#depth of a voice

[vaguely-concerned]

while huge swathes of garak's heart are probably just like... the emotional equivalent of the aftermath of the chernobyl disaster. I think that right in the center of it there's a little julian bashir sitting at their usual table, and it's always the moment right before he glances up and breaks into a smile. and probably he's wearing a slutty little sexy halloween version of a doctor's uniform too but we don't have time to unpack that right now

#I must joke because the depth of emotion in my heart about it is so frightfully sincere and earnest #garashir #elim garak #star trek #star trek ds9 #ds9 #julian bashir #brought to you by 'I have read some exerpts from asit and. and what do you mean it's just a long letter to julian. #what do you MEAN julian's is the kindest voice in garak's head #whhhhhhhhat do you mean 'I know you would never judge me as harshly as I judge myself' #I am losing my mind

[sophsicle]

OKAY question

i wanna reread choices and edit it but i can never make myself do it cause im like "ugh wow so long i simply cannot"

but also, every time i do reread parts of it i have like *thoughts* like SO many thoughts about it and about what i was thinking at the time and how that has or hasn't changed and what i was trying to do and what i love and what i hate and blah blah blah

SO the question: if i did like a lil read-a-long with soph thing, would anyone be interested? like maybe in the form of small podcast episodes where i discuss the chapters as i edit them and you guys can like tell me the different stuff you want me to talk about etc etc and then i will have the motivation to actually do this and also somewhere to dump all of my *thoughts*

or is that like, a stupid idea that no one asked for? i cannot decide whether this is leaning more on the fun cute side or the annoying keep this to yourself side, Y'KNOW????? so i ask

#like in theory i could do this on tiktok like a normal person #but tiktok terrifies me and i don't wanna #or i could just write posts about it #but i feel like that is going to be infinitely less fun to me than just like #going on lil rants #like extended public voice notes #but again maybe a horrible idea idk #sometimes i just WANT to talk about it like in depth because im a nerd #and i wanna love it again #okay sorry im done now #soph rambles #choices

[wildmelon]

devora wilde honestly deserves the same amount of praise and hype as neil for her portrayal of lae'zel

#ofc i think all the VAs are amazing #but there r always standouts and i do think neil is one #but devora is too. the way she plays lae'zel has so much depth and variance #she developed such a unique cadence and voice for a fantasy race with like no precedent #she brings so much strength but also humor and vulnerability #the delivery of “is... something burdening you” #is honestly so impactful like every time i'm blown away by what she managed to do w that line. #somehow communicated lae'zel's emotional and interpersonal growth #her concern and affection for the pc #her hesitancy to initiate but desire for emotional intimacy #all with that one simple line #bg3 #lae'zel #devora wilde

[hopeworth]

romance dawn trio are dating except

nami is a lesbian

luffy is aroace

zoro is aromantic and swordsexual

#*anime villain voice* you think romance is a word fit enough to describe the breadth and depth of their relationship. heh. YOU FOOLS. #you fools will never understand the intricacies and transcendence of an aromantic polycule #*end anime villain voice* #by swordsexual i mean people who are really good at wielding swords aka law okiku and to an extent killer #tashigi looks too much like kuina that zoro’s never going to be attracted to her #romance dawn trio #where’s the romance in romance dawn trio? up your ass probably #aromantic people will make up the most nonsensical insane dynamics known to man. it’s me i’m aromantic people. #one piece #zoro #luffy #nami #op.txt #zoluna #zolu #lunami #zonami #strawhats

[senei]

some damsels

#her route was very amusing and also the analogies it made i enjoyed it was kinda fire #(burning grey joke hahaha i'm so funnyyyy lol haha*gets dragged away into the vast unforgiving depths*) #slay the princess #stp the damsel #stp the long quiet #sen's drawing again... #stp the voices #they're here as well. ig

[comradekatara]

i think the reason that a lot of people don’t recognize how fucked up sokka is is due to the fact that sokka himself refuses to acknowledge it. he is extremely repressed and operating on so many layers of cognitive dissonance that he doesn’t even realize that he is not in fact “normal” or “mentally stable” or “healthy.” part of sokka being extremely fucked up is also refusing to acknowledge or confront that he is remotely fucked up. so he generally presents like a well-functioning person who, despite being incredibly cerebral, doesn’t have a particularly rich inner life. but that’s only because he’s walled off every single aspect of his existence that causes him (real) pain or sadness or grief, put it in a vault and then buried it. and confronting any of it, even a little bit (like admitting that he felt abandoned by his father leaving, or that he misses his mother, or any other normal expression of pain that katara has no problem communicating) would mean confronting all the harmful logic he has internalized regarding his identity and denial of his own inherent humanity. so even though he seems like he has no filter and loves to complain, he is actually performing pretty much constantly. for the sake of those to whom he feels obligated, but mostly for himself.

#he and nanami kiryuu need to unionize #and then withhold their labor (their job of course being. getting hit over the head with god’s mallet) #sokka #analysis #anyway i felt like expanding on this point per my last post #and also due to a discussion i had the other day #with someone who claimed i was ‘unfairly implying that sokka is mentally ill’ 😭😭😭 #i do think understanding this though is the key between sokka enthusiasts (‘hehe funny little guy’) and Sokka Scholars(TM) #‘why do u care so much about this guy he is the comic relief’ #because if i don’t. who will!!!!!!!!!!! #no but because he is genuinely fucking INTERESTING okay #he is a COMPELLING character who is FUN to ANALYZE #[mai voice] you cannot fathom the depths of SOKKA.

[canisalbus]

hey i was listening to take me to church my hozier and youre probably already aware but . that song fits vasco and machete so fucking well i think. im so. hnrjrgjfhkndhfjkf these gayass dogs have invaded my head

.

#oh yes #it's become one of their key theme songs #been one of my personal favorites for ages as well #in fact even though this specific song is clearly from Machete's pov #I've sort of unofficially decided that Vasco would sound somewhat like Hozier #especially his speaking voice which to me has the same depth warmth and calm unassuming friendliness that I can imagine Vasco having #if I had the theoretical chance to pick absolutely anyone I wanted as their voice actors I'd go with him #answered #wolfboyvirus

[rustytrident]

beelzebub who has obscure knowledge because he cares so much about his brothers' interests, they become his, too – or, a slight beelzebub character study at 3am because i need it and so do you.

beelzebub who can name every constellation in the night sky of all three realms, who knows both astrology and astronomy, who has read all of belphie's essays and research papers, who was there when they were written.

beelzebub who knows how to play (and cheat, and win) about every casino game, who knows how to do fast math even if he doesn't really care for it, who checks the fucking stock market every morning to see if mammon's mood will be affected by it or not.

beelzebub who knows the difference between the scent of white and red roses, who knows how to properly do your (and his) makeup, who has memorised which products are good for his complexion and how many times a day he needs to apply sunscreen, because asmo swears that the fridge light hits him as much as the sun would have in the human world.

beelzebub who can quote jane austen and poe and shakespeare and euripides from memory, who makes references from books that were destroyed with the library of alexandria, who knows about every breed of cat there is, who listens to satan explain whose fur is the thickest and whose the softest.

beelzebub who will rewatch tsl for hours, who will carry boxes upon boxes of games upstairs, who will (poorly) draw ruri from memory, who will know how to play most games levi hyperfixates on and the plot from most anime he has rambled about.

beelzebub who knows even the most bizzare of genres of music, who can taste the difference between a thousand year and a thousand and one year aged demonus, who immediately recognises the jazz song lucifer is playing when he wants to spend quality time with him but doesn't want to disturb him.

beelzebub who, if you ask him about his interests, will reply that he doesn't really have any, who will search within him for an ounce of self, who will give up after a while because he is six beings in one, and he doesn't know if there's room for one more.

beelzebub who decides that it's okay to be a mosaic of his favourite beings, who finds out that he has been carrying seven in him all along, who gazes in your – a human's – eyes and understands why she fought and why she fell and why she tried so much.

beelzebub who, in his spare time, will go in the human world to visit museums and archaeological sites and long abandoned villages, who will reminisce about when everything he just saw was once new and shining, who will retrace the steps he took aeons ago, alone this time.

beelzebub who often feels lost, who grieves and eats and grieves some more, who carries the memory of his sister because he once read that one truly stops existing when they are forgotten, yet smiles when he sees red roses and shiny coins and old books and video games and cursed records and the starry sky, who sighs into your neck right before he falls asleep and promises to never forget the way your skin feels under his.

beelzebub who, without you asking him, tells you he likes flowers and animals, who likes everything the sun touches, whose eyes glimmer when you ask him to tell you about yarrows and their meaning and their colours, who will explain in a heartbeat, just for you.

beelzebub whose self is a wounded one, a fighting one, whose self is a memory box he just keeps adding into, a scrapbook of eternity's erosion, who finds happiness in the little things, in the simple things, who binds his family together.

beelzebub who loved and loves and will love until there's nothing of him left, until he is the last one remembering, until the night sky is no longer a painting, but just an accumulation dead stars.

#obey me #obey me shall we date #beelzebub obey me #beelzebub x reader #i feel like he has so much depth #and if he doesn't he does in my head #some people only view him as the nom nom himbo but good lord #i beg to differ #finally being able to let out the 2 year beel brainrot to real humans and not the voices in my head is fantastic #i hope this wasn't too messy #sing me a song // the song of our glory

[satari-raine]

I'm still not used to fully talking on here but I just have to talk for a minute about Sleep Token and Wembley.

They did fantastic. After touring so much this year, doing back-to-back shows, dealing with a band member having to take a leave of absence for most of their final tour, incorporating new changes to their routine and style, and with Vessel having hurt his voice during such a huge show, they did fantastic.

I watched along with Discord. Mostly lurked. And everything I saw from the effects on stage, the fun antics, the performances, the playing - guitars, bass, drums, the dancers, the choir - they did fantastic. And Vessel. I said it in chat that he doesn't need to hurt himself or his voice to earn the love of those who listen to his music, but he kept going. He sang, and pushed through when he had every right in the world to put a stop to the show and focus on his health. He kept on going while also giving to the crowd the chance to carry him through, and seeing everyone - from those on stage with him to the crowd to people in chat and what I saw on here - still loving him, loving them?

They did fucking fantastic, and I dare anyone tell me otherwise. As a community, we should be celebrating them despite any differences of opinion - being kinder and supportive of one another is literally everything they've shown with III's situation and in general. It's what so many of us showed back to them with the hand salutes for III and the marked ? on our hands during specific songs. Their new outfits have fan-made decals to them, for fuck's sake. They are absolutely, without a doubt, genuine about making everyone feel loved.

Look, I'm just a stranger on the internet at the end of the day but this band has come to mean so much to me since I found them, to the point where they've honestly kept me going some days - them and the wonderful people I've met through them - and I just need them to know that they did fantastic, their music still brings people together despite hiccups along the way, and regardless of any of those hiccups, they are so loved. Loved beyond belief.

The night didn't just belong to all of us at Wembley, but to them, too.

#Satari rambles #Sleep Token #I'm sorry if this is too much but I just had to get something out #I usually don't swear much either but just #Yeah #Had to ramble #Especially after seeing him do BloodSport despite his voice and health and then seeing the entire crew and band rush to him to celebrate #The way he fell to his knees and bowed so low his forehead touched the stage #I cannot tell anyone how much his strength and emotional depths and just him #What they all have started meaning to me #If anyone needs me I'm going to be throwing love at the Discord mods and vibing with the lovely people here while I try not to keep crying #And people are more than welcome to reblog this too if it resonates #And it goes without saying that they all deserve as much rest and downtime as they want #The band and the crew and the dancers and choir #Everyone #Love you all

[harmonic-depths-official]

Akito: Lee

Mafuyu: Liam

#harmonic depths #project sekai dub #project sekai #akito shinonome #mafuyu asahina #vbs #niigo #vivid bad squad #nightcord at 25:00 #25 ji nightcord de #voice acting #project sekai memes #proseka #prsk memes #video #undescribed #mod akito

[wanders-in-stars]

Going through a dwemer ruin and fell off a platform and died, but before the game reloaded I heard Gore say,

"Oh, you moron. Get up! Hey, get up – oh, gods."

I – help?? The sudden change in his tone when he realised what had happened?? My heart???

#he's very quickly climbing my “favourite custom voiced followers” list #he just feels so.... alive if that makes sense #constantly commenting on the world but in relevant ways and not just the same 5-6 generic lines being recycled over and over again #the absolute shock i felt when stopping to watch some imperials fighting stormcloaks and he STARTED COMMENTING ON THE FIGHT AS WE WATCHED?? #i am SO HYPED for version 1.5 cause apparently it adds even MORE of that.... “alive-ness” #im terrible with the words but like the EFFORT and DEPTH put into this man is incredible and im desperate to uncover as much as i can #i feel like NOT doing so would be like.... a waste and an insult to all the people who worked so hard on him #skyrim #skyrim gore #yaz yaks

[cowboybin]

Get your feet moving, get your tongue working, let it pop ! Changbin | UNVEIL: Megaverse

#seo changbin #stray kids #bystay #jypartists #staycompany #kpopccc #kpopco #changbin #skz #g; skz #g; changbin #joker voice: pray to the virgin mary and nooo one bats an eye.... pray to this religious idol while in the depths of despair and everyone #loses their minds #we live in a society #but at least it's one with SEO CHANGBIN #suddenly i am in a manger #oh you're at you're 9-5? #i'm finding signal to stream in a manger beside the lambs #ANYWAYS <3 #;mygfs #did i say i liked seo changbin yet today #i dont think she stans him... i dont think she stans him at all #im living in delulu land save me #ANYWAYS

[hallwyeoo]

Ellie’s memory of the golfing scene and what it tells us about her.

🚨spoilers for tlou2🚨

I think Ellie’s flashback to Joel’s death is very telling of how she internalized the event and the meaning she applied to his death. It’s also a good demonstration of her relationship to autonomy. Let’s break down the elements that were inconsistent with the actual event:

The stairs/hallway are much longer than they were. This suggests a sense of helplessness, an inability to get there fast enough. Joel is constantly out of reach.

There is blood on the floor outside of the door. Not entirely certain on this one but my hunch is that she blames herself for not seeing more obvious signs of violence/not knowing something was wrong sooner.

The door is locked, another roadblock in her path to Joel. She can’t access him, she can’t help, he needs her and she isn’t there.

Most importantly. Joel yells “Ellie, help me” (which he didn’t in the actual scene, he just screams. He doesn’t say a word in the actual scene)

Ellie hearing Joel scream for her help, calling for her while being horribly beaten, and her being repeatedly impeded on her way to him suggests that what she took away from his death is that she wasn’t enough. They always helped each other, always had each others backs, always got up. Ellie views his death as a failure. She was too slow, too weak, not smart enough to save him. She failed him when he needed her most. She is absolutely helpless to save him, just like she was helpless to save Riley, Tess, Sam, and Jessie (and Marlene, and humanity, and and and-).

Once again, Ellie makes a decision (staying with Riley, going to the fireflies, staying with Joel, being the cure, trying to forgive Joel) and once again her autonomy and ability to find closure is ripped from her.

This is the inciting incident of tlou pt2, this is the moment where Ellie’s whole world shatters the same way Joel’s did at the start of pt1. Ellie enters into the same cycle (which I like to call the “Joel cycle” because… yeah.) that he did, and throughout pt2 she stays in the “20 years later” phase of the cycle. She is changed, she has lost her light, lost what she fought for. She lost her chance to genuinely forgive Joel and rebuild their relationship. She is stuck in a gruelling and violent world that she has no anchor in, at least not anymore. His death is so sudden and so incredibly violent that it practically gave her (and me as well, tbh) whiplash. She’s in a state of total shock.

On another devastating note, this is one of the three times in tlou that we see Ellie beg (that I remember). The first is begging Joel to get up at the university of Eastern Colorado, the second is begging him to get up and for Abby to stop, and the third is begging Abby to not kill Dina because she’s pregnant. (Two times she begs Joel to get up, one time he doesn’t. Two times she begs Abby to spare her family and one time she does. What a beautifully haunting contrast)

To wrap up, every person creates an internal narrative, a story of their life that is crafted from their context and lived experiences. The meaning we derive from those experiences doesn’t always reflect the truth, and that can sometimes bite us in the ass majorly when we experience a traumatic event. We tend to want to find someone or something to assign blame to, some reason or rationale to why it happened. We tell stories. We write them in our minds about ourselves and what happens to us and what that says about us.

But Ellie is wrong. Joel’s death happened in response to a conscious and willing choice he made. It is in no way her fault, and there was absolutely no way for her to know or to stop what was happening. I think Ellie knows that much on an intellectual level, It just doesn’t change how devastated she is over the whole event. It can’t change the fact that she FEELS as though this was all her fault, that Joel did what he did to save her, that she could have saved him. That she should have.

#this isn’t a new thought #like I’m p much just stating what happened in the game #this is not some super deep meta analysis of tlou #it’s just. #Ellie’s relationship to autonomy is so so so good #ellie the last of us #joel the last of us #ellie williams #joel miller #tlou series #tlou show #tlou1 #tlou spoilers #tlou analysis #I have SO MANY drafts that are like. walls of text #we’re talking Great Wall of China long #tlou2 #marlene the last of us #marlene tlou #basically what I said in previous posts about how ellie picked up Joel’s stoic attitude and emotional constipation. #ellie’s screams lolol. my heart breaking in real time. #joel goes golfing HD!!! #the way her voice breaks as she begs… OWIE #Neil druckmann needs to pay for my therapy fr!! #I edited this because it had some… really bad grammatical errors #syntax??? what’s that???? #anyway normally I don’t put much thought or effort into my actual wording of Tumblr posts #because like maybe 10 people will see it. who cares. #but this one is one I actually care a bit about and this whole thing could be written about in so much more depth. #so I went in and tried to clean it up a bit and added some thoughts.

[pebblezone]

The Hellsing Organization Goes To Brazil!!

#hellsing #hellsing ultimate #alucard hellsing #pip bernadotte #seras victoria #a #animations #vids #personally being Michigan shaped isn’t horrible like it’s worse than being Ohio shaped but 100% better than being Massachusetts shaped #though I haven’t lived in ma maybe I’d be more willingly be Massachusetts shaped if I lived there #had a silly little school ceremony thing today that had me decked out like Steve blues clues #it was long but they had this baritone doing the national anthem and his voice was absolutely gorgeous #they never have lower voices doing solos it was so epic #need to make more stuff with alucard and seras I don’t milk their dynamic enough #actually that goes for a lot of things but then also sertegra 🧍‍♂️ #need to do an in depth hellsing smiling friends overlap situation #mr boss integra same character in the most horrific yet fantastic way #I mean fuck it frowning fiends iscariot

[skepticalcatfrog]

Rereading my favorite scenes in Our Violent Ends and silently screaming to myself as I experience emotional distress over people who do not exist

#IT WAS REAL #IT WAS REAL TO ME #i say in a yelena belova voice #specifically im reading my favorite benmars scenes from before benedikt Found Out #they just. contain so much emotional depth. #these violent delights #our violent ends #last violent call #secret shanghai #chloe gong #benedikt montagov #marshall seo #benmars

[oatbugs]

my research partner and i are huddled in a blanket in paddington waiting for a too-late train i already miss you and you and you

#he keeps falling asleep almost on my shoulder and waking up and readjusting but i want to tell him its ok weve seen a lot #of each other ive seen your brainwaves you called me crying a few nights ago. research partner right now is a potentiality #friend is a certainty. i met a banker passionate about finance. he said his advice made the lives of others better and he likes the numbers #more than he likes anything else. on a high rise near canary wharf the view was wonderful and the people even moreso #he said i loved her but i spent 33 grand on her and i cant do this anymore. his voice cracked talking about her. he did love her. #and she talked softly she grabbed my hand she bought me a pack of Marlborough gold she told me to snap #the russian menthol cigarettes of the tortured polish man near us with my teeth i kept staring at her teeth #bright white and sharp. i couldnt find her heartbeat but i did find warmth and i did find her lips and i did feel #how she felt pressed against a wall. a pretty boy held my hand and i gave him my number. i couldnt stop smiling about her no matter #how many runways youve walked on how many collections youve designed how many students youve taught. senior lecturer teaches me how to do #very unethical things ethically over a double shot of vodka made by the half-persian with broken farsi. she talks softly #and she says her eyes are hazel but they appear a shade of red. pure gold on her hands and leather on her back and her fingers on my lips #(she talks softly sees through me she says something i cant hear but i wont forget the way she flies) she talked to my research partner #about the possibility of moving to sunny dubai with the rest of her family and my heart felt pierced. on her arm i traces a tattoo of a #knife passing through a rose. she told me she thought there was romance in severing so i kissed her some more. #he sat me down and asked me what i loved and i told him and he said no romance no person no tragedy will take that from you. #the room was filled with a collection of people in love with something that wasnt a person and i kept looking at her. #red eyes bitten jawline beautiful hands. it is 3 degrees Celsius my head is on his shoulder i miss my friends #we walked out the lecture hall with arms linked a photo of two years ago and we both said #jesus christ. i miss you all. and i miss logic metatheory lectures. im glad i get to stare at the depth of your eyes #i wish i had met you years ago. #crushposting