#but angsty

[unluckyhoneybee]

A big brain (Auston Matthews)

A reunion with your colleagues makes Auston doubt himself. Auston M. x Phd!Reader.

Note: I was thinking of making a few blurbs about this if anyone has requests, but life is busy right now so I can't promise anything (not many long pieces)

There was something on his eyes that you couldn't identify. Auston was looking around the room, watching people and smiling politely when he had too. But he had barely spoken. You were trapped in a conversation, it seemed to be too important although you couldn't concentrate well.

"YN, what are your expectations now?"

"Hmm" You looked at Arthur, your project director.

"Now that we have received the funds"

You smiled and nodded. "Well, I'm waiting for the permits and hoping to start the field work as soon as possible"

"They are on the way" Arthur smiled at you.

"Really?"

"I talked to them a couple of days ago"

Auston saw you from afar. In second, your eyes lit up. Suddenly, you were smiling so brightly it was contagious. But it only made him want to sink on the seat.

"Really?"

Arthur nodded. "You are starting next week, YN"

You gasped and covered your face. Instantly, your eyes looked for him and Auston felt his chest warmer. The good news were obvious. He wanted to be there by your side and hold your hand. But for some reason, he saw you thank the paople around you and scape.

Your heels echoed through the chatter when you walked to him. There were tears in your eyes. Happy tears.

"Auston"

He caught you right when you hugged him, slightly stumbling on your shoes. With his arms around you and his hand flat between your shoulder blades, plus all the joy in your veins, you squeaked and squeezed him.

Auston chuckled a bit and looked around, cheeking to see how people had reacted. A couple of your mates had warm smiles, a few others looked with judging eyes. Only Auston's glare was needed for them to look away. If his girl was happy, no one would have a word on it.

"Aus" You moved back and cupped his face. "We have the funds. I'm starting next week"

Auston's eyes opened like plates and his heart rate picked up. The joy on his eyes was so visible that you could only kiss him. It was heartwarming to see the person you love celebrate your wins.

"Oh, YN" He hugged you tight and tucked your face on his neck. "I'm so proud of you, you fought so much for this" He kissed your temple and caressed your hair.

The rest of the night was bliss. Auston had stayed by your side, his hand always carefully placed on your hip and a polite smile on his lips when your mates talked to him. For everyone, he was the proud boyfriend, for you, Auston was faking. But not his happiness or pride for you. You could see how genuine his feelings were when he looked at you.

You saw his tie fall to the floor and him walking into the bathroom without even noticing. With a sigh, you picked it up and moved it between your fingers. What was going on? Was it the team? Was it a new injury he hadn't told you about? Were there problems back at home in Arizona?

You took your shoes off and knocked at the door. It was half open and you could see his reflection in the mirror, but you wanted to give him space. He was washing his face and his shirt was gone.

"Come in" He said while drying his face.

You walked in and closed the door behind you. "Hi, babe"

"Hi" He left the towel aside and leaned on the counter. Auston knew what was coming. Your concerned glances hadn't gone unadverted.

You took a deep breath and hugged him from behind. He always loved it when you did that, your body was way smaller and you were kind of hidden behind his reflection. Only your arms around his waist showed on the mirror. You kissed the dagger between his shoulder blades and your hand traveled up to his chest, right above his heart. It was beating fast and his skin was warm.

"What's wrong?" You whispered and laid your head on his shoulder, eyes closed and all.

Auston took a deep breath. He had fucked up your night. The dinner with your co-workers, mentors, the project´s directors, ...

"Aus..." You kissed his shoulder and gently nuzzled your nose on his neck. There were no further intentions, just loving comfort.

One of his hands covered yours for a few seconds before bringing it to his lips.

"I love you" He muttered on your skin.

Your stomach twisted and you lifted your head trying to get a look of his expression. Dead serious.

"What happened?" You wanted to retrieve your hand from his. You trusted him like mad, there wasn't a single person who held it like him. He had you on his hands.

"Nothing. Nothing happened" He said, his voice cracking halfway.

Finally, you moved back. His warm skin was suddenly burning you. "You are scaring me"

Auston lowered his head and cleared his throat. Oh how scared he was of saying his!

"You should be with someone else"

For a while, everything stopped. Your hands were shaking and your mind moving too fast. Meanwhile, Auston was still, not moving and barely breathing. He couldn't get himself to look at you.

"Why do you say that?"

Auston gripped the marble hard, his knuckles even turned white.

"Because... Because who am I? Have you seen the people around you?"

You blinked confused and walked to him. A gentle hand was enough for him to give you space. You found your space between his body and the counter and laid your hands on his chest.

"What do you mean, Auston? Why are you saying this?" This wasn't common for him. He was Auston Matthews, he was laid back and confident, he was one of the best.

"You are a genius" His hand came to cradle your face and by pure instinct, you leaned into his touch. "You are so intelligent, you are getting so many things right. You got the whole group funds for a project" Auston breathed deeply. "I'm just a hockey player, babe. You could have someone like you, with a PhD, your same interests, someone you can talk to about your research. I don't have a big brain like yours, baby" His voice was weak and his eyes sad. It truly broke your heart.

"I don't need or want any of that" You whispered. "I need you so much" You sat on the counter and brought him closer. "I need my hockey player" You pecked his lips and hugged him. "If it wasn't for you, I would have gone crazy, Auston. I need you in my life, you bring so much light and happiness to it. I don't want a researcher or someone like me, I want you"

His hands fisted your dress, now without fear of ruining your outfit. He wasn't sure where this insecurity was coming from, but he hated the feeling. It was a different kind of vulnerability.

"And... Don't even dare to say you are not intelligent, Matthews" You said pulling back a bit. "Because this big brain of yours can make amazing things on the ice. You are not less intelligent than me" You pecked his lips again.

He didn't seem super sure of it.

"Okay?" You kissed his nose.

"It's just... You talk with them and I can barely understand what you say..."

You rolled your eyes with a chuckle. "I still don't know what a power play is about"

He smiled and after a couple of seconds laughed. "I like you how you are, I wouldn't change you for anyone"

"No matter how many Nobel prizes they have?"

"Not when my boyfriend is one of the best hockey players in the league"

Auston brought you closer, completely stepping into your space and wrapping you in a tight hug. "I don't know what got in me" HE muttered on your hair.

"It's alright, we all have our moments" You said and tucked yourself on his neck. "Just talk to me, I don't like when you pout and look like a lost puppy"

Auston kissed your temple. "I love you"

"I love you too, Aus. So much."

#auston matthews x reader #am #fluff #but angsty #fic

[brookiedaaroacecookie]

Uzi: “omg is that N? But I can’t talk to him, I’ll make my feelings obvious. Ugh, I’m so bitchy for falling in love with him. I shouldn’t have. I barely even know this guy! And not to even mention, I’m stalking him like a weirdo? Im being so weird right now. A total creep. If N knew he’s never talk to me again. If only I’d died with mo” (going on)

Meanwhile N: I wish Uzi was here. She’s cute. And I love her.

GET IT TOGETHER AND GET TOGETHER ALREADY!

(Referencing chapters 13 and 14 in AO3 Murder Drones fanfic “by chance” by @spero11)

#murder drones #by chance #i love this fic #its so amazing #and I love it. #fluffy auuuu #But angsty #hrhehehe

[s0lam33y]

y’all want a Riri story?

#it’s real angsty tho. #like real bad #no death #but angsty #riri williams #riri x reader #meyspeaks

[alexanderhamiltonhasafatass]

This looks pretty half-assed ngl

#hamilton #alexander hamilton #hamilton art #hamilton musical #aaron burr #hamburr #but angsty

[beautifulterriblequeen]

TDP Prism, Week Three: Dance

Characters: Rayla, Callum, Terry, Claudia, Soren, Ezran, Zubeia

Tags: Character Death, Death, Heavy Angst, the angstiest dance ever, Fear, all the feelings

#tdpprism2024 #tdp fanfic #what if claudia ruined everything au #rayllum #but angsty

[ironwoman359]

Man when I manage to write this iswm fic it’s over for like the 10 of you following me who are into Markiplier

#taylor talks #markiplier #I even made a ship of Theseus reference #but ANGSTY #no one can stop me except for myself

[claracivry]

Added a post canon Kanej coma episode (x) to my hurt Kaz fic! Would love to hear your thoughts!

Also cleaned up some of the mistakes/missing words on chaps 8, 9 and 10 (the post season 2 ones), just so you know ;)

Come get your Kaz whumpppp

#my fics #kaz brekker whump #whump #sab fic #kaz brekker #kanej #but angsty #whump fic

[godheadjones]

Need to know your fave episode/character in Borrasca asap

this wasnt asap im sry but i had tons to do today

okay fav episode is the last 2 (because ep 9 was a part 2 its one long episode in my mind) and those episodes were so good i felt like crying and the way adult sam ended too was like “UM WHAT I NEED MORE” those episodes were filled with so much emotions and questions and answers and i look so forwaed to tjosw episodes every relisten i do and ive done so many relistens

as for my fav character, i think i need to go with kimber. shes so strongwilled like even when they were 12 shes a girlboss she deserves better. i didnt go with sam because i feel like hes one of those kids i hate and find annoying in my class but i get why hes smoking weed all the time as a teen in the late 00’s and he lost his sister but i also like him because he doesnt give up and supports friends even when they are missing and everyone thinks he beat him up <3 anyway i feel like if someone could convince me to like sam i could

writing this made me feel like another relisten because i miss this podcast and i love adult #moretrauma sam <33

#sara asks layla answers #borrasca #borrasca takes #the trio gives me harry-Ron-hermione vibes ngl #but angsty #lol I missed this podcast so much all my feelings coming out

[dykecassidy]

but I really need to hinge on the "his wife got mad at him"

I need to hinge on them having a poorly hidden affair. and chuck is so cocky and open about it, it both reassures Adam, and makes him anxious enough for both of him. and theres always the "well, it doesn't count because..." because they were drunk. because it was just goofing around. because it was a company party. because hes a guy. because he didn't kiss back, not really

and she gets mad at him

#CHUDAM #but angsty #off the cuff

[lejoursobre]

Global warming is wild isn't it? I mean? Warm and salty raindrops 24/7? specifically in Soho???

(I physically can't draw angst sorry I did my best here)

#Good omens #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #aziraphale #anthony j crowley #Comics #Fanarts #Digital arts #I can't with the current angsty mood of this fandom #I'm sorry #I can't follow y'all lmao

[reineydraws]

jason is a grandpa's boy and u cant take this away from me!!! they cook together, they discuss literature together, and when jay comes back, they clean their guns together haha. ofc they celebrate their birthday together too! 😌

✨️🎂 hbd jay & alfie 🎂✨️

#jason todd #alfred pennyworth #batfamily #batfamily fanart #dc #dc fanart #batman #red hood #dc red hood #they have one of those relationships where jason outright says he loves alfred the most and alfred refuses to say he has a fave grandkid #but it's kind of just concensus that it's jason cuz he's the only one allowed in the kitchen #i am also a heavy believer in the hc that for a while there jason wouldnt meet up with anyone but alfred #and theyd meet for tea and stuff outside the manor #i love those fics #i was gonna draw an in-between angsty one where alf has a picnic by jay's grave with tea and cake for two but i dont have the energy 😅 #i was also gonna draw a red hood and agent A one with the guns they were cleaning but again: no more energy 💀 #mb i'll save that one for later. i still love the idea so much. :')

[violet-catsarelife]

Leather jackets are cool okay 🥺

also Dick has unknowingly opened the door to little birds stealing his clothes from him lol. It's a love language 😌

Inspired by ↓↓

that time Discowing wore a leather jacket:

and this precious panel of baby Jay:

#dick grayson #jason todd #robin jason todd #nightwing #VioletDoodles #dc fanart #robin jay is adorable in a leather jacket #little guy just wants to be cool 🥺 #also fyi #I was so tempted to end it with an angsty cut to red hood's bloody jacket #oh well

[perpetualcontrolleddrowning]

Something something the way that Crowley introduced himself to Aziraphale the first time they met in the garden and reacted as if they had never met before. Something about him later behaving as if he did actually have those memories of their time in Heaven together and trying to pass it off as being someone different now. Something about Heaven's way of punishing angels that go against the plan by erasing their memories. Something about Crowley seeing Gabriel without his memory and saying "ask him properly." Something about "remember it now" "it hurts, to remember. my head isn't built for that" "I know. Do it anyway"

Something about "I know. Looking at where the furniture isn't"

Something about I know

#gomens #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens s2 #good omens spoilers #fan theory #all i'm saying #is that crowley seemed REALLY familiar with the process of losing and regaining memory when it's been taken #and i think it would be fun to make it even more angsty #if crowley pushed himself again and again until he was able to remember aziraphale #and now he remembers heaven and all that it was #and he wants nothing to do with it #and Aziraphale is going back

[ski-ip]

skin and bones

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi fanart #farcille #marcille donato #farlyn touden #falin touden #farlyn #dunmeshi #delicious in dungeon #can you tell i love angsty shit #experimental #what even is composition

[lorehappy83]

"Grant me your wrath, my dear. For I've become unworthy of your forgiveness"

#cw blood #cw: blood #here we go again #ineffable angst #good omens #good omens fanart #aziracrow #aziraphale #anthony j crowley #crowley x aziraphale #the angel broke his heart #so now its his turn to do the same #there is a song perfect for this one #but i couldnt find it #long live angsty pieces #ineffable husbands #ineffable divorce

[forgotmysword]

Doomed from the beginning

Unknown / Marguerite Duras / Blanca Varela / Ramona Ausubel / Anne Carson / Heather Havrilesky / Michael Cunningham / Lisel Mueller / Richard Siken x Dungeon Meshi by Ryoko Kui

#my tragic sweetie pie elf girl you will always be famous #i want to study her under a microscope #maybe ill make a nice and not angsty web weave next of farcille #we will see #but for now have this im going tf to sleep #marcille<3 #marcille donato #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi spoilers #my posts #web weaving