#because we had to leave in an hour

[evadingreallife]

🤷🏻‍♀️

#heartbreak but not #friends but kind of #love but is it #ehhhhh ita been kind of a day here in the feels train #vibing along the lines of am i doomed by the narrative or am i free to reach what i cant yet #aka existential crises 101 friendships edition #Do Your Friends Like You Or Do They Just Want To Hang Out Occasionally Thrice A Year: 2023 edition #now with end of university feelings #like #i met with a friend today for an apertitivo #we were thick as thieves for two or three years #but now we hadnt seen each other in a few months because idk life sucks #and halfway through our meeting #i start feeling really down and sad #like i was gonna cry #like i was mourning already the time we wouldnt be spending together #because we had to leave in an hour #and when we went our separate ways later on as soon as she left i was left stranded #and all the way home it was open heartbreak #heartbreak for the friendship we could have but wont have #because i always make mountains out of nothing #and friendship goes both ways but the ways are not symmetrical to each other #and we r friends #but not ykno #super friends #even tho id like that so much #i could feel it tearing me apart #the hearbreak #like i wanted to grasp something #but it wasnt my place to grasp

[spacedlexi]

"sounds nice... having a partner"

#the walking dead game #twdg #violentine #clementine twdg #violet twdg #MAANN when clem says this in s3 JUST WAIT BBY #people who say clemvi has no basis like ep2 isnt just them working as a team for 2 and a half hours regardless of player choice #like be fr #clem telling louis that violet patching up the back wall is ok because she needed something to keep herself busy. married behavior #vi asking clem to help check in on everyone while she deals with the wall. their shared smile when she comes back outside :) #and then they sit in the leadership spot together overlooking the yard and everything theyve planned together coming to fruition :) #sorry i just think their romance set up in eps 1 and 2 is obvious as FUCK and im tired of (Some) people pretending it isnt #'i havent seen her warm up to someone in a long time' brody literally tells clem that vi seems to like her after its been 24 hours #after shes been a block of ice for a whole year. and clem just melted those walls down immediately while they fought walkers together #violet is so devoted to clem post ep1 its embarrassing for her #'i saw she had you pinned and i- shit i got So crazy...' sorry if you dont think shes in love with clem idk what to tell you #'i'll tear that boat apart before we leave without you' i know you would girlie!!! #the animators went CRAAZAYAYAYAY the way they look at each other... their little smiles at each other....even before the belltower #the way clem looks at her while they dance.... the way she puts her head down on her shoulder so contentedly.... #and then she keeps her head on violets shoulder as she pulls away so clems chin gets dragged with it like she doesnt want to let go #'so you never forget that night' 'i never will' they are DISGUSTINGLY in love with each other it makes me physically ill #its 2024 and im still hearing 'i just didnt see it :/'. lazerbeams you #spaced art 2024

[ride-a-dromedary]

You're not a doppelganger, are you? Trying to study me, learn all my secrets so you can take my place?

#Baldur's Gate 3 #bg3edit #bg3 spoilers #Halsin #otheredits #blood tw #what would even be the tw tag for this? implied child endangerment? (that didn't happen)? #imprisonment tw #doppelganger tw #my stuff #hey you wanna see something that makes me really sad - there you go - yes i spent several hours on this what of it #hey fanficcers - I need someone to write a halsin centric thing with the line 'I do not deserve to see the sun again' crossing his mind #whether that be from his time with the drow or after the shadow curse - please i need #orin's imitations of the companions she kidnaps are always slightly off (obviously) but the gal uses the *exact right pressure points* #where it's like...it almost feels as if we get a peek into the reality of their thoughts #is it SUPPOSED to come off that way? no clue - but that's how i read it #that bit about the shadow curse applies in my mind because as is based in implication #halsin had to leave the wounded behind while he rescued survivors - you don't think those screams echo in his head #every single night? #and halsin not thinking he deserves seeing the sun? because of all the godforsaken things *he* was the one left from that tragedy? #yeah #also what in the dragon age origins is the lighting of this scene #was gonna make another gifset but this took me four hours lol

[give-grian-rights]

can someone tell me why im being abnormal about a character i've barely touched the content of. like yay yippie i watched like 20 hours of you. there's fucking 80 years of content get me OUT OF HERE?

#yeah this is about nightwing. yes im a freak about him no i don't do well with comics #shout out to duke thomas in the we are robin comic i've had in my browser tabs for three weeks now #sorry king. #i mean i guess it makes sense because theres So many characters in media that you can't even get 20 hours out of . but. BUT ITS NOT FAIR. #i want to read comics so bad. i try to. i have. i've started several #blue beetle 2009 nightwing 2016... superman & batman world's finest #i was able to finish teen titans world's finest but that was only. like. six issues #comics as a medium just has this thing where. you're dropped in and it kinda expects you to know what's happening #and leaves you feeling like you started on the wrong page. like blue beetle. loved you but man that was not the greatest first comic to rea #wait i forgot i read hawkeye 2011(?) and that also had the same issue. but more so each installment like #felt like it was starting on a point AFTER something happened like i was meant to be reading another comic before i got to that issue. #i got. like. idk 18? 19? comics into that one. and 12 into nightwing. nightwing wasn't as bad but it just. gah. like several-issue long #stories carried across batman and nightwing and its like.OUGH. #i know im mutuals with a comic person. hi. i know you're cringing. #there are so many good characters to come out of comics. its just SO HARD to get into. #rn i dont have an excuse with We Are Robin. just that i've been infected with needing to play the sims for 8 hours a day. #mika-posts

[theoryofwhatnow]

crafting the game

(this has been in my drafts for ages)

#i've been thinking about the boys game a lot. #the event at the end of the movie that most of us first recognized as the cycle #(or at least most of whom i've interacted with after first finishing the film) #I'm gonna be honest this all started because i was making an edit #but that's neither here nor there. #Essentially i was confused about *the game* #and was wondering whether nigel won or lost before i realized i was looking at it all wrong #duh #Nigel was talking about the creation of the game that he would contribute to #not how it's played #which only became glaringly obvious to me after i'd sat there with my thoughts for almost a half hour #(give me a break i'm not stupid i've just had a rough few weeks) #Everybody played their part perfectly the schools order begins to fall apart #(alex headmaster's son leaves. nigel grandmaster's son dead alongside his parents. etc.) #the valiant hero forsakes the religious organization (McKenzie) #and everyone else takes their place unknowingly simply through existing. #Alex finds another boy and so it begins. #Finally out of death grief suffering and ruined sanity; the game starts but we don't ever see it. #start with a Jack and then fabricate the game #like minds #nigel colbie #alex forbes #murderous intent

[foreversaba]

in case anyone worries that I just said I've discussed walrus fairy with my partner for two hours, it's not a fight discussion, we're just two autism-bained academia suckasses and we LOVE getting into long profound discussions, and right now is "how the fairy/walrus dichotomy of humans reflects their stances on religion (my argument, I vote walrus) and ultimately proves how dangerous thought patterns lead to the prevalence of scams (his argument, he votes fairy)

#everyone in both families is always so thrilled that we found each other to finally leave the rest of the family members alone #one day if everything goes wrong in our lives we can always start a podcast lmao #neither of us shut up ever and I love us #im tagging all posts about this with #walrus fairy poll #so that I can bring this up to friends later at parties hahaha #oh my god this subject and our drunk also debate-freak friends are going to fuel HOURS #like Im gonna say possibly twelve? #once at a party him and one of our friends stayed up ALL NIGHT discussing with a religious bloke who believed in miracles #and by all night I mean the party ended and I had to sleep over at the homeowner's couch because they talked until the sun was up #we arrived there at like 10pm and we left 8 the next morning #and the discussion was not over #so believe me fairy walrus is gonna last FOREVER #They've spent 3 or 4 hours last time discussing the effectiveness or harm of farmers killing snakes out of fear

[the-adventures-of-dave]

Dave has decided that 5am is the best time for breakfast and no one can convince him otherwise

#NEVER in my life have I ever had his breakfast time be 5am #his supper is at midnight #that’s 5 hours between one meal and 19 between the other #Dave doesn’t care #he wakes me and Kepler up at 5am every morning and refuses to let us sleep #it’s been 1 1/2 hours now we are in a stalemate #I refuse to feed him because I don’t want to encourage being awake at FIVE AM #and Dave refuses to sleep because he wants food #he keeps wandering into my room and knocking things off my nightstand #then slapping poor sleeping Kepler in tbe face #then leaving #rinse and repeat #this cat is going to drive me insane #delete later #I just needed somewhere to complain

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

pls reblog

#polls #hyperspecific poll #kai rambles #personal #doing this i realised how much if my weird experiences were either too depressing or violent to put as an option #or would need a lot more words to explain #i decided to skip out on ''had a local drug dealer try to groom you into being a mule'' #i find it funny because he tried it while my mom was in the room? #but im aware its a sensitive topic #i also did not know how to casually word the times my dad would randomly drive us to like some ruins in the english countryside #and like say ill be back in an hour #and then leave us there #because what the fuck even was that? #also how to explain that my maternal uncle and maternal grandad were in opposing local gangs that folded before i was born #but like in an alternate universe id probably be raised in a gang? #and also anything about my aunt meryl i dont know how to phrase any of that in limited words because she is just the most bizzare lady #i maybe could get the neck brace thing in where she accused me and my mom of stealing her neckbrace and handcream #and told us to never speak to her until we were ready to admit it except we didnt take it #and its probably coming up to a decade now

[sulfuric-nest]

Soundwave’s Tango

Happy Valentine’s Day to THE Robot Husband

#this was originally going to just be a wavewave dancing thingy inspired by the masochism tango #but then I was like you know what I want to draw MORE #I drew everyone g1 except for ratchet only because I like his idw design better lmao #also I had no idea what to do with jazz and tc #ALSO you can tell I have wavewave bias haha #I know Energon doesn’t have the same viscosity as blood leave me alone I thought it looked cool #this took like 5 hours #I feel like this would look better in a more detailed style :( #robot husband poll #soundwave sweep #we knew this was going to happen #there is no stopping him #maccadam #transformers #g1 #idw #soundwave #cliffjumper #optimus prime #sideswipe #starscream #shockwave #thundercracker #jazz #ratchet #my art #sorry novafire lol

[thenwethrowitonthefire]

Shout-out to everyone who survived a "fun" easter with the family

#fucking hell #it started with finding out my dad smoked in my car when I picked up my sister #who was equally dreading the day #my mum turns into the world's tensest and judgemental presence. worsened by my aunt #then hell for autistic people (of which there are multiple present) #multiple deaf people means one uninspired conversation that isn't interesting in any way. #combinations of passive aggressiveness and people not saying a thing because they can't participate. voice volumes too damn high #weirdass food situations. Very full table. so many smells. #this goes on for over an hour. wishing for literally anything but being there. soul crushing. #then you still have to sit in that room for 2.5 hours. it just goes on and on. #my autistic deaf dad physically looks like how I feel. my mum and aunt keep piling on top of him to demand his mental presence #i leave the room once (to get my phone to show pictures to my uncle) and am immediately followed upstairs by my mum #who demands I don't leave the room (What's next. following me when I need the toilet?) #me and my sister are so bored we start throwing paper planes and fake fighting. #Which amuses the bored and the deaf #but of course my mum and aunt have opinions and this is not allowed. only soul crushing boredom allowed #they complain to each other over it while aggressively doing dishes #finally it ends because my mum and aunt start insisting my dad should go to bed if he's 'that tired'. *sprinkle on some additional ableism* #still sitting through a conversation about allergies one of my sister's friends has. my mum preaching that people should take that seriously #(meanwhile i had to cook for myself for 9 years because when my allergies were really bad no one bothered to check if i could eat something) #me and my sister go sit upstairs to discover our mum has made things we care about vanish in her room #and made things appear that should not be there #I've washed the interior of my car and hope the smell will go #you think it's over after that. but woke up with the realisation that even more things have disappeared from my sister's room. #i can't remember a time when things left outside of my room didn't disappear #I don't know why we do these family gatherings at all. no one has fun on days like that. #the housing crisis isn't making these things easy. my sister is losing her place to live again as well #she'll go hiking for a month and then work on a campsite over the summer #maybe I'll go house sitting again. idk. #can't make commitments a few months in advance like that because I'll cancel everything the second Sparks announces anything important

[girlscience]

good GOD this trip. I have loved the scenery and the hikes we have been on, but my family is about to drive me bonkers.

#literally none of them are capable of making a single fucking decision without debating it for hours #and none of them communicate clearly so there is an insane amount of confusion #and we have done next to nothing because they cannot do anything in a reasonable time frame #like we were supposed to leave at 8:30 this morning and we didn't leave until 9:15 #and then we got to the hike spot and my mom lost her glasses and instead of checking under her fucking seat #we had to spend a good half hour looking for them... guess where they were #and then we spent 10 minutes debating if we were going to do the hike we had already Fucking PICKED #and then my mom passed out halfway through the hike which is not her fault and I'm not upset about at all #but we decided to not do the rest of the hike and instead go to the town and look at the artist shops #which was totally good with me except we got there and they all decided they didn't want to look at the shops!!!!!!!!! #yes they were mostly galleries of art we can't afford but they were cool to look at #but nope. spent idk an hour wandering around OUTSIDE THE STORES #we did get the best chai I've ever had tho at a little shop there DELICIOUS #and then they were like beginning the dinner debate and I decided I was fucking done #so I just picked a place and said we are eating here and called and made a reservation and told them to get in the fucking car #like I Get It. it can be hard to pick things but at some point SOMEONE has to make a choice #we can't stand around going 'idk whatever you want' 'i'm okay with anything' 'what did you say?' 'did we decide?' ALL THE TIME #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[zevrans]

.

#it's my last shift in 2 days and then i'm leaving this job i'm actually so happy i no longer has to work there! 🎉 #i need to find a new one asap of course but i never had energy to do so on my off days so i'll focus on that now #i've endured the hardest shifts with freezing -25-30 °C where the heater conditioner did absolutely nothing #shifts with the roof leaking trying to not let the orders of customers get wet constantly wiping shelves throughout 2 days on top #of everything i has to do #these past 2 days sewage system froze and i had no water to wash my hands or use the restroom properly..🤦‍♀️ #i know the wet hand wipes are bad for ecology but man they continously saved me and also i had to wash my hands using water from kettle and #i had to do it outside freezing of course because the sink and restroom are in another building and i didnt have time to constantly walk #there.. and this on top of 2 last weeks of december being especially batshit crazy stressful and having heated karen encounters each shift. #and it was so hard on me because i am a nonconfrontational person and i don't like arguing with people #but i learned so much in these months of working there and for that experience i am still grateful :") #it's bittersweet that i won't see the friendly regulars that were always kind to me anymore tho 😔 and my coworker came yesterday #and we spoke for like an hour or so and he said he is is sad that i'm leaving because i'm such a nice person and a great coworker 🥺 #ngl this made me sad too but life goes on.. he said he'll be leaving in a month too #said he didn't think that i'll leave first 😂 #i woke up almost an hour ago from 3 bg3 related dreams in a row btw 😂🤦‍♀️ i need to play 🙈 ok i need to get up first..😭 #tbd

[diari0deglierrori]

I FORGOT TODAY WAS THE DAY WITH NO ELECTRICITY THEY TOLD US ABOUT A FEW MONTHS AGO I KNEW ID FORGET ABOUT IT THE DAY IT WOULD COME

#and I barely have any battery #and can’t eat all my data #AND THE HIUSE IS ALL DAEK BECAUSE THE STUPID STORES (don’t know the english name) WORK WITH ELECTRICITY #can’t even cook because one the food is in the fridge two we have stupid PLAQUES ÉLECTRIQUES #AND MY HAIR IS WET AND I CANT BLOW DRY IT #oh and I can’t leave the house either because again no electricity therefore gate can’t open #and I only had 4 hours of sleep last night #like a cherry on top #end of rant #for now #it will only last ​until early afternoon #but 4h feels like a lot in these conditions #almost 5 actually

[jils-things]

i went wandering off in my pokespe gallery and had to relieve how wonderful this scene played out. no kidding

please dont read the tags i got emotional there /lh

#the.plot felt a bit confusing to me admittedly but oras did so well in trying to make franticshipping incredibly satisfactory since #at the end of rs we couldn't really tell if they settled with each others feelings yet (APPARENTLY NOT BECAUSE THEY'RE PRIDEFUL AND DUMB/JJ) #but at least sapphire still had some thoughts about it but i was kinda mad WHY DIDNT RUBY GIVE HIS HALF OF THE FEELINGS PROPERLY!!! #WELL THIS HAPPENED WHERE HE OPENLY CONFESSES ABOUT HOW MUCH HE CARES ABOUT HER AND THE WHOLE WORLD CELEBRATED #in r/s they were constantly separated from each other by WILL BECAUSE they despise each other so much #in oras - after confessing - it literally ACHES for ruby to not see her like take a fucking shot everytime he says wheres sapphire???? #THEY WERE ALWAYS AWAY FROL EACH OTHER HERE AND HE FEELS SO GUILTY FOR EVERY TIME SAPPHIRE GETS HARMED #FOR EXAMPLE; FIGHTING WITH ZINNIA AND FALLING OFF THE ROCKET - LOSING HER VOICE - RUBY HOLDING THE SECRET FROM SAPPHIRE BY PROMISING STEVEN #LITERALLY EVERUTHING SHE DOES MAKES HIM FEEL ALL THE MORE GUILTY AND HE CANT EVEN TELL HER STRAIGHT HES SORRY BECAUSE THEY'RE LITERALLY #FUCKING AWAY FROM EACH OTHRHADHDHRHSBRBDBSHSHSHE #AND WHEN THEY FINALLU MEET UP VIA TROPIUS AND RAYQUAZA SHE TELLS HIM TO SHUT UP AND HOLD HIS EMOTIONS FOR NOW. THAT'S HOW DESPERATE HE WAS #TO SEE EHR AGAIN AHAHAHAHTDTHHGG IM SO INSANEEE #AND AT THIS MOMENT HE ALMOST EMOTIONALLY CONFESSES WITH TEARS HE DOESNT WANT TO LEAVE HER AGAIN BECAUSE WORST COMES TO WORST HE'LL NEVER SEE #HER IF HE TRIES TO SAVE THE WORLD BY HIMSELF FROM THE METEORRRRRR AKAAJAHAAJ #AND THATS WHY HE INVITES HER TO SAVE THE WORLD TOGETHER AS CORNY AS IT SOUNDS BUT ITS BECAUSE IF HE'LL DIE HE WANTS TO DIE WITH HER AAAHSGDV #AND SAPPHIRE'S REACTION WAS FAINTING WHICH TBH WAS A COMEDIC MOMENT FOR SUCH AN IMPACTFUL DIALOG FROM HIM BUT AJDHSJHDS MAKES ME HAPPY #y'all don't even get me started how this plays out when stevaide is in here DON'T EVEN #~ rambling #i just woke up and i chose violence (franticshipping) #pokespe hours

[vulpinesaint]

it's me and all the women in literature described in despondent unhappiness in a marriage that they don't hate but don't enjoy as they should and who feel as if they're not the way a woman should be and who yearn to be free of their husband and children not because they despise them but because they're not for a husband and children and who can't say that they're miserable but who feel a numb kind of despair in all that disconnectedness and disconnectedness and disconnectedness. they are just like me for real

#we have the same kind of depression 👍 but also. i can see so clearly that that's the way i would be if i still thought i was a girl. #and i had grown up to get married to someone and tried to be a woman and a mother like that. god... #edna pontellier hold on. i'm going out into the sea with you. we'll drown together. #laura brown from the hours on my kin list 👍 #need to reread the hours so bad. opened up my copy of it to check if laura had killed herself at the end or not for this post #and just skimming the last few chapters made me tear up. god. but there are still the hours aren't there? one and then another... #and then you get through that one and then my god there's another... #um. books that make you go 'okay so maybe i have wanted to kill myself a little bit all these years. but maybe i'm going to be okay' #the book ever honestly it is Everything to me #and kate chopin's the awakening is good as well. much to be said about the depiction of people of color in that novel #but the depiction of edna pontellier's mental state is so. ough. #glances at the ratings on goodreads nd stuff have made me so irritated. #god forbid a woman commit the ultimate selfish sin of leaving her children behind because she's so miserable by killing herself. #because far worse than the thought that she could be losing all her personhood moment by moment #and wasting her life away feeling like a shell of a person #pales. in comparison to the thought that she could POSSIBLY abandon the children she didn't really want to have. #of course it's a bad situation for the kids. sorry to raoul and etienne. but they will survive. #condemning the main character for having the audacity to go off and die... sickening. i hate people #valentine notes

[thedisablednaturalist]

You know maybe all this pain is worth it, just to be in his arms for even a moment

#wrenfea.exe #its disabled love hours everyone #went to my favorite fast food place (hangry joes) and then went to the movies to watch the boy and the heron #Then we came back and cuddled and other “things” till he had to leave #my cats also love him and will go up to him for pats #he really tries to be respectful of my disabilities and when he messes up he learns from it #he helps me apply my pain cream and makes sure i drink lots of water #i cant wait to live with this man #and just be one happy family (me and him and my cats and maybe a dog) #i was so stressed about the insurance stuff but spending time with him made me feel all better #its worth it to keep living to keep moving forward #because I have him #chronic disability #chronic pain #spoonie #disability #chronic illness