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fanny-passerine · 6 months

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If silly why must study

(exams start tomorrow)

#passthinks #if i disappear #that's why

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lehguru · 8 months

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here's the results of me pulling from neuvi's banner hehe >:)

#yes.#i have c1 diluc now #and neuvi #AND tighnari #all in less than 50 pulls all f2p #ur girl is mihoyo's fav fr fr #if i disappear #its cuz im farming for daddy #mimeows

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tsaun · 2 years

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I feel like I'm a waste of time to everyone I know

#tw depressing thoughts #im tired #i hate this #i feel alone #i hate my existence #im exhausted #no one cares #if i disappear

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frrrozi · 2 years

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AAAAaand now I’m officially done with this looong batch of commissions,, I did over 40 drawings since july for both returning customers and new people. It was a lot but I had much fun working on every piece! I’m incredibly grateful for all of the trust and support y’all have given me! 💗 I can’t wait to meet your OCs I haven’t had the pleasure of meeting yet, and seeing the old ones again next year!! °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°

#and now i'm taking that break hah!!!#if i disappear #i'm ok just resting c:

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lilacthebooklover · 7 months

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i'm gonna be taking a break from tumblr and ao3 over the next couple of days. i'm ridiculously busy, my emotional state isn't quite at its peak at the moment, and i've just generally got a lot going on at the moment lol. thank you so much for all the support i've been getting recently, it means a lot. i hope you all have great days/nights! :)

#i just need a break #for mental health reasons #because good mental health is #in fact #good #who would've thunk #:)))#brief departure #momentary absence #if i disappear #i'm probably not dead #hopefully #red will tell you if i am #i hope #random things

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justbeachybailey · 1 year

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Where Can I Read More Epistolary Literature?

I’m forever on the hunt for books that are epistolary in nature. I will continue to update this list as I find them.

"Dear Mr. You" by Mary Louise Parker

"Love Letters to the Dead" by Ava Dellaira

“No One Writes Back” by Jang Eun-Jin

“Dracula” by Bram Stoker

“The Incarnations” by Susan Barker

“Letters to Amelia” by Lindsay Zier-Vogel

“If I Disappear” by Eliza Jane Brazier

"What Remains of Edith Finch" - okay this isn't a book, rather a video game, but it is such a wonderful example of what can be accomplished when letters are the storytelling medium. Honestly 10/10

"Gone Home" - this one is also a video game but it also slaps 10/10 emotional rollercoaster

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j-a-nuary · 11 months

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cw death threats

#if i disappear #never to return #its because i had to kick out a resident for making death threats and they followed the fuck through #✌️🤪#off topic #kiwi talks #work things #dv advocate #i work in a residential shelter

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trashworldblog · 1 year

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since this is my 12th round of finals (8 semesters in highschool and 4 in college) i am seeking comfort in knowing that all this stress will be over by the weekend and it wont matter too much.

but right now matters alot 🧍‍♀️

#maybe i should log off of tumblr for the week 🧍‍♀️#if i disappear #you know why #im busy focusing on sculpting a milkshake and programing a character outfit selection

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hazelcephalopod · 2 years

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I am not ready.

#critical role #cr spoilers #critical role spoilers #if I disappear #it’s because my stomach exploded

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spooksier · 6 months

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passages that make you whisper "oh my god"

#text!#working on a paper abt the degradation of the line between real/unreal in modern society and this one paragraph blew my MIND #like it literally tied all of my other sources together #also this whole paper is about how sex has disappeared from american media so if ur interested in that i highly recommend it

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pangur-and-grim · 5 months

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I'm turning 30 this month, and for some reason have become suddenly interested in material possessions. like what if,,,,,,,,my couch was nice. what if my sheets were nice. is this what happens to you??

#this bougie furniture store was having an extreme New Years sale #and it sent me out of my mind #like......wait......I could have that?? I could have NICE coffee table and NICE chair??? really?#a good chunk of my savings mysteriously disappeared shortly after.

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uncomplicatedbookreviews · 1 month

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If I Disappear

Author: Eliza Jane Brazier

Rating: 1/10 ⭐

Goodreads: 3.13/5

Date Read: January 2024

'And I’m going to prove to him and everyone that I am somebody, that all the time when I seemed like nobody and I felt like nothing, it was just preparation for this' -------------------------------------

Plot Summary: Sera's life is in shambles and the only thing she derives joy from is listening obsessively to a crime podcast hosted by Rachel. However, one day Rachel stops posting updates and Sera believes that she has become a victim of the very crimes that she talks about. Sera travels to Rachel's home town, determined to become the hero of her own story and solve Rachel's mystery disappearance. Along the way she finds herself in the bizarre company of Rachel's family and the people of the nearby town. Piece by piece she begins to unravel the mystery of Rachel's family ranch and the expansive network of missing women who have spent time there.

TL:DR: The premise of this book held a lot of promise however, this is the author's first published novel and it shows in poorly written attempts at flowery prose, clumsy characterization, and a nonsensical plot full of twists that fall flat. It's an unfortunate failure at writing about the female experience and female empowerment

Main Characters:

Sera Fleece - a recently divorced women who is struggling with the fact that she is a complete loser by her own admission. She floats through her day only enjoying the many hours she spends listening to Rachel's crime podcast. She operates under the delusion that Rachel has been speaking to her directly through the podcasts and that Rachel has been teaching her everything she needs to know to solve her own disappearance. No romantic prospects, no family, no job, and no aspirations, this new mission of saving Rachel's life is the only thing she has.

Rachel Bard - a crime podcast host with a passion for cases involving women who disappeared without a trace. She lives in the rural areas of California on a ranch with her mother and father. It is her alleged disappearance from the internet that inspires Sera's actions.

Addy Bard - Rachel's mother and the overbearing head of Happy Ranch. She acts eratically and refuses to acknowledge the alleged disappearance of her only daughter. As the story progresses she begins to see Sera more and more as her stand in daughter

Jed - The only ranch hand that works at Happy Ranch. He's a hard worker and good with horses despite the apparent hatred of Rachel's parents towards him. He becomes Sera's company on the ranch and serves as a romantic interest briefly.

Thoughts and Feelings: This book had a really interesting premise and a unique narrative style but it is really badly written. The most interesting part of this story is that it is partial told in a second person perspective. Sera is speaking to Rachel who she refers to as "you" throughout the book. The unique perspective serves to highlight Sera's obsessive behavior and her delusions of being close to Rachel, unfortunately this gradually goes away throughout the book.

The characters in this book are extremely unnatural. They act like caricature puppets of real people. The 'tense atmosphere' that is supposed to permeate the whole book relies on the inherent strangeness of Rachel's, the missing girl's, parents who are overbearing and behave strangely. But they are written like cartoons so it doesn't really work. I found myself internally laughing at their dialogue rather than being afraid or put off by them. It's a lazy way to creating tension that doesn't work in this case. Everyone in this book acts beyond suspension of disbelief. Sera is an incredibly annoying main character. She's straight up stupid, self absorbed, obsessive, faces no consequences for her actions, and yet is the biggest loser who can't hold down a job, has a horrible ex-husband, and no other friends or family. There were several points in this book where I thought to myself "Yeah if I met you I would probably hate you too." As she complained about other characters hating her.

This book sells itself as being some commentary on women's experiences in the world, but it is so badly written that it is almost more a disservice to the message it is trying to get across. Sera talks at length about how have only two outcomes in the world 'disappear' or 'go crazy' but Sera just sounds like a cardboard cut out with a speaker attached to her, because her diatribes are so flat and unimpactful. There's a quote on the back of the book that says this book has 'sinewy prose and nuanced observations about the female experience' and there is not a single true statement in that sentence. There is no nuance in this book and the prose is not 'sinewy.' If anything the author's attempt at writing deep poetic descriptions of how women suffer horrible injustices comes across as deeply fake and disengenuous. This book needed to be edited. HARD

Some ridiculous quotes from this book:

“And I feel like I should tell him that I am here for you, I am looking for you, that I haven’t lost my mind and I haven’t lost my nerve; I am a hero of heroless stories. I am a champion of the forgotten. I am on the cutting edge of something at least.”

“I chose a selfish man to love, and I asked him to not be selfish. And even now I want him to help me, to think about me, to understand what being a woman is when he’s always and only ever been a man.”

“I want to say I knew you better. I knew your heart. I knew the real you, the secrets you confessed in the middle of the night in my bedroom. The words you whispered in my ear.”

AND MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE:

“The pause breeds many pauses. I can see them all lined up in a row.”

Some brief thoughts on the ending below

The ending was supposed to be some huge revelation that sweeps the reader off of their feet, but again it just made me laugh. The first 'twist' is that Rachel is in fact alive and that she has been hiding out on the ranch this whole time and her brother has been poisoning people with water that kills on contact (?!). But then there's an epilogue where it get's revealed in two pages that in fact RACHEL is the one who has been killing people and that she killed one of her closest friends a long time ago and became a serial killer. It makes NO SENSE and ruins any sense of resolution that the author managed to cobble together in the last couple of pages of the book. Just plain bad.

#If I Disappear #Eliza Jane Brazier #mystery #thriller #book #book review #bookblr #crime thriller

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tsaun · 6 months

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The past few years of my life have just been horrible. Everything is just. Theres no point in keep going. I don't know how long I can keep going. I feel like I need to give up. It doesn't matter anymore, no one would care if I was gone anyway.

Everyone would be happier without me around.

#tw depressing thoughts #tw self destruction #tw selfhate #everything sucks #life sucks #i feel alone #im not okay #if i disappear #no one cares #they will be fine #without me

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rooniearts · 2 months

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