#I'm so tired of myself

[sibelin]

i need to delete this blog fr

#i'm so tired of myself #sibe vents

[lucyvaleheart]

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#goddamnit its too early to be having a breakdown #why why why why #i hate it ugh #still so goddamn stressed still so desperate and painful and ugghhhhhh #im. hhhh im just. ssuch a burden on everyone around me #want to crawl into a hole and never come out #I'm so tired and painful and #ggods #maybe i should just kill myself i dunno christ #I'm #hhhhhh....... #can't fucking do anything #I'm so tired of myself #so tired #so so so tired #I'm. I'm so tired

[babystrcandy]

i just figured out why tumblr was giving me such a hard time posting tlo 4 it's because IM the idiot

this is what happens when you don't know how to work the internet

#i'm so tired of myself #sorry tumblr my fault this time el oh el #noa talks

[sussybakaontherun]

one (1) crumb of affection from the person I like and they're once again back in my dreams wherever I close my fucking eyes

#can this like STOP maybe #or at least happen while I'm not at work??? #thank you very much #I'm so tired of myself #I'm so sick of feeling all warm and happy when the dream is over but you're not quite awake yet #sleeping at work is The Worst #because I just woke up to the sound of their fucking voice #which blurred the lines even further and confused my mind even more #sigh #/txt #office mess

[simpingwriter]

If i can't find a problem, i will create many myself, that is a promise!

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Be me,

Begin writing MHA Fanfic for Aizawa,

Manage two chapters, no romance in sight

Timeskip a few days, well shit, we love and fuck bird brains now.

Immediately drown your big brain-self in daydreams about Nakano meeting him and dating him (as a side story, AU of the fanfic)

Write the first THREE parts of that storyline

Realize that that story begins at a later point of the "main" story's plot, after the sports festival.

panik

Begin asking yourself "How do I write all these chapters up to the sports festival in a way that can go both ways, aka. ending with Nakano either getting boned by her teacher or by Hawks.

Realize RIGHT NOW that for the three Hawks Chapters, you have to rewrite some lines in the first two chapters so they still make sense afterwards.

panik, Part II

Have your mind spin up a class trip and a whole ass new arc/plot before you can even "unravel" the chapters mentioned before.

Tell yourself to stop and focus, that you have to finish the hard work (the chapters until the festival) before you can enjoy yourself in your filthy bird-instincts and wing Kink smut.

You don't stop (it only got worse three days ago and telling you now would be a massive spoiler to the nine thousand plots i thought about instead of sleeping or while working)

TLDR; i need fucking help, my brain is gonna go haywire if it doesn't stop 😭

#MHA fanfic #MHA #My Hero Academia #Aizawa x Reader #Aizawa x OC #MHA Aizawa x reader #MHA Aizawa x OC #MHA Aizawa #BNHA Aizawa #Hawks x reader #Hawks x oc #MHA Hawks x reader #MHA Hawks x OC #MHA Hawks #I'm so tired of myself #Writer's pain and despair

[smash-chu]

make a cohost account, make a blue skies account, make a pillow fort account, make a artfol account, share your discord, make a back-up account, make another account, make another account, make another account-

#shitpost #pot dog #pot dot #doodles #sites just remain normal challenge impossible #i can barely manage having a tumblr and a twitter account to both post to #the prospect of making more accounts more places just because shit may go down in flames or threaten to do so is exhausting #i will remain here until the ship is at the very bottom of the ocean cause i'm so tired of extending myself for social media efficiency

[radioactive-cloud]

i'm such a jealous person because i see people talk to each other and interact and have fun and have friends and find friends and study properly and have jobs and have partners and be independent and express themselves and travel the world and have hobbies and be genuinely interested in things and not hate themselves and be open and extroverted and fit and smart and happy and i envy them so fucking much it makes me want to rip my hair off and throw up and throw myself out of the window because i'm nothing like them and i don't do anything to become like them

#yay here comes the tipsy overthinking #i hate this and myself so fucking much #i want to change #but the mere thought of making any effort makes me feel exhausted #and the mere thought of staying the same makes me want to disappear as if i never even existed #it won't make any difference anyway #nothing would change as if i'm not already an empty space #i should just stop with my fucking stupid ramblings that come out of me each and every day for some reason #where's that missile flying at your house when you need it #this is such an awful fucking thing to say when citizens of my country die every fucking day because of them jesus #i should just shut the fuck up for once #why am i like this #i'm so tired of myself #personal

[everything-changes-once-again]

hey old, familiar downward spiral that's haunted me for over ten years. i know you're trying to help or whatever but i have to finish my PhD now so if you could kindly fuck off that would be excellent.

#i'm so tired of myself #recovery #i'm not about to get another magical break in my life i CANNOT DO THIS right now

[sga-owns-my-soul]

reblog to give ur mutuals a soft lil kissy on the head

#i can't reblog this from everyone so this is just me giving all my mutuals a soft lil kissy on the head #if u see this #*muah* #soft lil kissy on the head #and if u don't want one u can have a head pat #or i can lovingly send soft lovey vibes your way #all options are valid #idk i just #need to spread some love today #i'm tired and sad and stressed #so i'm giving u all some love #bc i need to fill myself with more of it #love u all hope u have/are having a good day #mutuals #not stargate

[t-lostinworlds]

honestly, i'm not sure yet if this WIP is going to be too long to be a one-shot, or too short to be a mini-series. so now i'm in a dilemma where i can't decide between keeping some scenes short and sweet to fit one-shot length or expand on those scenes so it can be an actual series.

#i'm so tired of myself #bc this shit ALWAYS HAPPENS #WHY CAN'T I KEEP IT SHORT #also one shot length - 25k max #mini series - 40k #full series - 100k+ #that's my own metric system btw LMAO #ramblings

[insignificantfailure]

Why the fuck am I the way I am

#i want to use all the insults i know on myself #im so tired #vent #venting #i'm sad #depressing shit #vent blog #mentally fucked #mentally tired #tw depressing thoughts #actually mentally ill #suixide #su!cidal #angry #self h@te #tw selfhate #i hate my self #anger issues #mentally drained #mental illness

[crabsnpersimmons]

"Slow down, Sunshine. You're not falling behind and you are loved for more than what you do for others."

#fnaf sun #fnaf dca #dca fandom #crab art #traditional art #self-insert #my OC Esther #please don't copy these tags i'm just going to vent a bit #it's just been one of those weeks #been feeling overwhelmed lately #like i need to keep up #like i'm not doing enough and i tire or lose focus so easily #and i don't feel rested after resting #so i thought i should go back to my roots of drawing the DCA comforting me with words i can't seem to give myself #was debating whether or not to share this #but perhaps it may offer someone else some comfort as well #i'll be okay #this too will pass #it's just been a particularly busy and out-of-control week

[ventique18]

Anyway here's the initial sketch of Farmer MalleYuu that inspired me to start developing a farming game. 🥔🥕🐮🐥 They just make me so happy tbh

It's my last semester in uni I'm trying to hold onto my remaining sanity

#I'm a full time employee who studies for uni during the evenings #I'm in my last semester of school #I do the dishes I do the laundry I do the cooking #God knows I'm TIRED #but I'm damn proud of myself for finding time to enjoy my little life #god damn it I'm tired #but twst makes me so happy #so I make a million love letters for it in the form of different media #i will write fanfics for malleus #i will make comics for malleus #i will illustrate for malleus #i will make games for malleus #he is my muse #twisted wonderland #malleus draconia #malleus x reader

[thebibliosphere]

So, I'm one of those weirdos who finds heat more beneficial for relieving migraine pain than ice, and I've just realized I was in so much pain yesterday that I burned myself and didn't notice.

Thought I still had a migraine and that's why my forehead hurt. Nope. It's a burn from where I was grinding the heat pack into my skull to try and relieve the pain. My fingertips are burned, too.

But god forbid the pain clinic prescribe me anything stronger than Tylenol and Asprin because, apparently, this is a better scenario than giving me opioids, aka, the only pain relief that actually works for me.

Fucksake.

#brb slathering myself in aloe vera #fucksake #chronic health tag #no one tell me about migraine abortives #none of them work for me #neither do the preventatives #I'm so tired

[it-just-doesn-t-matter]

Starting my vacation with a depressiv episode is exactly what I need right now. Thanks, brain.

#also big thanks to my work and my forgetfulness which also helped making me feel miserable #i'm just so tired of this #i'm so tired of myself #will i ever get my shit together? #probably not #personal #ignore me

[binch-i-might-be]

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#i am doing so very unwell rn #engaged weighted blanket. let's see if i will Calm #i'm so tired of myself #vent