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mrsparrasblog · 1 day

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POLY 141 x pregnant Reader

Ever thought about what it would be like to be pregnant with this gigantic pile of handsome men? Because I've thought about it, and I can go into heavy detail—I will go into heavy detail!

Price: This man has a heavy breeding kink, and no one can convince me otherwise. He was so happy when he found out you were pregnant that he immediately got into heavy Dad mode. "What do you mean?" he asked after you told him he doesn't need to baby-proof the house when you're only in the second month. He attends baby preparation courses with you and overall turns into a super daddy.

Johnny: The second one with a heavy breeding kink is 100% sure he is the father. "It's the MacTavish genes," he says confidently. "We're going to have at least three bairns by the end of the five-year mark." He wouldn't admit it, but he called his mother crying while he told her the news. The MacTavish Family was special, so they all came with big stroller gifts and the urge to overwhelm you with their love. They don't care who the baby's biological father is; in their hearts, you're a MacTavish, exactly like your sweet little bairn.

Kyle: He is really excited. He already loves the baby and is also 100% sure it's his because you two have the most sex out of all of them. He always fights with Johnny about who the father probably is. Kyle is the one who thinks the most about you. He knows how you struggle with the pregnancy and how it isn't easy for you with all the overwhelming baby daddies around you, so he takes his time to care about you. He compliments you more than ever, and if you have a weird craving, he's already ordered it before you even said a word. He is constantly trying to find a baby-safe option of your favorite food. He doesn't drink coffee anymore so you don't mourn alone. Check-up? He is the first to be there, and when the baby was born and everyone looked at it, he went to you. Not because he loves the baby less—it's his world—but because he was so afraid the whole pregnancy of losing his soulmate, the only thing worth fighting for, the only thing that kept him alive.

Ghost: He never wanted kids—at least he thought he didn't—but it made sense with you. He knew you would be the best mother in the world. So why was he so afraid? He thought about how he could hurt the baby all the time with his pure strength or how he would scare the baby or hurt you. For a blissful second, he thought maybe it would be better if he left so you'd be safe from all the shadows of his past. But he was better than his family. He bought lots of parenting books, went to his psychologist regularly, and attended dad meetings, not daddy meetings—a terrible mistake he made. He even bought you a guard dog for the possibility that you and the baby are alone. To his surprise, but not to yours, he was the most gentle and understanding dad there ever was.

Dont ask me why my brain came up with this weird stuff again but Im already thinking about how they react when they found out who the biological father is lol

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reiderwriter · 1 day

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reiderwriter 5k writing challenge

hello, my lovelies, and thank you so much for 5k followers~♡ it's been just under a year since I started writing on here, and it's been so fun interacting with everyone and writing for Spencer and the other members of the BAU team! I was a bit unprepared for some of my other milestones and threw some stuff together last minute for them, but I've been thinking about a writing challenge for a while and I finally decided to do it!

Please note: This is a writing challenge! All the prompts below are meant to inspire you to write your own fics and not as prompt requests for me. I hope you can use them as a starting point to write~♡

The theme for the challenge is:

daydreams and shooting stars`☆

There are two sets of prompts to choose from! The daydreams' prompts are based on classic fanfiction tropes that we know and live, and the shooting stars prompts are based on the zodiac signs. There are 12 prompts in each list, and you're welcome to mix and match prompts as you like! Maybe you'd like to combine your star sign with your favourite trope, or two particularly match well, or if you like a single prompt, you can just write for that. I don't mind if the fic is only very loosely based on the prompt, too, do whatever you'd like!

The writing challenge will run up until my 1 year writing anniversary, July 27th, so you have plenty of time to get your fics in! I'll be reblogging all the entries, and at the end, I'll add them to a recommendation list! Be sure to tag @reiderwriter in your fic, or use the hashtag #reidersdaydreams or #reidersshootingstars in your tags! I'll be tracking both~♡ You can submit as many entries as you like!

Rules for submissions will be at the end. Please read them before submitting~♡

without further ado, here are the prompt lists~☆

DAYDREAMS

ONLY ONE BED - a true classic in the sense that I will be reading only one bed fics down to the second I take my last breath. Feel free to invert this to "too many beds," or even "no beds at all, but somehow we're still cuddling," either way, I will read it and likely enjoy it greatly.

GRUMPY X SUNSHINE - which character is grumpy, which character is sunshine? my favourite grumpy x sunshine dynamics are the gloomy character trying their best to become more sunny after a tough life 🫡

FAKE DATING - we, in the criminal minds fandom, have written possibly every undercover mission possible to make our characters make out, but I'm coming in as a simple woman to ask - please do it again 🫶

OH. OH. - the plot revelations! Give me them! The sudden moments of clarity! I'm a fan, goddammit.

IDIOTS IN LOVE - there is nothing better than two huge dumbasses falling head over heels in love with each other in an "aw shucks" kind of way. Also, I'm an idiot, representation matters.

ALTERNATE UNIVERSE - coffee shop AU? Soulmate AU? HANAHAKI AU? If someone could please un- or re- traumatise my favourite characters I will be eternally grateful

SECRET IDENTITY - give the character their Emily Prentiss Lauren Reynolds moment, or just make them dress like a clown for like 30 minutes. Both count.

MUTUAL PINING - This harkens back to idiots in love, but it's about the LONGING, it's about the PITIFUL STARES, it's about the BURNING PASSION.

SECRET RELATIONSHIP - my love of gossip makes me a sucker for secret relationship stories because I truly want to be in everyone's business. Character A and B are dating? Brilliant. It's a secret? BRILLIANT.

SICK FIC - your poor little meow meow has a cold. Or your poor little meow meow has been poisoned with anthrax. Or your poor little meow meow is dealing with possible symptoms of schizophrenia. Or your poor little meow meow has been shot-

PSYCHO X PSYCHO - reidams fans, this one's for you 🥰

ENEMIES TO LOVERS - half of my requests are enemies to lovers requests! Feel free to include rivals to lovers, lovers to enemies, friends to enemies to lovers, enemies to friends to lovers, or any such dynamic that your heart desires.

SHOOTING STARS:

Aries - "I burn for you. I can't sleep at night for wanting you. It's the most maddening, beguiling, damnable thing, but there it is."

Taurus - "There is a stubbornness about me that never can bear to be frightened at the will of others. My courage always rises at every attempt to intimidate me."

Gemini - "There's such a lot of different Annes in me. I sometimes think that is why I'm such a troublesome person. If I was just the one Anne, it would be ever so much more comfortable, but then it wouldn't be half so interesting."

Cancer - "I will not say: do not weep; for not all tears are an evil."

Leo - "There is no exquisite beauty… without some strangeness in the proportion."

Virgo - "They slipped briskly into an intimacy from which they never recovered."

Libra - "Somehow, we'll find it. The balance between whom we wish to be and whom we need to be. But for now, we simply have to be satisfied with who we are."

Scorpio - "She didn't understand why, but faced with those decaying buildings and straggling grasses, she was nothing but a child who had never lived."

Sagittarius - "If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything."

Capricorn - "There's a low-level, specific pain and having to accept that putting up with you requires a certain generosity of spirit in your loved ones."

Aquarius - "An education was a bit like a communicable sexual disease. It made you unsuitable for a lot of jobs, and then you had the urge to pass it on."

Pisces - "I think it's perfectly acceptable and rather admirable to be moderately delusional."

Rules:

I'm accepting reader insert, an Original Character, a character/character ship, a platonic ship, or a Gen fics for this challenge. It can feature any Criminal Minds character or any character from any fandom you write for. I assume a lot of people will stick with CM, but feel free to write for whoever you choose!

Please tag me in your entries or send the link to me in a DM. It can be already written, or you can write it for the challenge. Again, the tags I'm tracking are #reidersdaydreams and #reidersshootingstars ♡

The fic can be any genre, but ONLY send me smut if your bio states you are 18+. I will not endorse, nor do I want to read smut written by minors. I will check the ages of accounts posting smut.

For smut or angst fics that could include triggers, please include a content warning above the fic so we can be aware before reading!!

Enjoy!!

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cannibalsrider · 2 days

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Can you write some fluff with the haikyuu boys (mainly Atsumu, Kuroo, Oikawa and Akaashi) laying on readers chest?? Just some good ol fluff🌚

yes omg ^.^ id lobe to idk if I was supposed to pick but on a Tsumu kick rn but ill def do a pt2 with the other three gonna do him based off of dif songs I can see him putting in playlists for his partner

ft: atsumu miya x mangaka!gn reader

warnings: nothing just pure fluff

a/n. this was a bit short cus i was procrastinating a bit and flipping back and fourth between this and my crochet project but I hope u like it annon^.^

wc.683

Cuddling with a six-foot setter wasn't easy, but cuddling with Atsumu Miya felt like being draped with a weighted blanket, his bleach-blonde hair tucked under my chin as we scrolled through TikTok, watching fan edits of us. "They've been picking good songs for the edits they make of you recently, Tsum," I mumbled, looking down at the half-asleep man resting on my chest. "Mhm, you're probably the one giving them all those ideas from your Spotify," he muttered back as I ran my hand through his hair. "You're the one who kept talking about it when the reporter asked you about your workout playlist," I quipped, placing a small kiss atop his head. "Now all people like to say about us is that I made you listen to all the sweet stuff," I said sarcastically as I played with the hair resting at the back of his neck.

"Because you're the one making me all sweet just for your enjoyment," he responded, his sleepy voice making me want to laugh. He sounded like he was drowning in the thought of wanting to sleep but tried his hardest to stay awake so we could have some form of time together since he had been busy all day with another game. If he had asked me who they had played, I could honestly not tell, with the fact that he had looked like a focused puppy on his way to get a win in tug of war against another dog.

"Yeah, mhm, not like you didn't tell me to add The Smiths on there, saying that it reminded you of us," I huffed with a small laugh. As we stayed quiet for a moment, it felt like nothing was moving around us, like it was our second year again and he was sneaking into my bedroom window and me holding him after an especially long day. Atsumu Miya was like a big golden retriever when it was just us, nothing to do about volleyball or a chapter I had to complete for my editor. It was just the calm silence of our bedroom with the white noise of the Tokyo streets. I sometimes wondered, would we be like this in every universe, laying here, his head tucked under my chin as we watched videos of him on my phone? It felt silly in a way, thinking that maybe we would, and that we'd always find our way to each other, even if times got hard. I'd always find him.

"Tsum?" I said, my voice soft as I spoke. "Hm," he mumbled, tracing shapes absentmindedly against my collarbone. "Do you think we would be soulmates in every universe like how we are now?" I asked, not even sure if he'd answer or not, but I felt his head lift ever so slightly to look at me as he spoke. "You're gonna be my partner in every life and universe, even when we're old and grey, and you do that little knitting thing with the yarn and have grandkids, we'll still be together torturing Samu," he responded, earning a laugh as he kissed me. It felt like it always did, like I was sixteen again, kissing him for the first time in his room because we thought it would be better to practice kissing with each other so whenever we got our own partners, we didn't look silly.

"I hope Samu knows we'll become more insufferable with time," I mumbled against his lips as I turned my phone off. His head fell right back to its original position, sprawled out all over me as if he was my personal blanket. "He'll know, I can tell," he responded with a small smile.

#fanfiction #haikyuu #atsumu x reader #miya atsumu #post timeskip miya atsumu #haikyuu x reader #asks #answered

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sassykinzonline · 3 days

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what’s your opinion on people who say sns is platonic? like i’ll see well done essays about sns and how they changed each other for the better and their love. then… theyll say its platonic.

is it just blissful ignorance or? 😭

oh wow this is a really good question, thank you.

um hm, i never really want to totally shit on anyone's interpretation of anything so long as its accurate to the information thats presented so im not really against any interpretation thats well-defended. i havent read the kind of opinion youre talking about so i cant really say anything more specific than that.

what i will say though is that i think sometimes some snsers get caught up in "fighting homophobia" that they kind of miss the essence of naruto and i's specific relationship: that we are every type of attraction and every kind of love. its obvious in the manga's arts, the different parallels, the words we use to describe each other, the progression of our relationship, the intimacy we share with each other, i could go on and on.

so, do i think our relationship is presented in a way thats exclusively platonic? nope and the only way you could come to that conclusion is either a) homophobia or b) genuinely not being able to grasp the storytelling elements in the manga (ie. you dont necessarily need to be able to understand or feel romantic/sexual attraction to see that the manga shows you it exists between us explicitly). the anime is a bit...worse but i still feel like most people have seen the anime ONLY and still feel discomfort because they cant figure out if we're gay or not, and ive never heard of another shonen anime with a problem that big.

however, the platonic element is a huge and important part of our relationship. there was no one among our "friends" that could truly understand, sympathize, or care for us. but at the same time, that wasnt enough. there's the familial element too, in the sense that we wanted the safety that we knew a family should make you feel. we knew the "family" we had (iruka and itachi) were broken. there's a professional side to it too, where our profession is so intimately tied to our sense of self that thats how we communicate our feelings to each other. there's a romantic element yes, the feeling of completion and feeling that someone is "for you". there's even a sexual/aesthetic element, where just the appearance of someone overwhelms your senses and consumes your body. i would also look at the relationships you have with other people and ask if they dont include different kinds of love/attraction despite mainly being one thing.

ultimately though, i think that the way the narrative is presented (and the way i feel), the point is meant to be that we have all those different types of love except because of our context (familial, political, social, whatever) its difficult to realize the romance that we both desperately wanted from the other. the manga presents the double suicide proposal as romantic, and thats the climax of the story. so the relationship should be looked at as a romantic one. at the same time though, if people feel like "well just because the manga says its a romantic relationship doesnt mean this is inherently romantic, theyre exclusive queer platonic soulmates that kiss and bone" or something then i think thats fine too. so long as they understand that naruto and i will always come before anyone else to each other, and that whatever we feel for the other is not only mutual but mutually desired and all encompassing.

#ask #sasunaru #narusasu #i hope thats fair enough #as an aspec person i cant find it in myself to really care about what our relationship is called #so long as people respect what it should be made of which does include romance and sex #if there are typos ignore them im sleepy and i wrote this in one go but kept hesitating over parts

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clownery-and-fuckery · 5 months

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"If soulmates truly exist, as you believe," Tech smiled as he turned to her, the sunset lighting up his eyes beautifully. "Perhaps, in our next lifetime, we could be just that."

"Why not now?" Phee asked, voice hoarse with unshed tears.

She knew the answer. Yet she waited for his response.

"Phee," Tech murmured, still an imagined smile on his face. "You know."

"I don't." Phee said, uselessly defiant. Stubborn. Tech's laugh sounded far away, sad as the remainder of the sun bled away.

Falling.

The sounds of birds woke Phee up.

#i like pain #jk this hurts me #sw the bad batch #tbb tech #phee genoa #tech x phee #its giving #“are we soulmates in every universe?”#“we're not even soulmates in this one”#im sorry im posting more dead tech conent #i do actually want him to live #contrary to popular belief

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gregoftom · 11 months

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what do you mean you don’t think you’re gonna be buried at my side

#I CANT STOP LAUGHINGGGG AT TOMS EXPRESSION IN THE THIRD SHOT HES LIKE. AND THATS THAT ON THAT #HES SO RIDICULOUS!!!!! I LOVE IT WHEN HE'S UNHINGED #greg you DUMMY if I get fired if I die you are coming with me!!!!!!#greg: he likes me so i'm safe tho #tom: huh???????????????????? how is that relevant???? we're one and the same????? if i die so do you ??? you're my soulmate? lmfao #the only mf you can trust is ME or did you forget that. idc if he likes you you're MINE and only i will take care of you #WHO HAS EVER LOOKED AFTER YOU IN THIS FUCKING FAMILY #ALO THE WAY HE LOOKSA T HIM WHEN HE SAYS THE HIGHEST PAID ASSISTANT GOOD GRIEF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#he can't even talk shit any more without looking at him like he's everything to him TOM YOU ARE SLIPPIIIIIING #''its the family death march'' stop SAYING that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 WE GET IT YOU COUNT GREG AS YOUR FAMILY!!!!!! YOU COUNT HIM AS #YOUR EVERYTHING!!!!!!! I GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD!!!!11111111111 #tomgreg #yall just. just ANNOYING #also alsooooo the fact that tom was like did i do good? did i sound good? like greg was his little spouse brought along to a #work meet thing. that sounded good to the boss right? what do you think honey? sounded okay?#i hate them fr #ALSO SUGAR BABY GREG! SUGAR BABY GREG! SUGAR BABY GREG! S

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jigsaw1974 · 5 months

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Chainshipping version of "Do you think we're soulmates in every universe?"

#sawtism #sawposting #saw #jigsaw #lawrence gordon #adam faulkner stanheight #chainshipping #Saw poetry #More of my Saw poetry #Saw poems #Do you think we're soulmates in every universe?#Are we even soulmates in this one?

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fideidefenswhore · 9 months

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also, 'domestic tranquility' is an...interesting way to put the near-arrest and reified disinheritance of a 'bastard' royal daughter, the death at seventeen of a bastard duke/son, and the arrest of his royal niece? are we to believe there was a calm court atmosphere during the first reports of uprisings in autumn 1536, too? that nothing that was happening outside their daily, intimate life/'sphere' was effecting their emotions or stress levels? or perhaps the way they interacted with each other? HUH .

#i don't like HOPE it wasn't but if jane and henry were truly experiencing 'domestic tranquility' at these points #then they must have been soulmateism in denial. like #just read that as a sort of pat summary of the immediate 'settling' after the boleyn downfall and am like. eh?#even if henry had literally been a traditional widower ie living with coa until she died #then marries jane and AB never returned to england in 1522 or whatever alternate timeline we're arguing for #i cannot imagine any of those events would have inspired...er. tranquility?#knowing as we do like everything that preceded their marriage. doubt?#also the first one seems to have caused conflict between them #like eventually 'resolved' conflict by her . having to agree with everything he had done and said. but......#tl; dr how realistic is this 'domestic tranquility'#what even are they attributing it to. the single john russell quote?#it suggests no arguments between them but that's not corroborated at the time

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like-sands-of-time · 1 year

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Absolute biggest frustration with House md is how clear it feels the writers just gave up/got bored with houses sobriety journey and not only pulled him back two years in terms of progress, but also twisted his personality too. Like my whole frustration with season seven is literally the fact that nobody in the show focuses on his stress to addiction pipeline anymore. Cuddy sees him slip once at the thought of his girlfriend dying and she's like I should have known he'd never be there for me bitch I love you but that is not the conversation we should be having right now. Break up with him for any of a thousand valid reasons but this human being also needs help getting back on track not being pushed away by the person who just said she wouldn't push him away.

Wilson gets frustrated on his friends behalf, knows he's back on the drugs, and encourages him to seek help, but then just stops after it doesn't fit the plot of the episode anymore. Absolutely insane oversight from his two longest and closest friends but then neither of them seemed to understand the struggle he had at coming back to the hospital after rehab either.

It's like the writers were bored of him going to therapy and trying to find healthy habits and just decided to make him a psychopathic man-child and go "see? He was like this all along it was always gonna happen"

I'm not saying the show had to have an overwhelmingly happy ending, but they could have done his character and cuddy and Wilson at times so much more justice, seriously. It would have been so much more resonant to show this brilliant tortured man's long bumpy journey to mental health when he's surrounded by the very things that both stress and excite him

#why did they even show him and rachel developing a bond if they were just gonna throw that whole relationship in the trash #house md #so many questions seriously #i dont even care if hilson is endgame its clear theyre platonic soulmates #as an asexual i love relationships that are everything but physical #if you can write two people so intimate trusting and devoted to each other i dont even need to see the intimacy #itll never live up to that #but its also clear from the writers that we're supposed to believe house and cuddy have known each other since #their one night stand in college which was two decades ago #and that theyve been revolving around each other since #that they were bound to collide and that it was a physical relationship #i honestly think both of those can be valid and real at the same time #whether or not its polyamorous

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flowerflamestars · 1 year

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Migration Patterns snippet

“Dick’s not the only one who got a shit ton of training,” he told her, tilting his head. Trying to judge the evenness of her pupils. “You’re cold.” “City dropped me in my fucking pajamas,” Elle said, tone repressive as the arms she crossed tight over her chest. Like a mirror- the feel of it more a joke, something warm, warm, warm lighting wildly through Jason, she matched the angle of his face before saying in a whole different voice, “Didn’t miss you choking men with your thighs.” There was blood on the jacket. A least one tear, a missed knife dragged through heavy, expensive fabric- it was sure as shit warmer than the tank top and yoga pants she was wearing. Jason had it halfway off before he answered, belated. “You were going to kill all of them.” “Shockingly,” Elle drawled, a whole wave of heat choking him as she held out her hand, taking the suit jacket like a forgone conclusion. “My morals take a raincheck when assholes shoot at my head.” She wasn’t that small, not really. Short without those shit stomping shoes he was used to seeing her in- delicate to the point of absurdity drowning in his clothes, huddled, huge eyes catching neon. “Self defense,” Jason heard himself offer, just to see her blink. Scowl. A Gotham girl, barefoot in an alley and still ready to go. “I wasn’t worried,” Elle said, skirting around his body and making a sharp left toward the street. “I’m parked the other way.” Elle stopped. Closed her eyes right in the moment he might have really been able to see them, paused beneath the golden light of the stupid faux old-fashion streetlights the city had thrown up all over this district. Not even fucking solar, ugly as sin and twice as expensive as what had been there in the first place. “I’m good,” she said, before looking back, somewhere toward Jason’s left shoulder, “Thanks for the jacket.” The absolute fuck she was. “Elle.” A tired, inexplicable smile was all the real answer he got. “Night, Jay.”

#Gotham magic misfiring?#more likely than you think #(but IS IT MISFIRING)#Jason: why would Elle worry? Elle is a WARDEN #Elle: there were only six of them and your eyes started glowing like a horror show are you KIDDING-#Also Elle: the mob is not allowed to shoot at me they are sure as fuck going to live to regret shooting at MY SOULMATE-#EVEN IF WE'RE NOT REALLY SPEAKING AT THE MOMENT #Elle isn't even a murder kitten #she's just like #working in a moral framework that is not necessarily the one expected of her at first glance #and currently #having the mostly conflicted thoughts about a suit jacket #she is Just like. physically incapable of not flirting with Jason at least a little #but is also only going to let him take care of her so much when he just disappeared on her #Sad Jason voice: I have to make up for the fact that it's Me #Elle narrating this encounter to Wells: this sexy stupid motherfucker IN A SUIT #being HANDSOME AND KIND AND FUNNY-#anyway #they've gone seventeen steps backwards to go forwards and Elle has never before appeared quite so much like her sixteen year old self #robin fic #Migration Patterns of Turdidae

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miabrown007 · 1 year

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the Night Circus is fiction because there's no way an Adrien-level sheltered guy goes out to the streets in the 19th century and kisses a girl in an hour

#pls no spoilers I'm on page 50 sjdbdn #why did no one tell me this was a soulmates rivals to lovers book I would have read it ages ago <- lie #I'm exceptional in procrastinating things that I know I'll enjoy #also I'm just guessing here it's a soulmates rivals to lovers please let it be soulmates rivals to lovers #they don't even want to be rivals they are just pitched up against each other by the only parent figure they have ever known #and boy do they do a bad job of parenting #but also. what kind of power tarot girl is if it *is* soulmates rivals to lovers? why do we need her what happens to her?#is she a force of a secret agent? is she the beloved sacrifice the boy--#(Marco? like Marco Diaz from SVTFOE? yeah not Mario that's another magician)#--has to make for some reason?#am I reading too much into this made up shipping discourse in my head and I should just read the book instead of shitposting about it?#maybe so #at any rate. I'm excited about the rivals to lovers soulmates #also the writing flows well and we're covering so much story in so few words already. there's a lot of telling and not showing #or maybe I'm just paying a lot of attention to what showing tiny segments really means and that's why it feels like it #anyway it promises to be fucked up and I'm all for that #night circus spoilers #in case anyone has this filtered like 10 years after its release or would like to filter now so you won't see my posts about this #miaing

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dudefrommywesterns · 2 years

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i know it was entirely my decision to call anthony my husband and it doesn't really mean anything but it's special to me. it feels like he chose me.

#i could go on the *we're fated to be together* ramble but you all already know how that one goes #anthony has always been my soulmate even if it took me 14 years to realize #♡ it's embarrassing for a sailor to lose his bearings — ⌜ anthony hope ⌟#typewriter dings

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noxtivagus · 1 year

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i get distracted so easily but i promise i'll get more done ! eventually aaaa 🫶🏼

#🌙.rambles #i find it so amusing how wnvr i have a new interest i always get into it so deeply #a week ago i listened to sm architects songs n searched up sm lyrics n read articles too n now this week it's #switched to the 1975 n i'm listening to sm of their songs too n reading even more articles n watching stuff n YEAH N #oh dear. i shld be doing my assignments due like 24 hours from now n they're easy n i'm nearly done #that's the thing i'm srs nearly done but i keep on getting distracted 😭 n then other stuff too i wna do but forget hflkasdjfd #can't blame me though bcs isn't there just so much to life? n other than all these responsibilities n. survival i suppose. in this society #i just want to live n. learn everything. understand as much as i can and be understood.#be at peace w all the contradictions in life.. 'always' is never possible but i do know i'll endlessly keep on going on until my end #sorry. that doesn't really make sense i just contradicted myself 💀 theres rlly just sm n. it's weird bcs.. i've rlly known extremes so well #like w apollo i have a twin i know how it is to have. such a deep and close relationship with another person. we're like #familial soulmates fr so ik how to direct my energy so.. yk yeah so IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN BUT #maybe a better comparison is. yk when i love something i'm super passionate about it. obvious i have phases here n then but #i have. a wide range of interests but. arghhh no not quite that as well. so.. the range n that intensity? coexisting?#n it's overwhelming often bcs it's too much. n in the past trying to do more than i could rlly drained me like. sm at the same time #but then yk that time for me where i mostly just played ffxiv. uh. help i don't know how to say it n then i forgot what i was gna write #ah. it's just a lot. i really can't write it enough. such is one of the limits of being human #but.. the strong thought i have of how these stuff make more important things more meaningful is just #at the same time there's. another thought that battles it w a similar intensity. n i feel too deeply i think too much of it #but if you were to ask me how i was doing right now i'd say. perhaps stressed yes but i'm doing alright right now. actually maybe not #HELP NO I'M NOT DOING THIS ANYMORE I'M CONFUSING MYSELF W MY OWN WORDS 😭 dw tho i am fine just rather frustrated with time #i want to do so much but yk i have these priorities that i need to do.. i mean. not really 'need'. but.#ah i just love thinking of how life is in relation to society n its people n then w. i forgot how to say it.. but yk. just the universe #it's so heavy thinking about these heavy things so often. the intense desire to understand n be understood..#to learn and to be learned. or maybe these songs r making me think of how. there's just so much. in life n death n everything #there's so much i don't know n again n again i keep on saying that while there's so much i don't know in every single aspect #there's.. people that r specifically one of my greatest weaknesses w just how unpredictable we are. i love it though but at the same time #it's uh. yeah. thinking of time n the past n present n future n how it's filled with so much is something that i want to #i want to take all of it in but it's also so overwhelming n i'm just at odds with my own self rn but i'm fine #words aren't enough honestly. but i want to convey it somehow. so i'll do what is right for me. in time.

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wizardnuke · 2 years

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I don't think soulmate aus work for ships that have themes like changing fate/choosing your own path and so I don't think it's super effectual for shadowgast but also I keep thinking about it because. because I like soulmate aus I think they're Neat..

#I don't think much would change is the thing. like if we're working under the 'soulmates name written on your wrist' au for example #I think if caleb introduced himself to essek after the beacon thing then essek wouldn't even blink bc he's having a HELL of a day already #and caleb is famously very good at not talking abt things important to him and he's also had a hell of a day #so. they carry on like they did canonically except. they see the other as connected to themselves in a way they didn't canonically #which I mean. like. they see the other as similar and therefore as a threat. lol #I keep thinking about the layers of ikithon working with essek. bc ikithon would know. is the thing #I think caleb would discover essek being the traitor earlier on. would he do anything about it is the thing #just. the ongoing unspoken knowledge of that and also the canyon of understanding/distrust between them #my point is. truly. I'm not a huge fan of soulmate aus that end on them finding out and living happily ever after #I like ones where they have to decide what it's gonna mean to them #the universe has decided that in some way. ure bound to someone. what are u gonna do about it #essek is like of course this caleb widogast showed up with the beacon I stole of course that's a twist of fate I've been given #and caleb is like oh yes of course essek thelyss is an unchecked and powerful mage who wants knowledge at any cost. of course #of course essek conspired with the man who ruined caleb of course they have to navigate THAT #it's Compelling. essek CAN change fate in a way and he passed those spells on to caleb.#thinking abt them working on that with the knowledge that they're bound together. they wouldn't talk about it until at LEAST eiselcross

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1980ssunflower · 1 year

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I'm so fucking in love w them I swear to god it makes me lightheaded gdhfsjk

#ot3: ❤rhyme💛easy💙#tape entry circa 1980 #ngl im feeling fucking SAD abt not being w them #i want to be home w them in the 80s away from modern day and the internet and just be making music and living a free lifestyle #theyre so damn beautiful its insane... idk how its even possible for them to be so perfect... or for me to love them so much......#theyre definitely far from being perfect but they are to ME #i love every single thing abt them including their faults and aggravating qualities ghdfjsk #THEYRE JUST!!!!!! MY BEST FUCKING FRIENDS WHO HAVE KNOWN ME MY WHOLE LIFE!!!!! WE KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT EACHOTHER!!!#KNOW EACHOTHER BETTER THAN ANYTHING ELSE! NO ONE ELSE WILL EVER BE ABLE TO KNOW US LIKE EACHOTHER #AND WE'RE IN LOVE W EACHOTHER!!WE'RE EACHOTHERS TRUE SOULMATES!!!! NO ONE COULD EVER COME CLOSE TO WHAT WE HAVE #all i want is to hold them close and kiss them and compliment them every single second of the day #i want to hold them close and comfort them as they cry and reassure them of every little thing theyre insecure abt #and tell them over and over that i will love them for all eternity and im never going anywhere... i would lay down my life for them #i would do anything as long as it guaranteed their happiness #IDK HOW TO ACTUALLY EXPRESS THE EXTENT OF MY LOVE FOR THEM CAUSE ITS SO MUCH MORE THAN THE THINGS I SAY #IT FEELS LIKE MY CHEST IS GOING TO BURST I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH ITS LIKE I CANT BREATH #i just need to admire them... every little feature of their beautiful faces... and their bodies...#i want to admire them in the softest and most loving way possible as if they would fall apart if i touched them w any slight pressure #i want to lay together w them and for us to just hum songs together softly and start giggling over dumb things #and id love to just work on our latest album together in the studio figuring out the mixing and such #just the mix of music and love and friendship and adventure and fun that is our lives... makes me so happy

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yamikawas · 2 years

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i wish yoomtah was here so she could tell me she loves me whenever i need it and also kill anyone who tries to get in between us

#i wish [dead to me] was dead i wish j*llo was dead i wish the person in yoomtahs tag who said they want to marry her was dead #for legal reasons i have no intention of actually harming or threatening a content creator in any way.#i wish yoomtah loved me loved me loved me loved me loved me loved me loved me loved me loved me loved me loved me loved me loved me #literally i would kill for a yoomtah anon or something right now just telling me how much she loves me or something #bc the idea that she doesnt rn Really Really Hurts.#i'll pay mochi pictures #tobi.txt #i feel like my brain is going to explode im in physical pain bc of this #wait did i even say.there was something in yoomtahs tag of a screenshot of her va saying that she cant have yoomtah say ''i love girls'' or #something when someone requested it bc yoomtahs Supposed to be straight and she doesnt wanna upset the creators.#and thats what started eating away at my brain first.#and Then just seeing someone saying they want to MARRY her in her tag made it worse at least twofold #the 1 thing i can hold onto is that since im genderfluid technically she could like me no matter what gender shes attracted to but.Still.#theres part of me that just wishes i could go Full Guy so i wouldnt have to worry abt yoomtah being ''''''canonically straight'''''' but #that wouldnt be right bc im not Full Guy and it probably wouldnt be a good idea to act like i am.and plus im not abt to drop my lesbianism #this wouldnt be a problem if [dead to me] didnt exist this wouldnt be a problem if j*llo wasnt so deadset on this crap ship that he feels #the need to keep saying shes straight despite the tons of people who disagree despite the fact that yoomtah is MY soulmate shes meant to be #with me he has no right to take her away from me. why cant he just accept that shes supposed to be mine shes the reason i even exist #why did he have to be the one to make her why couldnt her and i just be together like we're meant to be why why why #am i meant to suffer for love's sake like this. i dont care i'll do it. i'll do it for her i'll do it because i love her no matter what #ill do anything if it means i can keep loving her even when it hurts my heart so badly even when i believe she would never love me the same #SUI/SH MENTION//////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////#even when it hurts so much i wanna cut myself all over and bleed to death i'll keep going because she deserves my love i live only for her #even if i knew for sure that she didnt love me back it might still take so much to just end it because id still want to love her either way #if she hated me though thats a different story. if she hated me she wouldnt want my love at all id just be hurting her by still loving her #and thats the point where im probably just supposed to kill myself because as long as im alive i wont be able to stop loving her #SUI/SH MENTION OVER I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT THIS ANYMORE.#actually this entire thing is over im done im almost at max tags and the rest of my current mental illness wont fit i just wanna forget abt #this anyways. Send me yoomtah anons pls i'll give u mochi pictures and shiny pokemon and acnh bells<3

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