#because why are you telling those things to me specifically

[fruity-fruition]

Assigning Disney songs and small analysis on why to Wondershow pairings!!

(boycott Disney literally please never stop. Pirate EVERYTHING they have FUCK Disney they're literally the worst EVILL evil corporation it's not even funny. but their stories and songs are iconic unfortunately)

Ruikasa: I See The Light (Tangled)

It's a song about discovering what it means to dream, and realizing how much your world has changed so drastically after the right person enters your life.

"All these years, chasing down a daydream. All those days, living in a blur. All that time, never truly seeing things the way they were"

TELL ME. TELL ME THAT ISN'T TSUKASA PRE-WXS. Him NOT knowing what he's doing, striving for a blurry dream he's stumbling to achieve. BEFORE MEETING WXS, in this specific case, Rui.

"All at once, everything looks different, now that I see you"

How Rui's entire view of friendship and life in general changed the moment Tsukasa officially invites and begs him back into the group. Hear me OUT.

Nenekasa: A Whole New World (Aladdin)

A song of one person showing and exposing the other to a new and exciting world, one filled with wonder.

Tsukasa pulled Nene out of her shell, and basically challenged her. While all her friends are her stepping stone, it's Tsukasa that pushed her into the world of stardom. A world she so desperately wants to achieve.

He's a competition to her, a friend, and also a motivation to keep getting better. She overcomes a lot of her fears with her rivalry of sorts with him, wanting to be an equal and improve just as much. She's brought to the spotlight, indirectly because of him. A whole new world she's just introduced to.

"A dazzling place I never knew. But when I'm way up here, it's crystal clear, that now I'm in a whole new world with you"

THE TWO STARS OF WONDERSHOW. IN THE SKIES TOGETHER.

Emurui: Love is an open door (Frozen)

Ok, I know this is TECHNICALLY a manipulative and villain song, BUT NOT TO ME IN THIS CONTEXT. Just two, absolutely silly doofuses goofing around and being equally stupid.

I don't have much logical explanation for this except for silly and also it matches their vibes SOO WELL. With Emu thinking nearly as insanely as Rui, and both of them being whimsical in nature. It makes the

"I mean it's crazy"

"What?"

"We finish each other's s-"

"sandwiches!!"

"That's what I was gonna say!"

More so their brainwave being THAT goofy and in line with each other rather than a manipulative tactic the song was trying to do.

"I never met someone who thinks so much like me!"

YEAHHHHHH

I don't have the energy to keep analysing right now but I'll drop the other two and explain later if I don't forget and die.

Ruinene: Something There (Beauty and the Beast)

Emukasa: I DONT KNOW I DESPERATELY TRIED IF ANYONE HAS ANY IDEAS SHARE I LOVE EMUKASA BUT I WAS DYING.

Emunene: I won't say I'm in Love (Hercules) ORR THE LESBIAN ANTHEM Kiss The Girl (The Little Mermaid)

#pjsk #project sekai #tsukasa tenma #rui kamishiro #nene kusanagi #emu ootori #emu otori #tenma tsukasa #kamishiro rui #kusanagi nene #ootori emu #otori emu #wxs #wondershow #wandasho #polyshow #polysho #wonderland x showtime #wonderlands x showtime #ruikasa #emunene #ruinene #nenekasa #emukasa #emurui

[allovesthings]

Devin Grayson's trauma dumping of Dick happened at the same time as the Outsiders (2003) and I think I would have loved to read Roy and Dick having a conversation after Blüdhaven is destroyed and he almost killed himself trying to save those people.

Don't get me wrong, while I really didn't like how Bruce handled it after (don't yell at your passively suicidal son that you won't forgive him if he doesn't value his own life), I get why it had to be Bruce there.Among other things, It's his judgement that has Dick spinning around in circles but I wish Roy also got a chance to have a conversation. They've really been building up Dick's declining mental health in the Outsiders. Helena is out there telling Roy that something is really clearly wrong with Dick and Roy himself has created the team specifically because he knows Dick is trying to isolate himself because of Donna's death.

In my opinion, it doesn't really culminates to anything in the Outsiders. Even Donna's return,which you would think was Dick's reason for being so bad if you read The Outsiders only and which happens in the Outsiders/Titans crossover, kinda put Dick in the backseat while focusing on Cassie and Roy. That isn't a bad thing in itself but it kinda feel like they dropped that plot a little bit (Dick does quit and come back but that's before she is back).A conversation between them could have been a catharsis or a resolution of that plotpoint, especially considering the Outsiders shows up at the end and Roy specifically tells Oracle that something is very clearly wrong with Dick after Dick knock him out right before Blüdhaven is nuked.

Also, when I first read the Devin Grayson run, one of my main criticisms (apart from all of the racism and badly handled sa and the fact that she couldn't even finish the story she wanted to tell) is that from the moment Haly circus is destroyed and Babs kicks him out of her apartment the next day until the war games, Dick is isolated and it's very weird because a lot of things happening to him are making the news (Amy is the one who seems to be there, oh and Alfred makes an appearance I guess) but after having read Outsiders, it really feels like Roy was the only one who was trying to actively help him and stop him from self-isolating (and then he got shot in the chest five times).

#the outsiders (2003) #dick grayson #roy harper #bruce wayne #nightwing #arsenal #batman #donna troy #dc #dc comics #tw: sa #tw: suicide mention #tw: suicide #trigger warning:suicide

[heyftinally]

April 30th is the Day of the Homeschooled Child

I was one of the 1.7 million children homeschooled in the USA.

I am also one of Homeschool's Invisible Children.

I was heavily restricted at home - I was barred from nearly everything that my peers were connecting with. I had incredibly limited access to movies and TV, even more restricted internet access, and was even barred from many of the same toys my peers played with. This on top of my academic isolation made socializing very hard.

I didn't relate to my peers socially.

Children younger than me were more academically advanced than me.

I was socially unaware, and frequently missed jokes or made faux pas comments because I didn't understand how to interact with peers.

My ADHD went untreated my entire childhood.

And the issues were not only social. Despite living in a state that boasted some of the most rigorous checks for homeschooled students, I was missed. My portfolios every year were falsified - much of what they claimed I had learned I had little to no understanding of.

By the time I graduated high school "with honors" (that I did not earn and were entirely false), this is a brief list of some of my academic failings:

I had never written an essay, and did not know how

I did not know how to do a critical analysis of a piece of text or media

I was incapable of math above a 4th/5th grade level

I could not tell time on an analog clock

I could not identify more than ~5 states on a map of the United States

I could not identify more than ~5 countries on a map of the world/globe

I could not spell above a ~6th grade level

I did not know that there was proof of life on earth prior to dinosaurs

I did not know that the lymphatic system was real

And so much more.

I entered college woefully unequipped for both the academic and socal demands that were placed on me. At 18, I was closer to as 14 year old, social/emotionally. Academically I was much worse.

I had to work three times as hard as my peers to achieve the same results, battled my still-undiagnosed ADHD as well as my academic and social neglect.

I didn't fully know who I even was as a person, due to spending so many years being expected to fit a specific ideal that was enforced upon me 24/7 through the isolation of homeschooling.

This April 30th, I'm wearing green for Homeschool's Invisible Children - for children like me.

If you are a child experiencing homeschool neglect, please know that you are not alone. There are resources available to you, and your future is not doomed just because your guardians failed to educate you. I'm listing some resources below that may be of help to you.

Homeschool alumni/survivors who resonate with this story: we deserved better. We deserved education. We deserved freedom. It's okay if you're angry at your past. It's okay if you're grieving the life you might have had without homeschooling. It's okay if you're conflicted. I hope you're able to find closure and healing in whatever form that means for you.

And, because I know it unfortunately needs to be said, if you're an ex-homeschooler or a homeschool parent who feels the need to jump on this post and defend yourself, I need you to step back, sit down, delete your comment, and sit with why you feel so attacked by our truth.

This is not a personal attack on you - this is abuse survivors speaking up to prevent further abuse. It is not your place to tell us we should be silent.

"But homeschoolers test better and are more successful!" I'm sure you're dying to say. To wave your statistics at me.

And you would be wrong. Because here's the problem with those statistics.

Let's pretend we have ten homeschooled children and ten public schooled children.

All ten of the public schooled children take a school assessment. Because some excel at different things than others, the public school students average out to an 85.

Only four of the homeschooled children take the assessment. Of the other six, one is traveling with their family during the assessment, two are not permitted because their parents know they aren't up to grade level and fear backlash or judgement, two are mentally or physically disabled and so their parents don't feel the test will adequately display their knowledge, and the last hasn't received any kind of education in years because their parents keep them at home either doing chores, working a job, caring for siblings, or they are simply neglected and spend all day hungry and scared.

Of the four homeschooled children that do take the assessment, they do quite well, as their parents knew/suspected they would. Their average score is a 98.

A 98 is better than an 85, yes. But just because 4 out of 6 homeschooled children were above the public school average does not mean homeschooling is automatically better. If you tested the top four public school students, they might very well score a 98 as well.

However, if you included those other six homeschooled students, the average homeschool score would very likely be something closer to a 45.

So when we talk about Homeschool's Invisible Children, we're talking about those six that never got the chance to take an assessment. Those six who never had a chance to tell a teacher "I'm ten and I don't know how to read". Those six who may not even realize how far behind their peers they are. Those six who deserved to have access to supports so that they could learn in ways that actually met their needs.

So while your statistics look good on paper, they are not honest. They do not present the full picture of homeschooling. Listen to the homeschool survivors who were one of those six kids who never got to make their voices heard. We have a voice now - don't try and take it from us.

Resources for current homeschool students and alumni:

Khan Academy - basically free online self paced K-12 classes. They have fantastic explanation videos for the lessons, you can review them whenever you want, and you don't have to stay in the same grade level for every subject - great if you're trying to catch up and you're in 6th grad for English but 2nd for math. They have courses besides just core classes (math/english/science/etc), too! They run on donations, but it's completely free to use. Also, this site is used in my local public school system to supplement the existing curriculum, so it's not just for homeschoolers!

Coalition for Responsible Home Education - actively fighting for more oversight and restrictions on homeschooling in the USA. They mostly do awareness and advocacy, but they also have resources on their site for things like what to do if you don't have a high school transcript. They run on donations, but the information is freely available.

Probably the most famous resource on this list. Videos that give you a "crash course" (aka a condensed overview) of a wide variety of topics. These are best used as supplement to more structured lessons like Khan Academy, but they have a lot of merit on their own if they're all you can manage. Knowing a bit about something is better than knowing nothing about it!

#homeschool survivor #homeschool abuse #homeschool alumni #homeschooling #homeschool #day of the homeschooled child #homeschool's invisible children #coalition for responsible home education #crhe #make homeschool safe

[sailorblossoms]

(some stuff about the perception of Simon and sex and horniness)

I've hinted at this (and maybe have even just said it, can't remember) in the past but now I'm just gonna say bluntly it because well, I use this blog to rant, and who gives a shit, this is long enough nobody will pay attention to it anyway. (This rant is brought to you by "anyone can do whatever they want obviously but I can't help but wonder... do people think this is actually in character? why?”)

Canonically, Simon is horny. He shows high libido. Canonically, these things are centered on Baz. "Baz is the only person I have ever wanted," he thinks in the context of thinking about having sex. "Maybe I'm some kind of Baz-sexual," he says, in the context of thinking about sexual attraction ("Maybe I'm only sexually attracted to Baz," he's saying.) And sure, libido is a separate thing from attraction, but good ol' Simon still centers both things on Baz...

I have no idea where the idea Simon would be the type to sleep around comes from, or why that idea is more often associated him than Baz (which I have wondered when considering "people think character is hot and so the people just want to see character fuck" – a tale as old as time, which is something I get, as opposed to "this is in character," which I do not). To be clear: I don't have anything against characters who enjoy a life of slutdom, I think such characters can be very fun to read, ya boy here likes erotica novels, etc. My specific issue is that I don't get where the idea Simon is the type comes from, and when picking up everything he's putting down, it kinda feels like a disservice? Like we're taking someone who challenges expectations, who moved past them because they were limiting and insufficient to help him understand himself, and... confining him to certain expectations, anyway?

This is someone who's not even comfortable wearing pajamas outside of the room he shares with Baz (very telling, that). He's not the type to even go into the bathroom to masturbate (no appeal to it if you don't know what you're into or what type of touch you even tolerate, anyway). He's not someone who will be down to get naked (while fully conscious and willing) in front of someone he doesn't, at the very least, know and trust. His one sexual experience outside of Baz is described as something he didn't actually want to do, as something he felt he had to do because “that's just what happens” when you have been dating someone for a long time.

I know "character is good at sex" is a logical continuation to "I want to see hot character fuck" but the idea that Simon would be good at sex in general, based on what he does... would he, really? I mean, it's perfectly fine if he's not. He has no reason to be! He has never done anything without any sort of guidance. Simon shares "the talk" he had didn't cover the truly important things, and we see him discovering "the point" and appeal of sex (for him) with Baz in real time (as closeness and intimacy). "He's good with his hands" – personally, I don't think knowing how to incapacitate, decapitate, or break someone's neck would translate into "knows how to touch someone in a way that's even remotely pleasurable." I would think those type of touches require a different set of skills, but that's just me. I mean, if you think about it, Baz describes Simon's hands as "being everywhere" as in, Simon wants so much he can't decide how to touch him, but also, he doesn't even know how to touch him. Simon jumps Baz like an animal in heat (literally dry humping him in the library!). Sometimes, Baz can get aroused by Simon in spite of the way Simon touches him (because is Simon). Simon is so rough he's bashing Baz's head against a bookcase at some point, probably without realizing (which makes sense for a fighter who has only ever know how to touch violently) (also, some scenes have made me wonder whether Simon, in his eagerness and without realizing, is grabbing and biting and pushing hard enough that if Baz was a regular human, he probably would just find painful).

I think it makes the most sense that Simon would struggle like this. It makes him relatable! Sex starts to be good between Simon and Baz when they start communicating. Sex is good for Simon when he's pleasing Baz, which is also about Baz and his feelings for him, specifically. I don't know how that turned into "sex is good for him when he's pleasing someone, anyone" – those are very different things! That there are areas in his life where he cared about what others thought and wanted to fulfill expectations doesn't mean that would translate into the sexual area, there are other things that would factor into it. This is someone who never once thinks about his cock unless it's close to or in contact with Baz's person. The entirety of his desire, of sex being good or enjoyable for him, of wanting to please (linked to wanting to take care of/make Baz happy) is all centered on Baz. Simon ties desire and the appeal of sex to intimacy with the person he's in love with. There's nothing fucking casual about Simon when it comes to sex and romance, even before he properly identifies those feelings and who he actually has those feelings for. ("I think I'm going to marry the first person I've ever dated" – you couldn't get any further from "casual" with that shit, even if he didn't really believe it was going to happen because he thought he would die, which is also not casual). "But Simon doesn't think––" he thinks a whole fucking lot, actually! He avoids processing, but everything is already inside of him, waiting for him to have the tools to process it and understand it. It's already on his radar. That doesn't necessarily translate into "enjoying casual sex" either.

And then there's horniness. Being horny doesn't mean one would turn to sex. Simon is insanely horny, but not in general... he's horny for Baz. And even then, horniness didn't always mean he was trying to have sex with him, or that he even knew what he wanted to do with it. By awtwb he's very much jumping Baz in a sexual way when he's horny, but Simon literally tells you "when I was horny for Baz, I used to pick fights with him." Before getting together with Baz (and even when he's with him) trying to blow off steam for Simon meant going to activities that are not at all sexual. Perhaps practicing with his sword until he gets tired. Picking fights, as mentioned. Getting moody and irritable and bitchy. As I said, he's not the type to ever even felt comfortable masturbating (being sexual) before he's thinking about how much he wants to cum on Baz. This is a "going to a late night run" type of person, a "engage in a form of combat to not feel so stressed" type of person, not a "casual sex enjoyer" or "one night stands" type of person. He's way more likely to go out to pick fights with strangers than to try to pick up a stranger for literally anything else.

#there have been comments in my mentions that can only be explained as 'these people dont read' #because why are you telling those things to me specifically #like what part of my posts gave you the impression that i would agree #simon snow #snowbaz #baz pitch #carry on #simon snow trilogy #simon x baz #baz x simon #baz grimm pitch #awtwb #wayward son

[ineffablefool]

The lil corner of the Good Omens fandom that I generally see is getting more and more into publicly declaring that That Theory I Dislike Is Bad And People Who Ascribe To It Should Feel Bad, and I don't know if it's really new, or if I was just lucky enough to generally be missed with that shit the last four years.

Different people's brains work differently, which means they will notice things, form interpretations, maybe come to extremely firm conclusions, all different from each others'. Different from mine, different from yours.

I get that some people think that they have the brain which produces the Objectively Superior theories (and/or which can easily determine which other people's theories are the Objectively Inferior ones). I just really missed the memo where Your Interpretation Is Not My Interpretation (And That's Okay) was dragged out back and fucking shot.

Anyway this blog is an "I may not agree with your theory but you may trust that I won't publicly heap scorn upon the very idea of having it" zone if anyone was wondering.

#negativity #discourse type stuff #apparently i can't turn off replies to a specific post? but i am Not Interested in discussing why that kind of behavior is okay actually #also Not Interested in hearing about how i'm overreacting #unless you are prepared to prove that you have personally catalogued everything that I have read/seen/etc on this topic #this is not about any one specific post just about the bizarrely judgemental zeitgeist #also not about any of the posts where someone is like 'huh i know people like this theory but i'm not sure here let me tell you why' #i've always seen posts like those and those are great because YTINMTATO remains intact #JUST. yeah. Not Interested in discussing this at all really #but i've seen some posts that made me feel bad for being so unthinking as to ever find merit in this or that theory #and i'm probably not the only one feeling bad? #so you can think x character is fake or y character is secretly running everything from behind the curtain or z object was drugged #(or none of these things at all!!) #and i 100% promise i am not scoffing at the foolishness of falling for such a completely unsupported idea #i PROMISE i am not going to be mean #because if i wanted to *reduce* the amount of kindness in the world then i wouldn't have created the fucking Soft Zone now would I

[gingerbreadmonsters]

6k in and my head is about to explode. STILL not allowed to say what i want :(

#this fic is going to get negative notes i can already tell lmao #the scope of appeal is so stupidly narrow #but That Does Not Matter #i have to believe that #its for ME #its what i want to see and its what makes me happy #i will never put this in a real post because i would be immediately dragged into the square and burned for hypocrisy #but i think its worth saying #this is rasmr specific i dont know about any other fandoms so dont take this as a universal rule #if you go into your favourite tag variant (e.g. 'redacted [x character name]' or 'redacted [genre]') #and sort by 'top' rather than 'latest' #i would like you to scroll down until you find fic #by which i specifically mean PROSE - not bulletpoints or hcs or matchups or those sorts of things #(this is not to say that those things aren't good or worthy of respect - they ARE - but that's not what i'm talking about here) #i would like you to just think about how long it takes you to find a fic in there #because surprise! it's almost certainly longer than you would hope or indeed expect #now........ i wonder why that is? #i don't mean to sound egotistical or selfish or self-aggrandising through all this #but.... you know. fic writers - during their one life on this earth - put in an AWFUL lot of their real time and energy and love into this #into writing things for other people who they will never know or meet to enjoy for FREE on the internet #i don't think you can be surprised that it's a bit disheartening to do all that and then be met with basically silence #it's like cooking for people yk? #some fics are more complex/longer/time-intensive than others - in the way that making a five-course meal is more work than making a sandwic #but if someone made that food for you - whether it was a cookie or an entire christmas dinner - you'd still say thank you...... right? #you wouldn't just take it from them and leave the room - then eat it in total silence where they can't see - and then not say anything...? #if you liked it - or even if you didn't! - wouldn't you still say thank you? wouldn't you tell them that it was nice and you enjoyed it? #that you liked the ingredients they chose or the way they cooked it or the toppings they chose to put on it? #for the sake of everyone whose ever cooked you a meal i hope you would #because i'll tell you something for free - you will be scrolling on that tag for an uncomfortably long time. why is that? #because reblogs/comments/kudos/likes are to fic writers what 'thank you' is to a cook

[lanshappycorner]

Sometimes I look outside my scope of mutuals and I'm like.....I'm glad I'm not them (whole essay in the tags)

#im going to ramble about a very touchy subject here but it pertains to 🐉♠️ which i am very open about shipping #apparently its Problematic or whatever 😭😭???? according to Some People #you know ive been thinking abt this for a while now but people really like spouting rhetoric abt how this or that is problematic without- #-really considering the specifics of why things are bad. things being bad are not the same as things possibly being uncomfortable #like people have an aversion to adult/minor ships or incest ships because these are real and tangible things that happen and are disgusting #i do feel like people have freedom over what they want to consume/create in fiction although those topics are an ick to me and i avoid it #but also you have to understand people dont like it primarily because of the realistic aspect of it and how it connects to reality #not a one to one but because reality already has these preexisting issues we naturally have an aversion to it #you cannot apply the same logic to like a dragon man x human ship because a dragon man is not going to scoop you from the sky #the ramifications of shipping an immortal and human are nonexistant and do not pertain to reality and cannot be judged on the same scale💀 #well beside from the logic 🐉 is old in body but his mind develops in the way a fae would. and he is described to be young in fae #so up until now i assumed the normal assumption was to say that he is around ~18 in fae yrs by how he interacts with others in his yr #🐉 is like old in the way where hes lived for a long time and understands the passage of time #but hes processed it through the lens of a young person hence why he can come off as immature despite how old he physically is💀 #like are we playing the same game?? if he was a well adjusted fully developed adult with a complete understanding of the world and stuff #like idk trein. none of the events in ch 7 would be happening. its kind of like a huge part of his character that despite his physical age #he IS still learning as he IS still young #i could go into a analysis of his character but thats for another time </33 #anyways i see people . primarily young people. telling their mutuals you can or cant ship this and that #and im like its okay to not like ships if you personally find it uncomfortable but to police ur friends...for ships that arent even 'bad' #its insane to me...how do u live like this? #people really need to start thinking about the nuances and why things are the way they are in regards to fiction #instead of buying into that weird pr*ship/ant*ship thing 😭 ive always hated it its so dumb. my university professors wouldve hated it #theres no nuance like...none. personally i also think its why people have low reading comprehension these days too tbh #life is about looking at various viewpoints and coming up with your own opinion #not 'picking a side'💀 learn to form your own opinions. talk to people around you about it. do not constrict your opinions to black/white #its an extremely dangerous mindset to have even outside of literature and it makes you very susceptible to dangerous ideas/propaganda #anyways what im getting at is learn to have educated discussions with others and come up with your own opinions instead of picking a side #btw there is no right/wrong side in literary discussions. there is no good/bad side either. whatever you come up w someone will disagree #thats why its important to just believe what YOU believe in (and not parrot others💀). and also be open to change

[deviantartidentitydisorder]

im never trying to replicate what you can see in real life and that was something that id get a LOT of crap for growing up because i was really against studying life for art and my parents and any teachers ive had who were teaching me art would get unbelievably frustrated when id say that i dont have any desire to draw real life. i understand the important of studies now, but that's something i still strongly feel. i thin ka lot of people who dont see my vision specifically wonder why i spend so much time drawing the things i do instead of drawing like beautiful women with cats or something and its like i dont know. i dont really feel like replicating soemthing just because other people deem it beautiful. i want to create the illusion of my thoughts being tangible things

#id tell my dad i didnt like being forced to draw from life because those arent the skills im trying to work on and hed say well you cant get #there without doing it!!! and it was so frustrating bc it was like can we just study things i fucking like at least #why are you making me paint what YOU think are good still lifes. can i pick #ive always wanted to go to school for art but i also am just. not interested in learning any specific ways to communicate #i just like learning about how OTHER people can communicate

[poppyseed799]

Confession that will get me cancelled: I will sometimes reference super mario logan videos cuz I used to watch some. and they were honestly really funny if you ignored the problematic bits.

#I AM SO SORRY EVERYONE. but some of those jokes have stuck with me for years. #UNIRONICALLY THE EPISODES HAD A REALLY GOOD FORMULA. LIKE WTF. #I’m not getting over the episode where they were gonna fail the test but Cody let them copy his test #and then the teacher said ‘you did really great Cody!’ he said ‘I got an A?’ the teacher said ‘yeah on all 3 of them!’ #‘YOU IDIOTS COPIED MY N A M E TOO?????’ bro that was hilarious 😭😭😭 #also the episode where Junior believed the Sun was a planet. bro. the plot twist that they sent him to the sun not because they believed him #but because they thought a kid stupid enough to believe you could land on the sun deserved to be sent to it 😭😭😭 WTFF #there are some episodes I remembered really liking but I don’t remember why #and as much as I’d like to rewatch them I… don’t think I can…….. #I think if I went to rewatch old SML videos I’d be shot #also the journey to find the specific episodes would probably be a disaster #anyways that is my confession. I do not support SML or the problematic things in the episodes I liked. #it was just genuinely really funny and clever sometimes. unfortunately. I only watched it cuz my siblings did. side note all the special ed #kids in highschool loved it and I was confused cuz I was also a special ed kid who had seen it like. how did this ableist bs gain such an #autistic following. I’m telling you it’s because the episode formulas were actually really good. this sucks. I wish it wasn’t so problematic

[viderose]

he’s annoying, i don’t like him (he hasn’t given me as much attention lately)

#im fighting for my life out here #i feel so childish and annoying. like rationally ik i can’t have his undivided attention. but that doesn’t mean i don’t want it sometimes�� #i think what actually is happening is that im worrying he’s about to ghost #i feel bad thinking that though. bc he seems like a very honest and mature person? with how he talks abt things i don’t think he would rly #ghost me after talking for this amount of time. but ya never can tell…. every time we don’t talk as much for a few days i get very nervous #and it’s weirdly quite difficult to push that worry out of my head. and then i get annoyed with myself for worrying about it to begin with #like i can’t control what he does so why worry about his hypothetical actions? i’ll deal w the consequences of them if or when they occur. #if we stop talking i’ll feel sad and i’ll miss him for a bit and then i’ll get over it. that’s all. it’s not that bad. #but anyway my point is we good #sometimes idk if id truly feel That sad. i think it depends how it ends. #or maybe i just don’t think anyone can hurt my feelings as much as the first person to hurt my feelings in a specific way #like you experience a loss or betrayal or grief - whatever - the first time and it’s all encompassing. it feels like it could genuinely kill #you it hurts so bad. and every subsequent loss or betrayal or grief you experience just isn’t the same? you barely flinch #maybe it’s because you learn to process those emotions better or maybe it’s keeping things at arm’s length as a protective measure #that means nothing hurts as much as the first thing #idk #this became a silly ramble #im just very attached to him and i miss him when he’s busy but also don’t want to ask too much for fear of being a nuisance or rejected :) #ykwim? #i miss him a lot

[strawbeb]

see. the opening scene of barbie was literally how i played with those cursed baby dolls when i was younger. they annoyed the shit out of me

#idk why people kept getting them for me #it wasnt my parents because they always asked if i wanted something specific #and i was always like i want a toolbox! :) #or a spy kit #or a nerf gun or lightsaber #or those train sets you can. build #i had barbies which i made kiss each other before i knew that lesbianism was a thing #in real life #they also competed in like ninja warrior type things #which was me tying them to a string and throwing them down the stairs #i never had a ken but i had a prince charming with one arm bc my brother broke it #where was i going with this #idk #barbie #anyway this is one of several things i tell people when they ask me if i want children #ask me annoying questions and you get a horrifying image #of five year old me absolutely losing it over a plastic baby that shits and cries

[thethingything]

wait you guys like perfume too ?? do y'all have a favourite maker - 🪲

oh I only really got into it very recently so I don't know that much about it other than like, really specific stuff about certain compounds because I learnt about them in a different context that led me onto learning about their use in perfume.

in terms of perfumes we like, we normally wear Drakkar Noir which was kind of an impulse purchase because we wanted to start wearing perfume and didn't know what else to get, and I do really like the smell of it, but I think it'd be nice to try some other scents at some point to see which ones we like.

I'd like to learn more about how different scents interact with each other and how perfumes are formulated based on that because I think the science behind it is really cool

#ask #🍬 post #currently zooted #this took forever to answer because I couldn't figure out how to explain what I meant with the stuff that I do know about #but basically I got into this by trying to work out why certain floral and fruity smells reminded me of stinkhorn when combined #(stinkhorns smell of rotting flesh and I know there's a sweet component to that smell #but I wanted to know what specifically was reminding me of it) #so I ended up googling what compounds made up various smells and reading about that #and in the process I stumbled across a blog run by a perfumer that talks about death #and the science behind the smells involved in that as well as what scents are used for different death related customs #so it was kind of one special interest leading into another in a really unexpected way #and then I started looking at like the terminology that's used with the different notes used in perfumes #and how perfumers end up considering things like how the smell changes as different components evaporate over time #and I think that's really cool. like with Drakkar Noir you start of with this citrus-y kind of scent from the top notes #and then those fade pretty quickly and you start to get more of the woodier base notes coming through #and then there's the thing of how because different people have different skin flora and therefore their own scent #a perfume will smell different on different people and you might really like it on one person but not on another #and yeah idk where I'm going with this. I'm very rambly but also can't tell how much of this is making sense #a lot of the science behind perfume and creating the scents reminds me of the science behind making different candy flavours #so I also find that overlap interesting #and that also comes back to the death interest because some esters used as flavourings are also components of decomposition smells #especially kind of fruity ones. I think a couple of them are used for banana and pear flavours and scents. so like pear drops #anyway yeah. that's kind of what I've been rambling to 🦋 about

[pyriteplates]

Tbd?

#having so so many au thoughts but i get so nervous talking about it #bc it deals with a lot of different themes of abuse #one thing about me is that i will make guys abuse each other #but i know a lot of people are really uncomfortable with those kinds of stories and thats okay! #and also its like. wowwww they are frogs why are you doing all that its not that serious #but god its fun 😵‍💫 #its always been fucked up in this way but i don't think ive ever really gone into specifics with anyone #i never even write it down because its like. idk i cant admit to myself that I want to make an actually interesting story 🙄 #so i always write and tell people an extremely watered down version #i did make some new additions recently tho! #i didnt necessarily change things like i said I was #i mean I changed some character motivations #which is a pretty important thing #but i didnt change many plot points #aaaaggh idk. JUST LET ME MAKE MY IMAGINARY AUDIENCE UNCOMFORTABLE IN PEACE #like yes yes whatever we all get redemption arcs and happy endings #but pre canon is my fucking playground #au #i think if u look at the lyrics in my au playlist u can probably get some ideas about the whole thing LOLL

[a-rebellious-waffle]

You ever see something where you're very much on someone's side but also you hate how they're handling the argument

Yeah

That

#look i get that telling people to fuck off and die is appealing but like. having been on the recieving end of that before. it's not good #i still haven't forgotten the people telling me to kill myself for the incredibly unpopular opinions of 'not everyone is equally bad' #or 'if they died fighting for a noble cause I'll honor their sacrifice bc even a bad person can do good things' #if you want to ratio them? fine. if you want to talk down to them? fine. if you want to treat them like children? fine. but there's a line #and for me that line is when you have a paragraph of insults with zero arguments within. #i get that debating those people gives them legitimacy they don't deserve. but I also truly believe that in order to fully destroy a nazi #you need to obliterate their arguments. you can't just say they're wrong and tell them to fuck themselves. you need to explain why #because if there's nothing disproving them then there's nothing telling other people WHY they shouldn't believe their shit. #there's no barrier or sign marking the slippery slope and big shock the slippery slope is in fact slippery! people slip! and fall! #look this may be a shocker guys but not every fascist is born a fascist. 99% of fascists are tricked into believing in fascism #I've got a whole post I'm editing specifically on that topic in fact. it's a whole thing. #if you explain to a fascist why they're wrong you don't just guard yourself against fascism. you don't just help guard others against fash. #you might even redeem a fascist and help them see the error of their ways #and even if you don't it's still worth trying! #anyways. rant over

[arkhavens]

it just kinda occurred to me that the whole thing with qui gon and xanatos(qg being the "only one" unable to see that x was going to fall, student with a strong attatchment to their parent, the pair being attached to each other, x hunting qg down after his fall, etc) is paralleled really well w/ obi wan and anakins whole deal.

#GOD also also just had the thought 'the dark skips generations' #dooku then qgj then xdc then owk then asw #i get that thats not how the lineage goes but temporally thats how it went roughly #ANYWAYS #the dots connected bc i was doing that thing where you think about fics ur never gonna write and one concept thats. HAUNTED me #is like. the ' journal ' obiwan has written down all of the visions hes ever had in? #(bc obi wans visions are a source of endless fascination and emotions for me) #and the specific bit was abt him having visions of mustafar over and over in his life; always having the being with gold eyes burning at #his feet blurry and unknowable. #but as the clone wars close out„ hes trying to ignore that some of those features are Familiar. #because surely that cant be anakin? surely those gold eyes Cant belong to the boy he raised? surely not..? #but he thinks he may understand how qui gon was able to miss the signs within xanatos. #he thinks he may understand /why/ qui gon was so broken after xanatos. #|| #obi wan kenobi #obi wan #star wars #anakin skywalker #qui gon jinn #xanatos #someone... tell me if im going nuts or not #bc its ITCHING at me now how similar xanatos and anakin are. #my posts