relating to marianne sheridan is feeling awful about yourself until someone wants you, needing someone else's validation to feel good but never getting it, hating yourself but also thinking you're the smartest person in every room, achieving but things that don't even matter that much to you just to prove to yourself and everyone around you that you can, the constant need to show everyone that you're worth something but still always feeling like you're never doing enough, wanting to work more but not being able to make yourself do anything, gifted kid burnout, feeling alone most of the time, feeling like you were born sad and can never be truly happy for a longer period of time, wanting to end it but being in love with life...
OKAY BUT WHEN CONNELL AND MARIANNE WERE IN SCHOOL AND CONNELL ASKED MARIANNE TO NOT TELL ANYBODY ABOUT THEM IS LITERALLY "YOU KEPT ME LIKE A SECRET BUT I KEPT YOU LIKE AN OATH" OMGOMGOMG