#y'know where that's gotten me

[uncanny-tranny]

I've been reflecting on some interactions I've had with cis medical professionals, and I actually have a ton of criticisms about the ways they treated my transness, if you could imagine (sarcasm intended).

I've found that a lot of care, primarily in mental health, was almost afraid of my transness. Cis mental health professional almost treated my transness and my dysphoria as their personal kryptonite, and any time I mentioned how awful my dysphoria made me feel, I felt shut down or almost gaslit by their responses. They focused on everything but the primary issue, which before I medically transitioned was my dysphoria, so it doesn't surprise me that I didn't make any progress towards anything, really. Most of the things I have learned about dysphoria were on my own as a kid, no less.

When I transitioned how I needed, I could finally feel ready to tackle other issues because dysphoria really overshadowed everything else. I'm ready for the trauma therapy my many cis doctors insisted upon when I wasn't ready. I feel the care I did recieve at that time though was minimal at best, and had this air of gaslighting me and making me question if I truly was worthy of care because the issues I had weren't being treated.

My advice, ultimately, for cis professionals is to let your trans patients lead the care they get. If a trans person comes in specifically for dysphoria, then you should help them with that. Some trans people will not want you to mention dysphoria, and for those trans people, it would be a good idea to let them initiate those conversations. Don't treat trans patients like lab rats or that you know how to treat dysphoria or even their transness better than they do. I'm sorry, but some of the worst professionals I have had have had the attitude that I was a lab rat on dysphoria and that they simultaneously could lead the discussion (even when they admitted they don't have a clue about what they are doing).

I think cis professionals can treat their trans patients well, which is why I am so critical of them. I know cis people can understand trans people and show compassion to us, it is not inherent to cis people to be transphobic. The only barrier is willingness to learn, willingness to show compassion.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #transphobia #transphobia tw #ally advice #though the shitty care i did recieve has put me on the track to become a medical professional myself so maybe this was a blessing? #i am nothing if not spiteful /lh #i've talked about this a lot maybe... but honestly this has kind of fucked up my life in multiple ways and that sucks y'know M #like it's gotten to the point where i have actively avoided getting care and that's really distressing to me especially knowing it's... #...not just me #like i got so bad that i had to get six shots at the doctors because i was really behind because i have avoided care because of transphobia #which at least i got them done but i was still not being cared for

[antirepurp]

how dare steam put digimon world next order on sale i can't be buying video game in this economy especially when i already have them on console

#soda offers you a can #it's just the tempting convenience of the pc y'know #it's gotten me before with spyro reignited and sonic forces but at least those have mods to fuck around with #and reignited performs a lot better on pc than on ps4 #even still those are but silly little excuses at the end of the day and there was no real need for me to get them again #(i must stress that forces was on one of those silly discounts where it was like 5€ btw) #(i would not have gotten it otherwise)

[swallowedabug]

#washed a bunch of records that my mom had bought #she only has a terrible old stereo system but it's good enough for her #but the records were so dirty i couldn't stand it lol #i only have a manual spin clean record washer nothing fancy #but it gets the job done #i also discovered where some of my old cds had gotten to- i'd given some of them to mom at some point #but she had lost most of the jewel cases and was storing them in this cd folder (y'know the ones where you put all the cds you'd burned lol #she was all 'i've moved houses things are gonna get lost!' lol #i almost took this twin peaks soundtrack back with me until i looked inside the case #and found two finnish rock compilation cds inside it lmao #and when i went through her records she was like 'make sure the right one is actually inside the sleeve' -- soooo annoying lol #anyway. now that the records are dry i'm gonna have to give (some of) them a spin #keios #vinyl tag

[xviruserrorx]

Currently in distress because I thought "Oh hey Gotham I haven't seen that in years!" Then it only took me till the end of episode one to remember the heartbreak that was nygmobblepot...

#okay they have a good ending which is good #but gosh do they go through so many up and downs in the show #and kudos for the writers for acknowledging oswalds feelings and having him put them out there #oh but FOX had to but the breaks on it when these two clearly had something #or more importantly ed had feelings as well for oswald and that should have been put through #gotham #edward nygma #oswald copplepot #apparently i've tagged a gotham post before??? #gosh my memory has gotten so bad #nygmobblepot #they really had them glance at each other at first meeting then had ed just nerviously spew facts to oswald #edward 'i believe in you even if you don't believe in yourself' nygma #edward 'i would do anything for you' nygma #edward 'I had an drug induced hallucination of oswald seductively serenading me to any winehouse' nygma #okay i'm done #no i'm not #stupid producer's and fox really went 'were brothers' after EVERYTHING with these two #okay now i'm done #wait y'know that post where it's like 'he's sopping wet he's pathetic he's crying'? #thats these two men #more so oswald #and there together no matter what anyone says because fox didn't have the guts #okay i'm actually done now

[throttlegainwell]

It's like I blink and another WIP manifests...

#writing tag #i'm not actually sure whether i'll write this one because it's *very* outside my typical range #i don't usually write substance abuse stories #but it just feels very plausible to me in a very sad way #but i'd like to approach it from a non-sensationalizing and non-angsty direction where the whole thing kind of sneaks up on him #and it's not super dark in tone just mature #i dunno i've gotta work out logistics but it's not a priority WIP just an idea #i think it goes without saying that this is yet more sad shit i'm planning to put one jonathan byers through #he's just the one character i've gotten really into where i'm interested in exploring this and see it very clearly #and he could slide into a real problem without anyone noticing #(totally outside the pot i'm thinking more a scrip for the back injury that turns into a problem from not addressing it) #(so a few years down the line the UD shit is over but he finally gets an MRI and yikes) #it'd be really a lot to write emotionally though and i'd want to get the balance right & not be gross and exploitative #because holy shit are there a lot of really horrific & cruel opinions on substance use and with opioids in particular #anyway i dunno i've just sort of been thinking about it all year #and like i know i keep sending him to therapy in my future fics #but what if he doesn't work on his shit y'know? what if he just keeps on keeping on like he knows #and through a combination of unresolved emotional wounds and very real chronic pain... well you know

[fstbmp-a]

"...bein' a stay at home trophy wife is great." Excuse her, she's being gay for her wife again. Ignore the fact that she also has a job, she's reaching peak gay critical mass.

#Play the Hero ;; Olympia #girl sitting there in dead silence and you can see the exact moment she gets gay as she starts giggling and playing with her quills #like. she's never really had crushes or romantic interest in ppl and such so. with mint's amy being her first she's getting the whole 9 yar #of just “oh this is my First Crush and Oh It's A Relationship And Oh She Loves Me Back AND OH SHE'S AMAZING-” y'know? #where she's just. getting hit with all the things everyone else has already gotten out of their systems and such. #so she's just. very prone to have that highschool crush moment of covering her face and squealing just thinking about her #she's Very Very gay your honor it's so fuckin' much

[robotsprinkles]

my mum likes to do this thing where she'll say "you're an adult now so you can make your own choices and if you disagree with me or your dad on our decisions you can tell us"

but the moment I say "hey. I want to take a gap/break year from uni to get myself in order and build the skills I need and recover from the last few years of everything"

she goes "yep. nope. you can't do that [insert whichever reason she's decided on this year]"

and I'm just sitting here wishing she 'd either stick to her word or just. not lie to me for once.

#I'm not arguing with her on this because arguing with her has never gotten me anywhere on anything #also her argument that ''pretty much everyone learns on the job or picks up the basics and fundamentals in class so you don't need to spend #a year prelearning everything'' would hold water if I were a remotely competent or functional person #but the only period in my life where I wasn't outright failing my way through school was the period where they made me go to knockoff kumon #to prelearn all the crap from the next two years #so. y'know. #anyway it's really fun knowing all the possible solutions to my problems and what I need and being unable to do any of them #because for all her posturing and claims that I can make my own decisions and choose what I want to do none of her words hold real truth #(well. her words about me being able to trust her and me being able to make my own choices. #her stated disbelief in scientists and belief in conspiracy theories and her antisemitism and queerphobia are honest) #like yeah sure I *shouldn't* need a gap year. but I do. because I'm an idiot who can't do anything

[mythicalcoolkid]

I hate how much of communication is like ":)) hey I know I joke about it and it's really funny but this symptom is actively distressing to me! :)) I don't want to be doing this and I don't like it!! :))) I am aware that I still have this weird memey grin on my face but I really am being serious I don't enjoy being like this! :)) having this conversation while still Like This is killing me and I wish to anything that there wasn't something so wildly wrong with me! :) I hate this!! :))))))"

#m/cc #negative #it's like that Howl's Moving Castle curse where I need to talk about how I am physically incapable of talking seriously about #stressful things but uh #talking about that serious and debilitating issue for me is. y'know. stressful #whole time I have this dumb memey grin and keep throwing out finger guns and peace signs while trying #to explain that I *do not want to be like this* #like trying to explain that you don't always want to be dancing and it's kind of ruining your life but you're dancing while you say it #I have to be funny to make up for my inconvenience + my trauma was useless if I can't make it entertaining + I never learned to #feel understand and process or even identify my emotions + I don't know how to handle the feelings that come with processing the #things that have happened to me and them being a Big Deal That Hurt Me + desperately wanting approval by being entertaining #+ not wanting to be a Downer #so uh. yeah! this has been a really serious and upsetting thing for me since I was maybe 8? and it's REALLY hard to express that I'm being #serious about it... because I also can't take it seriously... :| #it's a horrible curse loop that's so painful to ever try to break through #okay. for the record I've gotten much better at this #it's just worse the past couple days because Slightly Serious Life Event I Can't Process and (currently) late night with ADHD meds worn off #unable to stop making jokes for five seconds meant couldn't do some stuff I really wanted to do even when I tried to stop #I hate it! :)))) it's gonna be fine it just. I hate it!! :))

[sysig]

I want, not so much in many directions, but at a highly variable angle at any given moment (Patreon)

#Doodles #Want want want want want #Down the line! #I had a weird sleep pattern for a little while where I'd take a nap on the couch and then on the floor and then back to the couch #It was not very comfortable but sleep to occur #Returning to my hammock was very luxurious after that lol #It the time I would've had the insulation layer as well but I've since had to take it off - it's gotten so hot! #I'm very glad a hammock has such wonder built-in ventilation lol #Couple'a loneliness doodles #They're much sillier than I was feeling I don't know how I was able to make them look so light lol #I was quite grumpy at the time actually haha #This actually just reminded me of what I was grumpy about and I just went to check lol - everything is good now #Comparably as the very least lol #And then the stripes shirt saga lol #Let's see what was I watching that made me pine - definitely Dan's latest video but probably some One Topic stuff too #It doesn't have to be romantic I just want someone who clicks y'know hh #Talking is hard tho lol #More complaining lol I was very full but still terribly munchy and chewing on my necklace was not enough #Well I have a plan for next time anyhow lol #And then thinking about angst lol ♪ It doesn't look like it immediately but it's always angst! #Silliness

[honeyednights]

i love moving, such an easy process<3

#packing books rn and i'm like 'i kinda want to read this book maybe i shouldn't pack it' to so many of them rip #and don't even get me started on all my books from my curriculums thru the years that's a whole monster in and of itself... #like i'm doing a new bachelor thesis (again :)) #which also sidenote but omg that one class i had where i handed in some piece of shit term paper that i was soooo sure i wouldn't pass #i got an e!!!!!! I PASSED!!!!!! never in my LIFE thought i'd be over the moon for an e but here we are khsafjh and i was so happy when i #told my family and friends and everyone was like 'it's so funny to see someone so happy for an e' which same hahaha #so now it's literally only my bachelors left and then i'm done!!!!!! #anyways #so idk which books i'll need and since i have no idea what i'm gonna write about yet tho it'll be within the renaissance era i think but #that's still so many of my books that can be kinda related to that so :///// #the reason this is all a problem is bc i'm moving in w mum for an undecided amount of time which surely is every single persons dream<3 #bc i haven't gotten a job yet so idk how much i can afford in rent so i can't just move somewhere y'know #so all my stuff except for whatever i need for the next like couple months is going in my grandma's storage room which takes a little while #to get to so it's not like i can on the day decide to go to her and pick whatever up #aaaaaah this is such a difficult decision #anyways that was today's little rant<3

[arolesbianism]

I find it so funny just how long I'd have to talk to get to a single non original character in the random card au if I explained the worldbuilding in chronological order. I'm pretty sure the first recognizable characters would be og Tae and Rei and even then there's a pretty big span of time where they could have possibly existed so I could theoretically go through a Lot before getting to them even without all of the finer details of kingdom worldbuilding

#rat rambles #random card au #band posting #after that I believe next in line would be misaki and rokka followed shortly by hagumi and nanami #then we have an haruka kohane shiho and shizuku all around the same tome period next #and after that we get glitter green and rimi #then we get to another shaky period where no one rly comes up but rui emu kanade and honami are probably all in there somewhere #and then after a good while the main characters and other alive ppl start existing and we get to actually sort of discuss plot stuff 👍 #note that even with me not going into too deep detail theres a Lot involved in the main plot thats hard to explain without explaining basic #worldbuilding such as the gods and divinities and the vessels and other shit like that #like most of it is much more naturally integrated into the story but yknow writing smth into a full narrative and explaining the same thing #are very different and it's hard to do the ladder effectively if its complicated enough #its also frustrating to explain to ppl cause its very much meant to be treated as a fantasy setting opposed to my typical two layers down #approach to realism since a lot of the worldbuilding especially are much more meant to be creation myth vibes y'know? #so ppl have gotten snarky with me abt it and its just frustrating as hell cause like yeah it doesn't make logistical sense this is fantasy #like there Are sci fi elements but a lot of sci fi is just nonsense too so like that doesnt mean much #I dont completely abandon my two layered realism but as far as basic world origins go its a creation story with gods and stuff #so yeah I get silly with things cause its fun and gives me an excuse to make characters furries

[lxnarphase]

ah-ah, barbie, you're so fine! ๋࣭ ⭑

special treatment : thighs edition

☾₊‧⁺...ft. : kamo choso + itadori yuuji + higuruma hiromi + ryomen sukuna

☾₊‧⁺...cw : pussy eating, facesitting, somnophilia, dirty talk, fingerfucking, overstimulation, praise kink, degradation, desperation, oral fixation, squirting, creampie, choso being whiny, yuuji being a little shit, yuuji is 21yrs & a college student, hiromi being pussydrunk, sukuna being whipped

✧ k. choso : poor choso, ever since the first time he's gotten a taste of what's between your thighs, he's begging you every day just to eat your cunt. but today? today must be a bad day, because choso is desperate. his already between your thighs, whimpering and whining as he mouths at you through your underwear, tears in his eyes as he begs you to give him a little taste. once you do, his eyes are rolling back just from the first lick.

"you taste so good, fuck, so good, thank you, thank you, mmph, so delicious, i can't get enough." "can you cum again? i know it's been 4 times already, but please? please, please, pleaase, pretty thing, i need itttt..." "oh my goddd, you're cumming? yes, yes, cum on my tongue, pretty please, i'll fuck you so good after, just keep cumming, don't hold back." "stop-stop running away, i know your pretty pussy is all sensitive b-but i just, i can't stop...but you know you can say the safeword and i'll stop, right? ...what? you-you like being overstimulated...? fuck, fuck, okay, let me make you squirt on my tongue then i'll fuck you good, okay?"

✧ i. yuuji : yuuji's always been a smug little shit whenever it came to teasing you. what starts off with him tickling you and blowing raspberries into your stomach turns nto hot kisses against your stomach that let down to the waistband of your underwear as he pushes your shirt up higher on your body. he can't help but grin up at you when he notices the wet spot on your panties from his little kisses.

"d'awww, bunny, y'so cute! look at how wet you are. is that 'cus of me? ehehe, i know, i know, teasing is mean, but i can't help it...you're just so adorable." "y'know i can practically feel your heartbeat whenever i kiss it? mhm, i can feel that, pretty girl. don't cover your face, baby, you're so cute!" "your thighs are so soft. i could stay between here forever, fuck goin' to classes or missions, i'd rather just eat you out until you pass out." "open up these legs a little more, let me get my fingers in there...thereeee we go, such a pretty lil' bun, aren't you?" "you're so messy! did i do this to you? yeah? aww, my pretty girl likes meee! i felt how you squeezed on my fingers! so cute!

✧ h. hiromi : ever since you made a comment about his nose, saying 'doja is right about big noses' in passing to him, hiromi has been curious. curious enough to the point where he looks it up, seeing the video of said woman. so, you wanted to sit on his face and grind on his nose, hm? you've never sat on his face before but he was sure to change that.

"i don't care if you think i'll die, i want you to sit on my face. i'm giving you the chance to either have control of your pace or let me do what i want with you. so, what's your decision?" "see? it's not that bad, angel, you forget your husband isn't some weakling...now c'mon on, get yourself right over my mouth, let me taste you." "god, you're so beautiful like this. i need you on my face more often, you're dripping all over my mouth...such a good girl for me." "heh...i knew you said my nose was perfect for sitting on but i didn't realize it would get you this riled up. go ahead, sweet thing, you can keep grinding that clit on it...just like that, just let me make you feel good." "good lord, i never wanna leave between your thighs. so fucking sweet, shit, angel, you've got me wrapped around that pretty finger. c'mon, let me devour you all night, i'll let you get up when i'm done."

✧ r. sukuna : getting sukuna to lay on his back without him instantly taking control of the situation was easier than you thought. hell, even crawling up higher so that you were hovering over his face was too. but little did you know, sukuna was intrigued, liking the side of you where you would just take control of him, knowing that only you had the right to do that...especially if it meant he got to eat you until you soaked his face.

"you know i should kill you for thinking you can just sit on my face like i'm some kind of personal chair. i am the king of curses, not a piece of furniture...what? ...hm. i guess you do look...good over me like this." "...huh? sorry, i wasn't listening. when are you going to sit on my face? you keep blabbering, but i can see the way that sticky cunt is dripping for me. are you gonna just let it go to waste?" "oh. shit. you've been holdin' out on me, haven't you, diamond? shit, i can see all of you from down here...nah, keep grinding on my face, little one, use me for your pleasure...let me see you cum on my mouth." "such a fucking slut. my mouth is coated in your cum, but you still wanna keep going? my tongue that good for you?" "no, no, i'm not letting you back down until you beg, diamond. tell me how badly you want me to fuck your pussy with my tongue...hm. good enough."

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#choso smut #itadori smut #higuruma smut #sukuna smut #jjk smut #jujutsu kaisen smut #choso x reader #choso x you #itadori x you #itadori x reader #higuruma x you #higuruma x reader #sukuna x reader #sukuna x you #kamo choso smut #itadori yuji smut #higuruma hiromi smut #ryomen sukuna smut #𖤐 ── lxnarworks.

[azure-stars]

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#y'know am truly thankful for the friends and oomfs of mine who are always supportive and encouraging of me #i have only gotten to the point where i draw what i do bc of my friends support #like where would i be. without the lovers to drown out the haters #azure talks

[emphistic]

Sight for Sore Eyes

Taglist: @starlets-things

Sukuna was exhausted, to say the least. His coach was being such a pain in the ass. But, as soon as he unlocked the front door and entered the living room, he was immediately alleviated.

Like most nights where Sukuna had basketball practice, you were given the job of babysitting his brother, Yuuji.

"Gotcha!" You scooped up the little critter in your arms and kissed his chubby cheeks. Sukuna assumed you two were playing a game of hide-and-seek, or something of the like.

"You wish that was you, huh?" His grandpa asked him, before patting him on the back and walking upstairs. Sukuna didn't respond, continuing to stare at you instead.

Yuuji squealed and giggled, squirming in your grasps. But when the kid noticed his brother standing by the door, his expression dropped.

You placed the pink-haired boy on the ground, wondering if he had gotten sick of you. "Hmm? What's the matter, Yuuji?"

"Are you going to go now?" Yuuji looked up at you with doe eyes, and clutched onto the material of your sweat pants.

"Why would I do that?"

Yuuji wrapped his little arms around your leg, "I don't want you to go."

You raised a brow, still unsure of what caused this sudden change in Yuuji's attitude.

A loud "ahem" broke the silence, and you turned to the source; Sukuna was home.

You bent down and picked up Yuuji, placing him on your hip, before walking over to his older brother. "Hello, my cute patootie." You kissed Sukuna on the cheek, in greeting.

He grunted, but pulled you back in for another ardent kiss, "I'll kill you one day," he mumbled against your lips. You tasted the chapstick, that you had recently bought for Sukuna, on his lips.

You laughed, "I'd like to see you try."

Yuuji interrupted the two of you guys by pushing his brother away with his little hands, "No, 'Kuna." Yuuji's eyebrows furrowed; making him look mad, and he buried his face into your chest, seeking your warmth.

Sukuna raised a brow at the little nuisance, "Oh? Looks like I have some competition now."

"Yuuji," you said, softly, "you know I have to leave now. Your brother's home, so he can take care of you, okay?"

The boy in your arms whined, completely ignoring your attempt of coaxing him. Sukuna laughed at his brother, and you frowned at him.

"Y'know," Sukuna crept impossibly closer to you, "you could just stay the night, right? It'll make Yuuji feel better, and me, too. You don't want Yuuji to be upset, do you?"

You acknowledged the fact that Sukuna was using his brother to guilt trip you, but you didn't care. Spending time with the Itadori brothers was always fun, not to mention, a little chaotic at times.

You huffed, "Fine."

Sukuna looked smug, at your response. "I'm gonna take a shower now. Care to join?"

You bit your lip in contemplation, looking between Yuuji, who was still snuggling in your sweater, and Sukuna, who held the most jerk-like expression on his face.

Sighing, you gave in, "I'll be there in a minute."

#sukuna x reader #ryomen x reader #sukuna x you #jjk x reader #jjk x you #sukuna fluff

[dan-crimes]

Oh man I have so much appreciation for voice acting you have no idea and I LOVE Tom Kenny like he does so many fuckin voices in everything but it doesn't bother me I cannot get tired of his voice it is so unique but also he has RANGE I can usually tell it's still him regardless but it's like crossing paths with an old friend everytime I notice it's him

#they got The Powerpuff Girls on Netflix now (I don't pay for it don't worry) and the whole time was basically me sitting and pointing #being like And that's Tom Kenny @ my Mom the entire time cuz holy shit he does a ton of voice work in that show it's incredible #I know Tara Strong does a buncha voice work as well she also does a ton of heavy lifting but I dunno #I can stomach her old work but smth about her current voice work is grating especially when she is doing Her Voice #if you know you know #it's somehow gotten sharper and louder it hurts to listen to #okay I didn't word the first part of that right I don't ''stomach'' her old work I'm not fighting for my life to watch it #I appreciate her old work and it doesn't hurt to listen to like Bubbles is great to listen to I have no issue listening to Bubbles #at least in the first season cuz that's where I'm at maybe it gets worse I dunno #but like I enjoy her voice for Bubbles it's sounds good does her character well #and y'know old Timmy Turner. Twilight Sparkle. old Raven. even Truffles! who I'm pretty sure is meant to be annoying and loud #I still have a great appreciation for her tho and all the work she does just kinda hard to listen to her work nowadays #I could also talk about various other voice actors whom I enjoy greatly but like those are the main ones I noticed in #the first season of The Powerpuff Girls as well as the Professors voice actor doin various voices as well #like if u just listen to the background characters it's mostly just the main cast using different voices which is common obviously #just fun to hear and point out when ya notice #OH btw just randomly remembered I was watching a buncha old Jack in the Box commercials and PRETTY SURE #pretty sure I heard Richard Horvitz in one of them randomly it hit me like a ton of bricks #not the first time I've noticed his voice work in the most RANDOM ass place #I could be totally wrong tbf it was a very short voice line but it sounded like him #oh man I really would love to do voice work but sadly that is one of the things I am not entirely confident in #I do not have confidence in my voice nor my acting capabilities but would be fun to fuck around in smth silly ig :P #you just have to get me a proper studio to voice act in cuz I could not voice act with others around me HEARING me talk #would be impossible for me I cannot take things seriously with others around me lmao

[gender-euphowrya]

huge dev update my grandma is gonna see a psychologist

#pogchamp #finally i don't have to play that role i'm not trained or mentally stable enough to handle anymore #she should have gotten therapy DECADES AGO sis lost both her children through tragic circumstances and had a miserable childhood #she didn't because her generation just worked like that ig and i'm not blaming her for not going but i am GLAD she will now #hopefully it works out she So needs it she's got so much on her mind and super bad anxiety #honestly i'm proud of her for even considering it because she used to dismiss the thought with 'eh at my age it's too late' #plus if she sees my psych i can make the trip with her no problem #And i already know him really well so if she's got any questions about what he's like i can answer those ez #honestly he's the first and only psychologist i've been to but he's Brilliant #super respectful super invested in his patients' well being will never pry too far will never make you feel wrong or blamed #absolutely Nailed handling my coming out has a lot of experience with all kinds of people nice and calming and friendly as hell #i hope it's not an issue that i'm seeing him too like idk if they have some sort of thing where #seeing members of a same family could interfere or something #i don't think so that doesn't seem quite right but who knows ??? #anyway So glad for her i really hope she can feel better with this #even if it's just talking to someone about all her thoughts and her fears it's already such a big step to start feeling better #because like. she talks to me but she doesn't say Everything y'know. especially stuff about my transition #she's scared she'd hurt or upset me so she keeps a lot to herself and she just ruminates on it all day long #her brain doesn't have a single second of rest and she worries about Everything #example. she was anxious because her apartment has a bathtub but no shower so she's only been able to wash from the sink #they're going to install a shower soon and she was happy because Finally she's gonna be able to wash herself fine #but now she's anxious about the construction and how she's gonna arrange her furniture and her water consumption #a problem solved = a new problem with her #i honestly suspect she might be autistic because she's also like. very. routine-ish #like This Item Has To Be Here. i have to go to This Place on That Day at That Time #she doesn't like sitting still she doesn't really pick up on jokes and sarcasm there's just... #a LOT of unresolved things with her. she really needs help and i can't wait for her to get it