#vent ramble

[weepinglilvessel]

Are you doing okay?

…I was gonna lie and be like “oh hell yeah I’m great!!” But I’m not.

I started procrastinating even more on passion projects and drawing in general. I started to hate how I look and worried about my weight (which probably isn’t good cuz I’m eating less :D) and now I’m worried about numbers on a screen and people who block me when I shouldn’t give two clickity fucks cuz I don’t know them personally and it doesn’t affect me physically.

This feeling of shame won’t leave ya know. And I don’t just wanna continue venting cuz I know that’s not what people are here for and I don’t want people having to deal w my bullshit.

So I’m just chilling, listening to my negative thoughts pick away at me. So ya! I’m doing good :3 I probably need to get off of social media for a bit.

2024 is fun guys❤︎︎

Sorry for the dumb rambling

#I couldn’t hold in the vent ramble #just ignore me #its not important #vent text #vent ramble

[littleprincerianne]

sometimes i just wanna be stripped of all obligations and responsibilities, sat in front of a screen showing dancing fruit on repeat whether i look at it or not and be told everything will be alright and be called a little prince instead of my name and be held as i sleep because responsibilities and obligations and not even sparing myself the minute to feel itty bitty cuz it never feels safe suck

#age regression #agere community #sfw agere #agere blog #sfw age regression #sfw little blog #sfw little community #age regressor #agere #sfw littlespace #agere vent #vent ramble #short vent #vent post #tw vent #sfw blog #sfw little #sfw age dreamer #text ramble #short text #random text #short ramble #ramble #rambles #ramblings #ri-think about it #vent agere #age regression sfw #age regression blog

[rhodeybugg]

Alright i'm gonna say how im feeling.

I know Nuzi is a comfort ship for some people but i'm getting mildly upset seeing people rubbing it in everyone's faces.

Envy is a major comfort ship for me because of the character growth of V. Seeing all of these "NUZI IS CANON WE WIN" posts on twitter when nothing has been openly stated Just hand holding and blushing [which is normal non-romantically?]. Y'all can be excited over ship nudges, dont get me wrong, but like. Not all of us ship Nuzi and seeing it rubbed in our faces and claimed as canon is kinda upsetting. Maybe it's just me and my little autistic ass but like..

#murder drones #vent ramble #artemis is a gentle envy and oilrose shipper

[cybrange]

sad that my nonhumman identity is inexplicably tied to humankind :/

respect to all of those whose identities are not tied to humans at all and those that like their connection to humans. but mine is. uncomfortable. whether it be taxidermy, plushies, experimentation, or exhibition, it's all related to humankind.

i want to be separated from them. they're mean! they hurt! but i cannot

#vent post #vent ramble #schizospec #dog endel

[awooterasu]

I’m realizing I get attached too easily to acts of kindness and understanding from other people… which can easily spiral off before I can realize “oh no. It’s happened again”

often ends with pushing away or going away because I recognize it and want to dial myself back down(but that request comes out all wrong)

#bpd #turns out #you attach easily to any act of kindness if live has been fairly devoid of it #bpd fp #vent ramble #I know the above sounds weird but this is how I have dealt with this aspect typically but I feel exasperated at it going that way #I guess that’s why I’m going to therapy to deal with it better #the feelings and impulsiveness that comes with are so disorienting too

[urlocalwormtoday]

will it be worth it??

in a few years it'll be worth it it'll be worth it it'll be worth it it'll be worth it everything will be fine then in a few years then it will be worth it it will be worth it and everything will be worth it I'll look back at the silly memory and laugh and laugh and think about how it's going to be worth it and how it is worth it.

It's worth it I hope

I hope I hope

#vent ramble #venting #screaming into the void #automatic srry to any mutuals that stumble across this #currently having a bad day

[cupid-archives]

how do i communicate how much you mean to me beyond repeating the words i love you. love is not a strong enough word to convey everything you are to me. i suffocate in you willingly. my day revolves around you, waiting to hear from you, thinking of you. everything in life ive worked for has been for you. i live for you. i give you my life and my existence willingly. i give you every inch of what my self means. i devote myself to you. no one has ever made me feel like you, feel so full like you. no one makes me laugh like you. you are everything in every sense of the word. i need you. i need you as desperately as i need air. i cant exist without you because everything i am is for you.

#vent ramble #yancore #t4t darling #darling mlm #darling txt #darling rambles #obslove #obslove vent

[sensitivegoblin]

That moment when the Autism is Autisming instead of just being an excuse

#vent ramble #my sister has to go to the hospital (I think she’s just experiencing the level of pain I do everyday) and our Mario party plans got canceled #:((((((( #change in plans is really hard for me #especially since I was using that as motivation for a shower :/ #at the most she’s hurt and she kinda gets hurt all the time #plus she was rude to me last night about my chronic pain #so… not in the mood to care #i CARE but my energy is being zapped out of me and I know you’re fine #i just…I can’t be a perfect human #i should insist to go to the ER with her cus I think her bf is gonna wait in the car😒 #but..my autism is already bad and waiting and hospital rooms make it worse #I’m just freaking out honestly like #fuck #i have no life no friends No anything #so much so that I have to beg my family to play a virtual board game with me #and then I’m so stupid and fucking broken that I completely fall apart when things don’t go my way #nobody hates me more than me I just #F U C K #I’m tired #I’m just #ugh I can’t fucking think I just hate myself and existing so much I literally have no worth

[secretsinthevoid]

I know our spouse jokes around with us about “having other personalities/alters” or refers to us as “the council” but one of these days he’s gonna walk in on us working on our doc and see it all, then we’ll have to talk to him about it. I thought he’d have seen it the other day when we were updating it and fixing things but nope (if he did see it he never said anything)

It scares me a little, gives me some anxiety because most of our health issues have come out and been taken care of during our relationship and he’s always been super supportive. Never made us feel like we’re less for struggling and not being able to do certain things. He’s always been right at our side with nothing but love, compassion, and support.

I guess it’s the trauma, always being bullied and let down by those who claim to “support” us. Plus, how do I even bring it up to him? Like yeah, “the council” is a real thing and sometimes I don’t remember our conversations because it’s not me but they remember every word about it (or a summarized version).

I already feel like a burden most of the time because of how shitty our health has been the past few years which has also made our mental health worse, and even when I say that I feel that way, he assures me we’re not but I still can’t seem to shake the feeling off every now and then when it pops up.

I know I’m safe and don’t have to live in survival mode, I don’t have anything to fear. This is the safest I’ve been my entire life. I’ve been unmasking for years now and find it hard to mask most of the time. I know I have a hard time letting others in because of past interactions, and other things.

Just talking about my trauma, mental health in its entirety with those I’m super close with is a struggle for me; and I get it, I understand why it is, I really do. Just the thought alone of speaking about it or attempting to explain it in person to someone fills me with anxiety and dread and I can feel the shutdown/meltdown coming on.

#personal vent #journal post #vent ramble

[coolocgod]

Shit has been rough

So alot has been happening this month and, i just dont feel okay, i thought this year would be better then last year but it really isnt, i just want my friends to be okay, i want one day where my friends are doing horribly, i just want them to be happy, why cant i just have my friends be actually okay, and its not just friends im worried about its pretty much everything, everything is shitty and i just want a day where things arent shit, just 1 day is that no much to fucking ask for? Just a day where it doesnt feel like everything is burning itself down, just one day where people can actually relax, just one fucking day, i want one fucking day where it doesnt feel like im a lab rat trying to find the fucking cheese that doesnt exist

Sorry that this just seems like im rambling cues i kinda am but, everything has just been horrible, this month has been shit and i just want stuff to get better, im probably gonna take a mental health break soon cues i fucking need it at this point, but anyways yeah cya later i guess

#vent ramble #ramble #shit has been rough #zen rambles

[theydrewfirst]

So I’m sick again

I’m really trying to like, be more active on this blog but irl stuff is always in the way

I definitely gotta lose some weight for the sake of my back problems (and health) and my mom is gonna help me get there since we’re both bigger n definitely need to get moving. My uncle goes to the gym at night so I probably can go with him too. I just need to lose weight basically. My family and friends have been my biggest supporters in this situation especially when I came out as nonbinary, they always were there for me.

Though, enough with my rambling,, I should probably do a intro post one day lol

#vent ramble #i’m just tired #I hate looking at myself in the mirror #I’ll get there tho with my body type

[littleprincerianne]

vent post. i am so so so so so so sorry i just dunno where else to pour this disappointment out... please don't read through this if you're at a sensitive point/state. this is mainly on and about me, there is absolutely zero intent to hurt, disappoint, or invalidate anyone at all.

sometimes i wish i needed not to age-dream or regress or slip in general considering the amount of times it ended up being a key player in instances wherein i've set myself up for failure

i'm the worst at practicing what i preach, so while i can wholeheartedly validate everyone else, i can't do that same thing for myself; nor can i consistently accept the fact that it happens. i don't want it to happen since it feels like i don't have a valid reason for it to happen

rianne simply liking it, simply leaning towards typically childish things, rianne having to raise a child and ultimately feeling the need to push away my social life to the point where mum used to insist that i "go out and have fun for once" just don't feel acceptable enough as reasons for me most days

i'm too grown, i barely have horrible memories to back the need for this, i had a great childhood that i need not to fix, i barely remember anything in general... so, why?

and yeah, i can just quietly go and delete this blog, try my hardest to completely forget it as an existing concept in my smooth brain, all that jazz... i also found myself liking the thought that people enjoy this blog, so it feels difficult to abandon a flower other people can see the beauty of

#vent post #tw vent #text post #rant #long rant #long post #rant post #ri-think about it #vent rant #vent ramble #agere vent #age regression #sfw age regression #agere #age regressor #age dreaming #agedre #sfw age dreamer

[rhodeybugg]

//I know for a fact I lost some followers after my Nuzi rant [considering how I cant open ProjectAnomaly's tumblr blog anymore]

I'm not gonna bite your head off or witch hunt you if you ship it?

And like. When I talk about my dislike for N x Uzi, it's not to say "hey dont ship it" or "dont ship what you like", because I myself ship J x V and V x N and Doll x Lizzy for multiple reasons! Doll x Lizzy is a comfort ship for me, and how could I forget my lovely Guns n Roses [Zara x Tessa]

But when I say "N x Uzi makes me feel gross and icky inside and the 'relationship' they have feels forced, please dont flaunt it around as canon until we get actual confirmation", I mean it reminds me of how the BMLB ship went from RWBY, and also reminds me of some irls that have caused a bunch of romance trauma and make me really uncomfortable and act exactly like them and I cannot ship or stand n x uzi.

I just

Eugh.

#i'll be nice and keep this out of the main tags #artemis rambles #vent ramble

[1ns3ct3y3]

Er jeg den eneste igjen som faktisk prøver å hjelpe? :(

Og jeg skulle ønske jeg kunne gjøre mer for å gjøre ham glad, selv om det bare er litt -

jeg skulle ønske han tok rådet mitt, og jeg skulle ønske han ville snakke med meg litt mer - men hva kan jeg gjøre, alt jeg gjør er å starte kamper.

#vent ramble

[teaboot]

You know being transmasc after a life of growing up as the sole "girl" in male-dominated areas gives you a weird and complicated relationship with gender identity.

Like... being told straight to your face, "you're naturally bad at this cause you're a girl", "you're naturally weaker cause you're a girl", "you can act tough but you'll always just be a girl", "stop acting like you can keep up with the men", and even the well-intentioned, "Yeah women are like that, but you don't count, you're basically one of the boys"...

It leads you to this weird space where it's like. "Fuck you, women kick ass," and then busting yourself up to prove that you, a woman, *can* keep up, and not only keep up but do it better than anyone else, and taking pride in your femininity because it's not a fucking weakness, but at the same time knowing that... You're not a woman.

You're not a woman. You're not a girl. People just see tits and curves and decide that nature made you delicate, and then all of a sudden it's your responsibility to prove that you're not fucking weak, women aren't weak, while also saying, "I'm not a woman, though."

It's... bizarre.

I'm not a girl. But so long as I'm interpreted as one, I'm still gonna be held back by the same stereotypes. But if I ever stop being interpreted as one, then all the hard fucking work I put in to excel in my field is going to go down the toilet as "just something you can do because you're a man".

And fuck that. That's stupid, too. Guys shouldn't have their effort taken for granted like that, and it stings extra hard because you remember people just naturally assuming you suck and earning respect only to lose it immediately the second you step over to the "man" side. Because you've worked your whole life for something that as a man you'd just be expected to have naturally.

You SEE that shit staring you in the face, and worst of all people still walk around you in plain view and still talk about how women can't do shit and conveniently forget that you've BEEN ONE. "Because you were a man all along" or "because you overcompensate to prove yourself", whatever they think of to justify the cognitive dissonance that keeps their narrative going.

Nobody seems to consider that I'm not really different from women OR men, because those differences don't exist.

I'm not "naturally better" than women because I don't identify as one, and I'm not "worse than" men because I wasn't assigned the title by a third party. I'm just a person. We're all just people.

I'm just tired, man.

#Rambling #Idk #You can reblog if you wanna but it's just a personal vent

[volcanic42]

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#tw vent #vent #vent post #tw #vent rant #vent ramble #... #still here? #i wish my parents would just get a divorce already #everyone knows that they hate eachover #me #my brothers #my grandparents #probably the neighbour as well #like 90% certain she knows #but yet they're still together #i can't renember a single day where there hasn't been an argument in the house #hasn't been a threat #hasn't been the fear that they'll do some awful to eachover #hadn't been the fear of having to pick sides #tbh they're both wrong #VERY wrong #i don't care who has to leave the house #i just want one of them to leave #they're both good parents when they're on their own in the house #i love them both #but #i just hate when they're together #fuck amatonormativity #i swear amatonormativity is the only reason they're still together