, you wiped them completely as you noticed Loki at the distance approaching you two.

"Think about what I said, it is for your own benefit that I am saying this" She said to you so you nodded. As Loki came near you two, Frigga took the drink from his hand and he gave you yours and then she circled her arm around his so he'd take her inside.

"Darling come…it's getting cold" he brought his hand forward for you so you looked at him.

"I'll be right back…I just..i have to make a call" his brows furrowed as you said that, he had a feeling something had happened between you and his mother but he didn't want to create a scene until he had the full information. As he walked away with her you turned around and placed the glass on the ledge of the balcony. You felt too nauseous to want to drink or eat anything. You remembered how happy Jane was after meeting her and you were happy for her but at the same time you felt bad about yourself. She was a mortal as well so it was just you that she didn't approve of.

After a few minutes you composed yourself and went inside again.

Loki looked at your sullen face and he had a feeling Frigga had said something to you, he saw how joyous lady Jane seemed as compared to you and his doubts were confirmed. He just hoped you won't allow her words to affect you or this relationship with him. He also noticed the Dalia approaching you and he remembered how she had hurt you last time so before she could bother anymore, he confronted her instead.

"Loki" she spoke his name but her eyes welled up as she felt an excruciating pain in her head, she also felt extremely sick all of a sudden.

"You feel that Dalia? Trust me I can make it worse and I can make it last forever so you will never feel happiness again. I have never retorted for the things you did to her until now but let me just warn you that I won't tolerate you disrespecting my woman any longer"

"I'm sorry..it won't happen again" she mumbled, her voice came out shrill as she was unable to speak because of the pain she was feeling, she felt pins and needles probing every inch of her skin.

"Are we clear now?"

"Yes just make it stop please I'll never bother her again" she begged him so he smiled and stopped messing with her head immediately before he walked away from her.

He did notice her running out of the lounge immediately after that and he couldn't have been happier. The party was amazing but after that conversation you didn't feel worthy of being around these people especially not the queen herself. Frigga wasn't able to stay for long so he bid her goodbye before he grabbed your hand and decided to take you to his chamber.

"Loki I'd like to go back to my apartment please, I have to work tomorrow" you said to him on the way so he nodded and went back to the party to request Thor to drop you both back to your place. You felt awful that you were troubling him on his birthday but you couldn't just stay here even a minute longer..

As soon as you were back to your apartment Loki finally confronted you.

"What did she say to you?" He asked you so you sighed and went into the kitchen after you took your heels off to grab yourself a glass of water, your throat felt dry.

"Nothing Loki, she was nice..she said nothing" He bit on his cheeks as you clearly lied to him "You should have gone back lo, it's your brother's birthday celebration, Jane told me they were going to stay up all night, get drunk and play games"

You walked past him to get to the closet but he grabbed your arm and pulled you into him.

"We promised each other that we will communicate about these things, remember?" Your eyes teared up again as he said that. You didn't want to hurt him because of what she had said, not at all.

"She doesn't like me...surpriiiiseee"

He was offended by the notion, ofcourse he was, he couldn't even imagine anyone not adoring you the way he did.

"It doesn't matter to me, your mother doesn't like me"

"Lokiii…i ..that princess is still waiting for you, she's waiting for you, she was engaged to you and she's still waiting" you tried to pull away from him but he was holding onto you tightly.

"I told my mother that it can not happen now, i have moved on and i have found what I have been looking for" he said sternly so you chuckled.

"Really you have been looking for this? A simpleton like me? Don't you want a princess or something?" You got out of his grip somehow and walked to your closet in order to avoid crying in his face, you always felt as if you weren't enough for him and people telling you the same again and again didn't help the situation. He closed the distance between you two and turned you around before he pulled you into his chest again. Cupping your cheeks he made you look at him right in the eyes, his thumbs wiped the tears rolling down your cheeks

"I have a princess, i have you and it's hurting me that you're being so disrespectful towards my princess" your eyes welled up even more as he said that "What happened to us not giving up on each other no matter what hmm?"

"I'm sorry..I'm sorry, it just hurts"

He latched his lips onto yours and picked you up from the floor. The dress made it difficult for you to wrap your legs around him so he immediately laid you down on the bed. He didn't stop kissing you and neither did you as you took his coat off and then the shirt followed. You knew he loved you and whatever she said about him being infatuated wasn't true but you still felt scared of losing his interest in you sooner or later.

He turned you around on your front to unzip the dress, he loved doing that apparently.

Pulling the straps of your dress down he freed your breasts from the confinement of your dress, one of his arms snaked around your shoulders as he sucked kisses on the exposed skin of your neck, pulling your dress up he ripped your underwear in half using a minimum force and you felt him entering you slowly.

He turned your head so he could kiss your mouth while he thrusted in and out of you slowly, the sex was passionate and romantic, it was needy and that's exactly what you needed from him. He pulled out, turned you over on your back again and he quickly had your legs wrapped around his waist as he fucked in and out of you again, the dress was pooled around your waist and it's not that he didn't enjoy the sight of your naked body underneath him but just something about you looking so disheveled always made him so feral.

"I'm sorry I was being disrespectful" you cupped his cheeks as you mumbled, your voice came out all broken from the sex as well as how you were feeling before he had started to fuck these insecurities out of you, literally.

"Mmmhmm i do not care what anyone says darling, I just need you to trust me and I need you to know that we have each other, i got you sweet princess..look at me" his fingers clutched into your hair as he kissed you softly "You have me, you are not going to lose me" you nodded and started to move your hips slowly, the gesture made him quicken his own pace.

"Keep going like that darling..so good" he moaned as the sensation began to grow in the pit of his stomach "I need you my princess. I had no will to live until I had found you, you do not have any clue that my soul is always restless when I am away from you, constantly yearning untill I have your whole existence in my arms again"

His words had completely sated your fears for a moment. You didn't want to think what his mother thought about you anymore.

"Mmmm I need you lo..my baby..god please" you sat up along with him, your mouth stayed on his as you kissed him passionately and then you laid him down on the bed underneath you, he smiled as you sat on his cock and took him deeper slowly, the dress was obstructing his view so you pulled it over your head, he craned his neck up to get a better view of your cunt stretching around his cock and the sight made him moan in desperation.

You placed your hands down on his chest as you rode him slowly, you felt one of his hands squeeze your butt while the other one played with your clit.

"Is this good?" You asked him and he opened his mouth to say something but only a grunting moan came out, how come he got to look this way? He had no right to look so pretty underneath you.

"You feel so good baby, such a perfect cock you have"

You mumbled as you leaned over him, your fingers brushed the hair behind his ear and you caressed his cheek with your fingers, the look on his face had softened instantly with the touch,

"Darling please" he mumbled so you smiled at him.

"What do you need pretty baby?"

"Keep moving please..pleassse my goddess" he perched himself on his elbows so he was closer to you and you curled your fingers around his nape to kiss him passionately, you sucked on his tongue slowly, back and forth, over and over again, the erotic gesture made him twitch inside you.

"Mmm you're such a pretty babyboy I love you so much" As soon as the words left your mouth you felt him fall apart for you.

"Oh my nornsss!! Ohh I'm gonna cum.. I'm sorry my goddess ..im sorrry"

He collapsed on the bed, his back arched and he thrusted his hips harshly into you as he came around you, hitting your sweet spot that made you lose it too, his cock twitched inside you and you were both so loud that you felt afraid Mrs Geller would come knocking on your door to see if you were okay or not.

Your body went limp on his chest as you felt exhausted, the orgasm took everything out of you.

"God that was… godddd"

He chuckled as you said that, his fingers caressed your scalp softly, he had never come so hard in his life before and he had plenty of sex before so that was something. Maybe it was the way you kind of went so dominating on him out of nowhere, he enjoyed that alot.

"Did you call me goddess?" You put your head up to look at him and that blush didn't go unnoticed.

"Did you call me babyboy?" You giggled as he said that.

"Pretty babyboy"

"I love you" he cupped your cheeks and kissed you as tenderly as he could, fornicating with you wasn't enough for him, it never was, he needed the whole thing, he craved the cuddles and the sweet confessions of love after the act.

"I love you my sweet baby..come here ..let me bite you and eat you" you growled as you snuggled him and he giggled in response.

Yes, he needed all this and more and he only needed it from you and nobody else, the fact that his own mother had disrespected the woman he wanted to build a future with had hurt him to the core. He did feel responsible for the situation Atrishia was in so he knew he had to go make amends with her and tell her that he had moved on, he had found his mate in you and he wasn't going to leave you under any circumstances. He didn't want to be the reason someone was in pain but he decided to think about it later, for now he just wanted to bask in the love, this pure love that he had stumbled upon somehow.

Once you were down from the orgasmic high you took a shower with him and when you both came out you put on the dress again which confused him.

"We should go join his birthday celebration, I'm sure he wants us there lo" he smiled as you said that and took out his phone to call Thor.

"I'll fix my face before we go" you cupped his cheeks to kiss him before you pulled away and looked at him for a second before you kissed him again "Godd i would die for you…I love you so much" you walked away as you mumbled. His smile widened and eyes teared up as he watched you hurrying with your makeup process. Then he mumbled in his mouth as he adored you from the distance.

"And i will kill for you my princess"

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Note : He's just being sentimental, too precious to kill anyone isn't he? Story will pick up from the next chapter, this was kind of a filler with some information here and there but I hope it wasn't boring 🥰

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[earlgraytay]

I kind of want to make a youtube video about how Cult Of The Lamb gets cult dynamics right in ways that Honey I Joined A Cult just doesn't

but a) I suspect it'd be gut-wrenching to make and b) I'd have to engage in a meaningful way with Honey I Joined A Cult, which I really don't want to do because I find that game's approach sickening

the gist is: COTL puts you in the position of middle management.

the vast majority of the people who harm others in irl cults [I define "cult" as "an organization, usually religious or political but not always, that treats its members the way an abuser treats their victims"] -

the vast majority of people who do genuine harm in IRL cults are not the Cult Leader who Lives In A Compound and are cynically aiming to suck as much money out of their followers as possible. these folks still exist, dgmw- Qanon is proof of that- but these days they're outnumbered by other kinds of people: cult middle management.

a) small-scale cult leaders who are driven by a profound commitment to a toxic belief system and/or a mental illness. they genuinely believe what they are saying, and they think it is worth it to hurt other people to live their beliefs. they would be abusive even if they weren't trying to start a religious/ideological cult, dgmw, but there are easier ways to scam people these days. they honest to god believe what they're saying. which means that they think they're middle management between their followers and God/spirits/fate/the cycle of reincarnation.

b) a small community of people whose mutual toxicity creates an abusive dynamic between them that has most of the features of A Cult. a leader can spring up out of a group like this, but it's just as likely that this kind of group can go on forever without one. because of how this dynamic works, most people aren't consciously thinking about how to extract money/social power from the other members of the group- they're mostly just happy to have found "other people who think like them". so they hurt other people in the same ways that a) and c) cult "leaders" do, to keep the group on the same path.

c) middle-management in a cult that has grown over the years until it operates like a business rather than like an isolated compound of weirdoes. plenty of cults now have things like "communications departments" and "mass media outreach plans" (and yet still send unpaid volunteers out as missionaries, for Some Reason). the vast majority of pastors and local leaders in a cult like this are unpaid volunteers. they do what Church HQ says, because they genuinely believe in the cult and the cult's mission. they're getting screwed over by HQ, just as much as any other member- but they have some control over the money and power that being a traditional cult leader gives you. a tiny sliver of the pie.

in COTL you are in this kind of middle-management position. despite being The Cult Leader, you are not running the show. The One Who Waits is. and The One Who Waits demands sacrifices- sacrifice of your time, of your talent, of your loyalty, of your power and arguably even your money. your followers are a convenient means to pass these sacrifices down the line to a third party.

even if you play a totally clean game of COTL where you are the best and kindest person you could be, you never sacrifice a follower, you never demand that they eat poop or sleep on the ground or marry you, you never extract money from your followers or send them on missions that could get them killed- and to be clear, this is probably the least optimal way to play the game- you are still taking Narinder's orders, and you are still constantly making sacrifices.

If you play the game clean, you're forced to sacrifice yourself, over and over again. you have to grind more to get money and resources because you're not getting them out of your followers; you're depriving yourself of some significant advantages (like the combat summons and the huge XP/faith boosts from sacrifice rituals). at the end, Narinder even demands you sacrifice your life to free him. (and of course, pretty much all players will call BS and fight him off, but the fact remains: he expects you to screw yourself over for his benefit.)

You extract resources from your followers primarily so that you can continue doing what Narinder wants you to do. Your crusades, your base building, your follower gathering- all of it is for the benefit of someone who sees you, quite literally, as a sacrificial lamb. someone who saved your life, but only so that they could screw you over more.

and your followers don't want you to play the game clean. they beg you to do all kinds of underhanded stuff so they can prove that you care about them enough to ask them to make those same sacrifices. make them eat poop. make them not sleep. make them do a specific task. they want you to hurt them, because your faith demands sacrifice. if you're not making them sacrifice, they don't keep the faith.

you're a vulnerable person who got sucked into a cult. now you have power over other vulnerable and frankly unstable people. but that power is limited, contingent on doing what the actual leader of the cult says, and fragile. it can be taken away from you at any time. you have to pass the buck along to your followers to keep that power. make them sacrifice everything, just as you have.

you could argue that the Lamb is a), b), or c), but whatever you argue, the Lamb is still middle-management. you're not trying to extract money from your followers for its own sake; your arm's just as twisted as theirs.

that's a lot more realistic than I expected from a game like COTL, and the beautiful thing about it is, it comes 100% from the game's roguelite mechanics. gameplay and story combine in COTL to really flesh out a (PG-rated! quirky and cute!) version of a toxic real-world dynamic. it puts you in the position of someone in the real world who's leading a cult under the guidance of the real leadership. and there are moments- gut-wrenching moments- where you're made brutally aware of the power you hold over your followers and the consequences of misusing that power.

...........I can't engage with Honey I Joined A Cult for more than a few minutes at a stretch, because that game makes me physically ill. as far as I can tell it does not do this. it's as focused on what cults do as Theme Hospital is focused on what doctors do. it's a money extraction simulator for its own sake, all the things your cult does are cheap laughs at the expense of the followers, and while it may be more "realistic" about what exactly your cult does all day in some ways? it's ... it makes a joke out of cults in a way that I find grotesque and deeply dangerous.

.....if I make this video at all, and I'm scared to do so, I should probably just stick to the COTL angle, huh?

#cotl #cult of the lamb #cults #i'm not putting this in the tag for the other game because it's straight-up hate #and i am polite #but hot damn i hate that game so much #cult mention #abuse mention #grooming mention

[cocrante]

Personally, I don't think that if Kaveh were to have a heavy argument with Haitham he would break down in tears. I can't see him leaving home in tears just because they had one of their nonsense conversations in which Haitham teases him, given that "whatever it is" is part of their mating ritual. At most, if Haitham were to really push him to the brink, Kaveh would tell him to go to hell directly and leave the house to clear his thoughts. Kaveh is well aware that dealing with Haitham isn't always easy, they have two different ways of seeing things and are often in conflict, but he also knows that he wouldn't do anything intentionally to hurt or make him feel bad.

Furthermore, Kaveh might be sensitive, but that doesn't mean that every sensitive person bursts into tears during an uncomfortable conversation. In fact, due to his sensitive nature, he tries to convey his point of view to the person in front of him in the calmest and kindest way possible, especially if he knows he's in the right. Kaveh is also smart (really smart) and he doesn't lack words for a debate, and if tears were to occur in an uncomfortable discussion, it's possible that his interlocutor would be the one to cry.

#📌 : headcanon #when i read that kaveh is crying bc of haitham it makes my nose itch #kaveh #alhaitham #genshin impact

[polyhexian]

I was just thinking about Lazulas and how funny it is that she's, like, not a super important character, she's there if the plot needs her but otherwise she's just kinda in the background, and yet she somehow manages to get butterfly effected in every universe. Every AU gives her a completely different fate.

Like in Agony we're told that she retired (after having a probably-Kikimora-induced nervous breakdown) and funnily enough that's the kindest fate we've seen for her so far.

In MH she gets eaten by Hooty.

In eventually she…was gonna get petrified for some reason?? Unclear if they succeeded since the CATTs interrupted the petrification ceremony, but like, what did she DO that Belos decided to petrify her? What the heck led up to THAT?

I think those're the only 3 post-Jabberwocky stories she's been mentioned in so far, but those're 3 wildly different ends so I think that's neat. You should make Lazulas's fate an easter egg in every fic lol. Insert a mention of it in the most wildly coincidental way possible.

God you are SO right. Like I wanna be clear that I DO actually know the series of events leading up to each outcome and how the butterfly effect of Jasper's different outcomes caused them lmfao

In agony, kikimora wanted her job and caused her nervous breakdown. Obviously we saw what happened in MH. In runaway without jasper or s golden guard without jasper or a golden guard in training Lazulas took over his responsibilities, whereas normally that falls to Lilith so that she can train hunter to do them. Kikimora got her job without having to do away with her for it, but unfortunately that meant that Lazulas was a little more obsessed with her own power, and thus kikimora couldn't get her out of her position without killing her. Only she got caught, which is why she's a fugitive. And then finally in eventually, because of jaspers early and open rebellion it led to Raine forming the CATTs earlier and more formally, which means a LOT more shit for the emperors coven to deal with. With Lilith dealing a lot with hunter that made Lazulas feel frustrated because she felt like she was doing the work of a coven head without the credit, so she took a note out of kikimoras book and tried to kill lilith. And thus, public execution.

[absurdthirst]

Hello ❤️

Please know this is being sent in the most kindest way possible and by no means is a remark on your writing or the story you posted, because you were very clear in your warnings (re: lactation, breast feeding etc.) and I don’t believe for one moment anything was written with ill intent.

I’d just like to share a little bit of insight on this line here and how it can be triggering for some people:

“…or as long as you could, to make sure that the baby was getting the best possible start to life.”

There’s so much pressure on those who can lactate to breast feed and the agenda that breast is best and formula can have a negative impact on a baby. It can be absolutely crushing when your body can’t do what it’s supposed to do no matter how hard you try, especially when there’s a societal expectation for it in every direction from the moment your pregnancy is confirmed.

Again, I really, really want to stress that I fully believe that there was zero ill intent in your writing and honestly, I’m upset at the idea of upsetting you and I apologize profusely if this doesn’t come across in the way it was intended. Because this isn’t a request to change it, I just wanted to share some insight only if you weren’t aware ❤️

Hi. I want you to know that I did not take offense to your message and thank you for sharing it.

I understand that it can be triggering for some people. I completely understand the pressure of breast is best, and societal expectations.

The purpose of that comment was to include that societal or personal expectation into the story. Because despite wishing that there was none, it's there. It was to show that even people who are struggling with fertility, surrogacy, other methods of having a child can still have those ideals.

I, myself, have dealt with that. My son was nearly 7 weeks premature, they had to induce labor because my life and my son's life was at risk. Because of that, he spent nearly a week in the NICU and most of that with a feeding tube down his nose. Latching never occurred, I was allowed 5-10 minutes to try to breast feed and it never worked.

Some of these things are a little fix-it for myself, or working through my own issues. It is not to cause any harm or offend. All that matters in the end for anyone with a child is that their child is fed. Bottle or breast, formula or no, fed is best.

That being said, I've removed the line. 💙

#breastfeeding #lactation

[hairringtonsteve]

Maybe a sick!fic with Eddie? You can decide who is the ill one, just some sweet sweet hurt/comfort!

i'm taking short eddie munson requests for who knows how long!

note: thank you for the ask! this was very soft and very sweet!

*****

The last thing you would ever call Dustin Henderson is a snitch. The kid had your back, for better or worse, and you’d never expect him to rat you out about anything. Accidentally bumping Steve’s car with your own while Dustin was in the passenger seat? Not a word. Losing Eddie’s prized D20 for a whole three days? Eddie must have misplaced it because Dustin swore you’d never even touched it. 

So this? This is betrayal at its finest. 

“Henderson says you look like shit.” 

The brick wall scratches at your back as you shift your weight from one heel to another. It’s hard to gauge just how long you’ve been there, crouching down as you try to hide from everyone else. It’s too hot in the building, so you thought some cool air would do you good. But now you’re cold — too cold — and the pressure behind your eyes is growing.

“Henderson’s full of shit.”

He quirks a brow at your response. His hands are on his hips as he watches you, waiting for you to cave. But you won’t cave. You can’t cave. You’ve got a math test in sixth period and there won’t be any time to make it up in the next week because you’ve got work immediately after school every night. You can rally through the rest of the day. Just because you feel like you’re going to pass out or puke (or both) doesn’t mean anything. You’re fine.

You feel fine.

“I’m going to try to say this in the kindest way possible,” Eddie begins as he walks towards you. You stare at his shoes. He nudges his foot against yours and despite everything in you, the corners of your mouth flick upwards. He crouches down, pressing the back of his hand against your forehead. You lean into his welcome touch, breathing out a sigh of relief. “You do, in fact, look like shit.” 

“That’s really rude.” You mumble the words as a wave of exhaustion crashes over you. “I just need a little break.” 

“You need a big break. C’mon, let’s go.” 

You open your eyes to look at him. When did you close them? Concern laces through his expression as he watches you. The feeling that you’ve been having around one of your closest friends recently, the one that warms you and excites you and terrifies you, flickers to life in your chest. The exhaustion smothers most of it, but it’s there. 

Eddie is there. 

“Let me take you home,” he murmurs. You open your mouth to argue as he removes his hand from your forehead. He places his palm gently against your cheek, thumb brushing your skin. “Please. Let me take care of you, okay?”

Any fight that is left in you disappears at his touch. 

You’re out of it enough that everything kind of runs together. You’re standing and you’re walking and his arm is around your waist and then you’re in his car and then you’re in your bed and everything is a little wobbly and nothing is really clear except for his voice, cutting through the fog. 

There are flickers of moments that etch themselves into your brain and stick with you for a long time after you’re feeling better. 

The tips of his curls tickling your face as he tucks in the blanket around you. 

His voice, soft and quiet, urging you to drink some water. 

Him asking your mom if he can hang with you to make sure that you’re feeling better. 

Sometime later, you wake up. Finally out of the haze of fever, all of your senses hit at once. You kick the blankets off of you in an effort to cool off, wincing as a massive headache crashes over you. Water. You need water, then tylenol. And maybe some food? Nope, still nauseous.

Thoughts of quenching your thirst swarm your head as you swing your legs over the side of your bed and land on something soft but firm. A yelp comes from the ground and you shriek, scrambling backwards on your bed. 

Eddie’s head comes into view, scowling at you as he rubs a hand against his chest. 

“Jesus, I take care of you and this is what I get?” Despite his words, there’s no annoyance in his tone as his eyes sweep over you. He takes you in and nods to himself. “You’re looking better. How you feeling?” 

You shrug. “Not terrible. What time is it?” 

He mimics your shrug, his head tilting to the side as he hauls himself up to sit on the side of your bed. “Late. Probably two or three?”

“My mom let you stay over?” 

“I sweet-talked her into it. If I’m making sure you’re not keeling over, that means she doesn’t have to.” Eddie scoots back to sit against your headboard and pats the space beside him. There isn’t a lot of room between him and the wall. 

You gulp. 

He pats the space again. 

You stare at him for a second longer and ignore the pounding of your heart. It’s probably because you’re still sick. 

“You going to scoot over?” You manage to croak out. 

The expression on his face shifts to something indecipherable. Slowly, he shakes his head. “You going to come over here?” 

Is this when things finally come to a head? Hours after you were sick to your stomach? You take the plunge and crawl towards him, wedging against his side. His arm wraps around your shoulder loosely and pulls you in close. Your side against his burns hot, but this time it’s not from the fever. Your head makes its home somewhere between his chest and his shoulder. 

“What’re we doing, Ed?” The words come out soft, barely there. His fingers against your shoulder tap out a gentle rhythm against your skin. 

“We’re doing what we always do.” His voice is just as soft, just as wary. 

The two of you, on the precipice of something. 

“What’s that?” 

The words hang in the air. 

“Taking care of each other.”

#eddie munson x reader #eddie munson fanfic #stranger things x reader #stranger things fanfic #stranger things 4 #sick-fic #ask #anon #request

[starry-blue-echoes]

I love how jotaro is just a cryptid in most of your aus, especially golden wind.

Just how many crypt traits carry over from au to au? Just... make a cryptid jotaro. Cryptid Ocean Man Au.

ERGHERJGRDRCBDGF

What if Holly ended up visiting the Foundation when she was a young woman and there was a Containment Breach, during which she accidentally found this small kid and logically decides "okay, it's dangerous right now, gotta keep this kid safe" and lets the little Jotaro into her hiding spot. Maybe she even gives him a candy she had in her bag (Holly seems like to kind of person who'd have the Magic Bag Of Everything and no matter what you need or want she's got it)

and on his end of things Jotaro's decided "I've only known this woman for a few minutes but if anything happened to her I'd kill everyone here and then myself"

And then once he's been contained again and Holly goes back home, he just. Keeps managing to break out and always manages to make his way back to her. Doesn't matter what security measures they use or if they relocate him to the other side of the world, he always manages to get out and just chills with Holly, even if it's just for a couple hours

eventually (with some very convincing arguments and a whole slideshow from Holly), they end up just. Letting Holly keep him because aside from when he breaks out, he's not actually doing any harm and seems to genuinely only want to be with her. They do set some very strict guidelines on what Jotaro is and isn't allowed to do and make it clear that any trouble will get him right back to the facility, and some of the Foundation workers who check in probably aren't..... the kindest to him, but Holly is a damn good mother and more than makes up for it

I'll admit I don't know too much about SCPs, but I had a possible thought for Jotaro's Thing

What if he has a kind of learning/mimicking/creating type thing that only affects himself with almost limitless boundaries except it has to be what he wants on a deep, internalized level. He wanted to hide and be seen as a non-threat, so he took the form of a seemingly helpless human child. He wanted to be with Holly again, so he was able to escape every time and find her no matter where he was taken. He wanted to be her son, so he seems to grow and age like a human. He wants to protect her, so he "grows up" to be big and strong and capable

But with all this knowledge, everything he knows and everything he can be...... it can blend together and leads to him being socially awkward. He has difficulties communicating and sometimes he gets stuck in loops of indecision when he can't figure out what would be the best to do or say and then can get frustrated when people don't understand what he means. His family is usually pretty good at recognizing when he has these moments, but to outsiders it can be difficult

SCP Jotaro would probably be a bit different from Canon Jotaro.

For one, I don't think he'd lash out at Holly. Even more so than in canon, Holly is one of the only people he can trust because she is one of the only people he knows will fight for him if the Foundation tries to take him back. A small part of him is terrified of her deciding one day to just let them take him, but most of him knows that she would never. She is his mother and he is her son. They protect each other.

As for another, when he does lash out, he'd have to be W A Y more careful about when and how. Skipping school and the like would be mostly fine, but getting into fights? That is a HARD no because even if he didn't start them it would still be dangerous and pose a risk toward him getting taken away again. This....... actually adds another layer to him locking himself in the cell when Star manifests and he accidentally hurts those guys

#this was so much fun to think about #initial thoughts #swcp foundation #jjba #jojo’s bizarre adventure #stardust crusaders #jjba part 3 #jjba jotaro #jotaro kujo #star platinum #jjba holly #holly kujo #sb answers #ravenwolf1132

[stainedglassthreads]

Also something I think is overlooked a lot is just. They BOTH effectively tell you to leave, to put Undertale away, to go play another game. 

Flowey’s is obvious. He blatantly tells you to let Frisk live their life, and is the culmination of the concept that the kindest way to play Undertale is to do True Pacifist once, and never again. Flowey’s whole arc is about learning to let go of his Reset ability and the godlike power he once possessed, as well as the past that will never return more generally. 

But Chara... also does that? They blatantly tell you that there’s nothing left here for either of you, and you should move onto the next world together. I feel like a lot of people, especially early on in Undertale, took this to mean ‘we should destroy another timeline’ but... no. Timelines and worlds are two different things. Sans talks about timelines. Alphys talks about alternate worlds, but Sans talks about timelines like they’re a definite, confirmed thing. Alphys talks about other worlds like it’s a nice hypothetical she likes to believe. 

Chara doesn’t say ‘timeline’, and they make it clear they don’t understand why you’d kill the same people over and over again. You have raised your stats in Undertale as high as they’ll go-- Chara possibly wants you to continue raising your stats and accumulating power in a different game. After all, where’s the efficiency in doing the same task, over and over, and expecting to make any further progress towards your goal, or even towards higher power? That’s not efficiency, that’s insanity. 

The same conclusion reached, but through very different arcs. Being willing to let go of things can be a positive acceptance of change and the first steps towards healing, or an apathetic destruction of those around you and yourself. It can either be Flowey growing up and starting to grasp right and wrong again, or Chara throwing everything they loved away in the pursuit of LOVE. 

#undertale #undertale theory #undertale meta #undertale analysis #flowey #asriel #asriel dreemurr #chara #chara dreemurr #they are different but also the same