#anyways sorry this is so long. just my two cents on the matter

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Chapter 105.5 Thoughts: Control, Manipulation and Partnership

Or, how Chuuya is actually the most qualified character to land a victory over Dostoevsky.

I just want to preface this with: I think Chuuya has woken from the brainwashing. We can't see his eyes, he's holding his hat again, and look at the progression of his face and expression from the last few chapters with him (these are in order btw from left to right).

I'm not completely sure how he did this, but I chalk a lot of it up to sheer stubborn determination on Chuuya's part, mostly because it's funny and he was clearly fighting back before Dazai's speech. However, I find it likely the speech did contain some kind of code - others have pointed out how "Goodbye!" might be a reference to the original author's last unfinished book and we know skk's codenames for things generally are based off their real counterparts' works so, maybe he'd already broken out of it, maybe there was something in there that gave him the final push - who knows at this point honestly? Either way, it means Chuuya had the capacity to break out of the vampire curse on his own and that's incredibly funny to me for many reasons but mostly:

Fyodor: "Bold of you to assume Chuuya's ability can't overcome flooding."

Dazai: "Bold of you to assume Chuuya's personality can't overcome brainwashing."

But really, this highlights something interesting here, both in what Chuuya's role is ultimately intended to be in this arc, and in the way Fyodor and Dazai manipulate and value others in very different ways.

I've said it before but it bears repeating: we already know that Fyodor is an excellent long-term planner, while Dazai is effectively able to counter him because Dazai shifts into thinking like his opponent. They're foil characters for a reason; they're both highly intelligent, manipulative, and willing to play the long game for the sake of winning against their opponent.

Thing is, I also stand by the idea that personality-wise, they're not similar at all - and that has serious implications for the people they are connected with. The build-up to the prison escape arc really highlights this. Some examples:

Chapter 46: Fyodor believes that all people are sinful and foolish and that his goal is to remove sin. Dazai believes that all people are sinful and foolish but asks what's so wrong with that.

Chapter 64: They decide to have a "super-happy chit-chat" about their problems. Dazai's solution to Fyodor's issue with his lazy subordinates is to get them to think lazing around is a bad thing so they will put in effort of their own. Fyodor's solution to Dazai being unable to woo the waitress is to isolate her from her job, house and family so that she can only rely on Dazai.

Chapter 77: Fyodor believes god is perfection and harmony, and thus that the people capable of change are the superior ones with most control. Dazai believes god is the accidental and illogical and believes it is the ordinary people who fight and live in that uncertainty who create the greatest change.

So, what's happening here? Fyodor's manipulation is shown to be very exacting and direct. He leaves no room for error and regards people on a hierarchy - God above all, himself as a servant of God's will, and the sinful and foolish humans he has little regard for. Dazai's manipulation involves manipulation of the situation, and is often indirect. It involves people coming to the conclusion he intends for them to on their own. And from his later dialogue with Sigma, we see he doesn't regard the world in that same kind of hierarchy.

Now, look at the way Fyodor picks an item and Dazai picks a person when starting the game. Look at the way Fyodor refers to Chuuya respectfully but brainwashes him entirely and mocks Dazai for not being worthy of "using" his ability. Look at the way Dazai is a complete ass to Chuuya but ultimately lets him make his own choices (begging people to take note of that moment in Stormbringer where Dazai cuts himself off to correct his referring to Corruption as Arahabaki's true power to Chuuya's true power).

So, the actual strength Dazai has over Dostoevsky then, is not really his strength at all, it's the strength of others and their choice and willpower to act in the way they believe is best. It's the only means of getting a leg up on Dostoevsky, otherwise they will continue to go around and around in circles forever.

And Chuuya is the best candidate for finally throwing Fyodor off his game.

Firstly, let's just establish something: no matter how mad he is at Dazai, he's not going to side with Fyodor, not willingly. Fyodor threatened the Mafia in the Cannibalism arc by attacking Mori, first of all. I doubt he's forgiven him for that. Secondly, Fyodor embodies everything Chuuya can't stand about Dazai, at the very least, younger Dazai - the manipulation, the lack of consideration and connection with others, the callousness and lack of regard for life.

Well, perhaps he's not quite as irritating. +1 point for Dostoevsky I guess?

But lastly, it is more advantageous for Chuuya at this point to help fight against Fyodor, especially since most of the Mafia has been vampirized by his organization. Helping the Agency stop the terrorist plot will help the Mafia by extension by undoing that. And we know from Stormbringer that no matter how much Chuuya is personally hurt, he considers taking out the threat to his people a higher priority. Always.

(You could make the argument that he was told whatever Teruko told Atsushi and decided to join, but not only do I find this wildly out of character, but if that was the case then there would've been no reason to brainwash him.)

That said, I don't think this was preemptive "Dazai's master plan #3057", and in fact, I stand by the idea that Dazai had no idea Chuuya was going to be in the prison. It is very, very important to me that for the rest of this arc, no matter what Chuuya does, that his actions are his own. Not Fyodor's, not Dazai's, but his. And not just because I hate that he's being controlled right now and that freedom of choice has always been important for Chuuya.

But because it makes narrative sense.

The vampires are a bit silly, yes, but they represent the way Fyodor and Fukuchi think - humanity will commit atrocities. They cannot be trusted to make their own decisions. They want to make a world that is free by... mind-controlling people so their plans work without a hitch. In short, they choose, on behalf of others, to sacrifice human autonomy for peace. So, if we are going to turn this arc around, we need to have characters breaking out of that control and thinking for themselves, in spite of the uncertainty of the outcome.

We already see this with Atsushi in the last chapter! He finally takes initiative and makes that choice to leave the room when he doesn't exactly know what the right thing to do is. And this is also why I don't think Teruko is wholly convinced by the DoA either - she lets him go. She gives him the freedom to choose what he does with that information.

Another one of the focus characters here is Sigma. Sigma is a guy who has no past, whose humanity is questioned, who keeps being used by organizations for his valuable ability, who has no home but desperately wants one... oh wait. Remind you of anyone's younger self? This could go one of two ways: Chuuya fails to assert his autonomy, leaving Sigma to learn from that failure, or, Chuuya succeeds in asserting his autonomy, leaving Sigma to learn from his success.

I think it, by necessity, has to be the latter. Sigma's at a tipping point right now, and I think seeing someone try to assert their freedom only to fail would damage him greatly. And I think it's a waste of Chuuya's character honestly.

Chuuya needs to assert his autonomy in this arc. Not just for thematic reasons but because I can think of no one else who can effectively break the "super-genius stalemate".

I keep hearing "Dazai knows Chuuya" in response to Fyodor calling their bond shallow, and that is absolutely true! But Chuuya also knows Dazai. Incredibly well. Odasaku knew Dazai's soul, but Chuuya knows Dazai's mind, knows his strategies and ways of thinking without even needing words. What's more, Chuuya has thrown off Dazai before and done what he didn't expect him to.

Which is nifty, because Dazai and Fyodor think a lot alike. Chuuya is in a unique position to thwart Dostoevsky because he may actually be able to predict him to a degree. Chuuya can absolutely land a victory against him, and it's excellent because it would be completely unexpected to Fyodor, who apparently thinks Chuuya's strength lies only in what his ability has to offer and not much else.

But listen. This also can't be skk's plan. I need Chuuya to sideline both of them. Both for the sweet, sweet catharsis of putting those two idiot geniuses in their places and also because I need Dazai to have screwed up. He wasn't wrong about people making their own choices in uncertainty. People need to assert their autonomy to create change. Dazai can't be wrong in this regard.

But with going ahead with the trap to drown Fyodor despite also having to drown Chuuya when he promised not to let him get killed... this needs to have been a mistake, otherwise the value of Dazai's emotional speech to him is diminished.

I want Dazai to try to laugh it off. I want him to say he always knew Chuuya would escape and then for Chuuya to deck him because "no, the fuck you didn't".

I really think Dazai hoped Chuuya would make it. Do remember that Chuuya was one of the first reasons young Dazai decided to try giving life a chance. The fact that he flashbacked to all his key memories with Chuuya says a lot. But his survival was no guarantee and it seemed very unlikely.

So, Chuuya is faced with the fact that Dazai nearly sacrificed him to kill Dostoevsky and save his new Agency friends.

And I hope he finally gets mad. I hope he finally expresses hurt on his own behalf for once. I hope they are forced to break their status quo that they have carefully maintained by not talking about anything ever. I hope they are pushed to uncomfortable places and that it is Chuuya who finally spurs this development.

Let Chuuya break the stalemate between Dazai and Dostoevsky. Let him shatter the status quo that him and Dazai have kept going for year after year.

Autonomous action in the face of uncertainty is necessary for change.

#am i assigning too much narrative importance in the main manga to chuuya? perhaps #will i stop? no #unfortunately this meta doesn't include gogol which is an oversight because he absolutely has to play a role as well #i'm just not quite sure what yet. same as chuuya i suppose #either gogol asserts his autonomy or he... fails. yeah. either he gets dostoevsky killed or... he fails. #i just don't know where he fits in with everyone else is the thing #listen though. it is significant that gogol decided not to play his dying role in the doa's plan though. #gogol is the free spirit of the doa and yet he's closer to sigma and bram in terms of how he is more controlled than controller #anyways sorry this is so long. just my two cents on the matter #bsd #bsd spoilers #bsd chapter 105.5 #bsd chuuya #bsd fyodor #bsd dazai #bsd sigma #bsd meta #i don't even know if this makes sense anymore. here. #storyrambles

[i-read-that-manga-for-you]

Given

Admittedly, I read this manga a long time ago. Like when chapters were still coming out. I was still in high school at the time (holy fuck) and couldn't really articulate my feelings as well as I can now.

I had left this review (bits and pieces of it) on a manga site and decided I might as well put it on my tumblr, finetuning it, of course. First post, because in spite of its flaws, Given is still close to my heart. And I reread it again (somewhat) to make this a better review. I hope each person who reads this will reimburse me with 50 cents each (jk don't). So here it is. My impression of Given, with !!some!! talk about how SA is treated in BL/Yaoi culture in general.

Or not, this is just my two cents with no anthropology degree.

Do take what I say with a grain of salt, a piece of creative media does not exist in a vacuum, but this review treats it as one at times because I'm not really skilled enough to talk about any wider implications. I'm just some guy giving my review.

Spoilers ahead. Go ahead.

TW: Sexual Assault.

Honestly, this manga made me feel a lot. Good and bad feelings. But let's focus on what I liked.

Ugetsu.

He's on the phone, shhh.

I found Ugetsu to be a very compelling character, and it was a huge shame that he vanished partway through the manga. Basically? I have no criticisms about him as a character, he has his flaws and he's nuanced. He's interesting and compelling, and it's clear that he's someone who is still growing and learning to walk on his own two feet. I won't deny that his relationship with Akihiko was very toxic, but I definitely think this isn't something that can be blamed solely on him.

But with this out of the way. Let's talk about the pairings.

Let's talk about Akiharu.

Kizu Natsuki is an amazing artist... Even when I have certain issues with this manga.

Well. I have a lot of qualms with Akiharu.

For starters, Akihiko assaulted Haruki. I'll never forget that. The fact that they ended up getting together anyway was a huge point of contention for me. Given was framed as a story about love more than a traditional story about BL/yaoi which (sorry) usually leans towards the sex. (This is not to say that sex and romance are separated, well they are but they are linked rather than being one in the same. You can have either, like they're hot/cold water but they come from the same faucet.)

But I feel that having this scene in rather than an argument feels completely wrong. I'm someone who will digest pretty much anything the world throws at me, but the Akiharu assault scene came off wrong and it came off scary. (Note: I say scary but I definitely mean much more than that, I just feel like "shouldn't be romanticized" doesn't encapsulate all of it. This topic is not something I'm qualified to talk about, so I don't want to overstep any boundaries.)

And to be honest, that's good because SA shouldn't be romanticised, for that, a big well done to our author. I just wish the aftermath was dealt with better.

This is terrifying. Please retract your words.

In spite of the SA scene being scary, afterwards all seemed to be resolved the moment it was revealed that Akihiko had nowhere else to go.

Everything for them goes uphill from here. Yay.

I just have to wonder what was the point of that buildup if you were just going to allow things to end nicely like that. With a scene like that, you'd think that the manga was saying that "SA is scary, it's terrifying and it's something that you shouldn't forget even if it's BL/Yaoi." But, why did it end up like this.

What I'm trying to say is: What does it matter that Akihiko apologised (twice), he still assaulted Haruki, he assaulted a friend. Even worse is the way that they're framed as a healthy couple afterwards, this just made me all the more uncomfortable. I feel like this is saying "SA is scary" but also saying "the power of love and friendship absolves everything". I've seen some people talk about the fact that SA happened, but haven't seen them say how it was "resolved". I think it's more to do with yaoi/BL fiction culture, that we've grown to accept SA that is unaddressed in our media to the point that Akihiko's apology is like a prayer more than something that's not even worth a second glance.

Saying that Akiharu started off rocky is an understatement, but if I pretend it never happened, I can say for sure that they are much healthier than Akigetsu, and they deserve each other. It's just not good storytelling especially because I don't really understand the motivations of Haruki liking Akihiko.

I once said that Haruki's character arc was based on Akihiko and that was my bad. I was wrong. Haruki, in fact, has a minor character arc, that isn't really to do with Akihiko, about how he feels insecure surrounded by geniuses in the band and this gets resolved by Akihiko saying that they wouldn't be able to function if all of them were geniuses, and Haruki himself seeing Akihiko hard at work. But I had completely forgotten about this arc, my bad, but my point still stands. Haruki deserved a better character arc.

I don't have a smart comment for this unfortunately. Eat your veggies??

In spite of saying this, I'm not an Akiharu hater, I swear. But I just found that ship much less compelling than Akigetsu in general. Akigetsu was a relationship where they were both incredibly toxic towards each other, there was an imbalance in the fact that Ugetsu literally owned the place they were living in, as well as how he'd kick Akihiko out whenever things were rocky. However, I think the end of their relationship was dealt well on both sides, their toxicity towards each other was framed in a negative light as it should have been. They ended the relationship and went their separate ways, this was the best ending for them. For Akiharu and Akigetsu: The difference between these two relationships is that one was dealt well and the other was dealt wrong. Akiharu deserve each other and Ugetsu deserves to learn how to grow by himself.

Anyway, another point of contention was, in spite of the healthy nature of Akiharu. Somehow, the friendship between the two couples seems to have waned and it was pretty disappointing to see. I think it started before this, but the first time it was obvious to me was this scene.

I know you're in the middle of something, but don't be mean to Mafuyu >:(.

Context: This is Chapter 40. Akiharu are in a moment of intimacy and Uenoyama is knocking at their door trying to get advice.

We've seen that Mafuyu is a very reserved person, to see that Akihiko was so ready to tell Mafuyu to stop coming over (even if it is to stop him from coming over so suddely) right to his face was extremely immature.

Basically, imagine if that had been Mafuyu. Personally, I feel like Mafuyu would have been hurt like hell and closed right back up. This scene is something played for laughs and that's something so disappointing. Given is shown to be a band of friends, but in the end it seemed more like two couples who hang out sometimes. Also the fact that both Akihiko and Haruki are pushing Uenoyama to get Mafuyu to rejoin the band. That's something else that bothers me heavily. That they're treating Mafuyu as Uenoyama's responsibility because they're dating. It's a band that is sure to fall apart if you are not making an effort to support each other equally. I mean, it doesn't have to be entirely equal but points for effort and they get no points here. It's funny because they were at least a little self-aware of this prior.

Dating in a band is something that is nuanced, of course. But it sure is funny to see them practically go down the same route they condemned.

That's my criticism of Akiharu.

So, what about the other instance of SA? I'm talking about Shizusumi and Hiiragi, of course.

Let's talk about Shizuragi.

Here they are! Let's talk about them!

Admittedly the first time around, I wasn't particularly into Shizuragi, I was too busy mourning the absense of Ugetsu. But it was during their sex scene where I realised something was very wrong. I was having flashbacks to the Akiharu assault chapter but this time it was played as "love" rather than something reprehensible. Once again, assault was in the manga and it, once again, resolved with badly.

I feel like sexual assault being played off as "love" and being resolved literally the next chapter with the victim being all kosher with it, should be garnering people's "??? what the fuck"s and not to bat for the opposing team for once but where are the complaints. I've actually seen some people talking about this chapter, but I would have expected more.

Hiiragi said he was scared and was crying, but they still fucked anyway. :D <- smile of shock.

Um what. Haha... ha........ :D <- terrifed smile of shock.

I don't know whether it would have been worse that he knew he was assaulting Hiiragi or whether he didn't know at all. But he knew.

Shizusumi confessed his love the morning after and it was all okay. But, to be honest, the fact that it was played off as being "all okay" makes this even worse. It's normal in yaoi/BL for SA to be played off as love, but you'd think that the last place you'd see this is in Given of all places. SA is SA and the fact that Hiiragi was so accepting of what happened to him afterwards says something about this the culture of BL/yaoi and how we just go along with it says something about this sentiment of how "yaoi is always going to be yaoi".

We're done? We're done.

There are no more SA scenes (that I can remember). But I do want to touch on Mafuyu and Uenoyama as briefly as possible (This is a recount of my experience after all). So, Mafuyama.

Ah, yes. The start of everything.

Admittedly, I didn't actually find their relationship super compelling. This is because I tend to get tunnel vision on characters I like (in this case, I heavily tunnel visioned on Ugetsu). I do like them both, they just didn't fit within my vision. I thought they were sweet but I also see a lot of complaints about how Mafuyu was stuck on Yuki and Uenoyama was getting backseated and I do agree with this. Kind of.

I think Mafuyu's story is about growth as a person, it's like what people say: You don't move on or lose your grief, you grow around it. Grief doesn't get smaller, you just get bigger. The person he loved died and I don't think it's fair to say that he has to get over Yuki. Grief is something that sticks with you everywhere, something you have to carry every day. They're still teenagers, they're still young and still have room to grow.

But as a story? Sheesh, instead of Haruki having no place in their circle. I felt like Uenoyama, even when he's the protagonist, wasn't given his spotlight in his own story. There is no character arc for him, there is nothing for him and that's just not fair. There are two people in a relationship, so why does it always feel like, narratively, Uenoyama always comes as an afterthought?

You could have had a character arc about this... Relationships are meant to be balanced, sweetie...

I just think it's a shame, but they're nowhere near as unhealthy as the other couples in Given, so I'm giving them a gold star.

(Minor irk, I do not remember when this happened but why the hell does Yayoi (Uenoyama's sister) get a character arc (where she comes to an understanding about Mafuyama feelings for each other, but also the gay in general) but the man himself doesn't?)

So, with Mafuyama, I feel like the story could have focused a little more on Uenoyama's side. But I feel like it's similar to how Haruki's story kind of got the backseat to Akigetsu drama happenings at the time. Shrug, we can't have it all.

He's beautiful...

That's honestly... all my thoughts. Wow! That was a lot of them. I think there's a lot to be said about how yaoi treats SA and dub-con in general, even in a manga that's not even focused on the sex.

With that said, I don't think BL shouldn't have SA or dubious scenes but the aftermath should be dealt with better afterwards. I think with Given, it's a start that the SA (at least with Akiharu) wasn't romanticised, but the aftermath was just poorly executed.

But I'm not the yaoi police, I hold no authority and I don't support purity culture. I'm not an anti-anything and I also believe that fiction should be fiction. What people enjoy should no way equate to a person's worldview. But, this was just all my perspective and my opinion. I said it and now I'm done. Haha... Anyway, my paypal is—

#given #given manga #manga review #murata ugetsu #akihiko kaji #haruki nakayama #shizusumi yagi #hiiragi kashima #just my thoughts #my silly silly thoughts #GIVE ME YOUR MONEY PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE (jk don't)

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I think that- oh sorry HI 👋 I hope you don't mind the ask haha I didn't feel like rambling in tags- I've also noticed the downtrend in dndads posting, and while it *could* be some mini migration of people to other fandoms, I'm not so sure that that's the case? Not that people aren't getting into new things (I myself have been, for that matter,) but... How to put it. I feel like the show itself, despite approaching the finale, has kind of been at a quiet point where there simply isn't too much to talk about rn? Like I think the noise will pick back up in the fandom when it picks back up in the show if that makes sense?? Also just a busy time of year for a lot of people I think tbh! And since the fandom is so small to begin with (as you know), it's more noticeable when a bunch of people are preoccupied!

That's what I'm feeling anyways! But yeah I've been thinking about it too, and I empathize with the whole "feeling sad when people leave fandoms" thing, so I felt inclined to share my two cents in case it's any consolation haha. Regarding what you said about whether or not the show is "bad"- yeah, I agree! There's some places it really shines and some places that just aren't its forte, but me personally as long as I'm having fun I'm staying put right here! 😤❤️

!! HELLO!!! and yeah you bring up some good points... like there really isnt too much going on in the story character/emotion wise that people can latch on to (in contrast to the more angst ass eps that seem to be a bigger hit among fandom types) PLUS with only one jan ep the pace at which dndads has been releasing is. a bit slow (ep 50 was basically just 49 part 2 too so...)

as for the parts the show is good at vs the parts it isnt. i think it also comes down to the individuals/groups judging it, and the differences in their expectations... like with s2 ep31 the cast was talking about how the ep sucked in the teen talk, but on tumblr the tag had trended with SO much art... there have also been times when i had really enjoyed an episode only to find not much talk about it. so its really different for different people i guess

i try to not feel TOO dejected about stuff i have no control over (especially online stuff) but yknow life has been stressful and ig some of that stress had carried over to my posting. i didn't mean to start discussion about how good the podcast is (i've seen enough of that on reddit LOL) i dont wanna harsh the vibes, esp cuz i know i dont feel very good when i see critical posts about a show i DO enjoy a lot! (i am similarly " having fun")

THANKS FOR RESPONDING THO it was kinda nice to see im not the only one seeing and thinking about things! yaaaaaa

[melxncholymermxid]

Fuck it, my two cents about the ned fullmer situation.

The amount of people who are under every single post about it talking about how Alex (the producer involved in the affair) is just as to blame really irks me.

And not to get deep, but it feels like a result of the heard/depp situation. So many people have fallen for the "women can be guilty of bad things too" and ran with it.

This should go without saying, but this is not me negating that women can be abusive and bad.

I've seen countless people say that Alex is equally responsible and should be fired and deal with the social consequences.

First of all, no matter how "high up in the corporate latter" of the try guys company she is, she's still and employee and Ned is still an owner and founder, the power imbalance is there.

Second of all, and something I've always struggled with personally but have matured and learned enough to put into words, the "other woman" cannot be more responsible than the individual who cheated.

I don't care if she flirted with that married man every day, he is still responsible for betraying the trust of his wife.

"but she was engaged, she's just as guilty".

Okay, but did anyone even know that before this drama? Does anyone genuinely care about her fiance?

No, people are happy that they have a woman they can say awful things about without being shamed for it.

That's what all of what I'm trying to say bottles down to.

When everyone is going after an individual who did something wrong, the first place so many go to is what they, even subconsciously, don't like about that person. Women, people of color, the LGBTQ+ community, disabled people, any type of minority; if you fuck up, the way people speak about you shows their true feelings.

Even on smaller things, to use a current event the dream face reveal thing.

I personally have never engaged with that side of the internet, but apparently he's problematic.

Either way, no one made that much of a stink about it until they got a face to go with the person, and because the majority of people have decided he's ugly, it's fair game to make fun of someone for something that's typically frowned upon, "but he's a bad person, so it's okay."

There's so many more examples of this that I genuinely struggle with, such as ageism against shitty politicians and people of power.

Why can't we critique the queen, or trump for what they've done? Why must me mock the elderly for how they walk and look?

It's so cliche, but genuinely, how do people not think that the people in their life, who they would never make fun of, are gonna see their sexist, racist, ageist comment and not feel bad by proxy?

Anyways, sorry for the long post. Just venting.

#ned fulmer #try guys #current events #social media drama #vent post #personal vent #long post

[starboardsquiggly]

Together, Never Ever Alone Again

A small lookout a few minute sail from the port was where Zip anxiously found himself. He needed a walk, the yelling, constant belittlement, the jokes at his own expense was too much but… he weighed, was this not how every work place was? It must be because he’d heard how the Starfleet got on with one another when they came face to face, cracking jokes, laughing at each other. So why did this feel different to the way his fleet treated him?

There was a telescope at the look out, you could see all of the harbor through the lens for a dime, he didn’t have a dime, he was far away staring in, it felt better then being in the midst of it all. He could see his tug where he had left it at the bottom of the mountain. It needed to be treated soon, the stack puffed harshly and the shine had left the bow. Zip huffed, dangling his legs over the cliff.

He heard the sound of a match ignite. “I thought I saw someone come this.”

Before he could fall down the cliff in fright the Starfleet’s star child grabbed hold of his hand and pulled. He fell back as Zip fell forward. “Ah, shit I’m so sorry!” Zip scrambled to his knees.

He laughed. “Not a problem mate. Say…” Ten Cents took a minute to dust himself off. “What are you doin up ‘ere anyway?”

“I uh.” He un-winced when he realized no physical assault would come from this Starman. “I come up here sometimes, when it gets too loud, or too…” he wanted to say hostile. “Too much.” He agreed on.

“Aye.” Ten Cents leaned back on his hands. “Funny, I do a similar thing. ‘Cept I usually go out past Lillie Lightship when she’s not paying attention, I like that isolation of nothing but salty water filling my nose. Captain Star would kill me if he found out, so I have Sunshine back me up when I’m gone.”

“Sunshine is that new tug right? The one from up stream?”

“Sure is! whistles when he talks, has me double checking for a new ship trying to dock. He’s come a long way only after a month, but I amount that to my excellence in training him. Everyone would agree! Maybe not Top Hat, he’s to full of himself and his neck.” He laughed.

It was nice, his laugh, Zip chuckled along. It was nice to have someone to talk to aside from having to watch what he said. Ten Cents hardly knew him, but he spoke to him with the kind of respect a person would have for their long time friend. Why would he do that? What made him want to talk to him? He’s only a burden like Zorran and Zak say, why would Ten Cents want anything to do with-.

“Hey Zedstack.” Zip blinked the black spots out of his eyes, Ten Cents was waving a hand in front of his face. “Where’d ya go?”

Zip’s mouth started moving before he could think, something about Ten Cents made him do that. “Why are you still talking to me?”

The star was taken back. “Huh?”

“I-i it’s just, no one usually want to talk to me, to have anything to do with me aside from bossing me around or telling me off, I’m not much of a conversationalist since most things I say never matter and Zug says I’m no help unless the assignment is to cause a scene. And Captain Zero doesn’t usually give me any important jobs unless the others need help so I just.” He hiccupped, “why are you talking to me like I’m a person, and not a punching bag?”

Through his own tears he could no longer see Ten Cents, nor could he see the telescope or the harbor over the water. He blinked away the tears but more fell behind them and that was embarrassing, no man cries, not if they’re real men, Ten Cents is probably looking at him like he has two heads. He pulled his hat off to cover his face looking anywhere aside the boy sat in front of him.

It wasn’t until he felt a hand gingerly touch the whited knuckles that gripped the hat did he slide the hat down until he met Ten Cents did he move. He sobbed and Ten Cents pulled him into a bear hug, he was surprised that his strength being so small was so strong. He hugged back wanting to melt into the Star’s embrace and just disappear entirely. He was shaking but all that mattered to him was the embrace. He hadn’t felt anything like this in such a long time.

“No one should ever make you feel that way Zip. You are apart of their team, every team works together and needs each part to hold them up solid.” When Ten Cents pulled back Zip was surprised at his own tears that he rubbed at with the heel of his hand. “I’m sorry they make you feel that way, mate.”

“What?!” He held onto Ten Cents shoulders, “why are you crying?”

“Because you’re crying, because that stinks, because you shouldn’t have to carry all of that with you!”

Ten Cents hugged him again, Zip settled into his grasp. He could see the harbor now, but the sun had dug its way out of the clouds. It was warm, Ten Cents was warm, his chest felt warm. He could feel Ten Cents wiggle around for his pocket in their awkward position on the ground, He pulled a dime from it.

“Hercules used to take me up here when I was little, it makes you feel like you’re on top of the world. The trips on his tug over to this island made me fall in love with the water.”

They helped each other stand.

“Want to look out with me?”

Together.

“Together?”

Ten Cents put the dime in the telescope. “We can be on top of the world together. Never alone Zip. I never want you to feel like your alone like that again.”

He took the star boys hand and they took turns staring out over the harbour. Laughing at Warrior swatting off the seagulls who took off after the garbage in Lord Stinker and enjoying the far away feeling together, not alone. Zip never wanted to feel alone.

#This is tugs #tugs zorran #Tugs Zug #tugs zip #this is tugs fanfiction #fanficition #tugs ten cents #tugs hercules #Tugs Lillie Lightship #tugs captain star #tugs captain zero #tugs lord stinker #tugs zak #zugs top hat #my writing #come get yall jjuice #tugs zipcents #tugs zip x ten cents

[personasintro]

Mimi!!!!! Thank you sooooo much for the wonderful New Year's present!!! I was so happy when I saw that MH55 was out. You are awesome!🫶🏼

I really don’t think that this will be interesting for you to read, but I just need to get this out so here are my two cents...

This was an interesting chapter to read, full of fluff and sweet moments that I fully enjoyed even though I usually prefer angsty scenes. And tbh the ending took me a little by surprise. But before I start I just wanted to quickly mention that Tae and Yoongi scenes were sooo good! I loved how sweet and caring Tae was, and YOONGI HUGGED Y/N??? Whaat??? Both scenes were awesome! Anyways I did expect Jungkook to be the first one to try to approach y/n and I was so happy when he did, bc honestly I feel like y/n would have taken a forever to do that. I know that many people in the comments were judging y/n for not being ready to talk and panicking, but I for one understood exactly how she feels. I’m actually glad she took her time to sort out her thoughts and have the talk when she felt ready. That’s why I was so happy to read the wrestling part (Maya knew what she was doing😏), which imo kind of eased things even more.. and the “I won’t let you fall”…. Ohhh for the first time since the argument it felt like the old times and that was just so heart-warming to read.. And I have no idea whether it was intentional or not, but someone in the comments already pointed out that those words “I won’t let you fall” felt like sth more than what it meant at the time. Like when she slipped on the rocks and Jk caught her – he didn’t let her fall again. This whole thing just felt a bit more whether it was intended that way or not… and then when jk got drunk and they ended up cuddling, it made me so happy. He was soooo cute and I really missed reading scenes like this. It felt like that reassurance she was asking for earlier – that everything will be okay no matter what happens. And then the ending…… I was really happy to see how they both finally opened up and talked it out and all the time I kind of wanted them to take a little break, but when she actually proposed it I was like “ouuff I don’t know about this”😄🥲. And imo Jk did seem hesitant about this, but agreed anyway.. From now on things can go in many different ways and it excites and scares me at the same time.. Because if there really are romantic feelings between them and this helps them to realize then I get the feeling that jk would be the first one to say something. Either way, I hope that one of them will say something. But if they realize they want to stay friends…. It’s just like you said in one of your asks – it was nice while it lasted, but ngl it would really f*cking hurt..😞

Anyways I’m just gonna sit here and try my best to manifest a really nice realization scene or sth like that in the next chapter, which I’m already excited about.😄

I am so, so sorry that this was so long. Take your time, rest, and have a wonderful day/night.🫶🏼💜🫂

55 is a weird mixture of angst and fluff, I’d say, among other things lolol and I’m glad you enjoyed it! I’m happy to hear you enjoyed the scenes with Yoongi and Taehyung!!

I’d like to think of jk knowing she would take her time to approach him & him knowing she’s having a hard time and that’s why he took the first step 🥲

I’m really glad you’ve enjoyed so many scenes in this one! Thanks a lot for your feedback, you guys know I love hearing your thoughts and all that, so this was fun to read 🥰

Thank you for continuing to read this story & enjoy the ride while it lasts 🎢🤍

#ask #ask: mutual help

[badgerotter]

i cant take it anymore i need to post my ice cold takes on tumblr.com (sorry for ruining everyone's fun in advance, and no hate to topher fans!!)

topher's popularity is so interesting to me. its my theory that he kept his fanbase because of how the episodes were released with week long gaps between them. of course, everyone thought topher was goofy in the first two episodes. hell even i did, with my most popular post atm being the one where i made a joke about the pride flag in his room that aged very poorly. his cult following only grew as the episodes went on, and by the time episode 8 released, it SHOULD'VE been a dealbreaker. however, people were already so attached to him that it didnt make much of an impact, only really serving to make more people step back and realize how ridiculous topher's popularity has become in the grand scheme of things. hell, the finale didn't help with its very brief addressal of the blackmailing situation.

of course, there's always gonna be some racism involved. i saw a few posts a few days after episode 8 addressing how the fandom always wants to gravitate towards the white guys instead of the canon poc wlw couple. to be clear, i do not disagree with this. as sad as it is, racism and misogyny and things like that are all deeply woven into society and definitely won't be leaving anytime soon, no matter how much people realize how wrong it is. of course, it's probably statistically a fact that there is at least one topher fan who is racist. there are also very likely people who like topher more because of hidden racism that they themselves do not realize or think about.

that being said, i think my earlier theory about topher's carried popularity is a sound reason for why people want to redeem him so much, why people want to uwu-ify the pasty guy, why people want to make the woke straight ally be hopelessly in love with another man. i haven't seen anyone propose this before, but recently i was thinking about why topher is still so popular. while it could definitely play a sizeable contributing factor, i don't think racism is the main reason for topher's popularity. i think it's more of a bandwagon of fanon content that snowballed into topher's giant, unstoppable fandom.

i didn't make this to try and refute the racism claim. i find it justified and valid. but i mainly made this post because i wanted to share my thoughts, ones that i haven't seen said anywhere (on tumblr at least, i basically only use it and youtube nowadays). just wanted to throw my two cents in. that being said, i do think topher is a bit of a goober, but it's kind of a bad look if you choose to ignore the events of episode 8. all in all, if you're a topher fan, keep doing that! unless you're actually racist about it, it's fine to like topher, even if it's because of the fanon content (hell, it's probably better to obsess over fanon topher at this point). i literally did the same thing with van gogh back when i was obsessed with the og show in 2021, even though it was more as a joke since i also found van gogh's popularity funny. expect a post on that later btw, i have SO MUCH to say about fanon van gogh that i've kept bottled up for two years. anyway, topher fans keep slaying if you aren't hurting anyone. i only made this after an indirect reality check i had after reading a khalopatra fanfiction that made me think about canon vs fanon a lot

#clone high #grrr im done posting goofy things im getting analytical now

[bad-luck-clover]

SPOILERS FOR STRANGER THINGS SEASON 4 VOL. 2

Okay I haven’t posted in forever but but I was literally crying this morning over the Stranger Things Finale before I even watched it so here are my two cents:

Why the fuck is the message of season 4 “don’t be honest about who you are or what you’re struggling with or it’ll hurt/kill you no matter what you do?” Because that’s the point this finale seemed to make.

Will started to open up to Mike about his feelings, albeit in a very indirect way, and that just resulted in Mike pursuing El even further. And even after all of that Mike and El still aren’t actually talking and Will has still been demoted from main character and plot catalyst to the sad gay side character that’s sometimes a monster detector??? So I guess Will just has to continue hiding who he is while he watches his sister and friend/crush continue their codependent and ultimately stagnant relationship and he’s once again being tossed aside in favor of a character that was supposed to die season 1. I mean I love El, but come on, they’re treating Will like he’s completely irrelevant now.

Max started coming to terms with her trauma and mental health, started opening up to her friends finally and was rekindling her relationship with Lucas. She was obviously hurting after Billy died and it was even mentioned that she was suicidal, but she fought to stay alive and get back to her friends who she loves. It was such an obvious metaphor of battling mental illness and Max’s character arc in the first part of the season was so amazing to watch. But no, apparently it doesn’t matter if you fight through the struggles of mental illness and seek help from your support group, the trauma monster is just gonna torture and literally break you anyway, sorry.

And Lucas, despite finally standing up to Jason after trying so hard to fit in and be part of his group, got beat up and then watch the girl he clearly loves be mutilated right in front of him and then put into a coma.

I mean even Robin, who’s still understandably deep in the closet, started to open up a tiiiiiiny bit and had hope for her potential relationship with Vickie and then immediately saw her kissing a guy. But the second she gives up on that and steps a bit further back in the closet? Oh, Vickie broke up with him, thanks for not coming out Robin, you get a cookie.

And Eddie. I do not understand how they could kill the one character who was always 100% unapologetically himself the entire time we saw him. He was labeled a freak and later a psychotic devil-worshipping murderer and yet he never changed who he was to please anyone or even lashed out at the people who wanted to hurt him. Not to mention he’s queer-coded as hell and I seriously doubt that was unintentional. I mean if you’re writing a period show and you do research about 80s culture and especially subcultures and outcasted groups for Eddie specifically, why would you give his character a black bandana in his back pocket if you’re not trying to imply that he’s queer? He was always true to who he was, he protected the kids who reminded him of himself when they were lost and being picked on. He was nice to everyone as long as they weren’t an asshole and he ultimately fought to save his friends and all the people who hated him. And what did he get? He got brutally, painfully killed while the entire town still believed he was a monster and no one besides Dustin and his uncle, not even the other people he fought with in the upside down, mourned or even acknowledged him.

It’s so infuriating that Max and Will (and Robin and Lucas to a lesser extent) suffered and were hurt because they were beginning to open up. But Eddie has always been open and nothing was going to make him start pretending to be someone else so he just straight up died. The one person who was always honest and never lied about who he was and they killed him for shock value. Like am I just reading into this too much or does that literally send a message of “if you start to open up you’ll get hurt. And don’t even try to fully be your true self, because look what’ll happen”

And yeah, sometimes life is cruel and you get hurt unjustly for just being who you are. But this is a fictional tv show where children fight off monsters. A show who’s main audience are the very outcasts they’re now sidelining and killing off in favor of more conventionally “typical” characters. I relate to Will, Robin, Max, and Eddie the most out of all these characters and now I’m being made to watch them suffer for all the reasons I relate to them so much.

Mike and El are still in a pretty unhealthy and unbalanced relationship and they’re fine. Jonathan and Nancy are still lying to each other and refusing to communicate and they’re fine. Steve, as much as I love him, is still pining after Nancy without actually directly talking to her (which, sidenote, is just a huge disservice to his otherwise fantastic character arc imo) and yeah he’s hurting seeing her with Jonathan again but he’s ultimately fine. The only people who really suffered are the only ones who have stopped lying about who they are or what they’re struggling with or who never did so in the first place.

How can you write the line “Forced conformity, that’s what’s killing the kids. That’s the real monster” and then punish the handful of characters who are trying to break away from that conformity? Why the hell, in a show that used to be all about outcasts forming relationships and fighting monsters against all the odds not in spite of being different, but because they’re different, are those very characters being hurt and punished for not being like everyone else?

Like, I’m just so fed up and tired. This show is legitimately ruined for me now, and it’s not because a character I liked died or the ship I was rooting for didn’t happen. It’s because I look at these characters I relate to being tormented and hurt for being queer or neurodivergent or having trauma, things that I experience/struggle with myself, and the message I hear is “What you are is wrong and bad things will happen to you because of it. You deserve to hurt because of what you are and you will never be safe or happy.” And that fucking kills me, especially since this was a show I loved so much just yesterday and now I can’t even stand to watch it.

#stranger things #stranger things spoilers #vol 2 spoilers #this is so fucking long but i'm devastated and still processing #i was prepared to be let down but not THIS BAD #long post #will byers #mike wheeler #eleven #max mayfield #robin buckley #lucas sinclair #eddie munson #nancy wheeler #jonathan byers #also erica is an obvious exception to this #she is unapologetic and untouchable by death

[liam-summers]

Here I am, again, throwing in my two cents after reading one of your posts (I just cannot help myself! And you don't allow comments, so...)

I don't see it as Angel being 'forced to be good', rather, he was forced to feel guilt, which made him stop doing bad things... mostly. He didn't do bad things, didn't do good things either... some might argue he pretty much did nothing at all for decades! Then he met Buffy, and he Chose, to do good. He could have continued to live his miserable life, doing nothing at all, just wallowing in guilt. He chose to do something, and have that something be good.

Spike, I don't think he was 'forced to be good', but neither did he choose it. He, like Angel, was forced to stop killing (with a chip rather than a soul, but the fact remains). Then he chose to 'do good' because it was the only way he could be violent, which is what he actually wanted, at least at first. Whatever came afterwards, whether he truly decided he wanted to be good, he was just trying to prove Buffy and the others wrong, oneup Angel... that's a whole different discussion. On the matter of how each of them started on the path of doing good, this is how I see it.

Hi! You’re always welcome to share your thoughts with me! I really enjoy reading them 😊

I definitely agree with what you wrote! I think It’s often forgotten that after Angel was cursed with a soul, he went back to Darla, and when he couldn’t bring himself to do what she expected of him (kill), he chose to leave but then spent almost 100 years aimlessly wandering the earth. The soul didn’t automatically make him good, it just gave him the capacity to feel remorse but he had to actively make the choice to be good. It’s literally the entire premise of becoming part 1 lol.

There is also the fact that the buffyverse introduces us to several people WITH SOULS who murder, rape, torture…..they are showing us that having a soul doesn’t automatically make someone “good” and that it’s actually possible for an ensouled being to be evil, by choice. So no, Angel wasn’t forced to be good, and considering that the only thing he had known how to be for 150 years was an evil soulless vampire, he actually could’ve chosen to continue living the way he was when he was soulless; he didn’t have a chip preventing him from hurting humans and he had Darla to go back to, who was more than happy to continue killing her way through Europe with him by her side. But he didn’t do that because he couldn’t live with the remorse but he also didn’t know how to be good yet. It took meeting Buffy and being inspired by her example of goodness for him to choose to become someone who could help make a positive change in the world. And then he took what Buffy taught him and continued to choose goodness even when he was away from her and even when he stumbled along the way. Angel’s entire journey is defined by choice.

As for Sp*ke, I agree with what you wrote and I just want to add that Sp*ke may have chosen to get a soul but that choice came after attempting to rape the woman he was violently obsessed with, as a last ditch effort to get back into her good graces. Like, if he hadn’t sexually assaulted Buffy, he never would’ve chosen to get a soul because he didn’t want a soul to be “good”, he wanted the soul to get Buffy. There is nothing noble in that choice, in my opinion.

Anyway, sorry this got kind of long and thanks for the ask!

#ask #lalaithquetzallicaresi #I feel like I have more to say about Sp*ke but tbh I have no desire to think about him too deeply right now lol

[heich0e]

liv do you prefer people leave comments/reviews in reblogs? i usually just send the author something in their inbox so i'm sure they see it but have i been doing it wrong? is it actually annoying this way? 🥲

ok so firstly: i cannot imagine a world in which sharing your feedback/kind thoughts/love for a piece of writing could ever EVER be considered ANNOYING. secondly: i don't for one second believe myself qualified nor capable of speaking for any author other than myself, so I can rly only attest to my own preferences/thoughts on the subject!!

sharing your feedback in ANY way is so SO incredibly appreciated, whether that be in the tags of a reblog or otherwise. this might sound silly but as a writer i'm always incredibly grateful (/relieved??) whenever anyone feels compelled to let me know they read what i wrote and liked it. just that simple acknowledgement that like, hey, that thing i created has made its way to another human being is tremendously reassuring. someone saw it. someone read it. someone liked it. i knew it and it was mine and now it's ours because they know it too.

that being said! when i get asks with comments/responses to a fic i always ALWAYS struggle with responding. i worry that whatever i manage to reply pales in comparison to how kind the initial ask was, and rarely (if ever) properly conveys how deeply appreciative i am to have received the message. i worry that i'm not doing justice to the sincere gratitude i feel. because of that i often end up just hoarding these asks until i "feel like I can reply right"—which, if i'm being entirely honest, means i probably just end up keeping it in my inbox forever and feel worse because i never replied at all.

to me (perhaps rather selfishly) the benefit to comments left in the tags of a reblog is that the pressure i feel in forming a response is gone, and i can also easily refer back to them in the future by going back to the notes of the original post. some people also don't reblog posts at all (let alone with tags) which is of course another issue entirely, but that's definitely been talked about enough that it doesn't need me bringing it up again. there's something very sweet to me about someone reblogging something i wrote with their thoughts in the tags for the great wide world to see... like a goodreads review or something. idk if this even makes sense lmaooo

but that being said, none of those "benefits" outweigh the worth of receiving feedback (in any form) and i would never want someone to think or feel that an ask with their comments wasn't welcome because it 10000% is. always. ALWAYS. i also recognize that some people are just more comfortable interacting anonymously, and I don't deny anyone that right!! being perceived is scary sometimes!! but the fact of the matter is that interaction (in all forms! asks/tags/reblogs/even likes in some cases) seems to be down, but strangely i seem to be gaining just as many followers as usual, which can rly only logically lead me to the assumption that YES people are reading it, they just aren't acknowledging it. which feels.... idk. devastating feels dramatic, but it also feels right.

anyway, sorry this got long. just my two cents! (if u adjust for inflation it's 200000000000 cents.) love you! drink some water!

#liv got mail

[pain-suffering-even]

headcanons: Choi Jongin

so sorry about this being late... i know i promised it forever ago, but i've been really worried about whether or not people will like these headcanons until i realized it doesn't really matter lmao. though here's a disclaimer anyway: i've absolutely used my creative liberty with these characters, and you'll probably have one or two moments where you go "they would never fucking say that," or something along those lines. these are just. blorbos that have been rotting in my brain and i have finally given them their poor little meow meow backstories that have absolutely nothing to do with canon. so :) just keep this in mind with these headcanons, and any future ones i post. i'm just throwing my 2 cents into the fandom, even if they are a very niche 2 cents.

last thing. this is long. i've done my best to shorten it. rip to mobile users.

content warning for mention of drug abuse and attempted suicide.

Quick headcanons -

Name: Choi Jongin

Age: 28

Gender: Male

DOB/Place: May 3rd, 2032 in Seoul, South Korea 

Rank/Type: S Rank Mage

Guild/Occupation: Hunter’s Guild Leader

Past Occupation(s): Fiend Guild 

Skills: Fire go boom 

Weapons: Rings, Gauntlet

Family: Smith Seunghee (mom) (alive) 

Kang Donghyuk (biological dad) (unknown) 

Choi Jeonghan (stepdad) (alive) 

Core headcanons - 

Hidden talent: pencil/charcoal/oil pastel art

Favorite food: Deep fried chicken drumsticks 

What motivates them: Protecting those he loves, even if it means sacrificing himself + proving others wrong (others being Yoonho and Hwang Dongsuk) + giving his cat Kiwi a good life

Treasured possession: Jintao Brown’s red flannel jacket 

Deepest secret: He used to be addicted to ecstasy and has relapsed once already 

Best/Worst thing to happen to them: Lim Taegyu taking a chance on him/Getting sent to that boarding school 

Random memories: Finding Kiwi as in the rubble of Jeju and smuggling her home in his cape; having too realistic of a nightmare when he was a child and watching the sunrise from his window; Taegyu yelling at him for smoking inside his office; meeting Yoonho for the first time at the testing center, and the fight that followed; the first crush he had on a guy that was in his high school class; riding bikes with Jintao Brown to the track during the summer and having a picnic nearby as their weekly not-date-but-kinda-date;  

Best friend/Worst enemy: Lim Taegyu/Hwang Dongsuk

Good/Bad traits: Smart, dependable, funny/Competitive, arrogant, independent, distant, protective, 

Things they’ve done/like to do:Lit his kitchen on fire trying to make maruchan noodles, collects candles, 

Personality type: “Defender” ISFJ-A (22% extraverted, 78% introverted; 43% intuitive, 57% observant; 46% thinking, 54% feeling; 92% judging, 8% prospecting; 65% assertive, 35% turbulent) 

Nervous habit: Clenching his hands/teeth, twisting his rings, 

Things they’re afraid of: Sleeping, as he usually has nightmares, lighting his cat on fire,  

Things they want to accomplish: Building a cat tree for Kiwi his cat, learning to at least boil an egg with his powers, finish a decent portfolio of his oil pastel works, draw more portraiture of people around him (Taegyu, Haein, Jinchul, Yoonho unfortunately, etc) 

Additional headcanons -

Doesn't like kiwis because of their texture. Also, they are hairy 

Goes with maroon and blood orange, but that's because hes a fire mage - he actually likes blue

Has a habit of manually sharpening pencils from his artist days 

He really like dinosaurs, especially the brontosaurus 

Very interested in true crime, he was originally in college to be a forensic scientist

His fingers are usually dirty whenever he's stressed, as he draws when he can't sleep. He also smells a lot like pencil shavings and oil pastels 

Has tried to quit smoking 3 separate times but it never seems to work 

Their Timeline -

Age 12: leaves for boarding school 

2 years pass

Age 14: does ecstasy for the first time

Age 15: starts “dating” Jintao Brown

Age 16: learns he isn’t his stepdads son 

Age 17: unsuccessful suicide attempt + graduates 

Age 18: gets his rank + joins the Fiend Guild + attempts to sober up 

Age 19: his parents divorce 

Age 20: Taegyu confronts him about his addiction 

3 years pass

Age 23: fight with Hwang + sobers up 

Age 24: creates the Hunters Guild 

Age 25: first Jeju raid + gets Kiwi 

Age 26: second Jeju raid

Age 27: third Jeju raid

Age 28: now

#tw // suicide attempt #tw // drug abuse #fandom: solo leveling #head canons #solo leveling #only i level up #choi jong-in #choi jongin #long post #mentions of other characters #original characters

[musicallisto]

Hello darling, can I just add my two cents to this post, please? :)

I think the other anon might have missed the main point of the post you have previously shared. Or maybe I'm simply misinterpreting the post. Could be both or neither. Either way, I guess it's not about whether you enjoyed it or not, rather that a key-smash, a constructive criticism or even having a go at a writer is better than a like. Obviously, if you didn't like something, you will not want to leave any sort of reaction, and that's perfectly fine, however, if you feel like a constructive criticism is worth the story then please do take your time to leave one. And if you enjoyed it, please reblog and leave a little note, it could be an emoji, a gif, a key-smash, anything that somehow conveys that you enjoyed the post. You can even reblog the post without a comment. Simply, if you enjoyed it, share it with others. Authors prefer a reblog over a like, because a like is pretty much a bookmark. It does nothing. A reblog helps share your content with other people, a comment makes an author happy or think about what they could improve on, but a like is basically invisible. In a way it's nice to receive a like, but frankly, it doesn't say anything because you might have used it simply to save the post and read later. So the main point is, if you enjoyed something, please reblog. With or without a comment, at this point it doesn't even matter, but please share it.

On a side note, I've been here on Tumblr for a while writing stories after stories. Until I didn't anymore. People keep saying that you have to write because you love it, because you enjoy it. And for a while I did. And, of course, I can't blame it on others, nor do I want to, but it is true that the lack of interaction is incredibly demotivating. I want to write but I can't because part of me is like "for what?" and unfortunately it doesn't matter what I do, it doesn't matter how much I love writing, I simply can't even write anything anymore because that simple "for what?" overrides the "because you enjoy it" part of the writing process. So, if we are being real here, those reblogs are worth everything! Because, sadly, seeing my posts have 1k-2k notes on them only to have 50 reblogs at best is the definition of demotivation. Because, frankly, it makes me think that the other 1k+ people might have liked my fic but not enough to share it, and if they didn't like it enough to share it then it wasn't a good story, and if it wasn't a good story then, frankly, maybe I shouldn't write anymore. Intrusive thoughts are the worst and, of course, noone is responsible for what is in other people's head, so in no way am I blaming people here, I'm simply explaining what the lack of interaction could make an author think and could possibly lead to authors leaving or at last not writing anymore. We've seen it happen over and over again.

I'm sorry for the long ask, I hope I made sense, it's 2am and my brain doesn't function. Anyway, of course, you don't have to share it, I just thought I'd give my little opinion on the subject :)

Have a lovely evening/day :)

!!!!!

#anon #nothing to add here anon is perfectly right #please understand this isn't a new caprice from me this is a real thing that's happening to all content creators on this website #because you think this works like tiktok

[dukeswonderousmenagerie]

About Fujiko, Goemon, (and the au concept in general).

A few ppl have some really good ideas about Fujiko wanting to find a cure no matter the cost and Goemon being off training, not even knowing the apocalypse is happening. But I figured I'd throw my two cents in cos I'm a fan of this idea (and watching the last of us got me thinkin' about what would happen if the loop gang was in a zombie au too, lol).

Anyways, maybe you could pair Fujiko with Goemon or Zenigata...?

Maybe Zeni and Fuji were doing that team-up betrayal scenario they do sometimes, or maybe Goe and Fuji were doing their own thing elsewhere as they also tend to do, when things hit the fan.

The apocalypse kicks off in the middle of their usual heist shenanigans and the gang gets split. Since Lupin is alone in the one-shot fic you already have written (which is awesome), I'm assuming that's the case? Which would be pretty dramatic and great for an intro/prologue tutorial scenario.

But I guess that would depend on how all of this started. I'm curious as to the cause of this outbreak and if Lupin and Co. might have been involved or not, because depending on which route you've decided to go with you could tie in some gameplay mystery elements (figuring out what happened and how).

Maybe Lupin and Jigen would run into Fujiko that way, as they are uncovering where and how everything went pear-shaped. Oh, and I could see Zeni working with Fujiko for a cure too, with how his priority as an inspector is to help as many people as he can (next to catching Lupin, but I think that goal is thoroughly out the window in this au lol).

I could see him being more of an in-the-field type (are there other jobs other than runners and gunners?), hunting zombies to use for research or trying to pinpoint/ deduce the cause of the outbreak, like Lupin and Jigen.

Maybe he'd join your group when you do missions for Fujiko?

Unless you already have a plan for him to be zombified or something, lol. That could make for a good gameplay/story point in and of itself.

Sorry if this was long, like I mentioned earlier, the last of us really got my brain churning. I'm looking forward to reading where you take this 👍

Aww thank you so much for the asks! These ideas are truly top notch and I love hearing about them, so don’t worry too much about the length in which you send! :D

I’ll answer what I can in parts to make it easier to get to everything or at least the things that I can answer accordingly!

The apocalypse kicks off in the middle of their usual heist shenanigans and the gang gets split. Since Lupin is alone in the one-shot fic you already have written (which is awesome), I'm assuming that's the case? Which would be pretty dramatic and great for an intro/prologue tutorial scenario.

Ok TBH, when I originally wrote that fic, it was intended to take place a while after the outbreak, with Lupin being forced to huddle up in a abandoned mall after either getting separated from his gang or while being out on a scav mission, getting himself in trouble forcing him to stay put until the sun came up and it was safe to move.

Now that you mention it being like a intro/prologue tutorial. I really LOVE that idea! The gang getting split up in the midst of the outbreak, and you being forced to find a safe place to hide, all the while a tutorial plays where you learn how to attack and use your watch grapple to parkour across the buildings and such! All the while not knowing what happened to your friends and just listening to hell descend upon the city your in. The screams, the growls, the breaking of glass.

Meanwhile your friends are having the absolute time of their lives! (I say sarcastically xD)

But I guess that would depend on how all of this started. I'm curious as to the cause of this outbreak and if Lupin and Co. might have been involved or not, because depending on which route you've decided to go with you could tie in some gameplay mystery elements (figuring out what happened and how). 

Well the original idea was to basically have it like how Resident Evil/Outlast starts.

Where your basically just dropped in the middle of a outbreak/occurrence, and all the world building comes after. I always liked how Resident Evil did it, where it just dropped you into the action and then gave you time to find out what happened afterwards (if your like me and actually liked to read the documents) or like how outlast did it in the first game where you got a small bit of world building in the beginning, the action starts shortly after, and THEN the world building starts up.

Lupin and Co. are not involved in the outbreak THANKFULLY but they are stuck in the middle of it which somehow sounds even worse xD.

I could see him being more of an in-the-field type (are there other jobs other than runners and gunners?), hunting zombies to use for research or trying to pinpoint/ deduce the cause of the outbreak, like Lupin and Jigen.

Actually yes there is! 

All together there are a few “factions” that act like Jobs!

Runners 

Gunners 

Watchers 

Scavies 

Bandits (a more aggressive form of scavenger)

and Researchers. 

Researchers, also called Biologist’s are a relatively small faction specializing in researching and surveying the various Mutants and Undead inhabiting areas throughout the city. Similar to how Runners are, Researchers would often go outside QZ’s in order to do their research and study, which mostly consisted of researching new monsters, outbreaks, what causes mutations and stuff like that. Originally they were in charge of attempting to find a cure. However when places became more and more militarized as time went on, they were essentially put on a watch list by various military groups like the watchers.

Originally, the reasons for this change ranged to something similar to what they used for the Runners. That anything/anyone leaving a QZ was a danger to those inside whether they be infected or not. Another reason that is often used was they did it in order to prevent the looting of dangerous materials and to prevent the unauthorized entering of any individuals.

The real reason however? 

Essentially Power. 

As I mentioned before, as time went on, many had started to agree that they didn’t actually wish for the world to go back to the way it was before the outbreak. Many, including the power hungry, actually preferred the “New World Order” so to speak, and feared that, even if there was a chance to make things “safer” that odds are in due time things would go back to the way they were, resulting in stabilization and the risk of power being reverted back to its originally proprietor’s. 

Researchers as a result are often highly scrutinized for this, as they are the first line in a cure being developed then anyone else. As the years went by, the Researchers Faction has essentially been disbanded, with many of their members either being killed or imprisoned or driven off.

However in LIIIRnG, one researcher has managed to survive within the QZ, working underground in secrecy. Meeting him will open up what are known as “Slaughter Quests”

SLAUGHTER QUESTS are Objectives that require you to slay a set number of a specified mutant! Most of the time, these targets are small, but occasionally, you'll be tasked with felling highly dangerous one’s as well. Once a monster has been slain you can report back to the researcher in order to get your reward as well as sell him any monster part you don’t wish to have!

While these are often times Side-Quests; which are missions that are not necessary in order to move along with the story, they often serve as a enjoyable and fun way to gain blueprints, materials, and items. Certain Slaughter Quests will also allow the spawn of rare and “exotic” Zombies and Mutants known as “Legendaries” that are not able to be readily discovered, similar to Legendary Animals in Red Dead Redemption 2 that spawn on the map at random!

Legendary mutants are a particularly nasty breed of creature for the most part, except for the few that are just plain elusive, but either way they'll test your hunting mettle if you try to track down and kill them. However, there are bigger rewards than just bragging rights for eliminating them as you'll also claim rare trophies once the hunt is completed. There are many of these impressive beasts to locate, with each roaming their own patch of land spread across the four corners of the map. Hunting down these trophy kills so that you can collect their individual trinkets requires a knowledge of both their location, and the tactics in which you must employ when you come face to face with them so they aren't scared off – or they don't tear you to shreds – depending on the size of the foe you're dealing with. 

Legendaries can be encountered in some missions, but will appears as a rare occurrence in the wild as time goes on. Once players enter an area that contains a legendary, they will begin receiving a series of messages from the researcher and monsters that you have not yet encountered will be designated as ????in the message until you ultimately discover them

Far warning tho that if your encountering them in the wild, Legendaries don’t stay around forever! Sooner or later they will leave and you’ll simply have to wait until a new one spawns or hope that after a while, you’ll get a mission that’s tasks you with felling the beast of your choosing. But remember quests from the researcher don’t always stay as well! 

Every day is a new day, which means with every new day that’s past, new quests will be added to the roster while old ones are removed, so visit the researcher whenever you get the chance to see what interesting things he has in store for you and what prizes you can get! 

#Lupin III: Run n Gun #lupin the 3rd #lupin iii #lupin the third #my headcanons #lupin iii au

[moonchly4202020]

Triggers Of The Day

Hey There Starlings, I am truly sorry for not posting. It has been helva night/day. So, you remember me mentioning that my aunt passed away. Well... tonight's quote and lesson is SCREAMINGGG at me... Not sure if it will do the same for you

Tonight's Quote: You are NOT your illness. You have an individual story to tell. You have a name, you have a history, personality. Staying you is part of the battle. *Julian Seifier*

Tonight's Lesson

Today was an emotional day for myself, as well as my mom. This morning as I was getting ready to go out to bible study this morning with my mom and her best friend, my mom thought it was a good idea to call and see if her sister and her niece were going to be at my uncle's house as the three of us have ... disliking? shall we say for each other. Long story short i didn't say some nice things to my aunt. Which i totally get, as i was on drugs. But I have tried to make amends with no go. Anyways, my aunt got on the phone and wasn't so pleasant about me being there and had to add her two cents in. I LOST it... At that moment in time, I let my illness overpower me and this terrible person that i have been trying to fight to keep inside came out. When I calmed down, I realized that i am NOT my illness and that i am better than that i am defined as as a person. Now that I am sober and actually accepting the help for the mental disorders that i have?... I realized as a human being... with mental disabilities... i just have to work HARDER to show people that I can have these disorders and STILL not become them...

As I was researching tonight's lesson, I turned to the one thing that my counselor's in Maine's mental ward gave to me to try and change my way of thinking. I came across a worksheet that is from the CBT's many workbooks. Now, if you are new to my blog and don't know what CBT therapy and workbooks are. I TRULY RECCOMEND them. They work, if you work the program. Now, there are NO wrong or right answers so don't stress if your answers are different

Cognitive Behavior: CBT is a treatment approach that helps you recognize negative or unhelpful thoughts or behavior patterns.

Grief Sentence Completion Worksheet

Right now, I feel: Proud for staying sober throughout this morin's annoyance. but I didn't I just smoked more post.

I feel the saddest when: i remember I can never climb into my aunt's lap and have her rock me like she did when I was a baby.

The thing that I miss the most: The way my aunt and I could not see each other for years but when we did, we picked up our relationship like it was nothing.

If I could ask my aunt one thing, what would that be: WOuld you be proud of my life now, and the year's that I have put into being sober now?....

One thing that i have learned: Never give up the good fight. No matter what.

Well.. my starling's.. i don't know about you, but my chest feels a little lighter tonight.. Thank ya for joining in if ya did.. I am off to finish this bowl and see what tomorrow brings.. One thing I do know though as I lay my head on that pillow tonight... I can say, I am alive, I am sober and God is good.

Oh, before I forget.. if there is a worksheet that you would like for me to touch on, or find a workbook or sheet for, PLEASE feel free to DM me... As I said before, I am all new to this and just want to help myself and other's as much as possible.. You know the drill...

My dm's are always open, so please if you need to talk, vent, or to yell, advice, anything.. PLEASE, PLEASE, don't hesitate to dm me...

On that note starlings... goodnight, sweet dreams

#bipolar #deep thoughts #feelings #thoughts

[luxshine]

I can't sleep, so hey, my .2 cents on what happened.

First, disclaimer: I am a cis-bisexual woman who was lucky enough to be born to two very open minded parents (and, ironically a match made in homophobic heaven. My dad was gay, and only married because he wanted kids and he didn't want to come out to his mother, My mom is a lesbian who, up until three years ago, was in the most transparent closet in the universe and ALSO married just because she wanted children and didn't want to come out to her family, AND the other option was a convent. So, yeah) and while I had had that one very awkward "but are you SURE you are not 100% gay? I mean, you can be gay and we'll love you anyway" conversation I think every bi and pan person has had at some point in their lives, I never had the impression that I had to HIDE that I liked both boys and girls when I was growing up from my PARENTS.

Clear point there: My parents.

So in a way, the whole "Coming out to family and friends" is a bit alien to me.

Even now, I didn't really came out as much as I stopped denying it when asked point out. So, when the first news came out about Misha's slip of tongue on Friday? I was happy for him because THAT's exactly how I -and many, many of my Bi friends- ended up coming out. Casually, by accident, and trying to change the subject to a different thing.

HOWEVER... I also don't blame him for correcting himself ("taking it back") for two reasons:

If his current label is straight? Then good for him that he corrected the record as soon as he could -even if I find it weird that he didn't know about it until now as I assume there were a lot of bi-fans squealing the whole weekend- because doing otherwise WOULD be really bad and leading on fans (See: T.a.T.u for the best example of that. RL Queerbaiting, no joke) And yes, I said CURRENT label because I 100% believe that sexuality is fluid. A person can identify as cis-straight at one point of their lives, then as cis gay, then as trans-gay after a long road of discovery, then as trans straight when they realize that they were attracted to the opposite gender (To their REAL gender, not their ASAB gender) all along, and it is ALL Valid.

However... IF he is Bisexual? Then we have to consider WHY he might have felt he had to take it back, and it was not JUST that it was made a big deal out of it in the Media and Social Media.

I mean... the reactions that were not 100% supportive? Were a cesspool of horrible biphobia that just reminded me of the one truth that every queer person knows: No matter how safe you think you are, no matter how much you trust the people around, no matter how much society insists that it's OK to be GAY now? Coming out is ALWAYS hard, and it will always HAVE backlash.

Coming out as Bi, Pan, Ace or Aro? Same thing but in HARD modality (And when you add coming out as Trans? That's Nightmare difficulty and I am so sorry it is so)

So yeah, I can see someone trying their toes in the queer pool, coming out as a bit of a joke, as a bit of a casual thing, trying to see how the label fits. And then being first love bombed -because as far as I know, in the con itself? It was all love, rainbows and puppies- but then coming back to reality and social media and... well, reading all THAT.

Some queer people could say "Ok, my bed, I laid on it, I can do this." But others? Well, others could go "yeah... no. This... This is not worth it. I can go back to the safe presenting side and... just hide part of me". AND BOTH ARE VALID. BOTH ARE OK. BECAUSE we all have to remember that every individual's path is, well, individual.

So, as I stand, for me there are two possibilities: Either Misha is Straight, he misspoke, he apologized and we should all respect that -which doesn't necessarily means forgiving him or accepting the apology. That's something YOU have to decide on your own. Just, respect that he APOLOGIZED- or he is Bisexual, got very spooked at coming out and ran back into the closet, which should ALSO be respected if it's the truth because rule number ONE of the Queer fight club is : WE DO NOT FORCE ANYONE OUT OF THE CLOSET.

So TL;DR? If Misha is identifying as straight? I respect that. If he at a later time changes his label? I WILL respect that and NOT take this incident as a point against him. Is it FAIR and OK if you felt hurt by the REACTIONS around it, but it is also important to remember that he is human, he also has feelings and, INCLUDING his apology? He has NEVER once gave us a reason to believe he is not at the very least a great ally who is willing to learn, to listen and to CHANGE his attitudes if needed.

And I think that's what we all should take out from this (Besides the importance of re-visiting at a later time the fact that for a very gay friendly fandom? There's also a lot of virulent biphobia going around)

OH! And if you need a safe place to come out? My DMS are open. Seriously, I can be your trial run for typing those words if you need one. My services as queer fandom auntie are always, always open for everyone.

#that thing that happened at spn convention #won't delete #but also don't want to give it clear tags #to avoid drama

[coffee-obsessed-writer]

Winchester Drabbles: Saturday Afternoon at Harvelle’s

Dean Winchester x Reader

A/N: As I was listening to my playlist, Travelling Riverside Blues came on, and of course it always brings to mind, Dean Winchester. This little drabble is the result. 

Summary: After a run-of-the-mill hunt, Dean goes to blow off some steam at Harvelle’s to shoot some pool and drink a beer.

Song Prompt: Travelling Riverside Blues

WC: 1.5K

Warnings: None, just a silly lil blurb.

The sound of the quarter hitting the metal slide in the jukebox was one of his favorite sounds. Only to be made better by the sound of his favorite song blaring through all of Harvelle’s. The opening licks of Traveling Riverside Blues gave his confidence a boost, and brought out that swagger he had, but tried to save for special occasions. 

Dean slid out of his dad’s old leather coat and draped it across a high-back bar stool near the pool table. Harvelle’s was fairly empty for a Saturday afternoon, but he didn’t care. He wasn’t there for the crowd, he was there to blow off some steam. The last hunt had been a real bitch, and of course Sammy had to throw in his two cents on Dean’s outlandish move of taking on three vamps at once. 

No matter, he thought as he racked a game of Nine-Ball, it’s Miller time…

Taking his place at the head of the table, Dean bent over the green felt and gripped the pool cue just as his father had shown him years before. Stroking the cue until he felt he had the right momentum, he shot the white ball buzzing across the green and clashing into the color army of billiard balls, sending them far and wide across the table. 

Standing back and watching his handy work, rather proud of himself, the corner of his mouth kicked up into a smirk. 

Still got it, he thought as he watched the Nine go screaming into the far corner pocket. 

“You do know it's more fun to play with someone else, right?”

Dean turned around at the southern lilted voice, and felt his smirk grow wider. “Is it now?” Dean propped the cue against the table and gathered the balls that hadn’t sunk on his break. “Care to show me?”

His head nodded back towards his cue resting at the top of the table. 

“Might as well,” she said, “I got nowhere else to be.”

Dean made sure to rack the billiards extra tight. He stepped back and grabbed his beer off the table, taking a long slow sip, watching her over the brim of the bottle. 

She was confident, that’s for sure. He watched as she chalked up the cue stick and carefully studied the table. Dean was amused by the concentration on her face, causing her soft feminine features to be more determined and forceful. She looked like the kind of woman he could wanna know, but also the kind that could kick his ass. Both of those simultaneously turned him on and scared the shit out of him.

“So, you gonna break, or–”

“Oh, I'm gonna break. Don’t worry.” She bent over the felt, just as he had moments before, only from his point of view, he could see the top lace of her bra peeking out from under the deep red tank top she wore. 

Just as he was about to make another quip, he saw her line up her shot, then look up and meet his gaze as he pulled back and sent her stick piercing the cue ball right in the middle. It flew across the green and crashed into the tight rack of billiards. Dean’s brow rose, impressed, as several of the balls found home in a pocket, leaving merely four left, including the yellow and white striped nine-ball.

“I’m impressed,” he said, swigging his beer one more time before putting it down and taking control of the cue stick again.

“You should be. Considering that you racked them in your favor. A rack that tight…”

Dean interrupted her with a shrug, and a wink. “Sorry, sweetheart, can’t help it if my hands are strong and my rack is tight.”

“No worries,” she said, casually strolling to where he just stood, “I’m going to win on my next shot anyway.” Tossing a glance towards the small bar-topped table, she grabbed his beer and sipped it, never taking her eyes off him.

Dean’s smirk never faded, even as he watched her finish off his beer. “Wanna bet?”

“Why not. What could I possibly have to lose?” He found her arrogance infuriating, but so goddamn hot, especially when she leaned back her elbows to rest on the table behind her, pushing her chest out every so slightly.

“To start, you buy the next round, shots and beers.”

“Shots, too?” She smiled and took his offer into consideration. “Ok. Done.”

Dean shook his head and slowly stalked the table in front of him, looking for a shot that would allow him to win right then and there. He had a shot on the nine, by hitting the four first, but he would have to jump the four over the seven and hit the nine square on the middle to kick it into the side pocket. 

Easy peasy, he told himself as he took position on the table and lined up his shot. Again, stroking the cue until he found the right rhythm, he thrust it forward and prayed the balls did as he wanted them too. They did not comply, and the four ball instead kicked the nine in the opposite direction, but sent the cue ball spinning off into the far corner pocket. 

“Hmmm… looks like ball in hand, to me.” 

She didn’t wait for him to offer up his stick, instead she grabbed her own off the wall and took her time chalking it well. Plucking the cue ball from the under-table return, she palmed it gently, and took her time examining the possibilities. 

“Choices, choices…” she mumbled, then looked over a Dean, who was starting to feel a little antsy. “If I keep it behind the second line, house rules ya know, wanna add a little more on that bet?”

“Such as?”

“Throw in some dinner, your treat of course.”

Dean laughed and shook his head. “If you can make that nine disappear in a legal shot from behind that second dot, I’ll buy you a whole surf ‘n turf from the Ponderosa.”

Her smile made his breath hitch in his throat a little, and the denim of his jeans a bit tighter. 

“You’re on,” she said, her accent a little more noticeable and her tone lustful.

Dean was trying to play it cool, but it was getting more difficult. This time when she placed the cue behind the line at the head of the table, poised between the next ball in the game and the nine, the lace of the bra wasn’t all she was revealing. The girl was good, she knew just how to position herself for maximum distraction. By her expression, Dean could tell not only did she know what she was doing, she liked it. 

He watched, albeit nervously, as she perfected the line up, and then pulled back in one long swift motion, causing the cue to hit the four, rebound off the rail and spin at record speed into the nine. Somehow, it didn’t hit any of the remaining billiards in the way, and squarely hit the game winning ball into the hole. The cue ball rolled towards the opposite pocket, and Dean’s small glimmer of hope grew for a brief moment; finally dying as the cue ball’s spin did the same. 

“So, wanna have those drinks before dinner? Or Vice versa?”

Dean hung his chin to his chest and slowly shook his head in disbelief. 

“How the hell did you make that shot?” He was so distracted by the grace with which she one, he didn’t notice her laying down the cue and walking around the table closer to him. “Seriously though, how?”

“My boyfriend taught me how to shoot pool. He’s away a lot, so I have tons of time on my hands to practice.”

Dean turned and saw how close she was. The fire and beauty in her eyes as she stared him down broke his last resolve. He grabbed her waist and pulled her into him, leaving no room for any doubt that she was his girl.

“Oh do ya now?” His needy green eyes drank her in, every freckle, every strand of hair… 

She didn’t flinch at his touch, instead melted into his arms, and breathed in his scent. “Mhm, I do.” 

The game, both figuratively and literally was done. He couldn’t wait another second to feel her lips on his, and kissed her in grand fashion in Harvelle’s Roadhouse on a Saturday afternoon. When he had gotten his fill, he briefly pulled back and smiled his softest smile. 

“Thought you weren’t getting in until tomorrow,” he asked, but pretty damn grateful she was there early.

“Like I could wait an extra twenty-four hours to see you…” she replied, biting her lower lip in a smile, then going back for more of his touch. Now that she had her fill, she was the one to pull back a little. “I was serious about that dinner though, I’m starving.”

“My girl wants dinner, then that’s what we do,” Dean said, with the corner of his mouth twitching up into a sly grin. “But, uh, wanna make it take out and go back to the hotel?”

“God yes!” She laughed, and grabbed his hand. 

Dean pulled his dad’s leather coat off the back of the high-rise stool and followed his girl out of Harvelle’s and off to have the reunion they had both been desperately needing.

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