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tinykeke · 1 year

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Can you handle failure?

You know we always think of like: “what if I didn´t do that? what if I didn't bump into him or her?” but…the movies and the old sayings, the myths are teaching us that, your universe, your version of your life is the best one so, I just have so many regrets and regrets are so natural for me like, I’ll do every night every time, its like saying… saying to myself like please don't look back from now on, please, you can’t…you will look back but, please don't look back because you did your best and you'll be the only one who can protect yourself, you chose your past, and you are choosing your present you will choose your future but, you know there could be some trials, hardships, risks, dangers, but still, don't look back and enjoy the ride, if you are sad just be sad, if you are happy just be happy.

-Kim Namjoon ☘️

From many previous semesters I have made several mistakes and demotivated, also the old memories and the negative feelings still hunt me till this day. I remember the beginning of the semesters and how excited I was to learn programming and then all my hopes crashed, I thought so many times and I still thinking, maybe this is not for me maybe I chose bad my career, and I remember being half way of my college career and regret all my choses.

Even with demotivation, low energy and trying to fight my personal problems I still got good grades and I still felt alone, I am the only woman, studying a technology career, trying to do my best, but sometimes my best means failing a test about network communication, but even if I fail the test I know my mistakes, I got nervous I couldn’t think right and I wasn't fast enough and blah blah, but I still think I know so much, I have learned so much in this 4 weeks of the subject and I have enjoyed it, even if I cried like a little girl who didn't got what she wanted, even if felt sad, is ok I did what I could.

Lately I have been a little sad but is ok, contradictory but I enjoy this sadness I am learning a lot more than a negative feeling.

If you are not doing good in your social life, academic life, mental health your job and more, well, is just part of the process. Well get through this!!

fighting 💗

#study motivation #study hard #college life #college #studentslife #mentally fucked #mental health #namjoon #namjooning #programming #motivation #mindset #studyblr #bts

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tinykeke · 1 year

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Hormones causing a tiring week

I am not the type of student to kill herself studying 8 to 13 hours a day, to be honest is not a laziness thing, is more of a burn out thing, I remember when I was on third semester (now I am on seventh) I met this guy who worked, studied, worked out and only slept 2 hours and maximum four, I don't know why following his steps and studying more than 15 hours was something I admired… I didn't last a month, I burned out and I got depressed.

So after so many mistakes, demotivation, many ups and downs, I have decided this semester to study at least 6 hours, and spend some time doing things I like, for example: playing video games, photography (I am not that good but I am trying 😊), going out or feel the sun at least… (I really should do exercise).

Normally when we are in college or high school or whatever, we want that high grade and if we are in the the top, better, but this week I stopped with my studying schedule, I woke up at 5:00 am and it didn’t matter meditation, water, positive affirmations, vitamins, nothing, I felt like I didn’t sleep, I did my best during class, but after just 2h I felt horrible fatigue. I started to feel stressed over my homework and every time I decided to sit and study I didn’t feel like it. I did study during this week but maybe 2h or I rushed into my activities instead of using the Pomodoro technique or have breaks in between.

It was not my best week, yesterday is when I understood. I arrived to college and I felt like I didn’t sleep, I opened my notebooks and just by looking at them and by listening to the professor I started to feel sleepy and loosing focus, and after that class I arrived home to take another class and I didn’t last an hour when I was falling asleep, the last part of the class I didn’t even pay attention, I got desperate.

So I decided to go with my grandma, get a cappuccino (that looked more like a latte, and tasted more like a latte…doesn’t matter it was nice lol) and crepes!!♥

But I understood something: MY PERIOD IS ARRIVING SOON…

That was the cause of my excessive fatigue. I understood that If I want to study healthily as I propose this year (after so many mistakes), I also have to to take care of my body, learn to understand it, make contingencies plans for luteal phase of the menstrual cycle, plans for when I am stressed or demotivated.

As a good student who must of the time excels, I don't care about grades, but this time I learnt that I should care about what kind of environment I am going to build to get those good grades: organizing my desk, my bed, my morning routine or a journal but also my hormonal cycle and pay attention to my post traumatic stress symptoms, that sometimes are not easy to detect.

I remember a good phrase from a poetry book that said “Sometimes is more important to unlearn than learning”. (I apologize that I cant remember the author.)

Do you have some attitudes that make you stumble in your way?

Let’s interact😊

#studyblr #student #always tired #chronic fatigue #post traumatic stress syndrome #menstrual cycle #healthcare #healthy studying #college #college life #luteal phase #burn out #advice #study blog

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tinykeke · 1 year

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Hi, nice to meet you!:)

Welcome to my studyblr, my name is Carla, I am 22 years old and I study information technology at college, I really hope my page can be helpful and we can make a good connection. :)

I decided to make this page to post things about my academic life in order to relief some stress and have other hobbies than just procrastinating and studying…and crying (just kidding), also I am a good advisor so I hope I can help you if you ever need me :).

If you are a student who struggles to “be aesthetic”, “romanticize your college life”… let´s do it together, see those photos above?? I took a day lol, that’s just for marketing sjjsjs. My work desk?? a mess, my room, definitely not aesthetic, do I have money to be more “aesthetic”?? no lol give me a break 😅

If you are a student who struggles with motivation, stress, shyness or anxiety then I am the studyblr you are looking for! :)

Mostly I will be posting on Sundays ⛅

Other things about me🙂

I am a nerd

My nickname is Keke, but you can call me Carla

My mbti is: intj

I love starwars and playing videogames

I like pop, kpop, r&b, rock, classical and many others.

I like cooking

I have post-traumatic stress (yes, I went to therapy)

I am an atheist

I am from Latin-American (center 🙂) so I can speak two languages, this studyblr I’ll keep in English so I can practice so excuse me if I ever make a mistake, you can correct me (but be nice lol)

I love to take photos

I love cats, I even have one, you´ll see her in my next posts ♥

I like studying but sometimes I just don't-

Well I think that´s for a welcome post, see you next Sunday, bye 👋

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