#available books

[aylendoesart]

Nico in the jar

#nico di angelo #pjo #heroes of olympus #riordanverse #digital art #illustration #i have very vague memories of this book and i don’t have it available right now so of this is inaccurate #then no it isn’t shhhh #my canon now #i just go with the vibes

[inkskinned]

my father told me he read it, but he hasn't read it. that's okay. my friends keep picking the words out of my throat.

someone once told me that the more trigger warnings that go on a book, the better it is. i didn't mean to write something with so many conditional phrases - i was writing about what i felt while being a human. sometimes you are a person and sometimes you are a statistic. sometimes it is falling upwards and sometimes it's sliding back down again.

my father tells me that it will be difficult to get people to read it. i didn't like the idea of a singular genre. i'm not going to lie to you - it is actually a difficult book to get through. i change the rules in it. it's not poetry or prose explicitly. it's neither false nor reality. i give you the tools to "solve" the book, but i let you do the thinking. my father says people don't care to think. i don't know about that - i think we just, like, enjoy reading.

the thing is - i was tired of stories about survival where someone with depression goes to therapy and wakes up okay. i didn't live like that. i was tired of books about violence, where the gore of what i experience was splashed in glitter to lick off the page. like, i was a person, you know? i had a life and a job and a family. and in books, i watched my story get ripped up so people could explore the viscera of my body. so they could feel good. my brother once called it inspiration pornography. we had walked out of a suicide-prevention seminar, both of us disgusted while the increasingly-elated presenter kept listing methods-of. i remember the look on my brother's face. like i would tear that man apart given the right time and place.

my father says that kids these days. he warns me against writing about things that are too-serious. he says that they don't want it. i don't listen. he does make me take out a scene from the book where i go to church after having sex with a woman. it used to be the 7th scene in the book. i don't think he's read further than that, it rocked him too hard to continue.

it's a book about being queer. it's a book about being raised catholic. it doesn't have monsterfucking, i'm sorry. it's just about, like.

at some point you have to choose to stay here. and then you do have to stay here, which takes practice. this is about forming the habit. this is about what happens after you've already started doing the work. because, like. you keep going. you have to. and it's like. very imperfect.

i should make a post on instagram. i should make this announcement less bittersweet. but like -- i'm giving it you, specifically, because i think you know why i had to write it. you and me. this little community.

body's a bad monster. here's the link if you're interested in ordering.

#i will never shut up about this #by the way . this is the book that u are trying to get me to eat #also available on other links!! barnes and noble and s&S #also btw i drew the cover :) they asked me to lol #btw this isn't self-published. this is like. book deal thru simon and schuster

[wiltkingart]

Asche and Vindt from Ocean's Blood by Thelma Mantey

#this book comes out january 29th. i finished reading the ARC this morning and well. here i am several hours later #starting the promo early because this shit hit all my dark fantasy m/m needs and i need more people to read this as soon as its available #you can find my review in the linked goodreads page if you want to know more. but for now i leave you with this <3 #ocean's blood #asche #vindt #book fanart #lgbt books #fanart #digital #original art

[sepulchritude]

Another perk of libraries is that when I check out an audiobook and predictably fail to listen to it, it gets returned and I can rest easy knowing that checking it out at all has already benefited my local library. I can even do it again later and it will only bring further good things, for free, forever

VS buying an audiobook, failing to listen to it, and having to stare at it in my audible collection knowing I spent $10 on something I never used. And then imagine doing that again. Hellish. Get a library card and download the libby app

#literally the only downside is sometimes you have to wait your turn for the book #which: yeah life’s like that sometimes #and also: go find a different book that’s available immediately and use that to tide you over #sepulchritudinous #1k #10k

[genderkoolaid]

reading abt pauli murray..... forget he should've been at the club. he should've been on t

#m. #also kind of pissed that ppl have described his identity as ''he ended up identifying as female!'' #and then reading a book on him basically go #yeah when hrt was finally available to people asking for it it would have threatened his career and he couldnt afford that #but god forbid people recognize transmascs involvement in feminism

[grimae]

My piece for @novaandmali's latest art book, And They Were Monsters. Thank you so much again for having me!

#commission #knight #skull #book should still be available at their website if there's anyone interested #there were so many talented people in it. absolute joy to work with them

[ttpdjo]

LOOK HOW GORGEOUS HE IS

#I'm going feral again #he should read me a book #im waiting #i love him :((( #finalmente l’alba #sean lockwood #finally dawn #joe keery #will this movie even be available in my country 😭 #s i g h #i LOVE HIM #steve harrington #gator tillman #walter mckey

[aroaessidhe]

some aspec books coming out in 2024. netgalley, I am in your walls

#well not quite all of these are on NG. but the ones that are are not available in my country 😡 #shall i reblog this and add specific details #dear wendy #don't let the forest in #fallen thorns #so let them burn #the loudest silence #asking for a friend #moth to a flame #the final curse of ophelia cray #asexual books #aroace books

[eredhes]

[ID Photos of a three small clay horses painted to look like horses from the Lascaux Cave paintings. They all have a stocky build and simplified features. Each photo shows a different angle. End ID]

Bought a big book on the Lascaux Caves to use as a reference while painting. (The Cave of Lascaux: The Final Photographs by Mario Ruspoli - ended up getting a German copy because the English one is expensive but it is available on the Internet Archive). I made each of these at different times and then painted them altogether which is why they're so varied. Wanted to use acrylics as I've been painting sculptures with gouache because it keeps a rougher look, and I was worried acrylics would look too shiny and plastic but that wasn't the case so I've been making things unnecessarily complicated. C'est la vie.

#ive changed desk set up and can no longer use a computer screen while working with clay hence why i bought a book that is available online #im so behind on uploading ive already managed to break these lmao

[ryllen]

" sorry sebek .. "

#finished watching the available translated walkthrough video of book 7 - the experience #twisted wonderland #twst #sebek zigvolt #twst yuu #twst mc #fanart #book 7 #damn tho when he blatantly said he doesn't want friends #u hold on right there young man #even l ilia was speechless #i said we are aware but actually some people will never be aware even tho they have someone like sebek yelled at them everyday

[sinlizards]

my final piece for @turnabout-cinema! had an absolute blast working on this one :]

#wocky kitaki #turnabout corner #ace attorney #apollo justice ace attorney #aa4 #left over sales are available till dec 15th if you missed out on the initial run! #i think physical books are sold out but still highly recommend the digital zine + merch everything is so high quality #also this was the first aa zine i was able to apply and im so glad i did such a great project ;_; #my art #fan art #undescribed #zine #2022

[layaart]

the starless sea ✨

#the starless sea #erin morgenstern #fantasy aesthetic #fantasy art #sticker sheets available now! #books #2023 fanart

[promithiae]

Hi do you want to read all of Discworld but wow that's a lot of books and books are expensive? Humble has all 38 of them up for $18 in ebook format.

They also have smaller bundles, but $20 for 38 books is pretty good

EDIT: I put this in my tags, but realize I should put it in the actual body of the post; unfortunately this is only available in the US (BOOOOOO), and it's going on (I believe, they don't give an actual date that i could see, just a countdown) through January 21st

#discworld #terry pratchett #gnu terry pratchett #i don't know which ones are missing... i think maybe science of Discworld? #unless I'm conflating the number of discworld books with the number of total books he wrote #ok so terms that i only saw when checking out: promo is on until the end of january 2024 and available in the US only (boo)

[yours-stevie]

'Fabbricante di lacrime' is now available to watch on Netflix 💧

#fabbricante di lacrime #the tearsmith #new #italian #netflix #movie #out now #available to watch #book adaptation #movie stills #simone baldasseroni #biondo #caterina ferioli #alessandro bedetti #co-stars #love them

[femmespoiled]

I've been thinking quite a bit about this conversation I had with a butch I had a thing with, a few years back. To be honest, it crosses my mind a lot. In this conversation we were talking about butch/femme, aesthetics, stereotypes etc. The context to it is that I saw a video that showed, unfortunately stereotyped, femme as these 4 styles of clothing and whatever, you can think it was funny, it's not the end of the world certainly, but we got to talking about this notion that I think the community forgets, regardless of verbally recognising "we're not aesthetics".

He showed me a picture that he really liked of this butch/femme couple in a bar and they were both wearing the same outfit and yet we could recognise them as a butch/femme pairing. Reminds me also of this black and white picture of two butches with a femme in the middle, they were in similar clothes, only the shirts said "butch" or "fem" in the case of the one I now bring up. Both of these were taken before the 1980s, if I recall correctly. Of course these are pictures, so we don't get the full context of their identities, but the intention here is to illustrate the concept of, in a way, the silliness of separating us by clothes and aesthetics. What this expectation of femininity or masculinity means considering both of these can be presented in such a subjective way.

When I talk about this, and how I view femme through my own femme lenses, I want to once again, shed light to some parts I love of The Persistent Desire: A Femme-Butch Reader by Joan Nestle:

"the femme is the lesbian who poses this problem of misinterpreted choice in the deepest way... Femmes are women who have made choices, but we need to be able to read between the cultural lines to appreciate their strength. Lesbians should be mistresses of discrepancies, knowing that resistance lies in the change of context." - the resistance and the strength of femme, along with its meaning, isn't quite obvious and a lot of people tend to miss it.

"Butches were known by their appearance, femmes by their choices."

And this part of Butch Is A Noun by S. Bear Bergman:

"(For the record, I believe that the same is true of femmes; the femmes who get the most admiration, the most approbation in the queer community in which I live seem to be the ones who cherry-pick exactly what of femininity they want, mix it with a hearty dash of traditionally masculine characteristics like sexual agency, stompy boots, assertiveness, fondness for power tools, and so on, and shake up a gendered cocktail that makes traditional unexamined cultural femininity look a little watery, a little pale. This is what I see, as a longtime admirer of femmes in all their variations, but I freely acknowledge that I only see what any femme cares to show me, and it's really not for me to say."

I think femme identity can become this pale misconstrued concept because we're not as obviously recognizable and people aren't as prepared to recognize us. People get used to, when thinking of lesbians, noticing and expecting butch signs, in such a way that femmes flew under the radar as an identity and definition and we still deal with that heavily today. And lately I've been seeing somewhat of a guessing game of what it all means that doesn't encompass our full range, truly it's hard to encompass that in any case.

But the moral of the story, I guess, is that femme needs more than a glance, more than one size fits all, more than what meets the eye, if we can recognize the multitude and holistic nature in the other side of our coin, we're capable of recognizing it within us.

#bellas butch/femme tag #bellas books #because of the mentions of books i make available in the drive #btexts

[b4kuch1n]

siren

#bakuspecial #cw: nudity #cw: body horror #monster #siren! I think. they're bird to me #I think this has been brewing since that stream mim did of drawing dnd monsters only from official text description #and when the official art for the sirens were shown I was like. oh thats just a woman with wings #lmao like. granted. its an official dnd book available for all audience. you cant make it too Bad To Look At #(I do not agree with this but it wasnt about me. if its about me its gonna be about very few people lmao) #but yeah. after that I got slightly too into the idea of putting more bird into birdwoman #but I also do genuinely love monsters that are Rearranged Human Parts so. I couldnt commit too much to the bird scales Im so sorry #I wanted the fleshiness. the feel. textural experience of holding her hands and being like oh that's a human #even when ur eyes tell u otherwise. mmm #...I looked to my right as I was typing these tags and saw. the fucked up pikmin I tried to sculpt the other day along with the pin #and got startled #its so. its so fucked up. gods. dusty white naked grainy parsnip #I used to have that one doll I butchered wanting to customize in a box next to me and thats way less upsetting than this. man #its perfect actually I will never throw this thing away. anyways #now. now I go to bed. its sleep time for the baku #have a good night lads! you CAN have it both way easily you just need a big bat