#I hate this so much why am I so STUPID

[toytulini]

listen im ace and im pro kink at pride and whatever, but the way some of yall are wording your posts in response to the backlash against it is uh. really taking me back to the ace shitcourse era.

yall know theres nothing wrong with being a "virgin", right? that its not inherently shameful to have not had sex, to never have sex, even if youre not ace, even if you do want to have sex someday, like, its fine that you haven't had sex?

maybe if your problem is that theyre trying to police your behavior and shame you for expressing your sexuality, you can say that? instead of resorting to "haha stupid virgin gets no bitches" like my god. do you not hear how fucking regressive that attitude is? i know, i know, youre "joking".

get a better joke

#toy txt post #god im going to regret this post im gonna regret it so much i can feel it in my bones #let it flop..........pls #internalize my message let it sink in and understand what i am saying and then let the post flop #i say. knowing the ppl who need to see such a message are the ones who will make me regret this post and regrwt not having #1 million bajillion disclaimers #virgin is in quotes bc its a bullshit made up stupid purity culture concept anyway and quite frankly i hate even seeing the word #disclaimer: the previous sentence is not me saying that it is a slur for asexuals. it is me a single individual saying this specific word #grosses me out to read and see everywhere when its a stupid bullshit binary made up or at least historically largely used #to shame largely women and i dont know why we're still using it in 2023 #and ive just been. seeing such an uptick in this whole like. attitude? lately and like #im ace im minorly sex repulsed. mostly about anything sex at me bad. other adults sex at each other consensually? go wild #i like to think im pretty chill about it. i try to be. i think its fine ig to be like 'my meat is huge i fuck so much so good' #like okay not my thing but good for you. love that for you #but then some of yall have started turning it back around back to. 'haha your meat so small and shriveled you get no bitches' #'haha stupid incel virgin' like okay. didnt realize we all went back to fucking. middle school but okay #god im gonna run out of tine to get ready for my thing writing this stupid post UGH evil #but like idk we've kinda circled back to being like haha being a virgin still is stupid and silly and shameful #and if im quite honest. i do think the acecourse played a part in that bc i felt like we were making good progress in like #hey guys is fine to not have sex ever if you dont want to its fine to not want sex its fine #and then aphobes went fucking rabid on us and splintered and destroyed online communities all over but especially on tumblr #and so many aces went back in the closet we stopped talking about it we stopped spreading awareness and now this stupid goddamn like #and now this stupid bullshit attitude is back where its like funny to call someone a virgin as an insult but like no bro trust me its okay #its okay for me to do it bc im a hot queer person with huge meat instead of a cisstraight frat bro with huge meat #? like you know the issue was the behavior right? not the fact that it was straight dudes saying it? its bc the thing being said was shitty? #you know you can dunk on the puritan bitches trying to police your behavior at pride without getting us as collateral damage right #stop making me read that stupid ugly ass word ur not cool or funny #whatever #if you come on to this post to start shit i will not only block you but as many of your mutuals and followers as i can find. i will scroll #i will block this entire fucking website if i need to do not test me. i am exhausted and the acecourse ate up all my tolerance in 2015.

[bluebobatea]

if sasuke was the main character then he probably would've been a LOT more sympathised with than he is now (which is to say rarely). like the narrative wouldn't even need to change to show his pains or 'his side of the story', bc it does that plenty. it's just that he is not the main character. and idk what it is about our human minds but we tend to sympathise with main characters automatically (unless ofc you go off the rockers insane and do something like obliterate almost everyone from the planet *cough* eren yeager *cough*)

an instance that comes to my mind where this does happen is with lelouch from code geass. while i don't agree with his character motivations, people generally do sympathise with him as he is the mc and as viewers we know he isn't inherently evil. sasuke's goal towards the end is slightly similar but ofc people love to hate him so they don't even try to understand where he is coming from.

my point is, most people while engaging with the naruto story don't read between the lines and so don't see how traumatised and in pain sasuke is and hence don't understand his character motivations. heck, they don't understand a single bit about him and so they automatically hate him, as he is supposedly going against the main character's goals.

which is really sad given all that he has been through.

#there are bajillion other reasons people hate him for #honestly i have lost track of the stupid reasons i have seen people give for hating him #and sometimes they just do without any reason *not even exaggerating* unfortunately #im like yeah go on hate him. you guys obv don't have enough brain cells to comprehend his character #they never understood him. and it's not like any kind of reasoning is gonna make them change their minds #and it's not like one needs to do a deep character analysis to understand him. it's literally right there. #all you have to do is stop worshipping konoha and its militaristic policies and the people who enact said policies. #and also the people who enforce those policies while subtly hating them but can't do anything bc it's dictatorship :) #but maybe that's too much to ask of them bc that would mean they would need to question their political views #and we can't have that right bc it's all just fiction in the end right? and fiction exists in a void :) (yes I'm being sarcastic jc) #like the amt of times i have heard people say “you don't need to take this so seriously it's just fiction” #umm you do know that fiction is inspired by real life events right??? #tldr: most people throw away their brains while engaging with nart media and have zero reading comprehension skills #this turned into yet another rant T T why am i like this AAAAAAAAAAA #sasuke #uchiha sasuke #sasuke uchiha #pro sasuke #pro uchiha #anti konoha

[figofswords]

the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something

#WHAT AM I DOING!!!! #i get up i go to my stupid retail job i stick labels on bags they pay me fucking thirteen bucks an hour i come home i lie on the couch #too tired to draw in too much pain to go anywhere no energy to reach out to college friends to do anything fun #no idea where the even start with getting an industry job no clue what i even WANT at this point #trying to remember what i loved so much about comics i want it BACK i HATE this #WHAT IS THE POINT!!!! WHAT DO I WANT WHERE AM I GOING!!! WHAT COMES NEXT!!!!!! #there's no clear career trajectory i can't do freelance i need structure i can't work too much i need free time #my brain doesn't work every job requires me to move across the country the irs just took fucking three hundred stupid dollars from me #my friends live in different states i can't get a job without experience i can't get experience without a job #i can't work on my portfolio with no energy and no time and i dont have any money and everything is so expensive all the time #i can't get anywhere bc i dont drive and im too stressed to think about taking driving lessons again #and WHAT DO I WANT! #THE MOST INTERESTING THING I DO EVERY WEEK IS GO TO PHYSICAL THERAPY! #I AM EXCITED EVERY WEEK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!! WHY!!!!!!!! #anyway WHATEVER i need to go to bed #delete later #i got into spx. today. so. had to have a crisis about how i felt when i attended spx (energized. excited. a part of something. ambitious) #versus how i feel now (tired. unmotivated. kind of apathetic about art. disconnected) #i dont miss the stress of school but i miss being around other artists. ppl who speak your language and who want the same things you want #ppl who are excited abut art and that makes YOU excited about art. ppl who get you #i miss that i want that back #whatever. its 1am i gotta go shower i have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow. wahoo. $13.50/hr lets go

[blooming-cecilia]

sweetest dreams | venti x reader

venti wakes up in the middle of the night. he's still half awake, very much sleepy, and he doesn't know what woke him up. but as always, the first thing he does when he opens his eyes is to look at his windblume—only to find them already looking at him.

"huh...? windblume...? it's still dark out, why are you awake?"

they don't respond. in fact, it doesn't seem like they've heard him at all. they look dazed, in a trance, just looking at him. it's kind of creepy actually...but i'm not one to talk when i like to watch them sleep.

worried, venti lifts his upper body up to get a better look at them, squinting in the dark and gently placing a hand on their arm.

"my love? what's wrong, you okay...?nightmare...?"

they still don't use their words, but they do shake their head and scoot closer to him for a cuddle. his body moves to hold them close. their head on his chest, arms wrapping around them, his hands gently caressing their hair then leaning down for a kiss on the forehead as he always does.

he's still confused on what's gotten into his beloved at this hour, but it's nothing unusual. they're not a very talkative person, especially when they're all curled up in bed, so he does not push, and instead just lets himself relax at the warmth from their hug and their soft gentle breathing.

he's close to falling back to sleep when he feels them shift to look up at him again. curious, he looks back down and almost coos at the sight: his windblume is sleepy—droopy eyes peering up at him, the same fond look in their eyes that makes his heart flutter and their hand holding him by his waist, gently pulling him even closer to them.

"'love you..."

barely a whisper, but he hears it loud and clear. he hopes you too, hear his heart start to race as your words sink into him, his own fond look appearing on his face, and he quietly giggles, pulling you close and kissing your forehead again.

"oh windblume... is that it? is that what kept you awake? heh, so silly...but i love you too."

his hands go back to carding your hair, and you shift again to get comfy—finally resting now that your little mission is complete.

"go to sleep now, dearest. i'll make you breakfast when the sun rises in the morning. sweet dreams."

#tulip writes #venti #venti x reader #venti imagines #venti the bard #genshin impact venti #i shit u not its 4 fucking am and i just. got so overwhelmed by how much i love this stupid green bard #that i had to write about it in half an hour to get any fucking peace #im so tired you guys #how and why is he able to do this to me #making me so damn emotional at ass o clock because of a fanart w a soft fond look on his face #THATS IT AND IM GONE #i truly hate it here #shit title but whatveerr i hate naming things and i really should be sleeping #goodnight venti likers #squeeze the life out of him for me thanks 🫶

[sleep-nurse]

sopping wet cat hima nation

AND WHY SHE FOREHEAD ❗❗❗❗❗❗❓❓❓❗❗❓❓❗❗

#asks #miu himawari #sleepy nurse #art for me #i am This close to throwing her in a wall #T(£(TT£()()£T()£()U£TU()T£U()O£U()u89oy595uy8uy89058e5uy78u975897u557 #WHY DOES SHE LOOK SO FUCKING STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i hate her so much #ydh5rturue6ue56 #ue #6 #r #i6eu #i want to punt her in a wall #like ONGOD #RIGHT NOW #SHE LOOKS LIKE A STUPID WET CAT

[liverpool-enjoyer]

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#for the first time im genuinely considering changing my major #n by considering i mean 'rlly want to but know deep down i cant' #cause like... i have NO IDEA what else i would do #like not a damn clue #so its either my current career path (which i have reason to believe im genuinely not cut out for) or... idk nothing??? #well i'd hafta do something #but idk what #its jus that after a LOT of thought ive come to the conclusion that me being a nurse will do so much more harm than good for other ppl #i made the most careless mistake last week that cost me a rlly valuable clinical experience at a SUPER reputable hospital #im the only one in my class who made that mistake #the only one stupid enough #like... gosh what am i DOING here? #im literally the least qualified person to be a nurse #im cold #im standoffish #i HATE being around people #when i told my friends n family i was going to nursing school they were shocked n WHY SHOULDNT THEY HAVE BEEN? #when you think of a nurse you think a someone whos kind. whos reliable. whos hardworking... im not any a those things #n its not even me being self depracating its an honest to gosh fact #oh also my grades fuckin suck lmao #like i literally know for a fact i got lower grades than every single other nursing major last semester #plus i was never going into nursing to help ppl #i went into it so i could sleep at night knowing ive done a 'good thing' #so yeah #ive put myself on a career path im not in any way cut out for #n i cant quit cause i have literally no plan b!!! #yay #idk what i was made for but its not this

[victimized-martyr]

stole this from basu on twt bc 🙌🏼 preaaachh

#kyman #south park #i also am in love with the absolute denial he was in during PC #craziest shit I’ve ever seen #Kyle deadass saw eric’s wedding ring. and wife. and KIDS #and was like ‘no. 🧍‍♂️ fake news’ #kyle heard cartman havin sex?? he doesn’t tell them to stop bc it’s rude. he tells eric’s wife ‘hey ur husband gave me aids’ and DOESNT #CLARIFY SHIT and bro doesn’t realize the fucking implications #Kyle getting worked up over heiman NOT for her sake. but eric’s #’in a way wE’rE aLl gOiNg oUt wiTh cArTmAn’ what the FUCK does that mean kyle #kyle’s stupid little ‘Hey heidi so I know you and cartman have an anniversary comin up’ (I. no words.) c #‘some of us don’t think cartman’s qualified to be with you. what do you find in him that’s remotely REDEEMING’ #motherfucker didn’t even ask why she liked him. asks what’s ‘redeeming ‘ abt him. kyle I know wanting to redeem cartman is Your Thing but #jesus dude let heidi speak for herself #don’t get me started when the girls were like ‘do u like heidi?’ and kyle had a mental breakdown (he’s always known when he Likes a Girl. #wtf why was he so torn up abt it.) #also Kyle ‘I hate Cartman let’s exclude him from building boats’ Brofloski goin ‘awww cartman i’m sorry’ as soon as #Cartman gets emo abt the ‘surgery’ and is the first to include him in boat building #AND THEN proceeds to be on top of eric abt the quality of boats?? when no one else cares? not even BUTTERS? y does he care so much?? #weirdo. fuckin weirdo fr

[itspileofgoodthings]

Porfiry telling Raskolnikov that at least he was honest and in one bound took the furthest leap to put his theory to the test of actual action——

#Taylor believing a man who is obviously lying to her #like. it’s fascinating to me how they’ll say anything to her and she’ll be like ‘okay let’s go’ #she’s never read Jane Austen and it shows. but that’s okay because she’s the character in an Austen novel #she has no sense of self-preservation she has no common sense when it comes to love #and the reason I have endless patience for that is because she IS different. she is extraordinary. she is WEIRD. she’s so needy #so angry so fragile so stupid so brilliant so completely helpless #like the bolter———I can’t even LOOK at it right now #because you know she was like this since she was 5 and SHE knows it #just so. Different. so strange. I mean she ruled her family with an iron fist from the age of 11 #and her packaging is so basic and she she had so much access to everything anyone could want #so there are none of the usual marks of someone being so Different #but like. people HATED her from day one. you know her own strength of personality was drawing out many people’s hatred or envy #and she’s so helpless in her own personality because she can never change #like thank you aimee? or whatever? heck yeah there was some girl who bullied her and brutalized her on the playground #and you know it devastated Taylor from day one and still does #and it’s just. I don’t know how people can’t see that someone with that extraordinary set of gifts #wouldn’t also suffer in such an extraordinary way #and ways that elicit so much scorn and non-sympathy because people are unsettled and jealous and annoyed by her #because she WILL find a way to win #but isn’t that proof enough that she is the very OPPOSITE OF NORMAL #it’s why people have to be like ‘oh she sold her soul to the devil for this success.’ or whatever the psy-op spy thing is #because there’s no human way to explain her success if she really were as basic/talentless as people say #ugh this is all so incoherent and irritating and I’m so sorry but I just. I cannot explain how protective my heart is of her #and all the many many mistakes she’s made and the prisons she’s made for herself because she’s LIVING the tragedy #of never having denied herself one time/getting everything she wants #and discovering the poison at the bottom of everything she reached for with desperate hands #like. I love her so much and I am so protective of her because she is so helpless and she is getting shot in the face every time #and she feels every blow! #whew I need to turn off reblogs and will probably delete but I just #this album is all of her spilled out and people DO hate to see it because a lot of people hate her!!!!

[oifaaa]

not to sound elitist but like when people talk about pit madness like it’s canon i always question whether they actually like jason or if they just want a “bad boy”

I think they like Jason they just want a more palatable clear cut good version of him - saying he was possessed by the lazarus pit provides a easy out even tho it makes no sense and quite frankly takes alot away from Jason's character imo - all of Jason's actions are his own there's no mythical goop whispering at him to do fucked up things - I especially hate it when people use it as a Jason wouldn't actually hurt tim if he was in his right mind like I think the titans tower fight is stupid and don't acknowledge it but I still don't deny that Jason would still not hesitate to hurt tim bc hes willing to hurt people around Bruce to mess with him and that's fucked up but its just how Jason is - alot of people use it though bc it is just easy it's easier then actually writing a Jason who's unhinged and genuinely wants to harm certain bats it's easier to sympathise with and its a easier way to end a story with everyone now a happy family

#ask #anon #and i hate it so much #also was that elitist #omg am i elitist #damn #tbf i think its fine as long as im only saying this stuff on my blog #lol #any way yeah #pit madness is stupid #its one of those fanon things i cant stand #ive mentioned it many times before #but i just #its so dumb #why do people like writing away the interesting parts of a character #like people who use it to undermine everything that happened in utrh #get outta here #jason came back wrong #thats like 90% of who he is #stop trying to take that away from him

[lesvegas]

it should not be this hard to open a can of ham when the stupid little chastity key snaps n breaks the cuck ribbon or whatever the fuck its called

#why dont all cans just have easy open lids already why do i gotta live like a stupid 50s bitch just cause i wanna eat canned ham #fuck you mario fuck you hormel i hate you ALL so fucking much #how the fuck am i supposed to get this shit open without getting ham juice all over my bandage n shit

[soldier-poet-king]

why did i decide my next crafting project was gonna be a kit for klimt's the kiss. why did i do this to myself. bitch u are PINING.

#WAHHHHHH #the duality of fran #literally ignore me #but idk man the past few weeks have just been. PINING. PINING. PINING. #WE HATE IT HERE. I HATE HOW MUCH I LOVE AND CRAVE ROMANCE. FUCK THIS #I LOVE LOVE AND IM MAD ABOUT IT #anyway cant finish the other piece until it dries. i had to rinse out all the water soluble marker bc i FUCKED UP the lettering #and cant try again til it dries. might go get a fine tip fabric marker and try with that instead #either way. current project is the kiss and im like. why the fuck did i buy this kit. why did i do this to myself #AND im playing a text based otome on steam??? ARE U FR GIRL???? ARE U STUPID?? (YES. YES I AM) #literally also play pathologic which is the LEAST romantic game of all time. its a horrible metanarrative tragedy #and YET. me and percy are both like. daniil??? daniil i love u????? sad russian man i love uuuuuu #anyway. brain is bad. i need to be buff and hot and just like. idk. loved. loved. loved. #love romance and im mad about it so im gonna go be emo abt thara celehar instead. #like. if im having a bad time u know who is also always having a bad time and usually in the exact same way as me??? #thara. it's always thara. we have the same problems ok. anyway. there's also...no. i shant say it. but iykyk.

[chatblancofficial]

Tfw you invite someone to the friend group and their immediately better than you at everything and they're mildly condescending and kinda bulldoze you but you're too shy and wanna get along with them so you just leave and say you have a stomach ache instead of telling the truth 😅

#ooc #im very competitive but i also suck at everything so i get upset easily #:) #i feel stupid rn #like its just a game but why am i so upset over it #im a sore loser and i hate it #haha #hahahaha #haaaaha #wanna cry #it's stupid but i do #idk #i cant be held accountable for anything i post after 10:30pm #because when i stay up too late i get sad easily #idkk #felt sad might delete later #im typing so much #i should stop #vent #tw vent #ugh its literally a game i made up and i suck #uuughhh #sorry

[m0e-ru]

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to the day my brain was literally rewired and my gender was being changed by the second SO HERES A GAS STATION SPECIAL before this joint was even a gas station in the FIRST PLACE !!!!

FUCKING FREAK

#kommento #// theres a whole love letter in here dont open these tags it's a readmore equivalent #p4 #⛽️🌫 #moel gas station attendant #tohru adachi #boot.tingting #arttag #// sneak peak before the manager became a manager and only put the uniform on to see how well it would fit and hasnt taken it off since. #// im tearing up because i hate how it's been three years and also i cant find the other notebook so i went through gphotos instead #// also that i miss blorbo so much i miss my old self so much she was so sweet and genuine and the passion and love and everything #// STUPID SEQUENCE OF PHOTOS the way my brain was so fucking rearranged i had to get up and make memes and take screenshots and then #// draw then COME BACK AGAIN to watch the thing that changed my life forever. AGAIN #// sorry was having technical difficluties in yokohama im back istok im normal (affirmation ) #// this is literally all me before i started thinking about myself and wondering about my gender then the dysphoria came rushing in like #// some freshwater spring about to make a waterfall and i had to let it settle and get used to the ecosystem with two more years #// took a month where p4gsteam was booted up and i made my own save at some point and finished it on july 8 #// clasped my hands and had a honeymoon period over. mimi <3 then the day after rolled around and i watched the .chair car adventure #// literally my first p4 doodles were mimi and adachi theres no fucking denying it theyre the og. theyve been with me from the start #// theyre so important to me theyre so personal they made me who i am thats why im so mad with the community i have to share them with #// because theyre all so different from me and i took that personally #// IT'S KOKAY !! look at how far ive gone. this is the biggest archival effort ive ever done my entire life ive grown branches #// farther than ive done before ive put such a variety of skills to use just to make myself food and manage this damn station #// and keep some sort of love alive which was all from me and is still from ME !!! #// crying while writing these tags now sorry okyakusan i'll clean it up soon #// these doodles really explaining my mindset from the start and how the grindset has never really changed at all #// it was all friendship for three years and still will be i love adachi i love gas station attendant so much THERE I'M SAYING IT #// cherry on top friend just dm'd me to get an actual job at a gas station IM SHITTING MYSELF #// happy anniversary to my genderest best friend and the most problematic uncle ive ever had #// we're all holding hands and theyre treating me to topsicles because it's all i could ever shamelessly want

[lith-myathar]

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#really really hate how thoughtless and oblivious i can be to my own bad behavior #ill know something is important or that a shouldn't do a particular thing #but over time and assumptions and small acts of carelessnes shit just....fades and accumulates and one day #i look up and ive done something very stupid and hurt someone else #and i didn't feel it happening #my mind will take things and hide them from me is what it feels like. ill know they're there but it fades into the background noise #i am hard on the things in my life including people and relationships. and i am always so vulnerable to my own fuckin lmfao inattentivenes #this is why i struggle so much with the idea of ever having an intimate partner or children. it doesn't matter how much i care. #eventually and inevitably i do damage. #and i know consciously that people make mistakes and all you can do is try to course correct and make it right. but it's better #not to hurt anyone in the first place and i really don't know if i will ever be capable of that. #trying to convince myself this kind of shit is growing pains but man. man. i can't stop being what i am and it really #really feels sometimes like i am just destined to break and neglect #but then that ''im broken'' thing feels like trying to dodge around taking responsibility and improving. and i should be better than that. #but god how tf are you supposed to stop dissociating from the reality of what you're doing when you're. dissociated. #all i can ever think to do is isolate #*sigh* guys i think i might need to graduate to therapy with a trauma specialist #or adjust my medication. god. im so tired. #why is it so gd hard to be a normal decent person. it doesn't seem hard but then

[stupidscav]

im actually just done at this point if I break down crying at school today we all know who's fault that is

mine AND my math teacher's

#WHY DO I DO THIS #jesus fucking christ #i complain so much but i dont do shit i hate myself #its not like i can switch classes just before the test #if she ever fucking talks to me i want to punch her so bad i swear to god she makes me feel stupid #and i guess i am because i just cant fucking do this im done #im probably being overdramatic and ill hate myself later but #im going to fucking die before i finish schooling (im almost serious) #i guess thats what they mean by gifted kid burnout #i lost my fucking ref marker so i cant just. draw on myself #im not gonna keep talking actually. #scav feels shitty #vent #implied self harm #implied suicide #im sure ill ve fine i guess #but just in case. ill tag those

[placesyoucallhome]

If i didn't have a hell of a headache i'd be drinking this day off tbh

#half tempted to go find an in game bar and just drink the rum i have at home anyways #I started this morning with someone at work yelling at me- #'why the fuck are you making that face stop making that stupid face everyones talking about how much they hate it' #like ma'am i am literally just standing here waiting to clock in because you won't let me #because you are too busy yelling at your mother because you fucked up the drawer #(after accusing me of being the reason 40$ was missing. it was you chucklefuck.) #so great i was both hyperaware of what my expression was while also not having any gd idea what she was talking about