#and the ACTING omg the acting

[sainamoonshine]

So I read something recently about how the urge to over explain and justify everything we do can be a result of our every actions — even the smallest and most unimportant ones — being critiqued or questioned as autistic children and, yeah!! Yeah actually that fully explains it!!!

Like. I will fully narrate my entire life in a way that annoys / bother people, and I can’t really stop. For example if I’m sitting on my couch and then get up and sit in another chair so that I’m closer to an end table where I can put down my cup, I’ll fully tell my boyfriend that’s what I’m doing and why. I don’t need to do that!!! It’s my house and I’m an adult!! But I tell him because, like. I guess sitting in the living room and then getting up to sit in another chair in the same living room is weird. In my experience it is remarqued upon.

It is questioned, even if the question is not meant maliciously and it’s like “where are you going?” Or a teasing “what, don’t want to sit next to me?” (Or, in childhood: “you have a cup in your hand you should have sat in the chair next to the table to begin with, don’t you ever pay attention/think things through” or “don’t be childish you can hold the cup in your hand just fine without spilling it”)

But what really makes it a trauma response is that I lie. I lie all the time!!! I am a habitual liar in my muttered narration that no one gives two shit about!!! Because sometimes my reasons for doing something are not rational, or can’t really be explained in a way that would make sense to or satisfy a neurotypical person. Like the texture of the couch, which I usually don’t mind, is just not something I want to deal with that day for some reason so I’m moving to another chair. But I don’t say that, because I have long and extensive training at passing for a neurotypical and they don’t change chairs for something like that. So I lie. I come up with a good excuse for changing chair (“oh let me sit closer to the table actually”) and I mutter it as if I were totally just talking to myself and not putting on a show.

And that’s exhausting tbh.

#actually autistic #just figuring stuff out over here don’t mind me #i dont feel one iota of bad feelings about being autistic just endless vindication but I HAVE struggled with shame over being a liar #my entire life #I just lie so easily and for the stupidest things but its easier because the truth isnt accepted #you tell the true they think youre lying you lie they think youre telling the truth lmao #and the ACTING omg the acting #you always have to match the words with an Appropriately Emotional facial expression and Appropriately Emotional tone #otherwise its a whole exhausting drama trying to explain that no actually I did mean that I had a good weekend #even if I had a brain fart and forgot to make my voice chipper as I said it

[clementimetodie]

recently saw someone's "advice for your 30s" which included something like "never get on the floor without having an escape plan for getting back up" and um. if you are otherwise able bodied and having trouble getting up from the floor in your 30s. you are very unhealthy. yes, even, if not especially, for that age.

#obviously this does not include the physically disabled #anyway 30 year olds please stop acting like you're 60 #and please for the LOVE stop abusing your bodies omg #you should NOT have a hard time getting up from the floor in your 30s good grief

[destiny-islanders]

i get it now

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #astarion #destiny doodles #destiny comics #even as an ace person when this happened to me i was like: yeah i get it. #i did try to burn his hand off tho #i'm playing with a full party of friends so i don't feel like i know what's going on most of the time haha #it's fun tho #reading the comments and tags and omg??? astarion is an ace magnet??? #okay i'm in act 2 now and i see a huge reason why. big spoiler tho so not gonna say but. yeah.

[sweetlullabyebye]

Characters that are absolute lovesick disasters but also brutal killers are... definitely something

#seo moonjo #seo inwoo #jang okju #oswald cobblepot #all brutal and violent and then there's their loved one and it's like 🥰omg hiiiii🥰 #they're handling crushes in their own weird way #the type of characters that's in the middle of killing and has to interrupt because their spouse called #like 'hold up i'll finish strangling u in a minute but my spouse's calling' #that post about 'it's not my fault act of services is my love language and all i know how to do is kill' #kang yohan #xue yang #it's those hearteyes #strangers from hell #psychopath diary #ballerina 2023 #gotham #devil judge #the untamed #theo raeken #teen wolf #meanwhile the other is the most clueless person alive

[yugiohz]

you know how deku and bakugo used to collect bugs (and hopefully release them) as kids well I think teen deku tries to rekindle his friendship with bakugo by bringing epic stag beetles to their dorm and bakugo tries sooo hard to pretend he doesn't give a fuck about beetles anymore </3

#deku with a massive stag beetle in his hand omg friend look!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #and bakugo is trying soooooo hard to act blase #ugh kids #i dont like bugs but i love kids' fascination with bugs and for these two its canon so we need to work with that #ugh i love loser deku

[cannibalovers]

still thinking about that scene where will confesses that he does fantasise about killing hannibal, specifically with his hands and the way will is just absolutely staring into his soul, death stare and all, but hannibal just sits there trying to contain his smile and not blush and kick his feet

#“omg pookie wants to lay his hands on me with murderous intents that's so romantic” #him trying to act surprised and going “then we haven't moved past apologies and forgiveness have we” makes it even funnier #hannibal #hannibal nbc #nbc hannibal #hannigram #murder husbands

[waterghostype]

shit postings

#ninjago #kai smith #cole brookstone #zane julien #jay walker #jaya #ninjago jaya #kai ninjago #aphid’s ninjashits #im sure this has been done but ive had this idea for so long #also i just realized i messed up kais scar position in the first drawng #oops! #he was forced to acknowledge the rebooted love triangle #imo the love triangle sucks total ass but it’s also like peak comedy in a meta way #like yeah misogyny and badly wirtten romance but i’s so absurdly stupid you cant help but laugh #also looking at the comment section for the jay kai fight gave me brain damage omg #like ok i have problems with the way kai was treated in regards to nyas seaboundification #but ppl keep acting like jay shouldnt have cared as much as he did which is ??? dude #AITA for being sad my fiance turned into the ocean #but dragons rising fixed that for me mostly #another reason why dr ON TOP!!!!! #and jay’s characterization in recent seasons is definitely really just mmmm #but his reaction to nya’s leaving made sense and i wish it was explored more but whatever #crystalized is crystalized

[dotsz]

NEVER take an art and animation nerd to see the spiderverse movies they WILL go insane and talk throughout the whole movie about the style variations the camera work the blend of mediums the color grading the framing the references to past movies the ueegrgrrrghhhh

#NO SPOILERS BUT THE LAST ACT OF THE MOVIE AND THE WHOLE COLOR SCHEME OF THE WORLD HAD ME CREAMINGGGG #I HAVE SOOOO MANY THOUGHTS BUT I CANNOT LIKE PUT IT INTO WORDS GRAH!!!!!!! #me going OMG LOOK AT THAT every 2 minutes idgaf it was a 9:30pm showing with a bunch of other people my age equally as excited #spiderverse #dots rambles

[lxkeee]

BUT YOOOO LUCIFER IS SO FINEEE THE VOICE, THE CHARACTER DESIGN, THE PERSONALITY HOLY SHII HE'S THE TOTAL PACKAGE 😭😭 LILITH MOVE IMMA TAKE YO MAN

#lucifer magne #lucifer hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel lucifer #I CAN'T ACT NORMAL WHEN HES ON SCREEN #I START FROTHING IN THE MOUTH #OMG

[gunsatthaphan]

#not having it.

#off jumpol #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #gun atthaphan #firstkhao #offgun #khaogun #gmmtv #KJHDJKSF PLEASE this was so funny 😭 #the babies having fun and the dads being like 😕 #lmaoooo #screaming at this #also the color contrast is sending me 💀 #also when i saw them all I was like omg theyre interacting!!!! and then i remembered that they have all acted together kdjfhgd #my brain just deleted not me and also the fact that khao was in home school lmao rip #on that note season 2 better happens #i have only seen part of season 1 but I know that khao needs to make another appearance as the evil psycho #it needs to happen

[shiloriin]

And when you kiss my wounds,

I don’t feel as unworthy

of you.

#hualian #heaven official's blessing #hua cheng #xie lian #tian guan ci fu #tgcf #crying about the tender act of Xie Lian kissing Hua Cheng’s eyepatch #and Hua Cheng feeling as if one of his most consuming flaws is no more #that’s what the love of a god is capable of #omg I’m rambling #I love them so much your honor #shilodraws

[nullio]

Quick what's the 13th century equivalent of your boyfriend claiming he's not into the drama you're watching only for him to become 8× more invested than you are

Like Jask and Geralt pass through a town that's having some sort of festival/celebration and there's a live stage performance that Jaskier wants to see but Geralt is being huffy and only wants to get supplies and leave

So Jask is like "go get your food and provisions and find me here, alright?"

Smash cut to 30 minutes later, he and Geralt and huddled together on a bench with drinks like

G: "Did he really just fucking say that" "Is he actually going to go back to that woman" "did he really spend their entire savings on that and not tell her??"

like he's LOCKED IN now

#she speaks #the witcher #witcher #jaskier #geralt #geraskier #imagine #like fine he'll wait for a minute to leave so he doesnt disturb anyone #wow the actings pretty good #omg what did he say

[turtleblogatlast]

Love the idea that Leo’s portal and teleportation based fighting style can heavily parallel the types of stuff you’d see in magic acts. Disappearing and reappearing, pulling stuff out of a hat/portal, sleight of hand and other such methods of averting the audience’s/enemies’ attention from what you’re trying to do, etc.

It’s genuinely pretty neat to see and I wish his love of magic acts and magicians was brought up more often because it and his other interests tie into each other and in turn his whole self so neatly.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rottmnt headcanons #rise leo #leo out here making his entire identity circle on his special interests #and u know what he’s so valid for it #bros out here doing a performance 24/7 of course he latched onto the whole idea of ‘a magician never reveals his secrets’ #he heard that one line and was like omg I can make a mask of this #I’m so on board with the autistic leo thought too bc frfr he shows it in spades #he’s just a king at masking #but yeah back to special interests- Leo’s all come together in making his various masks #the way he acts is nearly always reminiscent of someone else and it’s notable how different he is when masking isn’t necessary #everyone: will you ever stop overthinking this turtle boy? #me: no

[passionartx]

Reminder of a Starline themed BumbleKast Q&A where Ian Flynn as Starline talks about what he would have done with Sonic and Tails bodies after the events of Issue 50: [ Tw! Child Death + Taxidermy ]

Starline is such a genuinely terrifying character (who I miss everyday ahh) and his disregard for children and his willingness to mentally and physically manipulate them for his own evil purposes (especially in the context of this answer) is genuinely chilling. It’s something I think even Eggman would be semi disturbed by which is saying a lot.

The idea of him using Sonic and Tails preserved bodies as trophies and as an example to others is so insanely horrifying, and the “well then I’ll just have to start a gallery won’t I!” in response to the idea of other hero’s trying to rise up against him somehow finds a way to make it extra disturbing. The mental image of Amy, Knuckles and all their other friends seeing what Starline has done to the brothers… to their family 💔

The thought of Surge and Kit having a constant physical reminder of what they’ve done… that while Sonic and Tails may be out the way, the two unwilling doppelgangers will forever be in their shadow, unable to truly fill the roles they were forced into and the bond the brothers had. Them getting everything they thought they wanted, yet still feeling empty inside.

Long story short: Ian Flynn did not need to go this crazy with this answer but gosh am I glad he did.

#I think about this at least 10 times a day and a convo with 0vergrown brought it to the front of my brain again #when he said taxidermy I choked #THE EVIL LAUGH TOO LIKE?!?!?! #THOSE ARE CHILDREN BRO #he’s out here acting girly pop while talking about child murder and it’s driving me crazy #oh starline how I miss you #miles tails prower #sonic the hedgehog #sth #tails the fox #sonic #tails #amy rose #knuckles the echidna #dr starline #doctor starline #starline the platypus #<<<< crazy madman omg #as a British person I love him giving starline a silly lil evil British accent too omg #dr eggman #eggman #surge the tenrec #kit the fennec #kitsunami the fennec #ian flynn #sonic IDW #bumblekast

[libartz]

The way Gortash literally stops in the middle of his own goddamn coronation to explain to Durge how they hatched their evil plan together (the evil plan he’s running on the platform of stopping)

Hey, mightn’t the audience three meters away have something to say about this?? HOW did they not hear? Or at least think ‘we’re here to watch a coronation and these 4 complete randoms walk in and you stop the whole thing to have a deep conversation with them in the middle of the room, what the hells is this’

He’s such a disaster

#bg3 spoilers #durge spoilers #dark urge spoilers #bg3 act 3 spoilers #bg3 #enver gortash #gortash #durgetash #the dark urge #dark urge #‘and now I shall finally be arch- OMG POOKIE! Pookie is here! I mean hello. I am calm and collected.’

[voidlessmaze]

thinking about shigaraki hours and how he has to keep telling himself that he wANTED to kill his family when he was merely five years old and that he is inherently evil because he could not live with himself if he didn’t. also thinking about how persistent he is about this because otherwise he sees no reason why he was born this way when in reality he wasn’t born this way…AFO did this to him.

#shigaraki #bnha #bnha 418 #bnha spoilers #it makes me so sad omg #this desperate attempt to make sense of what happened trying to find a “higher” reason for it #because how else could you live with a tragedy like that? #where you comitted such a monstrous act (even if it was out of your control) #unless you convince yourself it was fate/you wanted it to happen