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From my Writing Projects Master List

I should write this, right?

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I feel like I am outgrowing the internet. Not in a 'ohmygod I'm so old hey there fellow youth heehee' annoying way, but in a seasoned cowboy, weathered squint, dusty boots, 'been there, done that, kid' kinda way.

#different group of twenty somethings but same twenty something bullshit from a decade ago #its just like I'm pretty tired of video essays by people who have only lived a quarter of a century #for people who don't know things yet #also social media internet is just not the internet that was welcoming a younger alienated me #and I am finding more peace in the real world #I also am so fugging tired of all that npc dialogue from people my age acting tHeY'Re sO OlD. Hate it

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Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart didn’t act like he was above scatological humor and so I am not going to either. neither should you

Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart didn’t act like he was above scatological humor and so I am not going to either.

#so tired of people acting like they are mature for not allowing themselves to have a silly good time #therefore this is the most important thing I've ever said #and in my arrogance I will say it yet again #until the world complies

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Here's to all the artists I followed online when I was younger, who had a huge influence on me, but haven't posted anything anywhere in years, are still out there somewhere making art and not abandoning their long term projects

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I have exactly three pillars of my design ethos which are as follows: 1. There’s a time and place for everything  2. I make this look good 3. Watch me

All other ethos are pretentious, thank you, good day.

#and they made me art director so I unfortunately now convinced of my teachings #truly the first one is more it #and I mean damn well what I said #there is no good or bad design only what works for the project #good or bad as aesthetics are arbitrary made up concepts that us monkey brains made up to seem more important #plus overall taste in the good v bad sense is a classist and therefore racist and often misogynist construct #which applies to all matters of aesthetic design and art #and if I see one more colleague mocking things that look amateurish or making the same damn fucking jokes about the same damn fucking fonts #I'm going to write a text book then whack them with it #credit to my ethos go to #chef from south park #agent j in men in black please put on your shades when you read that one #and liv morgan wwe superstar #this is me as a heel #maybe i should also add #why are you booing me I'm right #design

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Absolutely have, a few times. I love the premise of a disgruntled, cynical psychic

I ALSO share a birthday with a plane crash that killed musicians - the crash that killed Buddy Holly, Richie Valens, and the Big Bopper or 'the day the music died'. This feels important

duuuuuck, have you seen that one episode of x-files where they talk about that very same crash ???? it’s the one with the old man who’s able to foresee death (?)

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Area at New York Fashion Week Fall 2019

#and frankly I can't remember which I have and haven't uploaded #pinterest upload #faw2019 #ny fashion week #area designer

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sun or moon, scepter or halo, many-eyed or blinded, silver or gold, hands or throat, seen or unseen, whisper or scream, heart or head, scythe or sword, mirror or painting, sleep or death, give or get, horns or wings, song or story, sing or recite, past or future, swan or serpent, lilies or roses, armour or no armour, blessed or damned, symphony or choir, grace or beauty, love or lust, hands or feet, sea or land, sheers or dagger, peaks lost in mist or valleys of snow, candles or lamps, believer or cynic, key or lock, decimate or originate, blue or black, silver-tongued or fork-tongued, poetry or painting, rubens or bosch, gardens or graveyards, solitude or company, eat or be eaten

#sun #scepter #many eyed #gold #throat #seen #scream #head #scythe #painting #sleep #give #wings #story #sing #past #serpent #lilies #no armour #damned #symphony #grace #love #hands #sea #dagger #mist #candles #cynic #lock

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It’s just like where is the whimsy

#polyvore 2008 #a select few understand

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Questionable characters that I have been concerningly attracted to at some point in my life

- Top Dollar, the Crow

- Slade(’s voice), Teen Titans

- Gul Dukat, DS9 

#this has been sitting in my drafts a while #I think I thought I was going to add more to it #but I think this is concerning enough #slade #slade teen titans #the crow #top dollar the crow #gul dukat #deep space nine #ds9 #Marc Alaimo #Michael Wincott #Ron Perlman's voice #teen titans

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tagged by @bebemoon to post 10 songs, all from different artists, that I’m currently obsessed with

Make Me Bad - Korn

Be Aggressive - Faith No More

Moon Baby - Godsmack

She and Mr Jones or Pop Goes the Evil - Lords of Acid (or the whole album VooDoo-U, gosh I love it.)

Immaculate Crucifixion - Juno Reactor

Standing Outside A Broken Phone Booth With Money In My Hand - Primitive Radio Gods (Here because after two years my ‘name that song’ post on reddit was finally answered.)

Ratamahatta - Sepultura

A Hole in the Wall - KMFDM

Note: Currently is on a curve about 4 to 6 months; these are all songs that I either didn’t know or didn’t listen to as much prior to that time. Although certain winter songs have lessened in the rotation recently so I didn’t list those. I don’t tend to get sick of something quickly and conversely am not one to believe I always *have* to find something spanking new to listen to.*

#that's it sorry #*I really hate when people act like if you aren’t always discovering something new in music you’re closed minded or something #and I mean new like just released not new to me #my boyfriend is open minded for being curious about korn after he heard it was the favorite band of the wife of his friend #he asked me what album I recommended and the truth was I hadn't listened to a full album I just liked two handfulls of singles #so he randomly selected Unplugged which I never heard and he enjoyed it #no BuT nU mEtAl BaD preconceived nonsense #I enjoyed unplugged too and now I have been listening to Korn so much in the last year #outtakes from last year include Not My God - Fiction and all of Ludovico Technique #Fiction went well with smoky September #The older I get the more rivets my head grows #kmfdm #korn band #godsmack #korn #faith no more #industrial #nu metal #juno reactor #goa trance #sepultura #groove metal

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Ten years ago I probably said, too much steampunk, but I’ve been feeling lately, not enough steampunk.

#steampunk

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I recently discovered Lauren Faust, animator behind My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic (which I design tees for at my job and think the designs/toys are cute but otherwise am not involved with) had an earlier project called Milkway and the Galaxy Girls. Which, for those who don’t know me, I adore a group of thematic cutesy fashionable girls who are preferably also doll lines. These had a limited run of plush dolls and you can find a lot of the artwork for it on her deviantart page as well as the website if you use internet archive. I found these there, they were free downloads for the site. 

#milky way and the galaxy girls #lauren faust #mlp fim #sfw #I dunno what tags are appropriate with FIM I'm just here for these girls #2000s #y2k art #tag yourself #I'm Mars #toy art

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There must’ve been a massive bot purge because my main blog follower count went down by almost 100

#farewell bots #I always wondered what would happen if you left

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I posted this on my hush hush blog but I MEAN IT. Everytime I see a comment on Instagram acting like microtrends from 2 years ago are sooo dated I vomit.

I made what I thought was a satirical do not interact list but then I just listed things that actually really bother me about the current state of American pop and social culture. They're all kind of variations of the same thesis. So, I mean it! DNI!!!*

Do not interact if - you're really embarrassed by and act all ashamed of your past selves - you say cringe (by itself) a lot - you use aesthetic as a vague adjective ('aesthetic clothing') - you think 3 years ago is a long time ago and - think media has to be brand new to be ""relevant"" - you are under the age of 30/40/50 and say you're soo old especially when someone mentions some kind of pop culture reference from your childhood thereby reinforcing a culture that dismisses anyone over the age of like 24 - you make fun of those specific fonts everyone makes fun of ad nauseum because you think that's how to prove you have taste/know how to ~*design*~ and you feel very clever about it - you act really over offended for some reason when someone says they like Hawaiian pizza - you say rude things about music I like in a rude way out loud - you consciously care about fitting in (I know we all do it to some degree but I mean people who actually give this thought, like Patrick Bateman) - you judge someone's entire morality over what pop culture they like when said pop culture is in itself harmless/not a measure of goodness - you do/buy/consume things ""ironically"" because you're really either just making fun of people who genuinely enjoy those things to show off how superior you are or you do really enjoy it but you're so desperate to seem cool you don't want to admit you do. Get out of here!!!

*A lot of this is because I interact with this stuff on a regular basis so I just alienated all my coworkers. And, everyone possibly. Just unlearn some of this nonsense and then we'll talk ok?

#Nu sincerity #personal #About me #Also I wrote morality but personality also applies #Dni #Dni list #ps I am not explaining the obvious caveats to some of these things #the likely hood of someones past selves comitting murder or someones interest actualy being nazi propaganda is slim

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How do I get "alternative" fashion and makeup companies to understand mainstream standards of beauty in a darker shade of lipstick isn't very punk rock of them.

#alternative fashion #Every so called goth company on Instagram #I'm not ragging on the women I'm ragging on the institutions #I just am very sick of only seeing small nosed big eye big lip girls every fucking day #Which is surely a valid argument #So it particularly offends me when I see it in the spaces that I want to be the antedote to this

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On my main blog, I posted a post as the og poster and it got pretty popular, definitely my most popular post, and I have a compulsion to look at the blogs of whoever interacts with it and well I hope I never have a popular post again, it was a lot nicer here following 10 people I know I like in blissful ignorance and I’d really like to unsee a lot of these blogs. 

#this is how I first learned about all those dni pages #since I am not remotely involved in anime or fanfiction I don't really understand most of them #even knowing real kink community acronyms I feel like the DNI no-kink kids only know some so they've been making up their own for dni lists #and anyway how am I supposed to dni if I don't even understand the fuck you guys are on about #also I hate esoteric nonsense and ironic blogs #liking or doing something ironically is my mortal enemy lately #be sincere and post shit you like sincerely otherwise DNI