#I absolutely love how Ben acted in this episode he was so nervous it was so cute

[pinktwinkiezoppo]

Also I love this moment where Ben is looking at Julie

And then when she turns to look at him he looks away all nervously

He was probably thinking "I hope she didn't notice me looking at her she must think I'm so weird"

like he was so nervous around her this entire episode and it was so cute and I love them

#Pier Pressure was such a good episode aaaaaaah #I absolutely love how Ben acted in this episode he was so nervous it was so cute #he really really likes Julie :( #ben 10 #ben tennyson #julie yamamoto #benlie #zoppos posties

[gg-carboxylase]

Got ahold of Step by Step episode 12. We needed 2 more episodes as usual with these series.

If you've not watched the show, please do. It's worth your time, even if you feel like you're wading thru the first few episodes. It's slow burn. This is not horny hours. This is really office hours.

Spoilers under the cut obvs.

Some meta. Mostly my opinions.

I wrote that paragraph before the Mildly Spicy Bed Makeout. I kind of enjoy that Jeng shooed Pat to the shower For Reasons. At least, I personally infer bottom reasons but that's just me. Still, I would have liked more spice à la Bed Friend, but I'm a thirsty ho.

I'll get this admission off my chest — I'm bummed that we got those really spicy kisses and that's as far as it went. KP and Domundi productions spoiled me, obviously. Did I want to see them fake fuck? Yeah. I'll admit it.

The scene where they were writing out then deleting their text messages was acted to perfection.

Hot take — Ben is the worst ugly crier. We love him anyway.

Jeng is a stalker, he needs to learn to go less hard. He also needed to resign like, 2 years earlier from the company. Good for him though. Dad is hot. Shame he's a homophobe.

I am super over people singing in the shows, no matter how good they are.

I love that Jeng's passion is cooking.

You can tell this is a real Thai show because when they show that green curry, it's real green curry even if it's store bought. It's hard to find good green curry paste over here unless you're in certain places.

Jeng's mom — what was the point of a 30 second meeting. Ben is so good at being nervous and young, he's really a great actor.

The chemistry is off the charts in this episode, good Christ. They obviously had fun shooting the cake scene.

Jeng better have a hell of a savings if he's returning all his shares to his dad and putting his hopes on his restaurant.

The restaurant biz is a bitch. I grew up in the restaurant business and the margins are razor thin, even in famous and successful restaurants. Hopefully, Pat's advertising firm is doing well.

Seriously, again. Needed another couple episodes. Especially with how Jeng's dad tossed his resignation letter.

I know Man said this would be his only BL, but I would really like to see them do another show together. They really got their shit together at the end and it's rare to see a couple that can have this kind of chemistry.

The age difference works really well between them, it's comfortable — which isn't there for a lot of decade+ couples — and there's a lot of plots where this could be used. So let's manifest that.

I have no idea what the fuck Man does for a living, so I'm not sure if he's even free to do another series. Dude has an econ degree, which means nothing (no offense econ folks, you guys are like Swiss army knives). I suspect he's a mini Mile Phakphum, and just sort of exists on the largess of his family and his modeling career.

I very much liked this series. It's definitely in my list of favorites. For me, it started out rocky because I didn't understand what it was trying to do. Looking back, now that I see what the aim is, the path it took is perfect.

Would I have liked more sex? Absolutely, but as I mentioned before — I'm a thirsty ho. These lads get paid more than I make as a clinical lab scientist, spending my day making your doctor look smart. A little bed shenanigans isn't too much to ask.

Alas, I can't complain too much. The kisses we got were A+, top-tier compared to nearly any other series. The physical stuff we did get was also A+. Truly, my complaints are mostly unfounded. We could have ended up with Korean level bullshit.

I'm not going to bother with meta about the story because there's users here that are far better at articulating exactly what I want to say, so troll the tag for them.

#step by step episode 12 #step by step series #step by step #man trisanu #ben bunyapol #jeng x pat #jeng kittiphong #pat phakphum #Loved it

[phenomenal1500]

Okay, so I watched Shadow & Bone on my own yesterday because I wanted to finish it fast. (I actually was watching it with my family, but I didn’t have much patience to wait till next week to proceed) It was a fun and enjoyable serie, but there were also things that made me doubt my opinion of it being that amazing. (Don’t get me wrong, it was a great serie though)

🚫~~~SPOILERS~~~🚫

1. In my opinion the story explaining was going too fast, especially for the people who had not read the books. Though, it didn’t bother me that much (I had read all the books), it could have been confusing for others. I also would have liked to see particular scenes to be more detailed or scenes in the books that didn’t make it to the show. Sadly, that isn’t possible anymore. 🌊

2. The sets and clothing were fantastic! From the big palaces to the smallest details that were seen on the clothing, kruge or books, they were all so well done! Also props to the many actors and actresses who have managed to really bring the characters to life! The characters I saw the same in the books as in the serie were; Fedyor, Genya, Ivan, Jesper, Marie, Nadia and a few more. (Perhaps even almost everyone) 🧪

3. Ivan and Fedyor is just one of the most interesting things I've seen in the series that didn't happen in the book! I heard from a lot of people online and saw it for myself too that they are dating in the serie and it is absolutely adorable! 🩸

4. Looking at the list above, I didn't include General Kirigan, but why not? The darkling has always been my fav and Ben Barnes has done some fantastic acting in the serie, but there were some points that I wanted to discuss. And nothing about General Kirigan himself, but more of what the serie made of him. His past had been explained too quickly, way too quickly to really empathize with him and his NAME was already released in episode 4?! Something we, readers, had to read three books for... something so special to me and probably to a lot more of you too that was just, bam, thrown away. That moment we really got to know him and why his actions had taken place was so incredibly thrilling for me and that mystery was taken away from the people who only watched the series. It made him look like an toxic freak which kinda sucked, but I enjoyed his character nonetheless. 🌑

5. I have seen a lot of Darklina shippers lately and I’m honest, but nervous to say I’m not one of them. I never liked seeing Alina and Kirigan together so I rather shipped her with Mal. (I wasn’t really busy with shipping while reading back then, but if I had to think about it, I was more of an Malina fan) Maybe also because I never really liked Alina or Mal (Until Ruin and Rising. That was the book I started to secretly appreciate Mal a bit more) and they both were just better for one another. ☀️

6. Ivan had also been one of my fav characters from the books beside Kirigan and it was unfortunate how they had killed him this early. I know he dies no matter what, but he normally would have died in Siege and Storm instead of Shadow and Bone. I guess I just would have loved to see a bit more of his seriousness on screen. ☁️

7. I absolutely loved the Six Of Crows former story and I also loved it how the people managed to bring both books together... and even though Kaz was my fav from the two books, I adored them all (In the books and on the screen.) Jesper however was exactly how I had pictured him in the books and it was cool to see him on screen like that. ⛓

8. Despite some little bad things, I still enjoyed the serie a lot and I can't wait for season two to happen! I’m curious how they will portray Nikolai and Wylan. (Nikolai is my second fav after Kirigan, which is really funny cause they are enemies lol) 🥀

#shadow and bone #six of crows #alina starkov #the darkling #general kirigan #genya safin #jesper fahey #kaz brekker #malyen oretsev #david kostyk #inej ghafa #Ivan #fedyor kaminsky #nina zenik #mathias helvar #baghra #nadia zhabin #zoya nazyalensky #Marie #this is my opinion

[valkerymillenia]

Umbrella Academy

season 2, episode 5

As usual I'm going to put all my reactions and live-blogging in this one post to avoid spamming.

1962, Cape Canaveral

So Pogo is from Congo?

Wait, is that Grace? is Grace some sort of biologist or scientist?

Is Pogo supposed to be one of the chimps for the space program?

I love this song. Oh look, there's Reggie!

Oh, that nod between Reggie and Grace... What are they up to?

Yep, definitely the space program.

Little astronaut Pogo... Wait, what's happening?

Who's the shady guy in the sunglasses behind Reggie?

Aww, poor Pogo...

SO THAT'S WHERE THE SERUM USED ON LUTHER CAME FROM! I figured but it's still interesting to see the origin.

Oh, there's the ancient Greek! Did Reggie read to the kids like this too? I doubt it but one can hope.

So Reggie and Grace basically treated Pogo like their child... And Reggie was actually a decent parent... ? Dude, you couldn't do that for your actual kids?!

Wait, does this make Pogo the seven's big brother? 😆

And there's the Magnificent 12. Oh, Pogo's drawing is so cute.

Five really is onto Lila... and he's right!

Diego onto Lila as well!

Hungover Klaus 😅 and Ben asking what we all want to know but it comes from a place of love and concern. Still sassy though.

Why won't Klaus just tell Allison that he is talking to Ben? Also, cowboy? Is that a comic reference? Or just a Texas reference?

Oh, I love Ben and Klaus banter. XD

Klaus does have a point, Allison.

*Allison throws the flask away* Ben: "attagirl!" Allison: "i have a blender and some much better booze" *cue Ben sulking*

"I love you so much!" Awwww, Klaus-Allison bonding! ❤️❤️❤️ this show is really giving me everything I want, huh?

Sissy and Vanya in bed together 👀😏 that's hot.

So she brought her coffee and then took the coffee away? XD

Is Vanya offering to take Sissy to the future? 👀

Oh no, Carl!

They have a point, Five. Everything starts taking apart at soon as you arrive. Repeatedly. I actually pointed this out yesterday.

You're burning the eggs, Luther.

"That boy stinks" poor Luther 🤣

Where exactly was Luther going? Chicago? Detroit?

Wait, is that the academy pre-academy? Wait, so it's not in Texas??? Then what about Argyle? What the hell? I'm so confused now. 😵

Luther, you need a bath.

Reggie in a party xD that must be an odd sight for Luther.

"The world's never going to end in such a cliché. Believe me. I know how endings feel" -what does it mean???? Does it mean he knows how the world ends? Or does it mean politically as a member of the 12? Is it a double entendre? Foreshadowing? Does he have some sort of prescient power?

Still want to know who the shady guy in the shades is.

"No, you're not" "no, you're not" "no, i didn't" 🤣🤣🤣🤣

"I have a deep dislike of children" -yeah, we been knew. 😒😒😒

"your grotesque simian proportions"??? Those are entirely your fault, Reginald! 😠

"But...i took a bus" - oh, honey... Luther, you adorable, naive, sweet, innocent, awkward little dork... Let me hug you, i don't care if you stink! 😢

Man, Reginald is still such an asshole. (I'm glad for that though, I was afraid this season would try to play the 'he wasn't really so bad, just misunderstood' card and that would piss me off, you can show him actually caring for the children but no excusing goddamn child abusers in this house!)

"At least he didn't shank my ass" "no, bro, he shanked your heart" -awww, dudebro affection. Diego does have a sensitive side!

I didn't realize i needed Luther-Diego bonding this badly but i do. I really, really, really do.

"It's time to get the umbrella academy back together." "hell yeah, family meeting." -since when is Diego so happy to get the family together? 😆

But hell yeah, let's get the family back together!!!

"you two still a thing? Do we need to talk?" (Diego's face though 🤣) "no, she's married." "Whoa, dude. That's rough."

Diego is the new Zuko, it all lines up!

"I can handle it" he nervous chuckles while stress eating in a stolen robe, after ruining his own life and getting in trouble with the mob and getting high.

"can you get Vanya without, uh, squeezing her to death?" - ouch 🤣

I'm loving the boys bonding.

Yikes, Sissy looks so uncomfortable with Carl...

"Harlan doesn't care" -oh, he does, he reeeeally does, you just can't read the signs, you clueless dumbass.

Oh, the powers... Oh, Harlan initiating touch with Vanya! Boy is more perceptive than they think.

Why does Sissy look so scared?

Sissy's reactions to Carl have been suspicious from the start. She's given a lot of red flags (the anxiety, the body language, the hoarding money in secret, the reluctance to speak up, the desperation to keep Vanya near her at all times, etc) and I've wondered if he's been abusive but he seems more pathetic than purposely malicious, he even showed vulnerability and admited to loving her and fearing that she doesn't feel the same, so I was starting to think Sissy's fear and paranoia had more to do with a fear of Carl leaving her (and thus taking away the only income and leaving her and Harlan with nothing).

However, I'm rethinking things and I'm starting to suspect abuse again (at least psychological, if not physical)... I think the only reason we don't see it yet is because Vanya is there and Carl won't act out on front of a witness.

I could totally be wrong though, I could be seeing signs that aren't there because of my own issues. We'll see.

Is... Is Handler actually a good mother?

Nevermind, she's gaslighting.

But she cares enough to give first aid and admit she lied so... Definitely a better parent than Reginald at least. I actually want her to be a decent parent, I'm tired of the narrative where villains all have to be abusive parents, villains can love too and that makes the story so much more complex and dramatic when people finally have to choose sides.

Felt, Diego's knife... what is she up to?

Sandpaper, steel wool, round metal parts, skewers, spray lubricant, and something cylindrical with the name of a plumbing service? Is she making pneumatic canisters? The ones the Commission uses to send messages?

Also, what's with Commission training and using plumber stuff? Five also used a plumbing company's van in season 1.

Elliot really likes Jell-O, huh? Very 50s housewife of him.

"how are feeling?" "Pretty shitty, to be honest" "Where would you say you are on a scale from one to ending all life on this planet?" 🤣🤣🤣 They are never going to let her live this down, are they?

I need more Vanya-Diego bonding. ❤️

Diego accepted Vanya's apology???😲 AWWWWWWWW 🥰🥰🥰🥰

Diego about to ask girl advice from his sister? So cute, why did they interrupt, I wanted to see that! 🥰

I miss Diego's nervous stutter though.

"you don't speak French" -doesn't he? If Allison can read seven languages, logically so can all the others, right? And Klaus is constantly using French and German, how are you telling me he doesn't know French? 😆

"did we all get sexier?" -pretty much and you're not done yet.

Aww, awkward Vanya-Allison hug... Let them bond! 💖💖💖

Klaus and Diego hugging!!! And Diego calling him out on being drunk like the overprotective brother he is 💖💖💖

Klaus hugging the girls! 💖💖💖

So much love. So much growth since all the bitterness from season 1. I NEED MORE OF THIS, DAMN IT!

Who knew it took Vanya snapping and killing everyone for this family to finally bond?

OH COME ON, KLAUS! Just tell them poor Ben is there, that's so mean.

Ah! Allison and Diego with pure sibling banter. 💖

What is with the Handler family and red shoes?

Handler's style changed a bit, went from retro femme fatale on s1 to matronly debutante in s2... Interesting.

Don't hurt the kitty, you bitch! 😡

The Swedes have become crazy cat people. I'm starting to love these weirdos.

Is that their mama?

Pneumatic tube! CALLED IT!

Ah, I see. That's why she wanted Diego's knife. The Swedes are getting set up.

"oh my God, again?" ... "all of you knew? Why am I always the last one to find out about the end of the-- oh, my God. My cult is gonna be so pissed. Five, I told them we had until 2019!" -that's why you're the last one, Klaus, your priorities.

"is it Vanya?" "Klaus!" "What? It's usually Vanya." - one time. you end the world ONE TIME and nobody ever let's you live it down.

"find dad" "kill dad" -well, Diego learned from Five *shrugs*

"has anyone here done anything to screw up the timeline?" -literally everyone except you, Vanya.

( well, unless saving Harlan with your magic lights messed up the timeline...)

Yup, here they go calling each other out. Hilarious 🤣🤣🤣

"THANK you" - I love Ben 💙

Diego, you idiot, saving Kennedy is what wrecks everything! Stop being stubborn.

Aww, traumatized Five... Please just listen to him, he just wants to save you all because he loves you 😢

Five deserves more love from the family. PLEASE.

Wow, Luther is reeeeally bitter about daddy, huh? What is Lila doing?

"I've missed you all... So much" BEN! 😭😭😭😭😭

Ok, now I'm crying.

Klaus, let your brother talk to the rest of the damn family, he misses them! 😭😭😭😭

Yay, more Luther-Diego bonding!

"since the last time I destroyed the world by overestimating my own importance" -I'm so glad he owns up to this, it's very important but he needs to get over his self-hate and gain some confidence again.

Diego, stop acting like you don't have daddy issues, you are riddled with them.

Diego's hero complex again... Which comes from the daddy issues. Luther is right.

"you are so goddamn big that sometimes I forget what a sensitive bastard you are." 🤣🤣🤣 He's absolutely right!

Brotherly bonding ftw!

Oh, they got daddy's attention!

AHAHAH! Allison bitching and rambling while doing Klaus's hair, Vanya miming shooting the bottles ("pew pew" 🤣). I'm sorry but this whole scene is adorable as fuck.

Girl's day!

"wouldn't it be weird if Five grew up all hot?" 🤣🤣🤣 Klaus asking the real important questions here!

Vanya confused by the Luther/Allison crush 🤣 "aren't we all related?"' -yes, honey, that's why it's weird.

"if you have to use the word 'technically' you're already in trouble" -THANK YOU, KLAUS!

Klaus's ENTIRE speech about their love lives is the most perfect thing EVER 🤣🤣🤣👌👌👌💯💯💯

Really alarmed Vanya finding out she dated a serial killer: "what?!" / Allison, whispering casually: "Later." 🤣

"the healthiest long-term relationship in this family was when Five was banging that mannequin." 😂😂😂😂😂 The best part is- HE'S NOT WRONG

Vanya's weirded out face is priceless 👌👌👌

"the only thing the umbrella academy knows about love is how to screw it up" "cheers!" 💯👏👏👏

These babies really need a hug. Let me hug them!

"how do you guys deal with this?" -look at them Vanya, they day drink.

"well, I get reeeeally high, Allison... Allison... Lies to herself. And you supress all your emotions deep, deep down until you... Blow shit up." -Klaus really is serving up all the wisdom in this little outing, isn't he? Maybe being a cult leader actually did him some good? Or maybe it's just that his family is FINALLY listening to him.

"yeah, I'd really like to not do that anymore" 😂 -ah! Is Vanya graduating out of the awkward dork sibling category and into the sassy queen one?

Omg, the drunk decisions...

"I just hate group backups, that's why I stopped dating twins" 😆😆😆😆

"this family is amazing" - DAMN RIGHT, VANYA! ❤️🧡💛💚💚💙💜

Awww, the HUG! The DANCING! MY BABIES! Fav scene, fav scene!

I want to adopt this family so bad.

And here's the Swedes being set up...

There goes baby Swede! I kinda feel bad for them.

Uh oh, now they want revenge of poor Diego.

Gotta hand it to Handler, she played this one very well. Parallels Five tricking Hazel and Cha-Cha into fighting each other in season 1. Very cool.

BAD GUY! I like this version better than the original, great song and fits Lila perfectly.

Holy shit!!!!!!!!! We all knew Five had moves but THESE MOVES!!!!!! 😲

How did Lila do that? Is it with Handler's time stopping thing? I always wondered how she did that too.

Holy shiiiiiiiiit. This whole fight was FANTASTIC! 😲

Oh Vanya... 😢

Oh Sissy... 😩

Sissy has been so desperate to keep Vanya tied to her but the moment Vanya asks her to make the slightest sacrifice for their relationship Sissy balks and pulls away... Not a balanced relationship at all.

I understand Sissy's fear, it's not selfishness, it's literal fear of change, but it's still sad and it's going to wreck them.

Oh, so this is where the swedish cover of "Hello" comes in... Very fitting.

Viking funeral, huh?

Ok, I never thought I'd have feels for the Swedes but I do. 😢

Luther eating AGAIN. But hey, he and Diego didn't the whole day together! Why can't we see that too? I need more brother time between these two.

Oh Klaus, is so uncomfortable but he can't stand disappointing the cultists, can he?

Still shocks me how all those people just invaded his house while he was away and thought that was perfectly acceptable and cool, it shows they really don't respect him as a person, he's just an object to make them feel better and give them purpose... It's terrifying and really sad when you think about it.

"sit your ass down." -you go, Allison! Tell him everything!

This episode gave me SO MANY FEELINGS! It might read like (extremely good) fanfiction but it's exactly what we all needed and it might be my favorite episode so far.

#tua #tua s2 #tua s2 spoilers #I HAVE TOO MANY FEELINGS FOR THIS EPISODE!!!

[gothicwidowsworld]

Starstruck ○ G.L #1

Requested - I LOVE the cast of Bohemian Raphsody!!! can I please ask for a Gwilym Lee imagine where yn is also on the movie, but she and Allen are Friends since they worked together on downton abbey and Gwil and Lucy are huge fans and the boys love to tease his crush-that-turned-into-girlfriend😍❤

This is gonna be a 2 parter (or maybe more idk lol) anyway lol hope you enjoy part 1

Imagine…

“I’m literally 5 minutes away chill” Y/N giggled into the phone driving through the streets of London at this time in the morning was something she hated but would have to get used to over the next few months. “Alrighty see you soon” she ended the call before returning to having a mini concert in her car. Pulling up to the large white building Y/N breathed deeply, even after years of meeting new cast mates she still got nervous but lucky she had Allen to help her. Grabbing her now lukewarm at best coffee she began to make her way inside. “Finally. I thought you were never going to show up.” Allen laughed from his position against the wall his famous Irish accent making its appearance. “You know I don’t do well with early mornings.” the welsh girl simply stated palming off her half drunk cup to the blonde man to tie her y/h/c out of her face. 

Taking a sip of the drink Allen pulled a face even after working together for a while on Downton Abbey he still hadn’t gotten used to how strong she liked her coffee in the morning, the pair had often joked it was what she needed to be able to act. Nudging her shoulder lightly Allen guided the female into the office space they were using for the read through for the next couple of days. There weren’t a lot of people in the room as most had gone next door to help themselves to some of the food on offer.

The pair walked over to the collecting group of cast members eager to break the ice and start to get to know each other. “Ah hello Husband” Y/N said cheekily to a tall gentleman she recognized. Startled the brunet man jumped a little when he saw her “What?” he asked confused “Your Gwilym Lee right?” Y/N questioned gently. “Huh oh yeah!” Gwilym stuttered out face flushed red in the process “I.. I just didn’t know you knew who I was…” he trailed off softly hoping he hadn’t already messed up. “It’s just you’re you! Um you’re Y/N L/N” giggling the y/h/c girl nodded “Well I was last time I checked yeah.” Gwilym was still slightly red in the cheeks and was now just wishing the ground would swallow him whole. “I just really like your work. You’re amazing!” he let out the compliment quickly. Grabbing his large hand in hers Y/N smiled delicately “Just breath.” it was really sweet that he was so starstruck but at the same time it was a little strange I mean he’s Gwilym Lee. After calming the man Y/N smiled again but this time took her turn in complimenting him “You know I’m a fan of yours as well. You were so cute in the Tourist and Jeez I love an episode of Midsomer Murders who doesn’t.” Chuckling lightly Gwilym shook his head at the fact his celebrity crush had seen some of his work.

Suddenly a bubbly voice interrupted the pair “OMG your Y/N L/N I loved Lady Constance.” the blonde haired female practically screamed as she launched herself into a hug. The y/h girl managed to catch the person before they both almost went tumbling to the floor. “I’m so sorry.” the blonde whispered energetically helping the y/h/c girl off the floor. Grinning the blonde introduced herself “I’m Lucy. Lucy Boynton. I’m so excited to work with you.” greeting Lucy back just as energetically Y/N cheerfully chatted away to the girl.

With the read through over for the day Y/N packed up her stuff slowly mulling over the day and what the shoot had in store. So far the cast seemed absolutely lovely, having worked with Allen and briefly Ben before it was great to work with some other actors. “Hey Gwilym do you want to hang out sometime?” Y/N questioned quietly smiling up at the taller man “It would be nice to get to know you better I mean we are going to be playing Husband and Wife for a while.” Shrugging on his coat Gwilym’s heart skipped a beat was this real life. “I have a bottle of red and an episode of Y Gwyll waiting. Maybe we could order some pizza or something.” Y/N suggested. Nodding quickly Gwilym agreed.

Lazily curling up on her sofa Y/N leaned forward to grab a slice of the deliciously cheesy pizza the pair had ordered “So tell me about your childhood? I want to know everything.” she stated her y/e/c eyes sparkled in delight. “Well there’s not much to say” Gwilym trailed off trying to think of what to say. “Well where are you from? Any Siblings?” the girl started listing of things he could tell her. “Well I was born in Bristol, and I’m the youngest of 4. There’s Geraint, Owen, Rhiannon and me.” Y/N giggled slightly still listening intently “What?” the man questioned pulling a comedic face at the girl. “Nothing but you’re the most Welsh Englishman I’ve ever met.” she looked at him and for a minute it felt natural, painfully natural. For a second they weren’t actors or celebrities they were just two ordinary people having a laugh. “OK well what about you?” Gwilym quizzed. “Okay be prepared to have your mind blown.” Y/N cleared her throat jokingly “I’m from Abergavenny, I have no siblings it’s just little old me and my parent’s own a farm..” Y/N continued. The two of them went well into the night telling each other stories of their childhood.

#Gothicwidow #Gwilym Lee #Gwilym Lee x reader #Gwilym Lee imagines #imagines #au imagines #gif imagines #au gif imagines #au #gif #Brian may #brian may x reader #brian may imagines #bohemian Rhapsody #bohemian Rhapsody x reader #bohemian Rhapsody imagines #bohemian Rhapsody cast #cast imagines #cast x reader #celebrity imagines #celebrity x reader

[tslasvegas]

Episode 3: “UGH just rename Luxor to Loser” - Xavier

Well... that takes care of the Timmy problem... Love Timmy... Just didn’t know how our dynamic would be cus he was runner-up to the last survivor game I played which I won. Hm... Well...

That went well. There's nothing like a live video tribal to get people together. and stephen didn't react too badly. but i know now he won't work with me moving forward

I’m sorry I’m terrible at confessionals... So things are going well, I think we have a decent tribe but it is too soon to tell. I’m not a huge fan of creative challenges, at least from my previous game, I guess we will see how that goes. Most of the guys seem nice, still trying to feel everyone out.`

A 4-2 vote off is interesting. Someone is on the bottom for sure. Also, this next challenge is a creative challenge and when I do these solo I usually do really well. Hopefully I can channel that energy into a win for us here because two tribes are going to tribal. We’ll be down to 17 after this, so I’m not sure if we’d go into a tribe swap yet? Maybe 2 tribes of 8 with one person sitting out? 

Oh hot dang, two tribes are going to tribal next time. Probably going to be us :( now it is time to make alliance chats!

....five seconds later

I suspect that after this double vote out that there will be a tribe swap. I hope I end up with Mo and Jaiden at least.

https://drive.google.com/file/d/17NPxKO_TKgqjNqsaWlbmlL0jgU36Aygi/view?usp=drivesdk

I really like this challenge. I feel confident about it but at the same time nervous that 2 tribes will be going to tribal. I really hope my tribe wins this one since I still don't know how the tribe feels about me. Wish me luck guys!

My tribe is not going to win this immunity challenge. Our nightclub is due just hours away and we have little nothing done. I am going to have to scramble soon.....I did nothing to help my tribe with the challenge, so if it is me that goes, I would understand 

....five seconds later

Honestly, I want to keep Jaiden and Mo around because I feel closer with them than anyone else. I want to keep Kailyn around because she seems to make time for challenges. Everyone else I am okay with going home, Ben hasn't really done anything soooooo maybe him? Oof

If we lose, then it's 2/3rds my fault and 1/3 Stephen. We better not be on the chopping block if we do lose. This is a two person Tribe as of now. Bobby Jon and Stephenie.

...five seconds later

UGH just rename Luxor to Loser

Second we lose Ben finally responded to my pm’s..... hm..... alright....

Y’all rlly won with a PowerPoint SKDJDJSKLALALL

Some of these guys have an excuse for not giving input into the challenge. Some do not. If I go home because some americans could be bothered doing some base level discussion, ill be annoyed. If I go home because a tribe threw a challenge because they thought id be an easy vote, ill be pissed.

All that hard work that went into this challenge really paid off! We scored the best and don’t have to attend tribal!! Which is absolutely exciting! Andrew told me he wanted to work together which is rad. Livingston and I want to work together which is radder. And Joey and i want to work together which is raddest. I haven’t spoken too much with Jeff lately even though we talked quite a bit early on. Pat and I speak occasionally. Stephanie and I didn’t really speak at all until recently but we’ve gotten into a good groove the last few days. I’m feeling pretty good about this game so far. I hope there’s no tribal swap or anything right away.

So when I get my chip total I'm gonna update Keegan. He is currently at a soap making class but I want him to know I am serious about working with him in this game and I think this is a good gesture. - keegan has let me know he has 4 chips and is willing to pool them over to me when we have enough so that we can unlock the store. I let him know I am okay with doing the same thing to him, whichever. But yes this is looking HOT for me. - "what's in the store?" | all i can really assume is advantages. we need 10 chips to unlock it. This is very similar to the Unnamed Season but the betting cap gives us more control. At this point, I don't think anyone can mathematically unlock without pooling chips. Keegan and I just need 1 more chip between us. Let's just hope we aren't separated by a swap or some shit. I am hoping for a bit more time on this amazing tribe to get that set up so I have a good idea of what the store holds.

Some of these guys have an excuse for not giving input into the challenge. Some do not. If I go home because some americans could be bothered doing some base level discussion, ill be annoyed. If I go home because a tribe threw a challenge because they thought id be an easy vote, ill be pissed.

We lost again!?!?!?!?!??! I am so surprised? Nah I'm kidding, but I don't care. I don't blame our team for losing because 3/5 of us were panicking because our president could be a cheetoh. I'm voting Stephen tonight, I hope the others follow suit. It SHOULD be simple, but 9 hours is a long time for Survivor; and if he knows it's him then might run around and create some chaos - which would be funny.

Rachael (love her she’s probably who I’m closest with along with DeNara and Kailyn) is not being subtle about the fact that she either has a pre-existing friendship with Ben or is currently aligned with Ben. Because Ben, from my knowledge has not been social with anyone, nor has he been super active and in our alliance chat with Kailyn, Rachael seems uncomfortable with the fact that Ben is said to be the vote and is saying she would prefer someone else to go. But like c’mon you can’t deny he hasn’t been social, and even if I had a friendship with somebody before a game, if they aren’t active I’m voting them out. Also I lied to my tribe a couple times this round because I’m lazy.

UGH. We LOST the challenge!!! And it wasn't even close *grumbles angrily* But it's okay. I'm gonna have to work my pussy out to this entire tribe to make them keep me around! I feel pretty good about this, I believe the target is leaning towards Ben but we'll have to wait and see. I don't think it's possible rn but I'm hoping for a swap soon so I can feel a little more re-energized in this game because my tribe has been super quiet lately... I think people will try to move the vote around so I'm going to use my current lack of employment as an opportunity to make myself stay alive on this tribe lmao

These guys are being super boring and either Jake is dumber than i thought, or shadier than i gave him credit for. Xavier might be trying to play me but regardless its doubtful ill stay. John seems to have the most chance of winning out of these four as hes not overplaying. Kevin hasnt spoken to me since the colin vote and it pisses me off that I might be going home after being one of two people that worked on the challenge when kevin was taken off the chopping block immediately for playing jeopardy. i hate this tribe.

....five seconds later

Johns out, Jake too by the sound of it. Time for plan B, which never works but might as well try. Fake idol time.

Oof well the uhh, “obvious friend group” has picked their target and it just so happens to be the only person I’ve made an actual alliance with :/ Poor DeNara. I really didn’t want to have to vote her off this early if I didn’t have to and then the worst part is she didn’t even hear it from me. Nobody is even mentioning game right now and Rachael is acting legitimately surprised to me when I came to her saying “okay this is an easier vote than I thought”.. even tho Ben claimed he had already talked to her..?? Idk man I must’ve done something wrong along the way but these people LEGITIMATELY don’t talk to me. My instant reaction is leaning towards being bitter but bitterness doesn’t really get me anywhere :/ I feel kinda.. out of it rn emotionally just because of everything else I have going on so if I seem more reserved tonight at tribal than usual, that’s why. I just hope that I’m not still stuck on that damn mountain rolling my dumbass rock back up only to get knocked back down again. I’m remaining optimistic for the future.. let’s keep winning some challenges mmkay

Okay good news, I shouldn't be leaving. But that being said DeNara, you have goT TO PULL. YOURSELF. TOGETHER. She's packing her bags and from my knowledge she's going to be fine tonight. Hopefully it'll be Ben who's going but DeNara giving up like this isn't helPING. 

....five seconds later

Also I am in two alliances which is cool I guess.

Oops....... and now I'm controlling this vote I think :) It feels good. I don't know what my plan is !! I'm lying to everyone. I basically put myself in a position to be the 4th person in both votes and I love it so much. I keep telling ppl I'm an emotional mess and I think I'll milk that because SOMEONE is going to get betrayed tonight... love that for me. Rachael, Nik, and Ben want to vote out DeNara Mo, Kailyn, and DeNara want to vote out Ben And tbh I would prefer Rachael or Nik!! Since neither of those things are happening I guess it's up to me to decide which way I wanna swing... I hate/love myself for this. I think there are good cases for both people to leave, because I think that getting rid of DeNara strengthens bonds I never had with Rachael and co. while getting rid of Ben just makes me their enemy. Honestly I am starting to lean towards getting rid of DeNara for that sole purpose alone. It'll be messy for sure. Ben provides NOTHING to the game right now and I hate the fact that he announced in his intro that he's just here to backstab people... but villains don't win unless they're sitting next to another villain. He's the goat to me and Rachael right now, but pretty homos like me always win xx I might regret this decision down the road but HOPEFULLY whichever side I take will pay me back in protection down the line. I think I have the charm to smooth shit over w Kailyn and Mo but its up for determination. I think that I have the finesse to beat Rachael in a vote, too, but I don't want to put her back up against the wall just yet..... ;) Anyways... I hope this isn't my last confessional. I wasn't having fun until I found my place. Let's get it on.

It is me or Ben tonight. Guess we will find out who...

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RICKY BOWEN META - EPISODE NINE 

okay, i have a Lot of thoughts about everything that happened in this episode, and i really need to get it out of my system, so i figured i’d compile a bunch of analysis all into one post. i’m gonna try and organize this into specific categories. 

RICKY & HIS PARENTS

Ricky knew that his mom and his dad were both coming to see the show in advance: he was prepared for this. He was nervous before the show started, obviously shown by how he shows up really early due to “opening night jitters,” which is a combination of never having done a musical before ( because he’s grown to really love being apart of it, he enjoys having somewhere to go after school and finding a family among everyone ), and specifically his mom’s presence ( “It’s just a lot. My mom’s coming tonight, and I’ve technically never been in a musical before ). He’s happy that his mom will be there, but it’s still hard because he misses her, and wants things to be normal. And then when Ricky peeks out from behind the stage and sees his parents, sees them HUG, he grins. He knows that parents split up, knows that these kinds of things happen, but remember he was convinced that they’d work it out. And in addition, he has a hard time dealing with change, so when he sees his parents looking happy together, it feels right. He doesn’t think things are fixed, but they’re together and happy for a moment, and it means the world to him. He doesn’t have to miss his mom for a night, doesn’t have to worry about any of that. 

So he performs, and despite a few technical issues, it’s going pretty great. Until Get’cha Head In The Game. Throughout the entire performance, he’s giving it his all, singing and dancing and smiling-- it’s evident how much EFFORT he’s put into the show ( especially compared to his dancing at the beginning ). And then he’s in the air, glances towards where his parents are sitting...and freezes. Because someone he doesn’t know walks in, and that someone puts an arm around his mom and kisses her on the cheek, and she’s pointing up at him, and he realizes it’s Todd. He already knew his mom had a new boyfriend, even talked to her about it when he called on Thanksgiving night, but in that moment, Ricky is RIPPED right out of his safe space. He’s already had an incredibly hard time adjusting to the divorce, it’s only been about three weeks since she moved out, and he didn’t even get a warning about this beforehand. It’s overwhelming-- he drops the basketball, he tenses, he can’t easily shake this. But he keeps going the best he can, even though he completely loses his sense of what he’s doing, is too wrapped up in suddenly being dragged right back into all his issues in the middle of doing something he’s come to love. 

It boils down to his issues with handling change and the divorce. He gets that his mom is moving on, but it’s too much too soon. He’s hurt, he’s angry, and he’s shaken. 

THE EFFECT THIS HAD ON HIM/GIVING UP HIS ROLE

The second Ricky goes backstage, he asks where Nini is, says he could really use a pep talk. We already knows it’s easiest for him to talk to Nini about these kinds of things, because he says it in episode 4. He’s shaking, seeking comfort. But then Carlos tells him Nini seems nervous, and Ricky IMMEDIATELY pushes aside his own problems to express concern for her. He’s done this with multiple characters a few times-- he’s naturally selfless, and deals with his problems essentially by not dealing with them. He hears about the dean of the art school in the audience, and he quickly realizes that this could change Nini’s life. And Ricky is screwing it up: “My mom’s new boyfriend decided to show up, and I wanna punch a wall. I feel like I need a miracle to face Act Two.” He believes he CAN’T do act two well after this-- he doesn’t think he’s GOOD ENOUGH, especially after all of that, and knows he can’t mess this up for Nini. 

So even though he’s still shaken and hurt and pretty much on the verge of tears, he goes right to E.J., and immediately tells him he has to play Troy. He outright says it: “No, I’m good, just not good enough to help Nini get where she wants to go...I’m screwing up out there! I can’t blow this for Nini.” Again, remember how much EFFORT Ricky put into this show, remember how he found a family with it, and after he messes up, he immediately GIVES THAT UP to give Nini a better shot. It repeats again that he’s selfless, and isn’t confident that he can go on like this, practically demanding that E.J. takes his place. 

He’s nowhere to be found in the preview, but once he isolates himself from the show, for my portrayal it absolutely hits him hard, and the breakdown hinted at goes into full swing. 

RICKY & HIS FEELINGS TOWARDS NINI 

Ricky is still in love with Nini. This is pretty much undeniable at this point. He starts the episode off by showing Big Red a song that he wrote for her. He took time out of his day when he was already nervous about the show to write her a song for opening night, one where he USES the word love. This is incredibly important for Ricky’s character. He went from not being able to say it, freaking out after seeing the post ( reasonably so ), and asking to take a pause, to saying it clearly in Just For A Moment. This isn’t to say he isn’t scared anymore, because he is, he’s still afraid that love means falling apart, still grappling with intimacy issues that stem from his life at home, but when he didn’t say it, they still fell apart. He misses her, not only as a girlfriend, but as his best friend, and so many things he does throughout the season prove how much he cares for her. 

But then they have that conversation in the hallway, and Ricky immediately assumes that she’s going to reject him. Why wouldn’t she? After he almost kissed her in episode 4, she pulled away, and even though she initiated this time, why would it be different? Even though he thought that almost kiss meant something, the second Nini brings it up, he immediately assumes it’ll be another rejection, and brushes it off. He doesn’t want to pressure Nini even further, but in doing so, he causes her to think he’s rejecting her, and it’s just a whole mess of miscommunication. But he couldn’t help it, he still thinks she doesn’t feel the same anymore. 

And then there’s what he does for her at the end, which I already talked about, but again, it shows just how much he cares about her. 

RICKY & HIS CONVERSATION WITH/FEELINGS TOWARDS GINA 

There are a lot of interpretations of this scene and Ricky’s dialogue, and I’m going to preface this by saying I am completely impartial to ships. What I want to do here is accurately analyze Ricky’s headspace at THIS POINT IN TIME. I love their friendship so much, and I’m here for slowburn romance, but currently in the show, he’s confused at best, and absolutely not there yet. 

For starters, Ricky has a reason to be acting as weird as he does. He’s staying closed off because he knows Gina is going to leave again. He knows she can’t stay for long, and doesn’t want to get attached to her being there when he’s just going to lose that again. That’s why he says it’s tough seeing Gina. It’s only been about a week, but he doesn’t want to make things worse for when she’s gone forever. 

And then, there are his feelings towards Gina as a whole. With the absence of Nini in his life, Ricky needed someone around that understood him, needed a friend that could get his complications and fill a missing piece. This isn’t to say that Gina was a rebound, because she ISN’T-- Ricky genuinely cares for her. But in Nini’s absence, he assumes that this sudden connection with Gina means he might have feelings for her. She makes him happy and he enjoys spending time with her, but it isn’t love, at least not at this point in time. Remember Ricky’s struggle with the word love-- hell, he’s known Nini since kindergarten and he still couldn’t say it. He doesn’t operate that fast, and given his feelings for Nini are still there, he doesn’t do a complete 180 with Gina. Still, Ricky thinks he might like Gina romantically, and I’m not saying he can’t, but right now, he was confused. 

Gina moves away, and Ricky is hurt-- he’s dealing with his parents separating and losing a friendship he valued and his mom’s new boyfriend, but amidst this, he and Nini were able to connect again, and the feelings that Ricky got confused and started to project were brought back to their original source. He’s also confused when Gina returns, because he thought he  might have had feelings for her, but he’s not sure if that’s really the case. He says “I’m not who I was a week ago,” because then, he was misinterpreting his own feelings. And then he says “Or maybe I’m just back to who I always was” NOT AS A REGRESSION OF HIS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT, but to establish to the audience that he’s realizing his feelings for Nini never really left. His character development isn’t going backwards, and he and Nini don’t regress one another ( would episode 1 Ricky write a song using the word love and be devoted to performing in a musical? ). They’re just having trouble with communication, which is completely normal for teenagers. 

Also, remember that Ricky clings to normalcy. His life has told him over and over that change is negative, he doesn’t know how to handle it. Of course this all going to confuse him-- he’s a teenage boy dealing with a lot even outside of romantic feelings. The potential to like Gina is there, but his feelings for Nini are still genuine, and that doesn’t mean he’s going backwards. If he does have genuine feelings for Gina, he’d suppress them, both because she’s leaving and he still loves Nini. There’s nothing stopping him from having complicated feelings towards multiple people, that’s completely normal. Currently, his headspace is in a state where he is still in love with Nini and confused at best about Gina-- there’s still potential there, but the important thing is understanding the characters beneath the pairings and where they are now. 

#(OOOO BOY THIS IS LONG KJDFSB) #(but like...i really wanted to write it ahHH) #(hes baby i had so much i wanted to talk about here) #(like..thinking about how he probably just fully enters a complete breakdown after he leaves after everything that happened) #(idc if the show doesnt do it it still happens checkmate fhdjk) #(and i tried to keep the stuff about his feelings pretty impartial?? because i really do not have preferences it just boils down to rickys #current mindset) #(i hope its open enough idkkfjd i dont lean one way or the other i just want him to be HAPPY) #ricky bowen. headcanons / i’m really scared this time. it feels different already.

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Is Grey a Color [Biadore] Part 6 - Falling Snowflake

This is it guys. The last part of ‘Is Grey a Color?’. Thank you all for reading, I love you!

The months between the last day of filming at the airing of the first episode went okay. The group chat that Roy, Danny, Shane and Greg had on Facebook was active every day, and Roy didn’t miss them so much. He still had his work, he still had his gigs at the bars, and he had his other friends.

Watching the episodes had been harder. He had seen how much he had fallen in love, but none of the back story. Danny had been right, however, they had become the hottest topic of the season. The viewers spammed them with questions, but as Roy lived in New York and Danny lived in California, and they hadn’t even met up, people were even more confused.

It was never said on the show – no one know if Danny was his soulmate or not, but Roy himself thought it was pretty obvious. He wasn’t that nice toward anyone else. No one. Then came the episode he had dreaded. The episode with the fainting, which he had no idea if they were even going to air or not.

“She’s everything I want to be when I’m 57,” Danny said in his confessionals, and Roy gaped. “She’s gonna kill me!”

He found his phone and sent a text to Danny

To Chola <3:

Damn right I am going to kill you! 57??? BITCH!

From Chola <3:

;*

Roy put down his phone again with a smile and continued watching the rest of the episode. They had done some really good editing, for sure, as they hadn’t included the fainting, and it didn’t look like anything had happened. Roy was impressed, and he was relieved.

The rest of the episodes were pretty much as expected when it came to his and Danny’s relationship, although he had never noticed how much the other queens had reacted when he helped with Danny’s dripping in jewels dress.

Before he knew it, it was time to film the reunion, and Roy was nervous as fuck. He hadn’t seen any of the queens in ages, on purpose, and Bianca was one of the top three. Plus, he and Danny would definitely have to talk. Of course on the stage, but also just the two of them.

As he was chatting to Ben and Dan, or Milk as he was better known as, while waiting for the others to arrive, he felt arms wrap around him from behind. He was about to hit them in the face until he recognized Danny’s embrace and smell. The grin on his lips was so big, and he turned around excitedly to hug him back.

“Oh my god, hi,” he muttered into the hug, not letting go of the younger man. He hadn’t even realized how much he had missed Danny until then. He don’t know how it happened, but suddenly they were both crying and going around in circles. After what felt like a small eternity, they pulled away, and Roy wiped his tears.

“You bitch, I’ve missed you so fucking much,” he said with a grin. “I never feel more intelligent or beautiful than when I’m with you!”

“Fuck off,” Danny rolled his eyes, but going by the grin, he wasn’t too offended. “I’ve missed you too, Grandpa.”

“Okay, bye,” Roy held his hand up and walked away, making Danny laugh. He smiled as he greeted Shane, just doing some small-talk as they were waiting for instructions on what to do next.

Naturally, during the next days, Roy had to spend quite some time with Shane and Danny, but he never had a moment where he could speak to Danny all alone. It frustrated him, but he supposed it might be better if they waited until all the filming was over anyway.

The filming of the actual finale was what he had been most worried about, and as they sat there on stage, Adore, Bianca, Courtney and RuPaul, Bianca was certain she was going to be sick. It was time to tell her and Adore’s story to the world.

“Let’s take some fan questions from the audience,” RuPaul said, and Latrice got up. Hopefully, it wouldn’t be a question for her. After a lot of cheering and laughing, Latrice finally read the fucking question.

“Okay, this is a fan of Facebook question for Adore from Miguel Torres,” Latrice started, and Bianca felt relieved that she wasn’t the victim.

“’I kind of get the feeling that you have a crush on Bianca Del Rio out of drag, do you?” Latrice read up, and Bianca blushed and tried to act a bit surprise. Courtney looked over her as well, while Adore just looked panicked.

“Uhm,” Adore hesitated. “Well, yeah, uhm, of course I did. I mean, I still do. Both in and out of drag.”

Bianca’s eyes widened, and she tried not to fall off the chair as the rest of the audience cheered louder than she thought possible. She didn’t expect her to say that. RuPaul smiled briefly at them.

“Well, good luck, bitch, I only give to charity once a year,” Bianca joked, grinning over at her and placing a hand on her arm.

“Well, I suppose we have some more stuff to talk about later, girls!” Ru said, receiving cheers and applause from the audience. “But let’s go through the questions first, shall we?”

“Party,” Adore said, and Bianca smiled fondly at her. She was the cutest thing ever.

After a few questions, they had a wedding to do. Joslyn was finally getting married to her soulmate, and Bianca was really happy for her. She would love to get married to her soulmate too, though.

As the wedding finished, she could hear one of the queens in the first row shouting at Ru to marry Adore and Bianca too. Bianca wouldn’t be opposed to that idea, to be honest, but she shook her head with a laugh. A few people booed at her, but she just showed them her finger.

They got a small break, and then it was out on the stage again to talk to Ru. This was the moment Bianca had dreaded. RuPaul started by talking to Courtney, then talked a bit to both Bianca and Adore separately before Bianca heard the audience let out a simultaneous ‘aw’. She looked up to see a picture of their hug after snatch game. The exact moment she went colors.

“So, Bianca,” Ru looked at her, and Bianca felt like fainting right there and then. “Adore just admitted to have a crush on you. That’s not the whole story, is it?”

“Uhm, no,” Bianca shook her head. “It’s really not. Quite a lot more complicated, really.”

“We’ve made a little video of Adore and Bianca’s story through drag race, please watch.”

The video started with showing both of their entrances, and then their first time seeing each other, but instead of focusing on the other girls, they focused on Adore and Bianca. Bianca looked absolutely disgusted by Adore and Laganja, and she could her Adore laugh next to her. Adore, on the other hand, just seemed extremely annoyed at Bianca’s present.

They then showed the untucked scene where Adore told her that she wouldn’t want to work with her. Bianca felt a bit sad at the memory, but the Bianca on the screen seemed a lot sadder than she remembered being. After this they jumped to the snatch game, just putting in a few clips of them laughing and having fun in their little corner. Bianca turned over to look at Adore, who was grinning from ear to ear.

And there it was, the hug. Bianca inhaled sharply. This was not even remotely okay for her, and she didn’t want to relive it. They included the small conversation they had about soulmates, but not the actual reveal. Then of course the scene where Bianca volunteered to let Adore borrow her cincher, and the scene where the girls found out about Bianca’s colors. After this it jumped straight to the confessional where Danny called her 57 years old, and Bianca glared over at the younger queen, who hid her face in her hands.

Then the music of the video changed dramatically, and then they showed the clip of Bianca falling to the stage and screaming in pain. She briefly noticed both Adore and Courtney grabbing one of her hands each, trying not to panic right there on stage. This was not a pleasant memory. They included the untucked scene too, where Adore was crying and the other queens were speculating on whether Bianca’s soulmate was one of them.

Then it was the scene in the werk room after they had shown Bianca the footage of the day. And then their secret was out to everyone in their room, with the two words coming out of Adore’s mouth:

“It’s me.”

The clips showed the girls getting closer and closer, until the same dramatic music came up. Everyone was on stage, and Bianca noticed that both herself and Adore looked really out of shape. The way she had grabbed Trinity had been almost scary, as she frantically had told her to get anyone at all who could help them.

It then cut to the untucked lounge, where they got the message that they were advised to break their bond. Then it stopped. It went black, and the whole room was completely silent. No one made a sound, and Bianca was unsure whether it was because of shock or respect for her and Adore. She looked over at the other queen who was crying, and she stepped down off her stool to go over and hug her.

Adore got off her stool as well, hugging her back, and Bianca heard the room slowly erupt into a huge applause. She could hear Adore giggle slightly into her ear, and she pulled away and smiled at her. They both sat down again, looking at Ru, who was crying herself.

“So, Bianca, how has this been for you?” RuPaul asked, looking at her.

“Well,” Bianca hesitated. “As I said in the video, I thought soulmates were bullshit. I never even wanted one, and I thought that it was just a bunch of crap. Never have I been more wrong, though. But it was tough. At first, Adore didn’t even know, and I went around her like a lovesick puppy. Then, when she finally got to know, we had to break it off a week later! It was devastating, and I broke down several times. In fact, I was sure I was going home, just because my mind was so preoccupied with the perfect human being sitting here next to me.”

Adore blushed, and Bianca smiled at her, not even noticing the ‘awing’ and cheering going around. Nothing mattered when Adore was there.

“Adore,” RuPaul’s voice broke them out of their brief moment. “What has this been like for you?”

“Honestly? Utter and complete shit. I put Bianca through so much more than necessary, and hearing from a doctor that you might kill your soulmate if you don’t consent to breaking the bond, yeah, that was really difficult. I love Bianca with all of my heart, and I would do anything to have her back as my soulmate. Unfortunately, you can’t bring back a broken bond.”

“Is there anything you would like to say to Bianca that you feel like you haven’t said?” RuPaul asked quietly, and Bianca looked over at Adore with a sad expression. This was hard on both of them. Adore bit her lip and nodded before turning to Bianca and grabbing her hands.

“You are one of the greatest, strongest, and I’m sorry Bianca, but you’re also one of the nicest and most loving people I’ve ever met,” Adore said, choking up. “I love you more than anyone in the world, and I’m so sorry for doing this to you and taking away your colors.”

“You didn’t take away my colors, you moron,” Bianca chuckled, tearing up herself. “You brought me colors, and even though I don’t see them now, I will forever remember how beautifully green your eyes are, and how the color of your cheeks would change just a bit whenever I smiled. You changed me, you changed my life, and I wouldn’t take back any of this. Not if I get to have you in my life.”

“Come on, kiss!” Laganja shouted, and both Adore and Bianca turned their heads to look at her. Adore turned back to Bianca and looked into her eyes, when Bianca gave her a small nod, she leaned in and pressed their lips softly together. Bianca grinned as they pulled away to a loud cheer. She looked over at the audience to see anyone standing up and applauding them. With a blush, she looked down, not letting go of Adore’s hand.

“This must be the most memorable reunited episode in drag race herstory!” RuPaul exclaimed, and this time, even Bianca and Adore joined in on the cheering. “But now, my ladies, it’s time to crown America’s next drag superstar.”

The filming process was long, as they first shot Adore’s crowning, then Bianca’s crowning, and lastly Courtney’s crowning. Just as they expected to be finished for the day, RuPaul told them that she wanted to film one last crowning. Bianca frowned and looked at the two others who looked just as lost. They all went back to their places, with no idea of what would happen now.

“The winners,” RuPaul said, and everyone started gasping and looking at each other. Bianca immediately looked over at Adore, who looked like she was going to fall over from shock. “Of ‘RuPaul’s Drag Race’, America’s next drag superstars are.”

The crowd went wild, shouting out names. Bianca couldn’t breathe, and her hand was probably broken from all of the force Adore put on it.

“Adore Delano and Bianca Del Rio!” RuPaul shouted out, and Bianca and Adore instantly hugged each other, before Courtney ran into their hug as well. They both walked over to Jinkx, who gave Bianca the scepter. Bianca however, handed it over to Adore. “Enjoy the moment,” she told her, before grabbing her hand and walking to the front of the stage with her. They had been told to wear matching outfits, but never in their wildest dreams had any of them expected this to happen.

They both stuttered out some words about being grateful, but honestly, none of them were able to concentrate at all. There was a possibility that they might win this together. Bianca just went with her instincts and kissed Adore again with a huge grin. They both said thank you, and then they finished filming.

“Well,” Courtney looked at them. “Congratulations. We all know who’s not winning now.” Bianca would love to talk against her, but Courtney did have a point. After this it would either be her or Adore. Adore, however, bless her, hugged Courtney.

“We don’t know that for sure! He probably just did that because of the whole soulmate thing,” Adore said, but probably even she knew that that was a damn lie.

“Anyway,” Courtney sighed, looking at them. “The two of you will definitely need to talk, so I’ll go talk to Darienne or someone. Okay? Love you guys.”

“Love you too,” Adore and Bianca said at the same time, glad to finally be alone.

“I’m sorry for kissing you,” Bianca told Adore, looking down.

“Wait, why are you sorry? You know I obviously wanted this too!” Adore said, frowning at Bianca.

“I’m sorry for kissing you, because I can’t be with you.”

“Wha’?” Adore looked hurt and confused, and Bianca’s heart broke into a thousand pieces.

“I-I’m sorry, love, but I don’t think I could handle it. Not when I know what we could have had,” Bianca whispered. “We will never be the same again. I want to be your best friend, but I can’t be in a relationship with you. It feels wrong without the bond there.”

“Oh, uhm, okay,” Adore nodded, biting her lip. “I was going to tell you something, by the way, and now you might hate me even more. We didn’t have to remove the bond, I didn’t have the condition they were talking about. It was the stress that I was under that kept my body from developing the bond. So, yeah, I’m sorry Bianca.”

Bianca left without a word, grabbing all of her stuff and leaving without even getting out of drag. With the help of some crew members she got back to the hotel without getting recognized, and as she got to her room she just sat down on the floor. She didn’t cry, didn’t smile, didn’t do anything. She just sat there in drag for several hours while wondering what she had done to deserve this shit.

“Roy!” Shane knocked on his door. “Danny just told me. Please open up. You know you need to talk about this shit with someone.”

Bianca opened up the door, and Shane looked at her. He was obviously surprised that she wasn’t even out of drag yet, and he silently got some makeup wipes and started helping her removing her makeup. He removed her wig first, both of them keeping their mouth shut.

“I was about to ask if you were okay, but it’s pretty obvious that you’re not,” Shane muttered as he started removing Bianca’s foundation. “But this wasn’t Danny’s fault, you know.”

“I’m not mad at Danny,” Bianca admitted, removing her own eye makeup. “I’m mad at the show for putting us through this, I’m mad at myself for letting us go through with the bond removal, and I’m mad with the doctor who gave Danny the wrong information.”

“You’re allowed to,” Shane said, still working on removing thick layer of foundation covering Roy’s face. “This wasn’t your fault either, though. None of you knew, you did what you thought would be best.”

Once all the makeup was gone and he had undressed, Roy sat down next to Shane on his bed. “I don’t think I’ll ever be able to go back to him, not after this. I would be so mad at myself and the whole situation that the whole relationship would be incredibly unhealthy.”

“Then don’t go back to him,” Shane shrugged. “After the airing of the finale in two weeks you can probably just tell him that you don’t want anything to do with him if you want.”

“But I do want something to do with him! Just not a relationship.”

Shane just sighed, and Roy laid down on his bed. Before he knew it, both he and the blond boy next to him had both fallen asleep.

Danny and Roy ignored each other the entire two weeks, not even talking to each other in the group chat. Therefore, the tension was very awkward as they stepped into the room to watch the finale together with Courtney. And honestly, Bianca would probably have ran away if she could. Watching the whole finale, including the story of how they became soulmates was incredibly painful, and none of them could wait for it to end.

Finally, the time was there, and it was time to announce who had won. Bianca watched the screen closely together with Adore and Courtney, all of them incredibly anxious to see who had won.

“The winners are,” RuPaul said, and Bianca’s heart stopped as she looked over to Adore. They had won together. They were the first couple to ever win drag race. “Adore Delano and Bianca Del Rio!”

Courtney hugged Bianca first, then Adore was dragged into the hug as well. Tears were streaming, Courtney was laughing and congratulating them, and Adore looked happier than Bianca had ever seen her. They all pulled away from the hug, and Bianca looked into Adore’s eyes as she grabbed her hand and squeezed it.

This made Adore jump straight into her lap and kiss her. Bianca closed her eyes and kissed her back, unable to stop herself. Fuck bad feelings and broken bonds, this was where she belonged. However, when she opened her eyes, she was met with a face that was portraying an amount of surprise probably equal to her own.

“Fuck, I’ve missed those colors,” Adore said.

Falling Snowflake

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Actor, Actress, Husband, Wife

This request was sent some time ago and I just love this idea so much!!!! Thank you so much, dear anon, this is such a good idea!

It was asked that Ben and the reader would be married, both actors, and that they would be casted in 'The Punisher' together, but would only discover this on set. The reader is casted as Dinah. It was also asked that we would find again Ben and his wife at Comic-con, talking about how much they loved working together and Ben would talk about how he fell in love with her even more.

This is (obviously) cute.

Pairing: Ben Barnes x reader

Word Count : 3404

The amazing @acciorudolphx​ made this beautiful aesthetic for this fic!! Thank you so much again!!

Ben heaved a sigh, lying on his bed in his lonely hotel room. He was travelling to promote his latest movie, and he just wished you were here with him. He missed you more than it should be allowed to miss someone. He played with the wedding ring around his finger, twirling it. He had caught this habit soon after your wedding. During your honeymoon through Italy, he was already touching his ring when waiting in a restaurant, or in a supermarket. And you found the gesture both hilarious and cute.

The truth was, whenever he was away from you, touching his wedding ring made him feel like you were closer to him somehow. And he knew you felt the same. After all, you had caught this habit as well during your first job away from him after your wedding.

He took a look at his watch, but he still had to wait two more minutes before you would call him. He was in Japan and you were in New York to have an audition, a simple call required some organization in order to avoid waking up each other in the middle of the night.

And he couldn't wait for you to call him, he had an amazing news to share with you. Today he had received a positive answer from Marvel. He was casted as Billy Russo in the next Netflix series that would be produced. And he was just so excited to tell you.

He hadn't told you what project he had auditioned for yet, at first he wasn't confident in having the role. But now he just couldn't wait to announce this wonderful news to you.

He closed his eyes, resting his head on his hand and taking a deep breath. He missed you. He wished you were there to celebrate with him...

His phone suddenly rang and started to vibrate upon his stomach, and he jolted upright, grabbing the device before it would be sent flying through the room because of his swift movements.

He hurried to answer your call.

"Hello, love!" he chimed.

"Hi, sweetheart!" you answered, and he could hear that you had a bright grin on your face.

"How are you, baby?"

"I'm great. I'm... more than great."

He raised an eyebrow.

"Learned a good news?" he asked. "Because I did too! But you go first, darling. Is it about your audition? Did it go well?"

"It is about my audition! I have the role!"

He grinned even more than before.

"That's wonderful, babe!" he congratulated you. "I'm so proud of you!"

"That's so amazing!"

"So, do I have the right to know what you auditioned for now?"

"No, you don't. It's a surprise!"

He growled in frustration. You had been teasing him with this for weeks.

"A surprise? No, it's a secret," he replied. "And I'm your husband, you don't have the right to have secrets with me."

"Don't try to use the 'husband argument' again, Ben."

"I'm the only one who can use it with you, so I have to use it."

You laughed, and he closed his eyes, listening to the happy sounds your voice made, a smile forming on his lips.

"I don't want to tell you," you said. "I know you'll be proud of me, and I want to make you a surprise. Because in this one, I'm going to be such a badass !"

You rolled across the bed to grab the photo of Ben you kept on the bedside table of every hotel you went to. You looked at his grinning picture while you kept on chatting with him, a dreamy smile forming on your face.

"I'm always proud of you, and you know it," Ben smiled.

"I know, but I want to surprise you with this project, so you won't know anything before it's out there, released for the whole world to see. Sorry, honey!"

"You're merciless."

"I know."

"You're so cruel."

"I know."

You both chuckled.

"And what is this good news of yours?" you asked, still staring at Ben's picture.

"Well... I have a new role."

"Really?! That's amazing! But you didn't tell me you had an audition!"

"I just had the audition a week ago while you were in Chicago. And I honestly didn't think I would have the role so... didn't see the point to tell you."

You rolled your eyes. Ben always had some confidence crisis after an audition. And you could never understand why, because he was so full of talent... but then, you guessed he just couldn't see how talented he was.

"I'm very proud of you, love," you told him tenderly. "What is it about? Is it a series or a movie?"

But Ben let out a low chuckle, grabbing his wallet. He took the picture of you he always kept against his heart. Staring at your picture while calling you made him feel like he was talking directly to you, like you were there, instead of thousands of miles away.

But he also had this mischievous little smirk of his painted on his face, that meant teasing...

"You know what? As you won't tell me about your next project, I won't tell you about mine either."

You laughed.

"Are you serious?" you asked, faking outrage.

"'Serious' is my middle-name."

"No, it's 'dork'. Or 'goofball', it works as well."

You both laughed.

"Are you sure you won't tell me?" you asked one more time.

"Yes, I'm sure. Take it as a punishment for acting all mysterious with me."

You laughed with him again.

"Alright, then I guess we will both end up surprised, right?" you said.

"Yeah, I guess."

"How did the interviews go today?" you asked him, knowing you wouldn't be able to change his mind about his audition anyway.

"Well enough. One of the journalist tried to flirt with me. Like... real, absolutely-not-subtle flirt."

"Was she pretty at least?" you asked, trying to hide the wave of jealousy that rushed upon you.

"Well... for a... forty-something Japanese man... he was not so bad."

You let out a bright wave of laughter, and he soon joined you.

"You should feel endangered, love," he joked.

"Oh, I do. I really do..."

But you were laughing too hard, and you needed a good minute to be able to resume your conversation with Ben.

"What are you doing?" he asked once you were calm again.

"Oh... you know... I'm just lying on my bed, waiting for my secret lover."

Ben chuckled.

"Are you now? What's his name?"

"He's my secret lover, honey!"

"Alright, sorry. Is he handsome at least?"

"He is."

"Funny?"

"Yep."

"Smart?"

"A real genius."

"Wow... He sounds even better than me!"

You both laughed. But once the wave of laughter had waned, you were left with a sad smile on your face.

"More seriously," you said softly, your voice tender, "I miss my husband."

"Well, if it can reassure you," Ben answered, stroking your cheek on the picture with his thumb, "missing my wife is a full-time occupation for me."

You took a look at the time, and knew Ben was probably tired after a long day filled with boring interviews, but you just didn't want to hang up the phone.

"What are you going to do now?" you asked.

"Well, it's night for me, so... Probably sleep."

"Are you tired?"

He smiled. He knew this tone of yours. It was the tone your voice wore every time you didn't want him to leave.

"Do you want to watch something on Netflix with me?" he asked, picking up his laptop.

"Stranger Things?"

"Sure."

You grinned, putting the photograph next to you on the bed and reaching for your laptop as well.

"So... we were..."

"Episode 3, babe," Ben smiled, already looking for the series on Netflix.

"Wait for me!"

"I am waiting."

"Wait, we need to start at the same time and... oh, wait!"

You jumped off the bed, and he heard the noise of your bare feet running on the wooden ground. He then heard the sound of... you unwrapping something, and jumping back on the bed.

"Are you eating chocolate again?" he asked, grinning.

"No..." you mumbled, your voice distorted by the candy in your mouth.

"The one I sent you?"

"No..."

"You're an awful liar, love!" Ben laughed, his grin doubling in size.

"I'm ready!" you replied, ignoring him and taking the pillow that rested next to you to hold against your chest.

"Alright, but I have a question first," he said, resting his back against his pillow.

"What?"

"What are you wearing?"

You smiled.

"Because, it's weird really..." he went on, a bright smirk on his face. "I was looking for my jumper but couldn't find it anywhere. You know, the grey one. The one you love stealing from me."

You tightened your hold on the pillow, bringing the sleeve of his sweater to your face.

"I might know where it is..." you giggled.

"Is it on you?"

"Maybe..."

Ben laughed.

"Why do you like this thing so much anyway?" he asked.

"It's comfortable," you answered, smiling, "warm, soft, bigger than me, comforting and... it smells like you."

A tender smile appeared on both your and Ben's lips.

"I miss you," you said, your voice soft and tender.

"I miss you too, sweetheart. I love you."

"I love you."

He heaved a sigh, before focusing on the device that rested on his stomach again.

"So? Stranger Things?" he asked again.

"Yes!" you focused on your computer again. "We need to start the episode at the same time. Are you ready?"

"Yep. 3..."

"2..."

"1..."

Ben had to admit that he was nervous. But then, he was always nervous when he had to start a new project.

It was his third day working on The Punisher. He had met most of the people who would work with him already, through a reading of the script or through some scenes he had already shot. But he was still nervous, as he hadn't met the actress who had been casted as Dinah Madani yet. She was to arrive to New York only that very day, her previous movie being finished only 24 hours before. He just hoped they would get along. Because after all they... well... he had... intimate scenes to play with her. This kind of scenes always felt weird and uncomfortable, so he just hoped that he and whoever had been casted as Dinah would get along.

He walked out of the makeup room, looking for some tea. He tried to run his thumb along his wedding ring, but he met no metal, only skin. He rolled his eyes, laughing at himself. After all, Billy Russo was not married, Ben had taken his ring off that morning and left it in his wallet, in the pocket of his jacket. He kept on stroking that spot on his finger though. He hated not wearing his wedding ring, it felt like you were not here with him...

After he had finished to promote his latest film, you had had three weeks together. But then you had to go away to shoot a few episodes for a series for two months. The good news though, was that this mysterious project of yours had led you to New York, just like Ben. You were supposed to be reunited that very evening, and he was more than excited. Actually, he was struggling to keep his mind focused on anything else than the thought of holding you in his arms and breathing your sweet shampoo while he buried his face in your hair. And well, he had spent most of the previous night dreaming about other activities the two of you could use to pass the time after your meal at the restaurant was over...

He finally managed to find a kettle and a box of cheap tea, and he prepared his warm drink, humming to himself, your face never leaving his thoughts.

He turned around as he heard the sound of voices approaching.

But when he saw you appearing at the corner of the long corridor, laughing with a woman he could only guess was your stunt double, he dropped his cup of tea, the warm liquid now spilled all over the little table. But he couldn't care...

You were standing there, a bright smile on your face as Michael Nathanson was joining you. You were wearing a bulletproof vest, some dark gloves, high dark boots...

He had to admit that you did look like a tough federal agent, although, there was still this softness in your eyes that never left your gaze and that he loved so much.

He kept on staring at you, too shocked to move, to talk, to clean the mess he had made. But a smile slowly formed on his lips.

Somehow, you must have felt his stare from the end of the corridor, because you looked up at him. And you froze on the spot at the sight of Ben grinning at you, dressed in a very expensive suit that made him look just... perfect.

You ignored your colleagues as they stared at you, asking you if everything was okay. But somehow there were tears in your eyes at the sight of Ben standing there, and you ran across the corridor. He caught you when you did nothing less than jump into his arms, his embrace tight and warm around you. You held him tightly against you as well, breathing deeply his scent, and you smiled as you recognized the perfume you had bought for him a few months before.

"What are you doing here?" you asked in a whisper.

"Working," he answered, chuckling.

"Working?"

"Yep."

You frowned looking at his brown eyes. But a smile slowly formed on your lips.

"Don't tell me you're the bad guy..." you grinned.

"I am. And I guess that you're the federal agent I'm going to have to convince to get into my bed."

"I am indeed."

"That explains a few things, I guess. At least, you were right, it's definitely a surprise!"

"It's definitely a surprise to see you here as well."

"The good news, it won't be very hard to get you into my bed."

You laughed.

"It might be harder than you think," you replied.

"You can't resist my charms."

You brushed your fingertips across his cheek covered with a short beard.

"You're right, I can't."

You exchanged a bright smile, before you would rest your head in the crook of his neck.

"I was so scared of who would play Russo," you said.

"Why? Does it have anything to do with the fact that you'll spend a few hours naked next to him?"

You chuckled, nodding.

"Well... my husband is jealous, you see."

"Is he?" Ben laughed.

"He is. Sometimes."

"I'm not jealous!"

"You are sometimes."

He rolled his eyes, but his smile never left his lips.

"Well, no fear to have. I won't be jealous of myself," he joked.

You pressed a kiss on the side of his neck, and you felt him shivering under your lips.

"I'm just... so glad you're here," you whispered in his ear.

"I'm glad you're here too."

"I missed you so much."

"Love, you have no idea how I missed you."

"I love you."

"I love you even more."

He finally brushed his nose against your cheek, making you look up at him again. You smiled at him, your feet still a few inches above the ground, but Ben didn't seem to be tired of carrying you in his arms.

And the next second, he was kissing you so passionately, you melted, running your hands through his silky hair.

He chuckled as you eventually broke the kiss, too desperate for air.

"Don't mess with my hair," he admonished. "I don't want to go back to make up."

You both laughed, but you kept on running your hands through his hair.

"Oh, shut up, honey," you laughed. "Just keep kissing me."

And how could Ben argue against this?

You were holding hands. Under the large table at the Comic-con, you were holding hands with Ben who was sitting next to you. You had insisted on sitting next to each other. And you were thankful for it, now that his warm fingers were wrapped around yours.

The flashes of the cameras and phones before you were blinding you from time to time, but you were used to it by now. It wasn't your first time there, it wasn't your first press conference either. Although, it was the first you had to carry with the whole cast of The Punisher. You laughed at John Bernthal's joke, hearing Ben chuckling as well next to you.

For now, no real questions had been asked to Ben and you. A few things about your characters, but not much. And you wondered when the subject of your wedding with Ben would arise. After all, it always came up sooner or later.

And you just had to wait a few more minutes for the question to be sent your way.

"Y/N, was it easier to work with your husband than with any other colleague? What about your sex scenes?"

You and Ben exchanged a smile, and he raised an eyebrow, eagerly waiting for your answer.

"For sure, the whole phase of... getting to know each other on set went quite quickly," you answered, your words met with laughs from the public. "And, it's true that... because we know each other so well, everything went smoothly and I really enjoyed working with Ben. And I learned lots of things about him, actually, that are related to his way of working, so it was quite interesting indeed. I also got a few compromising pictures of him, which can still come in handy."

You waited for the crowd to stop laughing, before resuming your answer.

"And about the sex scenes, to be honest... I was very nervous at the idea of shooting the few sex scenes I had in this series. Sex scenes are always weird. And I have to admit that shooting them with my husband... absolutely didn't change the fact that it was just... awkward."

You both laughed, along with most people in the room.

And a few minutes later, it was Ben's turn to face the questions of the Marvel fans.

"Did the fact that you were working with your wife create tensions between the two of you?"

Ben laughed, tightening his hold on your hand.

"No, not at all," Ben earnestly answered. "We're... we're always longing for more time to spend together, and during The Punisher we were together most of the day, and we also lived together in New York, so... At least we saw each other a lot, and she didn't try to kill me despite that, that's definitely a good sign."

Everyone laughed again, but Ben went on.

"Really... Y/N is right on the fact that we learned lots of things about each other. Not... really about personality, I think I've got that part right after years spent by her side. But on... what she sees in her work, her perspective on how to apprehend acting and... And it was genuinely funny to see her rolling on the ground and running everywhere and punching people, to be honest," he laughed. "I think it made us stronger somehow. I think... I think I love her even more than before all this happened. It really... I couldn't explain it, I didn't think it was possible to fall even more in love than I was before starting to work on that series actually, but... it happened somehow. a superpower of hers, for sure."

You and Ben exchanged a tender smile.

"Which is not fair," he went on, talking directly to you now, instead of answering the questions of the public. "Because I've already married you, what more do you want?"

You laughed, leaning to kiss his cheek and whisper in his ear while the crowd was laughing.

"I love you more than anything in this world," you breathed, before kissing his temple and sitting straighter again.

But when he looked at you once more, you knew what his brown eyes meant. He didn't need to speak for you to read the words his heart meant to speak, they were easy to see in these two dark orbs of his.

He loved you too.

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[sushigirlali]

Finding You - Part IX (Reylo Fanfic)

Part I - Part II - Part III - Part IV - Part V - Part VI - Part VII - Part VIII - Part IX

Summary: Unseen forces move against Kylo Ren from within the First Order as he struggles to unravel Snoke’s deceptions / Rey must balance her relationship with Ben Solo and her dedication to the cause that opposes him / Leia Organa makes a desperate plea to an old friend in a last ditch effort to restore the Resistance. Pairing: Rey x Kylo Ren/Ben Solo [Reylo] [ReyBen] Continuity: Set directly after Star Wars: Episode VIII - The Last Jedi ends. Warnings: There will be a lemon in Part II. Disclaimer: I do not own Star Wars or anything that relates to Star Wars.  A/N: Hello again, friends! In honor of Star Wars Day, I finally found the time to finish up this chapter! My big work projects are winding down, but I have several cosplay conventions to get ready for, so I’m still struggling with time management. Thanks for being patient with me! May the Fourth Be With You!  

Finding You - Part IX By: sushigirlali

Get a little bit wrong, get a little bit wild Get a little bit high off of this love tonight Get a little bit raw, come a little undone Get a little bit reckless, I can't get enough

Ben tapped his foot, waiting for Rey to emerge from the impromptu dressing room that Pooja had set up in the spacious drawing room. It had been five days since Rey agreed to marry him on Naboo, but the deed had yet to be done.

After being told of their intentions, his mother had put up one obstacle after another. Initially forbidding them from "acting hastily" outright, she had come around to having the wedding at the end of the week if, and only if, the preparations were up to her standards.

Although Ben had protested, Rey wanted his mother’s approval before they married. And so here he was, waiting semi-patiently for his bride-to-be as she tried on a tenth gown, his mother sitting imperiously at his side. So far, Leia had summarily rejected each and every option, so Ben wasn't optimistic that they'd find a wedding dress before the war ended.

"Rey, how much long—" Ben began, his jaw dropping as the woman in question parted the curtains to reveal an extremely flattering eggshell white gown with a floor length skirt and strapless beaded bodice.

Rey's slender frame was encased in yards and yards of delicate silk, the skirt nipping in at her hips, a sliver jewel-encrusted belt circling her tiny waist. The structured top clung to her breasts lovingly, the heart shape bust bearing a hint of cleavage. She floated toward them, seeming to hold her breath as she waited for their reaction.

"Well?" She demanded when neither mother nor son said a word.

As if being released from a spell, Ben stood up to take Rey into his arms, kissing her gently.

"You look beautiful." Ben said huskily.

"Really?" Rey asked self-consciously.

Ben pulled back to look into her eyes. "I've never seen a more lovely sight in all my life."

Rey blushed at the compliment, throwing her arms around his neck to kiss him more thoroughly. Ben's massive hands slipped around her, relishing the silken feel of her bare skin where the corset dipped low in the back. Rey fused her lips to Ben's, purring like a kitten as he stoked her tenderly.

A delicate cough brought them back to reality.

"Well, I suppose I can't argue with the will of the Force." Leia said sardonically.

"What do you mean?" Ben asked, throwing an arm around Rey’s shoulders to keep her close.

"That was my wedding dress." Leia admitted.

Rey's eyes grew huge in her elfin face. "Really?"

"Yes, my dear." Leia smiled nostalgically. "Han reacted the same way as Ben when he first saw me in it."

"Like father like son." Lando chuckled as he waltzed into the room with Pooja on his arm.

Where the comment would have hurt him only weeks ago, Ben felt proud to be compared to his late father.

"Solo men have impeccable taste." Ben said with a straight face.

"And an overabundance of confidence." Leia deadpanned. "I expect you to keep this scoundrel on his toes, young lady." She directed at Rey.

"I can pretty much guarantee it." Rey laughed, winking at Ben.

"Stop giving my fiancé ideas, mother." Ben joked. "She's difficult enough to handle as it is."

"Difficult to handle?" Rey arched an eyebrow at him. "I'll show you ‘difficult to handle,’ Ben Solo!"

"Oh, you've done it now, my boy." Lando grinned. Young people were so entertaining!

“Alright, I believe we have everything we need to pull off a half decent wedding.” Leia said, forestalling an argument. “Rey has chosen a dress, the menu has been selected and provisions purchased, and decorations collected. We can’t send out invitations to anyone beyond Naboo’s borders, for obvious reasons, but the wedding party will still be quite large. I’ll work on the seating arrangements with Pooja tonight.”

“What?” Rey asked, startled.

“Well, including everyone here, the rest of my family, and some villagers of local importance, we’re looking at about 50 people.” Leia counted the guests off.

“Oh!” Rey squeaked.

Ben looked down at her as her shoulders tensed up. “What’s wrong?”

“I don’t want to sound ungrateful…” Rey started hesitantly.

“Yes, my dear?” Leia indicated for her to continue.

“It’s just…I don’t know a lot about marriage or weddings or parties, and I don’t want to make a fool of myself in front of so many people, so…” Rey trailed off awkwardly.

Leia stood and moved to stand before Rey and Ben. She put a hand on each of their shoulders, smiling kindly. “We’re a family, Rey, and we take care of each other. I promise that neither of you will have to do anything that makes you uncomfortable. And if you are, please tell me at once so I can fix it. Okay?”

“Okay.” Rey agreed, sounding relieved. “Thank you, Leia.”

“Don’t worry, I’ll protect you.” Ben said with a sly grin.

“More like I’ll protect you!” Rey shot back.

“No doubt.”

“You’re the one always running off into danger!” She insisted.

“Marry me anyway?” Ben teased.

Rey met his warm gaze. “Absolutely."

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Rey smiled as Rose walked into the room with a long black bag slung over her arm.

“Pooja asked me to bring this to you.” Rose said, handing the package over.

“Thanks, Rose.” Rey replied, unzipping the garment bag to reveal a classy knee-length emerald green chiffon dress.

“Where did everyone else go?” Rose asked as Rey inspected the dress.

“To the capital. They had to visit the royal bank in person in order to setup a remote intergalactic access link. Lando said Leia will receive an encrypted datapad to use off world.” Rey informed her.

“And you stayed behind?” Rose sounded surprised.

Rey walked toward her, holding the dress up to Rose’s body. “Well, they asked me to go, but I have a lot to do before the wedding tomorrow. Besides, Poe, Ben, Finn, and Lando are with Leia. It’s not like anyone is going to get past those boys.”

“That’s for sure, but—Rey, what are you doing?” Rose batted the dress away as Rey pressed it against her front.

“Seeing how your dress will look on you.” Rey said distractedly. “I think the color is great, but the length will need to be adjusted since you’re so petite.”

“My dress?” Rose stammered.

“Yes, for my wedding.” Rey sent her a sideways look. “Didn’t Leia or Pooja fill you in on the arrangements?”

“They did not.” Rose responded with a nervous laugh.

“I never had a mother, so all the trappings and trimmings that go along with a marriage ceremony are very mysterious right now.” Rey admitted. “Leia and her cousins have been a big help, but I’m going to need you too, Rose.”

“Me?!” Rose exclaimed.

“You.” Rey laughed. “Who else is going to be my bridesmaid?”

Rose looked dumbfounded. “You want me to—really?”

Rey rolled her eyes playfully. “Yes, I want you to stand up with me. I’ve been told that it’s kind of a tradition, and seeing as you’re my best girl friend…”

“I’m you’re best girl friend?” Rose grinned happily.

“Definitely.” Rey said wryly, refraining from pointing out that Rose was her only female friend.

“I know that Finn is your best man, but would it be possible for us to walk down the aisle together?” Rose asked excitedly.

“I don’t see why not.”

“Thank you!” Rose beamed. “So, what about the groom’s side?”

“Poe and Chewie have agreed to be Ben’s groomsmen.” Rey replied.

“Ah. I’m glad Chewie has finally started to come around.” Rose said sincerely.

Rey frowned slightly. “Chewie didn’t exactly volunteer for the duty, I believe Leia asked him to do it as a personal favor, but hopefully this is a move in the right direction. I know Ben desperately wants to reconcile with him, but I don’t think Chewie is over Han’s death, or Ben’s hand in it.”

“I’m sorry, that must be so difficult for him.” Rose said kindly.

“It is.” Rey said candidly. “I think he was always a little jealous of the relationship between Han and Chewie, who had been friends for years by the time Ben came along. And when his parents sent him to train with Luke, well…”

“He felt abandoned.” Rose finished. “I know the feeling.”

“You do?”

“My sister Paige and I grew up on Hays Minor in the Otomok system. When the First Order invaded, they used our planet to test weapons.” Rose said quietly. “A lot of people died.”

“Oh, Rose, I’m so sorry!” Rey said sympathetically.

“That wasn’t even the worst of it. After they finished destroying the planet, the First Order rounded up all the remaining children and took them for the stormtrooper program.” A pained look crossed Rose’s face. “My sister and I were nearly among them, but we managed to escape.”

“What did you do after that?” Rey asked, riveted.

“We joined up with the Resistance.” Rose smiled sadly. “Paige wanted to make a difference.”

“She did.” Rey said with conviction. “Her actions led to the total destruction of a Dreadnought! The First Order will feel the sting of that loss for years to come.”

“Thank you for saying that, Rey.” Rose pulled the young Jedi into a hug. “I haven’t spoken to anyone but Finn about Paige until now. It feels good to talk about her again.”

“You and Finn have so much in common, it’s no wonder you found each other.” Rey patted her on the back. “But just so you know, I’m here for you too.”

“Same goes for me.” Rose promised, rubbing her red eyes as the separated. “Now enough about that, what about Ben and Chewie? I don’t want anything to dampen your spirits tomorrow.”

“I want to do more to help Ben, but I can’t force Chewie to speak with him.” Rey paused. “Well, I could, but I don’t think that would improve the situation.”

“No, definitely not.” Rose laughed.

“They’ll work it out when the time is right.” Rey knew this to be true. “So how about we focus on another important task.”

“What’s that?”

“Fitting your dress!” Rey held up the pretty gown again, along with a pincushion. “Finn is going to lose it when he sees you in this number!”

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Ben fidgeted nervously in his chair as his mother stood over him, attempting to put some sort of order to his raven locks.

“Stop moving, I’m trying to do something with all this hair.” Leia scolded him. “You really do need a haircut, Ben.”

“Rey likes it long.” He said absently, forcing himself to sit still.

“You’ll go a long way with an attitude like that.” Leia chuckled.

Ben looked up at her. “Why do you say that?”

“You listen to Rey, and take her opinion into consideration whenever you need to make a decision.” Leia said with a touch of envy.

“Of course I do, we’re partners.” Ben said as if that was the most obvious thing in the world. “Isn’t that how it’s supposed to be?”

“One would hope.” Leia laughed. “Your father, well, he definitely liked to do things his own way, regardless of what I thought.”

“But he loved you, didn’t he?” Ben queried.

“Of course he did, and I loved him.” Leia responded. “But that doesn’t mean communication was his forte.” She tapped her chin thoughtfully. “Or mine, for that matter. All I’m saying is: I’m proud of the man you’ve become. Rey is a lucky girl.”

“Thank you, mother.” Ben flushed under the weight of Leia’s compliments. “Um, actually, there is something I wanted to talk to you about…”

“Yes?” Leia said expectantly.

“What if the dark side pulls me back someday? What if I hurt her?” Ben’s voice cracked as he vocalized his greatest fear.

“Ben, I’m not going to promise that you’ll never be tempted again, we all are from time to time, but I believe you’re strong enough to resist falling into darkness a second time.” Leia said earnestly.

“But if anything ever happened to her, I—”

“You would persevere in her memory.” Leia cut in. “Because that is what Rey would want.”

Ben was quiet for a moment as he took in his mother’s words. “I hope you’re right.”

“Don’t you know by now, sweetheart? I’m always right!” Leia finished styling his hair with an appreciative hum. “Now, let’s head downstairs and get this wedding going before all my hard work wears off!”

Ben’s whole body clenched as Rey turned the corner on Lando’s arm. With her chocolate brown hair twisted up into an intricate knot and his mother’s gown perfectly fitted to her slender form, she was so beautiful that it almost hurt to look at her. At the same time, Ben knew there was nothing in the universe that could pull his attention away from the woman in front of him.

Rey’s glistening eyes lit up as they met his, and he wondered for the hundredth time that day what he had ever done in his life to deserve her.

“You take my breath away.” Ben whispered in her mind.

“You look wonderful too, my love.” Rey responded, loving the flush that crept up his neck.

Ben’s wedding robes, fashioned in charcoal gray, were layered with a dark brown leather vest and matching sash. He looked happy and healthy in the elegant ensemble, the Naboo sun having put some color into his pale cheeks.

“I was sure you were going to wear all black.” Rey teased.

“Those trappings belonged to Kylo Ren.” Ben said thoughtfully. “You’re marrying Ben Solo, and with you by my side, I’ll never have to hide behind a mask again.”

“I love you.” Rey said out loud, touched by his words.

Several members of the audience snickered at her involuntary proclamation. Rey smiled bashfully, but she wasn’t embarrassed. Nothing had ever felt so right as marrying Ben Solo.

As Rey reached his side, Lando placed her hand in Ben’s, smiling at the pair before he took a seat next to Leia. The head of the Brotherhood of Cognizance, a mostly forgotten religious order that had strong ties with the Naberrie family, stepped forward to preside over the nuptials.

The priest lifted an ancient scroll, clearing his throat to get the crowd’s attention. “Once in a lifetime, if it is our destiny, a perfect match may be presented to us. It is our responsibility to nurture and grow this gift, linking ourselves irrevocably to another soul. Only through love, compassion, understanding, and respect can we achieve a higher self.”

Rey smiled at the intent look on Ben’s face. As someone with Jedi training, she knew he took the concept of predestination very seriously. The will of the Force could not be bent or steered, as far as the Jedi were concerned, only accepted as destiny. She was still getting used to the idea herself, but the more time she spent with Ben, the more she believed in it.

The priest indicated for Finn and Chewie to bring forward the rings. Rey held her breath as Chewie stopped in front of Ben, but she needn’t have worried as the Wookie gathered her lover into a bear hug, speaking to him in a comforting tone. While she couldn’t understand what was being said, Rey sighed in relief when Ben returned the embrace, clearly pleased with Chewie’s words.

“Thank you, Chewie.” Ben said sincerely. “And I’m sorry.”

Meanwhile, Rey accepted Ben’s ring from Finn with an affectionate hug. While the Naberrie’s had managed to save Padmé’s ring after her death, Anakin’s was another story. Since the original was lost to history, Rey had asked R2-D2 and C-3PO, who had witnessed the secret marriage of Ben’s grandparents, to help a local craftsman create an identical ring.

The resulting simple white gold wedding band was solid in her hand, and she knew Ben would appreciate the sentiment.  

“Ben Solo, if you accept Rey of Jakku as your mate, present her with this symbol of unity and seal your bond forever.” The priest instructed.

Ben quickly placed the amethyst solitaire onto Rey’s ring finger, much to Rey’s amusement, before bringing her hand to his lips tenderly.

“Rey of Jakku, if you accept Ben Solo as your mate, present him with this symbol of unity and seal your bond forever.” The priest said again.

Rey slid the wide gold circle onto his thick finger, watching his reaction carefully.

“How did you…?” Ben asked in astonishment, recognizing the ring.

“I have my ways.” Rey pressed a sweet kiss to his knuckles.

“That you do, Rey Solo.” Ben said adoringly, pulling her close for a proper kiss. “You’re the love of my life, and I can’t wait to live it with you.”

Rey was so focused on the love burning bright in Ben’s dark eyes that she barely heard the priest announce their marriage, only jolting back to reality when the crowd erupted in cheers and well wishes. Looking around at the happy faces of her friends and family, Rey realized that she had never felt so at peace. Finally, after so many years alone, she was home.

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Rey tried to pay attention to whatever her new mother-in-law was saying, but all she could think about was getting Ben alone. He looked so handsome in his formal robes, and she couldn’t wait to tear them off his impressive body.

“Rey?”

“Yes?” Rey asked Leia absently.

“If you’re thinking about kidnapping my son from this reception, you have my blessing.” Leia winked.

“This is a lovely party, Leia, thank you for planning it.” Rey blushed, hoping Leia hadn’t read her impatient mind. “I wouldn’t want to leave early and—”

“Oh, bullshit.” Leia stopped her. “As your newly appointed mother, I absolve you from all guilt and demand that you do exactly as you please for the rest of the night!”

“But—” Rey protested.

Leia shut her down with a look.

“Never mind.” Rey leaned forward to give the General a hug. “Thanks, mom.” She said huskily before dashing off to find her husband.

“Remember when we were young and in love, Han?” Leia whispered softly as she watched Rey tug Ben out a side door. “Those two are going to give us some beautiful grandchildren, if we can ever get around to destroying the First Order. One thing at a time, I suppose.” Leia paused as she felt a gentle tremor run through the Force in answer. “Never fear, I’ll see you again in the next life, my love. Wait for me.”

It was either a testament to Rey’s strength or Ben’s unwillingness to refuse her anything that led them up the back stairs so quickly, she wasn’t sure which.

“Rey! There are fifty people downstairs!” Ben protested weakly as she continued dragging him toward their room.

“Good, they’ll all be too busy with each other to notice we’re gone.” Rey opened their door and hauled Ben through it.

“Rey!” Ben held his hands out in a placating manner. “Not that I don’t want you—I always you want—but—”

Rey gently Force-pushed him toward the bed, giggling as he landed with a yelp on his back. Standing between his sprawled thighs, Rey hastily flicked open his fly, pulling his pants and underwear down far enough to release his rapidly growing erection. Ben’s face flushed as she stared at his body hungrily.

“Don’t you want to undress first?” Ben asked hoarsely.

Holding his gaze, Rey pulled up her skirt to show him that she wasn’t wearing any panties. “No need, I’ve been hot for you since I woke up this morning.” Rey laughed as Ben groaned. “Still want to go back to the party?” She teased.

Ben gave up, drawing her down to him without further encouragement. He took her mouth in a heated kiss as she straddled his hips, rubbing her wetness against him. Rey lifted up slightly to palm his erection, bringing their bodies into intimate contact.

“Wait!” Ben gasped. “Don’t you want—”

“Shh, I’m ready for you, baby, no foreplay necessary.” Rey smoothed his hair back from his face. “I need you inside me, husband. Right now.”

Ben’s eyes filled with emotion. “Your wish is my command, wife.”

Rey moaned as he ran his hands under her dress to palm her bottom, caressing her soft skin before slowly lowering her body onto his rock hard member. They had made love countless times over the past few weeks, but the first hard thrust of Ben’s thick penis never failed to take Rey’s breath away.

Rey gripped the back of his robes as Ben’s lips covered every inch of exposed skin above her corseted top. He sucked on her pulse, trailing down to the rise of her constricted breasts, his hot breath warming her sensitive skin. Wanting more contact, Rey reached behind her back and loosened the ties holding her bodice together enough to free her breasts.

Ben immediately pulled the top down and attacked her stiff nipples, sucking on her sweet berries like he was a starving man and she his oasis. Bouncing up and down on his lap, Rey gasped as one of Ben’s hands returned to her ass, forcing her closer still, while the other slipped between her legs, rubbing her clitoris in time with each thrust of his rigid body.

“Ben! I can’t!” Rey whimpered, overcome with the pleasure he was giving her.

“You can, Rey.” Ben growled. “Give into to the pleasure. Give in to me, baby.”

“Oh, stars!” Rey screamed as he rubbed and sucked faster, struggling to get as close to him as possible. She felt like they were the same person, two halves of one whole.

“We are!” Ben groaned as her walls clamped down on him, using every ounce of strength he possessed to hold on for her. “Rey, I love you!”

Rey’s body twisted and strained against his as she neared her peak. The pleasure she felt was almost unbearable in its intensity, but she wasn’t afraid of it. Not with Ben holding her, his deft fingers playing her like a fiddle. Despite his passion, there was an underlying gentleness in his touch, underscoring how much he wanted to please her, how much he loved her.

And then Ben shifted his position and Rey was coming, screaming, crying out in joy as her husband exploded inside her, filling her up with his essence.

“I love you too.” Rey whispered weakly as they collapsed on the bed in a tangle of sweaty limbs.

She savored the deep feeling of euphoria that coursed through her body, though his. Making love with him felt as incredible as it always did, but there was something more between them now, something precious.

“We’re completely connected.” Ben whispered, reading her thoughts easily. “I was afraid to open up fully before, afraid that one day you would leave me. But now…”

“Now you know that I won’t.” Rey smiled. Who ever said commitment was overrated?

“Yes.” He replied warmly. “Neither one of us will ever be alone again.” Ben vowed, touching her face reverently. “Nothing can come between us now.”

“Ben, what about Kali? What about the First Order? We have a lot of enemies out there.” Rey started apprehensively.

“It doesn’t matter what they throw at us, I know we can defeat them. That we will.” Ben said with conviction.

“But how? There are so few of us and—”

“We have everything we need.” Ben asserted, kissing her gently.

Rey absorbed his confidence, seeking comfort from his certainty. It was the will of the Force that Ben and Rey Solo bring balance to the galaxy. And that was exactly what they would do.

~FIN~

A/N: I went more modern with the dress to match what Leia may have warn vs the more opulent Naboo fashion. I think Rey is still a simple desert girl at heart, and it would’ve felt weird to put her in anything too extravagant. I’m planning to finish up this tale with a few more chapters, but I won’t post again until they’re done. I hate making you guys wait, but hopefully it’ll be worth it. Thanks for reading! You can find me on ff.net and AO3 as sushigirlali as well.

A little something extra!

Kylo: So, what’s your greatest weakness? Ali: Merch. Kylo: Merch? Like…merchandise? Ali: Yes. Kylo: Okay…what kind of merch? Ali: All of it. Kylo: Can’t you be more specific? Ali: Tanks, purses, enamel pins, buttons, bracelets, shoes, plushies, baseball hats, candy, towels, posters, pillow cases, barbies— Kylo: Okay, okay! Stop! Get some self-control already! Ali: Hey, you asked. Kylo: … Ali: … Kylo: Don’t you want to know what my greatest weakness is? Ali: Rey. Kylo: How did you know that?! Ali: You’re a lot of things, babe, but one thing you’re not is subtle.

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Jupiter’s Legacy: David Julian Hirsh Couldn’t Wait to Play Blue Bolt

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It seems pretty odd to have survived a serious accident only to proclaim, “I cannot wait to do a superhero show,” but stranger still is the fact that that’s exactly what actor David Julian Hirsch is now doing as Richard Conrad/Blue-Bolt on Jupiter’s Legacy.

Born in Canada on October 26, 1973, Hirsch had every intention of becoming a lawyer, having studied criminology at the University of Toronto. Then he “foolishly” decided to perform in a New York summer acting workshop and found himself hooked. He made his TV acting debut in a 1998 episode of La Femme Nikita and became a series regular on such Canadian series as Leap Years, Naked Josh, Lovebites, and Hawthorne. Between 2001 and 2013 he appeared in about a dozen films. But it’s Netflix’s Jupiter’s Legacy that is the answer to his accident-inducing pronouncement and as you can tell from the following interview, it would be pretty difficult to match his excitement level about the show.

WHO IS BLUE BOLT?

NAME: Richard Conrad

ALTER EGO: Blue Bolt

POWERS AND ABILITIES: We don’t know yet!

NEED TO KNOW: A founding member of The Union and a neonatal surgeon when we meet him in 1929. In the present day, Richard is no longer part of the Union, and his fate remains unknown.

Den of Geek: What was the excitement level for you about being cast?

David Julian Hirsh: There were just so many interesting things going on in my life for the three months prior to being cast. It was the first time in my life that I said, “I cannot wait to do a superhero show.” It’s never something I’ve done. It hasn’t been part of the genres that I’ve worked with, which has been romantic comedy, or comedy, or basic dramas.

That’s pretty specific. What made you say “I want to play a superhero.”

Just like what Richard Conrad in a way goes through in terms of how they find him and how he hooks up with the rest of the team back in 1929, I had had an accident in my own life. Something had happened and saved me, and it was the first time I said, “I absolutely want to do something huge, something greater than me, something spiritual, something exactly like a superhero show.” 

The next thing I know, this script shows up and I just knew right away, I said, “I’m going in and I’m just going to live this.” And it was just so beautiful. It was such an honor to be a part of that and it was so the perfect time in my life to receive this role.

What was the appeal of this superhero?

I was always very drawn to the power of superheroes, but also the double lives that they had to lead between their private selves and their public selves. You live as a human, but you also live as a powerful superhero. And not only is Blue Bolt living the life of a neonatal surgeon, but he also has another double life. There are many layers to him, and as an actor that’s what I dream of. The more layers you have, the more there is to work with. The deeper you go, the more you have to understand. 

I know the first season doesn’t cover the entirety of the comic and I know it’s bouncing in and out of time, but how does he change over the course of this first season?

I don’t want to give away too much obviously, but…there is an evolution in terms of a lot of it is the origin story in terms of how we got our powers. We definitely are going to find out about all that in the first season. You’ll definitely see an arc and there definitely would be a change, but I just don’t want to give away too many of those details of what you actually see.

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I think that what I love about it is when you have normal people who all of a sudden get these super powers…It’s not like Superman who came down and had them. To actually see people that we can all relate to take on these powers is really interesting. I think each actor and each character has a different way of what these powers are going to do to them personally, in terms of how they handle power, in terms of how much they believe, in terms of how much they follow the code, in terms of all those things. 

Is it empowering wearing that costume? Exciting? Embarrassing? What is the feeling when you have to put on that spandex and be a superhero?

It’s pretty much everything you just said at the exact same time. I’ve never experienced anything like that so far in my career. And I have to say, I was explaining it to my little nephew, and he just is so excited about it. This is exactly how I felt on the first day that I actually got to go put it on. I think it was the third fitting and things were going well, I thought, and I was starting to look like a superhero and it was incredible….it was so much fun and it is so worth it. I cannot believe how good every costume looks. It’s just so much more beyond what I expected. The costume department did such an incredible job.

Is it empowering?

Yeah. I mean, the funny thing is though, you think, you still actually can’t fly. That’s the thing, you think you can when you’re wearing it and you think you could just do anything, but no you’re just a bit heavier. But it definitely feels wonderful. It’s great. Everyone should be able to experience it. I can see why it affects people because you finish the day, you’ve been training for months about how to do all these incredible moves, these martial art moves and how to fight and work with the wires. And you’re trying all these incredible costumes, and then you go home and you’re walking down the street and you’re still you’re nobody and it’s great. It’s a good feeling.

Back in your place.

The secret identity. Exactly. But yeah, that’s our job as an actor though is to constantly be put back in our place and remember who we are. That’s good.

You mentioned earlier this is your first foray into the world of superheroes. Are you ready for the scrutiny that these kinds of shows get online with fans and conventions? Because that’s like a whole new world.

Yes, it is. I’ve been to some of the comic cons. I absolutely love it. I just love the passion and absolutely, I love the fact that they’re critical of their heroes. Why not? I would be too. And I am. We should be able to handle the criticism, the good and the bad. I think it’s fun. I can’t wait for all that stuff. It’s exciting.

I think fans are absolutely, from everything I know and everything I’ve seen so far, I think they’re absolutely going to love this. If you love superhero stories, it’s just so unique. The fact that it shows the different generations and the epic span of it is just so exciting. I didn’t know how it was going to be done. And I was nervous at the beginning, and then I saw it and I just could not believe it, the sets, the costumes, and just the way the writers tied it all together. It’s just so good. 

If you were to describe the power of this show for the audience, what do you think it is? What is the driving force of this show?

I love how it talks about America. We learn about the stock market crash in 1929. It shows how America evolves. It shows how these generations have changed, how America and the world, how morals have changed and values have changed. It shows these different generations of superheroes. By using such an incredible device as superheroes and so much action and so much entertainment, I think it’ll appeal to such a broad audience. And yet it’ll it’s not just action. It’s not just superheroes beating up bad guys. It tells a lot about what’s happened in this country and where we’ve come to, and the fact that they follow a code, but that the new generation has their own way of looking at things.

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I think it really says a lot about where we are today and the different generations. I was talking to my elderly neighbor, she’s actually 89 years old, and she said she’s looking forward to watching it and she loves superhero shows, but she wants it to have some meaning. She wants to learn something from it about power. Anyway, we had a really good discussion. Honestly, I think she will love the show, just as I think a young teenager will. 

We start getting into philosophical questions like what is good? What is evil? What a great entertaining way of looking at this, with those kinds of questions. That’s what’s great about it.

Fantasy and sci-fi has always been such a great prism to examine our world anyway. So it’s a wonderful opportunity to make comments as much as you want, and nobody’s going to judge you on it.

Exactly.

What do you hope the show does for you and your career? 

I’ve always stayed away from social media, but a lot of people are saying, “Oh, you should get social media, especially now because this is the kind of a show people really want to discuss and you should talk to the fans about it.” I probably will because I definitely want to interact with the fans when it comes to this kind of a show. 

The truth is I’ve always loved martial arts and I’ve never been able to actually use that stuff in any of my work. This was the first time I was able to train. We had training before we started filming. I’d love to do more of this kind of stuff, so if it opens doors for me into the sci-fi world, then wow, that would be incredible. I personally love this show so much that I just hope it goes as long as possible. It’s just been such an incredible experience to see how much fun it is to shoot something like this. I’ve never had more fun filming something. It was incredible.

Does it allow you to tap into your childhood sense of playing pretend at all? 

If there’s one thing I felt guilty about it’s that I can’t believe I’m allowed to have that much fun at work. Now I’m not saying it’s not hard. Of course it’s hard work, but I haven’t had that much fun, just laughing and being physical. A lot of the work I’ve done, there’s a lot of sitting around on sets and all that stuff. But here I would want to go in an hour before just to look at the things that the crew has created, even the lighting, just, everything was so beyond the courtroom scenes or classroom scenes that I’ve worked on. That’s obviously a different world of acting, but this was just unbelievable. So yes, I felt like a child in awe of my surroundings almost the entire time.

And they pay you for it.

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Oh, stop it. It’s just too good. May this go on forever.

Jupiter’s Legacy premieres on Netflix on May 7. Read more about the series in our special edition magazine!

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"You Can See Yourself Out, Can't You?!"

Tuesday 3rd November 2020

Good afternoon/evening everyone! I realise this will be my second post of the day but I am wanting to try my absolute best to catch up as much as I can. I am in work tomorrow morning, quite early, so tonight's episode will be reviewed tomorrow. This post will be covering Tuesday's episode. We have a lot to get through so I'm not going to waste any more of your time and jump straight into it.

This episode begins with Kush slumped on the kitchen table, it looks like he must've slept there during the night. He is woken by Kat walking through the front door. Understandably, things a looking pretty awkward between the pair. Kush voices his concerns to where his girlfriend had been through-out the night, but it's plain to see that she stayed out all night. Kush explains that one of her children were awake in the night asking for her and he made sure that they were okay. Kush once again goes very sheepish as he takes a huge breath and prepares to tell his girlfriend that he thinks he needs help for his gambling addiction. But his pleas fall of deaf ears as Kat completely ignores him and turns the conversation to wanting to get her children ready for school. I think it's going to need a lot more for Kat than him just accepting he has a problem, he needs to do something more in an attempt to fix the situation.

Out on the Square, Jay and Honey are sharing breakfast as she receives a phone call from the Detective who's working her case. Could this be the news regarding the sexual assault or whether they're going to charge Paul with his crimes? Either way, Jay pushes her to answer the phone, as he will be there to support her no matter what the outcome. Meanwhile, at the laundrette, Max finds Linda in the middle of her shift. Is it just me, or can you still sense sexual tension between them? It's like ever since they shared that kiss, they've both been nervous around each other. The reason Max has popped into see her is to ask her whether she'd be interested in working another shift at the restaurant for the afternoon, he insists that he wouldn't have asked if he wasn't desperate. I guess the Carter's need as much money as they can get right now, will she agree?

Back at the Slater household, Kat returns explaining that Stacey has taken the children to school instead. She informs Kush that she has been told the good news that they've been allowed to stay in their house, on the catch that they pay more rent, which Kush confirms that if they don't get they will kicked out of their house for sure! Kat takes a seat opposite and feels like this might be the time to hear him out, she needs an explanation. She asks him straight out why did he feel the need to gamble everything they had? At first, Kush doesn't know how to answer the question, until he reveals that the gambling gave him a buzz - which is the typical feeling an addict gets when they gamble. It's that rush of adrenalin and excitement, the buzz. As Kush continues, I begin to feel for the guy. He mentions to Kat about losing his Zaair, his son to Shabnam and then losing his brother Shaki, over the years he feels like he has slowly lost his spark, his swag, and gambling was kind of the only way to replace it. Kat looks as if she understands and agrees to give her boyfriend one last chance. Kush even admits he almost played another game last night while she was away, but he didn't and he forced himself to delete the game from his phone - which is a massive step for a gambling addict. Kush is deeply apologetic and regrets everything he has put his family through and panics how they're going to be able to pay Suki the rest of the rent, but Kat tries to reassure him and informs him that once Stacey returns, they'll sit down together as a family and sort it, as she has an idea.

Meanwhile, Honey is having her meeting with the Detective supporting her case and they have confirmed to her that there was no evidence of her being raped. However, just because there's no evidence of sexual assault, does not mean that she hasn't been assault in any other way. Unfortunately, the detective confirms that there are no possible ways of finding out such things, the main evidence they have is the video of her on Paul's phone. It's then that the Detective drops the bombshell to poor Honey that the case might have to go to court and she may have to give evidence. Honey's thought of this clearly worries her, she'd have to be in the same room as her attacker. But as Jay watches her with concerned eyes, she says she'll do whatever she can to help, to which he gives her a small smile, he looks quite proud of her and how brave she's being. I can seriously sense them both falling for each other during this storyline.

Back on the Square, Mick is walking down the street in his own world as he hears voices from across the Square. As he looks up he sees his wife and Max discussing her shift, before he leaves Max just happens to make a joke regarding a pair of knickers that we found attached to Linda's apron earlier. Obviously, Mick isn't going to react positively to this. As Max walks away, Linda sees her husband and approaches him asking whether he wouldn't mind her working another shift. But clearly it's a big deal for Mick, it looks as if he doesn't want his wife anywhere near him. But the only thing he says to her is "That's up to you!" and walks away. Once again, pushing away the people who care about him the most. Meanwhile on the other side of the Square, Tiffany rushes out from the undertakers. Rainie sees her catching for breath and understands what's caused her reaction. Stuart had taken her down to the refrigerators to see all the other deceased bodies. This, I feel is a brilliant scene, very funny! Again, with Stuart and Rainie, just a little bit of comedy that we need in the soap right now! Tiffany then proceeds to ask Rainie what happened with their previous beautician. I loved the fact that they share a mutual opinion at this point when Rainie explains that she used her expensive lipstick on a corpse! Tiffany completely agrees and when Rainie compliments her saying she'll do really well at the undertakers, a little smile grows her face.

At the Mitchell household, after having to skip breakfast with his boyfriend after preparing it so beautifully but then having to rush off due to call message from DI Thompson, Callum returns to the house. Ben approaches his boyfriend and being polite, asks how work went. But Callum doesn't really want to talk and insists that he has a banging headache and just wants to go for a lie-down. It looks as if he's shrugging of Ben again. Ben can see that his boyfriend is hiding something, he's been acting shifty for quite a while now and Ben has clicked on that something isn't right. Callum tells his boyfriend that he just wants to be alone and storms up the stairs, as he does so, Ben tries to tidy up his jacket on the banister when suddenly Callum's phone falls out the jacket pocket. For a split moment it looks as if Ben contemplates looking through his boyfriend's phone, I mean, I wouldn't blame him! But surprisingly, he does the decent thing and puts it back. Suddenly Callum returns and instantly accuses Ben of checking up on him and looking through his phone, Ben is quick to defend himself saying he was just tidying it up. Ben makes the valid point that Callum has been acting strangely over the past few days and it's no wonder it's given him reason to worry. He's acting like he actually has something to hide. Something is telling me that it must have something to do with Callum trying to dob in Phil, how the hell will Ben react when he finds out what his boyfriend has been up to? Even though I feel Callum doesn't want to do it anymore, he's definitely got himself in too deep and can't really find a way out. I think Ben should've looked at his phone while he had the chance! Callum accuses his boyfriend of not trusting him and walks away. Why do I fear things are going to go wrong for Ballum before things go back to the way they were?!

Back on the Square, Mick is sat gathering his thoughts. Suddenly Frankie appears as she exits the Prince Albert. Mick is quick to get a moment with his daughter. He hasn't seen or spoken to her the past week or so, he asks how she is and why she hasn't responded to any of his messages. Frankie simply tells him that it's been hard for her to deal with she's learned in recent weeks about her Dad and her Mum. Realising that her Mum sexually abused her own Dad, it must be tough for a young adult to come to terms with, realising that maybe she is the result of sexual abuse ... (I know that sounds awful, but it could be true). Mick tries to explain to her that he wants to help her as much as he can, but she make the very valid point that he can't even help himself right now. He can't come to terms with it either, so how on earth is he going to be able to help her? From the way I see it, they're both become victims of her Mother's actions, they're both suffering and having to deal with the devastating truth, to be fair, it should be the main thing that brings them closer as Father and Daughter. I have a feeling that maybe when Frankie's Mum arrives, Katy, it will be the main thing that brings them closer together. What do you guys think?! It's quite devastating, both Mick and Frankie admit that things were easier for them both before they entered each other's lives, Frankie suggests that they should not contact each other anymore and she walks away. The look on Mick's face, he is absolutely distraught, something tells me he's not going to be able to walk away that easy, how on earth could he walk away from his own daughter? Even though she had no idea she existed, he'd do anything for his kids like any other Dad, I don't think he'll be able to simply walk away from her, not now that she's made such a huge impact on his life.

Meanwhile at the Slater household, Stacey can't believe what she's hearing. Kat's idea of helping the family and getting some money in their pockets is a potential robbery. It turns out that the security guard Kat went on a date with the previous night got so drunk and told her all the information she'd need about the building. She knows all the lock codes she needs to get into the building, the only thing they need is a way to get inside and someone who will help them pull it off. Stacey isn't wanting anything to do with it as she insists that she's has been the best this year. Kat reassures her that she doesn't have to be involved, she needs to be able to stay at home and be with the kids, just in case something goes wrong. Kush voices his concerns whether it is such a good idea, but when Kat asks whether he has a suggestion, there isn't much that he can say in response. It's then that Kat reveals she's got someone in mind who might be willing to help them out …. but who could it be?!

Returning to Mick, he makes his way into Walford East ... now I don't know about you, but this is the Mick that we have been missing, don't you guys think? He sneaks his way into the restaurant and grabs a table and hides his face from his wife. As Linda approaches his table, he makes himself known and basically (in not so many words) apologises to wife for the way he's been acting and basically states the fact that he loves her more than anything in the world and is wanting her more than anything right now. Now it's nice to see Mick back to his old funny, flirtatious self, but is he really being able to forget all about Frankie and move on? Because even though this is nice to see after so long, something tells me its not going to last. Linda giggles at her husband's flirtation and they both giggle as they leave the restaurant together.

Meanwhile, in the Vic, Jay is finally catching up with Lola. They're discussing their offer on a potential flat they've looked at. It looks as if Lola is really wanting this future with Jay, but with him being at Honey's side in recent days, it seems Lola isn't being able to see her boyfriend as much. They had originally made plans that evening for a drink and a Chinese together. However, Jay admitted that he promised Honey he'd check on her, much to Lola's disappointment Jay asks whether they can postpone their date for another time. Lola is visibly upset but she reassures her boyfriend that it's fine and she understands. But when Jay just happened to describe Honey as "Amazing" - Lola's ears prick up, I mean, it's true that everyone loves Honey. But something tells me that Lola is going to be feeling a little jealous and upset that Jay is spending so much time with her lately. As Jay goes to check on her, Lola is left in the Vic, suddenly Isaac swoops right in after overhearing their conversation and offers Lola a drink. Uh-oh, is Lola going to cheat on Jay for a second time?!

Back at the undertakers, Tiffany is still experiencing her first day and is having her first lesson on what to do when there's a fire drill. This scene was once again brilliant, more comedy from Stuart and Rainie. I found it funny when Tiffany and Stuart were waiting for Rainie to appear whilst the alarm was still blaring. Eventually she emerges from the building with two cups of coffee in her hands. I just loved the way that Stuart commented how slow she was and she had a go at him claiming she wasn't as quick as she used to be! It's then that they turn to Tiffany and offer her the job as a beautician, which she completely agrees. I have a feeling that there could be some brilliant scenes ahead for them all in the undertakers, it'll be interesting when Keegan finds out, but surely he'll support his wife?!

Back at the Vic, Ben finds Callum sat alone with a pint. It looks as if this will be the opportunity Ben will only have to get to the bottom of what's bothering Callum. He sits beside his boyfriend and admits he knows what's been bothering him, explaining that he understands he's been pulled from pillar to post whilst helping his Dad with the whole Ellie situation. Callum doesn't know what to say, of course he has to just play along, he can't tell his boyfriend truthfully what's bothering him, only that it's really complicated. Ben tells his boyfriend that he'll never forget what he's done for his Dad, he makes the valid point that the Mitchells always remember loyalty. He tells his boyfriend how proud he is of him, Callum can't do anything but smile. Ooooo I just really hope that Callum will come clean eventually. I don't want to see the Mitchell family falling to pieces just because of something Callum was going to do. Something tells me Christmas is going to be explosive, it's going to cover all sorts of big reveals and secrets for all the families ... the Mitchell's, the Slater's and the Carter's. What do you guys think?

At home, it looks as if Mick's goofy flirtatious mood didn't last very long. He's sat in the living room in another world of his own, Linda walks again and tells him not worry as "These things happen!" - So he wasn't able to perform for his wife as things were still painfully on his mind. Linda suggests it could've been his anxiety medication, Mick softly agrees but also reveals to his wife that he was trying to pretend to be something he's not. Which is actually really sad, he shouldn't have to pretend to make an effort to perform for his wife. I mean, I think it's kind of nice he tried to make an effort as clearly things haven't been right for them in recent weeks, but it looks as if not being able to perform has made the blow much harder, mainly because he's got other things on his mind. I do feel for Mick right now, but as much as I'm not enjoying seeing him lash out to his loved ones, I feel like I just want him to reach out to Frankie, make an effort with his daughter and (I know it's hard) but he needs to come to terms with what happened in the past, and not pass the blame onto his Mother.

In the park, Honey is on her own as she watches a young couple canoodling. She's looking almost upset as she watches them laughing and enjoying their time together. Jay approaches her and she comments how the couple look so in love at young age, and no one has turned up to ruin it for them yet. Jay sits down beside her and comforts her, tells her that at some point she will meet someone. Maybe not tomorrow, not next week, not even next month - but eventually she will find someone who will love her, because plain and simply there is nothing to not love about her. Jay compliments his friend and says she is just too lovely to not let anyone love her. Honey smiles and thanks Jay for being there for her the past couple of days, he's been the one who's been there more than anyone, even Billy. They slowly swing together and share a small laugh and smile. Something really does tell me that eventually either Jay will fall for Honey, or Honey will fall for Jay. Do you see something happening between them? I'd love to hear your thoughts on these two!

The final scene of this episode, we're returning to Kat, we can see she's slowly approaching someone's house. The camera turns and we can see the Phil is approaching her from behind. Later inside she's trying her absolute best to convince him to help her with this robbery job. She confirms she's got all the information they need to get into the building and out, she proposes it'll be an easy job for them to pull off. But Phil gives her the blow that he isn't interested. He simply doesn't understand why she needs him for the job, to which she explains it's simply for the muscle and perhaps to make their getaway. But once again, Phil declines her offer, she begs him to help as this is the only thing that could help her family. Unfortunately it makes no difference and he asks her leave. Is Kat going to maybe attempt the robbery on her own? Will she get someone else to help her out, Kush maybe, considering he was the one who caused this whole mess, couldn't he be the one to help her sort it?! Or will Phil maybe change his mind and take her up on her offer?!

I hope you've all enjoyed reading this blog as much as I've enjoyed writing. I shall be back tomorrow reviewing tonight's episode. I'm slowly catching up and I promise you, by the weekend I will be completely up to date. Enjoy the rest of your night everyone. Love you all xXx

#eastenders #katslater #staceyslater #philmitchell #benmitchell #callumhighway #ballum #kushkazemi #mickcarter #lindacarter #frankielewis #rainiecross #stuarthighway #maxbranning #tiffanybutcher #honeymitchell #jaybrown #isaac baptiste #lolapearce

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Review of 14x01 “Break Down the House” and 14x02 “Get Off on the Pain “

“The painful irony for doctors is that we often have to make you sicker in order to heal you.”

There are a few things we can count on with Grey’s Anatomy.  One, the voiceovers are meaningful.  The words that begin and end each episode are intentional.  Two, most seasons (13 was a glaring exception) are written with the end in mind.  Where our characters start is rarely where they finish.  However, where they start is still important.   Three, when the show promises a lighter, happier season, we will always get the exact opposite.  With that said, once I heard the opening voiceover, I knew we should expect pain and lots of it.  And in true Grey’s fashion, they delivered.

Let’s start somewhere easy.  

Ben/Bailey-  Benley spent most of the two hours snacking on the stairs of the main lobby, overanalyzing the construction workers, and discussing shoes. When I heard Ben would be going to the spin-off I wondered what their story would be this season. Season 12 brought us rebellious Ben who sliced people open with clipboards and waited for his wife to chastise him.  Season 13 brought us doormat Bailey who let Catherine Avery intimidate her into thinking she didn’t know how to run a hospital, which of course, led to the terribleness that was the Eliza storyline. So for season 14, I could do with a little less Benley. I adore both of them, but honestly, I would be okay with them staying on the stairs.  

Megan/Nathan/Meredith - Megan’s return is something we have all been waiting for since we heard she was only” presumed dead.”  It could possibly be the least shocking return from the dead in the history of television.  Predictability aside, I appreciate that while this feels like a different version of Addison showing up in her fur coat, Mer and Megan stayed mature in an awkward situation.  They are setting up Mer and Nathan’s relationship much better than last season as well.  In season 13, we collectively cringed each time Nathan asked Meredith out because after fifteen rejections, you’ve got to take a hint, man.  By the time they ended up on the plane together it felt so forced that it was hard to root for them.  Having Nathan show that he is torn between the two is warming me up to Griggs more, though.  And that proposal scene has so much secondhand awkwardness that I literally threw my blanket over my head so I didn’t have to watch.  My guess is that in the end, Megan will choose her son over Nathan and return to Iraq, and Nathan and Mer will find their way back to each other after an entire season of pining from afar.  

Amelia/Owen/Teddy - I thought Teddy was such a nice addition to these two episodes.  She was absolutely correct that Mer operating on Megan is a conflict of interest, and I think Teddy and Owen have great chemistry.  Just like Megan’s return, Amelia’s brain tumor also feels like a new version of an old story - Izzie’s brain tumor.  Are we going to see her freeze her eggs as well?  Because all Owen Hunt has wanted for the last 74 years is a baby, and he clearly has no problem finding a new woman if he needs to.  Staying faithful is not his strong point.  As much as I like Owen and Teddy’s chemistry, I felt that having Owen cheat on his wife who wouldn’t give him a baby yet again, really put a dent in his character.  Giving Amelia a tumor should make for some great dramatic scenes with Owen, Amelia, Mer, etc., but it also pushes the “Owen finally gets a baby” story back another season.  And really, unless Caterina leaves, which I don’t think she will, Amelia will be fine.  Krista said in an interview that she wanted to explain Amelia’s ooc actions (a nice way of saying bad writing) so she decided to give her a tumor.  That’s how bad things got in season 13.  They can only be explained by a brain tumor.  Nice.

Jo/Alex/Deluca - Looks like they quickly kicked Deluca out of the picture, and made it pretty clear this will not be a triangle.  Every time Alex or Jo started talking to each other I so badly wanted one of them to say, “Why I haven’t I seen you in eight weeks?”  Last season they could barely look at each other without getting teary-eyed and mopey, and this season they act like most of s13 didn’t happen.  I guess that is another way Krista is trying to fix the writing.  Just act like it didn’t happen.  I wish we had that luxury.  I am a Jolex fan.  I think they belong together, and I want to see them get rid of Paul and live happily ever after.  Unfortunately, happily ever after usually lasts about five episodes on this show, so the fact that they are so happy in the premiere makes me nervous for where their story will go from here.  Also, I know Jo sleeping with the intern was supposed to be shocking and funny, but it made me cringe.  For a woman who has been with multiple abusive men in the past, Jo going home with a man who is essentially a stranger seemed ooc.  Also, she snuck out of his room in the morning and then had sex with Alex hours later in the Resident’s Lounge.  I hope she showered in between.

Arizona/Carina - Carina is already better than Eliza, but I am not completely sold on this story.  This was also incredibly predictable.  Once she was announced as joining the show, most of the fans called that she was joining for Arizona.  How did we know?  Because that seems to be the only story Arizona can have.  I am all for her finding someone and finding happiness, but I would like to see Arizona, the doctor, again as well.  

April/Jackson/Maggie - Before I say anything else, I have to say that Sarah Drew is incredible.  Her heartbreak was so real and so tangible that it made an unbearable scene beautiful.  

I see this from two angles.  One perspective is the show (Krista? Shonda?) wants to end Japril and has decided to put Jackson with Maggie because (like Arizona) hooking her up with someone seems to be the ultimate goal, while her abilities as a doctor and her character development are ignored.  There were some hints that this may happen.  I think Jackson and Maggie may have been trying to have some moments, but it is so hard to tell.  I have to rewatch their scenes and analyze are they being intentionally awkward or is the awkwardness a result of their lack of chemistry?  Is that a confused look or a thinking look? Was that a smile or a grimace?  With Japril and Maggie/Nathan and Maggie/Deluca their feelings were always clear.  Now whatever they are doing is making their already painful scenes more difficult to watch.  If Jackson and Maggie is something they pursue, they will have a hard time getting the audience on board.  The majority is adamantly against it, and they will never come out from Japril’s shadow.  Japril’s story cannot be matched or recreated, so Jackson/Maggie would eventually become a side couple who just happen to be on a show that people are watching for Griggs or Jolex. As viewers we feel so disrespected that there is no saving that ship in our eyes. From this perspective it was difficult to watch Jackson sit there and not respond.  Or to accept the idea that he would think sex to April could ever be casual.  It was heartbreaking.

Another perspective I see is that Japril may not be completely dead.  I am not at all trying to give out false hope.  I saw what you saw.  But as painful as it was, I am happy that April said what she was feeling and that Jackson was clearly bothered by knowing he had hurt her.  And as much as I wanted him to fight for her, to say something, anything, watching them sit in silence, holding hands made me think about how through everything, the love and respect has remained.  They may be the only couple in the history of the show who have stayed faithful to each other no matter what.  The writers could have destroyed them completely.  We easily could have seen a Jackson/Maggie hook-up that would have broken them in a different way.  Instead, we saw April tell Jackson what she needed to say and Jackson listened.  Writing the scene that way leaves that trust, respect, and love in tact so that it can be revived.  The episode had a couple of other moments made me wonder if they were hints as well.  Maggie’s relationship with Deluca was brought up for the first time in forever, and Maggie seemed pretty excited that he called her beautiful.  Granted, Maggie would get excited about a man offering her a tissue when she sneezes, but again, Grey’s does not write random lines.  Plus, Deluca is officially out of Jolex’s relationship, I believe.  So that is something to keep an eye on.  Also, Maggie and Webber had a clear father/daughter scene where he talked about hoping she got her talent from him.  So, for anyone arguing he isn’t her dad, the show seems to say otherwise.  I thought it was interesting they put that scene in if they have any thoughts of Jackson and Maggie happening.  Krista says April has a complicated journey this season.  I would argue that she has had a complicated journey every season, but for them to openly say it has my wheels turning with ideas.  And of course, these things on top of Jesse and Sarah’s open support and love for Japril leaves me with a flicker of hope.  

They left hope for a reason.  If we are to believe the words that opened and closed the show, then this season will be about breaking things down to build them up better the second time.  

We’ve seen how they are going to break things.  Now let’s see how they fix it.

“The painful irony for doctors is that we often have to make you sicker in order to heal you. If a bone is healed unevenly, we have to re-break it. If a scar is too thick, we have to scrape it off and create a new wound. We break you down to rebuild you. We go to medical school because we want to learn how to fix what’s broken, but we quickly learn that we often have to make things worse before we can make them better. It’s risky, and it’s frightening for surgeons and for patients, but usually, it’s worth it. You get a second chance at life, and we get to be the architects of your second chance. It’s win-win, when it works.”

#grey's anatomy #14x01 #14x02 #japril #jolex #omelia #griggs

[survivornavarino]

Episode #9: I’m A Fighter -Jake

*loud screeching noise* AHHHHHHHHHH omfg i cant believe we just did that #beam 4 life ok so like i feel horrible because i love drew but he was trying to make an alliance and it didnt include me and i had to take him out before it was too late because while it wouldnt be me this vote it probably would next time so like sorry drew i love u im sure this doesnt help my case for like why u should b my friend but like i rlly am sorry.  also i feel bad for lying to jake but it just wouldve gotten back to drew and i didnt want to risk that.  im hoping he doesnt hate me too much for blindsiding his ally but like again, they were trying to have a majority alliance that i wasnt a part of and i just didn't want to deal with it tbh.  maybe jake and i are just doomed to eternally be on separate sides in games idk (sad music plays) umm trixie idk we dont really talk we just kind of coexist UM HOLDUP JESUS CHRIST WE JUST FUCKING MERGED WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WIG ON PLUTO WHAT TO HECK ????? im off to plot heathers demise xoxo gossip beckka

Woot Woot its merge loves. Time to be a complete mess and be first merge boot. Hehehe

I MADE IT, MY SECOND ATHENA GAME AND I MADE IT TO MERGE AGAIN IM INCREDIBLEY HAPPY. Let’s hope I don’t get eighth place again, and if I’m gonna be honest I need Drew gone if I’m gonna win. He’s so fucking good at challenges. So eliminating him would mainly be out of fear.

Remember how I’m a dumbass? Me too ok so Drew was eliminated already.

Excuse me I am stupid and don't get letters are better as numbers... and also reversed. I would like an explanation plzz

words tried in number form and reversed so far that have not worked. Emily-Amanda-Abbey-Francie, Navarino, Survivor, Athena. Im gonna cry I cant find it yet.

Oh yeah tea, I ended up finding a secret advantage called the deja vote which means I can steal someone’s vote from a tribal and re-use it at a later tribal 

This was originally going to me a vlog of me screaming after tribal but I busy last night and fell asleep before doing it so now I'm more calm and just gonna type out. Okay so looking back at my last confessional, bitch I'm boo boo the fool. I seriously thought Eddie and Autumn were being honest with me because I trust(ed) them sooo much, but it turns out they were playing me and orchestrating a Drew blindside behind my back. So before I went out last night, EVERYONE told me they were voting Matt. Then two minutes before the vote, Eddie and Autumn message me like "JAKE! Are you here??? SOMETHING is happening" like bitch shut the fuck up something is not happening don't act like this shit just happened last minute. Then they say "Drew is getting voted out tonight!" So...I went to Drew and told him to play the idol if he had it. Because I didn't want Matt staying if I was voting for him. But Drew said he didn't have an idol, and Eddie found out that I told Drew and told Autumn. So after I got home I messaged the group chat with Eddie and Autumn and told them that I was upset by them lying to me bc I did trust them the most. Then Autumn decided to get ballsy and reply "I don't buy that at all since you told Drew to play his idol, you were more loyal to him than me." GIRL STFU yes the fuck I did tell Drew because you told me TWO MINS BEFORE TRIBAL - MEANING YOU KEPT THE VOTE HIDDEN FROM ME ALL DAY. DON'T SAY IM DISLOYAL WHEN YOU WERE THE BIGGEST MFING SNAKE THIS ROUND! ...Anyways. Autumn then tries to come for me by saying "So tell, what's with this alliance between you, Eddie, Drew, and Trixie." And this is when I got more mad. BC Drew proposed this alliance to me, but it was never made, hell I didn't even tell Trixie about it. And when I told Eddie about it I told him I think we should tell Autumn about the alliance (Since he wanted to as well) So it became clear that Autumn was spreading to rebecka and matt that I was in an actual alliance with them to get them all to turn on us. So um Autumn, I wanted to trust you and go far with you in this game, but you're dead to me in this game now and I want you GONE. Autumn has the most connections here. She has Eddie, Rebecka, Matt, Ben, and I've heard that she has Mitch as well. She is a huge threat and if I can find a way to take her out, I will. But right now I need to focus on surviving. After the vote, Trixie added me to a call with Julia. Julia told us all of the alliances she's in (and she's in a damn lot) and said she basically likes Trixie more so she's working with us. Umm okay that's cool. I hope she's being serious because my life in this game is in Julia's hands now. She has all these connections and I need to get her to gun for someone that isn't me, Trixie, or Shoib. I've decided that my ideal final 3 would be with Trixie and Shoib because I trust them the most now, we've been together since day one, and we're all fans. It would be perfect. Sooo yeah. I also talked to Heather and basically blamed Tyler for all the animosity between us. I am trying to repair relationships and hopefully push the target off my back because I am worried about being targeted for 12th. IDK WHAT ELSE TO DO! I am in SUCH a bad position right now and it's so annoying. At the start of this game I had a lot of allies and the two people who trusted me the most (Tyler and Drew) are gone. But I'm a FIGHTER. I will NOT give up! I was in the minority at merge in crossroads and turned it around and made it to FTC so I just have to keep pushing and hopefully I'll get the same results! Woo wig! This was originally going to me a vlog of me screaming after tribal but I busy last night and fell asleep before doing it so now I'm more calm and just gonna type out.

https://youtu.be/iUDlOxxgtz0 my face in the thumbnail for this video is so funny cause it's when i found out of another to do the idol search. Obviously we know it didn't work adhshjks

I am pumped for this merge, I feel like I am playing a really under the radar game and it will make people come to me and ask me to vote with them if the game does break down into two sides, which I think it will. I trust Julia and Trixie the most right now and Trixie has two FREAKING idols omg. I also trust Mitch and Autumn but they are my secondary alliance which I will fall back on if I lose Trixie and Julia

Ok so no one is really messaging me about the vote, which is scary. I don't want to be first merge boot. The only people who have spoke to me are Matt, which he is confused, and Jake, which says no one really spoke to him about the vote yet. I did hear that people thought Ben and I were close, which like we have voted together, but aren't to close. I know now that Trixie has an idol and someone found the merge idol so FUN. I CAN'T WAIT TO BE FIRST MERGE BOOT.

Me starting a grassroots movement of Ben vs Heather cause I'm not aligned with either? Yep. Me forcing people to show their hands and make choices? Absolutely https://68.media.tumblr.com/41399c7dcc99b69388de05d609f7323c/tumblr_inline_o6ola1oDhw1sso1z7_500.gif Look none of these votes will be easy cause I like everyone and I'm aligned with almost everyone but it's Survivor I ain't scurd. I neeevvveerrr talk to Ben or Heather so I'm just gonna be a swing vote in the mess I created. Also feel free to give me the villain edit that's the one thing I haven't accomplished in Athena, besides winning or beating my placement. If not that's cool too I'll just continue to be my messy antihero self. Ok bye! Time to disappear and let the drama fester while I'm at work

You know what would be great, if more people would know who the vote is gonna be. Won't be surprised if that is me to be quite honest. Right now I hear Ben and if that is the only name I hear, I'll do it.

i never thought i'd say this but I WANNA HEX JULIA THE WITCH. okay not really bc i dont want her to read this and think im actually mad. but im wary of what i say to her now considering she told heather about my idol hehe

The votes for me cuz Beckka is bitter over another game. At least in that game I didn't isolate her. I'm prob just gonna cry in a corner.

This is a mess

this round has been a fucking mess and a half and im too busy rn trying to save my ass to make it all sophisticated i have a lot to say so if i stay ill explain everything later but basically autumn came to me today saying she wants to flip on ben so im trying to rally eddie trixie shoib julia and heather to get 7 on ben but apparently ben is throwing my name out bc he doesnt want to vote heathwr and immm fucking nervous idek if heather will wanna vote ben now if hes trying to save her what if she flips like this is bad help

The first merge vote is stressful as fuck cus there’s 12 people. I’m fine as long as it’s not me.

Don't know what's going on. Voting heather and hoping it works!!!!!

Good god am I glad I'm immune for this bullshit Let's start with merge. Woo merge! The idol system is announced. I actually make progress on the advantage hunt! Then I finish it. And someone already has it. GREAT So then I try the idol hunt and someone ALSO has it! GREATER. So now I have to worry about that shit. So I won immunity somehow because I guess preparing was a good idea since I blew through the second round. I won't be first merge boot in Athena woo!!! But now the vote is fucking crazy. I want to vote out Heather because, as sweet as she is, she's got a lot of ears listening for info for her and it's better to get someone like that out early before it's too late. But people don't want to because they're the ears! Big surprise. People are between Jake and Ben and Heather and honestly? I want to keep Ben around a little more. My plan for now is to not have one big alliance, but rather to be a part of small trio alliances so people can have my back without the worry of a huge alliance fracturing. I just have to keep the trio members safe. My planned trios are as follows: Ben, Mo, myself Shoib, Autumn, myself Rebecka, Julia, myself (WIP) That's 7 people who have my back in varying circumstances, as long as they're being truthful. I've also been alerted to a greater alliance of Matt, Ben, Julia, Mo, and Rebecka. Hopefully this trio plan will help me get in with those people more, and perhaps in the close future I can take out Matt and get rid of that variable.

i made merge!! its lit!! there hasnt been a lot going on so far. nobodys really reached out to me and ive been so busy so im just going with what rebecka wants, which is heather. i’m not sure voting heather is a good move for me, in fact i know its not, but unfortunatelt i dont have the time to make another move and im just tryin to survive

What is going on here on this day? This is a mess and i'm just on the train a long for the ride. I'm hearing Ben, Jake, and Heather, but I wouldn't be surprised if it's me tonight. Like I'm sure they're afraid of Jake having an idol, so why not throw their votes on someone who's irrelevant at the moment and who probably wouldn't see it coming? Anyway, I HIGHLY doubt Ben is leaving tonight, and I don't really believe that the votes are going on Heather or Jake, idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk. I really hope Jake stays, and I really hope Ben goes or I am probably screwed af.

#turnuptheheat