#autism creature walking

[freakwiththeknifecollection]

The sick feeling you get in your stomach as an undiagnosed/closeted autistic hearing friends/loved ones make fun of or talk about "what's wrong with" the openly autistic people you know

#sometimes I think about telling certain people and then I'm reminded why I shouldn't <3 #em rambles #autism #autistic #actually autistic #autistic things #ableism #even the people who do know are still iffy sometimes like you may think 'I usually don't get along with autistic people' is a compliment bu #it just makes me uncomfortable lmao #idk it's just like. yeah I don't 'seem' autistic with great intentionality around certain people because they've shown #me how unsafe it is lmao #I just hate that people think you're just quirky and different until you put the autistic label on it then there's something WRONG with you #or say you couldn't be autistic because there's nothing WRONG with you you're not THAT bad you're not LIKE THAT #I mean like. ideally I would like me telling people to expand people's ideas of what an autistic person looks/acts like but the sad reality #is that it'll just end in either disbelief or bullying #most likely #you know in ratatouille when remi thinks humans aren't so bad and then his dad shows him that shop with the dead rats and rat poison and #traps and the next morning remi tries walking down the street and people scream and throw stuff at him and call rats disgusting creatures #and he says 'I was reminded how fragile it all was' #that's the vibe as a closeted autistic lmao #you find people who accept you and think maybe it's not that dangerous. maybe it'd be okay #and then other people remind you why you mask in the first place #my autism is the rat hiding inside my hat

[rup221]

o mah ga its

#its been i long while since i did crowded scenes like this #love doin em' #doodle #drawing #sketch book #doodles #little guys #tbh creature #autism creature #adhd creature #btw creature #waddle dee #walking mushroom #dungeon meshi walking mushroom #bugs #spiders #big challenges #wth creature #anxiety creature

[columboscreens]

#columbo #season 3 #publish or perish #little sweet cheese autism creature #can you help me? no. and also it takes so long to explain that to you and why. so i am just going to walk away #it's truly moments like these where i relate to columbo most

[quietwingsinthesky]

(missy voice) yes im evil but do you think im not going to take even to pick up their hormones? im not a monster, doctor.

#emo mary poppins and her weird pet autism creature walk into a pharmacy and even tries to lay down a prescription. the prescription is #written in gallifreyan. no one can figure out what hormones they want. eventually missy just makes them give over everything. #dw oc #aksjfjglsjkf they are the worlds worst besties but by god if even wont be getting their meds on time #even on gallifrey like ‘:/ i dont think your stuff is supposed to go in a human body?’ but the master says its fine so they inject all the #time lord hormones they want #‘the hybrid is Me because she’s an immortal human with alien tech’ ‘the hybrid is clara & the doctor as two parts of a whole’ the hybrid is #even because the master keeps giving them time lady hormones to see what happens

[autisticlee]

I know it's wrong and bad to say this, but sometimes I really hate when my friends have other friends. (specifically when I can't also be friends with those friends) because every time I want someone to hang out with or talk to, the only couple friends I have are always busy with their other friends. when I want to plan something with them, they will always choose the other friends over me. they will cancel plans *with* me as soon as other friends ask, but won't cancel plans *for* me when i ask. they will use up their social spoons on other friends and leave none for me. always putting things with me off or simply not responding at all.

i'm always told by random people when I say I want mkre friends "it's better to have a couple great friends than many aquantances" or something like that. but honestly it sucks because you can't rely on 1-2 people to always be there for you every day or every week when you want or need someone. if you keep asking, you're seen as annoying and clingy and they will ignore you eventually (or worse)

it's annoying that they get to fill their social needs at all times, but I never get to. because i'm never the one that gets to go first in the social queue. and when it gets to my turn, it refreshes and i'm pushed to the back again.

the only solution I can ever think of is being friends with my friends' friends too....but for some reason!!!!!! that never works out!!!! (if my friends will even share their friends with me to begin with)

#and dont even get me started on when i share my friends with each other and they choose each other over me and kick me out lmao #WHY ARE FRIENDS SO HARD #why am i just a little creature that requires certain amounts/types of social interaction that never gets met #and no one wants to do anything about it. and im forced to sit here feeling bad about it because i cant fix it either fbbdbdfghhdhjrhfdj #this whole friend and human interaction and bonding and companionship bullshit is going to be lifelong issue and im not here for it #NO ADVICE IM GIVEN WORKS. IM TIRED OF ONE SIDED BULLSHIT WHERE ONLY I TRY. HUMANS ARE ANNOYING #im like a non human creature that wears human skin and everyone except me knows and they dont want me and i domt know why #i also dont have the energy to do the whole new friends song and dance where you small talk to get to know each other #and share your life stories. i rather just hang out and become friends through enjoyment of mutual enjoyed activity???? #or something like that idk #i tried so hard to be friendly to friends' friend last weekend when we all hung out so i can be adopted into their friend group but #they didnt even tell me it was nice meeting me and hanging out and didnt even say bye to me. only to my friends #and i was too sad about that to say it to them instead as they walked away. theyre way more social and good at words #and i was overwhelmed and struggling to speak so i was waiting for the queue to say those things or something #i expected it like an idiot loser becuase i thought i did a good job being a cute gremlin that fits into the group that seems to have #other goofy gremlins like me. i thought maybe they can be “my people” or something. but then they turned around and left #after telling my friends bye. and didnt acknowledge me. and i juat kept smiling and turned around and walked away too #PRETENDING IT WAS FINE. BUT IT FELT BAD. BECAUSE I FAILED TO MAKE A FRIEND WHEN I THOUGHT I DID GOOD WITH THEM FOR ONCE #so “being confident/believing in yourself” like im told to do DIDNT WORK AND IT FELT WORSE THAN DOUBTING MYSELF. YOU LIARS. ugh fhdhdhfhjssk #WHAT DO. WHY LEE BAD AT THIS. WHY IT FEEL BAD. WHY NOT JUST ACCEPT BEING ALONE 99% OF TIME AND GIVE UP. WOULD BE EASIER #lee rants #autism things #i know its rude to invite yourself into a friend group but what if i try anyway 🤪✌️

[rystiel]

just a picture of eugene twd, that’s all

#yeah #hello eugene #twd #the walking dead #eugene porter #autism creature #hi #Yippee #!!!!!!!!!

[quatregats]

Having a real autism moment over the idea of doing fieldwork

#my brain just produced the thought 'they should have a class that teaches you how to talk to people before you go to the field' #sir i don't think anyone else needs that class. i don't think the people are clamoring for bulletpoints and flowcharts of social interactio #i'm just. i don't. i don't know how to do it #i can make friends fine when we've been in a protracted situation of working together but when i have to go out and meet people??? #a thing you guys have to understand about me is that i WILL just stand and stare at people like the autism creature for 10 min straight #and then walk out of the room without saying anything more #or like i will start a conversation and then i will just Not Know What To Say #and like yeah it's social anxiety maybe but it's honestly more that i can't figure out how to have normal conversations #anyways. i am anxious i will say that #like i'm really excited too and i really want to meet cool people and work with them on developing the project #but also i am not sure how this is going to go. hmmm #maybe i should have just majored in cs and sold my soul. at least then i could be weird and off-putting in peace :') #(<- should not have done that. it is good to make attempts to be social and not put myself in a bubble) #perce rambles #this makes very little sense but you can ignore me i'm just having A Moment

[caorl]

posting in ehre bc my friends are prob tired of me yapping about this on tt but i cant wait to get a neurologist appointment and got exams done bc im sure i have narcolepsy and have been for a couple years now yet im so so afraid of going bc what if i do have it. and worse. what if i dont have it and all my struggles actually have no explanation other than me being lazy and weak lmao i cant stop thinking about it im so anxious over this

#this is the year we get diagnosis DONE #but fr im so much more interedted in getting this sleep shit checked out #than i am on confirmingg my autism #bc at this point like. theres no way im not on thr spectrum lmao #like if my autism avaliation comes out negative it will be shocking to me #but i'll live ive spent 20 years thinking im just a freaky creature before i found out it could be autism so it eont weight as much ig #but the narcolepsy slash hypersomnia shit..that fucking bothers me.sm #it explains everything ive been having since i was about 13 lmao the peak was the last years of high school #and then living alone in college and getting sleep apralysis every day i got to the point i wouldnt even br frightned anymore #i still have it about like ojce every two weeks now but nowadays what bothers me most #is feeling my muscles go numb when im walking home from college bc i want to sleep #and having hallucinations when im waking up or falling asleep although im also used to these so they dont scare me bc i know im hallucinatin #yk.. #but yea the sleeping all day everyday fucking sucks #even when im having fun lol there are couple of videos of me playing the guitar for fun and just sleeping in the kiddle of it #also . when i got put on wellbutrin i had multippe convulsions #that tookme to the er and i dont remember a thing from that week so idk if it made some damage #bc they didnt make any exams at the hospital #they literally said i had overdose although i took the right dose #then injected some muscle relaxant w me #that made me convulse and go unconscious again #and then got me stable and sent me home like Yeah that happened idk just sleep it off #and i have migraines since i was 12 so liek #i hope the neurologist i get sent to takes me.serious #i feel like there is something going on yk #anywayssss #personal #narcolepsy #idk if theres a commujity here on the tags but lmk i feel all alone on this

[barnbridges]

twofers and autism moms on the venn diagram should be like, 80% overlapping and 20% out, but it's so rare to see anyone with actual autism or awareness of that it's a fucking disability hang around the mommy circles it disappoints me endlessly.

#like i do not mean to be mean towards all neurotypical caretakers #i am very sure a lot of them are fine people and take care of their children #and especially people who have adult children with high support needs i applaud them #but my fucking god does it sometimes feel like everyone is promoting shit like aba and the conversation is more like #a mommy blog #than about what being a PERSON with a DISABILITY is #like sometimes i do understand its hard - being a mom is an identity #and fathers esp those of disabled children can be flakey #but i cannot fix your family #but you invade spaces for people like me #to worry about raising your child not to be happy not to support themselves not to be comfortable but to be “normal” #and frankly that's terrifying #like yes spaces for parents are important #but godfucking damn it does it feel dehumanizing sometimes #like the tism is just for nonverbal children - who these parents talk about as if they are pets #and adult people are just a little offcolor #i am looking for spaces for me that arent the chess club at my university (shouout to our coach remus how ya doing u autism creature) and i #its so overwhelming and dehumanizing a lot of the time when parents walk in and make it so much about THEM #like i empathize with you and i might give you insight into your child MAYBE but other than that... where is MY support #I NEED SUPPORT - skyler white

[scarybite]

#me #196 #autism creature #i edited this to not hae that guy from the walking dead bc i dont like him

[p-ic-o]

#the creature walks among us #drawing #my oc art #my oc sketch #small art blog #small artist #the creature #autism creature

[fromwentzicame]

why do i stand so autistically

#i literally have the autism creature eyes . #•_• #pov youre my parents and i walk into your room at 3am to infodump about fall out boy #abby speaks #my face

[localoversarcasticdraguar]

Disability sonic

#one of my friends had a dream where they had a #disability sonic shirt #they asked me to draw it but i wasnt home so i used my notes app #i swear this isnt abelist #i have a joint disability and it hurts to walk sometimes along with other things /nav #shitpost #memes #funny #meirl #cursed meme #autism creature #i used it as a refrence #but i did both off of memory

[mrfoox]

Not to be weird but like... People wish they were me. People wish they could experience this childlike wonder over the smallest things, they wish they could be this easy going with things, people wish they could care and love this deeply ♥

#miranda talking shit #I'm having a short moment of overconfidence and love lul #Like wow I'm cool. So glad I can walk outside and see another creature and have my day made #Everything touches me lovingly and I'm here and I'm taking it in ♥ #The autism in me yaaaay

[inplateaus]

i think i scared my professor with my strange stare because i asked him a question and he took a few seconds to answer

#it wasn’t a difficult question lol #but i do think i come off a little strong because i just walked up to him and talked #and stared like the autism creature

[trupowieszcz-moved]

fun facts about (polish) vampire folklore because i'm too autism

(disclaimer: my source for all of this is the book "Upiór. Historia naturalna" by Łukasz Kozak i'm not pulling this out of my ass)

The word "vampire" came from a mistranscribed Serbian word, written down by Austrian officials informing about a panic among the locals, who claimed that during a plague their dead were rising and biting them and spreading the plague further

In Poland, the words used to describe what later transformed into a "vampire" in literature were: upiór (and variations thereof - the word came from Ukrainian, and the Ukrainians got it from Turkish "ubyr"), strzyga (f)/strzygoń (m) and wieszczy (m)/wieszczyca (f). "Upiór" was used in the southeast, "strzyga" around the central regions, "strzygoń" (as well as strzyga) specifically in Lesser Poland (Małopolska) and "wieszczy" in Greater Poland (Wielkopolska) and in Kashubia. "Wąpierz" was not a word until some writer in the 19th century made it up!

The upiór actually very rarely drank blood. It happened, sure, but a much more bloodthirsty creature was zmora/mara. However, upiory often drank milk, stealing it from cows and horses. Both are life-giving bodily fluids, after all.

The above might make you think about witches, who were often blamed with stealing or spoiling milk, and you wouldn't be far off. You see, you had to be born as an upiór (these ones weren't contagiously biting!), and while you were alive, it would give you various magical powers, like clairvoyance and detecting the dead upiory, and so the upiór was practically a synonym of a sorcerer or witch. Of course, the sources vary, but depending on who you asked, they could control weather bringing heavy rains or droughts, see the future, know literally everything and so on. Those so-called "living vampires" knew who they were since birth and were often helpful, until they died.

After an upiór died, that's when the bad things happened. They disappeared from their graves, destroyed churches, broke candles, brought plague upon the people, scared their neighbors, and if one puffed in your face, you would soon die. They were said to be able to walk around with their decapitated head, so anti-vampiric burials often had to be very thorough and decapitation wasn't enough.

The signs that were supposedly telling of a living vampire were, among others: being born with teeth, being born in a caul, not having armpit or pubic hair BUT having a hairy chest, not having undergone confirmation (i'll come back to that in a moment), having a very red face and easily and often blushing (not being pale!), or being born with a deformed foot.

Not having participated in the confirmation sacrament was especially damning, because it was believed that upiory had two souls (and two hearts). When they were baptized, only one soul was being saved, and the confirmation sacrament was supposed to protect the second soul. This, of course, was extremely against the catechism, so the first "official", church-related sources recording those beliefs had to invent another "backstory" for upiory, and they claim that an upiór is a dead person specifically, who was given to the devil at birth, the baptism saving their soul, but their body still belonging to the dark forces, which was why they rose from their graves - the devil basically hijacked their corpses.

I won't make this post much longer but I will GLADLY answer any questions because this is my special interest and I just came back from an exhibition where the author of the aforementioned book talked about all of that so. me right now ⬇️ (readmore so you dont get continuously blased with the gif under it)

#vampires #history #folklore #poland