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#also my uhhh.... short- no long term memory is broken? or maybe both of them?
kirbyddd · 3 months
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see see this is a big part of what's gone. whatever tf that process of active memory retrieval is. so recalling and holding onto information at will, but also like for example when i have to look for something these days, i can't actively seek the visual object, i have to like just scan my eyes around and hope if it's there it triggers my pattern recognition. i can't "keep an eye out for it" as they say
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jo-dracona · 3 years
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Thought:
We’ve seen Castiel fight quite a bit, he’s actually decent at it, and he has plenty of cool abilities that we see him use like once and never again. He can shoot lightning down from the sky, twist knives that he’s not touching, and he’s obviously pretty good with a dagger/knife because Angel Blades. So, here’s my Supernatural Better Ending idea.
So, after the confession Dean and Sam fight like hell to get Cas back. But, they make a rule: No more of this self-sacrifice garbage. It always gets us into more trouble than we were in before, and it hurts us all. So, we get Cas back by any means necessary, except that. Spells, trickery, killing demons, angels, reapers, all powerful creatures we’ve never even heard of, whatever, just not ourselves.
And they succeed!! It was... oooohhh my god it was fucking hard. The boys need a fucking nap.
After said nap, they sit down and discuss what they all want, and what they’re gonna do next.
Dean says that hunting is really the only thing he’s ever known, it’s what he does best. Sam got a year off to think and feel what living in the real world is like, but Dean’s never really done that, and he doesn’t really want to. He likes kicking in the door of abandoned factories and killing whatever ghoul or ghost is traumatizing or killing the local townspeople.
Sam says that he’s really tired, even after that nap. He wants to live a normal life, and he feels like he’s got the chance because for once it feels like the world isn’t hunting them down, or that he needs to go hunt someone else down to go save them. He’s got a knack for fixing things, for making things work and tick, and well... there’s this girl... But, there will always be this little voice in the back of my head saying that there’s lives to be saved, there’s ghosts to be killed, so maybe I can still help out?
Cas says, he’s not really sure what he wants, other than to be with them (it goes unsaid but they all know he has a uhhh preference if he “must” choose between them)
And Dean pipes up that, well “we’ve seen you fight Cas and you’re pretty good at it, a bit stiff” Sam snickers a bit “but, uh, you can handle yourself quite well.” He snickers again. “You can use an Angel Blade, I’ve seen you shoot lightning down from the sky in the past. Why don’t you come with me on my monster hunting trips?”
“Would I have to learn how to use a gun?”
“It might be good to know, but there’s other ways of fighting that work almost as well.”
“Alright, I... like the sound of that” Cas says, as he cracks a little bit of a side-smile.
Dean, on a bit of a roll, says “and Sam, you’ve always been more partial to research anyway, would you wanna be our...” he pauses for a moment, because this is an emotionally charged title he’s about to offer Sam, and a lot of memories and feelings come flooding back. He smiles warmly and with pride, but undertones of sorrow creep in. “Our new Bobby? I mean, like, part-time since you want a mostly normal life, right?”
Sam, seeming a bit taken aback by this proposition “d- uh- y-yeah! I’d- I’d be glad to do that! Oh and uh, I was thinking, since I’m good at fixing things and making things work, well, I could maybe design you two some new tools. I mean, we’ve got salt pellets for the shotgun and iron tools, and silver bullets, but there’s gotta be other ways to further simplify those kinds of techniques, make them more efficient.”
Dean face lowers a bit and he seems... sceptical. He’s always been one for tradition, “if ain’t broke don’t fix it” is a very old phrase and I think he’s a fan.
“Of course, never to the point where hunting would be un-fun. The danger is part of it! But, I wanna keep the number of hits you- two- (he pauses and gestures to Cas, getting used to this new dynamic) take before you kill whatever you’re hunting to a minimum, right?”
Cas, having been just kind of standing, listening mostly in silence until now, says “yes that would be good. Also, since the main weapon I use is an Angel Blade, would it be possible for us to get other, similarly styled blades for me to use? Because, as powerful as an Angel Blade is, it only kills some supernatural beings other than demons and angels.”
“Uh, yeah I’m sure we could get you that. I don’t think I could make it but I can definitely look into it.”
And then they go, they get right into a decent rhythm (I’m not technically caught up so the details of what’s going on with Sam are going to be lacking.) Sam goes and talks to his girl, tells her that he’s going to be living a mostly normal life from now on, just with a bit of research and a bit of tinkering. He gets a job as the local plumber, but also does work on cars, on electrical things. He’s kinda known around town as the fix-it guy. If you’ve got a problem or somethings broken, he’s a pretty safe bet. In his off time he designs this heavy cloth rope that’s been soaked in salt-brine and then dried, leaving it full of salt, so that you can more easily encircle a room with it. It works best for ghosts because they’re mostly incorporeal. He designs a little box, kind of like a craft supplies box, with a series of small tools and materials in each spot. Gold, silver, copper, a coin of each, a piece of iron, and all sorts of other little pieces of equipment and ingredients.
We jump to Cas and Dean, in The Car, having a laugh when Dean’s phone rings. Sam says he’s got a lead and that he has some stuff he wants them to try out while they’re there. He gives them the rundown and say he’ll mail the package to the local shitty motel.
Normal Supernatural episode stuff happens, they follow the lead, get the package, find the house, and get to work. And we get to see Dean and Cas dance-fight their way through like 12 ghosts. They flow around the room with such synchronicity, despite the difference in pace between their weapons of choice, shotgun and throwing daggers. A beautiful sweeping shot around the room of them annihilating ghost after ghost after ghost. The only interruption being that Dean takes just a second too long reloading and gets scratched across his left cheek. Cas quite promptly stabs that ghost in the back, and the room falls silent.
“I think we got them all.” Cas says, without looking around the room, eyes fixed on Dean.
“Thanks, Cas” Dean says in a near-whisper
“No worries. Let’s go get that patched up.”
Cut to Dean sitting on the edge of the trunk, with Cas patching up his cut. Can’t Cas heal people? Well... they prefer this ritual to magic-y insta healing, it’s not as fun. Cas will make sure it won’t scar, however. Cas finishes bandaging him up, and makes one more good press on it to smooth it out, leaving his hand gingerly on Dean’s cheek.
“There we go, all cleaned up.” He says, smiling and looking over Dean’s face once more, just to make sure that’s the only scratch, or is he looking for more personal reasons? Maybe both?
Dean was kinda looking off in the distance while Cas patched him up, but now he looks right into his eyes. He grabs onto Cas’s caressing hand gently, smiles ever-so softly and leans in and kisses him. It is the exact kind of kiss you would expect from Dean Winchester, if any kiss could be described as “gruff”, this would be it.
They both let go after a long moment, Cas’s eyes are full of so much: shock, confusion, excitement, joy, and for a split second, fear, thinking he might just get sent back to turbo hell the empty.
Dean however, simply has a cheeky grin on his face with a touch of embarrassment. “Y’know... we haven’t had a chance to talk much since you got back.”
“Uh- Dean- I...” it looks as though Cas’s mind is going about a trillion miles a second.
Dean revels in his love’s adorable awkwardness, that often shines through even if he isn’t the only one in his vessel, even if he hasn’t spoken, damn he’s the cutest. “I wish I coulda done that sooner. I just... felt I wasn’t ready. That one had to be 100% on my terms.”
Cas wants to say something, anything, but just- there’s so much happening in his brain right now he can’t- he just- ah! This is amazing but he just cannot get any words out.
“Hey uhh, you good there buddy? Did I short-circuit you?”
“I think maybe, yeah!” Cas finally says with a chortle and this expression of relief and excitement and at least a little bit of embarrassment.
We cut to the next scene, back at Sam’s house, giving reviews and suggestions about his inventions.
“Okay okay, I can probably fix that by adjusting the drying time based on the humidity, and you’ll probably need to keep it in an air tight container from now on.”
“Yeah I was uhh... a little distracted when we put it away last. Sorry about that.”
“It’s alright Cas, it’s good to know that proper storage matters for this one.”
Suddenly, a bunch of pinging comes from Sam’s computer.
“What’s that?” asks the ever-paranoid Dean.
“I set up a series of notifications on my computer to go off if it found any news article that had a series of key words. This seems like a big one, vampires most likely, telling by the key words it found. You guys down?”
“Always.” They say, in tandom. Somewhat surprised, they glance at eachother a moment.
Sam raises his eyebrows. His face then says the word “anyways” without him making a sound.
“The article says it happened in [town], [state]. A man was killed in the...” Cas and Dean step around the desk and Dean leans in to look at the laptop, both hands on the desk, Cas leans in slightly and looks intently as well. They begin to discuss, likely speculating what type of vampire and what to do as the camera pans back and up in an arc as Sam’s voice fades, Carry On Wayward Son begins to play (because it has to) and it fades to black.
(Honestly wanted to write that last scene as if it was far later, well after the kiss, so that I could mention an Easter egg, that would be for eagle eyed viewers if this was an actual episode, where Cas and Dean both had wedding bands. Couldn’t figure out how to make it work though, and not seems like a big, weird jump.)
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decaynow · 5 years
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SHDHDHHSHD DOES THIS MEAN YOU WANT ME TO ANSWER WHICHEVER ONES I WANT OR ALL OF THEM??? Fuck it, I’m done with stuff at this job so. I’ll do them all. Why not
1. What is you middle name?
Gerard
2. How old are you?
20
3. When is your birthday?
June 20th
4. What is your zodiac sign?
Geminiii
5. What is your favorite color?
RED but i also love black
6. What’s your lucky number?
6!!! I like this question’s placement. 6 because Grimmjow but also because HAIL SATAN 666 AAAAAA
7. Do you have any pets?
I have a lil’ black pitbull named Trixie!!!
8. Where are you from?
Georgia the state
9. How tall are you?
5’3
10. What shoe size are you?
uhhh i actually do not know my size in men’s I think it’s like a 5??? Technically in women’s I’m a 7.5 but I tend to buy a half size up A. because doc martens doesn’t do half sizes and B. i dont really like for my shoes to be tight
11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
... a lot. I have a shoe fetish ngl.
12. What was your last dream about?
I think I had a dream last night..? About Invader Zim maybe???
13. What talents do you have?
I CAN SING LIKE ANY TWENTY ONE PILOTS SONG, i can touch my tongue to my nose, I have a pretty decent Kermit the frog impression, and I have other weird flexes but I cant remember them rn because my memory sucks
14. Are you psychic in any way?
Idk, sometimes I can predict what song will play next but I think I’m just lucky.
15. Favorite song?
Hhh this is so hard to answer bc I wanna pick something metal but tbh... Holding On To You by Twenty One Pilots
16. Favorite movie?
Either Ferris Bueller’s Day Off or Spirit: Stallion of the Cimmaron (I know the whole movie by heart and all the songs)
17. Who would be your ideal partner?
HBNGFHBB,, i dont know I thirst after many celebrities and fictional characters and they’re all kind of different. I guess someone who won’t make me be someone I’m not. Obviously my lack of adult qualities probably isn’t endearing but idk, someone who’s willing to let me be a lil’ childish. I’d like someone who takes the reigns when it comes to adult stuff, I wanna be a stay at home dad and manage our place and kids or pets and stuff. I like kinda being left to my own devices. That will include me constantly wanting to be in ur space LOL
18. Do you want children?
YEAH... REALLY BADLY... but idk if I’ll ever get to have any bc I dont think anyone would want to date me and marry me and have them LMAO so I dont think I should be trying ever
19. Do you want a church wedding?
My ideal wedding is in a graveyard, on October 31st, at sundown, we are being married on an altar of black candles and jack-o-lanters, the autumn colours are flourishing, and I am carried out to the walkway down to the altar in a casket. Everyone is required to wear black except for our bestmen/bridesmaids and me or whoever I marry. If they aren’t dressed like it’s a funeral I’m kicking them out. Deadass. I want the gothest wedding imaginable.
20. Are you religious?
I do kinda believe in stuff but I’m not a fan of organized religion. I mean, I’m a fan as in, the aesthetic and idea of organized religion is majorly sexy, but i feel like religion is really personal and not a public thing for me. Also 666 hail sa-
21. Have you ever been to the hospital?
Nope!!! Never broken a bone or had any kind of emergency LOL
22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?
ONCE I GOT PULLED OVER FOR ROLLING THRU A STOP SIGN AND I CRIED
23. Have you ever met any celebrities?
I’VE MET HOLLYWOOD UNDEAD TWICE!!! And I’ve met Norman Reedus too. I also went to school with Chandler Riggs (not to put my location on blast HDYDUFHDGDGDD) uhhh I can’t think of anyone else if I have I’d probAOH. Shannon whatever her name is from Stranger Things. She was at my last TØP concert and I asked her for a picture bc my friends were too shy to say anything but since idk her i didnt care LOL
24. Baths or showers?
I like both but I take showers more often
25. What color socks are you wearing?
One is The Scream by Edvard Munch and one is The Kiss by Gustav Klimt
26. Have you ever been famous?
Not like BIG famous but like, people in my school all knew me basically because I was always Doing Shit
27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?
Maybe??? Part of me doesnt want all my shit on blast but at the same time idgaf
28. What type of music do you like?
E... everything... i lean towards punk, pop punk, rock, metal, alternative and whatever but i will literally go from Hannah Montana to Dethklok to Twenty One Pilots to Ghost to Katy Perry don’t test me
29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?
NO and idk if i want to i dont like to be naked
30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
I have 7 but i usually have 8. I like a lot of pillows. I want more.
31. What position do you usually sleep in?
... ur asking an active sleeper that question. I don’t even know what position i wake up in.
32. How big is your house?
Normal sized I guess???
33. What do you typically have for breakfast?
I DONT EAT IT BECAUSE I DONT WAKE UP IN THE MORNING
34. Have you ever fired a gun?
I think my dad let me once when I was a kid but that’s because he’s a bad father
35. Have you ever tried archery?
YEAH i sucked at it but in my head i imagine being good at it lol
36. Favorite clean word?
Salutations, Shenanigans or Hold
37. Favorite swear word?
hmmm would go with your classic fuck but tbh i LOVE to lengthen it to motherfucker. Think in terms of most used though, God Damnit.
38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?
Maybe two days?
39. Do you have any scars?
:/ I have a lot. Some are from me being dumb (the scar on my leg from melting tape) and some are from me being really dumb (scars on my wrist and arm and thigh) but I’m not ashamed of them, in fact I like scars and bruises. I just hate when people randomly ask about them in person (ie “omg what happened!?!?”) because it’s like... self harm scars are pretty obvious about what’s going on so when you ask like that... idk wtf to say.
40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
PROBABLY??? But im oblivious.
41. Are you a good liar?
Hhjfguvghhh maybe sometimes??? I try not to lie though and i think its impossible bc im a gemini so there’s a little truth in everything I say
42. Are you a good judge of character?
NO IM STUPID
43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?
NOOOOOOO i can do Kermit the Frog and thats it
44. Do you have a strong accent?
I’m southern so yes
45. What is your favorite accent?
I LOVE YOU SWEDISH PEOPLE... also love irish accents but also i cant understand anything bc my ears are stupid
46. What is your personality type?
Rambunctious
47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?
I have a $100 Ghost hoodie but I think my Big Boots were $148
48. Can you curl your tongue?
Yas
49. Are you an innie or an outie?
Inward belly buttons or perish
50. Left or right handed?
LEFT LEFT LEFT
51. Are you scared of spiders?
Hmhnghhhhnnnn depends, usually
52. Favorite food?
PASTAAA
53. Favorite foreign food?
I fucking LOVE udon
54. Are you a clean or messy person?
I am a messy person doing my absolute best to be clean
55. Most used phrased?
like ever? I start most sentences with “you know what i hate?” But mostly i tend to parrot memes. If I think something is funny I repeat it to myself over and over until it isn’t.
56. Most used word?
Probably “I” because I cant ever stop talking about my damn self
57. How long does it take for you to get ready?
... i dont wanna talk about it (a while)
58. Do you have much of an ego?
... I DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT IT (i simultaneuosly... hate myself but also think im the best)
59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?
SUCK WHO IS BITING THEM???
60. Do you talk to yourself?
SO FUCKING MUCH
61. Do you sing to yourself?
OBVIOUSLY
62. Are you a good singer?
... no but it doesnt stop me
63. Biggest Fear?
I HATE MIRRORS I HATE BATHROOM MIRRORS IN THE DARK THAT STUPID FUCKING CHANT I HATE IT I CANT SAY IT EVER ITS MY FEAR
64. Are you a gossip?
I dont want to be but I’m a gemini so it just HAPPENS
65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?
Man i dont even know just go watch Spirit Stallion of the Cimarron
66. Do you like long or short hair?
I prefer to have mine long but i kinda wanna cut it, i LOOOVE guys with long hair
67. Can you name all 50 states of America?
Oh definitely Not
68. Favorite school subject?
ART or biology
69. Extrovert or Introvert?
Introvert
70. Have you ever been scuba diving?
Nope!
71. What makes you nervous?
LOTS OF SHIT GOD BUT I HATE DOING A BAD JOB OR MAKING MISTAKES
72. Are you scared of the dark?
Sometimes, it just depends
73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?
Hhhffudhdhhh only if I know I wont come off condescending
74. Are you ticklish?
YEAH BUT DONT TICKLE ME I KICKED MY CHUCKLEFUCK EX IN THE DICK ONCE FOR TICKLING ME, IT WAS AN ACCIDENT BUT U SHOULD STILL BE WARNED
75. Have you ever started a rumor?
Dont think so
76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?
Sometimes I told groups in school to just let me do all the work because I didn’t trust them with my grade.
77. Have you ever drank underage?
... like a few days ago but tbh alcohol is disgusting and i only wanna drink banana liquor or else i dont drink at all bc its gross
78. Have you ever done drugs?
I desperately wish i had more drugs in my life but i dont wanna come off as a crackhead
79. Who was your first real crush?
EITHER SPIDER-MAN OR YUGI MUTO
80. How many piercings do you have?
I WISH I HAD MY NIPPLE PIERCED SO BADLY... also if i HAD A DICK god nerf’d me I WOULD GET PIERCINGS UP MY DICK... also my (expensive) dream is to get like subdermal/metadermal? implants on my forehead and get devil horns
81. Can you roll your Rs?“
Yep
82. How fast can you type?
I type... so fast
83. How fast can you run?
Maybe kinda fast but not for long
84. What color is your hair?
Naturally its brown but the bottom half is bleached and one side is yellow and the other is green
85. What color is your eyes?
Bluuue
86. What are you allergic to?
FIRE ANT BITES AND AMOXICILLIN AND I HAVE HAD HORRIBLE EXPERIENCES WITH BOTH
87. Do you keep a journal?
Kind of??? I have a poetry journal and I write dreams down sometimes.
88. What do your parents do?
My mom does like marketing and my dad does carpet cleaning
89. Do you like your age?
No I wanted to die at 12 and I wanna die now. The difference is I didn’t think I’d live this long so now I have no idea what I’m doing.
90. What makes you angry?
FUCKING EVERYTHING IF YOU DATE ME OR BEFRIEND ME YOU NEED TO KNOW I WILL RAGE ABOUT ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING AND U CANNOT TELL ME TO CALM DOWN LEST I FOAM AT THE MOUTH
91. Do you like your own name?
YEAH I PICKED IT!!! But i also wanna change it but i kinda cant bc Johnny from HU called me Reimond and they all know me as Reimond. But also I wanna be Lucifer Slade Solo.
92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?
TOBIAS JEREMY AND EMELE CECILIA
93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?
I’d be fine with either but tbh!!! Probably a boy.
94. What are you strengths?
HDHDUFHHH,, I NEVER TRULY GIVE UP I JUST GET ANGRIER. I’M INDEFATIGABLE
95. What are your weaknesses?
yelling. if you yell at me i will get upset. if im yelling its fine but if you yell i’ll cry. also roaches.
96. How did you get your name?
Well i consider Reimond the “masculine” version of my deadname!!! Technically there’s Racheal but it’d just get pronounced the same and I still have to correct people on Reimond (EVERYONE KEEPS THINKING IM SAYING RAYMAN) and Gerard is my middle name bc MCR, and I would love to change my last name lol.
97. Were your ancestors royalty?
Not that I know of
98. Do you have any scars?
U ASKED THIS ALREADY
99. Color of your bedspread?
I have Star Wars sheets with Kylo Ren and storm troopers! I also have Spider-Man sheets.
100. Color of your room?
It’s like painted like a beige colour but most of my stuff is dark lol
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kurlykookster · 7 years
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Forbidden Fruit: Part 19
Pairing- Yoongi x reader (ft all of BTS and some of Got7)
Type- Mystery, supernatural and angst here and there and i guess some fluff
Warnings- Swearing n’ stuff + violence and blood
Word count- 1,623 
A/N- hmmmmm idk if i like this part.... it feels a little off to me, but then again everything i write does... but i guess you guys can be the judge of that.
I’ve been really sensitive today wtf. like we didnt have a particular kind of butter and i almost started crying. ebay wasnt working and i almost started crying. i thought about school and i almost star...I cried a little. I’ve been really emotional lately and idk why lmao. Is it teenager hormones?
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It was a nice day surprisingly, shame you weren’t allowed to leave the building for your own safety. In any other circumstances you would’ve explored half the giant city instead, because why would you want to waste your time in a new place, hauled up in an apartment with seven other guys (not that they were a problem, it’s just that sometimes seven guys is too many). It seemed that life wasn’t following your script, but then again, has it ever?
During your long stay, you’d discovered that the comfiest place to waste away was the left corner of the living room couch, which was much better than the window ledge that took away the feeling from your ass. It was weird to think that one side of the couch was comfier than the other.
The TV drooled on about some show that you couldn’t care less about, there was nothing good on. You rested your chin in the palm of your hand as your eyes glazed over and your mind blanked out. Someone cleared their throat and you snapped out of your trance.
“That’s my side of the couch.” You looked up at the voice in confusion.
Oh, it’s just Jimin. “Well I don’t see your name on it.” You replied lazily, taking your attention back to the TV that didn’t deserve your attention.
“Do you want me to start labelling all the things in the house?” he groaned sarcastically.
“No, not really, unless you really want to.”
“I don’t, so can you budge up from my space now? I’ve earned my right to own that spot after all the rock-paper-scissors rounds I had to win to get it. So unless you want to challenge me, please move.” He crossed his arms as a form of intimidation.
“You’re on.” His intimidation wasn’t working and you accepted his challenge. Confidently you got up from the couch and mockingly dusted your hands off and warmed them up. You bent your knees slightly, stuck your dominant fist out and rested the other on your knee, the perfect battle stance. Your eyes locked on his with a dominating glare, you could see how taken aback he was. A smirk crept onto your face as you expectantly waited for him to begin.
“Well? Aren’t you gonna start? Or are you too worried about your couch title being lost?” there was no way you were going to lose to him, he set himself up and you would make him fall. He silently and cautiously got into position; sweat was already forming on his brow. He tried to play it off with a confident smile, but the act wasn’t working.
“I’m not losing this spot Y/n.”
“We’ll see about that. Best out of five wins”
He took a few deep breaths and nodded; you both knew that in order to win, concentration was key.
“Rock-Paper-Scissors!” and the first round had begun. Both fists flew down at lightning speed, fingers moving into position without a stutter, however at the last millisecond you could see the hesitation and regret wash over Jimin’s face. This wasn’t a good start for him. You picked rock while he picked scissors, that’s one point to you, unfortunately this was just the first round, there were four more to go and anything could happen…
3 minutes later ~
“No…” Jimin collapsed onto his knees and dropped his head into his hands. You had won.  The moment was only fuelled more when multiple slow claps from behind you slowly grew into quicker ones. You both looked in the direction they came from. Jhope, Jin, Taehyung and Jungkook were huddled together, all clapping in awe with amazed smiles on their faces.
“Woooaaaah~ you beat him!” Jhope exclaimed enthusiastically with a glorious gaping smile on his face.
“You did it so quickly too! How did you do it?” Jungkook piqued excitedly.
“It’s all about technique.” You replied while smiling and dropping yourself down onto your new rightful throne. As you looked back towards Jimin, he was still in the same position on the ground. A closer look and tears could be seen blurring his eyes and one had already made it down his face and onto his chin. He looked dead inside like his only reason to live had been ripped away from him. “Jimin… Look, if you really want this space you can have it, I don’t mind that much. I don’t even live here technically.” You began to lift yourself up.
He got up as well. “No. It’s fine. You earned it fairly. I have been defeated. If anyone needs me, I’ll be in my room contemplating the meaning of life and definitely not crying.” And with that he left.
“Don’t worry Y/n; he’ll get over it quickly. He’s just upset that he lost.” Jin patted you on the back and sighed. “Oh yeah, Yoongi told me to do a quick check up on you to see if you’re ok, so do you mind if we quickly go into my office and look things over?” He beamed at you and you nodded back as confirmation.
Once you were sat in one of his chairs comfortably, he didn’t waste time and went straight to the point.
“So how has your shoulder been? I haven’t had the chance to ask earlier. Have you been using my ointment like I said?”
“Oh right! I completely forgot about my shoulder… but that’s just cause it healed really quickly. After a few days, most of the bruising and aching was gone and it’s completely cleared up now. It’s really weird though, I’ve never healed this fast before.”
“That’s really good to hear then. Even your cuts seem to be practically gone.” He looked you over and nodded “The fast healing’s probably because of your horns I’m guessing. Yoongi’s horns do the same thing and that’s why he had to take his ring off to help with the stab wound… I’m also guessing it was a bit of a shock for you to suddenly find someone like you.” a breathy laugh escaped his lungs as he finished speaking.
“I guess you could say that.” You smiled down at your hands.
“Have you been feeling ok lately? No weird reactions or symptoms?” he enquired.
“Uhhh…No? I don’t think so. Wait, is there something wrong?” you scrunched your brows.
“Well I’m just checking, because like I think I mentioned before, those enchanted objects can cause some weird reactions. Mainly stuff like hallucinations and disorientation…”
“Hallucinations? Hmm. Well I don’t know if this counts, but… a few nights into my stay I had a dream about… well it doesn’t matter, but anyway, after the dream I swore I saw my dead brother, but I could’ve just been dreaming. I don’t really know…”
“Your dead brother? Have you seen anything weird since?” he worriedly asked you.
“I don’t think so… but the hallucination, if it even was one, felt so… real– like he was actually there, but at the same time not there… if that even makes sense.”
“I heard that grief can cause things like that to occur.”   He began comforting you by rubbing your shoulder; you could see how worried he seemed to be.
“But he died 7 years ago! How could it be because of grief? I came to terms with his death… recently.” You burst out emotionally.
“How recent is ‘recently’?” he carefully pried.
You deflated, your brain frantically searching for an answer “It was... it– I… don’t know?” you whispered confusedly. No matter how hard you tried, your mind couldn’t find the answer. How could you not know? You’d know these kinds of things. “That can’t be right?” you whispered to yourself as you blanked out. There was no way you wouldn’t have noticed such a huge turning point in your life. “Is there something wrong with me?” you asked with a quiet broken voice. You felt so lost and confused.
“I’m not really sure Y/n… maybe it was just a dream like you suggested. Can you think of any reason as to why you can’t remember when you stopped grieving over his death? When’s the most recent memory of a time when you really missed him?”
“I always miss him Jin…” you voice cracked. “You can’t just stop missing someone just cause you’re over their death.” Your eyes teared up a little and you felt so vulnerable. You were confused, distressed and most of all heartbroken. Jin brought your head to his shoulder and gently held you, comforting you like a parent. A few sobs came from you as you accidently let some escape. He softly stroked your head and patiently waited for you to calm down.
“The…The last time I remember was a week or something before I came here, when I was looking at old family photos…” you took a deep breath “-but anything between then and now is just– blank.” You sat yourself back up as you wiped away at some tears. “But there’s no way I could’ve stopped grieving between that short amount of time, right?” you said shakily.
“Unfortunately I don’t know the answers to these things Y/n…” he sighed unsurely and pulled his lips into a straight line as he looked into the distance deep in thought.
“That’s fine…” you replied dejectedly “I think I’m gonna go and try to sleep things off with a nap.” You slid off your chair and headed for the door languidly. “I’ll talk to you later.”
“Yeah, we can talk later. Get some rest.” He waved you off and smiled reassuringly at you as you closed the door behind you and trudged your way to an ideal quiet area to sleep and not think about things for a while.
A/n- I accidentally made this part kinda sad....oops? and idk what most of this is...i just kinda went with the flow and wrote what came to mind...
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