#dam i feel a lil dumb

[multishipperofgaydeadwizards]

Hello ladies and gentlethems, guess who is back?

You know who should be a ship? Lily and Marlene. Like omgg they'll be THE couple. Ok not the IT couple cause in my mind that will always be marylily. But like the couple that no one saw coming but it makes so much sense and they're ruling the world now.

1) It starts off with Lily going to watch her practice (but nope she will never admit it she is just there to read mhmm)

2) OHH for the sake of dumb oblivious sapphics, (a lil love note to @her-midas-touch ) Lily thinks she is only going to the practice to watch James cause duhh all his flirting is finally starting to sink in or something but omg why is Marls flirting with me. Oh wait- she flirts with everyone. BUT WHY AM I GETTING AFFECTED BY THISS REMUS HEEELLPPPP

3) I think once her initial crisis is dealt with, Lily will start flirting back (which will in turn send Marlene into a crisis of her own cause omfg how to respond when someone that isn't Sirius flirts back sjndsjdkfnjd). I'm so dam sure that Lily will rope Mary and Remus into helping her get Marlene to admit she likes her too

4) Their dates would be so cliché but like thats the best part. Think riding in the same broom and watching the sunset in the clouds, sitting in the library and Marls watching as Lily gets excited and over focused interchangeably over books, ohh they would so go to Madame Puddifoots just to like beat the heternormalcy of it all.

5) Lily would absolutely lose it when Marlene wears a suit. But then, Lily wears one and Marls is dead. She is deceased. Slay in Peace gurl

6) Late night swims and wild flower bouquets and books with dog earred pages that open to silly doodles and kisses to joined hands and secretive smiles across the table and Lily wearing Marls's quidditch uniform and Marlene wearing Lily's hair tie in her wrist. That's them.

7) Their ship name would be something like... I actually have no idea what the hell my brain is empty halp

LILYLENE/FIRELILY!!!!!! they have my entire heart fr

1) absolutely. that girl would rather die than admit that she's there for marlene (or anyone for that matter. she has a reputation after all)

2) so real of her. dumb oblivious sapphics have my entire heart btw. she would be freaking out at first bc how could she let james get to her like that??? oh god, she's so much better than this (she is, but she doesn't know that yet). her running to remus is so real of her. moonflower supremacy

3) oh absolutely. marlene had the biggest gay panic ever over it

also, yes. lily gets everyone involved (with the exception of james who would tell marlene the second he gets drunk bc he would feel bad about keeping a secret from his "sister")

4) hejsbs9eh9b I NEED a fic of them just going on cute dates :(

5) lily thinks she's entered heaven or something (she has). marlene knows that she has

6) it so is. it absolutely is

7) I will stand by firelily 🤧

#the lover with the great ideas #marauders #marauders era #marauders fandom #lily evans #marlene mckinnon #lilylene #fielily

[jvten]

homesick (a lil thing from love, decay and mayhem) (it's a flashback tho)

ELLO- so normally whenever i post snippets or oneshots, it's mainly from Beast, but today i figured i'd showcase something from Love, Decay and Mayhem which is basically My Friendly Neighborhood but in an apocalyptic setting i guess?? i dunno man i'm tired

for context, the puppets from MFN and Al Gerzwald, as well as Vi, left the studio because they ran out of supplies. they barely escaped a monster (although that isn't mentioned in the snippet cos im dumb lmao), leaving in a sky-ship they had found, and are now leaving home for the first time.

warnings: nothing too serious, just fluff and comfort because vi's feeling homesick, although she does cry a lil omg my poor baby ;A;

characters: vi (oc), ray and ricky, + gerzwald mentioned at the end, small mentions of the other puppets as well as gerzwald's wife who is also an original character

· • —– ٠ ✤ ٠ —– • ·

The noises and various clangs and thuds from the engine room made Vi stir from sleep, and when they didn’t stop, the fifteen year old girl wandered out of the room, trying not to let the new orientation of her bedroom in this skyship throw her off. She followed the noises until she found Ray at work tending to the engines, attempting to understand them as this was their first night operating it. The large red muppet hadn't seen her walk in.

“Ray…!’ she shouted over the cacophany he was making, covering her ears. “Ray! Ray!” Only when she called a third time did he hear her, ceasing his work on the engines. “Sorry, I— Could you maybe keep it down? I’m trying to sleep…”

Ray looked at her blankly for a second, then nodded, placing down his wrench. “You… Sleep?” he asked, as always being a muppet of few words.

Vi shook her head. “No… I don’t think I can… It’s not because of you, it’s just… I’m not used to this skyship yet.” She sighed, clutching her arms tensely.

The red muppet nodded again, allowing the two of them to exit the engine room. “You — okay?” Ray growled, noticing how much more tense the young girl was now.

“N—No… I mean, I’m… I’m fine, I just…” she stammered, feeling tears flood her eyes. And before she could get another word out, she choked out a sob, unable to hold the dam of emotions, and she broke down crying in front of Ray.

Surprised at first, the red muppet hugged her as she sank to her knees. Vi curled up into his fur, crying into him. Ray knew all too well about how she was feeling. It was the first time any of them had left the studio.

“I’m— I’m sorry,” she gasped, trying to rub her eyes but to no avail, the tears kept falling. “I just… I miss home. I miss the studio. I miss Renee and Pearl and—and Goblette and— I… I wish things could be normal again…”

Ray let out a growl of understanding, gently patting her head. “Miss… home… too.”

They spent a while sitting in the hallway, with Vi slowly settling down and Ray letting her curl up against him the whole time. Vi had hoped no one had heard her crying, she wouldn’t know what to say to them or what excuse to give… She’d hardly cried throughout her life… but ever since the apocalypse started, ever since Renee — the woman who was most like a mother to her — had left in search of other survivor colonies… Vi felt more suspectible to her own sadness. And while she only intended for Ray to know what she was feeling, it seeemed someone else would.

“Vi? Vi? Where are—” called a voice from the ventilation, and a sock puppet poked out of the nearest one. “There you are!” Ricky exclaimed, but must have realised that Vi had been crying because he crawled out of the vent and approached her and Ray. “Hey, what— what’s happening, Vi? Are you okay?”

Vi sniffed, unable to form an answer, but Ray did so for her. “Home… sick,” he replied.

“Oh…” Ricky understood immediately, and crawled up to Vi, who picked him up and let him sit on her shoulder like he always would. “Yeah, me too, Vi. I’m pretty sure we all are. And it doesn’t help with Al shutting himself in his cabin, huh?” When both Vi and Ray nodded, he chuckled a little. “I miss the studio too, don’t worry. Cos you know what?”

“W—What?” Vi stammered.

The sock puppet gently nudged the side of her face. “We all still got each other, and I think that’s still pretty good.”

Wiping her eyes, Vi eventually nodded. “Y—Yeah. I… I guess you’re right.”

The three felt themselves too tired to move to a proper bedroom after that, so for pretty much the whole night, they fell asleep in the hallway — Ricky curled up on Vi’s shoulder, with her lying against Ray who leaned on the wall. And when Gerzwald eventually emerged from his room, he was surprised to find the three of them asleep. But he figured to best not disturb them, instead draping a couple of blankets over them.

It wasn’t just those three who were feeling homesick. All of them were. The other puppets… even Gerzwald himself.

But they had each other. And that would mean a lot in the long run.

#jay writes #wip: love decay and mayhem #my friendly neighborhood #mfn ricky #mfn ray #original character #oc #writing snippet

[caroldantops]

tw drugging n slight somno

when i tell you i have not stopped thinking about that accidental drugging trope since i found it. you know the one where it’s like they get expose to an agent and ofc only side effect is extreme horny™️. just like laying in bed after and whining for natty but the drug is making you a lil sleepy so nat’s cooing at you like “my poor dumb baby. aches so bad doesn’t it?” maybe she’s mocking you a lil because you can’t help but grind against the blankets, “bad puppy, if you wanna feel good you gotta beg your mommy.” and then the whole dam breaks and you beg unashamedly “please please mama no one else can fix it only you please m gonna die if you don’t touch me” and she tuts n rolls her eyes at you “dramatic.” while she pushes strap deep inside you making you groan loudly. “shush baby, gonna make you feel all better, just rest and take what mommy gives you okay? i know you’re so sleepy honey. are you gonna be able to stay awake while mommy fucks this sweet pussy? oh i know you are, my baby pup is so good at following orders” just like the softest praise while you try n stay awake for her. but even if you can’t, she says smth like “i don’t mind if you fall asleep precious, just makes you mommy’s perfect fleshlight doesn’t it?” and and i swear i could write/think about this forever i’m obsessed 🔑

actually drooling over this im so hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

#🔑 #c: natasha #thirst tag #drugging tw #somno

[magnorious]

A Titan’s Curse Retrospective, 16 Years Later

Lightning Thief and Sea of Monsters **Spoiler Alert**

When I first got my hands on this book, I looked at how thin it was and worried that each consecutive book would be shorter than the last. Titan’s Curse is the off-beat middle episode of the five, occurring around the winter solstice instead of during summer break.

It was never my favorite, but I remembered liking it because it felt darker. I remembered that, for the first time, characters we were supposed to care about were dying on the page. The gods were up close and personal now, at the heart of the quest. There were guns in this book, destiny-challenging decisions to forestall the Great Prophecy for a little while longer.

And, of course, Blackjack, the Dam Snack Bar, Fred, Rachel Elizabeth Dare, and the arrival of the di Angelos.

Maybe that’s just nostalgia talking, ‘cause I’m pretty sure that when it came out, before HOO, Titan’s Curse was dead last on everyone’s tier list for one reason: Annabeth is absent for most of the plot, and Zoë is kind of irritating.

—

The Titan’s Curse

We open immediately to a much more serious tone than before, and a timeskip unlike before. The growth of Percy and Thalia’s relationship happens entirely offscreen between books, which is a bit disappointing. During the gap between TlT and SoM, the time in between books was filled with school, details unimportant to the plot. Here, though, we’ve missed some potentially juicy plot beats like Thalia’s reaction to the passage of time, her meeting Percy, another illegal demigod, her reunion with Annabeth and discovery that Luke turned traitor.

Maybe, if the Disney show makes it that far, we’ll get to see those missed opportunities on screen. But you do start the book feeling like there was a chapter left on the cutting room floor.

Doubly so, they spent at least a couple months together before chapter one, enough to build a rapport and make a confident team together, and yet Percy somehow has never seen Thalia manipulate the Mist before.

Sixteen years later and it is buckwild even seeing Nico’s name dropped for the first time nine pages in. He’s not even in the book for more than the first couple chapters and right at the end for the big reveal. He was nobody’s favorite leading all the way up to House of Hades four whole ass books from now, just an eager little kid, then a bratty little goth wannabe, then an angsty goth wannabe.

Getting flung back to lil’ wide-eyed and bushy tailed 10-year old Nico is sobering. He was such a little nerd with his Mythomagic figurines and cards and dumb, dorky 10-year-old questions.

**Side note - in my SoM I falsely recalled that the Grover empathy link never made a reappearance and I am pleasantly surprised that it does get mentions here, even if it doesn’t do much.**

—

The opening fight, while thrilling, is held back a little by Percy’s continued ignorance. He’s fourteen, he’s been at this for two years now, and he’s still the last to find things out (for the benefit of the audience). Before, it made sense, he was young and inexperienced, but if he’s out here leading raids and rescue parties, he’s got no excuses to not be doing his homework and I wish Riordan had come up with a different method of getting exposition to the audience this time around.

Immediately after, enter the Hunters’ blatant sexism and I’m left scratching my head on why I remember liking this book so much. It’s off to a rather rocky start.

It’s not so much that Artemis leads a club of eternal tweenage virgins. The Hunters are a sanctuary alternative to Camp Half-Blood and it has its pros and cons. My problem, especially as I’m older reading this, is that Artemis gets Bianca murdered promising her a break from her horrible, no good, very bad baby brother, and there’s no reckoning for that.

There’s no alternative to her statement of only being patron to girls “before they go astray” like the moment puberty hits Artemis kicks these hedonistic sinners to the curb. Thalia sure hates them and calls it stupid (before joining them in the end) and Percy makes his opinions on Bianca’s selfishness clear, but beyond a reluctant approval of Percy after he almost dies holding up the sky, there is no “yeah our club isn’t actually as awesome as us snooty girls think it is”. Artemis is still a good guy, so are the hunters, and their ideology is never challenged.

Bianca dies! She’d still be alive if Artemis hadn’t been a predatory patron, snatching her up in a moment of weakness and ripping her little brother’s only family away because, by nature of being a boy, he sucks.

In other words, she doesn’t get to be painted as a decent goddess when she’s no better than Hera and Zeus with her strawmanning. Especially when Apollo and, heck, Dionysus, show so much more humanity in this book.

Artemis is just so hard on the poor kid and thank the gods Percy didn’t die before he could save Nico from himself. Nico would have absolutely joined Luke and burned Olympus to the ground without Percy’s intervention, and it would have been Artemis’ fault. “Yes, boy. You see, Bianca di Angelo is not the only one with an annoying brother.” My good bitch, who do you think you are? He’s 10!

It is abundantly clear why the Nico di Angelo Protection Squad found such strong footing. The whole nexus of this series is the gods’ neglect and the first 70 pages of this book are a stellar example of what Luke’s been yammering about this whole time.

—

As always, the foreshadowing and subtle reminders are solid. Tyson’s throwaway line about the Princess Andromeda heading toward the Panama Canal so it can eventually reach the West Coast, the reminder of the dragon that scarred Luke’s face via souvenir claw in the Big House attic. The reminder that Percy’s sword Riptide has a tragic past and all the hints that Bianca and Nico are children out of time as they suddenly remember forgotten details from their past and Bianca’s lucky strike on the skeletons.

Oh, and this poignant little nugget from the souvenir pile in the attic, a tag attached to a broken sword hilt: “This broke and Leroy got killed, 1999.” I can picture Leroy’s surviving friends staring at that broken weapon and having nothing more to say than that, and abandoning it to collect dust in the attic.

Percy is still rife with realistic, humanizing flaws. He’s jealous of Thalia and suffering an inferiority complex, mucking up the di Angelo rescue mission thinking he can do it on his own, and then the capture the flag game, and then going off on his own during the second quest that’s not about him. His rivalry with Thalia, the only demigod that can go toe-to-toe with him in terms of abilities, is something fresh for this book. Thalia’s like a less obnoxious Annabeth because she doesn’t suffer that Athenian hubris making her a know-it-all.

—

Bianca fits right in with the Hunters, not missing her little brother one bit (stone cold, girl. Stone. Cold.) Acting like a sudden expert at the Ping Pong table counselor meeting. I know she’s been groomed by a selfish misandrist but she’s not long for this book and it has done nothing to endear audiences to her.

She gets worse when she has her first minute alone with Percy and he reassures her that abandoning her baby brother is perfectly fine so long as she’s happy when… no? Percy took like, two weeks to come to terms with being a demigod and an entire quest. Bianca takes two days and she’s rearing up to go on a quest to save her cult leader.

She explains that she’s raised Nico all her life and wanted to experience something outside of caring for him, even though she knows it’s selfish of her to just up and abandon him, his feelings be damned. Thing is, it is selfish. I feel zero sympathy for this girl and I doubt she fully understands what she signed up for. She will be twelve forever and Nico will, theoretically, grow up, grow old, and see her only a handful of times in their lives before he’s dead. All because he’s a bit irritating at his age and she wants a vacation.

When she dies not long after, the point of her character even existing beyond being Nico’s motivation gets a bit muddied. Artemis and the Hunters aren’t punished by the narrative for getting her killed, she doesn’t die doing anything spectacular and she wakes the very monster that kills her trying to get a trinket for Nico, then she’s dead.

Trying to be independent set her on the path to dying young, feeling guilty about abandoning the only family she had left is what sealed the deal.

—

The original cover art! The ‘07 American version with Percy and Blackjack in indigo. TLT’s art didn’t pull from any one specific scene and SoM was more inspired by the rope bridge with Polyphemus on the sheep island, but TTC’s art is ripped straight from the page and I love how it has both nothing to do with the title of the book and is totally out of left field concerning Dionysus (and I think the best moment of the book).

The scene in question is Dionysus interrupting Percy and Blackjack’s pursuit of the questers in Manhattan, showing more agency in that moment than he had in the past two books. He tells Percy about Ariadne and why he hates heroes (because they’re selfish) alluding to why Zoë hates heroes. Percy has been quite self-important in this book, but he's no Theseus, not even close.

The settings in this book aren’t nearly as colorful as the previous two, and the same goes for the monsters along the way. It’s winter and it feels like it, in more ways than one. There’s human mercenaries, the grey skeletal soldiers, the Nemean lion that doesn’t talk, Talos that doesn’t talk, and a few other oddballs.

The junkyard of the gods where they fight Talos has wonderfully creepy and foreboding vibes. Things that get thrown away there are abandoned for a reason.

All the quirky sense of adventure that existed before is gone this time around and while I enjoy the tonal shift personally, I don’t know that it was the best choice to make for the series as a whole. The lack of “color” is made worse by all the other irritating and frustrating elements.

The best elements remain the most off-beat ones, like Apollo in incognito mode, the Dam snack bar, everything I remembered from reading this as a kid, along with Dionysus’ moments and Dr. Chase.

TTC’s prophecy is solid, and since we get it at the beginning this time, we get to wrack our brains trying to solve it along with the cast. It’s not as ambiguous as TLT’s prophecy, but I like the cadence, how long it is, and how ominous it is – right off the bat, you know two people are dead this book.

Five shall go west to the goddess in chains,

One shall be lost in the land without rain,

The bane of Olympus shows the trail,

Campers and Hunters combined prevail,

The Titan’s Curse must one withstand,

And one shall perish by a parent’s hand.

—

Zoë is… frustrating. I hate to go all “not all men” but jeez, girl, not all men. She even says those exact words herself as she’s dying. So much bitterness and resentment in her long life. Why couldn’t Artemis be a good patron of immortal tweenagers and find them a decent therapist? I’m lumping her in with Artemis for their antiquated and frankly ridiculous pontificating. I get that’s Artemis’ schtick; doesn’t make it fun or interesting to read.

Zoë is a victim of godly propaganda and her death is as tragic as Bianca’s, the fate of heroes little more than divine chess pieces tossed aside at a whim. Her memorial as the new constellation is poignant, it just unfortunately was given to a character more frustrating than endearing. Her whole arc in this book is appreciating that not all heroes are awful thanks to Percy, but she struts around like her sh*t doesn’t smell.

Zoë hates heroes because Hercules did her dirty, Thalia hinted that Annabeh considered joining the Hunters because of Percy, and Dionysus told Percy he’d never stop being selfish and self-centered and the thing is he’s… not?

Yes he messes up at the start of this book but they’re kind of strawmanning him, like by nature of being a boy and being a Greek demigod he’s doomed to be exactly like his predecessors when he’s shown no indication so far of using and abusing people. His fatal flaw is loyalty. Annabeth was never going to be his Ariadne.

—

The villains plan here is solid, Riordan has a good track record of walking the line between complex and contrived. They needed Artemis to hold the sky to get her away from the Solstice meeting so the gods wouldn’t be productive. To get Artemis, they made do with using Annabeth as bait. Then they needed Bessie and an illegal prophecy child (Thalia, the oldest) to trigger the prophecy two books early. It almost works, until Thalia dips out of turning 16 by becoming an immortal fifteen-year-old at the last possible second.

The villains also use mortals this time, and mortal weaponry – guns and helicopters and mortal mercenaries. They don’t do much, none of them even get named, but they exist and they help make this book a little grittier.

—

Despite all the above complaints, the book doesn’t fall to middle-chapter syndrome. The story is fast paced and gritter than the two before it, the battles are all well written and unique. It’s not a bad story by any means, it just has some frustrating elements that dampen the enjoyment. The slower beats aren’t between Percy and Annabeth this time and Grover spends a lot of the book mooney-eyed over the moon goddess so he and Percy don’t get a lot of solid moments either. Thalia is too prickly to let her guard down long enough for a deep conversation but she almost gets there.

Major characters die this time and the approaching war feels that much closer, delayed for now but still looming ever over our heroes. I do like the characterization of the gods this time around being much more involved in the story. When Percy and Annabeth do finally reunite, matching grey streaks in their hair, it's cute and fluffy and a great way to wrap up the story before the Nico reveal, and what a reveal it is. It's not Thalia, unambiguously older, it's Nico, definitively younger leaving you antsy that, still, Percy might not be the prophecy kid after all.

#percy jackson #pjo books #pjo series #pjo hoo toa #titans curse #percy jackon and the olympians #retrospective #review

[realhankmccoy]

Me from Marshall, sick of how redneck bumpkins and my dad (who at 70 still asks me for help on spelling basic 4 letter words in his only language, English)... sick of dad and those who hate 'pretentious' language: 'whilst, amongst'

Some spoiled brat with a PhD from international wealth and parents with PhD who set his whole life up for him to be stupid in: YOU JUST SAID WHILST OR AMONGST THIS PROVES YOU ARE FROM ELITE ELITE AND SHAME ON YOU! SHAME! EXCLUSION! SCOLDINGS SO MANY SCOLDINGS!!!

Me from Marshall: ok amongst and whilst really triggers these fundamentally sexist spoiled males who want every peg slammed into every hole on their Fisher Price outlook on life, so it would be good to use it and also to learn French and start using a lot of that. French pisses them off too.... to them the culture and language is 'feminine' and 'pretentious'… so you know, it doesn’t hate women as much as them and it’s more serious about trying to put caring socialism into the world than Nietzsche or whatever Randian bullshit in defense of the strong makes them feel ‘serious’.

All that's really going on is these are hateful patriarchs to which being nice and caring about others is seen as 'juvenile'. They think there's a lot more 'serious' things going on. Well, sure, I mean nuclear armament is serious. The Three Gorges Dam is serious. Fighting over Ukraine is serious. But seriously, what's more serious is sharing and caring and nuclear disarmament.

What's more serious is being the type of human being I wish I were.

It doesn't take much, kids. Some of you have such bilious, spoiled personalities that I wish I were the opposite of you all the time.

The French make me wish I were them... openhearted, shy, and making you feel good about yourself -- seriously putting forth the effort to empower you rather than belittle and diminish you or tell you you're trash or shit or inferior to your biological brother -- so I'm over here.

The French are the opposite, in other words, of Dad-Bruce-Boi-Cameron-Bro-Josie.

That crew was controlhearted, fraudulent (seeing me as a stupid mouse they could stroll in on), overconfidently bold and brash, and trying to make me feel bad about myself as if I never was doing enough, never am enough

when Josie shopped for shoes, she'd tell me 'if you have time to lean, you have time to clean' which she picked up from going to that movie about how McDonald's was started.

Josie's large marathon-running fish-pale flubby thighs with bulging veins even inform how i feel about my own body -- not wanting to be her. Wanting to be the opposite of her.

Josie was very much disliked by most of her coworkers, including ones she'd try to throw in my face to show her own worth. I, at least, was popular and liked by everyone for whatever that was worth... probably because most Americans do have room for a doormat in their life, which is the toughest job in the office, in my opinion... getting stomped on the head all the time.

I keep all these people in mind as examples of what to be the polar opposite of. Merely by being the polar opposite of them, I find myself loving myself and making inroads into new territory of abilities, interests and creativity.

Those were not a creative bunch of people. Weird in their ways, sure, but I would consider them fundamentally oppressive to creativity due to their toxic Americanity and their notions about 'harsher is better, tougher is better, patriarchal is better' which is too Calvinist and dumb for me.

It makes em feel like good lil boys and gals tho. IM SO GOOD CUZ IM SERIOUS. No you're not. That's the whole problem and that's the problem with STALIN and HITLER and those who think gun ownership makes em serious. Like fuck off and perish, you're a primate picking fights or a primate with a firestick and that's hardly my notion of ideal human behaviour -- I wouldn't consider it very human at all.

[wildlycuriouswanderercj]

3/12/23

sunday 

got gelled up

looking good

still cant talk to her prperly

all isaid was sup joana

and she gave a half hey

dam. 

not smooth..

sad

then i thought

well its all for fun

and never about the money

its all for good enjoyment

to meet new people

and build bridge

not to get girls anyways

building bridges...

 dont rush

do the jjob slowly

today i hit around 131 sales

and got like 80 connects 

i will work slower

i will make sure it do the job with precison

i will not take things too serious

its nothing personal

see today u can talk to tree ni like nothing

u asked her hows her day

got to know when she gets off..

and u told her when u get off...

yeah im lil wearing the mask

i say things like hang in there..

sounds like canned material

rather say something like.. u wanna trade? 

ill get off at 730 and u get off 6?

thatd be funny..

see ur not being urself again..

ur like being a robot..

and maybe franckesa said was true

i mean she said it so casually

im the last on the list lol

i guess im the last on her liist

but yeah idk..

i thought i had it

but i dont.

and i feel so lack of self esteem 

i just cant be my true self here

idk why

maybe uz i dont get drunk lol

but all for reals..

like...

its gonna shift

we gotta do better if were here to stay

and dont every have a huge piled of hanger

and omg

come to think of it

its so dumb.

sold the vest an got 600

ok done

[they-write-once-in-a-blue-moon]

Once Upon A Time You Said I Love You

Sirius Black x Reader Angst

Words: 701

Warnings: Angst (Idk how to warn this without spoilers)

A/n: Ho ho ho! @wonderful-writer​ happy Christmas from your secret santa! So I wrote you a lil Sirius angst cause you said you like angst idk. I don’t normally write angst (cause I don’t think I’m too great at it) but this was fun! I hope it’s not to crappy (Secret santa arranged by: @johnmurphyisqueer​ and @hyperion-moonbabe-art3mis​ thank you both this was really fun!)

Happy holidays everyone, I hope you had a fun and safe time!

You had planned a small picnic for you and Sirius as a kind of date to celebrate your one year anniversary. It was now forty-five minutes past the time you arranged to meet by the black lake. A bad feeling started to bubble in your chest. Something wasn't right.

‘It’s too cliché’ you kept repeating to yourself on your way to the Gryffindor tower ‘things like that only happen in books’

Not bothering to knock you opened the door to the marauder's dorm, the moment you look inside, fiction turns to fact. 

There’s Sirius, your boyfriend of one year tonight, with some Hufflepuff girl on his bed, their tongues down eachothers throats. 

“S-Sirius?” You stuttered out blinking rapidly trying to see if you're just having a nightmare but the look on his face when he snaps around to see you is so perfectly Sirius that it can't be a dream.

“Y/n!” he jumps off the bed, his white shirt open showing some forming hickeys. You’re regretting everything, regretting every second you spent with Sirius Black.

You didn’t know how to feel, how to think. You didn't know if you should scream, cry or both. You ended up just shaking your head and walking away.

‘He’s not worth your emotions’ You thought as you walked out of the common room, faintly being able to hear him calling after you. You didn’t know where you were going, nor did you care. 

Sirius had caught up to you. You felt his hand grab yours. The touch sent an unpleasant shock up your back, it was like he ripped the spine of a book, the one thing keeping it together, holding everything in place. Turning a once beautiful story into a mess of memories and your stoicness broke.

“Don’t you dare touch me!” You shouted, your emotions forming rivers of tears on your cheeks “I should have known this was going to happen!” Sirius was taken aback, you rarely snapped like this, and never at him.

“Please Y/n, it's not what it looks like!” Sirius tried to plead with you, his eyes wide. It felt like you were in some romance novel, one where you don’t get a happy ending.

“Oh please, don’t give me that crap Sirius, whether it is or isn’t what it looks like you were still up there snogging some girl” Your hands were shaking, you had too many feelings racing around your body “While I was outside waiting for you to come spend time with me for our one year”

Sirius’s eyes went wider “Y/n, I’m so sorry, please let me expla-"

“No!” You cut him off, not wanting to hear a story for what he did, truth or lie "This wasn’t the first time was it? Gods I can’t even look at you right now.”

“I wouldn’t never do that to you, I love you too much to lose you,” he said “We’ll figure this out, just hear me out!"

“Sirius no, ‘we’ won’t figure this out, cause there is no more ‘we’ ” You shut your eyes tight and took a deep breath.

“Sirius, I tried to ignore it, to ignore you constantly flirting with other girls. To think of it as you just mucking around”

He just looked at the ground, Sirius knew there was nothing he could do or say to deny what he had done.

“I’ve heard all the stories around school you know? of ‘Sirius Black the player’ and I did my dam best to ignore them, to think that it was all about the old Sirius” you had dropped your voice down, running out of energy for this very quickly.

"But there is no old Sirius is there? I was just dumb enough to think you would change for me, like you said you would, but it would be too cliché for me to be able to ‘fix the bad boy’ to have him love me” You turn your back on him to start walking away, but looked over your shoulder and said:

“Cause once upon a time you said ‘I love you’ but it was just fantasy.” You walked off, leaving Sirius alone in the cold hallway, paintings sharing looks of shock.

#HMA 2020 Secret Santa #hp #harry potter #hogwarts #sirius black #sirius #sirius x reader #sirius x reader imagine #sirius x reader one shot #sirius black imagine #sirius black fanfiction #sirius black one shot #sirius black blurb #sirius black drabble #sirius black x reader #sirius black x reader fanfiction #sirius black x reader one shot #sirius black x reader imagine #marauders #the marauders #hp marauders #harry potter marauders #marauders era

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Matchups?!?! Schyooom here I come looking for a man 👁👁 (mha or hq is fine, you pick). I’m 5’1”, with straight dark hair down to my waist, and hazel green eyes. I’m an Aries/ENFP. I’m bubbly, friendly, and have a good sense of humor. My aesthetic is everything pink & girly 💖 I’m a clumsy DISASTER and not very athletic, but I love watching/going to sporting events! I always excelled in school— now I’m a healthcare worker 🩺 I can be super hard on myself and tend to be a perfectionist (1/2 💕)

I enjoy drawing, watching anime, eating, margaritas, and sunny days. I’m a hopeless romantic and a sucker for good looking boys. I don’t have a particular type, but I like guys who are driven, hard working, & loyal 🥰 bonus points for a lil height difference lololol size kink come thru. Thank you so much Meg bby take your time no rush or just ignore this aha okay ily bye (2/2 💕)

NESS legit I wish I could express how much love I have for you. when I saw you sent this in I was so excited I couldn’t breathe i would never ignore you hello?. Also ???? You’re shorter than me???? I feel like Hinata when he met Noya. what if I pick both especially since you take my thirsty asks anyways I love you pls accept these matchups bc I spent a lot of time with them to hopefully make you smile so yee~ 

I match you with Ejiro Kirishima!

You guys would be such a great couple that Bakugo can barely stand to be around how cute you two are

Though, he loves that Kiri absolutely adores you 

He’s not that much taller than you, but he still loves hugging you from behind and nuzzling his face into your neck probably to kiss it a couple times too

He’s very much into PDA - but not like the gross stuff, but things like holding your hand, cuddling you, throwing an arm around your shoulders… he basically will keep at least one hand/limb on you constantly - he strikes me as a very physical person

Especially when you’re alone. He loves being the little spoon because he likes to be held... it kind of feels like a breath of fresh air to him, you know? saving people can be really hard sometimes

Since you’re so great with school, you and Bakugo have study sessions together, though usually Baku just goes ‘tch. I’m leaving’ when Kiri starts to get all heart eyes towards you

This boy absolutely is head over heels in love with you. He often gets this far away look when he’s not around you and both Kaminari and Mina tease him about it

He gives you the most cheesy, romantic, goofy poems and love quotes ever 

He definitely drink him dam respek woman jooce

His favorite date the two of you ever had was when the power went out and you had a little picnic in the living room by candlelight. He loved the way your features glowed in the soft light. Honestly? That was the day he knew he was in it for the long haul

Once he becomes a pro hero, you being the number one stan you are, you buy a lot of his merch and wear it around to support him he really likes it

He likes to think he’s an artsy person so he suggests drawing competitions all the time… though obviously yours wins because his turns into a smudgy stick man

Wow he’s good at kissing… the first time was a bit awkward, but you two fit so perfectly together that it makes your knees weak

You work in healthcare? Imagine taking care of him after he gets hurt during a mission. Does he fake his hurt sometimes? Maybe. Do you still ‘help’ him? Absolutely.

Honestly, this guy thinks you’re his entire world and he’s not afraid to show you off

BONUS: You and Mina vibe so well together… like seriously… girly, pink, bubbly???

EXTRA BONUS: The man would be such a supportive s/o that he would legit wear a tutu and thigh high boots if you asked him to

I match you with Tobio Kageyama!

Okay, pretty opposite personalities but I love the look - like HELLO he’s almost a foot taller than you

The day he’s old enough to drink alcohol you convince him to have a margarita and he’s like ‘WHOA’ boom favorite drink right there

Also he loves sunny days, though he would never ever admit it especially to Hinata bc sunshine boy because he doesn’t like showing his soft side to people

Though, I like to think that the second he met you he wouldn’t stop talking and he was so confused???

This boy is so hardworking that sometimes you wish he would chill out and just relax on the couch with you

But!!!! He really loves manga and anime, so all you have to do is bribe him with that and cuddles and he’s THERE

Speaking of cuddles… the man is touch starved okay. Though, he very much dislikes public displays of affection. When you’re around anyone else, he’ll barely hold your hand. But when you’re alone boy are his hands all over you

You like that though, especially because it feels like a more intimate and personal relationship

He really likes to laugh at your jokes - I promise you’ve gotten him laughing so hard that he couldn’t breathe for a solid 30 minutes. 

THE INSIDE JOKES - you try to get him to laugh around the boys because no one believes that he actually does a lot but you haven’t ever been able to… except...

Once you were with the Karasuno team and he looks you straight in the eyes and goes ‘no he he i don’t want to pee pee’ and everyone freaking LOSES IT, including Kags

He’s so awkward omfg

The first time he tried to kiss you he missed and was so annoyed with himself he sat there for 10 minutes blushing like mad - though, after you kissed him he felt a lot better still red as a tomato though

He doesn’t really know how to …. Deal with the girly… but he loves you for who you are and actually has a pink shirt to match you occasionally

You both can get pretty hard on yourselves, so you have this thing where anytime someone starts doing that you hold each others pinkys and have to compliment yourself while staring each other in the eyes…. It was some dumb thing Suga suggested, but it seems to work

BONUS: He thinks it’s ADORABLE that you’re such a disaster omg bc he is too let’s be honest

EXTRA BONUS: Hinata actually loves you so much and Kags gets even more annoyed by him if thats possible... but he has no idea why until you’ve been dating for several months and Tanaka teases him about being jealous

I match you with me!

Will love you unconditionally

A hoe for dumb jokes

Is not a boy but will still hug you real nice

honestly? 4/10 would recommend 

.... 5′5″ 👀

sadly is only into men but will still be better support than most

#i probably spent way too much time on this #ness is incredible #im sorry im dumb #kirishima #kageyama #ALSO IM SORRY FOR THE GIF FOR KIRI #it made me laugh

[thesnakeadventures]

OFF LIMITS - The Friend Zoned Dinner.

Hey guys this is the part 2 of my 4 part series "OFF LIMITS": Friend Zoned Dinner.

If you haven't read Part 1 click here.

After all the interactions Jo, Xin and myself became pretty close friends.

Where we had dinner regularly and talked about anything under the sun.

At one point I could see Xin was really trying to get close with me, although my target was Jo.

But, potential booty call. I can't complain there.

Although Jo and I could share a cab her bf usually picks her up, so Xin and I usually spend more time together. Eventually 1 time we decided to play some 1 to 1 bluff dice game where the loser has to choose either Truth or Dare..

Some how luck wasn't really on my side this time and she asked what was my darkest secret that most may not know. I told her about yoni massage and she seemed rather interested as she kept asking me more questions regarding it.

Then came her turn, asking her about her darkest kink. She mentioned it was to be groped and touch in public by someone she knows but not in a relationship with.

We were sitting side by side in a dimmed corner, I was tipsy a lil and there goes my hand.

Me: Like this?

As  I placed my hands on her thighs

Xin: umm...a bit more intense ba..

We continued playing our game with my hands on her thighs..

After another round where she had to take a full shot, I started using my fingers to slowly roll up her dress. Feeling her soft silky thighs and rubbing my hands on them gently. Blood quickly rush through my veins giving me a hard on instantly. I decided to go for it by moving my fingers below the dress with only the dim light covering them.

we paused the game for awhile as we were listening to the live stage music.

I could feel the area near the honey hole getting more moist, thought that she was just perspiring...

As I slid my fingers through the door, more liquid started flowing in and she started getting wetter...

Me:  wow so serious uh?

Xin: It's been sometime, since I last..

Me: Want me to take care of it?

Xin I was expecting you to.

I pulled her closer and whispered "Be a good slut and take off your bra & panty before we leave"

She got up quickly and headed towards the washroom.

I quickly called for the bill cos I know what's up next :)

After settling the bill, we waited for our ride.

My fingers at that point really got too itchy and decided to poke her pussy as we wait..

The back of her dress started to have a big round patch from all juices that dripped from her pussy.

The ride came, decided to give her a break from the pokes. She grabbed my arm and hugged it with my hands right over her skirt. Guessing she wanted more..

I leaned forward and started talking with the driver... as my fingers slid in more, teasing the honey pot..

while conversing, I asked..

Me: hey so hows the camera? more safer for you now days?

Driver: err its okay la, usually just records the front. So you guys can just continue.. just don't dirty it.

At this point, I was pretty surprised he knew and he told me its pretty common around this timing..

Me: hahaha... ok thanks I guess..

I started fondling her breast more till its all perky, she was a tad shy since its in-front of a total stranger but liked it the fact she was being groped by someone she knows...

Xin: hey out of me and Jo who would you pick for a girlfriend?

Was totally off guard on that and I blurt out Jo's name.. What a dumb answer -_-

Me: cos I rather fulfill your kink of playing someone whose not in a r/s with you..

PHEW! HENG AH! I gave myself the Official "Save a Fuck" title.

As we made our way to the hotel lobby, I told her I didn't bring protection.

Xin: It's okay, I'm on birth Controls..just cum in

She gently smiled while mentioning cum in.

My eyes opened extra wide with the thought 'CREAM PIE! CREAM PIE! CREAM PIE!"

Then I came to a realization how slutty she must be in bed.

As we walked out of the life and head towards the room. I gave her a back hug and telling her from this point on till morning she is my cock slut.

I quickly used both my hands to pull out her dress shoulder knot exposing her silky back.

Xin: wei.. don't..

Me: you're my cock slut remember?

Xin: tck...

As I grabbed her hand and pulled her towards the room, she used the other hand to cover her boobs.

Stranger: WOW!

Xin quickly took the room card and dashed towards the room. By this time her dress came off as she didn't hold on to it properly.

Got so turned on seeing those butt cheeks wiggle as she ran.

As I walked into the room, she slammed the door shut!

Xin: What were you doing?!! Cannot Wait??

Me: You wanted public remember? Don't complain le..

Xin: HMPH!

she couldn't control but smiled when she heard those word..

Dam this wild chick..I pushed her towards the wall. Pinning her hands together on top of her head.

While the other hand grabbed on to her neck. From the get go we started to make out intensely right at the door step. She pulled off her hands and started fondling around my body.

What Happened next? I'm pretty sure you all know =)

This concludes the end of Part 2. Stay tuned next week for Part 3.

#eroticblog #eroticsingapore

[seungcheolsthighsss]

Park Chanyeol Police Officer AU

Yall dirty minded chanyeol stans this ones for youuuuu, get ya holy water ready boys and girls and join me on this rollercoaster of emotions ;) { the imagine is long  soooo if yall are just here for the smut part you can skip the flashback but if yall want to find out how you and officer park meet i suggest reading the flashback;) }

Member/Group : EXO’s Park Chanyeol Genre: smut Warnings: BDSM

* FLASHBACK *

 You were just about to leave work and close up the shop when you had heard a very important message on the news. The message was stating that their was a man around his 40s, brown hair , dark eyes, was roaming around on the streets and he was no in his right mind. Of course you were immediately scared and did not want to walk home, You also did not wanna walk home because you knew you would be walking home alone and with some guy roaming around in the streets you did not want to even move from the shop. You knew that you had no choice but to walk home so you grabbed everything that you had at work and began to lock up the shop.  You started to walk home with an uneasy feeling in your stomach almost like their were butterflies in your stomach, but not the good kind of butterflies.  Halfway through your walk home when you had felt that you made it through the night with out witnessing or finding the creepy guy the news had warned people about you remembered you had to walk by an alley way soon on your route home. You stomach dropped when you remembered this, of course this was not a problem before or even when it is daylight out but because of the news, you were terrified to walk by the alley. However you kept telling yourself that you would be okay, it worked for a bit before you had realized that someone was talking in the alley way and as stupid as it was you looked down. Your stomach had probably dropped for the hundredth time that night. You saw that the guy the news had warned you about was holding a knife to the others guys face. You immediately called the police knowing that the victim would not be able to even move a muscle “ hello yes hi there is an emergency on 24th street and i’m pretty sure it is the guy the news was looking for, No sir i am not in danger myself but a man that i assume was passing by is” after they had told you everything would be okay and they were on their way you calmed down a little and was no longer scared to walk home after. You looked down the alley way and you saw that the victim was now alone, this freaked you out because what would u tell the police officers. Would you say he had ran off?, Say that he had left the guy alone and went about his night?. Your thoughts were interrupted by someone holding your wrist “ so Missy you like to be a snitch don’t you, calling those dumb police officers to come save you and your little friend”.

You wanted to tell him off and push him off you, but who were you kidding you were to weak and scared to do anything. All you could do was pray and hope that the police showed up soon that way this psycho man would not be able to hurt you. “maybe ill just have to show you a lesson to not fuck with a man like me” you saw him pull out his pocket knife once again and press the cold metal against your neck. At this point you were in tears to scared of what he would do to you. “please just let.. let me go please i didn’t do anything to you “, “oh but you did , you called those dumbass cops and now i’m gonna go back to that fucking jail” with every word he was pressing the knife slightly harder against your neck. You felt the little cut developing further and further. Suddenly the pain and pressure stopped “SIR STAY ON THE GROUND AND DO NOT MOVE” you opened your eyes and were relieved to see the cops handling the situation and you no longer in danger. There was 3 officers two male and one lady. The ladys name was “ji su” from what you could read from her name tag and the officer helping her was named “ Kim Jong In “ the other male officer was the one who was coming up to you “hello miss i am officer Park are you hurt in any way “ you were both still in shock of what happened but also in shock because the officer was extremely good looking. You knew you should not have been thinking things like this during a serious time but you could not help but notice and take in how good this man looked in his uniform. “um just a little cut but I am pretty sure it is nothing to stress about”. However Officer park had seen that there was a good amount of blood dripping down your neck “ oh my god your bleeding “ he said swiping the blood of your neck with his thumb. “maybe you should come back to the station we can fix up that lil cut up plus we will have to ask you questions anyways” he said. You don’t know why but you got flustered maybe it was from his touch or because he was just so god dam attractive. “um okay” he gave you a small smile. Officer ji su and Jong In were in one car with the victim and you were in the other with officer park. There was a weird silence but he broke it “so before i start to go all officer on you in the station why don’t we get to know each-other” you couldn’t help but smile “sounds good to me” “well to start off i am Chanyeol, Park Chanyeol” he said as you were stopped at a red light “ i am (Y/N), (Y/N) Y/L/N)” you smiled at him. You noticed that he kept stealing quick glances at you. and you felt yourself blushing. “your a very cute girl (Y/N) its a shame that the crazy man hurt you” in that moment you felt your face go completely red. Chanyeol looked away but you saw the smirk plastered across his face.

END OF FLASHBACK

and that’s how you now arrived to the police station and you both climbed out of the cruiser and walked into the police station. You sat in Officer Parks office and waited for him to grab all the paper work he needed in order to write down the questions he needed to ask. You had to admit seeing him sitting in front of you in that police uniform, you almost thought that god had finally blessed you with a hot man in your life because you did a good dead and you were nottttt mad at allll. “so (Y/N) im just going to ask a few questions and just answer according to yourself and what happened at the crime scene “ you nodded your head stealing a few glances at his body , he was pretty tall, nice legs, a nice butt too he was legit a whole package “i know you like what you see but lets get through the questions first alright” he smirked at you and you nodded your head “okay so first off why did the criminal attack you?”. You told him that it was because he heard you call the cops after all the serious questions of where you were the whole day, the type of connection you had with the victim and things like that. But then his questions got a little more personal “Are you currently seeing anyone?” “no officer “. Once you said that you swear you swear you saw his eyes light up. “would you like to be seeing someone?” he asked while biting his lip. In that moment you were instantly turned on “why don’t we finish this interview tmrw” you nodded your head he put the papers he was holding down and walked to the door and locked it “just in case” he said and you knew what would come next and you were not going to stop it. Chanyeol had walked to you and put his built arms on each side of the chair his body now hovering over yours. He smirked before placing his plump lips on your neck leaving little marks. You couldn’t let out a little moan half because of his lips but also because you had found him so hot from the beginning and now with him hovering over you, you couldn’t help but be turned on. he pulled away crashing his lips onto yours. His lips were hunger for you to kiss back but you being the tease you are you didn’t kiss back right away which only caused him to place a hand on one of your breast applying pressure eager to get you to both kiss back and to hear your moan again. His kisses became a lot harder and more aggressive but you were not complaining. “officer park I don’t think this is very professional” you said with a smirk, as you now pushed Chanyeol in to the chair and you were now the one hovering over top of him and you pulled his handcuffs out of his back pocket and twirled them around your fingers “maybe i will have to punish you” you saw his eyes light up as if he got an idea “i am the officer here so i think it is my job to put these on you. Chanyeol started to rip your shirt off you and the slowly pulled your pants and panties off you he then handcuffed your arms behind your back “ah what to do with someone so beautiful and sexy” he bite hip lips, his lips now on your chest working his ways down all the way to your hips to your inner thigh stopping inches away from just where you wanted him but when you thought that he was gonna eat you out you were immediately wrong when he inserted him self into you without a warning and thrusting fast and hard without giving you time to adjust but you did not even care having Chanyeol thrust into hard was giving you so many good feelings and he was for sure hitting all your good spots making you moan more and more with each trust “what a tight girl” Chanyeol was grabbing your hips holding you up as he thrust more and more into you, his big hands holding your hands with a tight grip leaving slight scratch marks. Chanyeol started to kiss you roughly as he thrusted into you just turning you on more and more, his hands now moving from your hips to your ass grabbing it tightly. Your hands chained up was now making you beg Chanyeol to let them free so you could use them to pull chanyeols hair and give him pleasure to he saw this and smirked knowing that you were turned on and frustrated. Just as you were going to hit your climax chanyeol pulled out smirking at you and freeing your hands from the handcuffs “what a shame “ he said walking away but before Chanyeol  could leave you all turned on you pushed him into the chair now taking the handcuffs into your hands “I don’t think so officer maybe you should learn how to do your job for now I will show” you handcuffed Chanyeols arms to the chair you kissed him eager to make him moan and make him say your name. you unbuttoned his uniform shirt and placed kisses all over his chest and made your way down to waist band “hmmm what to do what to do” you said as you brushed your hand against bulge and you heard him take a sharp intake of breath. You began to take off his pants and boxers and you just smirked you spread his legs open and took his cock into your mouth running your tongue over the tip making him moan “dam (Y/N) oh my oh” he stopped halfway as you started to take all of him into your mouth bobbing your head up and down making him now moan way more and more you looked up at him and say him throwing his head back and closing his eyes tight “im going to cum “ he said you just smirked and bobbed your head faster as your hands worked moving up and down and finally he had cummed. you smirked up at him wiping your mouth “and that’s how it’s done officer Park” you un cuffed his hands and once again his lips were on yours biting you lip and swiping his tongue across your lips asking for entrance which you gladly gave he slipped two fingers into you “im not the only one who should cum today” he said with a wink you closed your eyes his fingers working fast and once again hitting all the right spots it didn’t take you long to cum due to all the stimulation you had before. Once you cummed chanyeol licked his fingers you both got dressed again and he looked you up and down and handed you his number “we should definitely go out again” and with that he slapped your ass as you walked out you could not stop smiling at what had just happened. I guess you could say that night was farrrrr from boring and by the looks of it the rest of your nights would not be boring either

 welp this took me at least two days to write i wanted to make sure that all yall chanyeol fans would be satisfied and i hope you guys are feel free to send in requests because my inbox is dryyyyyyyy love all of you <3<3

#chanyeolsmut #chanyeolimagine #park chanyeol #exo scenarios #exo imagine #exo reactions #kpopsmut #kpop imagines #kpop reactions #requests open

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1, 4, 5, 9 ,18, 20, 36, and 40 for rein and you

Aaaaaaa thank you for sending these in!! 😊 I love giving my big guy the love he needs-----1. How do they fall asleep? Wake up? Any daily rituals?-We usually fall asleep with me laying on top of him, his hand either in my hair or rubbing my back. Waking can be anything from me on the floor, to me hugging his torso like a koala hugs a tree. Lots of bedhead between the both of us, but mostly me because I'm an active sleeper :b Once we woke up and I was like... completely flipped. My head was where my feet were and I didn't not remember moving that way. Our only ritual is cuddling and watching Let's Plays before and we nap!4. First impression of each other? Was it love at first sight?-My first impression of Rein was that he was a strong man, emotionally as well as physically. I watched the shorts before I played any of the game at all, and his short was the only one to make me tear up. I felt so deeply for him, and I guess that's what lead his first impression of me to be that I'm a very kind-hearted, emotional person. I guess we were both right? :V5. Nicknames? Pet names? Any in-jokes?- He's my Knight, and we have an inside joke where his damsel in distress, but he knows that my gender is kinda... Three question marks in a row. So he tried to come up with a male version of damsel and he just went "Dam.... Damn." And we laughed for a long time about it, even though it's pretty dumb. He calls me Liebling, love, darling, and I use just about every affectionate name for him 💕9. Do they discuss big issues? Religion? Marriage? Children? Death?-We both tend to dislike being told how to live our lives and we're very stubborn people between the two of us 😂 So we don't talk much about religion, as far as politics or anything, we're both for people being and doing as they're comfortable, as long as nobody is getting hurt. We've discussed marriage before, but he gets very flustered, so it doesn't last long :b Children we've talked about for sure, because we love kids and both want them! And death talk makes us both uncomfortable, so we shy away from that mostly. 18. What are their dates like? How long do/did they date? Do they ever feel the need to take a break from each other?-Because of work we don't have too much time for dates, but we manage to find little moments together, taking walks in the warm weather, going to amusement parks occasionally, having candlelit dinners. If one of us wants to take a break, the other completely respects that! After all, I'm an ambivert, and I need time to recharge :b 20. What does their home look like? Their room?-Our dream home together would be something like a cabin, cozy and warm, preferably by the water somewhere. And our room has... The biggest possible bed to fit both of us 😂 It's so comfy and great! And he lets me hang up my art to decorate the place, since he loves looking at it.36. What’s their greatest strength as a couple? Their weakness?-Our greatest strength is the passionate protection and love we provide for one another. We're a very supportive couple, and are always there for one another, no matter what! I think our weakness would have to be the fact that stubbornness can sometimes affect our communication. We're both hard-headed lil shits and when we're determined it's very hard to get us to change our minds, so naturally some disagreements we try to settle don't exactly settle completely ^^' 40. Any special memories? Do they have a special place they like to go to?- Our most cherrished memory, at least for me, is the moment I met him, and this dream I just had. Seeing him in all his glory for the first time and feeling my heart soar... 💕 And in the dream we were on opposite sides of an Overwatch team, and we stood with me in my spawning point, him just on the other side of where I would heal. We looked at one another with our hands pressed against the glass, and that shared longing... Sigh. Thank you so much for letting me indulge with these, I appreciate it!! 😊

[closertotheclouds]

TELL ME YOU LOVE ME (DEMI LOVATO) ALBUM REVIEW

coming in hot bitchhhhhh!!!!

I have already expressed my emotions with SNS, TMYLM and YDDIFMA because we all know those snatched my soul and I’m now a fucking GHOST

3. Sexy Dirty Love - okay bitCH but DID i ASk neon lights is fucking shOOKKKKKK this song is what NL wanted to be but her mom said no makes me wanna go to a club and dance on some strange man

5. Daddy Issues - I can’t fucking believe. This song. “you’re always unavailable” wow Demi why don’t you just @ Joe how bout that for fuck sake *sighs* I’m okay but barely breathing

6. Ruin The Friendship - now this one got me fuck up………i feel its heavily aimed towards Joe because they still got feelings there they clearly keep ignoring (thanks ya fucks) but at the same time kinda about Wilmer (prior to them becoming a thing???? circa 2011) but my little heart screams Joe Jonas this is about you you dumb fuck plus them trumpet horns in the back be fire

7. Only Forever - this is for sure Wilmer in between the time of 2012 and 2013 when he was not exclusively dating Demi and she be like you’re a dumb bitch it’s me or no one else them ghostly af background vocals be making me feel like am about to be possessed

8. Lonely - wowowowowow shade to Wilmer to the fucking 6th degree like is he okay??? does he now need a skin graft procedure bc Demi just set his ass on fire and walked away with half his money and the dog he bought her like dam fuck it up bitch tell him what’s up also feel like this was written between the time she was dating that Brazilian man we don’t speak of but all know who i speak of also lil wayne can choke anYWAYS

9. Cry Baby - okay melanie martinez vibezzzzz her vocals be fire on every one of these songs but ooooooooohhhh the vibe of this one reminds me of the unbroken days for some reason???? the riffs i guess??? idk bless me my ultimate savior Demi Lovato serve me some fucking emotional slut realness

10. Games - FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK……..THIS IS THE WILDFIRE OF THIS ALBUM IT’S GONNA GET SLEPT ON I FUCKING FEEL IT BUT Y’ALL BETTER DON’T @ OR TRY ME I’LL FUCK Y’ALL UP……okay I’m fine “I date men but you’re acting like a little boy” oh demi demi demi pls run them over with your new car sponsorship bitch make them suck YA DICK HONEYYYYYYY

11. Concentrate - come thru fucking guitar come thru HWGA demi i see you 2009 bitchhhhhhhh then punch me in the face with some 2011 real TEA!!!! i’m fucked from this song she’s really out to murder me but also I’m confused who this song is about……..feels every “I’m gonna talk 4 of my ex’s try to guess ya dumb hoes” but good to know we now have a soulful song on the market about orgasms….thank you queeennnnn

12. Hitchhiker - starting off a song with oooohh yeahhhh okay tAKE IT DOWN A NOTCH I WANNA LIVE THOUGH THIS!!! this is my fave song on the album….why you may ask? it’s giving me John Mayer vibes but 10x times you remember that one time she said she wrote with him??? it’s like this is the song or some shit idk but play this while you’re driving down a nice scenic route with your fave bad bitch ya know???? NICE

Now, this album is bomb. The producers she hired for this album were giving the most and that’s all I ask for thank you so muchhhh. Her vocals…..come thru grammyyyyyyyyyyy. That’s the tea I got for this I’ll be taking my ass to Target tomorrow morning and purchasing both the deluxe and original simply bc my boo is serving gahgah gah FACE on the album covers. Pls do yourself a favor and stream this album and bless ya ears AMEN

#demi lovato #tell me you love me #album review #summary: its the shit go buy it whats new did you expect me to hate it

[vexitious]

Okay, so I was cornered into taking a “class” except I was given no further info. I show up to said class, I’m handed a big stack of papers titled “Communications Course.” Doesn’t sound very interesting but I’m already here so what the hell, I’ll stay. But then the word ‘Scientology’ is mentioned and I notice that the packet is littered with this name: L. Ron Hubbard.

It made me feel so uneasy, but I thought, I just gotta get through this one time and then it’s over with. I can do it one time. So we start doing the TRs which are training drills you do with one other person sat across from you. I was really trying to understand all the concepts because I’m here anyways, I may as well give it a good solid shot. No point in doing it half ass cos I’m not gonna get this time back anyways. I was also trying really hard to get the word ‘Scientology’ outta my mind but I couldn’t lol that word put off so many alarms in my head.

But whatever, I spent an entire day doing this shit. I’m talking 10 am-7 pm with a 30 min break in there. My brain was so fried when I finally got to leave, I just went off by myself and cried in the dark lol. I was very exhausted.

The next day comes, they go “okay! ready to get back into it?” My brain: hell no, leave me alone pls. My mouth: yeh, sure. of course.

So we finally finish the TRs and I’m thinking thank the good lord above I’m outta here but they go “you did great! but now we get to do it all one more time to make sure u rly got it down!” No. And that’s what I said. Well, I started with “do I have to?” Lmaoo, I’m so dumb. I’m an adult now, it’s okay to leave situations. You don’t owe an explanation every time.

But they sat there and debated with me for like 30 minutes about how I had to finish the checklist cos if I didn’t then I wouldn’t finish the course and if I didn’t finish the course it would make me feel b a d for leaving something unfinished. So I actually said “I’ll be completely honest with you. It’s the fact that this is scientology that’s putting me off. It makes me extremely uncomfortable. I gave it a shot but I am done now.” Then they went on and on about how they aren’t trying to convert me and they weren’t trying to push any religious agenda on me, it was only just a course.

I mean, this shit had me so fcked up I had tears in my eyes while they were trying to coerce me back into it. I don’t know how, but they eventually “allowed” me to be done. It was so dumb, I felt trapped but the door wasn’t locked. I had complete freedom to walk out the door anytime but I was having some kinda guilt trip I guess. I don’t ever cry in front of anyone ever, so the fact I was so close to just breaking down and sobbing like a lil bitch says a lot like dam, I don’t know why that had me so messed up.

They kept saying “what changed? you seemed so excited and happy to do this yesterday; who did you talk to? why don’t you want to do it anymore?” lmao I had all these feelings yesterday but I could suppress them all bc I figured it would only be one day. I could handle that. But it was the fact you wanted me to do it all over again. I didn’t have the mental capacity to sit through it all again.

I think I may have even come across as judgmental and I didn’t mean to but fck, I wanted outta there so bad. I didn’t want to bring up that I had a problem with Scientology cos I didn’t wanna offend anyone. I’m not apart of any churches anymore but I still believe in God and all that. Does that mean I think somebody who doesn’t believe in God is inferior or has less credibility? Hell no! Not in the slightest. Believe whatever you want, it’s none of my business. But I guess in this situation, I felt deceived and since no one mentioned it was Scientology beforehand and I only knew once I was in the class put me off and I felt lied to. Like they were trying to sneak it in and force me into it, idk lol i was very confused and I still am pretty confused.

Also a big part of it was one of the supervisors of the class was this 90 y.o. guy and he had given me a ‘session’ a few days prior to this class. I didn’t know anything about his credentials, didn’t know anything more about him except for his name. It was marketed to me as a ‘self improvement course’. So I go do this session, I’m thinking: okay, this guy a licensed psychologist. The overall nature of the questions and things felt weird but I never been in therapy so I shrugged it off. But then I go to this class and find out he’s an auditor and not for the irs. So that was an auditing session. Am I crazy for thinking that’s pretty fcked for not explaining that in detail to somebody?? I would never set you up with a meeting with a bishop and not tell you what they were affiliated with beforehand.

But anyways, just all of this felt so off. There was just something about it that made me feel so sick inside. I don’t know if it was anxiety or intuition or whatever, but that shit didn’t feel right. I think there’s a million different ways to learn most things and they can all be right ways. I still learned something from that course and I mean, wtf! I stood up for myself. Me of all people. That’s crazy, I never do that. I usually just go along with what everybody else wants and disregard myself so the fact I spoke up instead of sitting there quietly dying inside was a big deal for me. It sounds so simple huh? I am ridiculous, I realize. But shit! This is life.

#was it necessary to write all this #of course not #but i did anyways lol #do whatever u want w ya life