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I wish i could disappear forever.

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"sometimes I wonder if things would have turned out differently if I had done just one thing or said those few words or been a little less like this and a little more like that, sometimes I wonder , sometimes I overthink"

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sorry babe, i can’t have sex right now, im posting about how much i want to kill myself online .

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I still do not understand why I should be alive? My bf would be happier with other girl, my death would be such a relief for my friends and my sister's life would be more beautiful if she was an only child

Nobody sees how much pain and how little of will to live is in me, so i'm sure they don't care if i'm here or not lol

#sad but not surprised #things to do instead eating #tw ana diary #tw depressing stuff #tired #mentally drained #sad quotes #tw self destructive behavior #ana trigger #tw selfhate #depression #tw depressing thoughts #sorry for being depressing #depressiv #depressing shit #depressing quotes #tw sui mention #vent #depression tw #tw sui talk #tw dissociation

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“do you want to talk about it?”

no, i want to kill myself because of it.

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got diagnosed with 4 seasons seasonal depression

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Constantly thinking about the recovery thing lol

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A cup of coffee with a drip of milk literally makes you shit whenever you want. That’s good because of not eating enough and just struggling with an eating disorder makes the shitting thing fucking hard. Isn’t it wired that when you already have a lot of problems with eating itself the shit issue comes along with it?

#sad #sad but not surprised #tw ed thoughts #just ed shit #tw ed related #eating disoder things #eating disoder mention #tw eating mention #not pr0 ana #low cal ana #ana mia #tw ana shit #anorexi4 #anorexsick #not proud of this #recovery

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“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.”

— Sylvia Plath (via quotemadness)

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I wonder if Ed Sheeran knows he has a cult of starving kids in Tumblr

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ED meme

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Coming out to myslef is so fucking hard

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I don’t know if my friend knows about my ed and that I’ve been struggling with it for at least a year… But lately I’ve managed to eat at least one proper meal a day and you know I was getting better but last night she told me that she lost 15 pounds in a really short time because of the extreme diet on which she is rn and now… I’m going to starve mslf until I look sick or a walking death

Nothing more than thank her…

#sad #sad but not surprised #tw ed thoughts #depressing shit #depression #disordered eating tw #eating disoder mention #just ed shit #not pr0 ana #tw ed behavior #tw ed related #eating disoder things #low cal ana #tw ana shit #tw selfhate #ana mia #ana rules #pro 4na #4n0r3x14 #4na diary #anorexi4 #4n4m1a

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I hate plain coffee taste so I accidentally became addicted to plain tea

And this is what feed my eating disorder because during the summer hot liquids keep my stomach full

And this is what I’m gonna do because it would be the best if I manage to lose at least about 15lbs before the winter cause the season is fucking extreme to survive

#sad #sad but not surprised #tw ed thoughts #depressing shit #depression #disordered eating tw #eating disoder mention #just ed shit #not pr0 ana #tw ed behavior #tw ed related #tw suicice #eating disoder things #low cal ana #tw ana shit #tw selfhate #ana mia #tw ed vent #vent post #trauma vent #tw ed talk #personal vent