@sira-ines DragCon day 1 🥰🩷🤩 We met Paloma and Kam of COURSE they were so sweet, I hadn't met Kam before so that was v nice she was lovely!:) We also met Gisèle who was SO SWEET she was so happy to talk to us and so genuine and funny 😭🩷🥹🥲 I met Enorma my QUEEN she was absolutely breathtaking 🤩😩🩷 We saw Elecktra Bionic, LaLa Ri, Aura Eternal, and Endigo perform on the main stage (Endigo debuted her new song and it was so extremely "Swede who likes J-rock" 😭😭😭) We saw Bring Back My Girls for season 2 of drf‼️Nicky co-hosted with TS Madison and they had great chemistry it was v fun 🩷🩷 When they were closing for the day and queens were packing up and scattering everywhere, Jimbo was meeting fans casually for free (idk what her min. spend is because the line was so long all day) but I didn't wanna bother her so I just snuck some photos from afar 🩷🫣
Okej hej jag kom på varför Endigo kändes så jäkla bekant för mig. Vet inte om de är konventare in the sense av att de har gått på många konvent MEN har ett minne av att bandet Overworld gick runt på uppcon 2012 och delade ut sin debut ep-ish till folk och Endigo va ju vocalist i de bandet
Jag är typ 87% säker på att detta stämmer men om någon gammal konventare som också va där skulle vilja confirma min story välkomnas de. (Also för er som inte existerade i konventvärlden 2012 så måste jag bara säga att bandet Seremedy aka de bandet Yohio spelade gitarr i också va på de konventet och att Yohio va jätte pissig mot folk lmaooo. Good times)
Let me now raise my song of glory. Heaven be praised for solitude. Let me be alone. Let me cast and throw away this veil of being, this cloud that changes with the least breath, night and day, and all night and all day. While I sat here I have been changing. I have watched the sky change. I have seen clouds cover the stars, then free the stars, then cover the stars again. Now I look at their changing no more. Now no one sees me and I change no more. Heaven be praised for solitude that has removed the pressure of the eye, the solicitation of the body, and all need of lies and phrases.
on august 21st, 2014, i was a 12-year-old in 7th grade who was just finding out about the hidden block/normalboots collective of game reviewers.
on august 21st, 2014, i found caddicarus - who would have a huge impact on my life for the next 4 years.
during those 4 years i had many fandom shenanigans. made some great memories, made some not-so-great memories.
i remember when he was an android fanboy. i remember when he didn't like pizza. i remember when his voice was higher and when he had the buzzcut. the stock grungy background and aesthetic. the frosty cooltext generated logo. that iconic gong noise at the beginning of the intro. when the intro didn't even have music at all - do fans these days even remember that the intro was once a heavenly chant with no music?
"🎵ay ay ay ay ay, ay ay ay ay, subscribe...🎵"
"that's how we do it in my garden!"
"CYOAR!"
i remember rushing home one day in march 2015 to watch him on PBG's minecraft hardcore. i remember when he first got his tattoos. i remember how the audience was divided over his mohawk.
many sunday afternoons were spent waiting for the new video to come out. being the young devoted fan i was, i started drinking pepsi after he said he preferred it over coke. i called it "the official drink of the beautiful people".
i remember in 2016 when he got rid of all those extra shows and made the caddicarus show weekly. and i remember when the sub count slowed around the same time. but we as the fanbase made do with what we had.
i left in late 2018 around the time he hit 600,000 subs. i left to pursue other fandom endeavors - long story short, i moved onward. 😉
in the 4 years since i've left, caddy pretty much addressed every criticism people had with his videos and he's been thriving more than he ever has. and even though his videos are no longer for me personally, i still respect him with every fiber of my being.
now, it's august 22nd, 2022. i'm 20 years old. i haven't watched a caddicarus video in god knows how long. when i think of caddicarus, the color blue still comes to mind. that shows you right there.
yet, as i sat silently in the college library, on the first day of junior year, i held my hands on my heart and teared up as i saw caddy do the same and then lie down on his side as he saw the long-awaited number show up on his screen.
i took a big sip of the pepsi sitting next to me. and even after i found out that he hates the US version of pepsi, i still drank it with pride. because it shows that the impact he and his videos made on me is still visible to this day. and also because...pepsi really is better than coke.
i am aware of what caddy thinks of the pre-2020 era. i recognize that he wasn't exactly making the videos he wanted to make and that he regrets them now. but we wouldn't be where we are today if they never existed. they still made an impact.
i remember when we never thought he'd hit 1 million subs. i remember checking socialblade and the prediction for the 1 million sub milestone was...actually pretty accurate. it projected he'd reach 1 million when i was in the middle of college. but at the time, it was still 6 years away. which is a long time in internet years.
but he's so resilient. that's 10 years of blood, sweat, and tears poured into the channel. and within those videos - no matter what he thinks of them now - are the childhood/teenhood memories of many, many people. nerdy and geeky kids who found a part of youtube that understood their nerdy and geeky interests. kids who finally felt validated after finding other people who enjoyed the same videos. kids who then had internet friends to talk about their interests with. kids who finally found their voice...and began to make videos of their own.
thank you so much jim. thank you for all you've done. you have given me and now a million other people so much happiness and joy. i hope you continue to thrive and inspire millions of people. stay beautiful. 💜💙💜