#and the toll that has on him

[mediocre-noodle]

forever and ever thinking about mag161

#something about being so assured in your dehumanization and monstrosity you cant see the parts of yourself worth loving #and hurting the only person left who loves you and who you can love #but you two are all that’s is left for eachother #martin trying so hard to help jon and make him feel loved but its falling on deaf ears #and the toll that has on him #i need a minute #jonmartin #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #im not very good with words but i need to release some of the brainworms #sorry gang #tma #tma spoilers #mag161 #tma 161 #tma quotes

[equill]

The Warden

Panel: No escape.

Ok, now just some silly ideas to share (playing around with the au)

Comic 1: Invading dreams

Extra: no thanks.

Comic 2: Unwanted attention

#naruto #naruto fanart #kakashi hatake #rin nohara #obito uchiha #infinite tsukuyomi #fanart #art #my art #sketch #drawing #digital art #hello i have yet to combust #just some drawings to share to get back to posting #playing around with styles of coloring #anywayss went back to the infinite tsukuyomi au #it’s started off as trying to learn and bring back information or dreams to entertain kakashi #(being aware of being trapped is taking a toll oh him) #but soon as they continue to view around and traveling through the roots #seeing how everyone has a different look on him #they catch a glimpse of obito looking around #so the journey starts as it makes sure that he’ll never get his hands on him again #hiding him with the cocooned as much as possible and #(at some point it detaches itself from the original genjutsu and lives off kakashi chakra) #then #be it build a defense around the mind or alternatively #erase memories that kakashi has of him #the genjutsu conclusion is that this is what will make Kakashi happy #if he never remember then the pain associated with it would cease #kakashi is horrified to know with pasting time his mind is essentially being tampered with

[alicentes]

I didn’t sit here for years tryna stay calm and silent while listening to your bad takes on gale (who grew up oppressed, in poverty and then witnessed his entire district getting wiped out then rightly went to fight in the rebellion because it was his inlg chance of tearing down the system the wanted him and his family dead) being a “terrorist war criminal who is single handedly responsible for killing innocent people including prim and who is the REAL villain of the hunger games” just for y’all to turn and start stanning and defending actual facist dictator and child trafficker Coriolanus Snow because you saw a young hot version of him.

#i actually do enjoy coryo as a villain and liked his origin story but people are really making excuses for him? and they know what he became #gale hawthorne #the hunger games #anti coriolanus snow #tbosas #like even in tbosas he shows that he is a sociopathic narissist. he tries to be good but those traits are still there and he embraced them #as for gale he was oppressed his entire life and lived in the poorest part of panem and resents the rich who were complicit in his suffering #the things he does for the resistance were things he thought was neccessary to win to end oppression #the other option was losing the rebellion and getting tortured killed and allowing snow to cause a lot more suffering #do i agree w everything he does? no because he is a character with flaws but i dont blame him one bit for decisions after the genocide of 12 #he has to live with the consequences of what happened during the war and what he had to do to survive #but he is not a bad person for fighting back and willing to kill to survive he also does not understand the toll it takes to have to kill #him and snow are the same age and they both choose survival but snow is choosing power for himself and restoring his families wealth #and gale is choosing to join the rebellion and willing to fight for the sake of the rest of his people and to put an end to the suffering #one creates an oppressive society and one is tearing down that society both do whatever it takes #wow i guess i have more thoughts on gales character than i originally thought and the comparisons with snow are interesting

[n4rval]

consider: mad genius who's also a very kind and lonely old man

actually adores children and connects with them better than most people because they are both openly candid, creative and curious

struggles with the asexual conundrum of wanting a spouse and offspring but ultimately Sucking So Much Ass at building intimacy with another person he skipped that part altogether and mad scienced his way into a family

#talking to the wall #wd gaster #gaster #thats him right there alright #sighs. thinking of him #might delete later? #just in case i get embarrassed of saying words shfjdfhdj #definitely illustration material though #college has just been taking a real toll on me in regards to art ⚰️ #cannot wait to draw his date attempts #they all pretty much boil down to that one family guy clip #who the fuck starts a conversation like that I Just Sat Down #this is a very important man. #a very important smart man. #a very important creepy; inappropriately honest; forward to a fault; impossibly and intimidatingly smart old man. #who may or may not have made a few visits to the mental hospital in order to make sure he's not a danger to himself in his manic spikes #if there is such thing in the underground #“ok pops timeout yeah? you're very on fire. literally.”

[altocat]

Every time I see a Nibelheim argument that boils down to "Sephiroth did the thing because his ego/pride was shattered" I want to rip my hair out.

#ff7 #ffvii #final fantasy 7 #crisis core #sephcanons #sephiroth #nibelheim incident #Like okay that is a teeny tiny component but it was NOT the overriding factor #It's so much more than that #Sephiroth doesn't go insane because he thought he was better than everyone else and the truth called that into question #He goes insane because he correctly discerns that he was a lab-grown inhuman soldier being exploited by the company that raised him #AND it makes sense for him to go to Jenova--he feels he was wronged and the thing with the Cetra only adds to that. #Jenova is the only person that can understand him and the only thing he ever wanted #Plus you know he was extremely mentally unwell #so there's that too #Lost pride is only a fraction of Sephiroth's motivations #It's a matter of dehumanization and years of trauma finally taking their toll #He is delusional about his place in the world because it's all he has to cling to #the alternative is to die #Sephiroth has been taught survival all his life and THIS is how his mind rationalizes he will survive

[chiropteracupola]

he's got a hairstyle and he's already planning mischief!

#today's art adventure #normal men innocent men very small men #two big wins tonight: finished this and also the tumblr tag suggester is BACK hooRAY #he is going to get more of a trim/heat-styling/maybe some gel in the coming days because my melony-drink energy has worn off #and if I use the scissors on him at this hour I shall do something I regret #I want to stay up and drawwwwww but the lack of sunlight is already taking its toll on me #consequently I shall admit to hearing the siren call of my Bed instead

[oddly-casual]

This entire scene makes me hurt but I wanna talk about this part in particular because it drives me insane.

Like- Splinter knows they aren’t just running errands. He can see his sons sneaking out thinking their slick and he found all their human stuff bc he’s nosey and if his sons won’t talk to him he’ll just have to investigate himself right?

So Splinter knows his sons are hiding something from him because duh- and he knows they want to be apart of the human world but he’s scared they’ll get hurt so he tries to bring the human world to them.

And you can just see the cringe and discomfort in the boys eyes because their father keeps trying to make them stay but it’ll never be in the way they want it, but they clearly feel bad.

And the real kicker is when Splinter tries that thing he did in the beginning of the movie, where he presses his sons about the truth but he specifically looks at Leo, like the screen cuts to Leo and even Raph looks at Leo because Splinter knows his eldest son would never lie to him.

But then he does

Leo lies right to his fathers face no hesitation and Splinter gets that look that just screams ‘i lost them’ because even if his son’s disobey the rules and don’t talk to him anymore, Leo was like Splinter’s insider into what his kids are doing and how to keep them safe. Splinter lost their trust.

But now even Leo is shutting Splinter out, so Splinter has been completely walled off by his sons and to Splinter he has no idea why because he’s just doing this to protect his kids.

Looking at it from Leo’s perspective, he has a strong sense of Justice. In the beginning when their father grills them about where they’ve been, Leo caves immediately even though he knows it’ll make everyone mad at him.

He braces himself for it too. There’s no reward in telling the truth but Leo does it anyway.

But Leo is a teenager, and teenagers tend to act in their own self interest. So when Leo keeps snitching and it only leads to punishment on all sides

Isolation from his brothers, distance from his father, of course Leo is going to cut his losses and stick to the thing that brings him joy. Possible acceptance and April. It’s also the most we see him bond with his brothers since Leo isn’t trying to follow their fathers rules.

#mutant mayhem #tmnt #tmnt mm #mm splinter #mm leonardo #mm spoilers #Leo👏has👏eldest👏daughter👏syndrome👏 #i could talk about Leo a lot from this movie because there’s a lot left unsaid #Like most of what we gather from his relationship with his family is very show don’t tell #In the beginning it’s Donnie Raph and Mikey goofing off and making fun of Leo and Splinter #even if Leo always does what’s right you can tell it was kinda taking a toll on him because he felt so isolated #on the rooftop scene when Raph uses Leo’s sword he’s Literally sectioned away from his brothers in the dark #but after they start taking down Superfly Leo is always with his siblings in the light and the dark #most siblings bond in way parents could never because it’s like having a best friend to do stuff with #and Leo being the ‘snitch’ siblings basically excludes him from sibling bonding and it sucks #leo literally had to choose between his dad and his brothers and Leo didn’t like his dads rules either #anyway I’m ranting point is i feel bad for Leo

[accio-victuuri]

yibo-official update

#oh nooooooooo get well soon babie!!!! 🥹🥹🥹🥹 #i don’t wanna be negative but i’m just thinking how long has he been sick #he even did that performance in macau #might have taken a toll on him #it’s good to take a break. we understand yibo. #wang yibo #one and only movie

[found--family]

am i the only one who sensed some jilted lover vibes from jensen? 

#burcon #cockles #thoughts #at the start of the panel and through a few particular interactions he seemed very standoffish #he was giving a little bitter and hurt and perhaps even resentful - maybe he only learned of misha's gf #at this con too! maybe it was news to him. on top of not seeing misha for months i can understand #if he was feeling a bit neglected and out of the loop. there's also the matter of misha's gf not being #in a poly thing with jensen and dee like vicki was ie. what she has with misha is seperate so i'm sure #that's another difficult thing to deal with knowing their time together is strictly separate #i've no doubt he wants misha to have a partner and be happy but there's an adjustment period #letting new people into your life and whoever misha's partner is now or in the future is going to #affect jensen on a personal level and moreover his relationship with misha. it's all very intriguing #and while i like what little i've seen and heard about this woman for misha i just think no matter who #she is it's going to take a toll on jensen's relationship w misha. i thought it was plain to see on jensen's face #during their panel: numerous moments where he was giving a poker face that wasn't covering a laugh #but instead like he was trying to smooth out his bitterness. or so my eyes and brain and heart tell me. #just various moments where things looked uncomfortable and jensen making off-colour jokes that didn't land #and which furthermore were barbed and snarky - not in their usual banter way but like he was lashing out #and using the excuse of chaotic panel convo to explain away his comedic pitfalls. but again maybe i'm #looking to much into it? idk. there are some lovely moments! fun and caring moments - but they #mainly came from misha's direction ngl. it seemed like misha was trying hard to keep the peace #while jensen was just running his mouth on comments and jokes that kept not landing - for me #everyone on my dash is loving their dynamic this panel - and i want to feel that love! it is possible that #learning misha has a gf has skewed my perception a little like i'm putting context onto moments #i otherwise wouldn't. but i also think i would've laughed and generally felt better watching their panel #if that was the case. idk. whatever the reason i do think something was OFF between them on stage #and it was coming from jensen from the start. misha picked up on it partway though but things felt #a little strained throughout. like jensen wasn't looking at misha as much as usual or reaching out for him #misha tried to salvage and not react to things. but both their answers to the last Q were passive aggressive af #and when they left the stage together they weren't close or touching or chatting like they usually are...

[distort-opia]

I was just thinking about how funny it is that Joker is probably too kinky to be physically tortured into giving up information, but now the possibilities are turning the gears in my mind. They'd have to use psychological/mental torture to get anything out of him, and even then, it would probably take threatening Batman in some way (like in Deadly Duo). They'd also need to capture Bats first in order to actually have any leverage but that'd be pretty hard. This got me thinking about what it might take to have Batman willingly surrender himself since there are too many obstacles that might make capturing uncertain. He won't let anyone be killed because of him (using the "because of him" closely, because he tends to blame himself for anything) so I could imagine a situation where he has to give himself up in exchange for not killing a hostage. If a villain were to have Joker in their grasp and threaten to kill him unless Batman turns himself in (with no other option available), Bats surrenders. Anyways, now I have an angsty fic idea where Batman surrenders, thinking he's saving the Joker but then they turn the weapons on him to get Joker to spill some information. Cue drama

Oooh. That's an excellent premise for a lot of angst and character exploration, yeah. I entirely agree that the only realistic way someone could torture Joker would be through Batman. Other people have canonically tried to get at him by attacking Batman already (Hush, for example). But taking Joker hostage and knowing Batman would be unable to be the direct cause of anyone's death, not even Joker's, but once Batman shows up using him to get at Joker... delicious. It could be such a heartbreaking way of having Batman realize that 1) he doesn't enjoy seeing other people torture Joker actually, and 2) that Joker genuinely cares about his life and it's the only thing he'll break for.

If you're inclined to write this, I am in full support. It's a great idea.

#also yeah it is funny that Joker basically has one (1) weak spot #I wrote 'when the bell tolls' because I remember mulling over this from the POV of Bruce and his sadistic tendencies #him maybe wanting to punish Joker for all the things he's done #but not really being able to. because Joker's a masochist #and he doubly enjoys it when Batman is the one to inflict pain #it's both funny and tragic how Bruce can literally only use himself to hurt Joker #asks #batjokes

[maskyartist]

hunting is best done at night. insects are mostly nocturnal, and while Clay can't get quality meat from them, it's good enough to satiate the desperate hunger within him. enough to quell his cravings for one more day.

he loves his brothers. he loves this new society the Trolls have managed to build. he loves living life, surrounded by people and places, instead of stuck doing the same thing day after day.

...but he's still starving.

#masky says #trolls dreamworks #trolls clay #eat or be eaten au #doodles #like i said the bulk of this au's sorta drama takes place AFTER band together #the bros know by now that clay's just gotten stronger n such but they know nothing of what they ate #learning the bergens have been FORGIVEN has taken a toll on clay's mental state a bit #the guilt for eating their meat is new and sudden and it doesnt make things better for him #hes surrounded by people who love him who heal him who feed him #yet hes so hungry...

[naamahdarling]

:(

#he's not sick or anything no worries everything is fine #but smooch aka dried pickle man is just... #getting older #he's 13 #which isn't super old for an indoor cat with superior vet care but it is low end lifespan #and he has stage 3 kidney disease AND IBD so like that has to take a toll #and i've noticed lately that he has been slowing down #not like lethargic or anything #just #sleeping more often #being a little slower #bothering his brothers less #and it guts me to see him age even a little #i cried about it today #he's due for his annual and he gets ALL the bloods and prodding to make sure he's chugging along and i expect everything will be fine #he's just getting up there and i'm not ready for that #he's a pillar of my world

[seratlantisite]

The way learning about the vinsmokes and sanji's childhood re-contextualized so much about him hit me like a truck and i still reel when i remember that feeling

"You can die for your pride if you want, but listen - if you eat and survive, won't that give you the opportunity to fight for pride truly worth having?"

"Give up your ambition and live!"

"When he's fighting, he's not afraid of anything. Not even death."

These three lines stick out to me the most when thinking about sanji, but also the progression of these three lines too. Sanji says that first line to a starving man and it's sensible, it's wise. Live to fight another day, and all that. And the second line seems reasonable too, on its own. Why throw your life away when you know you won't win? It is a waste. But it also clashes with the heart of the scene - of zoro putting his life on the line for his dream. If this fight is the ultimate goal of zoro's ambitions, the point of his whole life, how can he just walk away? Because this is the thesis of the series - that extraordinary dreams are worth risking it all. Luffy says himself, with a smile on his face, that if he dies chasing his dream then he'll die. At least he tried. So how can sanji be a main character in a show about chasing dreams if he won't risk anything?

It's because the vinsmokes are still holding him back.

Of course sanji has this mentality, that when danger arises he has to keep his head down and survive until he reaches a mythical someday when everything will be fine. That's what got him through the hell of the first eight years of his life. Things will be better later, just hold on for now.

But the thing with humans is we take our worst days and burn them in to our memories so if they happen again we can survive them again. No matter how much time passes. "Give up your ambition and live" is good advice for a bad situation, but Sanji couldn't see he didn't need it anymore. He's been stuck in that mentality for years even after breaking free of the life where he needed it every single day. And zeff didn't know how to make him see that.

But luffy could show him. And zeff could sit with his son and watch what it was like to live without fear.

#says ser #one piece #black leg sanji #meta #i dont know how much about germa oda had planned from the beginning but #there has never been a 'long lost secret prince' story that hit even half as well as this one did #and its because theyre always orphans who get kingdom bestowed on them one day out of nowhere #while sanji knew and hated it and you could see its toll on him EIGHT HUNDRED GD CHAPTERS before you ever learned why #germa 66

[lollytea]

Is it too much to ask for one of those "it's a wonderful life" type things where Luz gets to see a timeline where she never came to the Boiling Isles

#eda? probably petrified in her owl beast form by now #lilith? wallowing in a lifetime of regret. either a furious rebel or still a loyal coven head whos dillusioned by the loss of eda #but figures theres no use in trying to change things #king? either dead or all alone #willow? literally a nervous wreck. several more months of enduring ridicule for being half a witch has gotta take its toll #gus? his passion for human stuff kinda got snuffed out when matt eventually drove him out of his own club #amity? holy MOLY. you KNOW how its goin for amity #hunter? loyal golden guard. feels like his life is going great. and if he feels entirely alone then hes just not gonna think about it #belos? literally partying rn. wrangled the portal door from eda very early on and now the day of unity is coming up. yippee! #raine? probably still a rebel. even MORE driven by their cause since they lost eda #but theyre beginning to doubt that they have any chance of winning this fight #basically everything SUCKS #and theyre all about to be killed and they dont even know it #and even if they did they probably wouldnt have the motivation to do anything about it #would succumb to hopelessness #belos doesnt have a broken nose in this universe. this has made him unstoppable #my special little au called the fuckshit isles

[thatgirl4815]

Transitions & Tension

I know we’ve all been praising Mile and Apo for their acting this episode, but I want to jump in and say that what’s impressive isn’t only their execution of immense tonal shifts but the speed and at which they execute these shifts. Their mood changes are seamless rather than choppy and divided. Not only does it make the scenes more entertaining and realistic, but it also makes them feel whole. 

Like in this beloved scene:

The shift happens right in this gif. Kinn’s face falls ever so slightly--without saying a word, we’ve already connected the dots about what he’s feeling. It reminds me of Ep6 in a way. This flirtation between them is a break from the real world. Kinn gets caught up in the moment before reality crashes back in. Porsche’s smiling face brings him joy, but everything about their situation is fragile. Porsche is still Kinn’s bodyguard, and he must assume all of the duties that come with that, but Kinn has never really wanted Porsche in this position (and I don’t think he ever really will). In the first few episodes, it was out of obstinance and annoyance with Porsche’s attitude. But oh how the tables have turned by Ep7. Kinn has acted as Porsche’s bodyguard in previous episodes, and it’s all been leading to this realization that the only way for Kinn to guard his heart is for Porsche not to guard his body. It’s an unwinnable situation though, because regardless of Kinn’s authority, Porsche still has to assume his role, no matter how dangerous it is. Kinn failed to free him from it in Ep6, so the only option now is to keep Porsche close and pray for his safety. 

Back to my point: the fact that this one scene--this one gif--can bring all of this context to mind shows just how natural and impactful the transition is. The mood flips as Kinn’s expression changes, but that’s all we need to understand the gravity of this moment. They can flirt and play with each other, but there is always this underlying threat to their interactions--the thought that for all they have gone through together, they could be ripped apart in a million different ways. 

(We won’t talk about the fact that this scene also uses three different music selections, each with varying tone, to coincide with these transitions. It’s a risky move to use so many selections, but in my opinion, it works. And Jeff’s soaring vocals of “Why don’t you stay?” as they look at each other??? Yeah.)

Let’s not even get started on the newest installment of The Scene™, because that’s got mood changes galore. Rage, frustration, heartbreak, guilt, forgiveness, desperation, lust, love: all in the span of only a few minutes. Mile and Apo have proven themselves to be phenomenal actors on their own, but they have a unique way of communicating with each other through their expressions alone. Their emotions are almost palpable, and they silently interact in a way that heightens these mood transitions effortlessly and realistically. 

From a screenwriting and acting perspective, this final scene is risky. It quickly becomes sexual, but this isn’t a hate-sex moment, as it very well could’ve been. Kinn and Porsche are very clearly sexually attracted to one another, but their coming together isn’t initiated solely by lust; as in both of KP’s sex scenes so far, the physical intimacy is inextricably tethered to the emotional intimacy. As @fleet-off​ mentioned in one of her posts, television doesn’t show emotionally-invested sex scenes very often, but that’s what makes KP’s so poignant. The tonal transition feel seamless at the end of Ep7 (at least in my opinion) because of these emotional layers they have built up so carefully over the course of the last seven episodes. I personally went into the show expecting the feelings to come after the sex, but I have been pleasantly surprised by the added layer of emotion because it makes everything feel not only necessary, but richer. And I think it’s really difficult to portray a relatively graphic sex scene and make it feel as if it really needs to be there.

Anyways, I go into more detail about how cinematographic features like lighting and camera angle play into these mood changes in this post.

As usual, this post became a lot longer than I intended, but my concluding thought is that KinnPorsche manages to handle transitions in a masterful way that I adore very much. 🙂

#kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #kinnporsche meta #Update: #I have rewatched the first gif of Kinn at least 1000 times now #His smile makes my heart so happy #He just wants to be with Porsche so badly ugh #I make so many serious meta posts but these tags are the place I can rant #because seriously they were making so many dirty jokes here but my heart couldn't handle the cuteness #PAPA KORN DARES TO INTERFERE IN THIS #Korn must know the toll that Kinn's role takes on him #He seems content letting his other two sons do what they want so long as he has somebody he can count on #I want Kinn to tell him off so badly but also #Can Porsche tell him off? #I'd pay to see that #LET YOUR SON BREATHE #Maybe if you weren't always strangling his emotions then he wouldn't be like that #The main thing I take away from this episode #Is that Kinn is desperate #It piggybacks nicely off of last episode #kinnporsche ep7 #kinnporsche episode 7 #kinnporsche ep 7

[rivilu]

Haven't had the chance to play actual dnd in real life, but In this run I get the sense that bg3 perfectly captures the "party progresses in a weird sideways way that bypasses tons of the dm's prepared lore, so the dm takes revenge by dropping a near impossible encounter on them" vibe I hear so much about

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #fun fact i killed minthara by dropping her down a hole #somehow didn't get the achievement for it though #smh smh jdjsjd #but yeah. ill talk spoilers in the next few tags so be warned #first it was the goblin camp where instead of even trying to talk to anyone i just went up to the hobgoblin at the very back and attacked #took a LOT of tries to beat that encounter #slowly cleared the camp from the inside out without even seeing a cutscene with minthara or anything nxnd rip queen or whatever #then you had the duergar camp or whatever that area was called #where i didn't even realise what the deal with the drow was im just like. oh im freeing those fucking gnomes. wait we're on time limit? #can't long rest? run out of short rests? damn guess it's a challenge run #so emptied that room of all of them before blowing up the rubble. then killed the guy inside without talking to him for more than two lines #lmao #THEN THAT GODDAMN FUCKIN ENCOUNTER IN THE CURSED AREA #which was glitched 4 me until i equipped torches and deactivated turn based mode for the curse before it started #now im over the area where that gold encrusted toll collector (?) is #which apparently has more health than Grym so uhhhhhhh #maybe need to level up before tackling that #long story short im making bad decisions <3 gods bless easy mode