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231211 TaeJoon's Enlistment Day 😔

Wow, their turn is finally come. I never imagine I would witnessed this moment, Taehyung and especially my bias Kim Namjoon, entered the training center to start their military service 😭.

Namjoon on buzzcut from a long time ago, him talking about their plan to enlist together at the end of this year on his birthday, it's 3 months ago. I think I would be ready and all okay on the day he enlist but guess who can't stop crying now?? 😔💔

Since the original post on Weverse hasn't translated well so I'm just gonna drop the Namjoon's letter translation from ARMY translator here.

"Wishing that this will touch you even just a little bit"

What's makes you think your letters done nothing to us, Kim Namjoon??!!! My heart start getting hurt once I got the notification 😭😭😭.

And this is Taehyung's letter:

Jimin just did a live today after shaving his head. He said that Namjoon and Taehyung entering with smile. That info is enough. I hope they're okay in there.

I think it's around 12pm when the Twitter timeline start talked about news content that said BTS member is entering the location. Gladly there's no fans that gathered in there, just as BTS asked on live to not to go there. But some solo's sending a bus instead to cheer them up. Guess who we've been missing and manifesting to be on ot7 picture today.

Feels like I never saw him for years. He getting more cute 😭. At least we can see him together with the members on the pict.

And there they are. Bragging about their position in the military. Seokjin is a Sergeant meanwhile Hobi is a Corpral. Seokjin just shared a funny short story on Weverse 😂:

It's always him who dragged ARMY out from the deep sadness. He really don't let anyone cry 😭.

The caption said "Don't get hurt and go safely my babies~". Yes he just called TaeJoon his babies 🥺. And I just realized that they're Kim Brothers.

The maknae line ✨️. Jimin and Jungkook will enlist tomorrow since they registered together to the same location. Anyway I saw a video on TikTok that explain about this partner system. Apparently there are some soldiers that dead from suicide because of the pressure during their military service. That's why the government decided to created this system where people can choose to registered with one friend. But the consequences is the location might be so far away from Seoul.

Seems like so many of their friends come to send them off. Their family of course, Namjoon team, Taehyung's high-school friends. Seems like Wooga squad just met-up the day berfore on Taehyung's.

*Jungkook just started a Weverse live now by the way. I think it's gonna be short.

Forgot to mention about the song Namjoon shared on his IG story. Goodbye by Sanullim. Kinda surprise because the song released on 1986 like how did he found it? But since he's a musician and maybe the song is popular in South Korea so... The first time I listened to this song, I cried a lot. I don't fully understand the lyrics but it makes me cried so much😭😭💔💔💔💔. The song is sang by kids on on the first and then by the singer. Here's the translated lyrics:

Annyeong (hi/bye)

My cute friend

When the boat horn sounds in the distance you cry without anyone knowing

Alone at night when everyone is asleep

Annyeong (hi/bye)

My little love

When the stars shine far away

you talk without anyone knowing

While crying

I went far, far away

I'm gonna listen to this song the whole night until I tired of crying 😭.

Man, I don't know what to do after this. Maybe just trying to survive without them? I mean I've been on this fandom since I was 19, now that I'm 25. There are a lot of things happened and a lot of thing are formed/connected. I don't see them just as idol who just appear on my screen to dance, sing, and being cool, pretty, and other celebrity stuffs. They are my biggest emotional support since before. So I don't really know what should I do the day after tomorrow until June 2024 (since Seokjin is come home) lmao.

It's 2.33 am in South Korea now. I wish they have a good sleep and good meal 🥺. Anyway I see from their live that Taehyung was excited to join the military. Said that he has a goal. I'm a little bit worried about how bulky he become after this but whatever that makes the baby happy.

Wish the baby bears a good luck on their services. They will be separate after the basic training but since they're a good people and a social butterfly I believed people around them will be kind to them.

Until we meet again!

See you guys in 2025 🫡👋💜

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The rest of them are going to enlist together next week!! 😭😭

On November 22nd morning 10am KST, so it's 8am in my place, Big Hit just announce that the rest of them gonna fulfill their military soon. I just woke up tho :(.

Namjoon already said it on his Weverse live a few months ago so I already emotionally prepared for this news (a little bit). 4 of them started a Weverse live together with the title "잘다녀오게슴니다" if i'm not mistaken how it's written, it's mean "We will comeback well". That's the moment I realized that they are going to enlist soon. That means I will barely see them until 2025 😭. I don't know how's my 2024 gonna be without them. I mean it. They are always there for the past 6 years since I became their fans and always been my support system the whole time. I don't know what do I do when all of them is gone. At least Seokjin will comeback on June 2024. Nobody realized he's already gone for a year because half of the member is still there and keep giving a lot of content back to back so we are well fed 😄. Now they take my favorite person, Kim Namjoon 🥺💔.

He just posted a IG story by the way. I wonder why his eyes looks red and teary. This picture of him just make me more sad 😭😭😭. What do you mean we're not getting rkive's content until 2025. His another project is coming soon and who's gonna turn on Weverse live and talk about the behind story of his upcoming project 😭. He's not going yet but I miss him already 🥺.

I wonder how's Yoongi doing lately. I hope he's okay. He really took "see you in 2025" seriously. He don't post or update about a single thing. Just vanish after his latest Weverse live 🥲.

I have to sleep now. It's 3.33am and I'm going to bust Hate You by Jungkook on my earphone.

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Jadiiii semalam ai gak bisa tidur. Deg-degan soalnya harus bangun pagi buat siap-siap ke lokasi tes CPNS (tapi akhirnya gak jadi berangkat, saking deg-degannya sampai maag kambuh kali yee🥲). Entah kenapa, gak tau penjelasan ilmiah dan psikologisnya gimana, kalau udah di situasi kayak gini aku sering replay live2 nya member BTS. Kepikiran deh buat nonton livenya Hobi di Weverse, kangen juga sebenarnya. Gak nonton juga sih, cuma dengerin dia ngomong. Di Youtube banyak sih ASMR suara cowok ala2 pillowtalk or whatever it is, tapi menurutku kayak cringe (?) 😭. Jadi aku lebih suka dengerin member BTS ngobrol-ngobrol santai sampai akhirnya ketiduran huhuuu. Thanks BTS udah ngebantu biar cepet tidur kalau aku butuh 🫶💜.

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Yoongi is home ! 😭

Finally after missing from ARMY sights, Yoongi is comeback home 🥺. Unfortunately we got a notice from BigHit about his military service departure. It's on September 22nd, this Friday. It's on 5 days. It feels too soon since we don't get a chance to spend more time with him after his concert. LMAO the concert time itself actually is more than enough. But it's awkward when he suddenly gone for a month. Might be busy preparing more contents 🥺. So I started to put some sad music, Snooze, Amygdala, Dear My Friend, 28, on Spotify to get into the mood. Ngl my chest feel so heavy. I need to cry a lot to relieve it. Dear My Friend reminds me to one of my beloved friend. We used to chat a lot, on the phone a lot, sharing every story and thoughts to each other, even though the distance between our place is so far away. And I don't know how we began to grow apart. We suddenly stop communicating but there's no hard feeling. We just stop talking suddenly. It's just so hurt that our relation turned into like that. I miss her so much. There's a moment when I try to connect to her again, but it's just doesn't feel right. So that's how I cried at the moment.

ARMY kept looking and waiting for him that everybody start doing their thing the days before and BOOM! We just have to shut the fck up then hahahaaa. This is what happen when we looking for him 😭.

And finally, hours after we got the notice, he did a live on Weverse !! 🥳💃🍻

Of course as soon as the live on everyone put the cry emoji a lot 😭😭😭😭😭. I did it too ofc. It's just so sad. He also said that he came to do live to show us that he's still alive lmao 😭😭. I'm gonna miss him so much. Just look at the way he said "Let's see each other in 2025." 😭. It's gonna be the last live before he enlist.

Because of his shoulder surgery, he qualified to serve on social service. He's gonna be on military for 21 month, 3 month longer than Seokjin and Hobi. At least he live on his house 😊. But still, we can't get any update from him often. Sadly Jungkook is in America on the day Yoongi start his serve. He got a schedule on September 23rd. But I see some tweet that according to K-ARMY, as a social service, he's gonna start working for 3 months, and then went to barack for the training for 3 months (here's probably where we can see BTS member sending him to the training camp), and after that he back to his place and continue on working until his military service is done.

It's gonna be a little be quite since there are 4 of them now. Or maybe no (?) They always prepared so many things before they go right? Now that I'm scared I still can't keep up with all the contents 😖.

#bts #yoongi #min yoongi #suga #agust d

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Taehyung on Suchwita🥺 and Namjoon's Bday🥳

What should I talk about first? Let me start with Namjoon's birthday letter on Weverse first. We all know how is it when he comes with long letter.

This was the auto-translated from Weverse. I don't know either if it's already the perfect one. But it's enough to make me in tears 🥺.

"I'm still going through the experience where revealing becomes a weaknessand honestly hurts but I'm not sure yet."

That words that come from him really hurts me. He talk several time about the idol-fans relationship and they talk about this on their 9th festa dinner. Said that it hurts that they can't tell us about everything. Ask us to keep trusting them. I do trust them eventhought I know them just from everything I saw on the screen. If I'm not mistaken Namjoon talk about it on their book, that sometimes he really want to hug his fans but he can't do that 🥺. I don't know how to explain this but BTS and ARMY have that kind of relation that more than just an artist and their audience. Kinda feel like a long-time childhood friends (?). It feels like we know them so well, their behavior, what they like or dislike, and else. We don't have to know every single detail about them, we know it's a stalker behavior, it's illegal. But knowing how they feel about the line they can't across on this idol-fans relation is so sad. There might be some bad consequence from that, fear of ruin their career, fear of upset their fans, etc. I trust them anyway. Their song give me hope and help me went through so many my up and down so let's just stay like that 😊.

"I can't hug each and everyone of you, but my heart is more than that."

Namjooooonnnnn 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔😭😭😭😭😭

The tears really streaming down my face after I read those words. The way he deliver about his feelings 🥺. This is one of many reasons why I stay this long on this fandom. I feel so emotionally connected with them. It's not just an empty thank you like "Oh thanks to my fans who keep buying and support our songs." No they're not like that. They are so sincere about their music and people around them 🥺. They respect them all 😭. I love them so much. I mean it. Really from the bottom of my heart. I really want people to understand why I stan them but I don't think they give a fuck. They just want to mock and labelled people like me as a "crazy fangirl" or "maniac".

Next is about Taehyung on Suchwita!

Finally we got another taegi moment! Taehyung is the last guest from BTS on Suchwita so everyone really anticipating this episode. Yoongi kept saying that Taehyung was nervous maybe because it's his first talkshow. What a relieve that it's with Yoongi as the host. Poor baby Taehyung 🥺.

They talk about so many things, Taehyung solo album, the making process, their individual genre, their trainee era, and the 2018.

About them in 2018, I was there when they gave a speech for their Artist of The Year award if I'm not mistaken. Seokjin openly talk about their thought about disband. And then the other member, especially Tae and Hobi started crying so hard. Everyone crying too of course it's hurt to see people you love is sad and hurt. But I don't really understand what they went through to have such a thought to stop. I just know they're tired of all the burden and expectation. Then I read the Beyond The Story book and they talked about it on Suchwita and Festa Dinner, and I just know that they're so physically and mentally drained at the time. They barely got rest and they all burnout. I remember Yoongi said that he vent on the toilet and cried on AMA because he's so scared. I thought it's all great things when they step up on American music but apparently it's all wrong. It's just another level of hard times for them. It's their 1st time being on that stage but of course they don't know what to do since they are the 1st who went there. They can't get any advice from any senior about what to do because they're the 1st who got there. Thank God they made their thought and get their strength as team back 🥺.

They mentioned about Yoongi's letter to Taehyung they talked about on Festa dinner 2018 (since it's Fake Love era). So the rapline were working on Tear, it's a song about broke up but turned out years later that it was a letter for the member. In the middle of working on the song he send Tae and Jungkook a long letter. Now I understand why Taehyung said that he cried so much after he read that long message and why that "I love you" mean so much to him 😭💔. Maybe since they are the youngest in the group so they worried about their condition. To be honest I just read the translated lyrics of Tear on Suchwita. I don't know that the song is really that hurtful. I can imagine how they feel everytime they went on stage on every state, rap about their disband thoughts in front of million ARMY who thought that Tear was a broke up song 😭💔.

Once again happy birthday Namjoon, the best leader, jooniebear, jooniethepooh, jootriever, koalajoon, and everything. I thank God for your existence, for real. I wish you can enjoy your last 20s and have a good day. I wish for your health. I wish for everything you wish can become true. I wish you always surrounded by good people. I wish you know that we trust you on whatever you are working on. Please trust us. Thank you for your existence, thank you for never giving up on your dream so your music can reach me and help me. Thank you for always sharing your thoughts and advice with us. It feels like a have a big brother now that I can depend on 🥺. I love you 💜.

By the way someone made this on Twitter and this is the exact thing I want to do everytime I see his head😭. The urge to caressed his buzzcut.

#namjoon #rm #bts #taehyung #yoongi #suchwita

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Tumblr please let me talk about my man. I've tried 2 times already to make a post but it's always disappear. What did I do wrong? 😭😭

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Taehyung on Dingo Story and Jungkook's Birthday

Today's afternoon after I wake up from a good nap (anyway i dreamed about Yoongi lmao), as usual I went to my Twitter. The timeline talk about Taehyung episode on Dingo Story so I thought it's already released. I saw a single clip when Taehyung and ARMY taking a cute photos in a photobox. Their interactions is so cute 🥹. So I watch the whole episode myself on Youtube.

I'm glad they're met. I'm happy for Hayoung she can met Taehyung, and I'm happy for Taehyung he finally got a chance to meet and hangout with ARMY. There's this moment that I adore so much that make me relize that BTS and ARMY relation is that close eventho we only watch them from screen and listen to their music. It's when Hayoung saw a video of Taehyung on screen in an arcade. She pointed at it and laugh at Taehyung 😂. Tae himself got a little bit shy and ask the staff to get rid of that video.

After having a really good time at arcade and taking a picture together, they're back to the cafe where they first met I gues?? On the way they have a little convo about how BTS song really support her during her hard time. She said that she have listen to Zero O'Clock so many times at the dawn. Because they haven't provide an English subtitle yet so I'm not really sure if she said that 'Zero O'Clock feels like a hug' or 'she listen Zero O'Clock and Hug Me a lot during that time.' And then Tae thanking her for liking him.

And then they have to say good bye to each other. They end it with a warm hug and I start sobbing for real. Like I still want to see them hanging out together for more. And after Tae went to his car, left Hayoung behind, she start crying and of course we both crying! 😭😭😭. The staffs told him so he come back to Hayoung to comfort her before he really left. They hugged for the last time and Hayoung crying and sobbing on his shoulder. I can imagine how she felt at that time. The feel when you met the person who always support you and understand you, want to thank him and have a lot of things on your thought for him but you end up crying instead. I hope he understand that, I'm sure he is.

I can't imagine if I have a chance to meet Namjoon. Maybe I'll just greet him and go away because I want to cry. I can't even sit for a long time with him and have a little convo. All I'm gonna do is just crying 😭😭😭😭.

I wish for the best for Hayoung.

Today's is Jungkook's bday 🥳🥳🥳

I'm sure it's not just me who's waiting for his bday live on Weverse. He did. But it's not as long as his usual live. Might be busy on working for his album? Nobody's know. He's 26th years old now! He come to Weverse live and show some magic tricks. Hahahahaa he's so cute 🥺. I wish him health and all the good things in the world. 💜

#bts #taehyung #jungkook #tae #jk

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The rap line is home ! But Hobi 😭.

Yoongi just posted :

"I feel like I have to go on stage on the weekend"

Man just got PCD too hahaa. But it would be nice if he post a selca too 😋.

And then later we got a surprise live from Namjoon. Since he got buzzcut he caressed his hair too much it makes me want to touch it too 😭.

Anyway I miss him so much 🥺. Last time I see him was on Yoongi's concert. It's not that long time ago. But maybe I just missing his surprise notifications. He used to do this often back then tho. Bring back the days when Namjoon stans was so well fed up 😭.

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Namjoon can't come to give a hug for everyone so he released "mono"

I remember someone tweet like that on Twitter. And now I saw this tweet and I couldn't agree more.

I remember when mono playlist just dropped, there's a man on Youtube react to everythingoes, one song from the playlist. His video got viral on Twitter because he's start crying as soon as the song played. I see everyone on internet said that they feel the same. So I wonder what's making them cried? What was the song about? So I read the translated lyrics and know I can understand. everythingoes become my favorite from mono. I can't even remember how many times I cried while listening to this song when I work on my thesis that seems like I can't made it. After graduated I listen to the song and recall all the times I worried so much, I'm afraid that I'll fail and can't graduate. But look at where I am now. everythingoes 😊. I cried at the moment but with different feels, more like happy tears 😄.

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Hello.

This is BIGHIT MUSIC.

How can life is so cruel 🥲. Baru aja kemarin konsernya selesai. Kasih jeda dulu kek seminggu baru dikasih kabar enlistment gini. Kan hati kita yang masih rapuh ini belum siap yaa 😭💔

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Agust D D-Day Final Concert

August 6th, 2023 marked as the last day of Agust D D-Day Final Concert in Seoul at KSPO Dome. Which is also mean that the tour is finally ended.

This concert tour was a part of the D-Day album promotion. Jakarta was one of the destination. I will proudly say that I am one of the crowd in Jakarta, on day 3 for exactly. Since they mentioned that this album gonna be the conclude of the Agust D trilogy. So I thought maybe there's no more Agust D. And yeah, during interview he explained that he don't want to make music as Agust D anymore, he want to grow more soft as a human. But if it's necessary, he will brought him back. And I thought that now is their enlistment era so I have to see them, at least one of them before they go.

I've never been happier than ever. I never feel so excited about something in my life that it make my heart pumping so hard and I can barely sleep on the day before I go to Jakarta. I still can feel about how I feeling that day. I prepared my outfit a long time before the ticketing, I put more attention to my makeup, I mean the proper makeup, like foundation, shade, eyeshadow, blush, etc. I'm not good at doing makeup but I just know that there's something that boost my confidence that day. I feel pretty and I can wear anything I want without worry about judgetment. I have an ugly belly fat but I wear my croptop because I want to. I just so happy at the time. And also I was surrounding by people like me ! The people who have the same kind of love towards BTS and their music. And I'm pretty sure they can understand why I fight so hard to be able to attend the concert. Such a good memories.

So about the final concert. They provide the online streaming so I watch it on Hypera 😂. I watch all 3 days concert. I expect for Tony Montana stage but they gave more than I expected. They had Jungkook featuring on Burn It. I was totally shook. Then he sang Seven. On the 2nd day they had Jimin. Yes Thee Tony Montana stage finally happened again after 7 years. And then he performed Like Crazy. And finally on the last day. People call him the final boss and I couldn't agree more. They performed Strange. The timeline thought it's funny because their vibe was totally different.

Namjoon just shaved his hair by the way. He made a klarification again that it doing nothing about his enlistment. My man just can not stand the hot weather. Look at him🥺. Those dimples, those pretty eyesmile, the joonose, and my favorite smile. I love him so much that my chest hurt 😭.

And then he performed his new unrelease song. We thought he's going to performed Wild Flower tho. Idk what was the song name. The music is so beautiful. Kinda like a lullaby. It's so comforting. Idk what's the song about but there's this certain lyric that hit me. "I forgot about the hour, I forgot to shower." I feel so targeted because I rarely do the shower sometimes. I forgot about the hour and it's already midnight and I end up dont take a shower. I do something or go somewhere just to find a reason to shower. I don't know what happened that it's so hard to get up from my mattress. I see someone on Twitter said that this song is for the girl with mental illness. But I still don't understand what exactly the song is about until Namjoon himself give some explanation.

Seokjin and Hobi is was there too. I miss them so much 😭

Next is the heart wrenching songs. He performed Snooze, Dear My Friend, and Amygdala back to back. Putting this song together should be illegal. Maybe since it's the last concert so he's getting more emotional. He started crying during Snooze 😭. I thought maybe he talk to the old him. Because this song is for his juniors in Kpop Industry so he understand how hard it was. He can relate too. And of course I cried too 😭💔. Next song, Dear My Friend. He made this song for his bestfriend that is sadly no longer with him. Damn it I started crying now. Looking at Yoongi sobbing but still manage to performed is so heartbreaking 🥺. People say that bestfriend breakup is the worst. It is. I wish that friend of Yoongi doing well now. Thank you for being there for Yoongi on his hardtimes. The next is Amygdala. This song never fail to hurt me. The intro music itself is already hurtful.

After a VCR it's finally encore time. Began with D-Day and after that he introduce the crew of the concert. They had additional member to introduce, Elcapitaxn as DJ, Adora and June as back vocal. When it come to Elcapitaxn turn, they turned the whole stadium into a night club. I love it so much that I got it screenrecorded. Sadly the other BTS member already left after Amygdala so they can't experience it :(. And then FINALLY !! After day after day, week after week, month after month, he finally reveal his 7 tattoo ! It's on his left shoulder, where he got the surgery because of that accident. We can clearly see the stitch scars.

He said what's so important about the tattoo? Like he don't tease us by keep hiding his tattoo meanwhile the rest of BTS member reveal it already.

The show is come to the very end. There're only Nevermind and The Last that left from the setlist. I tried so hard to memorize the Nevermind lyrics so I can sing and shout it out with Yoongi word after word but I forgot all of it once I'm inside the venue 😭.

The last song is The Last. The song that I anticipated the most. One of the reason why I have to went to his concert. Basicly this song is about how he overcome his trauma and mental illness, that he's totally fine now, that he became stronger. That line that said "My fans, keep your head high with pride. Because who can do it like me uh." It send chills and got my eyes teary everytime I listen to the song. I want to see him on stage shouting that words. The Last is the last track from his 1st mixtape, Agust D. It was released on 2016 when he was 23 y.o, 2 years younger than me now. He said that at the young age. But I have to witness the new version of him shouting that words. We know that he became stronger now. I'm so proud of him 🥺. After the last song, they show a short VCR, cut from his MVs. And then they show the Amygdala MV scene when Agust D walk towards a door. The VCR ended. The light turnsd on again. Yoongi walk around the stage, waving at,the audience and thanking them nonstop. Finally he's back on stage, bowing for the last time and then walk towards the door behind him. He turn around once again, gave us the most sweet and warm smile, waving, thanking again, and finally he closed the door 🥺. And then the screen show this words, "Future's gonna be okay" 💜

The fact that the tour is really ended finally hit me. There's no more concert content. Min Yoongi finally can leave the Agust D behind with all the pain, rage, upset. That's all about self acceptence. Everyone really having so much fun during the concert. Jump around, screaming, crying, swearing, laughing. We share these together. It so sad. I'm crying right now😭. But it doesn't make sense that he would touring forever hahahaa. It's really the end. He finally can take a rest today and start the life as he want it to be. Go ahead Min Yoongi. We'll be your forever audience to support everything you do. Your work and art as Agust D, SUGA, or Min Yoongi give such strength and motivation for us. This post is such a mess with my broken English but I just write whatever that come to my mind 😁.

민윤기 사랑해요 🫶 그리고 너무 감사해요 💜

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okay. cara make tumblr gimana? udah lupa banget. pfp ku ihh apaan sih 😭😭😭

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i cried a lot trought this movie 🎥

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Warning! Never watch mukbang when you are hungry 🍲🍱🍚

#korean #koreanfood #food #foodphotooftheday #photograph #warn

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which one is better? 👕👖👔👓👠👢

#cloth #goodvibe #tumblr #grunge #hipster #mood #night

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inspired from Everything I Didn’t Say song.

#5sos #5 seconds of summer #5sosfam #luke hemmings #calum hood #michael clifford #ashton irwin #photography #vintage

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#afternoon #landscape #nature