#I’M NOT DAYDREAMING OK?

[akeminy]

Yes, these are photos I took of my boyfriend during the holidays😌

#HE IS MINE #ABSOLUTEY MINE OMFGGGGGG #I’M NOT DAYDREAMING OK? #mingyu #svt #seventeen #kim mingyu

[s0ap-bubbles]

Shout out to mappa for giving one LESS reason to live by cancelling my gay ice skating movie

#i’m in mourning #I’ve only been waiting 4 years I can’t image how you og fans are taking this #12 year old me just burst into tears and fell to their knees #mappa count your days #corny asf but this show genuinely changed my life #I feel like this cancelation signifies me growing into adulthood #ok enough of that I’m gonna go daydream about the universe where this movie came out #yuri on ice #yoi #yuri katsuki #yuuri katsuki #viktor nikiforov #victor nikiforov #mappa #fuck mappa #I’m so sad rn you have no idea #this is basically a vent post at this point #OVER FUCKING ICE SKATERS

[cattyteeth]

I see a man in lipstick and must avert my gaze lest it become gender envious…

#heart #specifically talking about heart here #he’s so fnfbdjfbdbdbdbdbdb #I want to be a vague conceptual #angelic being without eyes represented by purple #long sigh #time to delusionally daydream abt this #HES SO GENDER FJBFBDBDBDSN #FJDHHDDKDHD #FOAMS ATMOUTH #ARKARKBARK #FHDHHDDNDNGRRR #calm DOWN ok I’m good #…or am I? #chonnyjash #chonny jash #cj heart #cj #cattyrambles

[toothful]

Taking a moment to be grateful that the primary HTTYD trilogy is over.

#how to train your dragon #I’m a HTTYD3 apologist and ignore the shows lol #but Kung Fu Panda 4 looks like ice age and sounds like illumination #and well #megamind #as much as I like to daydream about a valka prequel with puss in boots 2 level effort etc #I think the GOOD AND RELEVANT THEME from httyd3 plays here well #things end and that’s ok

[fantomette22]

Also kind of funny how people say i’m quite discreet and don’t talk a lot when i’m afraid i talk too much (maybe too loud or too fast) and afraid i ended up annoyed them. (Can smn explain pls xD)

anyway it’s late i apologize if it doesn’t make so much sense it is late)

#i mean i know teachers have been tellign for years i don’t participate enough in class. sorry i just have nothing to say or don’t want too #also my pseudo/ nickname is literally fantomette aka ghost/ fantôme (feminine nickname) because i’m silencious #and people don’t know where i am (in my own house!) and now apparently i spawn next to people xD #yeah had a nice evening where i talked more with nice acquaintances at schools! and yeah i wonder… #is it a neurodivergent moment 😅 #when i’m passion about smt i talk. A LOT. maybe too much. i always reflect how i say dumb things or perhaps ´cut’ too much people #and that i should just shut it and listen #cut = too much intervention/ adding stuff? #so yeah nice suprised i supposed. but yeah if i don’t directly talk to smn or have nothing to say well i listen/ go on my phone/ daydream #i already talk to myself a lot. not ok to do that in public lol #so yeah interesting 🤔 if smn know smt about well that subject could be cool #didn’t have anyone really close so i hang myself to group. but that’s cool re having friends time like earlier today with other cool people #autism adhd ? infj or just well me being me who knows i still don’t know

[valoale]

@kk1smet you know what I’m thinking about every single day when I pass this stop

#I’m living in my daydreams #that include kismet’s au #and the daydream grasps reality twice a day in the train #Draco has been wearing Finnair’s attire a lot lately #slay #ok excuse me being weird #I’ll see myself out #🫡 #vee talks

[theloveinc]

It’s so funny how rereading one single ya dystopian series has made all my daydreams go from something mundane and beautiful to like… “me and Bakugo are surviving a war against reproductive rights🙂” and I’m genuinely having a good time

#I am twelves years old #and lowkey it’s berry nice #altho it’s nice I keep craving to read fanfics abt the ships in these totally irrelevant books #like written on par with what y’all write #I’m going insane I had a daydream ant not only going to hs with Bakugo but having a teenage pregnancy😭😭😭😭 #lowkey one of my fave days dreams I’m still obsessed with is from … ok you know what I will stop there LMFAO #but zamn. #I dont wanna say the reason I haven’t been active on here much is bc I’m reading books #bc I’m totally having a weird decline rn #but also like. I do think my need for creative outlets is being fed by FUCKKNG YA NOVELS #but hey they taught me how to do tf what I DO! #so there’s that #and I’ve basically spent the last week on the bathtub reading books instead of being on the phone #probs like … 3 hrs of my day is bath LMFAO #coping like this is amazing #oh well going back to my apartment tomorrow where the bath ain’t sh*t so that will fix that #love u all dearly miss u all dearly #hope you’re all well🩷 #caitie blabs

[bo0zey]

Did I miss "back from the war" recreation or is that not happening

OK so i've been meaning to address this for a while because it’s actually something i've been genuinely annoyed/sad/upset about; my original plan to recreate the post was to go to riot fest & have someone take pics of me during MCR live in person (caption wouldve been something like ‘when will mcr--omg they;re Back from the Warfdskns’ lol idk). i ended up 2nd row from the barrier & i was like OMG bc i didn’t expect to get so close & i was like ‘WOW these r gonna b such GR8 PICTURES!!i;m so lucky!!this is gENIUS!’ & so my plan was literally going according to/even better than planned right?? i mean the fact that i was ~a few feet away from the stage n was ~1.5hrs away from seeing mcr LIVE??? my plan was going along SUSPICIOUSLY well..everything was falling into place TOO perfectly...it was almost to good to be true right??? IT WAS. everything went to shit & my plan fell thru during the last band before MCR when my body suddenly fell victim to the effects of being crowd crushed for >7 hours straight; i experienced syncope & was pulled over the barrier & out of the pit by security.

sooooo, you didn’t ‘miss’ anything; the post was supposed to be recreated at the concert, but the universe pulled an uno-reverse on me when it remembered i’m on the universal ‘Do Not Ever Allow to Be Truly Happy’ list lol. i meant to post an update abt my failed plan afterwards, but tbh the actual event in itself made me wanna fr kms, and i felt even guiltier/worse for being unable to fulfill my promise to u all bc i fr planned on recreating it at the concert. 'ok but u were still at the concert after u got pulled out’ ok physically yes but mentally N-Ooo. due to the hypoxia (lack of blood blow/oxygen to the brain) i’d obtained secondary to being crowd crushed PLUS the psychological trauma of being removed against my living breathing dying will from the pit (btw the psychological trauma has nothing to do with being crowd-crushed but im not gonna get into that turmoil rn lol), i was stuck in an altered mental state for the remainder of the concert. i was dissociated for mcr’s entire set until i woke up the next morning & it took ~3-4 days for my body to fully recover from the physical trauma of being crowd crushed.

i still plan on recreating the post eventually, but tbh it’s not rlly my top priority atm bc 1) i still can’t come to terms w/ the fact i lost my 1 n only chance to experience MCR live & 2) imo seeing MCR live was the perfect opportunity to recreate the post & that clearly didn’t work out for me sooo now i have no idea how else i can top that idea :( .

#i have an idea but i’m not sure if it’ll work...imma need mcr 2 pull thru n meet me halfway on this 1 lol #anywyas i h8 talking abt riot fest i feel like every1 h8s me whining abt it too lol #i was so angry and upset with the world and myself. i really tried so hard to stay conscious; #ppl were asking if i was ok & i kept nodding yes because i didn’t want to be pulled out of the pit bc #then i’d lose my spot + my ONLY chance to see MCR live & so up close. #next thing i know i’m being pulled over the barrier by security and WHOOSH into dissociationville i go. #they were too much for my brain to handle so i’d just fall back even more into that weird dissociated state #i honestly would have preferred to not have even attended the concert. like HONESTLY 100% deadass i wish i didnt even go. #like imagine urself in my shoes lol i went from being 2nd row from the stage to like 70000 rows away. #yall dont understand how awful it is to have such a golden opportuntiy to be 1 hr n a few feet away from the band who saved u #to having it all ripped away from u in literally a matter of seconds #if i’d just stayed home my 12y/o little wouldn’t have had to experience the psychological trauma of having everything to having nothing. #my 15/16 year old teen wouldnt have had to re-live the experience of realizing there’s nothing left #in this world to comfort/protect/save her OR her childself #22 year old me realizing i failed them and all the other parts of me. i cant be happy i cant have shit in this world #i couldnt have my mom but at least i had mcr right??? nope lol that got ripped out of my fingertips too #i cant even begin to describe the emotional damage/psychological blow the situation had on me bc like #i cant even put it into words and i know nobody will truly understand/believe me when i say how heartbreaking & detrimental this #situation was for my already fucked up psyche. or they’ll think im exaggerating but its like u dont get it #ive lost so many things and people i spent my entire childhood/adolescence maladaptive daydreaming. #at age 12 mcr became my escapism for ~4yrs straight bc they were the only thing that made me happy #while all the other ppl in the real world in my day to day life were making me wanna kms everyday #like ik it sounds extreme/dramatic but ??? i mean i dont even fully understand my reaction tbh. #i think its just mcr used to be my happy place n then i get to see them live and its just an absolute nightmare #and the fact that i was dissociated from their concert when they used to be the only thing to keep me grounded to this earth??? #truly i wish i didnt even go like i cant even listen to their music anymore without wanting to crawl out of my skin #when the only thing that made u feel alive made u feel deader than ever inside....yeahhhhh not fun!! #its a heartsinking feeling i hate it so much i wish i had a doever #mcr #when will mcr return from the war

[slutswarm]

once again fantasizing about starting to cry around a trusted friend, and them simultaneously wanting to comfort me and getting turned on by me crying. so they pull me into their lap and pet my hair and let me bury my face against their neck, and they can feel my tears spilling onto them; they continue petting my head with one hand and use the other to rub my back. but the affection is getting to me, combined with the feeling of crying, and eventually both of us are reaching under clothes to grab at each other. i start kissing and sucking at their neck, still teary but calming down a little, and they react by digging their nails into my back. the pain and pleasure of it plus my already sensitive state means that i’m brought back to crying the way i was at the beginning, and at that point they decide to just pin me down and fuck me until i’m all cried out, pressing their body close on mine and murmuring little praises and comforts. by then i’m crying more out of pleasure than anything else, so they just keep overwhelming me on their cock until we’re finished, then they cuddle me close and wipe my tears away and help me sip on some water to rehydrate after such a good long cry

#ok to rb #dacryphilia #crying kink #nsft #girlllllll. i’m coping #daydreaming about this kind of scenario is so comforting #just need some time to be soft and vulnerable ok #also feel free to read trusted friend as partner if that’s your jam idfc #-vl

[roseytoesy]

*hugs* Here's a big hug to help you get through the day, I hope things get better soon! 🥺💕

I'm rooting for you and care about you,

- a dear mutual

#You guys are too sweet #but I’m really greatful for this #thank you #it means a lot #just Wednesdays are always hard for me this semester #and doing so much today with little to no sleep and no food is #a horrible feeling and idea #thank you agian #shut up rose #just some irl struggles #I’ll be ok #just glad you guys care about me #I love you all #I just hope that he rest of today isn’t too bad #roses ramblings #asks #anonymous #anon ask #I’m just surviving off of soft thoughts and daydreams until I can get home

[stevebabey]

and what if i said i wanna talk bout stib ☝️ what then

#steeb…. #stebe…. #i’m thinkin of him #if u have thoughts i wanna hear em! #what do u think he does on saturday nights <3 #date night duh #but every other saturday if he doesn’t take u out #or better YET what is. ur guilty pleasure steve daydream #i’ll go first #he likes my accent HEHE #even tho it’s a heinous accent #ok now u 👁👁 #ruby.txt

[mrs-kelly]

Feels like I’m not gonna stop gushing about him until I go to sleep. I mean I told you I missed him all day and I’m not kidding shfjfl

#how do I put what I’m feeling into words. #it’s so much more than just feeling like he undersstands me #I have a real passion for him. I’ve never felt this way before #I’ve felt pretty strongly about other f/o’s and a lot of them are so close to my heart #but something about Charlie is just like. so natural. like it’s always been this way. like loving him is like breathing #like I could spend all day talking about him and watching him and daydreaming about him and it still wouldn’t be enough #every dream ive ever had about him has been focused around the way he looks at me #the way it feels when he looks at me. it’s like #it’s like to him there’s nothing else that matters but me #like he would wait forever. like he’s fine with whatever life throws at him as long as I’m there #like my presence in his life makes everything ok and it’s all gonna work out #there’s just a safety in his stare in my dreams. that’s the only way to put it #a confidence. a surety #like now that we’re in love and together everything is as it should be #and honestly I feel the same way when I look at him #like I’m right where I’ve always needed to be #idk im just. im laying in bed and I’m crying little tears bc I love him so much #and I just. I know he loves me too. I just know it #ren speaks #im gushing out here folks #renlie

[gloomyhours]

I replaced cutting and starving and purging with watching movies and tv shows and reading and obsessing over and attaching myself to fictional characters which some people say is still maladaptive but I sure think it’s a big step up and I’m proud of myself

#ok yes I genuinely decided I’d rather maladaptive daydream about fictional characters than put myself out there and talk to people #and ghosted everyone I started talking to when I was coming out of my shell for a bit #but at least I’m not self harming!! and I’m letting myself eat!!! it’s a much better time #tw ed mention #tw purging mention #tw self harm mention #tw cutting mention #depression #anxiety #recovery #therapy #actuallymentallyill #maladaptive daydreaming #positive self talk

[rosicheeks]

It is pretty spectacular. Though "spectacular" takes on a much different meaning once a person's met you.

- The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel

#😭😭😭😭😭 #I’m rewatching the first few seasons of mrs maisel before I get to the new stuff I haven’t seen #and this part always makes me #kdnskndkdnksndk #I want someone to feel that way about me #🥺🥺🥺 #ok don’t mind me just daydreaming now #gonna go back to painting in my car 😂 #rosie speaks #quote

[districtsof-treason]

anyone else have that one maladaptive daydream scenario you will never admit out loud even on this hellsite because you know it’s fucked?

#maladaptive daydreaming #delusional girlies (gn) unite #lol when I become lucid during it I’m like ????? #girl are you ok