#which like we r!!!

[blackgivesway2blue]

tag ramble

#so like. idk if my gf has realized im a pet regressor????? #like its in the bio of my literal pet regression blog which is linked on main #but she doesnt use tumblr much #just to keep up w me on a few side blogs #and like #ive sent her mood boards and outfit boards ive made #n like stuff like that #even an etsy board titled puppyre #but she also hasn't said anything or asked me abt it #and im kinda nervous abt it #bc like what if she secretly thinks its weird #my bf also used to be the only interaction my pupre blog got #n it doesn't have tumblr anymore so it doesn't look at it obvs #but like it left tumblr before i realized what i was doing was pet regression #so idk #like if it know #same worry tho #i dont want either of them to leave me bc sometimes im just a dog fr #like not in just a silly lil oh we r dogboy4catboy hehe way #which like we r!!! #but like actual real coping mechanism #ough #but yeah i just sent my gf pics of the petre and pet dreamer flag cuff patterns i made on kandipatternz #and told her what they were #so #hopefully if she didn't put the pieces together before she will now #also i miss my bf sooo much #like fr #im highkey tired of being the dog it shut outside #but liek im still its loyal pup

[chitinleg]

got him off-balance!

#my art #ds9 #star trek deep space nine #julian bashir #elim garak #garashir #watercolor #image desc in alt text #i normally post on mondays but. today im breaking my pattern! getting a little silly. getting a little wild. garashir jumpscare #“tumblr user chitinleg garak would neot easily let himself be swooped off his feet into a hug like that” yes i know BUT! #look at his expression. look at how his arms r pinned. he didnt let this happen LMAO julian just surprised him. grabby huggy human behavior #if you look really closely you can see the tiniest frown in the world on Garak's face. because he's like “EEP !” #cant see bashirs face at all in this only his body but i think we can all imagine that whatevers going thru his head. he needs this hug bad #ALSO. for anyone wondering what the fucked up shadow is that starts at the juncture of the teal sleeve-cap where its set into the armhole #the jumpsuits have a bit of a fold of extra fabric (called an Action Pleat) there which allows for a little more maneuverability of the bod #AND creates a really sleek and flat back panel #because you can see the fabric twists along the side arent grabbing the flat back fabric theyre grabbing the fabric folded beneath it #often times i think about drawing out a dissection of kiras first uniform and this voy era one for other artists to use. bc god knows #i struggled at first to find full body references #they like to shoot ds9 very close to peoples heads. and the camera is so blurry. they smeared butter on that thing. god bless

[itspileofgoodthings]

Good morning what are the movies or tv shows that traumatized you as a kid mine are the BBC production of A Christmas Carol and a handful of David Suchet Poirot episodes

#my dad always thought if something was well done it was appropriate for children #so we never watched the silly little kid version of things. The muppet Christmas Carol? My dad would N E V E R #anyway a Christmas Carol ruined Christmas for me for YEARS #i hated to think about it #and poirot was just. traumatizing #there’s one called murder on the links which involved a golf course at night which is one of the most terrifying locations I can imagine #also there’s one called death in the clouds #and poirot uncovers the murder because there are two spoons on the dead lady’s tray of airplane food #and the way he says ‘he picks up a spoon giving him the task of a waiter to carry out’ #when explaining the murder at the end to this DAY sends chills up my spine #I know this is very obvious but the thing about fear is that it isn’t about logic or reason but it is about revelation #it’s like the flip side of moments of good and happy insight #at least for me #what terrifies me is a moment where some kind of evil is revealed in a blinding FLASH #a motive or (I guess) a ghost #and there is this presence of some malevolent entity underneath the reality of things #and something about it being SEEN almost more than it existing #is so scary. Like I. #Poirot uncovering the murder and describing it with such studied fascinated careful attention #pulling back the layers of a blind of one kind or another #shakes me to. my. CORE. #and it’s all so visual and instinctive. it’s one tiny little moment that doesn’t fit suddenly pulling back the curtain of reality #with such terrifying abruptness #makes me want to sit down and cry like a baby #the knowledge of evil doesn’t scare me. as in it doesn’t elicit an emotional/physical reaction of fear #but seeing it in embodied action. again. where it’s some tiny ordinary little detail suddenly ripping reality as you know it to shreds #the surprise of it. the recalibration it demands #I !!!!!!!!! Get so afraid

[quirinah]

ummmmmmm guys this dungeons looking a little dark here..........................ummmm..... hello??? guys??

#quirinahdraws #darkest dungeon #darkest dungeon 2 #IVE BEEN IN THE TRENCHES SO I NEED 2 POST MY EARLY APRIL DRAWINGS FROM WHEN I WAS (am) PLAYING THIS GAME TERMINALLY.... #try to guess my favorite character (very difficult impossible /j) #notable moments include reynauld and dismas kicking the bucket in my first year to which i thought after the latter. ok at least theyre #together in death or watever. anyways i got a beyond the grave a week later with both of them and i could only revive one of them and my #first thought was wow! this would make great angst fodder! i should make a comic (and then i didnt) #but dismas is dead so i can never get the achievement but he basically carried me thru vvulf bc i didnt have any legend lvl frontliners and #i didnt know u could just sacrifice a hero to retreat. or that you had to destroy the bomb barrel HAHAHAHAH but we defeated vvulf SOMEHOW #sketchdump #digital #dd plague doctor #dd jester #dd shieldbreaker #dd arbalest #dd abomination #SORRY FOR YAOIFYING BIGBY THAT BADLY IDK WHAT HAPPENED...ETTO....... #my favorite builds are damage over time <3 number one blight buddy supporter #but marked for death r also my pookies....i just find marked builds a little awkward to use imo. but bh is like my blorbo #i find it funny drawing any of the charas bc i feel like i always draw characters a little too cutesy/colorful but its shrimpresting

[literallyaflame]

i don’t know what it is about sign language that makes ppl say the most buckwild most uninformed shit you’ve ever seen in your life. like. i’m hoh and only conversationally fluent. i have access needs, sure, but i’m not qualified to educate anyone about sign language. so i generally stay out of it.

the thing is, there’s only so many times you can see someone confidently say some shit like “why didn’t they just make ONE sign language???” or “actually every country has their own asl” or “wait, i can answer this! i don’t know anything about sign language, but i read a wattpad fic about a Deaf girl in 2015—” before you start chewing on walls

#and then every other post tagged for d/Deaf and hoh ppl is just a writing resource for hearing ppl #which like #listen #idk what the allure is #u’d think we r elves or something #here i’ll give you this one for free #90% of it is that i don’t turn around when people expect me to turn around #and then they think i’m rude #and if u use asl in public for any reason ppl look at u like they’ve never seen hands before #me when i make a post

[preseriesdean]

You know, we are allowed to have fun once in a while. for @horrorshow ✨

#spnedit #samdeanedit #corespnedit #supernatural #* #*r #horrorshow #yes i count clandestine graveyard rituals as 'we time' #inspired by @youchoseeachother's graveyard date gifset #it's romantic <3 #except they're bickering in both scenes in that gif which i find even more adorable #like an old married couple #*fav

[eight-pointed-star]

#fëanor #maedhros #my art #silmarillion #the brainrot continues i'm afraid. yes i'm aware of how much feanor&maedhros stuff i've drawn and written here in the past couple of weeks #i too am horrified. not surprised though #fëanor & maedhros #why so many floral ornaments on their clothes? they're noldor! you might ask. and you would be completely right #i have no idea what i'm doing #i have a very limited fantasy i just copy the ornaments from whatever clothed i find on pinterest and like #i DON'T enjoy thinking ohhh what kind of clothes and ornaments would these characters wear if we take into account their culture and the we #ther (which we know nothing about) their individual personalities their character arcs and symbolism the parallels between them and the oth #r characters. i DON'T care!!!!! and i can't just leave their clothes unadorned. so here we are #i say if the clothes match the characters vibe — great amazing good lovely. if they don't — fantastic splendid beautiful wonderful

[bericas]

isaac & scott / mason & theo | sometimes all i think about is you

#twedit #twvid #scisaac #mason x theo #twrarepair #back on my scisaac masontheo parallel bullshit btw #back on my masontheo is just scisaac if they were True enemies to lovers bullshit. btw. if anyone was wondering. #like of course scisaac and masontheo get paintaking scenes. its enemies to lovers. ofc mason calls theo a bitch its FULL enemies to lovers #for clarity the hands at the rave and the masontheo hug r parallels to ME bc its touch with an excuse for it #scisaac can brush hands when theyre holding a needle between them and theo can hug mason when its a means to an end #the rest i feel r fairly straightforward but i wanted to share the vision for that one #mason hewitt #theo raeken #scott mccall #isaac lahey #tw #oh also the last shot is the last shot of isaac and theo respectively. if that wasnt clear. #like how isaac and theo both nebulously sort of Gone from beacon hills #and the theo shot also to me looks like footage from The masontheo ep 618. btw. which just brings me joy #actually i have more to say. hi. masontheo r just so. #you know how isaac kind of has. he has the awkward tenderness of someone who has never been loved and is forced to improvise #theo doesnt even have THAT!!!! scott holds out a hand and isaac takes it with an awkward fervor #mason keeps his hands to himself because he doesn't trust what theo might do with it and theo can only help when its helping himself #bc the tenderness will be TOO AWKWARD. so isaac says he wont leave without scott and theo says we need to find him so i cant leave you #so isaac grabs scott because scott makes him feel safe and theo can only grab mason when its part of a script bc thats how he feels safe #HELLO. IS THIS THING ON. DO U GUYS HEAR ME. SCISAAC IF THEY WERE TRUE ENEMIES TO LOVERS!!!!

[shummthechumm]

sol and his guard, jingo (aka rewrite ramblings)

#wc #red and silver #warrior cats #warrior cats rewrite #warrior cats au #jingo wc #jingo warrior cats #sol wc #sol warrior cats #so YEAH in the rewrite the cats that we see in sunrise are still following sol #including jingo who is one of his most trusted cats #she's like 3000% willing to chokeslam any strange clan cats who try and attack her boss #which seems to be happening a lot now so she has her work cut out for her #since sol is actually semi-competent in r&s he is. fairly good at keeping cats loyal to him i'd say #i mean who wouldnt want to follow the guy who can speak dog and predict the future #shumm's art #you should've seen him chew out those dogs bro no im not lying it was so cool

[bfdifan26]

started thinking really hard about one the other day for some reason

#i odnt feel like talking but im just gonna say if they turn out like my perception of them in my head oh man. i might have a 5th favourite #also i LOVR the idea of them having a way more clearly alien appearance compared to the other algebraliens #both bc of them being isolated unlike the others we know who r either in the playground or with the objects #and also bc they just . like the way they look n dont want to change to appear less threatening to objects #which is what four two and x did #but ididnt feel like coming up with and putting all the alien features n extra limbs and stuff here rn #they’re so cool dude…… moon alien……………..augh #battle for dream island #x finds out his value #bfdi #bfb #tpot #xfohv #bfdi one #xfohv one #tpot one #odieart

[spotsupstuff]

as i'm workin on my Ancient stuff- i've got to say that it is really interesting and neat (read: nasty) that there's a good chance most of the Ancient population probably didn't actually wear masks. but We think they did cuz the only really solid evidence of what they looked like at all all comes from places of the higher social circles. and those strived for religious... superiority, i guess. brownie points, not actual dedication to the religion for the sake of its teachings but either because it made them look good, put them higher in the social hierarchy or whatever manipulation have you (or the flawed look upon the religion aka "we gotta get out of this cycle no matter what")

all we are left with are the bastards. the simple people and their cultures that were left to weather the Iterators' rains were simply washed away. nobody cared for their way of life- as long as it served the higher circles well and they stayed submissive (enough so that at the end everyone would take a dip in the void), nobody had to give a singular shit

just how much do we not know about the Ancients' *everything* because of this disregard? how much do we think we are right about, when such is true only for the small but privileged piece of the species?

#Spot says stuff #rw #which is why i -goes insane over oc lore again- #VIVA LA REVOLUCIÓN BAYBEEEEEE #this came to me cuz like. sparrows is very much a Bruh girl. shes a yeehaw if you know what i mean. shes kinda stumpy cuz she grew up in- #-the farms of Euros' facilities n had to haul things around. ancients from the iterator cities? or the ones on the murals? very much dont- #-look like that nah. theyre like twigs without any muscle to hold their bellies in some kinda form so they look like That. the masks- #-themselves originally became a thing for religious reasons. what reason would a farm girl have to wear a mask while workin in the fields? #yanno? it sounds mostly impractical. n down there they prolly werent such religious nutcases like the ''Higher Ones'' #sparrows' granda would have some choice words bout her havin a mask now JKVLDSMLKC he constantly complains about Euros cuz like #he remembers what it was like before Euros was turned on- man had an iterator rain free childhood n now he has to deal with This bullshit #''back in M'day we didnt hefta be runnin fro' some rain generated by an overgrown *Toaster*!!! we played in da grass for however long- #-we wished!!! sure aye it was standin there n overshadowin us from time to time but-" ''ya ya we kno granda settle down before u pull smth' #iterators r so fucking terrifying

[myleftpinkytoe]

So it has come to my attention that not everyone grew up with the phrase “peopled out”, which my family uses as the socialising version of “tired out”. 

Like. After a day of socialising, I would be very tired of interacting with people, and when my mom came home and wanted to chat, I’d just say “Sorry mom, I’m kind of Peopled Out today” and my mom would be like “Oh, fair enough! We can talk later”, and then she would leave me alone.

I tried to do that with an acquaintance recently and they acted like the very concept of me being tired of people-ing was a personal attack on them and I just???? I assumed this was a universal experience, like getting thirsty when it’s hot outside?????????????

#autism #i think #aspergers #asd #adhd #maybe idk #listen i have recently realised that i do a Lot of Things that seems Indicative of Stuff #and also that my parents ALSO do the Things #like #do other people... not get quiet... when the 'talking' part of their brain gets tired???? #r u telling me the 'talking' part of the brain NEVER gets tired???????? #Is it not normal to have specific sounds not be allowed in the house? #like everyone had a 'NOPE' noise that we just didn't do #bc we knew it would make the person uncomfy #and the special allowances we made for our 'thing' #which was the word for whatever obsession we had at the time #well #mostly me #but also sometimes my dad #we just get caught on things! #anyways im starting to wonder if my family's whole Deal might be a little neurodivergent #like wow we sure did love our routines

[obsob]

here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud!!

✷(print shop)✷

#mine #original #euheuhe hello..i hope everyone is having a good day #we are going on a bird boat thing on wednesday im very excited about it #what else.....me and my bf went on a walk on sunday and i saw damsel flies and shield bugs and a duck with 13 ducklings #i bought a jellycat sun bag which is now all i talk about #ive started reading assassins apprentice by robin hobb!!!! its so good!!!! #im so excited there are so many books in the series to read #i doubt i will like all of them but i will give them all a go #today i will stop and hve dinner n then walk the dog and then do exercise and have a bath #and then i will. play zelda #and then tomorrow i will do shop stuff and also help my mum buy a bench apparently #i need to buy snacks also. i hve a snack stash in my rooom bc of mental illness purposes and i am low.....need snacks #maybe i will do that tomorrow. brain schedule is full up for today sorry #also. unrelated. i have my period???? again????? ive already had it this month hello i dont need another im good im all done #my hormones r going ??OAGHGHGHUH #also i want like . cute bra. but like not a bra like just cloth thats like. tit shaped. a bralet? is that what that is? no idea #anyway. hve nice evening. or else. #i have a headache #OH ALSO. i need to legally chnage my name SKFSABJSBK #put that on th todo list #i cant rmemeber how 2 do it i think it was very straight forward n cost like. £10 or smth

[blueiight]

claudia still gets infantilized by media surrounding iwtv despite this being core to the tragedy of her condition

i think shes always been infantilized & ppl dont see the merit of her arc bc ppl rly only care about female characters in relation with romance or if they are children [or someone’s child of sorts?] in so far as they relate to the men rearing them. [cue 5001 lestat-claudia webweaves]. claudia is both selectively infantilized & excessively adultified whenever convenient to character/s [somehow both a ‘child interfering’ and both powerful enough to ‘turn louis against lestat’] nd to a certain extent by the fandom too. speaking of the show here too - show!louis now wanting claudia as his child is never disseminated for what it is in relation to louis (how he wanted children, and how hes forcibly exiled from the public sphere & makes do with the quasi-domestic) or claudia (in her want for a companion in immortality & wanting to understand the origins of their existence. in both the book and the show its claudia who initiates the question of ‘who made lestat/vampires as a whole’) but rather ppl render show claudia inert solely as a fictional moral bludgeon to character bash louis or make stuntin like my mommy/daddy posts with lestat. i was thinking too the other day how people often talk about iwtv in the sense of outcasts but never mention claudia… which is insane bc this line in the show alone says so much

But it was 1939, and the only N* allowed in first class was the porter, and the N* passenger rode the rear. The N* vampire made do with what was left, which was fine with her.

neither second-class passenger nor porter directly serving whites: claudia is the black vampire sitting in the stowaway with the dogs and people’s luggage, earlier hiding out in university corners pretending to be the cleaner’s child, engorging herself on blood and taking body parts from her victims to put in storage all if it means she could have something for herself. shes really the ult. outcast of sorts.

#yn. #yn answers #yn do sum maymays. #kaelio #iwtv #claudia #opinion rate #The word is censored bc i dont believe in using it recklessly in mixed company^_^ or at all tbh. #Not in the modern day. #and it also irks when ppl r like ‘claudia needs a woman’s touch’ #but forget how in the book estelle & the other theater chicks groped her n treated her like a doll #or how book!madeleine sees claudia as a proxy for her dead daughter #but bc book lew+ clauds r in this quasi incestuous set up shed take dead daughter over wtf lewis wanted out of her #like ‘women’s touch’ dont do her very much up until the ghost psychic mind link w/ jesse im afraid. lol #its a bizarre form [& actual example] of essentialism applied to claudia. #which makes me excited for s2 claudia bc like #like why is she dressed as a doll on stage!! in the theater #Oh baby esther we rly in it now. #I like romance i just dont like pop fandom’s idea of romance

[insufferablemod]

top 10 worst celebrities ever

#Look at this freak #Saw that post talking about how in canon only see him in a t shirt but also the suits are a vibe #And mini Dave made like a ton of them #So #I think he can pull of both looks he's versatile like that #dave strider #homestuck #hom3stuck #My art #alpha dave strider #Does he switch it up to throw of the paparazzi? And if so... Which one is the Director Strider Look tm cus Logically #You'd think it'd be the suit #But..it's Dave so would be funny if he dresses up nice as a disguise #Idk alpha Dave is such a vague character we don't know much about him... There's so many different things you can do with him #And knowing Dave's relationship with clothes and fashion #Like... Kid has to learn to do his own laundry???? That effects a kid and how they view clothes? #It's an interesting contrast how the moment he can he makes a bunch of fancy clothes and then spends 3 years wearing the One Outfit #And as funny as the idea of him wearing the t shirt as a director is theres also the whole putting in a persona thing #And then finally getting home and just dropping it all n wearing a r shirt he's had since he was 16 #Idk... Many many thoughts rattling around in here.. None of them coherent..

[tangledinink]

therapy was great today, we agreed that i have two wolves inside of me. one is a little goblin child eating dog kibble off the floor and the other wolf is my therapist.

#these were words we said #he laughed and said ok if were going with this metaphor then which one do we feed #and i said #SIGH #well i SHOULD feed the therapist wolf #but i gotta like :/// go to the grocery store and get ingredients and prepare a whole meal for therapy wolf #its sooo much work #ive got like hella kibble in the cabinet r/n that i can just toss on the floor for the little goblin wolf #txt posts #personal