#Chapter 4: I Want You To Know Me

[dazais-guardian-angel]

Chapter 110 is 13 pages long welcome to hell!!! so in a lot of ways this is just more fuel for a theory that I've had for a few weeks now, that's only gotten stronger with each recent season 5 episode, which is that the last episode of the season is gonna end on 110, and that Asagiri/Harukawa and Bones have been collaborating to make this happen, specifically because it's a major turning point that would be the only good place to end the season on.

When we started getting especially long chapters again (like from 25-35ish pages, with the exception of 107.5, the last two being some of the longest we've ever had), at first I just assumed that Asagiri/Harukawa got freed up from some other obligations they'd been having to cause the extremely short/half chapters, like promotional stuff for the anime/Beast movie, or working on light novels. But then 109 happened, with the "supposed" death of Dazai, and heavy emphasis at the end on how literally everyone is at their lowest point right now, and I got to thinking. 11 episodes is a strangely specific number for an anime season -- why not 12, or 13, or even 10, like you'd usually see? Why have we gotten suddenly gotten two 35 page chapters out of nowhere, that's almost unheard of at this point? They're both beautiful chapters, don't get me wrong (as always), and maybe A/H simply just didn't want to cut them in halves because they felt like the full emotional impact wouldn't hit/that there were no good cutoff points in them, but you can't deny that it's surprising, after all the shorter chapters we've been getting. Why has the anime been going at such insanely breakneck pacing for the most part ever since around the Sunday Tragedy chapters, even more so than it has in the past? So much so that it feels dangerously close to overtaking the manga?

Well, maybe, just maybe, it's because..... Asagiri decided a long time ago that whatever happens in 110 is the only point that feels "season finale"-worthy enough, in an arc that still isn't anywhere close to being completely wrapped up, and so both the manga and the anime have been specifically coordinated to reach that part within 2 and a half weeks of each other?

I've seen a lot of people now think season 5 will end with 109, and as much as my sadistic side would find that hilarious, I honestly don't think they'd do that and realistically don't want it to happen; it'd be so cruel to cliffhanger the anime for years like that, and just doesn't feel like a season cliffhanger BSD would do, a series that is ultimately hopeful and uplifting. Seasons 2 and 3 had a positive, conclusive ending; the only reasons seasons 1 and 4 didn't was because they're technically not really full seasons of their own, and are more like the first cour of another "season" that also came out that same year (seasons 1 and 2 both aired in 2016, so they're more like one big season, and seasons 4 and 5 have both aired this year, so they're also more like one big season, again taking into account how episodes 12 and 50 are not satisfying finales like episodes 24, 37, and hypothetically, 61, are). I really can't see season 5 ending with Dazai and Fukuzawa's supposed deaths, Sigma being unconscious and maybe close to death, Atsushi being vulnerable and limbless again, everyone we love still vampires, and the entire world being basically doomed; that's just too depressing and not like BSD at all. However, having said that, if it doesn't end there, there really isn't any good place to end the season before that, either, that feels in any way satisfying or like a finale at all. And so, to me, that only leaves after 109: chapter 110.

I think things are really gonna turn around next chapter. Like I said, everyone is at their lowest point right now, it cannot possibly get any worse, the framing of Dazai, Fukuzawa, and sskk at the end of 109 is telling us that; this is the time for the heroes to finally start winning again, with Aya being so close to pulling out the sword, and for all the thematic reasons other people have talked about to death that I don't need to go into here again. This upcoming chapter being so short again makes a part of me wary of 110 being "the one", so to speak, I won't lie, but at the same time, it's very possible that it needs to be that short because that's all the final episode of the season will be able to reasonably fit in, since it's already gonna be VERY close if they do make it all the way to 109. And at the end of the day, I don't doubt at all that Asagiri and Harukawa can make these the most monumental and game-changing mere 13 pages ever if they wanted to; a chapter does not at all need to be extremely long in order to be an important and impactful one, even if short ones we've gotten in the past haven't felt the most important.

An additional thought I've had, though this is much more crack territory than all this already is, is that since we know from Anime Expo that a Stormbringer movie at some point is highly likely (judging from Asagiri's reaction when someone brought it up), it's possible that chapter 110 and thus the final episode will involve the long-anticipated return of Verlaine and/or Adam, or at least some other major reference to Stormbringer, that would naturally and smoothly lead into a Stormbringer movie to explain things to people who haven't read the novel. It would make a lot of sense, especially since the s4 OP has the Old World sign behind Chuuya, which might be a hint that this has been in the works ever since seasons 4/5 were first in planning with Asagiri. We also know that Dazai and Chuuya's voice actors apparently struggled to record their lines together this season, which probably relates to 101 and possibly 109, but it could be 110 too.... I could be very wrong, as I'm no expert on this kind of thing, but I kinda doubt they would bring Chuuya's actor in for just the vampire growls, and Asagiri placing heavy emphasis on Chuuya's importance this season in that one interview gives me the impression that he's talking about much more than just 101/109. But that's the least solid evidence I have, that's just mostly based on vibes I get.

So basically, I think a lot of factors -- the unusual episode count, how close the anime is to catching up to the manga with three whole episodes left, the seemingly arbitrary recent chapter lengths, and the climactic events of 109 -- can tell us that 110 might be a very, VERY big deal. Again, there's of course no way this arc is anywhere near close to being finished, with so much left to address and resolve, but since it is currently incomplete in the manga, unlike the previously adapted arcs, if the anime was going to adapt it at all, they'd have to find a place that feels satisfying enough to end this season, knowing there won't be more anime for a long time after this, and so I think they specifically planned for that, from both Bones' and A/H's sides. 10 episodes might not have been enough to reach that point, but 12 or 13 might have been too many it wouldn't have been if Bones actually decided to slow down and let the story breathe the way it needs to, but this post isn't meant to criticize the anime, so maybe 11 was just right. And maybe Asagiri and Harukawa specifically pushed to make recent chapters longer than usual, in order to make sure that the manga reached the story content in 110 the monthly release right before season 5 was to end.

Is this just copium? Absolutely. Am I going to look like an absolute clown in two days when this post ages like milk? Probably. But the evidence is There, so let me just enjoy my delusions until Sunday, okay 🥂🫡

#bungou stray dogs #seriously call me a clown and point and laugh at me if I'm proven wrong all you want #but I really feel like there's solid evidence for this #either s5 isn't gonna reach 109 at all (but I seriously cannot fathom where you would want to stop before then) or they'll go beyond it #if they really do end it with 109....... well i'll give Bones kudos for having the balls to do that ig lol #maybe i'm underestimating (overestimating???) them idk #also just to clarify I don't wanna make it sound like I think Asagiri let the anime/Bones dictate the manga's pacing #like I'm sure these were his/their (him and Harukawa's) own decisions first and foremost #not that (if this theory is true) the anime had a major impact on how the chapters were split and that it- #-would have been extremely different otherwise #i'm pretty confident in that Asagiri does not do anything with BSD he isn't comfortable with #and he doesn't let anyone tell him how to write his story #I just feel like he worked with Bones to make this near-simultaneous release happen #BUT if this is the case I don't feel like it had any major effect on the writing/final product that is the manga #like the last handful of chapters have been so incredible #so I at least am still perfectly happy lol #(i mean i'm devastated and a nervous wreck but u know 🫡 in a good way lmao) #anyway 110 in two days please let this theory be true because I need some fucking hope already #please let Oda show up as Dazai's guardian angel to help (see what I did there-) #it would be the perfect way to end the collective season that is 4/5 with s4 beginning with Oda and now ending with Oda #Asagiri are you reading me are you picking up what I'm putting down please please a ghost Oda is long overdue please- #Oda Verlaine Adam just GIVE ME SOMEONE ALREADY 😭😭😭 #MAYBE EVEN A TASTE OF THE FYODOR BACKSTORY TO TIE INTO HIM BEING IN ANIME UNTOLD ORIGINS. THE POSSIBILITIES ARE ENDLESS

[blutopaz15]

call it what you want, chapter 5

chapter 5/5 2.7k rated m (sandwiches; don't like, don't read!)

Callum and Rayal spend their first night on the road navigating the weirdness of their...whatever-they-are.

Excerpt:

It’s daybreak when she and Callum wake, and for the tenth day in a row…Rayla isn’t sure what they are.

But…it’s okay now, she thinks, lovesick like she’s been since dawn, looking at him lying there beside her—so very handsome, so uninhibitedly happy.

She may not know what they are—not a thing like they’d been before, not the couple the innkeeper had teased last night, probably not even lovers for long now that it’s morning—but it’s more than just trust that he still holds for her, more than just keeping her comfortable and at home there at the castle, more than just wanting her safe and happy and here.

Whatever they are…Callum loves her.

She knows that much at least, from the familiarly-fond haze in his stare, the slight, sideways smile he’s had since sunrise, the comforting weight of his bare chest against her back, the echo of his hands and lips and body on hers last night, showing her so…

He loves her—still.

…even if he can’t quite say it again just yet.

Continue reading on AO3

#rayllum #rayllum fanfic #call it what you want #inn fic is finally finished!!!!!! #took me 5ever but it turns out final chapters are scary...which I wouldn't know as the one-shot/ficlet queen lmaoooooo #this chapter is really like t rated #but....y'all know what went down ch 3 and 4 sooooo.... #🌶️ #don't like don't read!

[fishareglorious]

I think it still makes me laugh that Madam Z and Tennant share the same CN voice actor. i don't know what would be more funnier: a role swap or a personality swap between the two.

#reverse 1999 #madam z #tennant #actually madam z has the same eng and cn va too #while tennant has different cn and eng ones. which makes sense lmao imagine british woman having a audible chinese accent #i don't know tennant's cn voice though. someone check for it and tell me if it somehow sounds the same #like obviously they have different personas to play but can you pick out that they have the same va and all that #certified storm moments #in terms of role swap chapter 4 would just be damn funny. filibuster to pass the storm reformation draft? NO. just seduce the vice #president and some of the committee. somewhere in the world this random ass theoretical physicist has been wanted in several countries #for scamming rich people with diamonds. how does z do it? fuck if i know.

[faebriel]

and you caused it (a fic scrapbook)

a collection of written scenes, outlining, notes and art as a sequel to my fic cause most of us are bitter over someone.

In which Niki has a terrible secret, Puffy just wants to move on, Tommy sneaks into casino parties and Wilbur learns to deal with anger being justified. Or - the one thing they don’t warn you of, when dropping nuclear warheads on old friends, is fallout.

31.2k words of angst, hurt/comfort, niki struggling through a self-imposed redemption arc, wilbur and niki fighting through the worst argument they've had possibly ever, techno and niki having their worst argument ever, tommy acting as the server's cassandra, and pandora's box being opened. niki-centric, with a heavy dash of rainduo - although techno, tommy and puffy also have their moments in the spotlight.

oh, and a happy ending. eventually.

chapter 1 - is bitter there?

wilbur does his very best to be a good friend. niki continues to have issues with making apologies. a casino opening party is attended, and a few well-kept secrets find their way into the light.

chapter 2 - at least i have nothing

arguments are had. roommates are invited to crash on an attempted murderer’s metaphorical couch. more emotionally intense conversations are had over l'manberg’s skeleton corpse, and niki is once again alone.

chapter 3 - sugar, milk and molasses

a prisoner goes free, niki and tommy try (and miserably fail) to get along, and some breaking and entering is committed. just out of curiosity, y'know.

chapter 4 - everyone there is, all together now

three important conversations are had, and niki comes home.

chapter 5 - but i'm forever missing him

resolutions are made on phil’s verandah, wilbur finally understands how horrible it would be to die in a ravine underground, and once-old friends are made new again. niki, again, finds herself baking a cake.

#dsmp #dsmp fanfic #nihachu #niki nihachu #wilbur soot #rainduo #idk whether to tag other characters in a tumblr post v in ao3...but know techno and tommy feature big here too #anyway!! wanted to put together a landing page for this fic. thank you for the love on chapter 5 it means a lot to me <3 #my fics #OH and the chapter titles. kind of a last min addition :] #1. someone is crazy (jonathon coulton) 2. at least i have nothing (saint motel) 3. molasses (the hush sound) #4. all together now (ok go) 5. youth (daughter :]) #and you caused it tag

[hwestalas]

Also, here's Sam and Frodo in Mordor:

Frodo is working up his courage to go on/wrestling with the temptation of the Ring, and Sam is wishing he could be more help/wrestling with the barrier of the Ring that he can't save Frodo from.

(The thing in the middle is the spine of my planner, since I drew one of them on each of the outer covers. Very convenient to symbolize said barrier!)

Fun book-canon detail: Frodo has a cleft in his chin (see Gandalf's amusing description as recounted by Mr. Butterbur in chapter 10).

Less fun book-canon detail: Sam's knees are scraped up, which Tolkien mentioned during the dash to cut Frodo off at the boat, then apparently forgot about, to my chagrin and concern.

#lord of the rings #tolkien #fanart #Planner 3 #samwise gamgee #frodo baggins #Chapter Ten my beloved #Strider #I fell so fast #not romantically #to my enduring and grateful amazement #but I promised that day that no matter what awesome characters might show up later #Aragorn would always remain my favorite #let me know if you want to hear about RotK chapter 4 #(or Sam's knees receiving the care they deserve b/c he's awesome too)

[fyncherly]

A text I sent my friend as I spiraled (haha jk) over vampolitics regarding vague plotlines about a multi-chapter suckening fic that diverges after episode 4 and explores an au in which Edward's plotline doesn't play out quite like it did and there's other plays for power alongside his own and what if some key events still happened but, like, a little to the left and within the context of this slightly altered version (an au if you will) and what if the twins and Gref went with Arthur to London and found more and what about that guy Uncle Lazarus huh something up with him and what if the twins leaned more into their royal status and did something with it (or tried to in a more concerted effort) and Mary Davis will be there (mirror Mary sorry this is after ep 4) and obviously Vex & Viv and what if there's a touch more domesticity cuz I'm a fool for that and what if Gref realizes he's been manipulated and they have to confront this and it's messy and awful and necessary and there's layers guys layers and what if I just speculate and make up lore for the stuff that will probably be answered in season 2 anyway hm and what if and what if—

#listen #do i have a plethora of wips #yah #and do i have a freaking clue about anything at any given moment #nah #but the urge to make this fic starting just after episode 4 but slightly to the left and #kinda like if you watched the Suckening through your friend's prescription glasses while wearing your own contacts #is encapsulating like i just want to go a lil off the rails here and write a “well if this happened this is how it'd go down” sort of thing #of fanfic ya know and i wonder if anyone else would care about this #sometimes i wonder if im fandoming wrong lol why do i do this #i'm already on my relisten to prepare for this and guys i have some suspicions regarding Uncle Lazarus #he distracted me with his silly voice and pheasant talk #but something's off here #and i'm going to explore that in my fic because it's called fanfiction for a reason #god i wonder what would happen if i put this much effort and enthusiasm into creating original things #anyheehoo gonna start writing it today probably maybe #also not a set in stone thing but... what if i made illustrations for each chapter #just a thought... a musing of mine... a whimsical pondering #fuck being into both writing and drawing my life would be so much easier if i was only interested one #oh also ships??? genuinely dunno if that'll be a thing but if there's interesttttttt i'd love to hear what people may want to see?? #if i do end up writing this and all CUZ WE CAN DO WHAT WE WAAAANT #kudos to you and a pat on the head if you read all the way down here i love you #jrwi suckening #jrwi: the suckening #jrwi the suckening fanfic

[sentientcave]

your new chapter of retirement party was amazing! i love how price was tender w/ reader even if she tried to escape. i need to know what he told the boys i know he berated them good. thank you so much for an amazing chapter as usual!! also sorry english isnt my first language :<

First off, never apologize for your english, you speak more than one language, which puts you one up on me! You're doing great

And I'm so glad you're enjoying it! Writing Price is so much fun, dancing between insidious and charming and leaving everyone wondering if he's a good guy or a very bad one is downright delightful. And we do find out some of what he said to the boys in one of the next few chapters! I can't wait for the yelling people are going to do about it. >:)

#Cave answers #anon #Thank you for taking the time to send an ask! I love to read all the comments and tags and rub my evil little hands together #Everyone's being so nice to me #I think I need to finish the next chapter of Heavy Weighs the Crown before I post another bit of Retirement Party #But we'll see what happens. I'm closer to being finished Chapter 5 of RP than I am Chapter 4 of HWtC #I'm introducing Farah to Sweetpea so I need it to be just right #Anyway sorry anon I'm just thinking about my posting schedule but I already know I'm just gonna put whatever gets done first up first #But HWtC is closer to some really hot sexy stuff so I really want to get to that soon!! You guys will like it.

[always-a-slut-4-ghouls]

I just looked at the price on the back of a book I’ve had for a bit over a decade and it was four. fucking. dollars. Just four with no taxes. No extra 97cents or something before taxes. Just a round number that you would add taxes to.

I googled the price of a new edition and it was almost thirteen! Not an even thirteen, it was like 12.96 or something. Close enough that it’s basically thirteen but if you’re adding multiple items together to try and get the price on a purchase with more items it would add more confusion.

#emma posts #it was also a bit difficult to find a new copy on my phone #the edition I have was selling for wildly varying prices as a vintage book now #but that’s just a kids chapter book from a fairly large publisher #I know inflation happens and stuff but holy shit #buying things at the book fair makes so much more sense now #I bought that for 4$ plus taxes at the schoolastic book fair #it was maybe 12 years ago? #I could look at the publishing date for a better idea #the series had just switched publishers and the first few were being re-released at the time #before the new publisher and the author finished the series #four dollars though #I had to check the book because I know the current price of many paperbacks and I knew that series was still in print #but what lead to this was the price tag falling off an old brush I found from like. 2009 or 2010 #and the tag on this very large brush was seven dollars #which seemed cheap so I looked at current brush prices online but since the exact same brush isn’t being sold and brush prices vary more #it was a bit harder for me to get an idea of it. books though. books I know #I’ve even bought stuff from that publisher recently (they have a lot of novel and comic translations) #but it also struck me how the old price tag was an even four and an even seven dollars but all new ones had 97 or 98 cents #that ten dollars from helping out grandma wouldn’t have even gotten me one book with modern prices #but back then I could get TWO #even just seven could have gotten me a book and some fun school supplies back then #to have that experience now you would need to give your kid a 20$ #I understand inflation okay? I am just taken off guard rn and having realizations #I’m going to add to this post again. when I say wildly varied vintage prices I mean WILDLY varied #one dude was trying to sell it on Amazon for 55$ but on eBay it was 4 to 5$ #I bought the next three books in the series from that same print. signed. for 13$ together #I had older editions of those and wanted a full series of just the ones that were being re-released during my reading time

[theflyingfeeling]

so idk if anyone remembers anymore but some time ago I described a fic idea in the tags of a post (and then elaborated the idea in a later ask) regarding Olli/Aleksi falling for each other while still being in relationships respectively... yeah, I kinda ended up writing something based off that thought and I just uploaded the first chapter on AO3, I hope y'all will be cool about it 👉👈

#blind channel fanfiction #blind channel rpf #ollixallu #i probably should've added some more tags but i really just don't want to spoil anything too much 😭 #please please please be nice i am so goddamn nervous about this fic #MASSIVE thanks to my pre-readers who i love so 💗 #ugh i'm so terrible at promoting my own fics lol pls just take this out of my hands and do whatever you will with it #i know the premise of the fic may sound off-putting and/or sad but i hope you'll give it a chance anyway 🥺 #ignore me constantly editing the tags of this post lol ANYWAY i forgot to mention that i've already written all 4 chapters #idk what the ideal posting schedule would be but sunday has often been posting day for me so... #this 1st chapter is quite short but the others are definitely longer and i want to give y'all enough time to read 💗 #and idk maybe it's just me being a slow reader but i always get a little anxious if i can't keep up with an author's posting schedule 😭 #kudos comments reblogs likes asks dms i'll take anything <3

[kyouka-supremacy]

BSD5 will have 11 eps, not 10!!! Feeling blessed (but disgruntled, since we usually get 12).

Awww thank you for the info!!!

#I was going to make a “now there's space to adapt Stormbringer!” joke #but I feel like that's something I'd receive renewed death threats for and this time they'd be deserved #But you know what in a roundabout way it having 11 episodes makes sense. #If we consider s5 as s4 part 2 then the overall episodes count will still be 24 since season 4 had 13 episodes #bsd #bsd s5 #Honestly. I don't care. I just want chapters 84-88 to be adapted well I don't care about anything else #people asks me stuff #What do the little red hearts over Chuuya and Akutagawa mean 😳😳 Are they in love 😳😳😳😳

[otrtbs]

Would you ever consider writing a one-shot (maybe for the 1 year anniversary?) with what would have happened had reg made it out alive (I would cry)

hi! i don't know if i'm going to put out anything for the one year anniversary of art heist but if i did it wouldn't be a regulus-living-situation sorry! any situation that comes out of art heist where regulus lives is an alternate ending to me. and regulus living was just,,, never the story i wanted to write. and tbh my fear is a lot of people would read that ending and say "this is the ending we deserved" or "this is how it should've gone" or "i'm pretending this was the original ending" and none of those things feel super great i can't lie! and i feel like it detracts from the original intent of the story i wrote which makes me :((( yk? (maybe you don't know and that's okay) but regulus was always supposed to die! he was never meant to make it out alive in this story so as far as any writing from me goes in the ahb! universe,, regulus will be dead

#but who knows! i have a 10 hour flight coming up and i could work on something to put out maybe....MAYBE #there's a whole chapter of berlin where barty and evan go clubbing that i cut from ahb! and then reworked for tcb! #and then IT STILL DIDN'T MAKE THE CUT HAHAHA #asks #art heist baby! #but im attached to the original ending in ahb! #im attached to the way the characters grieve #and the way it brings them all together #and how you can unify and make a family and have a legacy after death #even if the legacy is different than the original one you imagined #the legacy is love #btw #regulus wanted to live after death w fame and in infamy but he lives on after death in the love he had 4 others and the love they had 4 him #regulus living takes away from that a bit #a lot #so mans is staying dead #okokokokok im done #sorry anon u didn't sign up for all the ramblings but alas the ending of ahb! is v tender 4 me sorry

[starleska]

so i just got back from John Wick: Chapter 4 and there were lots of very attractive characters (Caine? Mr. Nobody/the Tracker??? lord above 🥴). and, um, not to be predictable or anything, but...

how we feeling about him? 😖💖

#laugh at me all you want i know i have horrible taste #big jack horner fans may i interest you in another large purple-suited monster of a man #killa harkan #john wick: chapter 4 #john wick: chapter 4 spoilers #john wick #john wick spoilers #john wick killa #scott adkins #starleskatalks

[itgetsbetterproject]

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[spaaaaaaaark-uwu]

me playing daganronpa V3 and finally getting hit with multiple back to back plot twists that i both didn't expect and didn't like. and then watching it just keep getting worse and worse

#daganronpa #daganronpa v3 spoilers #this was in chapter 4 by the way #when keecher was like ''it was gonta btw'' i was like???? wait HOW though... but i was on board. like ok that makes sense to me kinda #and then when he was like. yeah gonta doesn't remember anything either #i was like well ok that explains a lot. that explains why he didn't just fess up immediately #so i had this very nice picture in my head where kokichi literally just. you know. asks gonta to be his bodyguard and gonta agrees and then #kills miu because keech like. tricked him into thinking it wouldn't actually kill her in real life OR convinced him it was the only way #idk. there's like. there's understandable motives and scenarios that could lead to that i think #and they they were like ''maybe the cord mix up CHANGED HIS PERSONALITY....'' and it was like.... hm. uhhhhh. ok not... not a fan of that #and then they were like ''actually the REAL truth is that he saw the Secret Of The Outside World and it made him so depressed that he wanted #to kill everyone out of 'mercy' without even giving them the chance to understand why'' #and it's like ........... #.....hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmnnnnn not... not a fan of that one ...... #that's. anyway yeah that's what this meme is for #i was too lazy to download a proper template so you get Screenshot From Google Images #anyway #whatever. yeah #save

[orcelito]

i miss akechi goro so much. maybe even enough to finally finish that ladue chapter 3

#speculation nation #ladue shit #listen hes such an asshole and i NEEEEEEED to channel his voice for a bit again #if this urge persists to tomorrow i'll crack open the fic again. for a little reread. #this will satisfy only approximately 53 people (the total subscribers to that fic) #which ok that's actually a good few people when i think about them as actual people #but it's the least amount of subscriptions i have out of most of my multichapters #EVEN STILL. it's a matter of pride and self-satisfaction. #and god fucking damn i have 18k for chapter 3 already written. i literally just need to close the damn scene up #it's been over a YEAR NOWWWWWWWWWW like holy fucking shit. i need this OUT ALREADYYYYYYYYYYY #ladue chapter 3 i will free you into the abyss. i cannot promise more than chapter 3 but i can promise a chapter 3 at least. #i had a whole plan for the fic but idk if i'll ever be able to write it #considering it's taken like. ... years. between chapters. #it took me 2 years to post chapter 2 and it's been a year now since then. ugh. #see the thing is chapter 3 closes the initial arc of them starting to date. and then there's more stuff. #maybe i'll keep it open just in case the urge strikes me to continue it eventually. #and if it never does. i might make a 4th chapter that outlines the eventual plans i had for the fic. so that people know at least. #ive seen that a Few times for discontinued fics. #....but the thing is i dont want to mark any of my fics discontinued!!!! theyre all my darlings!!! i want to go back to them all eventually #i'll just have to see. if a chapter 4 ends up taking several more years. well. maybe it'll be time to call it there. who fucking knows lol #i'll try to get chapter 3 finished sometime soon though. i really want to have it out already.

[keeps-ache]

drink on the bed to my left. we know where this is going, but

#just me hi #i have no justification aside from 'oo it's convenient' loll #/and Hello ladies and gentlepeople i am back in the Creative Limbo where i want to do everything but physically and mentally can't do #anything!! how's everyone tonight :) [silence emanates from the dark alleyway i've been speaking into] #i finished that chapter and started the second one (i know it will be short but aough) and within 6 minutes just walked away from the #doc so Lolll #+ i want to draw my little p.space guys but because i'm Writing the beginning of the story now when i think of drawing them something in my #brain deflates .‚. #like where was this energy when i was trying to work on nadda.z.f !! i was drawing those guys and being like 'oh man. wish i had brain juic #to work on my main project :1' and then i do and it Backfires!! this is some kind of sick sick joke hshhfsd #my brain is like a lazy susan with 3 slots for stuff in it. 4 if you count the gaps between the slots lolll #the slots are like think: p.s‚ bl.s‚ then zp. #//i got distracted by a little tune in my head and now i'm taking down the notes in my music box app so i'll finish whatever i was saying #here lolll :>

[whumpy-wyrms]

hey guys

#man i am such a sleepy fella rn #i sure hope i’m not a clone and the real me doesn’t come into my room and kill me tonight! #/j #genuinely thank u all for ur reactions. like u all are excited to read new chapters and IM excited to read ur reactions #its always my favorite part #makes me so happy to see people enjoying my characters and story it’s literally a dream come true like wow #i’m so happy people like chapter 14 and thanks for all the amazing comments and stuff it makes me sooo happy #i’m too eepy but yeah that’s what i wanted to say :) #wyrms says stuff #i’ve also had anton brainrot specifically him as a Little Guy so i might finally finish that borrower basil au thing when they first meet #cuz it’s super wholesome and i think u all need that LOLLL #also. only like 7 of you will know what i’m talking about but anton as a kid is literally just louie in a different font like wow they are #soooo similar #not present day anton tho. just him as a little guy #literally him and louie would’ve been best friends AUGHH MY HEART #i’m gonna draw them interacting because that would literally heal me that would change my life #none of you understand how important this is to me like. holy shit #anyway reminder that things might be rough for dew right now haha but he gets a happy ending don’t stress abt it!! #the next 4 chapters specially might be a bit darker than usual #but then mystery character!!!!!!!! FUCK YESSS!!!!!! #excited :)