Hi. This is bayobayo / BB, and I'm an artist.
This is my multifandom + art blog so please expect posts with Hannibal, Marvel, Youtube, Doctor Who, etc. For less ramblings, check out my Art Tag instead. Enjoy your stay. :)
Every year since gaining a clearer understanding of my mental state, I've hesitated to approach this day (Dissociative Disorder Month / Awareness Day). But I won't this time.
As a disclaimer, I do not claim to have DID, nor have I been diagnosed with any dissociative disorder. My country does not have psychologists and psychiatrists as readily available as most first-world ones.
But I've recognized similar symptoms from similar issues I've had growing up (i.e., loss of memories in line with traumatic events, sections of my life just forgotten, the sensation of perceiving the world in a blur of shapes and sounds, observing the world as if through a screen, etc.) and have unknowingly learned to adjust to all of them and live as peacefully as I could.
This video is for my Friend. (Link in Bio). The old drawing you see of them was not the oldest one but the most recent, which was all the way from 2021. And as I said in the video, the fact that I nearly completely forgot about them should be a good thing.
But that wasn't fair.
Again, I acknowledge that all of this is silly. That at the least, it's a poetic letter for an old imaginary friend.
But I'll take that.
Because it's better than forgetting one of the foundations of my life.
I don't know if I'll ever share the older drawings of Friend that I've made. It was through them that I realized how consciously I could think of them, and if I hadn't found them and put them all together, it would've all been swept under the rug out of sight, out of mind.
I hold them close now. And I don't know if I'll ever share them with the world.
But this is enough.
To you, Friend, if you ever read this in the future. I hope I still remember you. And that you remember me as well.
While the enemy was losing the battle today, they cried out to us, “Memento Mori, we are human too! We are in pain and we are dying!”. I answered them, hoping they would listen, “Break off your pact with the Dread Army! That is what is killing you! Walk away and take your life back! I know it’s all you’ve ever known, and walking away will leave a wound, but it will heal! When it does, do not enter into your pact with the vultures again! You don’t have to be slaves to death! We’ve come to bring the truth of freedom! You were meant to be free!” But they wouldn’t listen and kept crying out, “Please give me something! I’m so thirsty.” I tried again with more urgency. “If you die here this way, you will have wasted your life on death and you will have never lived! Once you die here, the chasm will be fixed and you can never undo it. Turn from death and drink this life-giving water we are offering you!” The battle continued to rage, some turning and joining the Passerby Army, others dying.
I've been meaning to come back with much more refined commissions but, some personal things happened and now these funds will go straight to supporting my family for a short while.😊
THESE SKETCH COMMISSIONS INCLUDE:
✨The BUST area (anything above chest level. If the pose has the hand there, it can be included)
✨A 1st draft, optional 2nd draft, the HD final sketch, the final file PLUS Nightshade (to protect from AI art theft), and a free timelapse video
✨ For More Info: https://www.docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1CKuN6f_lNNjivxMKHNdjW6Rv4Xdq9Vh2dP3rG6PDwfY/edit?usp=sharing
If you'd like to reserve a slot, you can contact me here or through email at [email protected] . Thank you so much for considering! ✨✨✨
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Bust Sketch commissions from August are finally done! 💖😭
These bust sketch commissions are now ✨ OPEN AGAIN for $15 ✨. Feel free to DM me here or contact me via at [email protected] . All additional info is here 😊
I've had so much fun getting to draw all your characters. Thank you so much for trusting me with them, especially those who were only via descriptions. Designing your characters was an honor, so I've made sure to use Glaze on this preview so all of them are safe from AI art theft 👏
Opening these Colored Sketchy Portrait Commissions for $35.
Portraits can include original characters, D&D/TTRPG characters, actual portraits of people, etc.
These commissions will include all files made during the process (drafts, sketches, coloring, and final HD files), PLUS a speedpaint timelapse as proof of no Artificial Art usage.
For more samples of my art, I'm at instagram.com/bb_artonsy
If interested, here is a Google Form to fill in your commission details: https://forms.gle/v8NX63eZAGEzHefC8
Everything is going to support my family during some trying times. Thank you so much for considering! 💖