#I can deal with them later

[pallanophblargh]

I think part of me expected this burnout would last a long time, but it’s drawing close to a year now. I have a strong reason to suspect medications are prolonging it. Granted: I have no intention of stopping medication, but I suspect I may need to make some changes. It’s been nice not to feel burning rage/crippling despair/panic most of the time, but I also miss being able to actually... act on things! Start things! Feel some semblance of motivation, as fleeting as it is. Mostly my reaction to prompts of any kind are “nah, don’t wanna” or “so what?” which isn’t terribly conducive to anything more than day to day life. (Y’all, I can’t even reliably plan my vacation and that’s pretty terrible.)

I’m saying this in part as a sort of explanation as to why I’ve been so slow to respond to anything, or post any art, or even re-open commissions this past year. I just... generally can’t make myself do anything that isn’t a part of my daily maintenance routine. Knowing that making art (even personal art) takes 3x times as long to complete is a standout reason I’ve been refusing to reopen commissions especially, since I’d be unwilling to make clients wait more than a few months for even something as simple as a sketch. People were patient enough with “Old Me,” I don’t think most would hold out for “New Me.”

Thankfully I’m speaking to my doctor tomorrow regarding my experiences on the current medication, and maybe I can find something that works a little better. I feel like I’ve been pretty fortunate so far, all things considered, and my side effects have been fairly mild. (Though I have suspicions it’s also thinning out my hair something fierce... probably time for supplements for that issue!)

Hopefully I’ll figure it out sooner rather than later? Either way, I’m learning to accept things as they are these days. 

#April rambles #text post #mental health #medication #I know I'm one of the lucky ones but I'm still not discounting my aggravations #like yeah I'd like to think I should be capable of motivation #but at what cost? #and I never thought I'd care so much about hair loss but yikes I never had a lot of hair to begin with #wanting to cry anytime I see someone with a full head of thick hair #guess I'm kinda shallow after all lol #I have some beef regarding my other issues and suspicions but whatever #I can deal with them later #but I still find it hard to believe I've been assigned Just Anxiety instead of low grade well masked ADHD #Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh whatever #I'm a pleasant zombie for the most part are you happy? #I can't be arsed to do really anything are you sure that's just anxiety? #I'm literally masquerading as an apathetic potato most of the time now with meds so yeah ok sure? #we'll get there someday I hope #shit count my blessings it could be so much worse

[oozeandgoo-art]

Stubbornness.

#oc #haven #i worked genuinely hard as fuck on this one #tfw you follow someone to their home to demand they speak with you face to face because you want to commit extreme violence on them #over a business dispute. and because they do not want you to do this they simply do not come outside. and you eventually make it clear you #will not be leaving until they come outside so you can discuss (read: harm them over) said business dispute. so they turn on their #sprinkler system and go to sleep. and you decide on the spot that this isn't that big a deal and if you leave now you'll lose ALL #credibility FOR EVER. so you decide to stand around and wait until they come out and . by the time the morning arrives you have #contracted Hypothermia and The Beginnings Of Pneumonia and also Did Not Maul That Guy #started this as a proof of concept test of doing an overpainting on super vivid red #expecting to spend like #maybe forty minutes on it #and then about uh.... like... at least seven hours later i was like okaayyyyy now im done #stay tuned i have two variants that didnt make the cut also #also the picture is big as fuck so i recommend straight up opening it into a different tab to look at details #not that there are that many #i painted it 80% at zoom-out scale

[plaid-maniac]

Do you ever think about how there totally could have been an old classmate of Phoenix Wright and Miles Edgeworth in the audience during like turnabout sister or turnabout samurai. Do you think they would realize? Like “hey, were those the guys in my class in like fourth grade? I kinda remember them. Wonder if they remember each other. But it was so long ago, I doubt they would even care.” Meanwhile Edgeworth and Phoenix are undergoing the most insane mental battles where both of them are going “I recognize my best friend across the courtroom and I desperately want to be close with them again.” And “god he is so god damn annoying I wish he would die already.”

#ace attorney #miles edgeworth #Phoenix Wright #not specifically ship so I won’t tag it but kinda ship if you get it #the classmate usually sits in courtroom trials because they love the drama #and honestly they like miles Edgeworth’s cases cause ‘hey I know that guy’ #but of course they don’t like go up and talk to him cause they weren’t really that close and he left kinda abruptly #cause knowing someone for like a year in elementary school and then pestering them about why they left 15 years later is a weird thing to do #course Phoenix comes in and now the classmate now has to deal with the knowledge that the defense and prosecution used to always eat lunch #together and play superhero’s during recess with that really weird kid who was always up to no good #what if one day the classmate was like ‘maybe I should introduce them to each other again. sure that we would all get a laugh or two in and- #-that would be the end of it and they would continue with their lives as normal people. they certainly wouldn’t get super gay and awkward- #-about the whole thing and just be completely chill.’ #god what would happen and Edgeworth v state? #the classmate would probably leave the third day like ‘I am a changed person. I can never go back to not knowing so much about this person.’ #and like they wouldn’t be able to say or do anything cause like??? how do you even have that conversation??? #‘hey I know you don’t remember me but I like sitting in the audience of courtroom trials and I was there for your case and I just want to- #-ask are you good? like honestly do you need someone to talk to?’

[stuckinapril]

When I’m a fucking doctor you best believe I will single handedly reformulate the way ERs in the states conduct themselves. I will literally obliterate the current system and build a new one

#As a pre med who is now on the receiving end of this system I can confirm it’s like #Woefully broken #And it’s worse when it’s not you but a family member and you’re hurting watching them go through #All the bureaucracy and red tape #I fucking hate the healthcare system let’s all say it together #You guys are getting the calm version of me btw like I was dissociating dealing w this for the last few days #I hate it here but I had to vent or I would EXPLODE #Delete later ???? I hate talking ab this shit on the dash #Tumblr is supposed to distract me from all this but it’s fine I don’t think I had a public breakdown this April so had to meet the quota

[karamazovanon]

saw this post and remembered that i had this sitting in my folder so. take it

#this is SO DUMB #i dont even want to tag it #razras #c&p #anonart #sonya #dunya #ill add whatever tag i decide for them later ig hmm #raskolnikov #razumikhin #they are peak gay lesbian solidarity argue with the wall #I PROMISE I NEVER DRAW SHIPPY STUFF NORMALLY IM JUST IN A SILLY GOOFY MOOD. #i have serious t/bk art in the works but its a Series and its taking forever #i might delete this immediately akdkkskdkd #edit: YES U CAN REBLOG!! I APPRECIATE THE THOUGHT SM IM JUST VERY SHY ABOUT POSTING LOL #if i make a post and its not gone within 60 seconds of posting then by god i am prepared to deal with the consequences amen

[feroluce]

When Al Haitham dreams, it's in shades of sandy blonde and red, metallic gold and feather-blue. His nightmares are colored much the same.

Kaveh leisurely strolls ahead of him, shoes leaving deep treads in the soft desert sand. He keeps a careful distance, arms length, and in return Al Haitham keeps an eye on him, the other man's back dead center in his sights.

He curses the sand in his boots and the long line of footprints he steps into, already the exact shape of the soles of his shoes.

They aren't lost. Al Haitham knows where they are. They've been here before. They are still here.

Kaveh doesn't watch their feet. His head is constantly tipped back with his eyes on the stars and their constellations (of which Al Haitham only knows two, Vultur Volans and Paradisaea). He'll walk right into a cactus like that. Al Haitham yells ahead for him to watch where he's going.

Kaveh reaches up to touch the side of his head in a strange motion, but otherwise there's no acknowledgement. They press on into the dark of night.

Something squelches beneath Al Haitham's boot.

It stops him short, pulls his attention like a magnet and as much as he wants to, he can't ignore it. He doesn't want to lose any more ground. But something won't let him move on. Al Haitham watches as red seeps into the golden sand, spills beyond the border of his bootprint until he slides his foot aside.

It's an ear.

It's a human ear, and there's a heavy earring attached, metallic gold, gems red and green, a familiar shape, a familiar shade-

Al Haitham opens his mouth to yell. Chokes. Swallows the lump in his throat as he quickly restarts his pace. Tries again.

"Hey!"

Another squelch under a hurried footstep. He doesn't stop to look. Al Haitham is pretty sure he knows what it is.

"Kaveh, hey!"

The path becomes littered, little slices and small pieces, fingertips and knuckles, Kaveh's arms once held casually behind his back now strewn along the sands. Every time Al Haitham extends his hand to him, reality warps and bends like the twisted image in a broken mirror, lines mismatched and edges jagged. Kaveh flits just beyond his grasp, fleeting fae, no longer able to hear him or to reach out to him. Al Haitham can only grit his teeth and follow.

His right foot marches forward. His left follows. His right again. His left suddenly doesn't follow, and Al Haitham is thrown off balance and pitches forward, swinging his arms outward to land on his palms and keep his face off the ground, because he's been in the desert enough times to know what a foot suddenly being stuck can mean.

Quicksand.

Al Haitham curses and swears in just about every language he knows as he tries to spread his weight as evenly as possible, stay afloat at the top of it because if he sinks, he knows he'll be done for, and shit, Kaveh.

His neck cranes uncomfortably in his search, Kaveh had only been a few feet in front of him, he can't be sunk much further, and he's in the desert much more often than Al Haitham anyway, he'll be familiar with what to do-

Kaveh stands in front of him, empty sleeves fluttering loose. Still just out of his grasp, still watching the stars. The quicksand is already up to his calves.

"Say, Al Haitham..." It's the first he's spoken this whole time. His voice resonates somewhere deeply nostalgic in Al Haitham's chest, produces a ripple that momentarily stuns his heart.

Kaveh is sinking.

Al Haitham stretches out on his belly as far as he's able, it's quickly up to his knees, Kaveh isn't even trying to redistribute his weight or pull himself out, it's at his thighs, Al Haitham sucks in a breath and yells for him, his hips, yells louder, his waist, Al Haitham's trembling fingertips can almost reach, his chest, Kaveh drops level with him, quicksand about his neck like a noose.

Kaveh's head tips back, back, impossibly far back, until it hangs, angle awkward, and he's looking right past Al Haitham with his tired smile and gouged, blinded sockets full of starlight.

"Do you believe in karma?"

The quicksand swallows him entirely and Al Haitham dives, shoves his arms deep and pushes off with the one foot he'd had left on safe ground, because he can't, he can't, it's not the same without Kaveh, not anymore, he needs him, no one else keeps him sharp, no one else challenges him like Kaveh, if he can just grab him, if he can just pull him back up-

Al Haitham thrashes, against the sands, against gravity, against the hardwood of his bedroom floor. Clumsily scrubs the back of his hand across his face to rub the grit of quicksand and sleep out of his eyes.

Sometimes he thinks he preferred it when the Akasha was still harvesting his dreams.

He pops his head out from under his weighted blanket and lays where he'd fallen out of bed for a moment, blinking blearily against the lamplight shining from his desk in the corner. Deep breaths. His consciousness shifts along the blurred line of nightmare and reality, crosses over the slow transition into wakeful awareness.

He's home, Kaveh is home. It's dark out. The house is dead silent.

He's just going to go check, he tells himself as he peels himself out of his sweat-soaked shirt and roots around for a replacement. He's already losing memories of his nightmare, the details spilling away from him like wet ink, but he knows he needs to see Kaveh. It'll feel better to do something, anything, than try to go straight back to sleep.

He's quiet when he slips out of his bedroom door, because they both keep late hours but their bedrooms are right next to each other, and Al Haitham will never hear the end of it if he wakes his roommate up.

Lights off, door shut. Nothing conclusive. He moves out to the main room.

Kaveh sits on one of those ridiculous sofas he'd ordered three of for some reason, back to him as he tucks a lock of hair behind his ear. A mostly-empty wine bottle stands tall on the table, next to the cobbled-together remains of an architectural model that's been picked and fussed over for four days straight now.

"Kaveh? What are you doing?"

This earns him an exaggerated startle, but Kaveh doesn't turn to look at him, preoccupied with whatever new sketch or blueprint he probably has in his hands. "Ohhh, nothing," he slurs cheerfully. "Just working. Just thinking."

Kaveh has always been the world's chattiest drinker. Al Haitham waits for the rest of it.

"Say, I think...I think I asked you this years ago, back then, but you never answered me." Al Haitham feels all the blood drain from his face in ominous familiarity, drip cold down the length of his spine. Kaveh sinks into the couch until he can tip his head over the back of it, looking up at him with a tired smile and exhausted eyes.

"Do you believe in karma?"

#genshin impact #haikaveh #al haitham #kaveh #kavehtham #these two have had me chewing concrete lately god #3.6 got me frothing at the mouth #something about al haitham trying to save kaveh from himself and his own guilt complex and self-sabotage wheeee my heart #and he's normally so self-assured but he fucked it up spectacularly the first go around- good job baby- #and now it's years later he's trying again but it's something he's barely chipping away at not to mention Kaveh not wanting his help lol #and so some of Al Haitham's nightmare is objective fact and some of it is his own subjective pov #Kaveh loses his arms and ears bc al haitham is frustrated that he won't hear him out or reach out for help #and he keeps his eyes up and eventually blinds himself bc al haitham thinks of him as too idealistic and blind to reality #and kaveh does all this to himself bc when you ask al haitham about his troubles he talks about people who cause trouble for themselves #kaveh pondering the concept of karma in relation to his bad luck and misery and guilt about his father's death in the quicksand *fans self* #al haitham starting to get just a little nervous that maybe he really he can't do anything about this #or that one day it'll be too little late ough. love when I can whump character by whumping the other. #two for one special buy one get one two birds stoned at once type of deal #i have a Vision about them and their stupid dumbass relationship dynamic that I need to yell about later but for now: this #written while listening to A Sadness Runs Through Him by The Hoosiers which hilariously was introduced to me as a pla Emmet song #'but here was a man mourning tomorrow; he tried to finally drown in his sorrow' #'oh he could not break surface tension; he looked in the wrong place for redemption' #'don't look at me with those eyes; I tried to unheave the ties; turn back the tide that drew him in' #'but he couldn't be saved' #'a sadness runs through him' #extremely kaveh and haikaveh song for me ough #my fics #gore #body horror #I mean it's pretty unrealistic but still just in case

[rainymoodlet]

the main cast of the joy of life legacy, generation three 🦇

rowan krueger, heir 👑 / ???, known as alsace dieudonné, ancient (ancient ancient) vampire and resident of forgotten hollow

ivory krueger, gen 2 heir and rowan’s mother 👑 eva capricciosa, rowan’s mom / cassandra goth, rowan’s mamá

jax krueger, spare, eva and cass’ baby / sachiko sasaki, ivory’s half-sister

dallas krueger-sasaki, founder 👑 shingo sasaki, ivory’s nanny and dallas’ soulmate

vladislaus straud, founder of forgotten hollow who allows alsace to hide there, perpetually disappointed / damian cross, vlad’s husband-bloodbag-sugar baby thrall turned immortal soulmate

seraphine straud, damian and vlad’s daughter and sole heir of the straud fortune / ivan bloodvein, head chair of the council and seraphine’s devotee-husband

mina, tomas, and verana bloodvein, seraphine and ivan’s triplets, little anklebiters who vlad utterly dotes upon

#ts4 #ts4 cas #ts4 screenshots #;tjol+ #;tjol #sim tags later dhdhdh #|| #the halloween edit will be late 💀 i was late to work bc of this but it was WORTH IT #i love them all so much it was so WEIRD to age them all fhdhhd #might make dallas and shingo immortal bc i just can’t deal with their passing but also WEHHH PLOT #i am so excited to get back into playing this legacyyyy #gonna break the curse of the third generation y’all!!! i swear!!! #i will not force mpreg upon y’all though dhdhd but rowan can biologically have bebs #alsace is so cooool i can’t wait to get into his lore!! #sachi and jax turned out SO STUNNING i’m so besotted with them both #the moms are all older now and i’m 🥹🙏 #if rowan actually disappeared like he will (cough) they’d go to war so he’s actually #going to be backpacking across windenburg with low cell coverage but #he goes to forgotten hollow :)) little lyin’ ass boy #WORK IS A MESS RN i can’t WAIT to change jobs omg #haven’t heard anything yet but 🤞 #hoping!!!! #love y’all MWAH 💋

[dayurno]

still thinking about it. she threw riko a peace sign 🥹

#renee you are my PRINCESS #i feel like this is so in line w my hcs for her it made me seriously nauseous like #renee’s joie de vivre…. unmatched as always #the calm she handled it all with…. the note that she’d deal w her attitude at a later date…. #you give me one raven or i take them all #shes so. you understand. #the casualty of her walking up there and thinking there’s no way they can stop her #andyes maybe its delusional. so what! she took him in the end didnt she #AND THEN SHE THREW RIKO A PEACEEESIGNNNNN #✌️😗 #i mean ah. ag! #fun-loving girl renee walker association…. cutie renee walker country club….. #she’s so funny and sweet and also batshit insane #txt #renee

[transmasccofee]

this scene is ruining my life at first I didn’t get it but now I get it and Aughdhyfhfheujfuejfjjfjfnv

#Kusuo learning from Akechi that competition can be fun and playful and not like. Torture. #And then learning that Kuusuke despite his shitty brother-isms is deep down seeking that exact thing #but just doesn’t know how to approach it #because of how their relationship functioned for years and how they both are #Like don’t get me wrong Kuusuke is uh. Not a good brother and his inferiority complex lead to him hating and mistreating his brother for #Many Years #And I don’t think this scene functions as forgiveness exactly (Kusuo still has resentment towards him in later arcs) #But I think it’s a moment where he realizes they’re both on some level really lonely people #Who have been fighting their whole lives #And being like “hey I don’t hate you. Let’s be friends instead of enemies.” #And Kuusukes response being “I should really be the one saying that to you” #I just. Like it’s a Start. #IDK like Kusuo was completely justified to hate his brother especially after something like the catgun arc #But he doesn’t and I think it’s because he realizes that his brother genuinely doesn’t hate him anymore #Their whole deal is just really interesting to me but idk how to phrase my thoughts on them coherently #The only thing I wish this arc had was Kuusuke having a “what did I do to you” moment but it is a comedy and we already got that from tori #so ynow #i just say he had that moment post meteor #does any of this make sense #Also it makes me so emo that he pictured akechi

[whatudottu]

My first thought when i saw this: TFP Ben 10

Given how this 👇 is Ben's canonical car:

You aren't too far off lmao (mostly on the colour at least).

You might not be particularly a fan of CNA from your sphere of headcanons, but considering that Ben can access another biomechanical species in the galvanic mechamorph, I'm sure there's enough of an Omnitrix work around to sample cybertronian data. Seeing as it's a Camaro you could probably have a TFP x Ben 10 crossover equivalent to TFA Waspinator maybe, a green Bumblebee (or a green hornet if you of/remember that) but it's Ben. Considering how the biomechanical Upgrade has a few biological translation issues to the point of not quite technically being a fully integrated transformation, maybe Ben would speak with his own voice like Upgrade does or maybe even through radio depending on how physically different cybertronians are to human anatomy.

I mean that specific line of thinking would only be possible if Ben snagged a sample of Bumblebee's CNA (or whatever you'd prefer) which could either be convoluted or unclimactic, though I guess if street racing in some part of the globe with a desert (aka somewhat nearby Bellwood which already exists cross universe between Ben 10 and Generator Rex) there could be some plot about his shenaniganery nearly running Team Ben off the road and messing with Kevin's own heavily modified yet fresh from 1979 Dodge Challenger to the irritation and anger of Kevin himself. Something something Bee got the attention of the wrong (mostly) humans(ish).

#ask #ben 10 #transformers #tfp #maccadam #nukeli #i certainly rambled with this one- i can't recall if you know of ben 10 beyond just being a mutual dealing with my ben 10 posts #the mark 10 (the name for ben's car because it can't just be named ben's car or the doofus mobile) #came from the movie as a mazda rx-8 and was in the show modeled after the concept car acura dn-x #which a) both have x in them for roman numeral 10 and b) the acura is one letter away from dna lmao #anyway i'm a sucker for ben 10 crossovers- mostly the kind that introduces ben to more alien species #a plot like that may be too goofy for tfp wants to be even if it's ultra seriousness can lead to goofiness lmao #but hey given the historically present 'plot of the week' style of ben 10 in any series #it would be a fitting little minor story that ends up in a new transformation episode (or an unlock for later) #i only really put bumblebee on the spotlight here because ben 10 has a tendency to make transformations look like the sample #it's especially evident in the uaf artstyle but diamondhead and tetrax from os certainly don't differ much visually #if ben samples bee it's probably more like he samples his frametype and present alt mode #given his own alt he'd probably scan his own car lmao #and being a four wheeled grounder he can't sample any of the rustbuckets (the rvs AND the jet shaped space ship) #or his omniverse bike or the proto-truk #i think this post has a lot of rambling that reveals how much i like a transformers (in general) crossover with ben 10 #i mean i'm already neck deep in cf8wrk4u-us' tfa x ben 10 crossover these thoughts aren't new #i guess you could say in a tfp setting this is before ua because of the whole fame thing #might be a little loud on alien activity if a large majority of sightings have been narrowed down to one shapeshifting person

[vixscribs]

despite benrook being a decently popular ship I can't seem to get behind a lot of fan content I see. Those are coworkers. There's no way they're snuggling and shit that's highly unprofessional.

#maybe its my aroace ass not being able to fathom that stuff being enjoyable #but also the well mannered and space cop and the cocky 17 yo white boy superhero are not going to act like a normal couple #there is no way they properly address any feelings towards each other #theres no way rook would date his boss's grandson (the one he was directly assigned to by said grandfather) #also ben is a 17yo boy from 2015 gay marriage is just getting legalized #doubt the guy turning into/dealing with/dating aliens would be super opposed to gay people but he's also a public figure #then again hes shown that he can live without being idolized if he believes whats he doing or believes in is right #but again acting on those feelings with your cowoker/best friend so easily? eeehhhh #i will probably change my mind later #i want to see them struggle thats all #their misery and refrain brings me entertainment #benrook #ben 10 omniverse #rook blonko #ben tennyson #im over thinking this #unresolved homosexual tension...let that shit stew... #they've been tormenting me i want them out of my head #also i like the ship. if thats not clear.

[antianakin]

Zeb brings Rex to Lira San at some point to introduce him to the people there, both the Lasat who had already been there as well as the two Lasat survivors from Lasan. I have to assume that the culture on Lira San is significantly different from the culture that had developed on Lasan. Lira San is literally thought of as a LEGEND on Lasan from what we know which means it has been so long that these two cultures have probably developed in very different directions over time. So while there's probably stuff that Zeb IS familiar with on Lira San, there's going to be so much that he's being introduced to for the first time, as well.

Zeb is so excited to introduce Rex to his people, his culture, but he hasn't really ever spent any time on Lira San himself. He went down quickly to get the other two survivors settled there the first time they arrived and, for security reasons, doesn't go back until after the Empire is defeated. So he's not quite prepared for what it's actually like there. He tries showing Rex things he remembers of his culture, but everything is off or wrong somehow, and he ends up feeling like he doesn't know ANYTHING about these people or this culture and instead of being fun, it's just frustrating and devastating for Zeb, especially since Rex seems genuinely impressed by everything anyway, no matter how wrong it is. Eventually, he just snaps because he can't take it anymore and storms off.

Rex follows and Zeb tries to tell him to leave because he'll never get it and Zeb can't begin to understand. Rex says that Zeb's right, he'll never get it, because his people won't ever have something like this. Rex is never going to find some hidden enclave of the clones somewhere that have been safely and peacefully developing their culture on their own. It's just him and Gregor and Wolffe now, as far as Rex knows and it always will be. So Rex will never understand the pain that Zeb is currently going through by being confronted with a culture that feels like it SHOULD be familiar, but isn't quite. He'll never be confronted with an entire culture that manages to simultaneously bring him so much joy and relief as well as endless pain and devastation.

But this puts him in a unique position of being able to see the Lira San culture through the eyes of an outsider, without the pain it causes Zeb. He offers to show Zeb what HE sees when he looks at Lira San, to let Zeb explore this culture through Rex's eyes instead of his own. Zeb agrees, reluctantly, but it actually works. They go back through the market, the landmarks of this city they're staying in, the surrounding landscapes, the people, the language, the music. And instead of being frustrated at what he CAN'T see, he starts just enjoying being able to listen to what Rex CAN see. He can't always see it himself, he knows that it might take him a while to see it for himself and that sometimes he might NEVER see it, but for now, it's enough that Rex can see it and enjoy it and tell Zeb all about it.

They try a bunch of new foods together, they spar together and practice both the fighting styles they already know as well as try to learn local Lira San styles, they take a lot of trips out across the planet to see its different flora and fauna, they go see performances. Rex and Zeb just... spend a long time experiencing everything Lira San has to offer. And Zeb recognizes the irony in Rex having to sort-of introduce Lasat culture to him instead of the other way around, but he loves Rex so much for giving him this. He already knew how much Rex meant to him, he wouldn't have brought Rex to Lira San otherwise, but this is the moment he realizes he's going to spend the rest of his life with Rex.

In return, Zeb tries to ask Rex about the clones as much as he can. He asks Rex to talk about Wolffe and Gregor, but also about everyone he's lost. He asks about the 501st, and learns about Fives and Echo, about Hardcase and Dogma, about Tup and Jesse and Kix, about Appo and Denal and so many others. He asks about the other captains and commanders and hears about Cody and Fox and Ponds and Bly and Gree and Doom and Monnk. He asks how the clones chose their names and hears so many stories about the different ways clones got their names, some choosing them for themselves and some being given them by other clones, some naming themselves after something they loved and some naming themselves something that sounded cool at the time. He asks about hair and tattoos and learns about whether Rex ever wanted to dye his hair a different color and what everybody's tattoos meant and how the clones learned to tattoo each other when they left Kamino and started to see tattoos on other species.

And Zeb doesn't just ask for these stories so he alone can hear them, he sometimes asks when they're just walking around the marketplace and have picked up a gaggle of little Lasat kids who think they're cool and are perfectly happy to try to follow along with the stories Rex tells about his people. Rex always makes sure those stories are funny or heroic. He saves the sad ones for when he and Zeb are alone.

It turns out that the Lasat also had a tattooing culture of its own. The people of Lasan had had their own styles of course, but the practice itself had been brought there from Lira San, so Zeb asks Rex if he would want to teach the clones' style of tattooing to the tattoo artists on Lira San, so that the style at least could live on even if the clones themselves did not. Rex needs a few minutes to get himself together enough to try to teach anyone anything, but he is more than happy to work with the tattoo artists and pass along what he knows of his people's tattoo culture. Afterwards, Zeb asks if Rex wants to get tattooed with him, something they could share. A piece of both of their cultures, linking them together.

Rex says yes, because this is the moment HE decides he's going to spend the rest of his life with Zeb.

#star wars #garazeb orrelios #captain rex #rexeb #gararex #rex x zeb #zeb x rex #yes they got married the clone way and they both know it #that's zeb's entire point #they have some sort of lasat ceremony later too that probably tries to recreate lasan traditions on lira san as best they can #but they invite the entire ghost crew as well as wolffe and gregor (but not kallus) to that one #because they KNOW if they get married and don't invite everyone to wedding there will be hell to pay for YEARS #neither of them wants to deal with that drama so they just make sure to have a separate ceremony just for that #someone eventually figures out they got married the clone way months earlier and the drama happens anyway #also this is a gregor lives au because his death was stupid and unnecessary and i hated it #hondo's pig dies instead because whomst the fuck cared about the pig

[whamss]

People always want to talk about codependency as a romantic thing but honestly I knaw at the bars of my cage thinking about codependency as like, a platonic thing. Familial attachments from trauma and high stress that make people unwilling to separate from each other. Which is to say I think so much about Dave and Rose dying together and being the only two humans on a meteor full of weird aliens (four of which have killed people) and how this would make them latch onto each other so hard during those three years. Going on a suicide mission with your sibling HAS to fuck you up in some intangible way, and I don’t think that either of them come out of that normal (assuming that they were to begin with). It isn’t even in a way we’re they’re actively aware of it and openly using each other as coping mechanisms, but they’re constantly seen together or seeking each other out. I mean thinking of it even just as a base level I’m obsessed with Dave asking Rose if he can join her and Kanaya on their date and Rose being like “No!” only to be seen sitting with Dave and getting shitfaced right next to him leading up to it. Those kids need each other more than they’ll ever admit to anybody.

#talk tag #homestuck #dave strider #rose lalonde #sorry i think about them a lot #a thinka part of me always imagines that the neglect both of them dealt with leads to some. intense attachment styles #i can see rose developing some sort of dependency on kanaya but i think that comes later #post meteor when dave and rose don’t live together anymore but rose and kanaya do #during the meteor though it’s mostly dave and only a little bit kanaya #dave and rose don’t even really help each other they just crack stupid jokes but everyone can confirm they get weird when they spend too… #…much time apart from each other. worst deal ever #i think they suck (affectionate)

[worstloki]

Thor and Loki sharing a plate and everyone thinks it’s so weird but they are ignorant of the truth. The brothers are avoiding the need to do dishes after every meal as they can now alternate the washing

#this is true and factual #same way I think they should share an apple without batting an eye #like come on #normal brothers do this all the time trust me #they’ve been brothers for a thousand years I expect them to be doing much worse #brodinsons realize they can pass as a couple and get lots of benefits for things like movie tickets #they are asking at random places if there is a couples deal #no questions asked no communication necessary #they should split laundry too and wash their armour together in the same bath at least once every week #Thor: I need to oil the sleeves later the fight yesterday had me sweating #Loki: alright guess I’ll clean mine off too #Thor: do you have any polish #Loki: ...why are you asking #Thor: well... #Loki: -_-‘

[hail-briar]

soukoku with the pain sharing soulmate trope

#imagine dazai “i hate pain” osamu dealing with the effects of corruption while trying to get to chuuya as fast as he can #does emotional pain count cause like theres too much for both of them idk how thatll work #ooo chuuyas pain from being in the lab and then dazais suicide attempts #the potential in this where are the fics #bsd #bungou stray dogs #nakahara chuuya #dazai osamu #soukoku #skk #delete later

[solradguy]

This book I got to scan for otherkin talks about quantum physics-based magic. I literally cannot escape quantum physics-based magic systems. Can Guilty Gear just like give me a moment, ok, for getting me consistently into this mess. I need to throttle Dr. Paradigm. My brain is getting so wrinkled from having to learn about quantum theory and particle theory and Planck's Constant and Heisenberg's Principle and Bohr models... At least it's in English this time. I GUESS.

#textpost #I started doing the damn Khan Academy course on all this nonsense because I just know I'll have to deal with it more later #Might as know what the hell I'm reading about this time. Save me hours of researching I could spend PUMMELING PARADIGM #I don't really understand it as much as I wish I could but if I can at least ID the terms and the basic stuff then that's fine #If I know what I'm looking at then that's enough to bullshit my way through a project #Translating Japanese requires a lot of brain power but the only time I've ever had to really strain my neurons was #with Paradigms story from the Overture Material Collection #Reading about pseudoscience magic in a second language polar opposite your native one is like. Oh god why #I actually got headaches trying to figure that one out. It has minor errors. Some day I'll fix them