#and my anxiety is so high

[ruhlare]

someone who is able to calm your anxiety >

#my anxiety is always so high #nobody able to calm me #😐 #letters

[barghest-land]

horse. just horse. i'm checking out colored pencil brushes

also some things in the process? i guess? idk it's just me looking at different layers and thinking "that does look like someone missing a part of themselves" and then spiraling into my thoughts

#barghestland #art #artists on tumblr #and #rdr2 #rdr2 fanart #cuz it's rdr2 horsie #haven't decided which bg to keep #so have two of them at once #my level of anxiety is too high tbh don't wanna decide anything. just wanna draw horse

[kitoodle]

moving back in my dorm tomorrow and while i’m excited to be away from my parents i cant help the crippling anxiety that is going to come for me from having to be a functional person again after just chilling and doing nothing for a week and a half

#my stress threshold is so low #and my anxiety is so high #this will not be a pleasant experience #personal

[julykings]

the last bits of 2023

#the last months I’ve mostly been busy with work but can say that I got through my first semester teaching successfully although struggled #along the way. my anxiety is at an all time high + I’m dealing with some medical stuff so I’m just trying to stayyy appreciative of every #day I feel good u kno. ugh. #I’m working on quitting my excessive weed usage lol. otherwise working out and doing pole when I can. #and watching lots of movies and doing lots of art . at least this past week since school is out #personal

[laidenbreecatchall]

Warm ups from sketches today and yesterday

Psst... ✨Commissions Open✨

#one piece #trafalgar law #my art #ryeart #sanji #art #I’m so sleepy no thoughts in my head #high anxiety day #sigh #I’ll probably draw more today but who knows what it’ll be #also the he wants to order one I’m sure someone’s done before but it it made me happy so I did my own #bepo one piece #also pre time skip Sanji is my fave Sanji I will not lie #there’s something about him post time skip doesn’t hit ya know #sorry babe maybe the homophobia is a major turn off ya know #fishman island is what did it for me. maybe I’ll change my mind later as the story progresses but damn #he’s so cool but I wanted to THROTTLE that man 80% of the time #also just pre time skip straw hats in general just have this lovely charm that I feel post hasn’t quite hit #any iteration of Law my beloved though #steven universe comic meme

[ewwww-what]

thinking about how difficult it must’ve been for Adaine to navigate her disorder without any support from any adults, and how jawbones reassurance (confusing and intense as it was) took an absolutely massive weight off of her back. Like sometimes just knowing that someone actually hears you is enough to make life easier.

#do many of the rbs on the first post were so kind and beautiful #so* #I love when I make something and it makes people emotional. it’s the best. #horrible horrible feelings about Adaine finally having her anxiety acknowledged by an adult as a disorder instead of a character flaw #she is actually everything to me if you even care #also everyone who said they like how I draw jawbone should know that I’m a furry #fantasy high #d20 #d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 #d20 fanart #fantasy high freshman year #fhfy #adaine o'shaughnessey #adaine abernant #jawbone o'shaughnessey #jawbone fantasy high #adaine fanart #adaine fantasy high #undescribed #my art

[ciricegh0st]

lets go girlies i love whatever this is

#i can hear the anxiety of the stage managers from here #fob smfs #mcr #my chemical romance #fob fandom #fobchicago #infinity on high #so much for stardust #pete wetnz #gerard way mcr #gerard way #mcr tour #fall out boy

[pparuparfait]

there’s just something so intense abt being aroace and not knowing how to rant or talk abt it properly bc ur still coming to terms with it and what it’s like for you and what’s tied to it and what isn’t and then seeing riz be the physical manifestation of all the anxieties and concerns ive felt or am currently grappling with bc im aro and knowing i can’t rant abt it to my friends bc of what those struggles stand as and are and how a lot of it isn’t anxiety but just a truth i cant deny or run from so i js get to occasionally live vicariously through him instead once every week

#riz gukgak #aroace #he’s my everything like truly #fantasy high #dimension 20 #d20 #like it’s such a trip seeing all your fears given voices and understanding yourself so deeply #for the first time realizing ‘oh this isn’t a normal anxiety thing this is my views on love and relationships and sexuality #this is a legitimate part of how and who i am’

[doodledrawsthings]

I'm sorry if this is of any inconvenience but I was wondering how do you have the courage to post your art online cause iwant to do it to someday but I just can't find the right drawing though I've tried I can't figure it out like how do you do this wonderful stuff without worrying about hate or anything?

The main advice I can really give you is just. Don’t. worry about that.

People online will be mean, sometimes. Sometimes accidentally, sometimes with an understandable criticism, sometimes just for the sake of getting a response. Take it all with a grain of salt and curate who you follow and who you see on your dash and in tags if you’re that worried about it. I think when you post your art or anything you do online, that’s just something that has a possibility of happening no matter what you do.

Also I just really think it’s unlikely that anyone’s gonna just send you anon hate because you posted some drawings, unless they’re, like, objectively offensive for the sake of being offensive, or something.

Just try not to take social media too seriously, IMO. When I started posting here I posted grainy iPhone camera doodles of Transistor fan art from my school notebook cuz I liked the game and wanted to see if other people liked it, too. I wanted a place to put the things I drew and a place where I could track my progress as I posted my art over the years, and maybe even meet people. If that’s what you want your eventual art blog to be, then that’s all it really needs to be.

If it’s something more practical you’re looking for: when I was starting out, I would load up the post I wanted to make, hover over the post button, and count down from ten. When I hit one, I just post it, no matter what. If I really didn’t like the post, I could just delete it.

#I don’t mean to sound blunt or make it sound like it’s so easy #like I get it #I’ve gone through stuff like this as well #I still have my highs and lows of managing anxiety depresssive episodes burnout etc #it’s hard. especially if you use Twitter or something and are constantly seeing people yelling at eachother for whatever reason #but if I were you I’d weigh out the pros and cons: #is showing off your work worth the risk of having to deal with the possibility of people being mean to you online? #it’s ok if it is or if it isn’t but no one else can decide that for you #ALSO ALSO #like I said: posting REALLY REALLY does NOT have to be a big deal #post whatever #post a scribble you did of a dog you saw at a park #just make sure it’s what YOU want to post

[shannonsketches]

Why is the anime so weird, it's not even the same series dude?? It's like,

Anime:

GOKU: I have a great idea to bring peace to the universe, and my leadership and compassion alone will unite us all. I have No Flaws and am A True Relatable Everyman :)

VEGETA: NO! I AM THE BEST AND I WILL CAUSE PROBLEMS UNTIL I AM RECOGNIZED AS SUCH!!!!

Manga:

GOKU: Vegeta what's cornmeal made of? I know it's what the corn eats, but what's it made of? VEGETA: Hey Kakarot let's play the quiet game until one of us dies.

#silly hours #I do not understand this writing it's so bad aklsdlkasjd #Toei wants Goku to be Clark Kent SO bad and he SO isn't lmao #they're so good and dumb and rounded and complex in the manga what is the anime so afraid of #Toriyama said 'no no this man is a detached faux-immortal who has a dear pure heart but he's childlike and selfish even though he's kind' #and toei went 'got it goku's never done anything wrong ever in his life' #toriyama said 'Vegeta's gone through a lot and he's finally settling into his more mature leadership role with the confidence he's earned' #and toei said 'got it vegeta has the confidence of a high school bully except now he can interact with his family as a comedy bit' #girl hWHAT #Toei trying to group Goku and Vegeta as two people who would rather train than be with their families and Toriyama said NO Vegeta wants #to be HOME this is the first time in years that he's HAD ONE and it makes him HAPPY to be with his wife and children!! #Vegeta trains so that he can protect the things he doesn't want to lose again and Goku trains because it's the thing that makes him happies #They are NOT the same lmao And yeah Vegeta still wants to beat Goku but he also knows that Gohan could dogwalk both of them if he wanted #He also knows Trunks and Goten are going to surpass them it's not about being the best anymore he's past that he just wants to Not Need Gok #He just doesn't want to have to rely on Goku to save the day he wants to be Enough on his own he just wants to know he can be #because every time it's mattered he WASN'T and people he loved were lost to his inability to protect them and he carries that #Like Whis diagnosed him with anxiety and cptsd out in the open and Beerus said he was self-centered for feeling guilt #+ he lowkey enjoys the rivalry it keeps him goal-oriented so he can't get complacent and lazy which is what triggered his Buu Saga breakdow #realized how Fucked Up it was that having a home and loving family made him feel like he was failing and went 'wait no I won actually??' #now he's chill as fuck in the manga. cool confident leader. #and sometimes he is childish and dumb with Goku as a treat #you know what rocks about his rivalry with Goku in Super though is that it's Playful. Vegeta is learning how to Play. #You ever seen a shelter dog get introduced to a really playful dog and it takes a minute for the shelter dog to understand it's safe here #And then they're both running around the backyard playing hot potato with one braincell?? That's Goku and Vegeta's relationship #and the way the anime sleeps on that dynamic is so fucking criminal especially when it's literally canon it's in print it's out there #you had the playbook how'd you fumble it this bad #anyway that's my 25+ year blorbo thoughts I love Geets a lot okay #And I love Goku in the manga a lot I'd forgotten that he's actually a great character when Toei's not fucking up his whole vibe

[ebi-noodle-doodles]

i wanna cry i almost thought there was a house invasion and I was the one who had to check everything this 4am - so far none i locked myself in the room—- i was peacefully drawing as usual but got bamboozeled when they said someone opened their doors

pls be a jin or spirit or ghost or ghoul type of thing not real human….

#my heart is literally thumping so loud right now #text post #anxiety #so high right now the anxiety seofneodn

[dreamingofspring]

Brennan knew exactly what the fuck he was doing to so many of us when he set up Oisin as being this physics wiz kid beer pong master and mentioning he fucks up THE REST OF THE NIGHT after ONE conversation with Adaine

#d20 #fantasy high #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high junior year #oisin hakinvar #adaine abernant #adaine o'shaughnessey #oisaine #fhjy #please dear god do not let him be evil #please they're so cute autism4autism #ace4ace wizard couple my beloved #demi aroace adaine with her first crush and mistaking it for anxiety my beloved #the idea that oisin had an interest in her since freshman year my beloved #christina.txt #i rambled to my friend about them and they are not leaving my brain

[feelingtheaster99]

Finally watching episode three, hoping to catch up maybe by Wednesday next week?

#dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #not all who wanda are lost #sorry I got STUCK in an anxiety loop #I honestly think I love them too much #and I want my like watching experience to be perfect #and I get really nervous about bad things happening to them so yeah episode 3 here I come #fhjy ep 3

[starflungwaddledee]

this is a long shot and i'm sorry to ask, but if you don't mind, can mutuals (or contacts or regulars... just... this community) of mine who aren't jumping ship like... let me know? will any of us still be here? is it over? i'm trying to know if this really is it or what's... even happening. i hate to reassurance seek but i'm feeling pretty miserable and confused.

edit: felt like i was being really pitiful and fragile making this but everybody is being so nice to me and responding so patiently with all your thoughts and i'm in tears of gratitude thank you thank you thank you 💖

#i glanced and thought they brought out a feature so that we could turn off ai access #that seemed... okay? i thought? but now i'm really confused. i don't know. i'm so tired and scared. i just can't... keep doing this #i know this is stupid but this feels like it's my fault. #it happens every time i find something. if i'm happy somewhere. it just.... poof. goes away. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry #on the edit: i would only *ever* think this about myself. double standards that i hold for myself are high. i expect emotional control #& performance from myself only. i would never think badly of anyone else being stressed about this or anything. thank you for your kindness #this community has been so beautiful and kind at every turn. i'm so grateful to get to be here and meet you all #okay... being really sappy now. y'all get to see my anxiety first hand today!! whee!! anyway. i'll get it together. haha! thank you.

[montymollusk]

“kids are so stupid these days, the ipad babies are ruining the world, ten year olds skip school and goes to sephora—“ do you have any idea what it’s been like to go to american public school within the last 15 years? can you blame a child for not wanting to spend 8 hours a day in a place where their safety and autonomy aren’t just not considered, but are blatantly denied?

mass shootings every day. funding being cut. school lunches— which were already the bare minimum in terms of nutrition— being removed. those alone would give anyone trauma, but even without those things the power structures inside of the average public school are designed to wring the individuality out of a child. (and that’s not even mentioning the way that neurodivergent kids are left out to dry by the school system, or how any marginalized kid can be tortured by their peers with no repercussions!) it’s designed to be miserable, and yet somehow people are surprised that kids don’t want to be there.

sandy hook happened in 2012, and nothing changed. uvalde ten years later, and still nothing. kids were forced back into overcrowded, unsanitary classrooms while covid was still killing thousands every day— most after having missed critical social development during lockdown, which there was no support for recovering from. children are being forced to see politicians debate the “ethics” of feeding them, letting them express their gender identity, allowing them to access accurate information about history as if their futures are just hypothetical. along with that is the social media boom, where marginalized people can create communities like never before, and those same kids are realizing that the systems they’ve been shoved into are broken. they’re being showed how awful the situation really is, and still completely powerless to change anything.

can you imagine having to go through all that and still pass your standardized fucking tests? my god, it’s a wonder that schools aren’t completely empty by now. we’re getting there though— i can’t count how many stories i’ve heard of kids dealing with truancy charges because of how many days of school they’ve “skipped” due to extreme anxiety or burnout. i’m one of them! i barely graduated in 2018, and the conditions were leagues better then!

people bitch about the “decline in intelligence” between generations, as if it’s the kids fault for the state of the world, as if this isn’t the inevitable conclusion for the public school system in this country. it feels deliberately ignorant— have you not watched the news recently? does it not evoke any empathy, does it not fill you with rage? how in the world could you pin the blame on kids here?

everyone says protect the children, and yet. fuckin sickening.

#mm says stuff #sorry for the rant i’m pissy about something i saw on twitter #people bitching about kids ‘skipping school’ because they were too anxious or depressed #like be fr right now #i BARELY graduated bcos of school shooting anxiety & bullying making me burn out so hard in high school #i can’t imagine how bad my sisters have it now. christ #have empathy for kids these days ™️ #they have it worse than you can fuckin imagine #school shooting mention

[woosh-floosh]

comic about the mundanity of intrusive thoughts

#Just gotta learn to live with it! #sometimes it's a bit funny relaying this type of stuff to people who don't have anxiety #one time I couldn't find my dog and after I found him (still in the house!) I told my dad: #I was so scared he got out and got hit by a car and died! #but my dad reacted: D: thats a big leap to jump to. Are you sure you're feeling alright? #YEAH I'm alright I just have a bad case of brain worms #art #comic #my anxiety was high today but that was for worrying about whether or not I have a tonsil stone NOT the threat of nuclear annihilation