#I don’t understand she was so young??

[frmulcahy]

It’s 4 am and I just learned one of my favorite artists has passed away

#I don’t understand she was so young?? #there’s only a few vague posts from her friends and it’s not my place to ask questions #I’m just #I cant even comprehend????? #I feel sick #nephrosoupp

[otaku553]

More reluctant king sabo au! I realized recently that this au is an excellent excuse for drawing sabo in pretty outfits that he would be absolutely miserable in :)

#one piece au #sabo #king sabo au #I have a very specific idea of sarie in my head. #in which she is largely a product of her upbringing #entitled but due to being given everything she wanted when she was raised #sheltered and poorly socialized because she was always above those who lived outside the castle #Sarie has the potential to be a good foil to sabo. I think their dynamic would be so interesting #because while I don’t think sabo is interested in love at all #I also don’t think sarie understands what love is outside of the fairytales she is allowed to read #and she must have such a twisted idea of love from growing up in the royal family where I’m sure there must have been fights over heirs #not to mention she must have so many people vying for her attention if whoever marries her is apparently third to the throne #it definitely must have been impressed upon her since she was young that she doesn’t marry for herself #or maybe she realizes this and is waiting for a fairytale knight in shining armor to take her away. idk #I do think that to her sabo is an odd superposition of a prince and a knight #I don’t think she ever really falls in love with him. she’s just so alienated from the concept of love and #someone who actually cares about her as a person that sabo being the first one floors her and convinces her she’s in love

[xexthex]

Weird girl swag (8 undiagnosed mental illnesses)

#I feel like not enough people into fnaf really appreciate her character… #I love crazy women like what the hell #the movie was good but to me she’s better as not his daughter…? idk the whole thing felt so thrown in there and an unearned plot twist #she was so much cool as an enthusiastic young employee that gets this digital sickness #where she gets less and less control and more and more obsessed with the animatronics #to the point where she doesn’t even understand it but know that they are the answer to her life #art #my art #sorry for the talk #need more women in media with decent into madness #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #vanessa afton #I don’t plan on doing much fnaf art unless it’s really for her #vanny the bunny #fnaf vanny

[emprcaesar]

sansa is so isolated from the rest of her siblings.

every single one of the stark kids are separated they are scattered to the wind with only the shattered reminence of their house. but everyone else’s dire wolves are alive they are connected. lady is dead. that part of sansa is dead.

arya is known as the one her disguises herself becoming someone new. but it’s sansa who is making herself someone new. someone who is braver and deceitful so she can survive.

arya clings to the part of herself that is stark. she helps northerns whenever she meets them in the riverlands, she threw caution to the wind when she saw harwin and carelessly revealed her identity, and she killed dareon. she had no business killing him she was nobody from nowhere, but in her heart she knows she’s arya stark a daughter of winterfell whose duty is to kill those who leave the nights watch.

but sansa she is all alone in the world and to her knowledge the only true born stark alive. she is nothing but the key to the north. not even a girl. she is nothing.

#i don’t understand why people hate sansa #ethel cain coded #sansa stark #my baby my baby #book sansa #she is so preacher daughter core #arya stark #just girly things #book arya #lady the direwolf #girlcore #house stark #asoiaf #asoiaf books #before anyone asks #i love arya and she is brave for how young she is #i’m not comparing the two on their bravery #just their connection to their heritage

[fear-ne]

after that whole conversation i am even more convinced liliana became pregnant right at the cusp of her powers manifesting. i think her powers grew as her belly did. and the nightmares. and dreaming of her child being torn from her. and the red red moon. the red red storms. not understanding. and then her child is born under the same light of the ruddy moon that haunts her. same eyes, same hair, same threat of a curse. and so she runs.

#Liliana is like 46 to me you don’t understand #she is a young mother did she even want to be a mother????? #MENTAL ILLNESS DYNASTY #of course she pledged herself to the first person to have answers!!!! #ohhhh i hate her so much but you understand right??? her terror???? her need to flee??? #liliana temult #temults

[bilbao-song]

hi please enjoy these photos of my beautiful friend sylvia learning to appreciate Porch Season

#i won’t trust daphne w this until i have a better harness tbh. she’s too crazy #this was just a precautionary measure so she couldn’t just get away from me in an instant #i don’t understand how we had penelope trained to just be vibing on the porch w us without issue bc i am soooo paranoid now… #but i was so young when we got penelope i rlly don’t even remember like. The Early Days #cats #nonsense rambling #sylvia

[gently-decaying-flowers]

well that was awkward

#rant in tags #i coulda sworn i told my mom i didn’t wanna go to college #apparently not #she didn’t go tho so why was she so weird about it #and my brother “oh they’ve always been inconsistent about what they wanna do with their life #like yeah #and i know im young #but can’t yall just be supportive #i just wanna get a job and publish stories #i have dreams #i have things i wanna do with my life #why would i go to college and waste my energy and MONEY #on a degree i’m probably not going to use!! #i would rather save my money to move out and write and care for myself #i just don’t think college would benefit me #my mom of all people should understand that #sorry i’m not successful like my brother is #sorry i’m not winning awards and being an adult #sorry i don’t live up to anyone’s FUCKING standards #i hardly live up to my own #i just want a future where i’m happy #and i guess academic and creative success and achievements are the only way ill have any sort of life #sorry i’m not a top student #sorry i’m not a perfect writer #sorry i’m not good enough #vent #char’s diary

[designernishiki]

mirei enjoyers who try to justify her actions and characterize her in a really genuine supportive light mean well and I try to harbor no resent towards them but. come on man. lets be real. she’s manipulative and intimidating and an expert in psychological warfare and that makes her 10x more interesting and 10x sexier

#I keep saying I’m gonna shut up and then I don’t #I’m so sorry #rambling #mirei #mirei park #y5 #she’s got issues and it’s understandable why. idols go through mental and physical torment dude. and she was so young #then the terrible bizarre 10 second marriage on top of that #inevitably she’s a bit fucked up. but most interesting characters are. I want to study her

[flowerpoweryay09]

Petition for Derek Landy to write another prequel, but it’s literally just China’s entire backstory.

#skulduggery pleasant #headcanon #rereading the entire series as an adult made me realise how sad China’s story is #and we don’t even know the entire story #I want it to be really medievally too #like House of The Dragon vibes #with the time skips and everything #going from young China to older China #and you finally understand why she is the way she is #because she went through so much shit and was completely manipulated as a child to believe in The Faceless Ones #no wonder she’s so untrustworthy #there was probably no one in her life growing up who didn’t betray her or lie to her #and then she met Skul #I could go on for hours

[medusa-was-innocent]

They took waiting room off spotify

#I’m literally devastated #don’t text #how could they do this #it’s homophobic #check in on your annoying friends we’re really going thru it rn #music #waiting room #phoebe Bridgers #women in music #mine #genuinely I’m sad about this even if she does re record it I live the version that was up #like I know she doesn’t like it because she said it’s cringy and you can tell a 16 year old wrote it but that’s exactly why I love it #like it’s young and raw and feels exactly as desperate and madly obsessively in love as only a heart eyed kid can be #like she really captured that feeling of wanting something so strongly but knowing it’s not yours and feeling helpless like a child #because you just know you’ll never have if no matter how much you wish for it #it’s a kid singing about how desperate they are and the desperate teenage girl inside me feels seen #i don’t want a more mature and understanding version I want the version that feels like a heartbreaking and beautiful tantrum

[kazoologist]

One of the older women I sometimes sit with at the synagogue this morning apparently has ten relatives who are apparently missing. The rabbi said she thinks they might be hostages. Her mother died a month ago. The other woman I sit with always stands for the mourners Kaddish, and when I saw them last they were holding hands

#personal #i just. I don’t know how to hold the suffering of this community. In my brain. I want to convert. I feel safe and happy when I’m with them #But god if I don’t feel so young and useless talking with them these days. #I can’t even give them the understanding bc I’m a gentile. I don’t know the issues like they do. I can’t even say the prayers right #They like to tease me for mumbling my way through the hebrew prayers. It’s my Midwestern accent to them #delete later #dont rb. I just. Man. #I couldn’t stay for Torah service today. I was rattled by the prayer and I needed to do stuff today. #It feels so childish to wish for peace and it feels so hypocritical to want a world without violence when I’m such an angry person myself #But how am I supposed to feel when a woman who sent me home with a plate of brownies the night I met her bows her head in prayer for the sa #Safety of relatives in a war zone mere weeks after she finishes the mourning prayer for her mother who escaped the holocaust #I am twenty two and not even very good at it. #And every week I sit with a bunch of old women who have more scars than I’ll ever count. #I don’t know. I’m rambling because the fact that having ten relatives missing is just. Unfathomable to me. #When Ukraine got invaded we at least were able to account for my friends family with relatively less trouble. Not that it was better. I sti #Can’t read about Ukraine for more than three minutes #But I could keep the scale in check to stop the worst spirals #I want to be a pacifist. I want to make the world better. But I’m barely keeping myself from drowning just as it is.

[nightingalesighs]

What really pisses me off when people are like. No child should be friends with an adult; it’s (insert word/phrase that has been misused so much it’s kinda ceased to have meaning to me anymore) is… My older friends? Even though I’m 28 and yknow. An Adult. Have literally saved my life. Like not only do they have more knowledge about how things work (like Medicaid and food stamps and student loans and resumes and and and all the other shit nobody bothers to teach you and can be hella confusing/nearly inaccessible unless you Know but is hella important/can really fuck up your life if you’re not careful) and like…more experience so when they tell you “it’s gonna be hard, but you can handle it” or “I know it looks scary, but it’s not that bad and I promise you’ll get through it” or “it doesn’t matter if don’t graduate college, look at me. I didn’t. I’ve got a stable, well paying job. It’s not impossible to be comfortable without a college degree. And look at (other friend who is sitting right next to them), they worked their ass off for a double degree and currently not using it! You’ll be okay, you’ll figure it out.” your brain can actually believe them cuz yknow. They’ve been where you are. They have that life experience. And they’re not gonna lie to you because they love you and respect you too much to do that.

Like I don’t want to make it sound like friendship is a commodity, but older friends and intergenerational friendships can be so extremely valuable, especially to vulnerable younger people in abusive households. And I don’t even mean like in that they can offer you a place to crash cuz not every friend is gonna be able to do that and that’s OKAY. But maybe they can still help you in other ways. Even if it’s “just” holding your hand and validating your fears while you cry your eyes out but reassuring you that they believe in your ability to work through it. They believe in *you*. (And yes, I REALLY appreciate the same sentiment from friends my age and it’s also extremely helpful and I love them so very much. But it just sorta hits in a different way coming from an older friend. Not in a way that’s better or worse. Just different.)

Also something something seeing that you have a future when you can’t see past the next year or six months is just. So fucking reassuring.

Also. Older friends are just plain fun. I love my older friends and my life would be so much poorer without them. So yknow. Fuck people that condemn intergenerational friendships.

Also also something something something ‘fuck you for making me feel terrible/paranoid about wanting to offer my own experience to those younger than me. To help them in any way I can. As another fantastic and dearly beloved friend says. “If you start sounding like my mental illness, YOU are the problem and maybe need to re-evaluate some things.”’

#ignore me #im just all up in my feels about that time my friend twisted around from the passenger seat of the car to hold my hand and comfort me while #I was crying and terrified about the upcoming semester. that said it IS actually not good that you’re having panic attacks and chest pains #just thinking about going back. and was so kind and understanding and calm and she listened and held my hand. or the other friend who grew #up with little financial security. worked two jobs to pay her college tuition because her parents just didn’t have the means to help her. #and now she’s married to a surgeon and EXTREMELY financially secure and because of her own experience she is just soooo. im gonna pay for #your dinner because I can and it won’t affect me or stress me at all and I want you to save your money. and if you need money for some #reason just let me know and we’ll figure it out because I have the means to help in this way and I’m gonna do it dammit and if you need to #or the friend that sincerely told me to call her if I needed someone to talk to. even if it’s the ass crack of dawn or 3 in the morning. #or my friend (my Person) who when I asked if it was okay to tell my cousin her address while visiting her so my cousin could pick me for #dinner. said ‘of course you can. this is your home too’ (home as in your safe here and home as in you are loved here and home as in you will #always be welcome here.) #like…just. intergenerational friendships guys #they are literally lifesaving #don’t deny young people these friendships #but as someone who has also been the Older Friend #don’t make them feel bad for just loving and caring about another human being #that’s what we do. that’s what humanity is #i scream into the void #personal

[joshuaalbert]

I don’t think about actual show jack ever unless I’m forced to but beverly’s weird little adopted changeling kid jack…..he is in my brain a little bit I will not lie to you

#I don’t have a lot of clearly defined scenes bc it’s not something I’d ever write BUT #the one that exists to me is the one where he finds out about wesley when he’s still kinda young bc he finds a picture of them #and like he’s a kid he’s curious he wants to understand this relationship and wants to be close like they seem to be so he mimics wesley #and doesn’t understand why it’s making her so upset so once she kinda calms down a little she has to explain the whole thing #and that’s how he finds out about his brother (and maybe develops some issues later on about feeling like a replacement BUT. that’s later.) #relevant at this interval to remember I only watched this season bc I <3 crusher family drama #changeling!jack

[filmcel]

man

#it feels so good to actually have some friends #and friends that r 1. older and don’t treat me like a freak #ppl my age don’t know how to interact w me it feels like #ppl older don’t gaf about cringe #my friend tells me how she used to ship LARRY. #i understand her on a deep level #i feel cringe being like that . kinda having that sort of ‘i like boys more than girls’ moment #but w ppls ages #‘i like ppl older bc they’re more mature 🤓’ #not even that they just don’t gaf anymore #younger ppl i feel like i gotta impress them #older ppl don’t gaf so i don’t gaf #by older ppl i do mean 25 year olds sorry #i’m literally young neil #and they have a band #well it’s not a band if it’s two ppl is it #well they’re a duo or whatever idk #captain’s log #basically it’s great #and to have an lgbt friend irl #well neither of us have ever stated specifically but it’s like a mutual understanding #it’s cool i don’t need to explain myself #he was telling me how ppl from his part of mexico r stereotyped by having big eyes and being gay #and im like ‘wow u got what combo’ #cuz he does… #he’s so great im so happy #:3 #i love hanging out w him he’s just so cool. like . #he is too old to b treated how he’s treated by certain ppl but i’m helping him w that #and i get it bc . if i didn’t make any friends i’d end up like him anyway. i was on that track

[mabaris]

everyone who portrays bethany as a healer owes me $50 USD or a 3 page essay justifying that decision, because as it stands in the actual canon, she’s really not

(even if you do the DLC in act 3 and autolevel her to the level cap, she still doesn’t pick up a single healing spell—iirc her skill trees are elemental/spirit/force. she also tanks up and has a surprising amount of health for a mage. she’s a fighter)

#bethany hawke #just getting All these thoughts off my chest #cause this is another big issue i have with her fanon characterization #i can understand maybe giving her a few healing spells for gameplay purposes #but i feel like people turn her into wynne 2.0 #also i feel like i have Definitely complained about this before on this blog but i don’t remember if it was a real post or just tagranting #i don’t want to believe the worst but it really grinds my gears that so many people see ‘nice young woman’ #and go ‘oh so she’s the motherly nurturing one i get it’ #no!!!! you don’t get it #i am biting you biting you biting you #mine #bethany

[balerionthedead]

*holds up Pythor and Aspheera*

These babies can hold so much trauma; they deserve redemption.

These babies can hold so much thirst for revenge that it ultimately leads to their own downfall.

Haha, maybe it’s not such a good idea to lock guys in tombs for a significant portion of their lives. It could never have consequences in the future. Hahaha. Ha. I’m not looking at anyone in particular. I’m not pointing fingers at a certain pair of brothers. No. Never.

#people talk about how the serpentine were wrong to do what they did #and yeah perhaps not the greatest of plans to release the world ending snake #but desperation makes any plan seem good #they were trapped for 40 (?) years? #been a second since I’ve brushed up on life but I think it was 40 #*lore #that’s enough time for the older part of serpentine population to die #under the ground. without sun. #and then the young ones to grow to adulthood. #under the ground. without sun.. #understandably they’re pissed off and want vengeance #and then there’s aspheera. #she was imprisoned when wu & garm were young #and they’re canonically at least a thousand years right? #so she was trapped for quite a long time. #stewing in a desire for revenge and shame (from getting bested by children) #yeah no all the serpentine are full of trauma me thinks #when are we getting a redemption arc tommy #and I don’t mean they help the ninja for 2 episodes before stabbing them in the back #I mean good and proper redemption arc #stop falling back on snakes & serpents as the villains you cowards. #ninjago #asks #tsarbomba567 #sorry for the rant #been a sec since I talked about serpentine #apparently I have pent up thoughts