#as i complain into the void

[artinthegarden]

I'm writing this with kraken covid brain fog and am really struggling to keep up. I really want to prioritize my garden project and feel like I'm not able to.

After a year of struggling through unreasonable weather extremes, a lawn crew that destroyed a lot of my work, pots, and killed all of my plants I intended to sell for spring supply money without saying anything or even apologizing, after a year of getting sick whether I went out or not and suffering from my disabilities whether I liked it or not, and losing out on a lot of income opportunities in general there, after a year of losing friends for not being able to socialize after being sick and struggling with disability so much, I'll be honest... it's been really hard for me to even continue to want to do all of this. I can't find the strength or energy to start over where I have to, and where I maybe can, the brain fog is really real. Also, so what if I can sow seeds? I have no healthy soil to plant them in so that they survive, no way to clearly make beds to plant without someone else doing it, and the original plans are just. Not going to happen.

It took me years to make it here, and it's difficult to account for "setbacks" because there are just going to be more of those. I'm sorry, I'm so tired and broken over struggling/losing so much just to get one tree planted. I'm not even sad that a few seedlings died. It's really just the funding and lack of support since I really do seem to be doing it all on my own, and I'm really hurt over the amount of people in my life that don't care about me and only about what I can specifically give them when they want it.

So, I'm doing my best to heal from all of that and doing my best to keep this a priority in my life. I don't want to give up!!! I want to make it happen even if it seems extremely... like extra unnecessarily difficult for me, specifically, for some reason, lol. I want to keep going despite thinking that life sucks and no one cares, because listening to the environment and taking care of it to give native wildlife a healthy, more balanced sliver of home is more important to me than anything. It doesn't have to be a huge forest, I know I'm not capable enough to accomplish something so massive or great, but something small is still worth it. I can die leaving something of actual value to the earth in my stead.

I still want to have a life, though, and that requires being able to bring in an income, and being able to have physical and social skills in order to make the income-making part of living not a massive hell. It would also be nice to be able to leave my home and NOT get the plague, but that is too large of a request to make on society as we know it.

Everyone got mad for a year and most decided that trying to change society for the better was too hard, too much, and that it was easier to just pretend that everything was always fine and to just go back to work while everything continues to slough off and fall apart.

I understand that the reality was and still is a lot to accept.

If anyone else feels this frustration, I hope you know that you're not alone, or maybe I just hope that I'm not alone in this.

Keep going, even if your garden endeavors went from a massive plan to just a small potted plant. It's alright, keep going, gently expand your efforts as you can. You are good enough.

#container gardening #urban gardening #apartment gardening #gardening #patio gardening #as i complain into the void #sorry this is a long post i am in a trance over it

[bardofavon]

not to be controversial bc I know this is like…not in line with shifting opinions on fanfic comment culture but if there’s a glaring typo in my work I will NOT be offended by pointing it out. if ao3 fucks up the formatting…I will also not be offended by having this pointed out…

‘looking forward to the next update’ and ‘I hope you update soon!’ are different vibes than a demand, and should be read in good faith because a reader is finding their way to tell you how much they love it. I will not be mad at this.

‘I don’t usually like this ship but this fic made me feel something’ is also incredibly high praise. I’m not going to get mad at this.

even ‘I love this fic but I’m curious about why you made [x] choice’ is just another way a reader is engaging in and putting thought into your work.

I just feel like a lot of authors take any comment that’s not perfectly articulated glowing praise in the exact manner they’re hoping to receive it in bad faith.

fic engagement has been dropping across the board over the last several years, and yes it’s frustrating but it isn’t as though I can’t see how it happens. comment anxiety can be a real thing. the last thing anyone wants to do is offend an author they love, and that means sometimes people default to silence.

idk where I’m going with this I guess aside from saying unless a comment is outright attacking me I’m never going to get mad at it, and I think a lot of authors should feel the same way. ESPECIALLY TYPOS PLZ GOD POINT OUT MY TYPOS.

#ao3 #archive of our own #fanfiction #tbh even if I got a comment that said ‘I hate you I’m going to kill your family’ on chapter 75 it still means they read 75 chapters first…. #it just makes me sad to see so many writers shouting into the void #and also see ppl complain openly about the specific types of comments they receive #posting screenshots on Reddit like ‘should I be mad at this’ CALM DOWN #sigh

[thatonepersonthatdied]

I think it’s silly how in fics Danny’s like “oh thank the ancients” or otherwise using them as a stand in for “oh my god”. He beat half their asses bi weekly and they only made him stronger. He spits on their names like a Canadian who just got attacked by geese 

He is cocky and full of rage. He can and has fist fought several gods, no way is he respecting them.

Maybe clockwork and pandora, but no one else (nope, nvm on clockwork).

Anyway I think he should curse them out or use them in derogatory ways rather than use them as a curse

Examples:

Oh fuck the Observants!

You’re dumber than the Observants

I’m gonna beat you so hard Nocturn would be impressed

I hope Vortex goes up ur ass hole

Overgrowth wants to know what ur smoking

I hope overgrowth eats ur mom

I’m not that creative but you get the point.

(This is no way a dis on the ancient trope, I like it fine enough)

#danny phantom #dp #dp fandom #phandom #ranting to the void #what even are the ancients? like the only time they’re referenced in the show is in regards to Pariah Dark an even that was a line #I think the phandom has decided that clockword and the observents are apart of them cause duh but also Pandora and the more elemental ghosts #which makes sense since they all seem to be concepts rather than past people #I think of them as like the 7Ds from the sandman if that makes sense #also idk if I’ve seen this take or not but is the ghost king an ancient? I’d say yes #if so danny has less of a reason to respect them #I have opinions on the function of the ghost king tho but I’ll save it for another post caue the tags are a bit much now #sometimes I feel I complain too much #my post

[nellasbookplanet]

Now that season 2 of good omens is only about a month away and everyone waiting has already watched season 1 and read the book multiple times, may I suggest something to tide you over while waiting:

When the Angels Left the Old Country by Sacha Lamb! Featuring an angel and a demon best-friend pair going on a trip together and being very confused by humans and their weird ways! It is very good!

The general tone is pretty humorous and light-hearted, the characters are fun, the mythology is fun, it’s all very jewish and very queer but light on romance (there’s an f/f subplot though!). The plot is less apocalyptic than Good Omens (they’re looking for a missing girl, not trying to stop armageddon) but equally as engaging.

In short: read When the Angels Left the Old Country, please, I beg of you, it deserves so much love

#when the angels left the old country #good omens #this is equally a suggestion to help the wait and a desperate appeal for more people in general to read wtaltoc #its one of my favorites its so so good #hmm should i start a tag for just talking about books? #i used to have one i think but i havent used it in years #but ive been doing a bit more book talk lately #and i'm tempted to amp it up #sighs wistfully. i miss talking about books to the void #anyway if you hop on this post to complain about gaiman I'm blocking you #i like both books and this is a recomendation not a competition #nella talks books

[thefandomcassandra]

Every Time You Complain About How Mean La'ezel And Shadowheart Are, I Become More Sapphic And Spitefully In Love With Them Both

#the sheepy speaks #quite frankly not putting this in the main tag #if you find this you found this #but like #''youd be ok if this was a man'' type behavior #[gestures at asterion and gale] #yall dont complain about the ponce and the wizard (derogatory) being bitches #just the women #now to be fair i havent seen any hate for shadowheart since they added in the option to save her #which ofc sanded her edges off #but la'ezel is just as mean and just as biting as shes always been #and i have spitefully fallen for her #shes the nicest gith in early access (short of your pc if you make a gith) #anyway this has been the worlds no1 la'ezel apologist howling into the void #fellow laezel lovers pls know im here lol #unrelated but in the tags regardless #asterion is fruity bitch #gale is bitch malewife #laezel is rude bitch #shadowheart is secretive bitch #and wyll is the fake bitch #i love all of them and i cant wait for beef bitch to show up #and maybe them letting halsin actually be a party memver

[noose-lion]

If I see another fic writer use petite or tiny to describe Chuuya, I'm tearing them apart with my teeth. Respectfully.

#yes I understand transformative works #no i dont leave 'hate' comments on these people's fics #yes i just click off and don't bother that person #no i wont stop complaining on my own blog #anyway #thats my bsd fandom pet peeve #my stuff #bsd #screaming into the void #and the void screams back #bungou stray dogs #soukoku #bungou gay dogs #bsd chuuya #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #jester thinks

[mumblesplash]

anyone on here ever figure out how to dress for a summer wedding when you’re nonbinary and can’t stand suits or dresses or jumpsuits or button-down shirts and all you ever voluntarily wear are black joggers + polyester blend athletic shirts in colors ranging from navy blue to gunmetal

#my abstinence-only approach to gender expression is really starting to bite me in the ass #this isn’t so much a genuine cry for help as it is me complaining into the void ngl i have p much given up hope #but like if someone knows. please. #if it doesn’t become socially unremarkable to dress like a pirate on formal occasions #sometime in the next 3-5 years i’m gonna mcfucking lose it #either that or all my friends + relatives have to stop getting married #mumbling

[icechippies]

I'm normally a "only uses color to emphasize" kinda guy but I think this turned out good :D

Behold: Void 1 Argos! (and Millie)

#Why I have been complaining about color theory for the past few days #I think he's still too pale but at some point I just said screw it good enough #This took me forever #Long enough for me to remember why I don't color lol black and white is good enough for me #Twomp #The world of mr plant #Twomp void 1 #Millie twomp #argos twomp #My art #digital art #I really needed the hand drawing practice

[meowthiroth]

had the funniest thing happen earlier. I got home from work & turned on my computer, and I guess windows 11 must've added a new lockscreen widget that tells you the local weather. like, ok, my phone also has that, that's pretty cool.

but WHY did it set my location to HORNEYTOWN

#literally the first thing i saw upon starting up my computer today. the SCREAM i scrumpt #at first i thought maybe my roommate set that as our vpn location or something but he said he hadnt messed with it so???? #look im not COMPLAINING im just CONFUSED #i dont understand how this happened but either way it's REALLY funny #for the unfamiliar this IS a real town in the US & it's in north carolina. which just makes this EXTRA baffling since im in WISCONSIN #ace screams into the void

[fantastic-artemis]

This may come out more bitter than I mean it but all the "well actually Gabriel and Beelzebub are queer bc they are an angel and a demon and have no gender binary" is kind of annoying cause like. Even if they were human and fully subject to the gender binary,,,, even if Gabriel was a cis man,,,,, they're still not a het couple bc Beez is not a woman.

Like it's not their fantasy creature status that makes them a queer couple, it's the fact that they are literally actually queer

#i am going to regret posting this probably bc the beez gender discourse is already exhausting and annoying and i should not be adding to it #like ive seen way more people complaining than anything thats actually homophobic or transphobic but #guess i gotta yell into the void #ineffable bureaucracy #good omens #gos2spoilers #good omens spoilers #me

[catbatart]

help, i've suddenly been feeling sad for absolutely no reason :(

#delete later #just needed to scream it into a void of random people #this is just a thing that happens sometimes #and i need to complain

[lunargrapejuice]

ive never seen pride & prejudice but with everyone saying dilucs got hella mr darcy vibes i might need to watch it this weekend

#I’m trying to finish this fic but omg it’s never ending I just keep adding more & more #not that im complaining #I do love a big fic but damn lmao #maybe seeing more diluc vibes will help me finish it off #finish him off more like it #👀 #luna talking into the void

[thehecklingmouse]

HELLO????

#i just woke up what happened #not that im complaining but can he appear in game? on a banner? please? #genshin kaveh #kaveh #bones screams into the void

[persephonedevoted]

I really hate this recent trend I’ve been seeing of ppl from the dc side of things complaining about fic writers not staying close enough to canon and trying to force (through complaining, not like Actually force lol) ppl to read some of the comics or something similar to “get a grasp on the character.” But like. I don’t like dc. I’m not going to engage with their “canon” cause I’m not interested in it. I like these fun lil scenarios where a 2000s era cartoon shows up in it. I quite literally could not care less about what is or isn’t accurate to canon (in either universe! But I haven’t seen anyone complaining about the lack of canon compliant stuff from the dp side, it’s probably happened tho). If u don’t enjoy the lil scenarios ur seeing just scroll past. “But Persephone!” I hear u say, “there’s so much of this Stuff I Don’t Like in this specific tag I peruse!!” And to that I say: so what? Ur slightly inconvenienced while looking at a bunch of stuff ppl made For Free and for fun, simply: deal. Just let ppl enjoy themselves without bringing the mood down for everyone else, u know?

#dpxdc #rant #rant post #this is just me complaining into the void lol #I keep thinking about it tho #so I needed to get at least some of the thought out #hopefully I can go back to normal now and stop fixating on it

[akkivee]

❤️💙💛🩶🧡💜

#vee queued to fill the void #YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYY #i am like so fascinated by the artist’s choice to give kuukou ONLY pupils lol #i’m not complaining lol i vibe with it so much 😭😭😭😭 #ramuda going for overalls is very him btw lmao #so food when?????? what does sweets paradise have in the lab this round??????

[authorofemotion]

my dad slow cooked pork today and when i ate it it just tasted like. wine? come to find out he had no recipe and just asked twitter what he should put in it and someone said some cabernet elevates any pork so my dad poured half a bottle of wine into the crock pot with the pork and veggies and some salt and pepper. and then that was dinner

#not trying to complain bc it was fine and i ate it but my breath still smells like acohol 😭😭 #and i feel like he could have done a Single google search to look up proportions of ingredients and stuff? #it’s just very bizarre to me #claire yells to the void #cw alcohol #cw alcohol mention