#also i'm forgetful so i actually can't remember everyone she's met and has feelings about ever

[celestialtrolls-moved]

thinking about aelynn again

#sorry for not doing stuff today i'm drained orz #sometimes i just like to sit and reread her profile again #especially now the new relationships bit because it makes me happy how many people she knows #like... i've had aelynn for 10 years now and a lot of the time aelynn has been the reason i started talking to people OOC #and i just think that's really neat... #obviously her page doesn't have everyone she's met ever although i did consider it but that would literally scroll for miles #and some of those people left the ftc many years ago (although i did still include a couple from that long ago) #also i'm forgetful so i actually can't remember everyone she's met and has feelings about ever #ooc

[austenwazright]

Yeah we don't know a lot but here's what we do know:

Sarcean and Anharion were into each other for a long time

Sarcean was an important member of the Sun Court

When in the parade he makes a snark commentary about how the Sun Court wins may be celebrated in the light but are all won in the dark (shady

Sarcean and the Lady had a one night stand

Sarcean and Visander also had a one night stand

The first time that Sarcean and the Lady met she's talking about the Dark General in third person but like let's be honest for a second here how many pale hot white guys with long dark heir in dark armour do you think there were walking around the Sun Palace?? Bet you she was playing dumb

When Sarcean was called back to the palace by the Lady there was mentions of a mob, I myself am very pro mob

In that same scene when she accuses him he says something like "is that what you were told?", well if that line doesn't make you believe that there's more to it I don't know what will

He wanted to be trapped and he's loyal to those who help him, but apparently his plan to getting out was being helped, bet he made it thinking anharion would be the one to do it

There's a collar that in theory takes alway anharion/james free will, even tho we were in his mind when it went on and it didn't go completely blank we have to assume it does something, what does it do??

Sarceans power is in theory control and death, and he used it the meanest way possible, or so we're told, but the Light did win and the winner always gets to write hystory so we don't actually know what's true and what isn't

He did kill everyone in the Sun Court but Visander and the Lady, even tho we don't know hes motive (I'm assuming he has one) it's still kinda drastic don't you think?

He can make weapons and use the mark but we never saw him wielding the shadows (he may be able, but also he may not be

Will has no acess to his power but he gets things done cause he's smart and charismatic, even tho they paint the dark king as someone who could only gets things done when controlling people I bet part of his powers came from those qualities as well, we've seen Will using the mark, it drains him, he couldn't possibly control everyone all the time

Sinclair presents the mark as a ceremony, as a reward, when it would be easier to just brand people by force what maybe tells us that it has to be willing

Anharion was the one to say "I will always find you" maybe the obsession goes both ways???? Besides james remember the feel of him and, as far as he let us know, it's not like bad

Now its just an hypothesis but sarcean may only be able to use his powers through objects (and yes I'm putting the reborns and the returners as objects to make a point sue me), that's the reason of the mark, and the cup, and the collar. I mean why make a fucking cup that turns people to shadow if you could just do it yk (here comes in the acceptance again, people have to be willing to drink), and like maybe, just maybe, the collar also allows james/anharion to use his magic (as in sarcean's) in a more weaponized way??? As in he can use it without draining himself, kinda borrowing it

We also know sarcean's fine as fuck, so far that has been very relevant to the plot since he fucked basically anyone of the old world we know by name

Something I keep forgetting is Will is Sarcean but hey Sarcean is also Will, and even tho we don't know a lot about the former we just spent two books in Will's head, that being said maybe Sarcean killed the whole Sun Court as some king of vengeance for someone he loved/was loyal too, that's like a super Will move

I'm gonna put this in bold letters here so no one forgets: SARCEAN IS WILL, WE'RE READING ABOUT THE SAME PERSON

"I cannot come when I'm called to fight so I'll birth a child"- or however that one goes it's been a while and I don't recor the exact words hahaha- why can't she come??? Like she can't or does she just doesn't want to?? I mean she's clearly able to send someone, she can make the returners, why not return herself??? I'm thinking that it's bad, maybe you lose part of yourself? I mean Visander didn't seen to loose anything (besides the obvious mental blow and all) so WHYYY can't she return??? The only reasonable explanation is that there's a bigger catch then we imagine

More will be added

#books #book recs #theories #dark heir #dark rise #cs pacat #will kempen #james st clair #sarcean #anharion

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Friends, lovers… and an orange | Chapter 7

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"Girls, can you please hurry up? It's the last day of the year and we are gonna be late!" Mason's dad said.

"It's always the same with them" Adele's dad sighed.

"Dinner has already started, we are gonna miss all the good stuff!"

"We are here, stop complaining" Toni said, walking into the room.

"Holy shit" her husband whispered when he saw her. "Forget about everything I just said. The wait was worth it."

"Thank you" she smiled.

"What about me? Don't I look good?" Elizabeth said, doing a twirl in front of her husband.

"The most gorgeous woman ever" he replied.

"And Adele? Where is she?" Mason asked. 

"Here" she said, joining the others. "I had to go back to change my shoes. I told them I can't walk in heels, but they don't listen."

"You can, you just don't want to" her mum said.

"Whatever."

"Mason... Mase, hey" Luca said, elbowing him in the ribs. "Are you checking out my sister?"

"What?" he replied, his eyes still on her while she argued with her mum.

"Bro, you definitely are checking out Adele."

"No, I'm not."

"You are blushing" Alex pointed out.

"I'm not blushing or checking out Adele, shut up. Both of you" he said, walking away from them and joining his parents. But he was doing both things, and especially checking out Adele. She looked stunning that night, it was impossible not to look at her. 

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"Three, two, one... Happy new year!" everyone in the room screamed.

"Happy new year, guys!" Adele said, raising her flute.

"Happy new year!" Luca, Mason and Alex replied before drinking.

"I think I'm gonna need a refill. This champagne is so good."

"Careful there, Addie. Remember what happened the last time you drank too much champagne?" Mason teased her.

"You ended up singing “wannabe” by the Spice Girls in front of everyone" Alex laughed.

"Oh dear, I had forgotten about that" she chuckled.

"Ok, enough talking about my sister. It's time for our new year kisses" Luca said.

"Our what?" she laughed.

"Luca and I always share a kiss to start the new year. It brings good luck" Alex explained. 

"You do what?" Mason said, almost choking with his drink.

"This" he said, cupping Luca's face and kissing him.

"Oh my god" Adele gasped.

"Now it's your turn."

"Hell no" she said.

"We could do with some good luck, tho" Mason said.

"And it will be just a peck" Alex shrugged.

"I said no."

"C'mon, Addie. It's just a peck! Scared you may like it and not be able to stop?" Luca teased her.

"Ha ha ha" she replied, rolling her eyes.

"One kiss, Adele."

"Nope."

"Kiss, kiss, kiss!" Luca started chanting.

"Shh! Someone could hear you!" Adele said, hitting her brother.

"Ouch, that hurt! But Addie, they are too busy drinking, dancing and also kissing. No one will be looking at you."

"He's not gonna stop until we do it" Mason said.

"He won't, no" Adele sighed.

"Then?"

"Ok, fine. But just a peck."

"Just a peck" Mason smiled. "Ready?"

"I guess" she said. But she wasn't ready. At all.

Suddenly, Mason was too close to her, his hands cupping her face. And then... Then he was kissing her, and it definitely wasn't a peck. It was a proper kiss, one that made her feel goosebumps all over her body. 

"See? It wasn't that difficult" Mason said against her lips. 

"Yeah" she whispered. 

"You can let go now, guys" Luca laughed. "Though if you want to keep kissing for the rest of the night, you know we won't oppose to it."

"Shut up" Adele said, taking a step back and finally snapping out of whatever had just happened between her and Mason. 

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"Happy new year, Addie."

"Happy new year, Mase" she yawned when they met in the hallway.

"Did you sleep well?"

"Ugh, like a baby. I'm gonna miss that bed when we go back home."

"You can always ask where it is from."

"I actually could, yes" she laughed. "Happy new year, everyone."

"Happy new year" hers and Mason's parents said when they joined them for breakfast.

"Why are you looking at us as if we have grown another head?" Mason chuckled.

"Guys, did you... Did you sleep together?" Elizabeth asked.

"What?" they both said at the same time.

"Well, you just walked in together laughing and smiling. And after what happened last night..." Toni said.

"Last night? What do you mean, mum?" Mason asked.

"I think they are talking about this" Alex said behind him, showing him his phone.

"Mason Mount and Adele Turlington caught sharing a new year kiss." 

"You gotta be kidding me" Adele said. "How did they manage to get that photo?"

"Looks like someone recognised you and followed you around. There are more pics from last night."

"Guys... You know you can tell us anything, right?" Elizabeth said. "You can trust us."

"There is nothing to tell, mum. We weren't kissing."

"Weren't you?" her dad chuckled.

"I mean, yes but no. It was just a joke, one of Luca's stupid ideas."

"We always share a kiss to welcome the new year because they say it brings good luck, and we asked them to do the same" Alex explained. "It wasn't anything serious."

"The press have taken it out of context like they do with everything. It didn't mean anything, right Mase?" Adele said, looking at him. 

"What?" he asked. 

"The kiss from last night. It didn't mean anything, it was just a joke."

"Yeah, yeah" he muttered.

"Mason, love… Are you ok?" Toni asked him.

"Yeah, yeah" he repeated. "Just hungry."

"You sure?"

"Yes" he smiled. Though his mum knew that it wasn't an honest smile. Her, and Adele. Something was definitely going on with him. 

#mason mount #mason mount fanfic #mason mount imagine #football fanfic #football imagine

[spicyveggiesub]

[ENG] Revue Starlight -The LIVE- #4 Climax Pamphlet Interview

Happy 6th anniversary to Revue Starlight! I managed to finish translating this interview just in time. Among other fun things, the cast of #4 left a message to each of their characters, and it's very sweet :') Translation under the cut.

Q.1

What do you think the highlight of this play is?

Mimori Suzuko: The brilliance of youth. The anxiety and anticipation of facing the future with graduation just around the corner! This world is huge, so do your best! Don't give up, Stage Girls! Without realizing it, you'll end up wanting to encourage them like that... for sure!

Kadoyama Yoko: After all, it's the Revue. It'll light a fire in the hearts of everyone who has watched and supported the plays up until now, without a doubt!

Ozaki Yuka: The theme is "Climax", so each of the Stage Girls must choose their own futures and part ways with their friends, and personally, I can relate to a lot of the feelings they're going through. Plus, there are interactions between members of the three schools of Seisho, Siegfeld, and Seiran that we haven't seen yet, so it'd be great if you paid attention to that.

Tomita Maho: It's "Climax", so there are a lot of moments that make you feel nostalgic. Please look forward to it! (laughs)

Iwata Haruki: Everyone's different paths! The different thoughts everyone's having with graduation just up ahead... and the Revue this time sure is a sight to see!!

Ikuta Teru: For Futaba, the highlight is that I'm using the most physical strength so far this time...! We're renewing the standard of what makes you feel like "there's no way Starlight can surpass this", and it's really difficult, but I'm able to feel the growth Futaba and I are experiencing together each time we practice, so every day is really fulfilling. I'll charge through with a fighting spirit!!!

Koizumi Moeka: Just like the title, it's loaded with a feeling of "Climax"! In #4, what will the Stage Girls fight against, and how will they overcome it? And there's maybe a Revue that will hit hard for the people who know about the plays so far...?

Q.2

Please tell us about your favorite song or line from the Starlight stage plays so far, as well as any related memories!

Koyama Momoyo: "Gunjou [Ultramarine]" from #2 is super super cool! It's so beautiful!!! Oh... Karen didn't sing in it, but... I watched over everyone from the back during every performance! I remember just itching to join in.

Koizumi Moeka: Through the words I said to Hisame-chan in #2, "It'll be colorful as always", I learned about Nana-chan's middle school days, and it gave me an opportunity to think once more about how Nana felt when she went to Seisho. She loves everyone in Seisho, but she also loves Hisame-chan, who she met in middle school.

Tomita Maho: I think it'd be "3･7･5･1･0", which we sang every time. When I hear it, it makes me feel like, "Stage Starlight is starting!"

Ozaki Yuka: "Grand Symphony", the curtain call song for Siegfeld's first stage play. During each performance, when all of our eyes met, everyone's expressions were brilliant, and I can't forget that moment. With the strong message of the lyric "I've made my decision to live on stage", it's a song that gives me a lot of encouragement.

Nomoto Hotaru: "I'll become the star of everyone's lives!", Yukishiro Akira's line from Delight. It makes me think "she's such an idiot~", but I can't hate her, and I can't help but think that it'll actually come true. I think it's a line that really represents Akira, and I've always loved it.

Itou Ayasa: The song "Position Zero e! [To Position Zero!]" from #1 is catchy, and the acting-like choreography was fun, so it left a deep impression on me. The lyric "I want to aim even higher" was so memorable that I thought the title was "I want to aim higher". (laughs)

Shiina Hekiru: The line "No matter which path you choose to advance on, the curtains of your lives will remain open". Once they enter this industry, these kids in the same class will make different decisions for their lives and go their separate ways. It's up to each person which path they choose, and there's a sight they can only see after they've made that decision.

Q.3

Episodes about your graduation ceremony/memories of graduation

Koyama Momoyo: Just like how Karen looked up to Starlight, I also had a play that I'd admired since I was a child, and the final audition for that play overlapped with my high school graduation ceremony...! I chose the audition, and in the end, I successfully passed. I was set to appear in the play of my dreams! I remember thinking, "You really don't know when your life is going to change, huh..."

Sato Hinata: On the day of my elementary school graduation, I didn't have any stick-on body warmers at home, so I attended with a non-sticky warmer on my stomach, and right before I received my diploma, it fell, and it was so embarrassing. I'll never forget it. I'll also never forget accepting the diploma while gripping the warmer in my right hand. 

Haruki Iwata: I happened to be working on my Bachelor's thesis during the #1 revival, and during rehearsals I had everyone from the cast and staff fill out the questionnaire for my thesis...! I graduated thanks to everyone's help!! (laughs)

Mimori Suzuko: On the day of my high school graduation, there was snow piled on the ground, which is rare for March in Tokyo, and before I got to school, I fell on my butt and my skirt was soaked through...! I borrowed a spare skirt from the nurse's office and participated in the ceremony. It was a girls school, but I was popular with my juniors (laughs) so after the graduation ceremony, all of the buttons on my blazer were gone. Even the buttons on my sleeves♪

[T/N: It's a middle/high school graduation tradition for girls to ask guys they like for the second button on their blazer (more here), but if you're as (understandably) popular as Mimorin that extends to the rest of the buttons too.]

Ito Ayasa: I did a homestay abroad for two weeks in March just before graduation, and having stuffed myself full with all the food there before coming back, the photos from my graduation ended up being something incredible (laughs).

Aiba Aina: I remember staying up until midnight putting on flashy false nails, and then waking up at 5 AM to do my hair and makeup by myself as best as I could, but then it was ruined pretty quickly when I cried.

Q.4

A message to the members of your school

Maho Tomita: Every time we spend time together for a play, I realize how truly happy I am spending time creating plays together with all of you! Thank you so much for coming into my life♡

Ikuta Teru: I  L O V E  Y O U  !!!!!!!!!!!!!! LET'S HANG OUT TOGETHER AS NINE AGAIN, OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aiba Aina: I really can't thank you enough for coming into my life and becoming my friends. Thank you so much. When I couldn't do various things, without caring about anything like age or background, everyone gave advice to everyone, and including the ensemble cast, I just love Seisho's vibes. Let's keep sticking together from now on and forever! J'aime beaucoup tout le monde! [I love all of you so much!]

Nomoto Hotaru: To the Edel juniors. Yuka-chan and I are both doing our best as Edels. Let's stand on stage together as five again.

Kadoyama Yoko: I love you. Let's keep standing on stage together.

Shiina Hekiru: Keep on struggling. And, do not regret the path you have chosen.

Q.5

A message to the character you play

Koyama Momoyo: To Karen. The view I see from the stage with you is always colorful and radiant. I'll work hard to not lose to your brilliance, Karen! From here on as well, let's continue leaping into a yet unseen, beautiful future together! From Momoyo.

Mimori Suzuko: You went off to London without telling Karen again, I see...! The way you always decide where to go based on however you're feeling—I don't have that kind of proactiveness, and it sure is incredible. And the teacher did say that actresses are always selfish, so I think it's a good thing.

Maho Tomita: Let's go eat some yummy baumkuchen next time!!!

Sato Hinata: To Junna-chan. I can still vividly remember the moment we met. Your personality was so similar to mine, and I was a kid who thought it would be easier to give up when I was losing to someone. Since then, over the years, I was able to see many of your expressions, and before I realized it, I had gained courage from you. In order to make a decision, you need to take a big step forward, and in order to take that big step, you need an even larger amount of courage. But, Junna-chan, you taught me that taking that step can allow you to feel how big the world is. Thank you so much!! And let's keep doing our best from here on out! I hope you will continue shining brilliantly on stage with wonderful friends.

Haruki Iwata: I think you're feeling unsure about a lot of things on your new path, but you're a Stage Girl who's many times stronger than you think you are! May you continue shining on stage with strength, lovingly, and beautifully.

Koizumi Moeka: A lot of time has passed since we first met, Nana. I wonder if I've grown a bit since I met you? Up until now and from now on as well, my star is Daiba Nana, you and only you. I'll work even harder in hopes of being able to stand next to you proudly one day. Please watch over me, always.

Aiba Aina: Thank you for always pushing me forward. It's thanks to you, Claudine, that I could meet treasured friends and staff members, and overcome various obstacles! I'm really, truly happy to be able to play you, Claudine. You're "the best woman in the world" in my heart! I'll continue to work hard while looking up to you! Merci♡

Ikuta Teru: Futaba, I truly think you're amazing for deciding to go to Seisho with just a single word from Kaoruko, and then graduating from there and aiming for a new stage with your own will. I'm always learning from your hardworking and single-minded attitude. I'll do my best with all my strength so I won't lose to you! Thanks for always showing me a wonderful view!

Ito Ayasa: With how strong you are at your core, I'm sure you'll be fine no matter where you go from here on, Kaoruko. I'm looking forward to seeing your beautiful dancing in the future as well! Almost as much as Futaba-han is, I'm your number one fan too♡

Nomoto Hotaru: You're wild and free, and just live honestly on the stage, and you're so annoying, but I love you!!

Ozaki Yuka: Michiru, having walked with you thus far, I have so much respect for you and your charming personality that's hard to guess from your appearance. Please allow me to continue portraying your thoughts about acting and feelings about Akira, as dearly as I can. I'll keep working hard and aiming for greater heights in sword fighting, dancing, and acting so you won't be ashamed of me, so even when you're in Germany, let's do our best together♪ I'm worried that people will see you as a kid in Germany, Michiru~(laughs)

Kadoyama Yoko: There are so many people in this world who love you. Be confident and push forward towards your dreams. I will always be on your side.

Shiina Hekiru: You're lucky to have such wonderful students. The things you can pass down to them because you're you—please wrap them up nicely with deep love and strictness.

(JP text)

#revue starlight #shoujo kageki revue starlight #interviews #yoko's message to hisame made me cry the first time i read it.

[50calmadeuce]

Ch. 8: The Break Up and Flight

Disclaimer: This is a work of fan fiction using characters from the Top Gun: Maverick world, trademarked by Paramount Pictures Corporation. I do not claim ownership of the characters and the world that I am borrowing.

The story and situation I am creating are a work of my imagination and I do not ascribe them to official story canon. This work is for entertainment only and is not a part of the storyline.

I am not profiting financially from the creation and publication of this story, but I do hope it gives you happy thoughts.

These stories are my own, so please do not take them and use them for yourself without my permission. If you see them somewhere else, please let me know. :)

It was late, and you and Leslie were tidying up in the living room when Sean entered.

Leslie gathered the plates you'd collected. "I'll catch up with you later," she said, heading towards the kitchen.

Turning to Sean, you said, "We need to talk."

He settled on the edge of the couch. "I agree."

You approached him slowly, removing the engagement ring as you did so. When you reached him, you extended it towards him. "I can't. I'm sorry."

He accepted it, his expression resigned. "I had a feeling." He looked up at you. "Was it something I did?"

You perched on the edge of the coffee table and reached for his hand. "No, Sean. It wasn't you. It's me. It always has been. The same thing happened with Ben." You took a deep breath. "I've been in love with someone since I was sixteen."

Sean looked at you, his expression a mix of surprise and realization. "Someone from the past?"

You nodded. "Jake Seresin. He was my first love, and I never fully moved on. I thought I did, I tried to, but it was always there, lingering. I recently found out something about him and I can't deny how I feel."

He sighed, a heavy acknowledgment of the truth. "I appreciate your honesty, Y/N. It's better to know now than later. I wish you the best, truly."

You squeezed his hand, gratitude in your eyes. "Thank you for understanding, Sean. You deserve someone who can give you their whole heart."

The both of you stood up, a touch of sadness in Sean's eyes. "I always thought it was my imagination, that something was missing in our relationship." He sighed. "I'll move my stuff to the guest room and leave tomorrow."

"You're a good man, Sean."

"Thank you."

The two of you embraced, and when you separated, Sean met your gaze, leaned over and gently kissed your cheek. "Good luck, Y/N."

"Thanks," you said, your eyes following him as he ascended the stairs.

Leslie entered the living room, her expression a mix of concern and curiosity. "Well, that didn't go as bad as I thought."

You turned to face her, a thoughtful look on your face. "I often wondered why he proposed. There was always something missing."

"So, now what?"

"So, my mother left a clause in the Will."

"What was that?"

"I have a trust of 1.5 million dollars waiting for me. James got the ranch, of course, but I was left with some money."

"Y/N. That's great!"

"The trust is for Jake and Y/N Seresin."

"Oh," Leslie remarked, processing this revelation with a thoughtful nod. "So, I guess your mom also figured it out. Everyone except for you."

You exchanged a knowing smile with Leslie. "Yeah, I guess." You settled onto the couch, and Leslie joined you. "Did I ever tell you about Mandolin Rain?"

Perplexed, Leslie looked at you. "No."

"Remember that night we went to the carnival and Jake came home soaking wet?"

"Oh my, yes! The two of you looked like drowned rats."

"I convinced Jake to come out in the rain and just enjoy it."

Leslie raised an eyebrow. "Seriously?"

"Yeah. That's when he first told me he loved me. Right there in the pouring rain."

Leslie's eyes widened in surprise. "Wow, that's... actually kind of romantic."

"Yeah, it was," you admitted, a fond smile tugging at the corners of your lips. "We stood there, drenched, and he just said it. It was one of those moments you never forget. Then when we got in the truck to go home, 'Mandolin Rain' by Bruce Hornsby and the Range came on. We made it our song."

"Never thought Jake had it in him."

You met Leslie's eyes. "There's a lot more to Jake than you think."

"Well, he's my brother, so...what are you going to do?"

"I guess I'm going to go after him. The question is, where do I start?"

"I know he's talked about some bar called The Hard Deck. He hangs out there a lot."

"Of course he would."

Leslie shrugged. "It's a start at least."

You were fortunate enough to secure a flight from Austin to San Diego the very next morning.

You and Leslie shared a heartfelt embrace, promising to stay in touch more often now that you had made the decision to return home or live with Jake, depending on how things unfolded.

As you boarded the plane, your heart raced with anticipation. The thought of reuniting with Jake, of finally facing the feelings you both shared, filled you with a mix of excitement and nervousness. The journey ahead felt like a new beginning, and you couldn't wait to see where it would lead.

After a three hour flight, you landed at San Diego International Airport, rented a vehicle and started the drive to Coronado. You got a hotel room at one of the hotels outside of the base and walked up to the desk to check in.

"Hi! Checking in?" the front desk clerk asked. She was a friendly young blonde with a warm smile.

"Yes, that's right," you replied. "Reservation should be under Y/N Seresin."

The clerk quickly typed on the computer. "Ah, yes, I've got you right here. Here's your key. You're in room 214. Breakfast is served from 7 to 10 in the morning. If you need anything else, feel free to let us know."

"Thank you very much," you expressed with a grateful smile as you accepted the key. Just as you were about to make your way to your room, you had a moment of pause. Turning back, you approached the desk once more. "Actually, I do have a question. Could you tell me how to get to The Hard Deck bar?"

The blonde receptionist responded with a warm smile. "Certainly!"

#jake hangman seresin #jake seresin fanfiction #jake seresin x you #glen powell #hangman top gun #top gun maverick hangman #hangman #hangman fanfic #top gun fanfic #top gun maverick

[gakehc]

My Sweet Enkeli: Chapter 7

"Enkeli": finnish word for "angel".

When Noah Sebastian met Nori Nurmi for the first time, he knew he wanted her more than anything. She was beautiful like an angel and dangerous like the devil.

♡ Author's note: MERRY CHRISTMAS! So, this is the penultimate chapter. I hope you guys like what I decided to choose for Nori and Noah. Actually I had totally different plans when I started to write this but I changed my mind. Please let me know your opinions, I would love to know your thoughts 🖤 don't forget to repost so more people can read it! CHAPTER SIX HERE.

♡ Warnings: This is a work involving real people but it's 100% fiction written. Please remember that this is only for fun purposes and it doesn't reflect their real thoughts and behaviors. Don't take this work too seriously. +18 only. Smut, oral sex, penetration, unprotected sex, really dirty talk (please always use condoms!!!!)

♡ Characters: Noah Sebastian × Nori Nurmi (OFC).

♡ Words: 2.937

♡ MASTERLIST HERE.

The debut show in Finland was a success and now the bands and crew are celebrating in the after party thrown especially for Bad Omens. The Riff is the hottest place in Helsinki when it comes to rock ‘n’ roll and alcohol. The bar is a very cool place, pictures of bands and instruments hanging on the black walls, polaroids of special guests displaying for everyone to see how cool their clients are and some tables with stools and black couches for everyone to sit. The boys are feeling welcomed but also tired, they can't wait to go home tomorrow morning - but that doesn't mean that they don't have energy to party.

Nori can see that there's something bothering Noah. He always looks angry when he sings Dethrone but tonight he was looking really pissed off. The way he looked at the crowd earlier at the end of the show while he growled the lyrics was clearly showing that he was about to burst. This is making Nori feel worried about him, maybe he is bothered by Joel's presence but this wouldn't be something that would make Noah mad - at least not that mad.

When he's out of her sight, she wonders where he is and feels that she needs to be close to him, making sure that he enjoys his last hours in her homeland. Meanwhile, in the man's bathroom, it's like a match it's about to start. Noah didn't like to meet his arch enemy there and he couldn't hide it: his eyes turned black with the sight. It's just the two of them: the boys that are starring roles in Nori's love life. In one corner, the american ray of sunshine and singer of Bad Omens, Noah Sebastian. In the other corner, the Finnish dark prince and singer of Blind Channel, Joel Hokka. In the blonde one's mind, it's good that he is having the opportunity to be alone with the brown haired one - he definitely has some things to say.

“I hope you are not messing around with Nori, she doesn't deserve to be hurt” he says with a strong Finnish accent.

“More than you already did?”.

“You think you know something but you just came into her life… what? One or two months ago?”.

“I know what she told me. You treated her like shit and now think that you can have her back. She's not dumb”.

“Maybe she won't come back to me, but she also will not end up with you”.

“Because of what? She likes security? Bullshit. You are the one who doesn't know a single shit about her”.

“You think you are the king, Noah Sebastian”.

“I don't. The difference between me and you it's that I didn't hurt her and I never will. I would rather kill myself”.

“You are not going to win”.

“There's nothing to win, this is not a game and she is not an object or a prize. I just want her to be happy, if it's not with me then fine. But I'm sure that it's not going to be with you either”.

Noah storms out of the bathroom, his fists ready to punch Joel right in the face but he holds himself. He quickly grabs his phone and sends a message to Nicholas saying that he is going to the hotel as he walks straight to the exit, but a soft hand holds him by his biceps.

“Are you okay?” Nori's soft voice makes him stop.

“I gotta go, I can't stand this bullshit” he can't look into her eyes so he faces the floor.

“What happened? I know that you're not okay”.

“Shit, Nori!” He almost yells “Can we just get out of here?”.

“Sure. Let's go to my place”.

A five minute drive leads them to a small white brick building with vintage windows. The hallways are small and kinda dark, and soon they are on the third floor. Nori's apartment is a cozy place, there's an open concept kitchen with gray wood cabinets and a table with six chairs. In the living room, a large gray couch with lots of pillows in front of the big screen TV, some vinyl records and a record player, lots of plants decorating the place and renaissance paintings on the wall.

Noah sits on the couch, throwing his head back as he lets out a long sigh, his large hands covering his face. He is feeling tired, the little fight he had with Joel was exhausting. There's so much hate inside of him that he grabs Nori's hips with huge strength when she straddles him.

“What's wrong, huh?” She asks, trying to make Noah focus on her.

“Do you still love him?”.

Her green eyes get wider as she thinks about her answer. She doesn't want to lie to him. There's a mix of feelings inside of her heart and her brain is telling her that she needs to tell him only the truth and turn things clear; it's now or never. What it's going to be her future with Noah: friendship or something else?

“I don't know, Noah…” she sighs, remembering when Joel kissed her after the concert.

“When he kissed you… did you like it?”.

“You saw it”.

“I did. Please, answer me”.

It's such a relief for Nori to realize that in fact she didn't like it. There's not that magic between her and Joel that it used to have, it felt like there was something missing. Her heart didn’t beat fast with excitement like it used to, it felt wrong and painful. She can only find peace in somewhere else's lips now.

“No” she is sincere.

“Why?”.

“Because I think I don’t love him anymore”.

They are both breathing heavier, their hearts beating fast like it’s their first time. Noah holds her cheek carefully like she is a porcelain doll and he is trying not to break her, but the way his lips clash against hers it's so intense that it's almost violent.

“Do you want him to be with you now? Do you rather he could be in my place?” He murmurs against her lips, eyes piercing her as he holds her chin forcing her to look at him.

“No, Noah. I don't want him”.

He moves his hands to the fabric of her shirt, grabbing it with strength, almost ripping it as they both desperately take the garment off.

“Tell me… who do you need?” He grabs her boobs and pulls her nipples.

“You…” she whimpers “I need you”.

“Say my name, angel”.

“Noah… I need you, Noah!”.

He quickly lays her on her back on the couch, opening her legs and pulling her jeans out. He spreads her legs widely so he can fit between them, her underwear already soaking wet for him.

“Look at you. So desperate for me” he groans, pupils so wide that his eyes turned black.

Nori never saw Noah like this. He is always so gentle with her, but this time he is looking possessed by a demon, ready to devour her like a monster. She feels turned on by him like never before, anxious to see what he is going to do with her.

“Does that guy make you wet like this?” He gets closer to her arousal but doesn't touch her yet.

“No, only you Noah… only you!” She is desperate.

It's torture how long Noah it's taking to touch her, to make her feel so good like he always does. He licks her belly going up to her boobs, then he bites her nipple and sucks it intensely. Going up her collarbone, he sucks her skin all over, leaving purple and red marks on her porcelain white skin.

“Now everyone will see that you are mine, Eleonoore” he groans.

They kiss so passionately while Nori tries to grab him even closer but their bodies are already glued together, the fabric of his hoodie brushing against her naked skin. She helps him to take his clothes off and soon he is standing fully naked in the living room, his cock hard like a rock making her even more desperate to feel him. It hurts to see him so hot in front of her but he is not touching her yet, he keeps staring at her like he is still planning what to do.

“Please Noah” she whimpers.

“What? You're such a desperate slut”.

When she decided to get up and go towards him, his strong hands hold her by her arms, turning her around and making her bend on the couch. He spread her legs with his knees before penetrating her without any warning, making her gasp at the feeling. He is deep inside of her with no mercy, moving in and out as one of his hands grips her hair, the other one positioned on her hips while he digs his fingers on her skin.

“Does it feel good?” He asks, his voice full of lust.

“Fuck yeah baby”.

“Did he fucked you that good?”.

“No, no honey”.

“I knew it. You are clenching around my cock already and I barely fucked you yet”.

Nori is so turned on that she quickly gets closer to her apex, her clit throbbing as Noah rubs it in circular motions. He suddenly takes himself off of her, getting on his knees and making her bend more. He has full access to her arousal, his fingers playing with her folds while her whole body shakes under his touch.

“I don't want you to come yet, angel” he says.

“Fuck you…”.

He giggles at her reaction, so satisfied to see that she has totally surrendered for him. Her back arches as she feels his tongue touching her, licking her folds so desperately like he always does. Her moans are like fuel to Noah, he already knows the way to make her cum hard and he uses his knowledge to drive her crazy with pleasure. He smirks when he sees her rolling her eyes, her hands trying to grip the fabric of the couch. Soon, they find their way to his hair, pulling some strands and pushing his head even more against her pussy, his face all smeared because of her wetness.

“I'm close…” she groans.

“I know, angel… but not yet. I want you to come on my cock, okay? Lay down”.

She does what he asks while he stands up and leans forward to be between her legs again, spreading them as much as she can take it. Soon, he is inside of her again, his cock getting all soggy from the tip to the base as he pounds nonstop inside her pussy, finding the right spot to make her finally have her orgasm.

“I can feel that you are close, angel… give it to me” he says.

“Fuck yes baby, I'm so close!” She grabs him by his hips.

“Give it to me, then”.

A huge pleasure starts to take control of her, she feels like she can't control her own body anymore. Nori thought that it was impossible to feel this way, but it's a reality now: she quickly pushes Noah back, letting a long squirt come out of her, wetting everything around.

“Oh fuck! Oh my god!” She moans as her legs shake uncontrollably.

“Fuck, angel!” Noah is mesmerized by the scene, his cock wet with her juice as he tries to breathe normally.

“I want more”.

He smirks before penetrating her again, they both can't get enough of each other. He loves the way her walls embrace him, so tight as he moves deeper and deeper. She is so sensitive and overstimulated that soon she is coming again, Noah's hand on her neck as he feels close.

“Yes, angel. Now let me fill you in, okay?” He says.

“Please, Noah…”.

A few more thrusts and Noah is releasing his warm liquid inside of her, his eyes rolling with so much pleasure. Nori holds him in her arms, caressing his hair slowly as he is panting against her sweaty breasts. He looks up at her eyes, his brown ones now showing vulnerability. She could see right through it. There is care and love; so much love on the way he looks at her. It makes her feel safe. Even though Noah didn't say the words, it's clear for Nori that he is in love with her.

“I want you to do whatever you think it's right for you” he says, making a pause to try to find the right words “I couldn't keep my promise and I'm really sorry about that, but I won't be a problem for you. If you and Joel are getting along, go after him. As your friend, I don't think it's the right thing for you but the heart wants what it wants”.

“I don't want to be with him. I want to be with you, Noah. I feel so fucking pathetic but there's no way I would not fall in love with you. I thought I could do it but I can't!” Her voice is soft “Olen enkelisi”.

“What?” He giggles.

“I'm your enkeli… your angel”.

“My sweet enkeli, only mine”.

•

They both sleep peacefully in Nori's room but soon Noah wakes up; he is too thoughtful to sleep. He feels so happy to know that Nori is in love with him, just like he is with her. His eyes wander at the place, everything so organized and clean just the way Nori likes. Everything around matches her personality like the red rose neon sign on the wall above the bed, the white wall paneling matching with the white sheets. There's also a board with polaroids near a desk, pictures of her with her family, friends and idols that she had the opportunity to meet. He gets up slowly and gets closer to see the pictures better and one in particular catches his attention: it's Nori when she was a kid, her hair was dark brown but her eyes were already colored in a beautiful and unique tone of green; they are unmistakable. He alsos sees a picture of her with her parents, she told him about them but it's the first time that he is seeing how they look like: her mother has a light brown hair and it looks too young to be a mother of three adults while her father has the same green eyes as Nori and her siblings.

“Get your pretty round ass back to the bed” she says, scaring Noah a little bit.

“Can't you live a single minute without me anymore?” He walks towards the bed.

“Too late. And you are going back home tomorrow so I want you here with me”.

Nori loves to see Noah's naked body full of tattoos, she wishes she could wake up with this sight forever.

“You look a lot like your father” he says as he lies down beside her again.

“Everyone says that” she laughs.

“You have a beautiful family”.

“Thank you baby. You know what? You can't leave without entering my board. Wait a minute”.

She quickly runs to the desk and searches for something inside a drawer. Soon, she finds her old polaroid camera.

“I won this camera from my mother on my eighteenth birthday. She said she wanted me to record the most special moments of my life with this camera” she lies back on the bed.

Noah holds her closer as she takes a selfie of them. A few minutes later and the picture is ready: them both with large smiles on their faces, Noah's nose brushing against her cheek while he wraps an arm around her breasts.

“Fuck, you are so beautiful it hurts” she says, leaving kisses all over Noah's face.

He giggles with the feeling. He wishes he could freeze the clock so he doesn't need to leave Finland anymore.

“I could live forever like this, just us laying on your comfy as hell bed. We wouldn't wear clothes at all so I could always see your smoking hot body whenever I want to”.

“And I would admire your perfect tall tattooed body whenever I want to”.

“And then we would fuck a lot until we don't have strenght anymore”.

“I would love that” she bites her lower lips.

“Maybe… if I stay here in Helsinki…”.

“The guys would kill you!”.

“Maybe”.

“If they kill you, I wouldn't be able to use your delicious body anymore”.

He laughs adorably, making Nori's heart ache with the idea of Noah leaving in a few hours. She will definitely miss everything about him, not only their sexual acts but also the things that makes Noah so precious like his laugh and sense of humor. She sighs with the thought of him so far away from her, literally on the other side of the planet.

“What?”.

“What are we going to do?” She asks.

“I don't know… I have no idea when I will be able to have some free time to travel back to Finland”.

“Me either, I can't just go to the U.S. I don't want you to feel attached to me. If you go back home and meet another person, I want you to move on”.

“Fuck… I wouldn't do that”.

“Distance can fuck everything up, believe me”.

“Let's take it slow, okay? Don't be so negative, please”.

Nori snuggles into Noah's arms, feeling his perfume that she loves so much. She will definitely miss his smell, his touch, his voice, his taste. She just hopes that she will have strength enough to live her life without him near.

#bad omens #blind channel #jolly karlsson #nicholas ruffilo #nick folio #noah sebastian #noah sebastian fic #blind channel fanfiction

[kianaflame23]

Final Fantasy XVI Clive Rosfield x OC plus Aquafina, Fediel from Granblue Fantasy and canon ff16 characters (friend's OC by @tea-r-re-z ) ☆

*Warning* Not suitable for anyone! It will contain child sexual exploitation so please ignore this chapter if you feel uncomfortable by this. I'm sorry!! characters death, graphic with gore. It will be bloody so I'm just letting you know the warming before reading this.

ONLY 18+ CAN READ THIS FANFIC SERIES! NO MINORS! I WILL BLOCK YOU IF YOU DON'T SHOW YOUR AGE IN YOUR BIO!

Tagging: @theempressofdarkmagic @aria-lesage @virtuousluna @momowasdreaming @blueflame97 @seiyaido @ishgard

Chapter 1 : Pain and Suffering

She's the same age as Clive, but only difference that she's actually from the present time but somehow she's in the past, she got some of her memories from her present time but she doesn't fully understand them. Also, her current appearance is very different from her present time but she doesn't know it yet. She even knows her true first name but decided to keep it to herself. Maybe she'll tell Clive, Joshua, Jill and Aquafina about it but afraid that she'll be left alone and wouldn't talk to her anymore...

Hating herself as she lied to them. (Don't forget about this part btw! I'll be writing the angst fic about that. )

She's actually very quiet and shy when she first met Clive and Aqua. Trying her best to be a good servant, helping and obeying Rosfield's family orders. She was 8 years old when she met Clive and Aqua. Despite her quietness and shyness, she's still the sweetest girl who would do anything to help and be there for anyone. She loves to pet the small cute Torgal and always feel happy seeing him as she turned 15 years old. Kiana is so grateful that Clive doesn't mind being with her as they got more closer. Spending good time with him and Torgal. Kiana tends to get scared easily when someone gets mad at her. Kiana does have a good student and mentor relationship. She doesn't mind if Aqua sees her as her little sister. Aqua's beautiful long, silver hair stunned Kiana in a good way and wants to be like her when she's older. Kiana liking and wishing to have her mentor's appearance. She's too shy to say anything to her though.

Kiana felt nostalgic as her family looks just like her present time. She doesn't know why though. Believing that everything she is seeing is fake and must be an illusion to her. Her parents is good terms with Rosfield family. Kiana thought everything will go fine, right? Oh how wrong she was.....

She immediately remembers her mom's father, which is her grandfather... and already starts to panic so much... her memories from her present time came crashing to her. Knowing that she needs to be away from him no matter what.... she has to go somewhere safe. Maybe Clive or Aqua can be there for her. But she can't tell them yet. It hasn't happened to her yet.... she knows how disgusting and dangerous her grandfather is so she avoids him every time. However, her grandfather would find a way to follow her and it was pure bad luck that she wasn't able to protect her from that horrible old man... Not strong enough to push him away nor hurt him... Allowing him to do anything to her body.... Praying to Eikons for her grandfather to stop and forget about her. Sadly, he kept going and going until she was 12 years old... Kiana felt like she didn't deserve to be alive, blaming herself for everything. Not brave of not saying to her family and friends.... She can't even tell Clive, Joshua, Jill, and her mentor, Aquafina. There's times that she wants to tell everyone about her and her thoughts but still refuse to say anything once again... Kiana would interact with everyone even though she lost her cheeriness and prefer to stay in her room, blaming herself again and again...

After Aqua left the castle, she's 15 years old and already in love with Clive but decided to keep her feelings to herself. After all, Clive and Joshua's father spoke to her coldly, forcing her to not interact him anymore and never think of marrying Clive. Nodding shakily as she obeys his command. Him smirking at her as he has nothing to say more, Lord Rosfield walks away from her.

She wants to be happy with Clive, thinking about how their life will be if they are together.... Aqua and Joshua supporting them and not judging at them. Kiana loves both Aqua and Joshua as her family too. She rushed to her family and hoping to see them as soon she is there... why must Kiana suffer a cruel fate? Seems that someone, a tall hooded-man who's wearing a demon mask, lurking in the shadows, enjoying the pain of Kiana and waiting for the right time to begin their chaos on her... to begin the eternal suffering and pain on poor Kiana....

As soon as she arrived at her home, the pain and suffering began.... Kiana witnessing all of her family, rope tightly all around their bodies as their knees are down in the ground. Not saying a word as Lord Rosfield talks to them with anger and disgusted tone.

"HOW DARE YOUR DAUGHTER MADE MY SON FALL IN LOVE WITH HER?! HE SHOULD BE FOCUSING ON HIS EDUCATION AND HIS SWORD PRACTICES!"

Kiana's father was about to explain but Lord Rosfield wasn't having it at all.

"SILENCE! I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST YOU WITH THIS AGREEMENT! YOU JUST PROVE ME WRONG!"

Before he can say anything more, Kiana rushed to her family and shielding them as she is in front of them. Both of her arms spreading away from her as if she can protect them....

"Please, Lord Rosfield! It's my fault! Don't hurt them! I'll listen to you! I-I will stay away from Clive from now o-on...."

"Perfect timing, Kiana. Then, prove me now. Say that you don't love Clive and that you don't want to see him anymore"

"W-what?" she looked at him with fear and sadness.

"SAY IT NOW, KIANA! OR YOUR PATHETIC FAMILY WILL DIE!"

"O-okay..."

"I d-don't love Clive and will not s-see him anymore"

"WHAT? I CAN'T HEAR YOU! SPEAK LOUDER NOW, KIANA"

"I DON'T LOVE CLIVE AND I WILL NOT SEE HIM ANYMORE! I WILL STAY FAR AWAY FROM HIM!" Kiana yelled as she tries her to stay calm and not wanting to cry in front of Clive's father.

"Good. Do you hear that, my son? You don't need to focus on her anymore."

Kiana immediately turned her head, trying to find Clive. She saw both Clive and Joshua.... seeing sadness across their faces... true pain appears in Clive's blue eyes.

"Clive! I--"

Clive turned away his face, not wanting to see Kiana. Joshua's confused eyes looks all around as he tries to understand the situation. He knows that Kiana loves his older brother dearly. She told Aqua and Joshua about her romantic feelings towards Clive. Even Jill was there and is happy for her too! Them being happy for her and begged her to tell her feelings to him. Kiana disagreed and explains that she will once she is ready. So why is she lying right now...?

Joshua was able to say something to Clive but their father interrupts them. Both Clive and Joshua wasn't there when Lord Rosfield was forcing Kiana to say those cruel words in there...

Kiana continues to say anything to Clive but he still refused to see nor hear her. Making her fall down in her delicate knees, feeling defeated as she fails to convince Clive.... her brown eyes filled with emptiness and sorrow....

"Good, you know the consequences for getting in the way of my son's training. For your punishment, you will be staying in your room all day unless I need you to do something in the castle."

Kiana froze as she listened to his words, already hating the idea of not seeing everyone that she cares and love. Especially Clive... Kiana is going to regret this but she doesn't care! She will not obey his commands anymore! Kiana wants to start working on her confidence. She doesn't want to be shy and quiet any longer!

"NO! I WANT TO SEE AND BE WITH CL---" she was interrupted once again as Lord Rosfield slapped her face harshly, rage in his face as he continued to slap her more...

Witnessing the horror of his father slapping Kiana's sweet face, Clive tries to run in order to stop his father, however, the knight guards stopped him as Clive screamed her name. The guards using their weapons and preventing him to go anywhere as they hold Clive with force. It took more than four knights to hold him.

Kiana's older sister couldn't handle this anymore and stood up from the ground, furious on her eyes. Still having her rope all around her body but she doesn't care. She needs to protect her little sister even if she has to die trying to save Kiana.

"¡¡OYE, PEDAZO DE MIERDA!! ¡DEJA A MI HERMANITA EN PAZ!

(HEY, YOU PIECE OF SHIT!! LEAVE MY LITTLE SISTER ALONE!)

Lord Rosfield stopped his hand and slowly turned his face towards Kiana's older sister, not focusing on Kiana anymore

"WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?! KIANA, WHAT DID YOUR SISTER SAID TO ME?!"

Ignoring his demands and desperately told her older sister to stop and forget about her.

"¡¿OLVIDARTE?! ¡NO, MATARÉ A LORD ROSFIELD SI TENGO QUE HACERLO! ¡NO QUIERO QUE SUFRAS HERMANITA!"

(FORGET YOU?! NO, I WILL KILL LORD ROSFIELD IF I HAVE TO! I DON'T WANT YOU TO SUFFER LITTLE SIS!)

Both Kiana and her older sister talking to each other in their native language, everyone getting more confused and not understanding their talking.

"ENOUGH!! GUARDS, KILL THAT WENCH OF KIANA'S SISTER! KIANA WILL GET HER PUNISHMENT NEXT"

They obeyed Clive's father and walked menacingly towards Kiana's family. Kiana screaming for Clive to stop them. Clive used his all of his strength to push the knight guards away, which he was able to be free from them. Clive gripped his hilt of his sword and took out his sword from the scabbard, in order for him to save Kiana's family. He doesn't want Kiana to hate him because of his father. He can't fully understand why his father is so cruel towards Kiana and her family. Clive can't be thinking about it right now. He NEEDS to save Kiana! He hasn't told his love confession to her.... Clive wouldn't forgive himself if she dies in front of him. He will save her no matter what!

'I'm going to save you, Kiana! I don't care if my parents doesn’t accept us! You're not dying today! Everything will be fine, Kiana!'

Oh, how fate continues to torture Kiana and Clive..... Especially what's going to happened next...

As soon he was close to Kiana's family, Clive's father stood in front of Kiana. Her looking up at him. Fearing for her life as Kiana yelled out her beloved knight's name, Clive's father swung his sword. Slashing across her body before thrusting the tip of the sword through her chest, making her cough blood from her mouth. Kiana falling down to the dirt ground, blood appearing from her red with black maiden's dress as her brown eyes slowly losing life... Kiana looks at Clive and her family, not able to hear their cries of her name... Kiana feels pain from her ears, knowing that they are bleeding and trying to get out from the ground but fails as she kept hurting herself.

"FATHER? WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!!" Clive's furious blue eyes stared at his father, as he walked quickly to Kiana but Lord Rosfield stopped him.

"SON, YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND THAT SHE'S A DISTRACTION TO YOUR WELL-BEING AND YOU NEED TO FOCUS ON YOUR TRAINING"

"NO, SHE ISN'T! I NEED TO S--"

"DIDN'T YOU PROMISE TO ME THAT YOU WILL GUARDING JOSHUA AND BE HIS SHIELD! THE SHIELD OF ROSARIA?!"

Clive's mouth closed shut as he didn't say anything to his father, trying to find a way to save Kiana. Clive's father snapped his fingers as he ordered his guards once again, ordering them to take Clive and Joshua away from there.

Kiana's older sister, Ana, witnessing her dying little sister in front of her. Tears falling down from her hazel eyes as she began to sprint towards Clive's father.

¡¡ESTAS MUERTO!! ¡¡TE MATARÉ, BASTARDO!!

(YOU'RE DEAD!! I WILL KILL YOU, YOU BASTARD!)

It was horrible for Kiana to see the knights getting closer to her older sister, not able to move a muscle and screamed her name in agony.

"ANA!! PLEASE DON'T DO THIS! FORGET ME!!", Kiana was able to utter her words before losing her voice, coughing more blood... Surprised that she is even still alive....

"HERMANITA! I WILL SAVE Y--"

Ana wasn't able to say a word as dark shadow appears below her legs, a demonic eye stared at her widely. Ready to swallow her whole.

"Qué? What is tha-" Ana said her last words before the demonic shadow swallowed her whole body and suddenly disappeared in front of Kiana's brown eyes...

"Ana....no....", Kiana tries to scream or say something but she is losing consciousness. Knowing that she will die soon...

Lord Rosfield looked terrified, leaning back as he tries to remain calm. All of the knights looked each other in terror, asking to each other on what just happened. Then, Lord Rosfield laughed as he grabbed his chin.

"I get it now....You're a monster, Kiana. It is your fault that Clive is in love with you! Your family must be like you too, right?!" He was slowly losing his sanity, as if he is a crazy mad man....

"Kill her family! We must exterminate them", Lord Rosfield commanded his knights, the Rosaria knights agreeing with him as they beheaded Kiana's whole family. Kiana felt hopeless as she saw her parents and siblings' heads drop down in the ground. Their dead eyes staring at her eyes. Traumatizing Kiana even more as she felt numb...Not caring about herself. She only wished she was stronger. If only she has her own powers to revenge her family... Maybe she can be worthy for Clive and everyone in Rosaria... She can never forgive Lord Rosfield, wanting to kill him...But Kiana doesn't want Clive and Joshua to hate her....Clive hating her and wanting her die... She would rather end her life than hurting him....Kiana closed her eyes, accepting her death.

'I guess I'm dying....I will be joining you...mamá...papá...hermanas....wait for me...please..."

"Poor Kiana. I feel bad for you. Why don't you form a pact with me?"

A distorted and ominous voice snapped her thoughts as she looked around her surroundings. Not longer feeling pain as she stood up from the ground.

"Who are you? Where am I...?", Kian spoked nervously as she tries to see the mysterious shadow person.

"Oh, sorry for my bad manners. Let me show you who I REALLY am, Kiana", the voice laughed as if they are losing their voice.

The mysterious person suddenly transformed themselves as a three headed skeleton dragon in front of Kiana. Shocking her as she falls down to the floor. Terrified of what she is seeing, wanting to scream but her voice doesn't let her....

"Please don't kill me!"

"Kiana, you're already dead."

"......"

"Don't worry, you can be alive again if you agree to form a pact with me.".

"Why...?", Kiana looked at the dragon confused, asking the real question and worried if she has to do something worse...

"Because you deserve better, Kiana. Your family got killed right in front of you."

"......please don't remind me about that...I know and it's my fault....", Kiana cries as she finished her sentence, blaming herself more. Feeling useless and want to be with her family.

"No, it isn't your fault. It's that bastard! Clive Rosfield's father should die!"

"B-but we can't! I don't want Clive to hate me...."

"Very well, then. We wouldn't kill him but I want to taste those knights' souls!"

"No! You can't k--"

"They killed your family, right? Let me use your body to take their souls. Then, you can be alive. You don't need to worry, Kiana...", the three headed skeleton dragon spoked slowly but Kiana understood what they were saying to her.

"I....."

"You want to see Clive again. Then, make a deal. I wouldn't kill the Rosfield family and you let me use your body. Reviving you as I take those knights' souls. Deal?"

".....fine, it's a deal...tell me your name please...", Kiana spoked softly as she looked at the dragon, her brown eyes filled desperation and fear.

"I will tell you my name once we sealed our pact, Kiana."

The dragon decided to use two of their heads, getting closer to Kiana. She panicked, however, stayed calm as the dragon's heads were in the front of her small yet delicate hands. Biting gently to her forehand as Kiana winced in pain. A tattoo of the three headed skeleton dragon appeared in both of her hands. Then, it just disappeared as if it wasn't there at all.

"We formed a pact, Kiana. It seems that you are afraid of me... Let me turn into a "human" so you can feel comfortable."

"Huh? What are you do--"

The dragon slowly transformed themselves, their huge figure coming down as they are fully human in front of Kiana. Kiana's eyes widened as her face blushes. Covering her face as she looked away from the now, humanoid tall lady with long horns.

"WHY ARE YOUR...CHE--...I MEAN, WHY DID YOU DECIDE TO LOOK LIKE THAT??", Kiana yelled in embarrassment, not wanting to see them.

"I knew you will love it, Kiana! Who can resist my perfect body~?", they winked at Kiana as they know it will embarrassed Kiana even more. Giggling to themselves as Kiana panicked even more as she stuttered her words to them.

"Hey, I even have my huge chest that every men craves and every women desired to have so they can satisfy their love ones~"

"PLEASE STOP TALKING!"

"Alright, then. You will wear like this though, Kiana."

"WHAT?! NO! I CA--"

"Your body wouldn't change at all. Just on how you would look and your clothes, Kiana."

Kiana blushes more as she starts to imagine on how Clive will see her in that outfit....Kiana would rather die than exposing her skin to everyone. She really wants to talk with Clive again though....

"O-okay. Promise me that you wouldn't hurt Clive...."

"I will only take the souls of the knights. I promise, Kiana.", they smiled gleefully as their hands were on their hips.

"Okay, let's do it."

"My name is Fediel. Call my name as you raised both of you hands, Kiana!"

Kiana nodded and did exactly as she was told.

"COME TO ME, FEDIEL!", Kiana screamed the dragon's name as Fediel's shit eating grin appeared on their face. Getting excited to use Kiana's body and getting what they want.

Clive watches as Kiana's dead corpse in front of him, his mind racing as he looked at his father with such hatred and rage. Ready to attack his own father. Not caring if he is no longer part of Rosfield name. He would rather die with Kiana than staying with here.

"FATHER! I WILL KILL YOU! I SWEAR YOU WILL BEGGED FOR MERC--"

Clive wasn't able to finish his sentence as purple flames blasted all around the castle and Kiana.... Clive looked rapidly towards the purple flames, wondering what's going on. A figure slowly approached out of the flames, a young lady looked down as they continued walking towards the knights.

"Kiana...is that you?", Clive spoked to the young lady in a concerned tone, hoping for Kiana to answer him.

"No! My name is Fediel!! TIME TO DIE, YOU MORTALS!!", Kiana laughed maniacally, her voice is combined with hers and Fediel. Echoing to each other as Kiana slaughtered every knights. Beheading and cutting their flesh to pieces. Kiana is no longer wearing her maiden dress and she appears to have long horns in her head. Kiana's brown braid hair turned grayish as her long hair got much longer. Clive and his family watched in horror, seeing the shy yet sweet Kiana killing the knights with no mercy. As if she is enjoying her kills.....

"OH! I AM SO DELIGHTED TO BE BACK! I WILL GET ALL OF YOUR SOULS AND THEY WILL BE MINE!", Kiana grinned as she walked towards to the last knight. The knight begging for their life to Kiana before ending their life. Blood splattered in her face and her body as she drinks their blood. Kiana turned away from the dead knight and looked at Lord Rosfield. Fearing for his life but mostly for his sons. Shielding Joshua as Kiana laughed at his attempt to protect his second son.

"I am not going to kill you. I promise Kiana that I will use her body to kill your knights."

"WHAT ARE YOU?! LEAVE NOW!"

"Oh, you don't tell me what to do. Kiana needs to say her goodbye first~"

Kiana closed her purple eyes and opened her brown eyes as she witnessed what Fediel did to the knights.... She still has her grayish hair and sighed to herself. She cries as she looked at Clive and Joshua. Seeing fear in their eyes as she starts to talk with them.

"I'm sorry Clive....Joshua.....please forgive me....you will never see me again....", Kiana smiled sadly to them as her tears falls down from her eyes. Using her powers to take her dead family with her, her skeleton wings appears in front of them.

"Goodbye Clive...."

"Wait, don’t leave Kiana!", Clive screamed her name as she used her wings, flying high to the sky. Taking her family as she finds a place to bury them.... Clive sees her from a far distance before he can no longer see Kiana anymore....

Clive collapsed to the ground and screamed her name, wanting her to come back to him.

"DON'T LEAVE ME, KIANA! I PROMISE THAT I WILL PROTECT YOU!"

"PLEASE COME BACK TO ME, KIANAAA!"

Clive cries as he felt unworthy to save his true love. Vowing to himself that he will get more stronger than before.

"I will find you, Kiana. I don't care if it'll take me days, months, or even years. You wouldn't suffer alone. Wait for me, my beautiful angel....

The demon masked man laughed as he walked away from the scene. Seeing the mysterious hooded man and smirked at them, patting their shoulder as they began to talk.

"My job is done, you can begin yours. Let's continue working together."

The mysterious hooded man smirked as well and nodded. Waiting for his time to strike as the sun slowly goes down, showing that it will be night. Then, he can bring more suffering and pain to Clive Rosfield and his family....

Chapter 1 end ☆

#HI MY FRIEND!! HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOYED READING THIS CHAPTER 1 FOR MY CLIVE X OC!! #TOOK A LONG WHILE BUT HERE YOU GO!! #definitely will write more for them!! >:3 #final fantasy #ff16 #final fantasy 16 #ffxvi #final fantasy xvi #ff #ff16 oc #clive rosfield #clive rosfield x me #clive rosfield x oc #clive x oc #ffxvi clive x oc #friend's oc #jill warrick #torgal #my oc #kiana fanfic #my fanfic #clive

[camo1000le]

Give us your Oweddy thoughts!!! I love your art of them so much I want to hear your thoughts <3

Awww tysm 🥺💞 I love drawing them, to the point I'm geniunely worried

I have a lot of specific hcs about them (mostly because I'm slowly stealing them to turn them into OCs for... something) so here's a little rundown in their story! (Let's hope it's actually little!!)

AKA long post weird AU you released a beast (me infodumping)

When they're tiny:

They met when they're 12 at their new school: Owynn moved because of bullying (the kids used to make fun of him bc he was tall/redhead/has heterocromia and even cut his hair, that's why he has it very short now) and Freddy moved to a whole new country (from Spain to wherever fhs happens). Freddy is Mexican while Owynn's dad is swedish (he was not born there)

They find eachother to be very weird but share many tastes and life events, like the bullying and missing a parent (Owynn is more direct and likes to insult his mom while Freddy doesn't talk abt it- Ow didn't even knew he had an adoptive dad).

They form a music duo for the spring event, since they were such good friends maybe they could work together well! Also Freddy acts kinda weird and sometimes forgets they have rehearsals after-hours but it doesn't matter bc he says sorry and he's cute!!

There's a whole drama with Owynn's parents in the middle of that but i wont bore you with that (unless you want me to)

Anyways the event happens Owynn can't come in time so Freddy goes alone and he wins but ow feels betrayed and blah blah blah they're enemies now and he hates Freddy (a 12 years old kid with a lot of mental troubles for that age)

Bc yes Fred is there but Owynn ofc didn't know, even if he actually talked very often with him too. In fact is kinda his fault Fred makes fun of Freddy so much (He's mad he lost his only best friend 🥺)

(Guess who remembers the rehearsals and the songs and owen cursing his mom)

Middle part where we watch Owynn go insane:

Literally. They kinda hate everyone but their dad now.

Moved school again, classmate with Abby and company actually! (Tho y'know abby she's... insane) so they don't talk. Also the Nightmares used to live closer to that school so they bullied him there until Owynn broke all of Onnie's teeth.

They meet Ttrap too: he's older in my AU (while ow is 15 he would be 17), he tries to get Owynn to therapy bc it's really fucking weird/sad he only talks abt Freddy or abt how much they dislike themself so. Yeah. He succeds and Owynn gets... to move schools again, yay!!

Ow starts developing schizoprenia, doesn't get the diagnosis until very later. (Prodomal stage/negative symptoms rn)

Also kinda starts discovering himself (being gay/nonbinary, doesn't really ditch the he/him pronouns until much later). Also dyes their hair purple

I don't have recent drawings of cringy sad 15y/o owen

What would equal the 1st season of the series:

Freddy moves to the HS and says his funny discourse (qué? Que quién soy yo? 🤓) Who would've though a certain kid that hates him was there to see it and died right there.

After realizing they share classroom Owynn pressures Ttrap into changing them to another one, hides his freckles/dyes his hair a darker color/uses normal glasses to not be recognized. Explaining his absence from the 1st season /j

So we have time to look at Freddy. He's struggling, Fred is being annoying; they explode at the camp where Freddy bumps into Owen who tells him to fuck off and never talk to them bc they hate him and Freddy says: "who are you?" to them. :D

Fred facepalms and takes control of the body.

Owynn develops his plan to destroy Freddy's band or whatever. Also dyes his hair again.

2nd season!!

And Owynn is in full delusional mode. The whole 'boss' thing is Eak and Ttrap going along with them so they can decompress lol

He does his little introduction and dumb plans to sabotage that obviously don't work at the end but they're actually very good bc he... actually does know what he's doing (making usagi & loon have trouble/separate golden from the group/the whole Toys thing)

But eventually it doesn't matter/the spring event thing happens ; Owynn gets hit by a car and breaks their arm

The secret 3rd season // last school year

Owynn goes back to lay low, gets his schizophrenia diagnosis so therapy+meds!! Good for them!

Freddy gets the therapy+meds combo too! Fred is chilling now :]

So Freddy now attempts to talk to Owynn but they run away from him to not cause him trouble anymore. And that goes for a while until they talk it out: They'll get time to talk alone, but Freddy also wants them to meet the rest of his band so they can get friends, Owynn accepts; but isn't a fan lf the idea.

Eventually they fall in love again (fall? Ow never stopped liking him honestly) and they date. But it takes a very long time to get there but they're so very lovely <3

ALSO yes Fred and Owynn also fix their relationship, they're besties again <3

#fnafhs #owynn #freddy fnafhs #fred fnafhs #oweddy #owynn x freddy #owynn x fred #if you squint #fnafhs au #thanks for the ask really; i love talking about my blorbos #this is just the base AU there's another one (the swap au) #hey guys are you all owed-phobic like twt or are you normal #because i skipped a lot of strong thoughts to keep this clean .......

[fringyrasa]

A Detailed Account Of Skeen's Bullshit (ANDOR SPOILERS)

I've seen quite a few people react to Cassian's quickdraw on Skeen and suggesting that Skeen could've been testing Cassian. There's a number of reasons why I think that's not correct, but also want to just pinpoint some things here, mostly from Episode 5 that show Skeen's actions and how it played into his endgame:

1.) From the very beginning of episode 5, Skeen takes Cassian's stuff and starts inspecting it for clues. He claims Vel told him to do this, dares Cassian to ask her, but it seems more like Skeen did this on his own. His manipulation starts within seconds because he tells Cassian he can't be mad, he's luck they didn't kill him. He then tries to make a connection between him and Cassian based on their backstories of prison time. He questions how Cassian has a corp gun, and from the conversation it even feels like maybe Cassian killed the person to take his gun (We know he didn't). He tells Cassian that even the others don't know about his prison time which should be red flag number one that Vel hasn't vetted everyone as much as she'd probably like. So when Cassian kills him and reveals Skeen's double cross, Vel's response of he would never do that, we understand that Vel didn't really know Skeen. His story is very vague on purpose. He did prison time, but we don't know what for. He tells Cassian revenge is enough of a motivation point for now. And speaking of his story-

2.) Let's talk about this now known to be completely made up story. Skeen says the empire flooded his brother's farming. His brother couldn't take it so he filled his pocked with stones and killed himself drowning. What's interesting about this story is how light on details it is. It's meant to be short and shocking. Most people would probably just say shit I'm sorry, or accept his apology. But worth noting is Cassian is able to stick in a question: What was he farming? Cassian's trying to trip up Skeen to see how much of the story he can get, the same way Skeen starts to question what Cassian actually believes in their conversation with Nemik. Skeen is able to respond quickly. Interesting that his brother's occupation just happened to tie in with the motto of the axe forgets but the tree remembers. Totally head canon, I think Skeen was able to say this because of the motto and it just fit or it's possibly someone else's story he got from prison and used for himself. Although Skeen doesn't know it, this is another part of manipulation because a dead brother most likely hits personally for Cassian, who is still searching for his sister.

3.) Now let's get into the big moment in episode 5 when Skeen takes the Kyber off of Cassian and demands to know answers. They are a day away from the heist and he can't go on just hunches anymore. He needs to know what Cassian's deal is and if this is a threat. Cassian comes clean that he's being paid for the job and it now all forms into place. Cassian isn't a true believer, someone who would object to taking the money, he's here for just that. I believe in this moment, Skeen believes he can have Cassian in on his attempt to take the money. The brother story is meant to bring them a bit closer together, but not something so much that Skeen thinks the reveal of his lie would effect Cassian the way it did.

4.) Let's also talk about the information about the crew that Skeen shares. Anything that seems personal, is really just what he thinks would help or hinder his attempt. The only thing he shares about Taramyn is that he's an ex-stormtrooper and that it caused issues with Cinta, something he could exploit if he needed to. His first remarks about Cinta are that she's in a relationship with Vel, which means those two will be alligned together and anything he did against one of them, would be met with fury by the other. We don't hear much about Gorn from him, but we see he reports to Gorn as soon as he arrives in Episode 4, showing that he knows Gorn is a leader, and possibly wanted to rile him up so that Gorn would be on his side of kicking Cassian out. What we know of Gorn actually comes from Vel, who unlike Skeen, tells Cassian personal information. Why he specifically is in the rebellion, not what their skill or worth is. Yes, Cinta's family being killed by stormtroopers is personal, but it's framed with how it could effect the friction between Taramyn and Cinta, which is something Skeen could want.

5.) A quick note on Skeen's presence during the heist. He actually doesn't do much once the heist begins. A lot of camera attention is spent on the others during the stand off and them taking hostages. He does get quite a bit of camera time telling the guards that they're gonna load the money. Once the vault is opened, Skeen takes a look, a look of greed and lust, and then bellows for them to start getting the money. Skeen's importance to the heist only really comes in when it's about the money.

6.) Okay, this one is big because it's not seen by other characters and it's just here for the audience to tell us who Skeen really is. The whole covering situation. During the firefight, Cassian asks Nemik for cover and we see how it's supposed to go: Nemik continues to draw fire until Cassian gets to his location. But then, when Taramyn asks for cover, Skeen is reluctant. He moves from his corner and takes one shot, once Taramyn has made his run from Skeen, Skeen moves right back behind the corner and does not continue to provide cover, which allows the Imperial to have a clean shot and kill Taramyn. I don't think this was some grand plan from Skeen to get Taramyn out of the picture, but shows that Skeen was not going to risk his life for the others, like Nemik did for Cassian. Skeen cost Taramyn's life so that he would still be fine.

7.) One thing I wanna throw here is that while I do think Skeen really pushed on the doctor thing because it would be easier to hatch his plan, I do think he genuinely wanted to help Nemik. He had a soft spot for the kid, but not so soft that he would do something that would change his mission (Read: Taramyn) Going to the doctor would separate him and Vel and allow him to make his pitch to Cassian. Should also be noted that if things went according to plan, he would've had to deal with Taramyn and possibly Gorn (I'm 50/50 on if the plan was going to be that Gorn left with them or if he stayed behind and still provided his cover) It's possible his plan would've been to get the surprise on them and either take out or knock out Gorn and Taramyn and then make his pitch to Cassian for them to get rid of Vel and Nemik and split the money.

8.) So, was Gorn testing him? No. What would the reason for the test be? Had Gorn done this in episode 5, maybe. It could've been a way to test out if Cassian was really there for the rebellion or for the money. Once Skeen knows he's getting paid and he's here for that money, there's no reason to do this. He's not Nemik, he's not a true believer of the cause. This wasn't a test, it was a pitch. A pitch that he showed his hand. Skeen maybe could've had a better pitch if he kept up the story about his brother, but once he revealed it was bullshit, there was no reason for Cassian to trust him.

9.) So why did Cassian kill him? A couple things here. Let's say Cassian says no way. Skeen could take Cassian hostage to fly the ship (I want to throw in here that I believe the reason Skeen even pitched Cassian, is because he didn't know how to fly the vessel. Vel might not know how to fly it either, but she can radio in for a pick up) And then make Cassian fly the vessel to the moon he was talking about where he could kill Cassian and take the money. Had Cassian gone along with the plan, the same outcome. He kills Cassian once they get where they are and he takes all the money. No matter what Cassian decided to do, Skeen would be a threat. And considering how Vel responded, we know that she wouldn't have believed Cassian had he told her the truth with Skeen still alive. I never felt Vel truly trusted Cassian, which would help Skeen's case.

10.) So Skeen was a bullshitter. He had motives to take the money I believe from the beginning and since we met him, he was trying to have his plan go through. I think had Gorn and Taramyn lived, I doubt he would've been able to pull it off. He was constantly manipulating Cassian, with his "I'm from the gutter too" to get Cassian on his side. Cassian made the only right move, which was to kill him. Something Skeen should've seen as a possibility as Cassian was ready to draw on him when he took the kyber. They have been setting all this up, especially from episode 5. So I don't want to hear it was filler or boring, they were showing you who Skeen really was.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

#Andor #Andor Spoilers #Cassian Andor #Skeen

[autumnbell32]

*tw: depression, SI talk

I Don't Wear Mascara Anymore

I want to live, I just can't handle living at this point. And trying to explain that distinction to doctors is tricky business. "Please help me BEFORE I get to this point," I've begged over and over again. Even when you aren't at that point, even mentioning that point is risky because there isn't any room for talking about it. I can't speak for everyone, but living in the silence of long term mental illness is deafening- you literally lose any source of human noise around you. People stop understanding you, people expect you to stop talking about it even though it puts a grey veil over all of your days, people blame you, people get frustrated, people go away. Especially if it has been a long battle. I didn't choose this battle, but the fact that I keep choosing to fight it also gets stifled in the silence.

I sent a message to my doctor a few days ago telling him that these mood cycles- especially since they are happening around my period almost every month- aren't sustainable for me anymore. No one should expect me just to be ok with building myself up for two weeks out of the month, only to fall again for the last two weeks. I'm trying to do my part- I workout three days a week, I still go to work, etc etc etc. I walk talk and breathe. I slip up, though, when the symptoms are bad- I numb out with glucose because there isn't really any comfort in my life. And I'm in therapy to address that. I made my motivation very clear in the message- I will do more work to lessen the symptoms of this illness, but I can't do it alone and I can't continue on this particular path. I need my doctor's help- maybe he needs to recognize that functioning does not nullify suffering. I'm suffering immensely.

I was met with a call from the nurse saying I needed to go to the ER. "Why? I'm not su*cidal, I'm not going to hurt anyone else, and the doctor said I'm medication resistant so what would the point be? I don't fit the criteria." The nurse put me on hold and put an NP, who I have never in my life talked to, on the phone to school me on the legality of making sure I'm safe. And to ask me what I expect an 8-5 doctor's office to actually do for me. And to tell me she wasn't even sure there is anything that could help me anymore.

The answer can't always be hospitalization, there are a lot of us that are resilient but still suffering and I wish doctors would stop being comfortable with their script pads and inpatient orders. There is a portion of us that that does not help anymore, so we get written off in another way. Maybe it is just the people in my life, I'd be so glad to know that others struggling with long term mental illness have people to be patient with them and remind them of who they are. But people in my life are ok with me remaining silent and hidden. Realizing that you might be another face that fades someday because of a mental illness is an immediate gut drop. Every time I have realized that possibility, I see myself standing at the mouth of some source of human existence and I swear I feel ego death (and not in a good way).

After seeing my screen name in a depression support chat, another member noted that it is a reference to a piece of classic literature. "Yes, it is," I responded. And then I cried, because intractable mental illness makes you forget yourself- your preferences, your humanity (you become walking pain). You lose your visibility. Even if you do remember, those things aren't easily accessible when sick. Jesus, even I am getting sick of talking about all of this. Scream into the void long enough, and you are going to lose your fucking voice.

My name is Ashley and I love classic literature and horror movies and warm, rainy days and the smell of peonies and baking and helping others and weird 80s-inspired synth music and running and animals. I'm hoping that, someday in the near future, I will want to fill my apartment with plants and be semi-good at trail running and I will want to write most days and I will have a partner that will show me what love without immense pain looks like and I will want to cook for myself more and I will be able to travel and I will be able to recover some of the life that I have lost. My name is Ashley and, someday soon, I hope that I will be able to make it through a day without crying.

#mental illness #bipolar type ii #anxiety disorder #cptsd #ed nos #pmdd #doctors #nurses #treatment resistant depression #writing #writeblr #writer

[aromanticmina]

Coming out and what followed: my experience

tw: vent,biphobia,guilt,mentions of transphobia (non-binary centric), homophobia,and suicidal thoughts.

It was almost two years ago,and yeah,it didn't went as expected.

I came out to my mom as bi,she said things like "you're just confused" "how can you say that?" and,my personal favourite(/s) "is because something I did?" (as if my bisexuality was a product of her raising me wrong or something)

at the end she was,supposedly, "open to the idea that I might be bi" but I just knew she still thought I was confused, actually, she said it herself: "I'm really wishing that you're just confused,otherwise,well,I guess I'll have to accept it" (as if my bisexuality was a deathly illness and she had to go through like, the 5 stages of grief before accepting it)

and to say that her reaction fucked me up wouldn't be surprising to anyone,she shattered almost every ounce of confidence I had in my identity and my hope for the future (now I can't say I'm bi out loud without crying),imagine how I felt when she reacted that way to me coming out as bi,I could only think "if this is how she reacts to my sexuality, what would happen if she knew I'm trans? genderfluid? maybe greyromantic? (I was still questoning I belive)" even if she said she still loved me, I was devastated.

I'm not going to talk in depth about the six months of daily suicidal and self-destructive thoughts, I'm just going to say: my mental health was really damaged (I'm better now,but I'm easily triggered,I need therapy)

a lot of conversations later,she apologized for everything she said,even if she insisted she didn't remember everything she said (how can you be genuinely sorry for something you don't even remember?,how can you forget the words that make my life hell?) and she said that I should be more sympathetic to her,that I should be more understanding of her because she grew up in a time when none of this things were normalized, that she's trying her best,and I get it but I just can't I can't forgive her I can't I can't- and I feel so guilty for it because she loves me but that is not enough,I feel guilty for feeling this way because I love her too,so much,I can't not love her.

but she has to calm herself down when I say I'm bi,she gasped in horror when I mentioned to her that I had kissed a girl before, and then just tried to convince herself that it was just because I was "young and curious and confused", she says she accepts me now but I don't think she's ever tried to educate herself more about bisexuality or how to support me better.

have you ever met someone who's a good person but the only thing they have wrong is that they are (however mildly or strongly) queerphobic? and because it affects you you suddenly can't see that person in the same light but you feel bad because you really liked that person?

anyways,she also discovered that I'm aromantic through my old twitter account,but I don't think she really understood what that means (which,I honestly prefer,I can't imagine how she'll react to knowing that I'm not romantically attracted to people but I still feel sexual attraction)

and in one conversation we were having the topic of nonbinary people came out and even when I tried to explain it to her she said: "if they're not woman,or men,what are they, animals?" (as if our gender is the thing that makes us human) and at that moment I knew that if I tried to come out as genderfluid to her,she wouldn't understand it.

the worst thing is that she may be the best reaction I get from someone of my family,my aunt is religiously homophobic (god created man and woman blah blah blah),my family from my father's side (and himself) are as well,my mom's cousins may be more understanding,but I honestly can't bring myself to trust anyone of my family with this after what happened with my mom

I don't know how to end this,I just feel really lonely and like everyone I'll ever meet will be mildly queerphobic at best and that I'll never get to be fully comfortably myself with someone.

#vent #tw vent #tw sui ideation #coming out #biphobia #bisexual #genderfluid #nonbinary #personal #raysaystuff #aroallo

[twntyfiveotwo]

everyone told me it was just a phase when i told them i missed you

but it's been a year. it's been a whole fking year. i tried so hard to persuade myself that it was only a process of grief - granted, because i know i can't keep you around as a friend when my feelings to you are more than friends. is it really? do grief processes take so long to get over? cause im tired. im tired of missing you, im tired of wanting you back, im tired of wanting to be her. heck, tbh i dont even want to be her lmao. if it wasnt for the fact that she's the one by your side, she's not one of those girls i inspire to be like. honestly, this is not coming from a place of hate because i find her really gorgeous physically, and i am sure she is happy/proud of the person she is. we're just different, and we have different tastes in the things we enjoy or like. that's it. at this point i dont even relate to the song "heather" anymore. i dont want to be fking heather. all i want is to be loved by you. but that is just a want, and santa claus dont exist in real life, am i right.

it's going to be 2024 in a few days. and im done. i dont wanna miss you anymore. im going to push myself into acceptance that this friendship is over whether either of us wants it or not. "i wish nothing changes between us". ha, how selfish of you to ask that from me knowing FULL WELL i've always loved you. or maybe you didnt know because i was jumping in and out of relationships non stop. trying to fill a void inside. but you knew at one point that i did love you, and maybe you didn't love me. or maybe you did but you never had the courage back then. but does the truth matter? no. because whatever the truth was back then, that truth stays there. and the present truth is that we are both in our own long term relationships, we have found our own persons. i wont even doubt, i really think she deserves you much more than me. pft, i dont mean it in the altruistic way because i'm no longer the same person as i was in the past who is always trying to be morally "right". idw to pretend and shower her w praises because i've finally learnt to be honest w myself. i dont give no fks about her. no disrespect but idk her. all i care about is you. and the only reason why i no longer talk to you is because i respect YOUR rs, and i dont want to cause you unnecessary stress.

at the same time, it also took me years to realise i've always loved you. i constantly tried to ignore the tingling feeling in my stomach everytime we met up as friends even when i was attached in the past. i still remember, i got together w my first boyfriend on my bus trip home after you rejected my confession. and then since then, i was just constantly jumping in and out of relationships/situationships. and always talking to you when i get my heart broken, drinking my butt off. where did you even get the patience to deal w my bullshit all the fking time. i got to say hats off to you. ha... but it doesnt matter anymore.

you know what made me realised that i miss you and not the memories we shared? because i actually dont have any vivid memories of us in my head anymore. it's all blurred. i remember crashing your house, i remember us watching a horror movie in the theatres together, i remember you calling me out for being plain stupid. but they're just sweeping memories, i can't remember any specific actions or a specific memory of us. what i do remember, is how safe i feel with you. how gentle you always were with me. how the people around me pointed out that it was the first time they saw me looking happy after my depression. i meant it when i said you felt like home to me. because i cant forget this feeling, and i cant seem to find this feeling w anyone else. but HA darling boy, you're someone else's home now. and i wish you happiness. but i also want you out of my mind. im sick of you creeping into my head when i have nothing to keep me busy. and i mean even on days when im busy and there are pockets of free time you would pop up too. it's draining, it's exhausting, knowing full well you appearing in my mind or my dreams doesn't mean that i get to see you irl. i had this insane thought whereby i would camp at your house void deck to see a hint of you before 2023 ends. but i think i would save myself from the embarrassment of acting like a stalking creepo. i want to let you go, i want to let you out. not for you, but for myself. because this is plain torture. because you living in my head rent free throughout 2023 has been causing me constant pain. im always upset. and ive been hurting innocent people over it. it's not fair for me, it's not fair for them. i want to breathe, i want to sleep at night in peace. i dont want to pray in desperation before my sleep wishing that you would appear in my dream, when there is a lucky girl out there who is sleeping with you right next to her. pls just go, pls be gone. let 2023 mark the end of our long, bittersweet friendship.

thank you for teaching me to never be self-deprecating to myself.

thank you for making me feel loved even if you never really did love me.

thank you for always being there.

"hey now" always sounded so gentle when it came from you, i will be forgetting those words and how they felt for me.

i will stop looking for shadows of you in every song i listen, every game i play or every place i visit.

we had 6 years of memories.... it wont be easy but i will try to not think about you.

you were my finest scenary, my home. but it's time i move on and live a life of my own without your shadow.

i loved you, always did, but i hope not anymore.

i will try to stop loving you from now. may you always stay loved by someone else.

and i know you would continue to stay the happiest, even without me around. because you've got her now.

farewell, always.

[xoteajays]

My problem with sleeping? Everyone and everything's just so fucking noisy. My family, my neighbors, animals. So much noise is preventing me from actually sleeping. I'd have neighbors would have loud parties almost every night with horrible music. Or during the day would be all the neighbors driving around, loud music, mowing the law, even dogs barking. Noise. No matter what happens any time, I really can't sleep.

I'm surprised that I haven't murdered anyone yet. They're just so loud.

Humans need to stop existing now.

~

The scene with the Redrum drug was vague.. I'll have to pay attention next time I rewatch H&L again. Especially the show, since the show is probably where I remember that scene. I remember the drug as being a red powder. So either eating it, snorting it, consuming it that way.

Slight spoiler from Worst movie, "Kidra specialized in creating and selling a drug called Redrum, which can make the user feel painless."

If that version of the Redrum drug is anything like the original drug, it would be a drug that makes you feel painless. Don't know how that is.

Or! At the very least. Did one short season, like an epilogue season, to officially wrap up more story. In my opinion. Just to see most of these characters one last time, and to officially give them a better ending.

But I might be selfish in saying that though, not that it would happen.

The inside of the gambling business is interesting because that place seems like a legitimate business. Even though it's obviously not that.

And Hyuga's carelessly sitting on his car, not caring if he falls off, also gets run over too while they're at it. Seriously, Hyuga? What the fuck.

And Rocky's shiny grilled teeth!

Don't forget about stripper Rocky too.

I know, I know.. I'm getting ahead of myself again. Like I always do.

I might possibly write for Alice In Borderland (if and when I'm actually writing for once). At least for the first two seasons but not sure about season three yet since who knows what might happened with that.

But I did tell you before. I'm just an overly detailed person whenever it comes to my work. Including details that most people never care for. I have always been like this.. Why do you think my characters are really overly detailed with any and every detail you could think of for them.

I'm always prepared.

Because I'm always doing too much research about everything you're able to think of. That most people have no interest in. My head hurts.

~

Not surprised. Usually the higher up bosses would know about that in shows and movies like this. Well.. They should since they were they're the ones to give the character that job. But I wish his wife knew about it. At least for safety reasons. But then again, it seems like she's really emotionally attached to her ex though (or what their relationship is).

I haven't met aither man yet... But some small part of me may want to fuck one or even both of them. Especially mafia guy. Don't judge me. I am a person who has a type with criminal men. Like there is Tommy, Rocky, Vincenzo, maybe even this guy too. I don't know yet. But I just have to say they are the beauty, brains and brawn with a lot of wealth.

Ignore me.

So I can't blame her.

Imagine wanting to be with a fictional character, yet realizing you just weren't born in the era that the story takes place in. Seems so funny.

I can "take abuse quietly" for the most part. If you ever met my family, you would understand that. But, in general, how I would act and react in situations does depend on everything. The situation. The person or people involved. What might cause me to react negatively toward the people. Usually I walk away if I can. But if I'm at that breaking point in these situations, I will snap out at people. Doesn't matter who it is.

But.. I think there was only a couple times that I've cried out in public, mostly because I was so overwhelmed that I had a mental breakdown type of crying. But that was because my anxiety was worse back then though, now my anxiety is controlled better in any of those situations.

I don't mind drinking wine every once in a while but it depends on the brand I'm drinking because there are some brands that I've just never liked that taste of. But in general, I'd usually tend to prefer more fruity cocktails that have a lot of alcohol but doesn't taste like alcohol (if the drinks are mixed right). Sometimes long island iced teas too. I am not fond of beer. Never had brandy, cognac, whiskey or even tequila so I'd rather not comment on those drinks. And hate vodka. That I know of.

I've never drank so much alcohol that I would get myself sick like this, I've never done that in my entire life. And I'd never intend that either.

We have those buildings here in America. Where there would be quite a few businesses in one building, depending on which business are in those buildings. But yeah.. We have businesses like that here too.

I'm only alternating with shows and movies right now, because of this season. Because most of the horror shows and movies usually end up removed after Halloween. So I'm watching what I can now before that happens. But that would only happen with certain channels though.

oh god neighbours can be the worst. i had my neighbours - who are right next to my bedroom window - partying loud enough for my parents on the other side of our house to hear until like 2-3am, which was when my mum went out to tell them to take their party inside. like okay it was a weekend, but cmon! you’re in an area where the houses are very close together! it’s bad enough dealing with their constantly barking dog. even my two dogs don’t bark as much combined as their single dog does.

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was that in the first movie or the second? i watched the first worst movie - apparently i just completely forgot how the bad guys in that took the drugs before the big finale fight.

yea like a short series just to tie up the last loose ends. murayama got a solid ending to his arc, what about the rest of the leaders?

like he has no grip on the top of that car. the driver’s gonna take one corner too fast and hyuga’s just gonna go sliding right off. how does he not already have gravel rash?

i’ve enjoyed writing for aib. i really like coming up with the games. it’ll be fun to write up a new set for the next season, i’m assuming they’ll be playing new games since it seems like a rip to just do the ones they’ve already done, but i haven’t read the retry manga so i don’t know.

~

the wife knows now and i think they’ve got a more open line of contact since the cop just got a cellphone. she’s not overly attached to the gang boss, she apparently hasn’t seen him since they were teenagers. he is very hung up on her though. idk if they dated as teens, but he was very obvious about his crush on her.

i’m a fan of cocktails too, but it’s hard to find ones i like that don’t have vodka in them. even just one mixed drink of vodka can upset my stomach. i also fucking hate beer. the taste is just bad. i can sip wine every once in a while but i refuse to drink beer. i’m preferable rum, whiskey, alcoholic ciders or ginger beer. i’ve tried tequila in the past, but it’s not really for me.

it’s an australian right of passage to get knock out drunk when you turn 18 or sometimes 16! you get a bunch of your friends, hang out at one of their houses, and fuck it up with a bunch of disgusting mixed drinks until you throw up or pass out!

i’ve finished all 3 episodes of worst of evil now, so i have to wait til tomorrow or the day after for the next episode. so i guess i’ve got time to go back to the vincenzo episode i stopped in the middle of. or watch double mints, because it looks interesting, has a bunch of actors i know in it, and it’s gay and the two male leads are like. kinda awful to each other. i do enjoy the occasional fucked up ‘’‘romance’‘’.

#tj answers #long post // #long post anon

[manjiropie]

do whatever is in your mind.

Young Mikey x Reader!

Warn! no warnings today! enjoy!

It's not often Mikey and I have a quarrel. We do bicker here and there, but that's what happens between friends, right?

I've joined Toman for almost a year now– although I've known Manjiro for much longer. I met him through Emma, who is a big friend of mine for as long as I can remember. She was there for me at times when I felt like there was no exit, no light. She's an extremely important part of my life– of me.

I've come to realize that I have been spending more and more time near Mikey, which is not bad, I do enjoy his presence. He may look tough and intimidating but he's just like a mochi: freezing cold on the outside but melting saccharine inside. Now that I'm a part of the gang and actually get to know and participate, I've gotten closer to him. Here and there Mikey invites me out.

"So, it's like a date?" I'd smirk suggestively at him.

"In your dreams." He'd try to hide his smile and he'd look away.

However, there are a few little habits he has that tend to send me on a rage trip. I get mad easily. Things will likely set on fire quickly. It's not that I want to, but my mother is not one of the most patient people in the world and she tells me to cool down. As if.

This last week was the cherry on top.

Mikey had crossed the line. He had pissed me off in every single way possible. He pretended not to listen to me while he was eating. He would answer me in a "oh, I don't really fucking care about what you're talking about!" way. He tripped while he was laughing hysterically at something Draken had said and his pink lemonade was all over my white shirt. He drew in an assignment that was due to the next day for my math class. He told me off for no reason at all in front of everyone in the last Toman's meeting... all of that wasn't on purpose. I am aware of how incredibly short his attention spam is when it comes to not so important affairs. But, fuck, couldn't he just be a little nicer to me? At least during last week where I was having sharp cramps in my fucking uterus? Yeah, maybe he didn't know that because I try not to be so obvious. But when he told us we'd be training last thursday I almost laid on the ground in fetal position and cried for hours. I didn't! I fought and then went home and cried.

Then, this Saturday– today –he invited me to his house to hang out. Emma was with a friend and his grandfather was out of town. When he called me to his house we never did much. We'd watch TV, hang out on the couch discussing stupid stuff, we'd be on our phones... nothing so wow. It was still fun, though.

I wasn't in the best mood to leave my comfy bed but I was way less in the mood to fight him off over the phone. So I slid out of the bed and dressed the first jeans I saw laying on the end of my bed and the oversized Nirvana shirt hanging off my chair (it's actually my dad's shirt, shhh).

~

I knocked twice on his bedroom's door.

"Come in." He yelled from inside. I open the door and he's laying on the bed, his head hanging off of it and his hair is almost touching the floor. His face lit up and he rolled over so he laid on his stomach. I walk over and sit down beside him.

"What's up with the frown?" I didn't notice I was frowning to be honest. Guess the bad mood followed me here.

I shrug.

"Ugh, don't tell me you're in a bad mood." He whines. "I called you here to chill and you're already angry. What's up?" He lays on his pillow and swings his legs to place them on my lap. I huff and shove them off, getting up.

"You've been treating me like shit the whole week and now you wanna chill?" I say, more calm than I thought.

"I did not treat you like shit this week? When do I treat you like shit?" His tone was one of disbelief and confusion.

"Ah, Mikey. Embarrassing me in front of the rest of gang; spilling your drink on my school shirt, which is now stained; ignoring me or answering like you're bored..." I list them off on my fingers. "I am the one who asks, what's up with you?! God, you're always being so unpredictable, which is good sometimes but not like this! Not to me!"

I flop down on the couch, starting to get tired of this whole thing. Knowing Mikey, I know that he'll not lay down again.

"So you're the only one allowed to have bad days now?" He sits on the edge of his bed and I turn my head around lazily, uninterested, bored, like him.

"You were laughing incredibly loud with Takemitchi and Draken friday."

"You can be so annoying sometimes."

"Oh, I'm the annoying one now?" I stand up.

"If you don't like my company, why did you even come in first place?" He also stands. We don't have much height difference, but he's hardly two inches taller than me.

His voice is calm, like always. Which makes me infuriated. "Fucking hell! Does it hurt for you to apologize!?" My sudden outburst takes him on surprise, and me, too.

"I already apologized, stop whining about it."

"I'm not whining–"

"If you weren't," he walks to his desk and sets a cup that was once beside his bed down. "You would've dropped this matter before."

"You don't give a damn about what I feel, do you, Mikey?"

"What?" He turns around, brows knit together.

"You heard me. You made me have a bad week and the least you could do is apologize, you dumbass!" I stomp to his direction.

"I already did! Why don't you–"

"Shut up or I'll punch you." I say, slightly looking up.

His eyebrows twitch and he slowly tilts his head to the side, like a puppy. "Or what.. ?"

"Are you fucking deaf?" I point to my ears.

He comes a little closer. "You're gonna do what if I don't shut up?"

"I'm going to punch you if you don't stop being a brat." I sneer at him. My blood boiling. The stress from this shitty past week overflowing in that moment.

"Oh, yeah?" I could feel his breath oh my nose.

"What? Are you doubting me? I would." I jerk up an eyebrow. I've never fought physically with him. But it's not like I can't.

"I'd like to see you try." His eyes flicker to my lips for a brief second and my breath fails, making me cough.

"What? Can't punch me?" He amuses.

"Fuck you."

Suddenly I feel an arm sneak around my waist and in a second I'm chest to chest with Mikey. My eyes widen– his were peaceful as ever, although superior.

"Do it." He says, looking down at me.

The way he's holding me is making my head spin. True, Mikey is cute...

"Do what?"

He laughs at my confused expression. "I don't know... what did you say you'd do to me?"

Ha ha.

His hold on me tightens.

"Do whatever is on your mind." He says.

My eyes roam free between his eyes and his soft pink lips. Do whatever is on your mind.

If he knew what was on my mind, would he still allow me to?

"Do it," he encourages me once again, "aren't you the 'oh so brave' one? Punch me, yell at me, do whatever you want to me."

Those words were the last push I needed. My hands find the soft skin of his neck, hidden by his long hair. I pull him close and lock our lips together. I feel him making a little sound, I don't know if it was surprise or relief.

If by just looking at it his lips seemed soft, actually touching it felt like kissing cotton candy or guessing cloud shapes.

He didn't pull back, in fact, he held me with both hands. I have no clue how he did that but it seemed as though all of my worries dissipated as we kissed.

My heart was beating so fast that it made my chest hurt. My head started to pound when I spent a little too long without air. I pull back from his lips and keep my gaze on them as I breathe heavily.

"Hm." He hums quietly, almost dreamily if you'd ask me.

I look up at his face and smile a bit, noticing how his cheeks are pink. I lift an eyebrow up as if asking what he was thinking. He shakes his head and then puts his right hand on my cheek, caressing it. He kisses me again. This time is slower. As though being present in the moment. As if it were just me and him and nothing else.

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I hope you guys liked It! It was so pleasant writing this out of the small bits of ideas that I have. Don't forget: my requests are open. You can request anything! Thank you for reading! Oh, likes and reblogs help a lot! If you consider following it'd make me even happier <3

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[rosiesung]

7 Days || Y.JW

for @geminirules "Just Friends" collab

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Pairing: Jungwon x Fem!Reader

Genre: Fluff, Slight Angst, Friends to Lovers AU

Words: 3.63k

Warnings: Reader calls Jungwon a dick.

Synopsis: You are dared to pretend to be in a relationship with your best friend Jungwon. Initially, you go through with the childish challenge, knowing it will be insignificant to your friendship. But as the days pass, you begin to realise your true feelings for him. Will your revelations ruin your friendship? Or will something beautiful blossom because of them?

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"I dare you to pretend like you're dating Jungwon for a whole week."

You looked at your best friend with wide eyes, a similar expression of surprise on his face. There was no way you were going to do that. It would be way too awkward.

"Come on y/n. Don't be a party pooper. It's not like you guys are going to fall in love."

Of course things wouldn't turn out that way. No matter what, nothing would change the way you saw Jungwon. He would always remain your best friend and nothing more.

Jungwon looked too embarrassed to say anything. Both of you knew it was just a dare. What was the worst that could happen?

"Fine. Starting tomorrow Jungwon's my unofficial-official boyfriend," you announced, linking your arm with his. Jungwon hid his face in his hands as everyone around you screamed and cheered. This was going to be one interesting week.

~

☀︎ DAY 1 ☀︎

Since you only had to put on a show in front of your friends, you figured the best thing to do would be to hang out with Jungwon in solitude. He didn't have a problem with your plan. You both had been having playdates together ever since you were three. He was comfortable being alone with you.

Both of you met at your secret spot. A small grove behind the schoolyard. It was a place the two of you had found while skipping classes one day. Ever since then, this was where you spent time together whenever you needed some peace and quiet.

"I can't believe you actually agreed to this," Jungwon said, mindlessly plucking the grass he laid on. You sighed, staring at the row of trees beyond. "A dare's a dare. Besides, we have nothing to worry about because we don't have feelings for each other."

Jungwon sat up. "You know that we can't avoid all of them for the entire week right? They're literally planning to hang out at the cafe just so they can see us in the act." He sounded worried. There was no need to be.

"Of course I know that. So what? We'll let them see what they want to. It's not like they're going to make us kiss or something. The most we'll do is feed each other and hold hands."

Unlike Jungwon, you had already thought everything out. You knew how far to go while respecting the boundaries of your friendship. All Jungwon had to do was trust you.

He cringed in disgust at your words. "You're going to pay for landing me in this mess. We've barely even started and I already feel so miserable."

You patted his shoulder, flashing him an assuring smile. "You're not alone in your miser mister. After this is over, I'll do all your homework for you."

Jungwon laughed. "Learn how to do your own first. Then you can come and ruin mine."

~

☀︎ DAY 2 ☀︎

As Jungwon had predicted, your friends called you out to the cafe. Both of you were supposed to show up together. Jungwon met you a block away from the cafe, looking incredibly reluctant. "Are you sure you want to do this," he asked, just about ready to turn back around.

There was a determined look in your eyes. "Remember when he had to play Hansel and Gretel's parents for that play we did in preschool?" Jungwon nodded. He could never forget that day. "If we managed to get through that, we can get through this without a problem."

That made sense. Appreciative of your pep talk, Jungwon took your hand and whisked you away to the cafe.

By the time you reached your destination, both your hands were sweaty. Jungwon was just as nervous as you were. Not only because you had to pretend like you were dating, but also because your friends weren't going to miss the opportunity to tease you.

Seeing you two enter hand in hand, everyone began hooting and cheering. Jungwon's cheeks flushed almost immediately. You had to drag him towards the table you were supposed to sit at. "It's nice to see you two arriving together," one of your friends said, making space for you.

Taking a seat, you watched in horror as they placed a glass of juice with two straws in front of you both. No one had to explain what its purpose was. You glanced at Jungwon whose eyes were fixated on the glass hesitantly.

"If we get this over with now we'll be at peace," you whispered, leaning forward to place one of the straws between your lips. You looked away when Jungwon did the same, feeling the heat in his face on your cheek. You were certain you had never downed a drink so fast in your life. It didn't take long for you to finish the contents of the glass, quickly sitting back up to catch your breath. Your friends couldn't seem to get enough of the event, laughing and clapping avidly.

"You guys are so cute," some said. "Both of you would make such a nice couple in reality," said others.

Sitting there amongst your terribly evil friends, you wondered how you were going to get through the next five days with Jungwon.

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☀︎ DAY 3 ☀︎

Your friends had invited you to another escapade at the park. You couldn't tell what they had in plan this time but you were sure it wasn't going to be enjoyable. At least this time, you and Jungwon didn't have to show up hand in hand.

When you reached the park, Jungwon was already there. Your friends beckoned you over, making you stand next to him.

"Now that our subjects have arrived, here's your to-do list. First, remain holding hands the entire time we are here. Second, Jungwon, give y/n your jacket if she starts feeling cold. Third, walk her back home and make sure you give her a nice, sweet little kiss before she goes inside."

Jungwon let out a noise of surprise. He wanted to run as far as he could and never come back. Holding your hand was fine. He had gotten used to it because of the previous day. He didn't mind giving you his jacket, but you were already wearing one so he didn't see why he would find the need to. Jungwon could do many things. But kissing you was not one of them. It didn't matter if it was on your cheek, your forehead, or the back of your hand, because there was no way on earth that he would bring his lips anywhere near yours.

What neither of you realized was that your friends were willing to go to the farthest lengths to make sure you went through with their tasks. They made you two walk in front of them so that they could see your hands intertwined. When the sun went down and the air started getting colder, they made you take your jacket off so that Jungwon would be left with no choice but to give you his. Just when it seemed like your night of torture would come to an end, they even made you share a single cone of ice cream. When it was finally time to go home, two of your friends followed behind you to make sure that Jungwon did his bidding. It was awkward enough walking through your neighborhood hand in hand. Those who knew you cast looks of confusion and surprise upon you two. Eventually, you reached your doorstep. Jungwon let go of your hand, standing in front of you. He looked everywhere but at you, avoiding your gaze. You glanced behind your shoulder, rolling your eyes when you saw your two friends filming you from behind your neighbor's car. They weren't even attempting to be discrete.

"Hurry up and kiss me already. This is too embarrassing," you urged, slapping Jungwon's arm. He sucked in a breath, pressing his lips in a thin line. "Do you think it's not for me? I mean, I'm the one who has to kiss you for heaven's sake."

"Stop pitying yourself and just get on with it. The longer we stand here the more reason they'll have to punish us tomorrow."

Jungwon stared at you long and hard. He squeezed his eyes shut and leaned forward, pressing his lips onto yours without a second thought. You froze, eyes going so wide they might have popped out of your head. Even though it was probably only for two seconds, it felt like an eternity. Time froze as you stood in the foreign feeling of his lips on yours. He pulled away almost immediately, skipping down your driveway as fast as he could with a short wave and 'good night'. Still stunned, you entered your home, breaking into a smile when you closed the door.

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☀︎ DAY 4 ☀︎

The next day, Jungwon asked you to meet him at your secret spot. So far, your friends hadn't made any plans to get you together. You saw Jungwon sitting in the middle of the grove, laying down on the damp grass as he usually did. Walking over, you sat down beside him, flicking his forehead so that he would open his eyes.

He grinned on seeing you, sitting up with a soft groan. "So, how was your night?"

You furrowed your brows at the question. It wasn't like him to ask you things like that. But you decided to overlook it. Maybe he was still feeling a bit awkward after the kiss you both hard shared the previous night.

You shrugged. "It was fine. How was yours?"

"I couldn't sleep," he revealed. It sounded like he'd been dying to tell you. "Why's that," you asked, believing that you had an idea of the reason.

"Last night scarred me," Jungwon shared, pretending to gag. You didn't know why, but hearing him say that made your heart sink. Suddenly, you felt horrible. "Was it really that bad," you asked, genuinely curious to know what he thought of it. Jungwon nodded, making you feel even worse. "It was worse than I thought it would be," he added. Your eyes started stinging. A lump formed in your throat and the longer you held it back, the more it hurt. You knew you hadn't been eager to kiss him, but you would argue about how 'bad' it was. But bringing that up right now would just be stupid. Jungwon would misunderstand where you were coming for and that would just lead to another disaster entirely. You had told yourself that you weren't going to let this dare get to you, but four days in you were already slipping. The longer you sat there, listening to Jungwon whine and complain about everything he'd had to do with you so far, the harder it became to control your emotion. Not able to take it anymore, you got up abruptly and ran away, leaving Jungwon sitting there extremely puzzled.

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☀︎ DAY 5 ☀︎

You didn't respond to any of Jungwon's calls or texts. You didn't have it in you to face him. He would be disappointed if he found out the real reason behind your sappy mood. So you were gonna wait till you got over it before facing him.

You still couldn't believe that you had been so affected by Jungwon saying that he hated the kiss. Despite telling yourself that you disliked it too, you couldn't help but think otherwise. There was something so magical about it. You had never felt that way because of a kiss before. Whenever you thought back to it, an exciting warmth rippled through your mind. Your heart danced in glee and a wide smile formed on your lips.

But you weren't supposed to feel that way. Jungwon was your best friend. Besides, he hadn't kissed you willingly. You didn't understand why it felt so special to you when it clearly meant nothing to him. You knew you couldn't blame him for that. His mind was wired to see you as nothing more than a friend. You found it hilarious. Here you were, realizing that you probably liked your best friend after having continuously assured yourself and him that something like that would never happen. The sad part was that Jungwon would never reciprocate your feelings. You were all alone in this.

A knock sounded at your window, startling you. Slipping out of your reverie, you glanced towards it, eyes widening in surprise when you saw Jungwon crouched before it. You didn't think twice before letting him in. He entered your room and stood in front of you, crossing his arms over his chest. "You wanna explain what happened yesterday?"

You frowned and turned away shoulders slouching disinterestedly. "Is that what you came here for," you asked, regretting letting him in?

"Well did I have a choice? You've been blatantly ignoring me while all I've been trying to do is make sure you're alright," he said, stepping closer to you.

"I'm fine. If that's all you needed to hear, you can leave now," you replied. You didn't need him prying and prodding at you right now.

Jungwon stood his ground, clearly not satisfied with your answer. "No, you're not y/n. You aren't fine. Tell me what's bothering you."

You sighed and faced him. "Trust me, you wouldn't want to know."

Jungwon furrowed his brows. He didn't know what that meant. "I think I'll be the judge of that."

"It's you. You're bothering me," you spoke, narrowing your eyes at him. Jungwon hadn't been expecting that. But he didn't let the surprise show on his face. "What did I do?"

"You made me feel so worthless and undesirable. But that's not your fault. I can't blame you because you're right to think that way about me. I'm just pitying myself here and there's nothing you can do about it so please, just leave me alone." The tears were coming back again. You didn't want to break down in front of Jungwon. His face fell. He didn't know what to say to that. He thought you knew he was just being overdramatic. He seriously hadn't meant to hurt you. Before he could apologize, you turned to him. "I don't think I'll be good at keeping this a secret, so let me just tell you that I'm starting to catch feelings for you. If that makes you uncomfortable then you can leave. If you have something to say, just say it and go. But don't ask me why I feel the way I do because that's something I'm yet to figure out."

Jungwon was at a loss for words. He stood there, gaping at you like an open-mouthed fish before turning on his heel and exiting through your bedroom door. You heard your mother yelp on seeing him, probably wondering where he had shown up from. A part of you wished that he hadn't left, but the other was glad that he was gone. You felt like a fool for letting all of this happen. You should have never agreed to this dare. Who would have thought it would lead to something like this? There was nothing you could do now. There was no way you could change the way you felt. Because at the end of the day, it was as clear as ever, that you were undeniably in love with your best friend Yang Jungwon.

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☀︎ DAY 6 ☀︎

Jungwon couldn't stop thinking about everything you had told him yesterday. He would never have imagined that you would catch feelings, especially through such a childish dare. Your friends had called you out to the park again today, but Jungwon wasn't going to go. He knew you wouldn't be there so there was no point. He wished he could tell you that he hadn't meant half the things he'd said about the kiss at the grove that day. He was just trying to show you that the kiss hadn't made him feel some type of way. Not just that, but he was also attempting to persuade himself that he indeed had loathed it. Maybe he should have been truthful instead of lying about it.

This was exactly what he'd been afraid of. Jungwon was always fond of you. He cared for you and he wouldn't lie when he said that he loved you. But the more he thought about it, the more he realized that maybe he felt that way because he thought of you as more than a friend. Jungwon didn't want to convince himself that he liked you just because you had confessed to him. He wanted to understand the way he truly felt about you.

He knew every little thing about you. No one knew you as well as he did. Jungwon cherished your friendship and the time he spent with you. Whenever anything bugged him, he always came to you, knowing that you were the only person who could make things better. He relied on you more than anyone else. He couldn't go a day without speaking to you. After yesterday, he realized how important you were to him. The fear of losing you ate at him the longer he stayed away from you.

Jungwon hated knowing that you were sad. It hurt more to know that he was the reason behind it. He wanted nothing more than to hug you and apologize for making you feel bad. He felt guilty for everything he had done. It had only been a couple hours since he had last spoken to you, but it felt longer. He missed you so much.

So he left you a text, asking you to meet him at your secret spot. He kept his phone close, waiting till you replied. But you didn't. You probably wanted nothing to do with him. Nonetheless, he still hoped and prayed that you would give him one last chance to make things right again. He couldn't afford to lose someone as special as you. There was nothing for him if he didn't have you.

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☀︎ DAY 7 ☀︎

Jungwon laid in the grass, staring at the dull sky above. It was filled with clouds, hiding the sun. The grove felt so big and endless when he was alone. When he was with you, it was much more cozy and bright, even if the atmosphere was gloomy.

He had been waiting for you for quite a long time now. You hadn't replied to his message last night, but he knew you had seen it. Just before he was about to lose hope, he heard the grass crunch a few feet away from him. Jungwon didn't have to look to know it was you. No one else knew the path to get here.

"What do you want," you asked, voice small but laced with malice. You were cross with him. Jungwon wished to change that today. He patted the space next to him. "Let's not pretend like we hate each other. You could do the worst thing to me but I'd still admire you."

You didn't argue and sat down beside him. Other than the tension in the air, everything felt normal. There was a scowl on your face. It must have taken a lot of convincing for you to come here. Jungwon needed to get to the point.

"I'm sorry about everything I said. I didn't even mean half of those things."

You scoffed. "Oh really? They sounded pretty heartfelt to me."

Jungwon sat up. "I was just trying to enforce the idea that I wasn't into you, on myself," he revealed, hoping that you would forgive him. "And being a dick was the only way you could do that? Jungwon, you weren't the only one who was attempting to suppress their feelings," you refuted.

"I know y/n. And it's my fault for not realizing sooner," he admitted, hanging his head. You sighed and shook your head. "This is so immature. I can't believe we're letting a stupid dare get in the middle of our friendship."

Jungwon chuckled darkly. "Maybe it's a sign that our friendship has run its course."

You turned to him. "What is that supposed to mean?"

Jungwon smiled. "I gave it some thought yesterday. We're both attempting to be in denial of our feelings. Obviously, that isn't working out. If it wasn't for this dare, they would've remained buried deep down somewhere. But I guess you could say everything happens for a reason." He took your hand in his, intertwining your fingers. "I never realized how much I loved this feeling until I had to go a whole two days without it."

You couldn't even hide your smile. "Where is this going Jungwon?"

"Maybe we should give this a chance. Give us a chance. Who knows? It could turn out the be the best thing that's ever happened to us," he said, meeting your eyes.

"And what if it doesn't? We would be throwing so many years of friendship away."

Jungwon shook his head. "How long are we supposed to contradict how we truly feel about each other? That would take a heavier toll on us."

You laughed, squeezing his hand. "It doesn't hurt to try I guess."

Jungwon beamed. "That's the spirit!" It felt nice to see you smiling at him again. He was grateful for that. It was funny how a large part of his mood depended on you. If you were happy, he was happy. If you were sad, he was sad. His entire world revolved around you, and Jungwon knew the best thing to do was strengthen that bond.

"So, will you be my girlfriend," he asked, smiling cheekily. You bit your lip, looking at him through your lashes. "Of course I will."

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A/N: I hope you enjoyed reading this fic. Please let me know how you found it! Thank you so much!

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If I wasn't a goddamn werewolf

I simply needed to do something with Talia. I think the pack dynamics would be so wonderful with her, with Laura, and with Cora. Should I do a part 2? Let me know <3

Talia just came back from the dead, and she is just trying to figure out what is happening with her son. But when she met you, everything becomes clear. Word count: 1.757 Pairings: Reader x Derek Contain: Pure angst!!; Derek being a dick; Warnings: English is not my main language <3 PART 2 TEEN WOLF MASTERLIST

Things were a true mess these days. The starting point was a resurrection. Nobody knew exactly how Talia arose from the dead, but everyone was trying to find out. Well, after so many years out of the Beacon Hills life, Talia was trying to fix in and absorb what had happened during the time she was dead. Peter had tried and failed to kill his daughter Laura, Cora comes back to the city, and the Hale's had rebuilt their pack with three new members: Boyd, Isaac, and Erica. Derek was happy with the presence of Talia - actually, everyone was - but as a mom, she knew something was pretty wrong. He was being a little bit... sad.

Talia caught Derek thoughtful during the night several times. Sometimes he just simply took his car and disappear. He was also taking time for himself, staying alone with his own thoughts. Talia just simply couldn't figure out what the hell was going on with her son. But when she has begun to think that maybe all of that was just something created inside of a mother's mind, she finds out about everything.

Talia, Derek, and Laura were doing some groceries at a supermarket. Talia and Laura were chatting about the city while taking a few things when suddenly, both of them heard a female voice greeting Derek in the corridor next to them.

"Hey, Derek."

It was you. Laura recognized your voice immediately. Talia's older daughter took her mom's wrist and took her to spy Derek, making a sign with her finger on her lips to her mom stay quiet. When Talia and Laura look at you and Derek, they notice all the signs of a couple in love. Your hearts were beating fast, and your eyes were shining like a thousand stars. You were pretty anxious, like a teenager talking for the first time with your crush. And your voice was so sweet... The air seems to completely disappear from Derek's lungs.

But despite all of the signs of love, Derek didn't reply to you. Actually, seems like the soft expression of love simply disappeared from his face - which was pretty severe and cold now. His facial expressions seem to let you even more anxious. You begun to regret to had the stupid idea to talk with him.

"Uh..." You started to talk, with his lack of answer "I..."

Without saying a word to you, Derek takes a can from the shelves and, simply, walks away from you. It was like you even weren't there. And, God, it broke your heart. Alone in the corridor and without becoming aware that you were being looked closely for Laura and Talia, you let escape a tear that ran through your face. Trying to compose yourself, you breathe in and swipe the tear away. You need to be strong.

When you just simply walk away from that corridor, Talia looks at Laura, pretty confused.

"Is that his ex?"

"No, she is just a girl he met. They started to become friends, but things evolved. Derek had decided to fell apart from her when Kate threatened to do something with her. You know, she was trying to manipulate him. But Derek thought that she would be safer without him. She doesn't know anything about supernatural, so..."

"It's dangerous for her."

"Exactly."

"How long ago did this happen?"

Laura drums her fingers on her chin, thoughtfully.

"I think it's been a year..."

"Oh, wow."

"Yeah, I know. You would love to meet her." Laura and Talia walk close to the candies session, looking at you. "Her name is (Y/N). She's a great girl."

"She seems like one."

Laura, Derek, and Talia were putting the groceries into the car - the place where Cora was waiting for her family. Talia was pretty thoughtful, thinking about the issue between you and Derek. Despite thinking that Derek did the right thing, she felt sad about the whole situation. It was pretty clear to her that Derek likes you a lot, and so do you.

Talia was torn from your thoughts when she listened to Cora's voice.

"Oh, I didn't saw her coming into the market."

Derek arches his eyebrows at his sister, walking in the driver's seat direction.

"Who?"

Cora indicates you with a nod in her head, and Derek's sight runs in your direction. Now Derek was looking at you for a distance he could saw you properly. Damn, you were so beautiful... He was pretty sure you did something with your hair, who made you more beautiful than ever. His heart began to race, and his face softened. You were like a sedative for him, with the power to take all of his angry away.

Unless you were next to another guy. In this case, you would stoke his fury just like the gasoline feeds fire. That was the case now.

You were walking in a man's direction, close to an expensive car. Despite being upset and heartbroken, you forced a smile on him, and he gave you a soft and slow kiss. Derek's chest vibrated in a low and threatening roar.

Laura looks at Cora.

"Who's that guy?"

"Well, he's her boyfriend. They're together a few months."

"He's hot. And seems like he's rich too."

Yeah, he was perfect. Derek didn't hate him just because he's the one who touches you now. Derek hates him because that guy was perfect, and better than him in so many aspects. He was rich, handsome, and a perfect gentleman. And he has you.

Oh, God... Derek wants so much for being under his skin for one day... Derek could simply forget all the supernatural bullshit and stay with you without worries. Damn, he wants so much to touch you again and kiss you again. He wants so much to say to you how beautiful you were with whatever you did with your hair, how you smell good, and how sorry he is for hurting you because he would never do that if it weren't for your own good.

If Derek wasn't a goddamn werewolf, he could take that vacation on Hawaii with you that you wanted so much. If he wasn't a goddamn werewolf, he could wake up by your side in the morning - something he never was able to do because of all the supernatural crap in the city. Derek could wake you up with kisses and breakfast in the bed too. If he wasn't a goddamn werewolf, he would take you to live with him on his loft. You would never cry of sadness, just of happiness.

If he wasn't a goddamn werewolf, Derek would give you a ring and would ask if you want to be Mrs. Hale.

Instead of all of it, Derek was forced to broke your heart for your own protection. He was forced to tell you not to talk with him anymore because he never felt anything for you. You were nothing more than a one-night stand, his little toy.

Derek remembers that day like it was yesterday. You were crying like never before while you listened to his sharp words.

"What do I did with you that made you thought you were so special?"

"You are nothing to me."

"I just wanted some fun. You can't blame me."

"Stop acting like a stuping teenager in love!"

It was hurtful to say those words to you. None of them were true. Derek just wanted you to hate him as much as someone could hate. With it, you would stay away from him and all of the danger. In fact, you said that night those three words he wanted you to tell him.

"I hate you!" You yelled, with your face wet in tears. "You are the biggest mistake I could ever make in my entire life!"

Despite saying horrible things to you that had hurt Derek as hell, your words hurt as much as his own. But even with all the emotions conflicting inside himself, Derek even could hear your heartbeat failing. It was the sound of your lie.

Despite all of that, you didn't hate him. You didn't think he was the biggest mistake of your like.

That broke him even more.

Derek just wants to feel you in his arms again and say to you how much he loves you - because, yeah, he really loves you, and he really thinks you are the one. Instead of it, he gives up on your love to keep you alive and safe.

Suddenly, Derek listens to your boyfriend talk with you. He was still with his face close to yours.

"I'm so lucky to have you as my girl." Your boyfriend smiles at you "I love you."

Your heart ached one more time that day. Oh, if those words were from Derek's mouth... But no, you think he hates you. Determined to move on and forget about Hale, you force a smile on your boyfriend.

"I love you too."

Your heartbeat sound failed, and the Hale family on another side of the parking lot could hear your lie. You didn't love your boyfriend but, oh, you really wish you could. He was perfect.

However, you always thought about how boring perfection was and, actually, you would love to be imperfect with Derek.

Your boyfriend gives you a sweet smile and gets into his expensive car. You walk towards the passenger's seat door and, before getting into the car, you look in Derek's direction.

He was looking at you with those beautiful and glacial green eyes. It was pretty hard to pretend he didn't love you because he does so much. While Talia was watching the entire situation, she noticed that yours and Derek's eyes were yelling a silent, dangerous, and forbidden I love you - the one who could let anyone with no air in their lungs.

Then, you breathe in, trying to contain yourself. You got into the car and, then, you and your boyfriend were leaving the parking lot and Derek's sight. If getting away from him and being in another man's arms meant you were safe, then Derek could handle it. However, after looking at the whole situation, Talia was not well with it. Well, Laura and Cora weren't either. They knew about his brother's sincere feelings, and Talia knew it that moment either. The gears inside her brain were already working to find a solution for all of that.

Derek, however, could only think of how much you would never really be his.

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