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reddiamondyeet · 11 months

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My brain: "Haha, wouldn't it be funny if we drew Manfred dying a death from Danganronpa."

Me, after not having any serious drawing ideas for nearly three weeks: "You are so smart.."

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iknowitwontwork · 1 year

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my writing is so good wtf??

#i was reading my rogan childhood to lovers fic draft and....wow #i'm hooked #i'm so proud of myself rn

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brainworms-all-night-long · 2 years

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[1007 words]

can be read as both platonic or romantic but lets face it, these two mfs are definitely gay

beep boop this was written between the second and a last part of the Ballads and brews quest on sudden impulse during classes so it's not exactly proofred

that being said yes I ship these two with all my heart and would die for them without question

This conversation takes place in a fictional timeline when they have a late night conversation at a campfire after Bennett..supringly survives his adventure with Klee

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"Bennett..?"

Razor's voice rang unsure over the silence around the cracking late night campfire.

Bennett, who somehow managed to fall short on his words, seemingly zoned out looking at the campfire and absemindedly nibbling at the stick from his recently finished scewer, perked up with attention at his name's mention.

"..About today. I was thinking, again, about what you said. In the morning."

"Hm?"

Bennett was now fully in the present paying attention. Even with a still present confused look on his face he, unknowigly cut Razor off by answering before the other could retort.

"About how I managed to trip over a Small lamp grass or my dads?"

"Y-yes. Your dads. And your, other, blood related parents."

A feew more seconds of silence befall the duo before Razor continues;

"Do you miss them? Did you ever try to look for them..?"

Razor's voice grew quieter down right to a whisper with each word, as if he was afraid he would somehow offend the adventuter.

Bennett narrows his eyes to the ground for a feew seconds, contemplating the question before lazily crossing his hands behind his head and leaning backwards a bit.

"Eh, I never gave it much thought. Not that I never think about and how they're doing- that is...if they still are even..."

Bennett went silent again. His hands fell back to his sides before he began a sentance anew, with a much solemn tone to his voice.

"I'm pretty sure they...may have left me behind on purpose. Maybe they knew about my curse, and decided it would be the best to rid of me before they get too attached... Or- or maybe they were the first victims of it."

truth be told, there was a small period of time when he was thinking about his biological parents and just where he is from exactly a lot, without coming out very convinced by his own conclusion of not needing to think about them anymore, but with Razor facing similiar issues to him just now... The thoughts were inevitably brought back.

Judging by the look on Razor's face, this was not exactly the answer he was looking for however.

"But that's all it is! A bunch of 'maybe this, maybe that's'. Even if i did decide to go look for them, I have no lead. Well, aside from the fact that I was definitely not found in Mondstadt, which- well- dosn't narrow it down, really."

Bennett's mood changed entirely once again, waving his hands around seemingly trying to cheer razor up.

"Even if they did just leave me, I can't really do anything about it! And really, why would I bother with looking for someone who, Heh.. well, doesn't really seem that interested in looking for me..or uh, wanted me in the first place. Esspecially when I have my dads! Or sir Kaeya!.. or Fischl, or Barbara, ooor the Traveler..."

Bennett trailed off at the end of his sentance before looking directly into Razor's sad eyes.

"Or you, hehe!"

It could be just the light from the fire but Razor swears he saw Bennett's cheeks light up.

"Hmm. You talk like the tall and cold grown-up."

"H-huh?"

"Her words were..her words hurt. Like a thorn from a flower, but she also helped a lot. Make me undertand more and show me I'm not alone."

Razor took in a shaky breath and continued;

"She said that that blood family doesn't matter, like you said. But I..I don't think she was right."

He shook his head, with his eyebrows narrowing and staring intensly at the ground.

"I want to find them. I want to know them."

"Hehe, I mean yea, you do seem to have the chance to do so, more than I, or probably anyone else in Mondstadt ever will, so go for it!" Bennett quickly chimed in with his ever so cheery voice.

Razor took a while to collect words, both from Bennett and himself, and continued;

"But she also said human father and mother might be bad people. She asked what I will do.. If that is true."

Until his voice broke.

Silence.

There was so much stiff silence today.

Razor didn't like it.

"And that makes me scared."

He added the last sentance, even so, it was more a ghostly whisper that was nearly drowned out by a loud pop from the campfire.

Silence...

Again.

"Well, you won't know until you find out..!"

Razor will forver be gratefull for Bennett having the words he himself lacks.

"They might be bad people who abandoned you without a care in the world, as well as just a victim of circumstamce! Ya know, perhaps they had no choice but leave you with the wolves."

Bennett's words, well, make sense. They almost always do when Razor is the one making attempts at a conversation.

He looked from the ground up to Bennett, than at the campfire and than back down on the ever so interesting grass and twigs scattered about, deep in thought.

"Hey." Bennett not so subtly scooted closer to Razor's side, firmly placing a hand on his shoulder and giving him the brightest grin he could muster in that moment;

"No matter what will turn out to be the case, I'll be with you bud!" He spoke in such a gentle and reasurring tone too.

"Exploring the most benign things only for it to turn into hell on Teyvat was kinda what you signed up for when you said you're my friend after all, hehe!" Aaand his cheesy yet classic thumbs up.

If the fire had went out, Razor probably wouldn't even notice.

It always felt so warm and bright when Bennett was around.

And at last, realizing that he really wasn't alone in this endless sea of questions that has been drowning out all different thoughts for these past days...

Even if just in this moment, he feels brave enough to handle whatever the truth is, once it reveals itself.

#genshin impact #of ballads and brews #i love this two #yes I ship rannett #i refuse to be subtle about it anymore #this was the first time a random idea impuls has actually been transended to an existing form and finished #i'm so proud of myself rn #genshin bennett #bennett #genshin razor #rannett #bennett x razor

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spotlightstudios · 9 months

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I ADULTED!!!

#light's spot #i am *so* bad about doing things on my owm #but I managed today!#i'm so proud of myself rn #(being giddy about the little things keeps me going >:) )

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simpalert · 1 year

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this is a request from @silver-fire-wolf-pokemon-lover ---------------------------------------------------fic name:snowy day love

it twas a frosty afternoon on Christmas eve, and shadow, sonic, and silver are resting by the fire while they wait for guests to arrive. they have been prepping all morning for a Christmas party and now they finally get to relax. "wow, I keep forgetting holidays can get hectic" sonic said with a chuckle, "well that's how it can get sometimes, people can get wild during the holidays and I've never known why" shadow replied. "well maybe its cause people just want things to be perfect for the people that they care about" replied silver "they just want everyone to be happy". "understandable I can see where your coming from silv" said sonic "now what if we gave each other one of our gifts, ya know for funsies" sonic smiled a wide smile waiting for the other's response.

"you always try to do this sonic, we aren't doing that" replied shadow, "ugh c'mon it'd be fun" sonic said with a huff." no we aren't opening gifts early" replied shadow firmly. "I mean it's one gift shadow I'm sure it's fine" informed silver, shadow looked at silver and then looked at sonic then sighed "fine we can open one gift early, just one". "YAY thanks shads" exclaimed sonic he gave shadow and silver a peck on the cheek and dashed to the tree. he came back with three gifts each with their respective colors as the bow, "alright" he said as he handed silver and shadow their gifts "whose going first?". "well I think you should go first sonic" silver suggested, "I mean you're the one who came up with the idea". "you're so right silv" sonic said with excitement, he picks up his present and then reads the tag "it says to sonic from shads". he kicks his legs with excitement "ooh I can't wait to open it" he exclaims. "well what on Mobius are you waiting for, open it" replied shadow, "I'm getting to it hold your horse's buttface" replied sonic with a huff. silver giggles at the comment sonic made and shadow just rolls his eyes.

sonic opens the gift and inside is a blanket that looks like a galaxy "oooh this looks so cool and it feels so soft" he raps himself in the blanket "thanks shads", "no problem" replied shadow he then turns to silver and asks"do you wanna go next?". silver jumps a little but then says "oh sure I'd love to, now whose it from?". "OH OH, that's from me" excitedly exclaims sonic, "I was gonna read the tag but I guess I already know" replies silver sarcastically. "sorry got excited" sonic said slightly hiding in his new blanket. "it's alright sonic, I get your thing is going fast" silver joked which made sonic and shadow chuckle. silver opens his gift and it's a squishmallow bunny with a felt bow hot glued on to look like a bow tie. "aww it's so cute" silver said, he hugs the squishmallow and then says "thanks a lot sonic". "heh no prob silv" shyly replied sonic, "OH hey shadow it's your turn" sonic the says with excitement.

shadow picks up his gift and reads the tag "to shadow from silver, well let's see what's inside" as he's opening it silver says "I know it sounds dumb but I didn't really know what to get you at first but then I remembered you once wished some old pictures of you and maria were less blurry and uhh in color" he continues to say "so I got it done I hope you like em". shadow stays silent for a small moment while holding the now clear and in-color picture. "shads you ok?" asked sonic, then silver stutters "d-do you not like them i-i'm sorry if you don't i-". "I love them" shadow finally says "r-really," silver asks. "yes of course I love them" shadow pauses "thanks so much silver". silver sighs with relief, then sonic says "BRING IT IN YOU TWO".

he wraps both boys in a hug, "I love you guys" sonic said. "I love you both too" replied silver. shadow sighs and then says "I love you both too". they all then snuggle together on the couch as they wait for their friends to show up for the party.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- this request was from @silver-fire-wolf-pokemon-lover

this was honestly so fun to write and so calming too. I hope you like how it turned out.

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finzphoenix · 6 months

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A little inking exercise I did today! I think I probably could've done a much better job highlighting Crane to make him the sole center of attention in the first panel,... buuut I shall be happy with it nontheless X3✍️

#Jonathan Crane #Scarecrow #DC comics #DC universe #Batman #Batman comics #Batman rogues #Finz art #Finzverse #I guess?#B&W art #Comic art #I'm actually so proud of myself rn (but don't tell anyone x3)

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takethelx3 · 1 month

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They're bathing they're chilling ☺️ sweet boys lovely boys ☺️ would never harm a soul ☺️

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givemewallywestorgivemedeath · 6 months

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Growing up in an extremely ultra religious, cult-like family was a mindfuck for multiple reasons but that doesn't stop unfortunately, even when you escape. For example, see: The overwhelming feeling of boiling hatred and shame for who you used to be.

The angry hatred for the past person I used to be, the version of myself that mindlessly parroted my family's beliefs and listened to their every command, constantly simmered under my skin and invaded my every thought. I was embarrassed of what I used to be- even as I made friends of different ethnicities and faiths, as I listened and explored new ideas and worlds that I never knew existed, as I started the first LGBTQ+ club at my school and volunteered with kids who deserved so much more- there was always a little voice in the back of my head.

"They would hate you if they knew what you were. They would hate the horrendous teachings that were seared into your mind, the things that you used to say and believe. You are nothing but a pretender."

And it is true that my beliefs were bigoted in all the worst ways. It is true that I believed truly heart-wrenching things without a second thought and judged others in such harsh and unfair ways. I told myself that there was no coming back from that, not really. There was nothing I could do to ever make up for it.

Then I remembered that the person who said those things wore velcro light up sneakers and collected finger puppets that the librarians handed out as awards for reading picture books. The person that held signs at pro-life rallies and anti-LGBTQ+ protests had a cherished sticker book and hunted minnows in the creek after school and adored their puffle on club penguin and was really into greek mythology and had skinned knees from climbing trees at recess and knew every Disney song by heart and was absolutely terrified of the dark.

That person was a child.

I was a child.

It took a really long time. Years and years of reflection and distance, but I've decided that I can't hate the past version of myself anymore. I feel pity and remorse, I feel anger- I feel so much fury and violent rage- at what my childhood was and I grieve what could- no, should- have been, but I no longer resent who I was.

I'm not ashamed.

I am so, so, so unbelievably proud of that little kid. For being brave enough to leave the comfort and safety of what I was told was right. For not being afraid to be wrong. For seeking out information and knowledge in a culture that praised ignorance. For questioning everything, relentlessly.

I am by no means a perfect person, I never have been and I never will, but I am proud of myself in every iteration that has ever existed because I know that I have never stopped trying to understand and learn and grow, and I never will.

If you have ever been in a similar situation and feel similar things, first of all: My condolences on your lost childhood. Second of all: Please be nice to that past version of yourself and recognize all the hard work they did to make you who you are today. That person was a survivor and an inspiration. They deserve nothing but love.

#started anti depressants recently. kinda had an epiphany. i can't hate who i was. if i met me now i wouldn't blame that tiny child #for their rancid beliefs or for being dragged to protests. because thats a CHILD. i HAVE met kids in that position and i feel nothing but #pity and anger on their behalf. so why am i holding that version of myself to a higher standard?#i could not have known what i know now at 6 or 8 or 10. the same way that i could not have written a college level essay at that age #but i did what i could. in my own 8 y/o way. i believed in love and humanity and happiness. i was just misguided in the 'hows' of it all #and i am so so so so so proud. of every single microscopic step that i took. every question i asked. every thought that i hid and protected #and pondered secretly at night until new ideas and doubts bloomed like a dandelion through the pavement #and I'm so proud that i chased that doubt. that i asked why why why why until their ears bled and their voices were raw #until their answers stopped adding up. until i sought knowledge elsewhere with a mind dehydrated and malnourished and begging for knowledge #in any form i could get. i just. if i could hug that kid? if i could right now reach out and give that terrified and lonely child a hug?#i would. a million times over.#anyway sorry for the intense personal rant I'm just going through it rn and I'm like.... actually feeling alright #its wild. did you guys know about this??? anti depressants make you NOT depressed??? shits insane fam #irl #personal

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socks-wizard-money-gang · 6 months

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The darkness no longer scares me, I'm chasin I'm hunting

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enhanced-operatives-division · 14 days

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Improvement :3

#turns out practice does work....who would have thought .. apparently not me...#im very proud I've stayed with it #me??? actually liking ny art??? and seeing myself improve more than i have in a year within a couple months??????????#what a good hyperfixation/special interest does to you/silly #alas i need to keep branching out to the other ieytd characters because i wanna work on my fabby design #i have a hard time with costume and um she is literally THE fashion girlie so. i gotta work on that #because she DESERVES IT DAMNIT #also still working on a mental image for zor...sigh #im really into the vitti as zor theory and that 'zor' is a role/title that's kinna passed on....idk...i have thoughts.....#but yeah zor is so painfully human to me but also is trying to not be drives me up the WALL #THAT'S ANOTHER POSTS RANT how did i get here #alas #ieytd #[agent moose's art]#THAT'S IT not individually tagging these doodles? drawings? are not good enough for that #i don't have. the urge to draw in full colour rn <- so so so so busy <- leaves secondary education in less than 2 months #alas. I'm surviving. and very excited about next steps. just gotta get through. via ieytd. it's becoming my mantra #i keep saying i should make designs for solaris and redo my fabby so i can have triple threat explaining science to me on my flashcards #im. coping in my own special way

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lecter-lioncourt · 1 year

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I genuinely can't believe how HARD I've been trying to pronounce even just 1 sentence of Cha Cha Cha correctly because Finnish is the hardest language I've ever tried to learn thus far (even just phonetically), and then I found out Chris from fuckin Lord of The Lost just HUMILIATED me like that w a flawless cover. On top of their own banger fuckin entry

#he's lucky he has hot fuckin old middle aged man rockstar privilege bc I'm so mad rn #I was SO proud of myself just for learning ''pidän kaksin käsin kiinni juomista niinku''#then CHRIS said ''lol here's the whole song in Finnish. For funsies'' fuck off #mine #käärijä #lord of the lost #Eurovision #eurovision 2023 #chris harms

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wayfinderships · 16 days

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Good Evening Gamers!!! Guess who just finished F.inal F.antasy 1, It's meeee-

#pan rambles #Yayyy!! And now I can finally dedicate all my time to 12-#I've been avoiding 12 a bit bc I'm not the best at it-afksnfkns #But...But my crush on B.althier persists😔#Oh also after 12 I might take a small break from playing F.inal F.antasy bc I really don't wanna burn myself out on this series I love sm #Maybe I'll Finally get around to playing Y.azuka #Maybe #I always keep delaying it-afksnfksn #Oh also #I'm so proud of the background I did in that one drawing of my O.ne P.iece s/i #It's giving me the courage to try drawing this one D.imitri/Panchi drawing I've wanted to do for a LONG time #I won't go into detail rn but all I'll say is that Love is Stored in the Library <3

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komaneko-kun · 6 months

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oh my god a comic i submitted for a contest got selected as one of the 3 finalists i'm about to bawl my eyes out

#take THAT brain for calling my art worthless!!! 😭😭#i'm so happy even if i get 3rd place it'll be the best moment of my life #i've never felt so proud of myself before ueueueue im so emotional rn

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cookiwi-octonauts · 2 years

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Monke <3

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demonsfate · 2 months

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on to greener lands. 😎

#✏️ - ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴏsᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏsᴛ // (ooc)#// WHICH I KNOW MAY NOT SEEM LIKE THAT BIG OF A DEAL ...#// but back when i play tk7 ... i couldn't even get outta 1st dan !!!!!!!!#// most i made it to was 2nd #// so this is p cool yes yes #// i forgot how far i made it in the beta ... i know i made it to green in beta ... but forgot if i made it to yellow or not #// i cropped it so i won't have to censor mine and my opponent's names #// but forgot i had to censor my pals' names too xD #// anyway ... i'm p proud of myself rn! it's small work ... but HONEST work

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mirananananan · 8 months

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little life update/rant below :)

i feel like i've been so inactive lately which makes me big sad, but when i say i have not had the time, i'm being so serious. yesterday i literally woke up, went into work an hour early, stayed after for almost 2 hours, went home, made dinner, and immediately sat down to work on a grad school assignment and then had to work for another hour before i went to bed. then i woke up this morning and did it all again. it just feels like that's how my days look more and more recently, and it's been really hard tbh. it's demoralizing and just sad to work all day and still wake up the next day wishing i had done more, still with a mile long to do list, and knowing that it's just going to keep being this way for at least the next couple weeks.

anyways all of this is to say that i'm just both really grateful for and sorry to all my mutuals who have continued to tag me in things and stuff in the past couple weeks :) it may sound weird or dumb, but if i'm being honest i have SERIOUS fandom fomo right now, and, even though i haven't really had time recently, it's been nice to not feel like lost in the shuffle or forgotten (i told u it was going to sound weird).

being on tumblr/in fandom has truly been the most incredible escape and been such a stress relief and source of happiness for me. i'm still very much here, just lurking and liking more because i'm conserving brain bandwidth as much as possible during the week!!!!

#to get more personal in the tags i started going to therapy #i've never had good experiences in the past #but it's going really well so far #and i'm proud of myself for making the time even when i've been so busy #i've also stayed consistent w my gym schedule which is so important for my mental and physical health #so like. i am doing things other than working #but i just don't have as much time to do little fun things rn #also in case anyone cared the reason i'm so busy at work is because on top of just having a busy job generally #i'm also a glutton for pain and i run our student government #and homecoming is next week #and it's just..........so much stuff to do #so many emails to send so much to coordinate so many people to please #but it's almost over!#just have to make it through a 60 hour work week next week and i'll be fine #ALSO i keep forgetting it's my birthday next week #will lowkey be the worst birthday of my life but oh well 26 is a lame birthday anyway #personal

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