#and this really changes their entire dynamic

[leowo-leuwu]

PRESENTING MY OC FROM THE LORAX !!

Ok, I would like to use my profile to present some of my things, as I do some things involving the universe of The Lorax. I have an AU, but I'm going to focus on my oc outside of this AU, which would be a representation of me on a certain way.

Introducing Layla

Layla is a 21-year-old girl who has lived practically her entire life in an orphanage. Her parents died when she was still a baby, so she never really knew them.

At the age of 18, she was able to receive the billion-dollar inheritance that her parents left her before they died. Her father owned a canned food company that was very famous in this universe while her mother was a renowned lawyer. However, she only found out about it when she turned 18 and came into possession of her family's fortune.

As soon as she got the money, she wanted to fulfill her dream of seeing the world beyond the orphanage, building a trailer with the help of a car manufacturing company. After traveling through several places, Layla decides to visit the Truffula Forest, making it her final trip, as it would become her new home.

More information about your personality

Layla is ambivert, generally lazy, being more lively when it is something she is interested in doing. She loves playing guitar at campfire circles, gardening, painting and card games.

She can be a bit nosy, especially if she notices that someone close to her is sad, she will bother the person until they are happy.

Her favorite colors are red, black and green.

Her favorite food is Chicken Stroganoff.

Relationship with Once-ler in her history

I decided to say that they end up meeting on the same day that Once-ler arrives in the forest because I thought it would be an interesting dynamic. The first impression between the two is not exactly good, Once-ler finds her annoying for being nosy and Layla finds him annoying for being a bit grumpy. As the days go by, the two get closer, getting to know each other better.

Layla sees him as a good friend until one day when they sit next to the river to watch the stars, they end up talking about life. The view of each other changes, growing a feeling of passion.

Random informations

Layla was created in May 2023 and initially used my real name, but I decided to change it.

She loves striped clothes, so her wardrobe is very striped.

Your Trailer cost a lot because it was assembled from scratch. Inside it has all the rooms of a house, even having a little clutter room to put things you don't use as much.

In this universe Once-ler doesn't "become" the Greed-ler, so yes, a happy ending for everyone.

She is Lorax's best friend, having several philosophical conversations with him in the middle of the night.

Her hair is natural red.

She doesn't like Once-ler's family because of the idea of deforestation and because Once-ler's mother looked at her the wrong way when she saw her for the first time.

She has a stuffed pink bunny that was given to her by her mother when she was a baby, and she still takes care of it.

Once-ler likes to teach Layla how to knit, even though she is terrible at it.

She helps Once-ler sell the Thneeds in the city.

#onceler #theonceler #the lorax fandom #the onceler fandom #art #introducing my ocs #oc x once ler #oc x canon #self insert #the lorax oc #oc lore #my oc stuff #lorax fandom

[astralalmighty]

One thing I haven’t seen talked about in Nimona is how young Ballister and Ambrosius are! Like we can debate their ages and all, but what I’d rather focused on is how they’ve only just got out of training by the time all those horrible things happen in the movie. They’re not the well-seasoned fighters they are in the novel. We’ve got Ambrosius getting distracted by autographs, and that asshole knight (whatever his name is) being himself, and Ballister clearly out of his depth while trying help Nimona and her arrow (dude. that is not what you should be doing with an arrow in someone’s leg). These knights are still learning, and it really makes the movie quite different than the novel. It’s refreshing, in a way, and arguably more impactful as these men struggle to learn not only what the Institution is but also how to just get through life and their jobs

#like the other thing I really wanna know is the world building behind the movie #who trains the knights? #do their parents train them? #does their family like take them on patrols and stuff #how much hands on work do they get before they’re officially knights #how often are they sent into the field #I WANT DETAILS #nimona #I’m gonna have to make another post about how interesting it is we have this dynamic in the movie #because the other interesting thing is in the novel #Ambrosius and ballister spend YEARS apart after ballister loses his arm #(presumably years) #but the entire movie takes place over the course of (maybe) a few months #mayyyybe if you stretch it could be a year #but I doubt it #and this really changes their entire dynamic #ballister blackheart #ambrosius goldenloin #OH #I also wanna know how much of their thought process is #‘remember my training’ #I want the details about them being brainwashed

[revvethasmythh]

it's so funny to me that caleb and veth really did just trade off the job of intensely pining for the other at like the halfway point of the campaign. like, imo, nott in the early days did not behave in any real romantic or even romance-adjacent ways toward him--I imagine it would be very hard to even think in that way when you hate what you look like so much, have such low self-esteem, and are actively lying about your entire past, including a secret husband. caleb, on the other hand, is kind of diving directly back into the sort of relationship he had with astrid and eadwulf. very close, very intimate, we-huddled-for-warmth-together-and-oops-it-led-to-something-else sort of thing. he is the one who expresses that he's fine with it if people think he and nott are romantically together when they're talking to keg. nott is the one who pushes back on that. he calls her his life partner. unknowingly, he compares his feelings for nott to nott's feelings for yeza. his behavior only really starts to change after he finds out about veth's husband because suddenly all of that other stuff is rendered inappropriate in retrospect. but even then he compliments her to yeza over dinner in the most awkward of ways, he admits to being jealous, he calls yeza "a lucky man" to have her, he stares at veth and yeza closed bedroom door for far too long, he creates an entire arcane tower with room for her family just so she'll stay with him. in general, his behavior is not, um, totally and completely platonic about it, you know?

like, veth's feelings for caleb are canonical and therefore indisputable in their existence, but caleb in the early days was not that dissimilar to how veth was acting near the end of the campaign. it really paints a picture of "right person, wrong time" in the way things just didn't line up for them. or, as veth would say: "in another world, maybe"

#i am actually thinking about this because my widobrave 2 poll had so many moments on it that caleb initiated #and i often see it remarked that people think widobrave is entirely one-sided and caleb only treats her as platonic or familial #which. my real answer is that it's just complicated and i don't think he'd ever admit to any romantic feelings being there #but i also. uh. i wouldn't call it platonic or familial. there is some holy fourth dimension that this relationship exists in istg #impossible to explain but it is NOT entirely platonic nor all that familial imo as it stands in canon #this is like. ONE piece of the meta I was trying to figure out how to phrase earlier today. bottom line of it was: #I don't think the caleb/veth romance is entirely one-sided but also it is so so complicated #their relationship changes SO many times. SO much. that's why it's so frustrating that fandom is stuck in episode 13 re: their dynamic #SO MUCH ABOUT THE DYNAMIC CHANGES AFTER EPISODE 13 #even sam reigel himself on talks said there was no reason their relationship wouldn't change/evolve after that #and it did change! it really really did! #widobrave #the mighty nein #caleb widogast #veth brenatto #critical role #inaugurating the new url with a widobrave post. as it should be

[pagesofkenna]

it's basically the same explanation as in the manga, but the anime has made it easier for me to understand what Kabru's beef is with the Touden siblings, and I think that explanation was really well done

#in the manga i was like 'he doesnt like them... because they give their money away??' #but here its much clearer. he doesn't like them because they just straight up funded an underground crime ring #and they didn't know and kabru knows they didn't know #but it's that lack of thought of what the consequences might be of their actions that he really doesnt like #and its such a nice breakdown of a complicated situation #because WE have spent the entire last season falling in love with these siblings and their autistic tendencies #but kabru's brand of neurodivergence is figuring out how people work and understanding social dynamics #he cares so deeply about the dangers a dungeon brings to the humans involved #and understanding how everyone inside and outside a dungeon does what they do and why #and then these two very capable tallmen siblings waltz into town... and they just dont give a shit #they're changing the social environment so much without giving it any thought. thats got to be incredibly grating #/I/ find it annoying when people wont think critically about things i love to think critically about!! #anyway. i love kabru. i love that we're going to start seeing more of him. love that the anime fans are going to fall in love with him too #if they havent already

[oshiawaseni]

Do you think if Izuku was a girl Bakudeku would have been seen cannon from day one? I mean Bakugo seems to also have all the tropes of a female romantic love interest in Shonen and the reason why many don't think Bakugo's feelings towards Deku are of a romantic nature is because Deku is a boy. Here's to Bakudeku becoming cannon <3

If the story managed to miraculously stay the exact same story with the only difference being Katsuki is a girl (coz let’s face it, he was the princess being abducted by LOV and held so protectively by Izuku in the Vol 37 cover), then yes. Everyone would be bkdk and all other ships would seem delusional, the way Izuochas/other fans think we are. It’s just ‘cause it’s happening between two guys that people stop caring about the moments that develop or hint at their romance. And this is something Hori wants to change.

I don’t know if you’ve noticed this but Hori represents BkDk in a super wholesome way without many traces of sexual desire. Because he wanted shounen readers to see their love as something real and beautiful, and not being made just for the sake of BL or fetish.

Though tbf, he has occasionally depicted Kacchan as ikemen, maybe to help us imagine Izuku’s struggle to hold back his feelings for him.

Kacchan is gorgeous, and yet his combative personality has scared away girls his whole life. And here we have Izuku always having accepted him for who he is and never distancing himself from him despite the many attempts by Kacchan to reject and send him away!

But anyway, Hori focussed so heavily on the emotions they feel towards each other because he wants readers to look at pure romantic love between a boy and another boy and understand it has no difference whatsoever with the love between a girl and a boy.

This also might be another reason why baby Decchan memories come up sometimes with Kacchan’s POV, or why Noguchi drew so many pictures of their childhood.

Because Katsuki and Izuku seem to be each other’s first love, and while feelings grew rotten for a while, the deep love they have for each other now comes from an incredibly sweet and pure origin.

How Hori is gonna pull this off really has my interest now because he has written bkdk so beautifully up until this point, so I have high expectations for his future plans to bring them together.

Update: I just wanted to add that my heart is so full right now from the KiriMina/BkDk parallels in ch.383. Canon BkDk really is coming right at us and it feels like Hori is going to bombard doubters with reminders of their love until they practically beg Hori to end their misery, and just draw what he has been waiting to draw for so many years, lol. 😊

#cheers anon 🥂 #bkdk canon #bakudeku #asks #when people ask this I think about how their entire dynamic changes just from one being a girl #for example… outside of bestie mamas play dates.. they wouldn’t have played too much together as little kids #so events like the river incident don’t happen #but I’m sure… in every AU… these two find their way too each other 💕 #coz theyre soul mates in every AU #i had this in drafts for a bit so im sorry for my delay anon! the leaks were really wild too lol #kana writes

[allegedlyrainy]

I don’t think I’ve seen anyone mention this yet but I feel like these scenes are an interesting parallel between Kazuki and Misaki with Miri?

Something about the way Kazuki doesn’t let her see that he’s sad because his focus is on making sure that she’s happy and the shot specifically focuses on her face and reaction

while Misaki is caught up in how she feels and she ends up being comforted by Miri. We can see Misaki visibly crying while Miri’s face is initially hidden from view.  

#buddy daddies #buddy daddies spoilers #miri unasaka #kazuki kurusu #misaki unasaka #idk I'm still processing ep11 but I couldn't stop thinking about this one bit #to be clear this is just an observation and not meant to be a criticism of her #well not entirely anyway. I do think she was really trying to change for Miri's sake #but even when she's trying to be a good mother to Miri it's like you can still see the ways she centers herself in their dynamic? #I feel like the line 'I'm going to be a mother you love' says a lot for that too #there's really a lot to look at and think about Misaki despite how little she was around #she didn't deserve the death she got and maybe she COULD have changed if she'd had more time with Miri #but alas we'll never know because it isn't the way this story was meant to go

[goldentigerfestival]

So. I love this. The way Yuri snickers at Flynn showing his real self. The way he, without hesitation, says "yeah" to the idea that he would die in Flynn's place.

But the most important part of this entire thing, which was changed in the dub, is how Yuri specifically jokes that Flynn is trying to abandon him, and Flynn returns and tells Don he had no intention of abandoning Yuri.

Yuri does not hear this. Flynn knows that. But Flynn uses the exact same term Yuri used earlier, as if it's his answer to Yuri and saying no, I would never abandon you.

For reference:

Personally I just... love the weight of it. How Flynn will say something about Yuri that Yuri won't hear, but he still speaks it out into existence because it's how he really feels.

Just because Yuri won't hear it doesn't mean he won't say it, and in a way that's even more powerful. He's not looking for the credit of saying it. He's not looking to be recognized for saying it. He's not only expressing how he feels about Yuri somewhere that Yuri himself will hear him.

They're just his real, honest feelings, and he'll admit them even if Yuri's not within earshot.

#GTF Vesperia Clips #Fluri #classic Vesperia dub trying to hide all the more detailed intimacy between them tbh #y'all are gonna see it even more when I get around to post the huge posts I'm doing #going through the entire game with the changes they made #and how HEAVILY most of the drastic changes pertain to Flynn and their relationship #like. there's really no reason to change these matching scenes in the dub unless they're doing it on purpose #meanwhile they're the sweetest thing in the original and I'll never get over these scenes being matching scenes #also bc like. this is so important for their dynamic going forward into arc 2 #also partly why I truly believe they'd choose each other over the world in specific contexts #but that's a story for another time LOL. for now just know Flynn has gone on record #to say he would never abandon Yuri right to Don Whitehorse's face #anyway you ever get that feeling of like. when you find out from a friend that #someone said smth nice abt you? but you didn't know they said it? #like you KNOW they're saying nice/good things abt you to other ppl now? that's the vibe I get from this #that he's not just saying it to Yuri's face. he says the important things /to others/ as well #he's not trying to score extra brownie points by using sweet words where he knows Yuri will hear him #to me that's the most honest form of affection. saying your feelings out loud where they won't hear you #Flynn also proved himself before saying it as if the idea was to show not just tell #I think Yuri understands when not joking that Flynn wouldn't abandon him #but Flynn is making sure that not just Yuri knows through his actions but that others know it too #and ultimately Yuri doesn't need to hear it. he can believe it because he can see it #Yuri doesn't need to hear it bc he understands Flynn's feelings without needing to hear it

[autism-swagger]

Alexa play Class of 2013 by Mitski.

#I have sooo many thoughts and feelings about them #imagine taking care of your mom your entire life #because she can't/won't do it herself #and you have a set dynamic that doesn't really ever change #only to find that she only changed and got better when you weren't there #I'd go insane actually!! #oh Steph your multitude of parental issues are so charming <3 #my art #Steph tag #stephanie brown #the spoiler #batgirl #crystal brown #dc comics

[kateis-cakeis]

If Arthur was born with magic, what do you think he would have done? kept it secret? do you think he would have a very different relationship with Merlin? just wanna know your thoughts :D

Hi Anon! Sorry it's taken me a while to get to this!!! (Im so sorry truly)

I think an Arthur born with magic could go in many directions. Perhaps an Arthur born with it and showing it early would be scared into keeping it a secret. Or perhaps he would tell his father while crying, because he's confused.

Maybe it would be like Merlin, where he could move objects before he could talk - would then a nursemaid see and keep it a secret, or would she panic and run to the guards?

There's just so many ways it could go down. I think truthfully, if we combine how Arthur is in the show, especially in earlier seasons, with him having magic at an early age - and knowing of it, he would keep it a secret out of fear and disgust with himself.

He would definitely think himself a monster, and would largely act the same in public, while tearing himself apart in private. At least in the sense of lying to his father and the feeling of betraying his own people.

There's a point in the show where Arthur says "not a man, a sorcerer" (S1Ep12), so it's possible that he too wouldn't see himself as a man, but more a sorcerer, a monster - evil.

I think he would still listen to his father's lies, and that he would still think them to be the truth, even if he himself is evidence against that. He's just too close to Uther, and too close to his words, so he'd get a load of internalised prejudices.

I think in some ways he would have a different relationship with Merlin. Since Arthur would also be keeping a secret, and would know secret keeping well, I think he'd be at least more attune to the fact that Merlin is keeping a secret.

Whether or not he'd push him on it is something I'm not sure on, but I'd say no... simply because he wouldn't want to let it slip that he's hiding his own secret.

But at the very least, Arthur would be pretty much the same on the surface but like hiding a lot underneath.

Where it would step into obvious canon divergence AU territory is what he does with that in the long term.

Because it could go in so many directions. Like Arthur could boil over one day and tell Uther in defiance. He could be devasted after a raid, or an execution, let's say, and find comfort in Merlin's friendship - maybe even letting slip that Uther could kill him too (and Merlin would be like haha wtf).

Incorporating certain episodes into AUs like this is a lot of fun too. Like god imagine The Sins of the Father with sorcerer!Arthur like aaaaaaaaaah (and I have already included this in a fic before but I need moreee).

But episodes like the Beginning of the End, The Nightmare Begins, the Witchfinder, and so on. There's a lot there. As well as inventing scenarios that aren't in the show.

So, to conclude, I think an Arthur who knows he has magic from a young age would probably keep it a secret, if that's even possible for him, and would have a slightly different relationship with Merlin, but not by much.

There's a lot you can do with this concept and I'm obsessed with it because it really shakes things up!

#bbc merlin #merlin #arthur pendragon #arthur with magic is my absolute favourite fave and i would love to talk more about it #god it's just so good to me to write about #it inspires me so much because it is so different #it really changes entire dynamics between Arthur and Uther even Morgana and Arthur really #which was why I brought up the Nightmare Begins #i already wrote it into a fic but I think a magic Arthur would be able to tell that it was Morgana and be there for her #aaaah so good #ask

[faceeeeee]

Jax is very gay to me but if they ever cave and give him a wife i hope shes really butch and stinky. You know. To contrast his twinkish charms. I hope shes the strongman of the circus too. Hes the side of a cell phone compared to her.

As much as I enjoy some of the different ships people come up with I always interpret them as alternate/ hypothetical situations and I don't really think he should have a canon partner (also given by the fact that goose herself said that there will be no romance in the series).So in regards to this hypothetical ship....

It's still kind of a funny thought but I don't think it would really work?? I would agree if Jax was a snobby know it all with an ego the size of the universe and that could make for some interesting interactions with a 3 meter titan of a gal that towers over him and grabs him around (think of "My girlfriend is an orc warlord" by Marko Raassina). Then I would be all for it but because I see Jax as a real piece of shit who craves for control I think this supposed gal would punch the ever living shit out of him.

#sorry for the rant...my thoughts on jax are all over the place #I'm not exactly keen on him and just see him as a sexyman who only serves to cause mayhem #like an obstacle for the cast #I would compare him to Michael from the office but the more i think about it they're nothing alike #he's just....an ass... #i kinda made up the “he wants control” part but not really?????? #I dunno man he confuses me and is the least profound character in the cast to me #he's mlt that interesting... for now at least #ALL of my rant is based on just the scenes from the pilot. they may change once we get more episodes so take this with a grain of salt #faceee rambles #sorry if you were hoping for a silly doodle #i take dynamics to heart and try to always stick with the og material #(said face who made an entire Au and 3 fan ocs)

[vivitalks]

[read on ao3]

"You okay?"

Lydia has her elbows on her knees. Sitting in the waiting room of Deaton's clinic, her blue dress paradoxically bright against the bland color palette of the room, she's a contradiction unto herself. She looks tired and shaken. She looks glad to be alive. She looks unprepared to believe that being alive is going to last.

"I've been worse," is how she answers him. Then, "I've also been better."

Stiles takes the empty seat beside her.

"Feels like we're always hovering in the middle there," he offers.

Lydia nods. "Ethan and Aiden are going to be okay."

"Thank God," Stiles deadpans. "I would have been heartbroken to lose them.”

Lydia gently shoves him. "They did the right thing in the end. They're not that bad."

Stiles only hums, drumming on his knee with restless fingers. A deafening silence crowds them in. Stiles reflects on the events of the last twenty-four hours and finds them alarming when compressed into such a small time frame.

"What's on your mind?" he dares to ask, after the quiet is almost insurmountably heavy. If Deaton is still in the exam room with the twins, they're being very quiet. Suspiciously so. Something for Stiles to check on, once he's done checking on Lydia.

Lydia who is smoothing out her dress with a persistence that could be called obsessive. Every motion creates a new wrinkle, and every time, Lydia flattens it under her thumb.

"Oh, you know." Her tone is light, but her twisting fingers betray just how uneasy she is. "Thinking about how the last time I was sitting in this waiting room, you were dead for sixteen hours."

Stiles takes that one to the solar plexus, though he's not sure how else it could be taken.

"I wasn't…really dead. It was more like a long sleep. A long, icy sleep."

"You stopped breathing." Lydia stares lasers into her knees. "You didn't have a heartbeat. Deaton kept saying it was okay, that this was normal, that if something was really wrong we would know, but he was lying, I could tell. He wouldn't let us near you guys — he said he didn't want us interfering with the process." A fist forms in her lap, creasing the folds of her dress. "Sixteen hours. I didn't eat, I didn't sleep. I just sat here. Waiting. Hoping Deaton wasn't full of shit."

"And he wasn't," Stiles says, morbidly upbeat. "We came back!"

"You don't get it," Lydia says, sounding angry and scared and deeply wounded all at the same time.

Stiles frowns. If she would just look at him, maybe he could read her expression, but he can't tell what she's thinking from the set of her shoulders. "So help me get it."

Lydia breathes out, out, out, expelling air like it's a toxic gas.

"Humans have a reflex," she says in a small voice, staring through her palms. "It prevents them from drowning until the last possible second. The survival instinct is so powerful that it overpowers the breathing instinct, even when holding your breath becomes excruciatingly painful. It's called—”

"Voluntary apnea," Stiles says dumbly.

Lydia looks up at him and nods once. Her green eyes latch onto his.

"You told me once that death happens to the people around you," she says, biting her lip. "I can't imagine how it must have felt to be in that ice bath…but can you imagine how it felt to be the one holding you down?"

Stiles is too dumbstruck to answer.

"I killed you. I did that. It doesn't matter that it was temporary. I didn't know that, we didn't know that for sure. I held you in that water until you died, Stiles." Her hands tremble. "You were dead for sixteen hours because of me. I was a murderer. For sixteen hours."

"Whoa whoa whoa, hey," Stiles says. His 'Protect Lydia Martin' instinct is back online and the alarm is blaring. He grabs her hands in both of his, keeping them still and warm.

"Okay, first of all, you didn't murder me. It was consensual drowning! If anything it was more like assisted suicide." Lydia glares. "Not helping. Right. Sorry. Um, but secondly, and— and way more importantly, Lydia, yeah, maybe you temporarily killed me, but you also— you brought me back to life." 

She’s unmoved, he can tell, so he shakes her gently. "Yeah. You did that. Look, anyone can kill me. I'm not even six feet of fragile bones and zero muscle mass, and my best friend's a freakin' werewolf, okay, killing me is not impressive. Bringing me back? That takes something else. Something special, and only someone who—" He tries not to stammer but his tongue sabotages him, "who cares about me enough to bring me back to life could do that, and honestly, those are in short supply, so yeah. Maybe you were a temporary murderer, but you were also a savior. My savior." He smiles weakly. "And I wouldn't have it any other way."

Lydia holds his gaze. She holds his hands, too — not passively but decisively, clutching them like a lifeline, like she's the one who's drowning. Reflecting once again on the past twenty-four hours, it occurs to Stiles that he is not the only person for whom that stretch of time has been alarming.

"That's certainly a nicer way of looking at it," she yields softly. Then she shakes her head. "But it doesn't change the fact that in order to save you, I had to kill you." Now she weaponizes that arresting stare, seaglass green pinning him to his seat. "I'm never doing that again, you understand? I can't."

"I wouldn't ask you to."

"You don't know what it was like," she murmurs — seemingly talking to herself now, more than him, anyway. "Watching you. And I couldn't do anything. I couldn't do anything but sit there."

Something niggles Stiles's brain, that feeling he gets when a few different threads braid themselves into a discernible pattern. The emotional tether. Lydia's remorse. Sixteen hours of sitting and waiting.

"Sitting there was exactly what you were supposed to do," he realizes, also half to himself. It gets her attention anyway; she frowns at his conclusion. Stiles goes on: "An emotional tether, Deaton said, someone to bring us back, I didn't really get it, how that could work, but you just said it. You all just sat there. For sixteen hours. You waited. You stayed, so I had someone to come back to. The way only a tether could do. Think about it, right? If a fisherman casts a line and then walks away from the fishing pole, it doesn't matter whether he hooks a fish because no one is there to reel it in."

"Are you comparing yourself to a fish?"

"We were underwater, I was thinking about water, it was the first metaphor that came to mind, give me a break,” Stiles says defensively. "My point is, sixteen hours is a long time. Long enough to get bored, to lose faith, to give up and walk away and pronounce us dead. But you guys didn't. You didn't."

"Deaton said—”

"You just told me you thought Deaton was full of shit. But you stayed anyway, right?" Stiles presses, looking Lydia in the eye. "You had a feeling. Or maybe you just believed. Whatever it was, you stayed. That's how you brought me back. You thought you weren't doing anything, but you were doing the most important thing." He squeezes her hands. "You were waiting for me."

#lydia martin #stiles stilinski #stydia #stydia fic #teen wolf #teen wolf fic #fic #my fic #tw #tw fic #this fic contains spoilers for season 3a of teen wolf in case any newcomers happen upon it #boy i am a one trick pony and the trick is writing season 3 stydia fic huh #look. you fuck around with me and you sure as hell find out #and what you find out is that mentally i am still in season 3 with the specific stydia dynamic created therein #and i have not left and i will never leave #maybe i cant change the past but i sure as hell can live in it forever #so anyway i really gotta go the fuck to sleep cuz it is a whole entire 1am #and i have like. stuff tomorrow i think. like i gotta pack and stuff. which won't take long god willing #but does still need to happen #stuff

[8rujaa]

my therapist really saved me….

#tw abuse // tw sa #i can’t sleep bc i keep thinking about this. #like i probably would’ve not been here if it weren’t for her #i started seeing her january of 2023… my life has changed entirely since then and she was definitely the one who got the ball rolling #literally so much has changed since then and it’s all because of her #i was so dissociated during our first few sessions #thanks to her i was able to get diagnosed and medicated for adhd. i was able to realize i was in an abusive situation and plan a way out #i was able to focus on myself and my healing and she’s helped me reframe so much of my negative thinking #i was able to process a lot of emotions and become a better version of myself with each session #she’s truly incredible. #i remember the first comment she made about the relationship had been ‘’so it’s like there’s an imbalance of control in the relationship’’ #i had put my partners on such a high pedestal that i had no idea they could be doing anything wrong #and i asked her what she meant and she said ‘from what you’ve been describing it’s sounds like a strict parents and child type of dynamic’ #she told me they didn’t need to understand why i wanted to leave and they didn’t need to make that decision. if that’s what was going to be #best for me the only thing i could do is let them know my reasoning and simply leave. i didn’t need their permission.’’ #i remember being so confused at that realization bc like… i had been putting their emotions over mine the whole time i had forgotten simply #doing what’s best for me was an option… l #ever since then i’ve been putting myself first and it’s been a steady uphill from rock bottom… i’ve made an incredible amount of progress #when i first started with her getting out of bed and walking to the kitchen was incredibly difficult and took all my strength. #yesterday i conquered a mountain!!!!!!! i hiked all the way to the top!!!!! :D #me a year ago thought it was going to take me years and years to recover. as soon as i left i made leaps of progress #im incredibly proud of myself and grateful for her. and my reiki lady she’s also been a great great help. #the silver lining is i realized who really matters. and the relationships i cared about deepened. #my sweet virgo friend was the one who was always like ‘THATS A GROWN ASS MAN WHO CANT UNDERSTAND BASIC CONSENT???’ #LMFAO i would be like ‘but he has trauma and bla bla bla’ she looked me dead in the eyes and said #’jess you said with your last boyfriend that you would never make excuses for a man who was hurting you again. stop defending him.’ #she’s really a gem and i treasure her with my life. i hope she knows i love her. she’s family at this point #she’s also literally saved my life before (like deadass called 911 for help) #im glad i had the support system i had. that was a rough situation with so many layers and im glad i got through it #my 22nd year of life was by far the worst of my life and i don’t ever want to put myself in that situation again. im glad i learned.

[fuckmeyer]

María is a bad bitch queen supreme with a simple dream of reclaiming her land Volturi-style after her human life was tragically cut short by a Texan who had invaded Mexico to create his own vampire Golden Corral. RESPECT HER OR PERISH

#LOVE AND RESPECT FOR HER SHE IS WONDERFUL I LOVE HER #ALSO she's a total softie emotional lil angel who wouldn't have felt forced to take power if her entire coven hadn't been slaughtered #but after YEARS of losses - her human fam & her vamp fam & her HOME - @ the hands of vampires & white colonizers #she got addicted to power & victory! what's a girl supposed to do honestly????? #& LET'S NOT FORGET she & Jasper enabled each other to seek victory bc before they met THEY WERE BOTH LOSERS. #like #i'm just saying she is just as powerful as the Volturi #with a knack for identifying talents in humans #who used the SAME tricks as the Voturi #who was influenced to a degree by Jasper to get greedy bc they were stronger together & loved winning for a change #(we love fucked up relationship 'i can make them worse' dynamics ok) #AND who - & i really can't stress this enough - is only in this damn war because she had everything stolen from her & wanted revenge #yet somehow she gets a lot of flak because she 'manipulated' (not true) and 'abused' (also not true) Jasper?????? the Confederate????????? #just remember #without María jasper would have died in a union-army POW camp eating the fleas off his own clothes #FAX FAX FAX

[apollos-boyfriend]

i finished the remaining episodes of oshi no ko today and honestly. it did get a bit better. i think episode six is a VERY strong and emotional episode that does a great job of establishing the new characters and the reality of their worlds, as well as acting as good social commentary about the entertainment industry and how much is real vs fake and the way reality shows twist the truth to fit their narrative. was very excited for episode seven to continue on that same level, and then. well. aqua happened.

#icarus speaks #i think i just fucking hate aqua 💀 #i LOVE the side characters. i love their dynamics and relationships and how their upbringings have changed their perspectives #and how different it is for those that have grown in the limelight vs only recently trust into it #i think it treated akane’s entire situation well and you could really see the spiral/decline #and the kids’ relationships seem real! they do care about each other! #even the two boys who didn’t get much screen time felt grounded #but by fucking god aqua just disrupts everything #he offsets the whole show and not in a good way #like is his discrepancy intential? yes. he’s a grown ass man #but it’s not GOOD. it’s too much. #i would probably LOVE the show if he wasn’t in it because honestly 90% of my issues are his fault

[jacksintention]

Concerning the conversation about love and hatred, I've compiled a few of the lines I've saved through these last two years that at times make me think of Jack when it comes to this topic

Estas manos, que son tuyas,

pero que al verte quisieran

quebrar las ramas azules

y el murmullo de tus venas.

¡Te quiero! ¡Te quiero! ¡Aparta!

Que si matarte pudiera,

te pondría una mortaja

con los filos de violetas.

¡Ay, qué lamento, qué fuego

me sube por la cabeza!

(...)

¡Ay qué sinrazón! No quiero

contigo cama ni cena,

y no hay minuto del día

que estar contigo no quiera,

porque me arrastras y voy,

y me dices que me vuelva

y te sigo por el aire

como una brizna de hierba.

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Love has no middle term; either it destroys, or it saves. All human destiny is this dilemma. This dilemma, destruction or salvation, no fate proposes more inexorably than love. Love is life, if it is not death. Cradle; coffin, too. The same sentiment says yes and no in the human heart. Of all the things God has made, the human heart is the one that sheds most light, and alas! most night.

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It is sometimes said that the sword wears out the scabbard. That is my history. My passions have made me live, and my passions have killed me.

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Stronger than lover’s love is lover’s hate. Incurable, in each, the wounds they make.

I adore you, but I hate you too. You’re a prison smothered in flowers. I can’t stand this enchantment anymore, I can’t stand being bewitched like this–when I look at you, my gaze turns to nothing but a mirror of light, I’ll stare at you hypnotized for ages, and when I stop seeing you I’ll feel you, and when I stop feeling you I’ll die.

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Someone tells me: this kind of love is not viable. But how can you evaluate viability? Why is the viable a Good Thing? Why is it better to last than to burn?

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Life is a series of obsessions one must do away with. Aren’t love, death, God, or saintliness interchangeable and circumstantial obsessions?

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she is the only thing of importance, because I have a God-relationship to her.

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it is not she who binds me, but I who have made use of her to bind myself.

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The thought that you exist is so divinely blissful in itself that it is ridiculous to talk about the everyday sadness of separation—a week’s, ten days’—what does it matter? Since my whole life belongs to you.

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What have you done with me? he asks. I have repeated you.

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But I do feel strange-almost unearthly. I’ll never get used to being alive. It’s a mystery. Always startled to find I’ve survived

Walking home, for a moment / you almost believe you could start again. / And an intense love rushes to your heart, / and hope. It's unendurable, unendurable

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I clung to him as though only the one who had inflicted the pain could comfort me for suffering it.

I could be free … If I could pluck out the memory of him from my heart as easily as his heart was plucked from the fire, I could be free.

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I am imprisoned by devotion. I shy away from people. I am alone. I fall into depression.

She was the world That he was losing; and the world he sought Was all a tale for those who had been living, And had not lived. Once even he turned his horse, And would have brought his army back with him To make her free. They should be free together. But the Voice within him said: “You are not free. You have come to the world’s end, and it is best You are not free. Where the Light falls, death falls; And in the darkness comes the Light.

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I miss you like a knife in my throat.

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Only love can save me and love has destroyed me.

Should I be grateful or should I curse the fact that despite all misfortune I can still feel love, an unearthly love but still for earthly objects?

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My songs are filled with poison - Why shouldn’t that be true? My heart bears a nest of serpents And also, darling, you.

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their love is like hatred

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She did not yet love him enough to be cruel to him.

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our hatred is almost indistinguishable from our love

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under the sincere guise of hatred I simply loved […], only in this type of love (repulsion) I loved him with greater strength than had I loved him in the simplest form — attraction.

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Perhaps he was handsome, perhaps I found him attractive, perhaps he repelled me too.

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Struck by the abstract nature of absence; yet it’s so painful, lacerating. Which allows me to understand abstraction somewhat better: it is absence and pain, the pain of absence—perhaps therefore love?

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Eroticism is the brink of the abyss. I’m leaning out over deranged horror (at this point my eyes roll back in my head). The abyss is the foundation of the possible. We’re brought to the edge of the same abyss by uncontrolled laughter or ecstasy. From this comes a “questioning” of everything possible. This is the stage of rupture, of letting go of things, of looking forward to death.

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Love is madness. Doesn’t everyone agree that you’d do anything, endure anything, to be with the ones you love? So either you’re willing to let them use you with any sort of cruelty, so long as they keep you—which makes you a fool—or you’re willing to commit any cruelty, so long as you get to keep them—which makes you a monster. Either way, it’s madness.

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This madness is so deep-rooted and so useful that it is impossible to realize what would become of each of us if it were someday to disappear.

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If I must die of fire, why not let me die of yours: knowing that you are the author of my doom will make it more endurable to me

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His desire for loyalty was naive, he hadn’t understood that being loyal wasn’t so tidy, being loyal means being disloyal to everything else.

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I have always loved you / Always dreaded you

You will betray me, as I have betrayed, / And I shall kiss the hand that does me wrong

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Listen: the way I loved you / was like my palm over a flame.

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If I have the destruction of something that I once loved to carry with me at all times, isn’t it like I still have a companion?

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One can fall in love and still hate.

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and I will kill thee, And love thee after.

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Yet, other characters, namely Heathcliff, Catherine, and Lockwood, remain more actively at war with love in their adult lives. Some force, as inexorable as the wind sweeping over the moors, seems to have bent their lives into a pattern of frustration that their own struggle for relief only aggravates. Their need for love is expressed, not through loving, but through the anguish of loneliness. Paradoxically, though they do not know it, this loneliness is the one condition necessary for the fulfillment of their most profound fantasy concerning perfect love: a love, that is, perfectly protected against the threat of abandonment that in childhood these sufferers learned that love entails.

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I feel you there, in every pore. Your silence clamors in my ears. You can nail up your mouth, cut your tongue out — but you can’t prevent your being there. Can you stop your thoughts? I hear them ticking away like a clock, tick-tock, tick-tock, and I’m certain you hear mine.

Odi et amo. quare id faciam, fortasse requiris? nescio, sed fieri sentio et excrucior.

I hate and I love. Why do I do this, perhaps you ask? I do not know, but I feel it happen and it is excruciating.

#These were just the ones I had more at hand. I have so many lines linking to this kind of dynamic #and overall the paradoxical yet logical bond between love and hatred or resentment #I think Cathy's and Heathclif.f's relationship has a lot of this but in general Wutherin.g Heigh.ts is full of these dynamics #(I adore what is going on with Isabella when we last see her in that regard. How true‚ the fact that these loves get messy) #Charles and Adam and even Cal and Aron from Eas.t of Ede.n too #I think there's much of this explored in certain arthuria.n texts #Overall it's something I adore. The blurring of lines when it comes to feelings and relationships #To me it feels way more human and way more... realistic #How things blur into each other and get messy and dark even at times and hard to define #I don't know... I really think the fandom as a whole is always paying too much attention to that line without reading the entire text #I also dislike the claims about Jack ever only loving her and doing it all for her ✨💕 I also think it simples a lot what it's happening #But it doesn't bother me nearly as much because I don't see it that often #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later #'too much attention to that line' I mean the one about hating her #Full of typos but I can't bother to change them I'm feeling very lazy #Tumblr never implemented the tag modification for the app. A pity

[thebicanary]

not to excuse the literal caving in of another man's head but I'm just saying criston's every action in ep 5 makes 10x more sense if you view it as him traumatised by being raped and unable to even comprehend that he was because I highly doubt westeros believes women are capable of raping men when most people in our modern world don't

#look i love my girl rhaenyra but the INCREDIBLY dubios consent of that scene and the power dynamic between them #even if cristin did have genuine feelings/attraction to her (debatable) it doesn't change that she coerced him to sleep with her #and he looked far from thrilled the entire time #like y'all really say 'the patriarchy hurts men too' and 'men can be raped too' but ignore a storyline tackling both those issues because #rhaenyra's a girlboss? #like damn y'all we can love her as a character while acknowledging what she did to cristin was harmful and wrong #i don't wanna hear anyone on this post saying 'he could have refused' or 'he wanted it but he wanted to keep his honor' #do you not hear yourselves #rape mention tw #criston cole #house of the dragon #hotd spoilers