#but that's just me i guess

[bragganhyl]

not to sound bitter or like a party pooper but I can't really bring myself to be excited over epilogues being added with patch 5 bc uhh... that should've been in the game on launch imho

#hablaty #bee gee three posting #maaaybe just maaaybe games should be shipped when they're finished #when they're fully done #but that's just me i guess #lmk when that actually happens i finish this pt as is and won't be touching it again anytime soon if ever

[sassenach082]

for the word game - “wingman”

"He's my wingman, sir."

Bates looked pensive, leaning back in his chair and steepling his fingers. Tom wasn't sure what he was looking for in his face so he kept it as neutral as he could, wishing the bead of sweat wasn't rolling down the back of his neck to itch between his shoulder blades. If he moved know Bates would know how close to home his question had come.

"I see," Bates said, quietly, chewing on his lower lip without actually seeming to see him at all. "That will be all, Kazansky."

#solomon bates loves to torture ice while they're not the same rank #he knows perfectly well tom will get promoted over the top of him sonner rather than later #but i headcanon him as a) a little shit and b) mav's second-biggest cheerleader #like my man's fist pumps were adorable okay #sassy answers asks #i'll ride au #i aso headcanon he's called warlock because he has a way of staring into people's souls and then they say things they don't mean to #but that's just me i guess

[non-binharry]

Hoping for the day when chavy Louis (which he is so it shouldn't even be debated) discourse stops mentioning Harry and how he's "not even that gay and Louis is actually gayer". Like leave my girl and her man alone!!!!!

yeah!!!

#if i could do one thing it would be to go back in history and tell louis not to describe himself a s flamboyant #because SOME of y'all have never let that go and it's been an entire decade #and have decided that louis has a whole secret private persona based on one single word #on a related note i wish the people who love to claim that harry's own self expression doesn't affect anything about them #only to then turn around and say ''but also everything harry does is for profit and he's not actually like that irl'' #i wish them a very special eat shit #couldn't imagine constantly invalidating someone's decade long journey of self acceptance because i'm dissatisfied #that someone wears tracksuits #but that's just me i guess #anonymous #mensaje mensaje

[bubacorn]

sometimes my brain is like when your pet brings their toy to show you, going 'hey, don't be sad. look, here's this prompt, what if you made your blorbos sad, then gave them comfort?'. it's kinda cute, especially at times when i feel like i'm starting to run out of ideas or don't have many that i feel like writing. for once my brain isn't mean and i've got a fic idea

#those ideas just appear out of nowhere and develop really fast. and usually end up really fluffy. or really sad. or both. #but that's just me i guess #bringing the big sad and the big soft #but mainly the big sad

[awne]

So, as expected, Armin came to Candy's dorm to talk through what happened but Candy denied everything. And Armin answered that.

"Really? I'm talking about when you stuck your tongue in my mouth"

This is hilarious, the guy doesn't beat around the bush and wants to get his girl back!! No time to loose!!

#my candy love #mcl armin #on the other hand how they are absolutely not embarrassed by the fact of speaking about it in front of Yeleen lmao #i would have been like 'let's talk in the corridor' or outside if I were Candy because that's... kinda private #but that's just me i guess

[cookinguptales]

tbh in Muppets fandom... idk, I feel like I just wanted to make people feel the way I felt when I watched the Muppets, especially the OG Muppet movie. I wanted people to feel seen and loved and hopeful. I wanted to write something sweet about people who loved each other, and I just... idk. I wanted to make people feel good.

I’ve struggled for pretty much my entire life with both mental and physical health (along with neurodivergency) and there have been times when it’s been very difficult to have the ability to love myself or feel hopeful or peaceful or happy. But the Muppets made me feel like there’s a sort of wistful, lonely beauty inside everyone that connects us, and we’re just reaching for that all the time. A lovely sort of potential, you know? That rainbow connection thing. And I wanted to tap into those feelings and make other people feel them, too.

And... idk, I guess that’s what I’m usually trying to achieve with my fic. I like writing things that are sweet and hopeful and loving, and idk. I just want to make people feel happy. I want to make people feel secondhand love and affection and joy. The world can be such a shitty, lonely place sometimes, and I just want to put something nice into it. Like. Just one nice thing. Small, but effective.

I can’t make my body work, I can’t make my brain be nice to me, I can’t solve all the troubles of the world. Back in 2014 when I wrote that fic, I couldn’t fix the injury that had pulled me out of the best academic opportunity I’d ever had. But... I could make one small nice thing, and I could make people a little bit happier. And that made me feel like I had some control over my situation, and I could improve the world I lived in. Just a bit.

idk man. Just thinkin’ tonight. About silly little fanfics and knowing I can write darkfic, I can write things that Mean Something, but getting so much more enjoyment out of writing things that ache in the best possible way.

idk. just wanna clear away the clouds and write a few rainbows of my own, I guess. 

#I like to feel like my fic has achieved that #I'm not looking to change the world #just cheer people up a bit sometimes #it's something that I've found meaning in as I've gotten older #and I am no longer embarrassed to have this deep drive to make people happy #at least a little #but that's just me I guess #going on again on a saturday night lmao #I should get back to farming #just me

[kimjiwoong]

also I'm just absolutely confused as to why you'd want to read something where a person you're supposed to like hurts you

#rose.txt #but that's just me I guess

[lesbian-disaster-academic]

i used to be so good at writing strong, thoroughly-researched, thoroughly-edited essays.

as a kid in hs, my teacher literally came up to me, holding my 40 page essay on the intersection of the European witch hunts and capitalism/exploitation/gender roles (it was supposed to be 7 pages...whoops) and went like "this is literally a master's-degree level thesis. what are you doing?? you could literally use this as your final dissertation in a master's program, what the fuck."

NOW??? NOW?? you'd think I'd be oh so skilled. but alas. i can barely piece together two ideas. adhd skill-regression is so so real. im SOBBING

#this is just me ranting sorry #im very tired and hungry #and i want to sleep but brain go brrrrr #well i used to be nice and smart and now im neither of those or however the song goes #pretty sure he was exaggerating cause looking back. it was good. but some of the wording was a lil wonky #adhd #actually adhd #executive dysfunction #actually neurodiverse #adhd paralysis #adult adhd #attention deficit hyperactivity disorder #adhd hacks #academia #neurodivergent #adhd skill regression #confessions of a burnt out gifted kid #<< i guess #former gifted kid #burnt out gifted kid #gifted kid burnout #realizing i sound rly pretentious here sorry -- formal speech patterns i picked up as an autistic child and never put down again haha

[skellydun]

I don't think I'm meant to be employed. It really cuts into my goofy silly haha time. and it makes it nearly impossible to have any wow life is beautiful let me take it in time.

#guess what our employee appreciation gift was. a chair. 100+ dollars on a camping chair for each HQ employee? why not just... #i was just like gee. glad u appreciate me. u ever heard of how companies can shower u with free swag but it doesnt distract from the #horrible culture??? #like yes dont give us that 100 dollars but give me an ugly chair with our company logo that i had to lug up a hill. #im just tired of this aspect of HR i think. need me some new scenery

[goldensunset]

did you know? if you do your laundry you can get your clothes back

#fascinating stuff. let’s see if i (person with the worst executive dysfunction when it comes to doing laundry) remember it #i literally have this issue where i’ll let dirty clothes pile up in the laundry basket for an entire month #like it takes me that long to get around to it #and then- who would’ve thought- i find that i don’t have anything good to wear. strange! #finally did it last night and i’m like ohhh that was so difficult but the payoff finally #augh #peach rambles #hall of fame i guess #shut up about socks. idc. #this was a fun positivity post of sorts it’s about overcoming executive dysfunction #derailing into jokes about losing socks is. it’s not horrible but just boring and annoying #it was supposed to be celebration!! and encouragement!!!

[cyberiapinksosa333]

“wtf is wrong with you”

you mean like today or like in general?

#girl blogging #delulu #sorry for textposting #my text #text post #let me live in my delusions #delusional #toxic relationship #female manipulator #im just a bit silly #im just a girl #writers on tumblr #cybercore #weirdcore #angelcore #sadboys2001 #y2k #angelic #funny i guess #funny texts #girl blog #it girl #lana stan #lana del slay #lana del rey aesthetic #lana del ray aka lizzy grant #just girly thoughts #just girl stuff #just girly things #just girlboss things

[nousanti]

Lately I did wonder if you did it all to make you feel desired, for love to replace your shame.

#mithrun #mithrun dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi spoilers #idk how much this drawing gives away but just in case I guess #hi im still cryign about mithrun #yeah its been over a month yeas #more tamino lyrics also DONT BE MAD AT ME #dugneon meshi fanart

[ssaalexblake]

and every time i see emi/lia fox in some show i cannot help but wonder if the monster of a cousin she has is the family embarrassment or if he's just the only outspoken one out of a bunch who agree

#Personally if that were me i'd have issued a statement saying that if he goes near me i get a Huge can of raid and #spray it in his face just to avoid association #but that's just me i guess #(p sure they're cousins but idc enough to look it up)

[mroddmod]

everyone be quiet i'm manifesting

#the bad batch #tbb #star wars #star wars the bad batch #sw tbb #tbb omega #tbb wrecker #tbb crosshair #tbb echo #tbb tech #tbb hunter #mods art #mods draws #my art #YAYYYYY ITS DONE #i've been tinkering w this for like a couple weeks now i think #just on and off #whenever i was nervous about their fates or just generally sad about them i would work on this #it was supposed to make me feel better but it would usually just make me more sad 😭😭 #but i still really like how it turned out!!! so that's cool #very self indulgent but!!! whatever #i think i'll add this to my inprnt soon too :) so keep a look out for that i guess lol #okay byeeeeee #ALSO THE NEW EP WAS SO GOOD #okay bye fr

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!! #because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that! #it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs! #so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't. #when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation. #and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job) #because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme* #and yes. walking out isn't always possible. #but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap. #stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole