roomtempmess

[roomtempmess]

i've definitely heard of people having the demisexual experience of thinking they were ace until they experienced sexual attraction, but has anyone else thought that they were allosexual until they experienced sexual attraction? because i was certain that the romantic attraction i had experienced for people was, to some degree, also sexual attraction until i met my current partner and realized that it Very Much Was Not because for him i definitely feel Different

#demisexual #ace #asexual #queer #lgbtq #lgbtqia

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sorry i’m bisexual and easily distracted

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i'm a bit of a diy gender haver, myself. a patchwork genderer, if you will. a veritable gender magpie.

#gender #nonbinary #genderqueer #genderfluid #queer #i just find all the shiny bits of other genders #and incorporate them into mine

[roomtempmess]

sometimes taking care of yourself is really just getting to a point of "yeah okay, good enough" and not forcing yourself to do more than that.

like, did i take a shower? yes. did i wash my hair in said shower? no. i didn't have the mental energy required to turn the water to cold to protect my coloured hair, and i felt bad about washing it in warm and fading the colour faster, but i still showered, so that's okay.

did i walk to the grocery store? yes. did i buy only things i need? no. did i walk back? also no. i have a few extra dollars to buy snacks, so i'm allowed to do that, and i was too mentally and physically tired to walk the half hour back with a full bag, so i took the bus. i still moved my body some, i still spent time outside, and i still got what i needed, so that's okay.

did i do some dishes? yes. are there still a ton of dirty dishes on my kitchen table? also yes. i have clean cutlery, cups, and plates now though which is not something i could've said yesterday, so that's okay.

have i made myself food? yes. has literally every meal i've made in the last two days been a breakfast sandwich? yes. breakfast sandwiches, fruit, and rice cakes are basically all i want to eat right now, so they're all i'm eating, but i'm still eating so that's okay.

have i gotten to doing the reading for my summer course today? no, not yet. are both the idea of doing it and the impending doom that will come next week if i don't do it stressing me out? yes. am i going to keep trying to find the energy and motivation to read? yes, but i am not going to beat myself up if i don't get "enough" of it done.

yes it would be nice if i could do more, but i need to, for my own sake, not get upset about what i haven't done. i'm doing what i can, i'm honestly giving it my best shot, and i need to allow myself grace about it.

on top of that, i actually can't let myself be a perfectionist about my wellbeing because otherwise i get stuck in a trap of thinking that if i'm not going to finish a task, there's no point in starting it, but there is a point! i'm eating and cleaning myself and cleaning my space and spending time in the sun and moving my body and taking care of myself. that's what the point is, but if i never let myself start my half-finished self care tasks, i'll never do anything that's good for me.

#mental health #neurodivergent #grace #ramble #anything worth doing is worth doing badly #but man is it hard to remember that sometimes

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my brain just smashed together 'monumental' and 'momentous' into 'monumentous' so that's a free new word to annoy your awful English teachers and delight your wonderful English teachers with

#monumental #momentous #monumentous #new word #english #you're all so incredibly welcome for this gift which i have bestowed upon you that certainly no one has ever thought of before ever

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yes

jelly jeans

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i swear 99% of the things that i read online don't make me laugh, but if a friend of mine were to text me those exact same words i would entirely lose my shit

#there's probably something that could be said here about connection #and about how social media maybe isn't as social as we wish it was #but i'm not going to put too much thought into that

[roomtempmess]

i only crave two things: romance and death

#problem is #no one wants to romance me #and i refuse to die until someone does #death tw #romance #hopeless romantic #(emphasis on the hopeless)

[roomtempmess]

to clarify, this is because when i find a bug in my house or when one comes flying at my face, i will often say "excuse me sir/ma'am, i'm going to have to ask you to leave"

it's entirely possible that the only context that i'll ever use "ma'am" or "sir" ever again is regarding insects

#i'm extremely funny #and sexy #everyone loves me because of how hilarious i am and how fine my hot bod is #gender #ma'am #sir #trans inclusion #nonbinary inclusion #nonbinary inclusive #trans inclusive #insects #bugs

[roomtempmess]

it's entirely possible that the only context that i'll ever use "ma'am" or "sir" ever again is regarding insects

[roomtempmess]

tumblr ads are wild, but this youtube ad is trying to get me to change my pronouns. idk man, neopronouns just aren't for me, you don't have to insist so hard

#pronouns #they/them #neopronouns #nonbinary #enby

[roomtempmess]

jelly jeans

#don't ask me what this means #it is up to your interpretation #i just saw a bag of jelly beans #realized that beans and jeans are one letter off #and here we are

[roomtempmess]

forget hand-to-hand COMBAT, it's time for hand-to-hand CONTACT

#please someone hold my hand #i'm so touch starved

[roomtempmess]

new personality test: which line of no children do you want to scream a bit louder than the rest?

#for me it's #i hope i never get sober #i hope literally anyone else responds to this #and with something other than #i am drowning #there is no sign of land #because that's the part that everyone is supposed to want to yell louder

[roomtempmess]

like this

concept: booty shorts that have "i flexed and the legs fell off" written across the back

[roomtempmess]

concept: booty shorts that have "i flexed and the legs fell off" written across the back

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somehow i have found myself back on tumblr because apparently i miss 2015 or something. if you remember me at all, no you don't <3