#esp romantic love

[sundancefemme]

the enormity of my desire disgusts me etc etc

#my post #every body shup up this about Lesbian Loneliness #i daydreamed too close to the sun #<-this could be a poem actually #anyways having thoughts about the trauma of growing up fat #how much i hate having my picture taken in any capacity (like i sometimes actually want to cry bc i hate it so much) #and the way i literally cannot imagine being sincerely desired #intellectually i know fat women are hot im frequently attracted to women who look just like me #but that doesnt mean i dont feel unworthy of love #esp romantic love #ive had some very kind compliments from Anonymous Tumblr Users in the last few years #which are reassuring in a way #but ive never had a woman attracted to me irl. like ever i think #anyways. lmao

[posycore]

neurotypical people watch community and think troy and abed are funny, gay people watch community and ship/think troy and abed would be cute together, neurodivergent gay people watch community and Know what they Are. 'aw i wish trobed was canon' well actually they are u just havent unlocked the Vision.

#like i genuinely view it as canon and i dont think im alone in that #and the main reason is: oh the lines between platonic and romantic are blurry? #oh they think and feel together in a way literally no one else gets? #oh they have moments that dont read as conventionally romantic but still seem way too intimate? #oh they actually never deny or shy away from their love for each other? oh its just the rest of the world that is confused? #are those really signs of not being canon or is that just true to how queer/queerplatonic/neurodivergent partnerships get perceived #esp in their time period lol #like maybe trobed isnt canon to someone watching the show from the rest of the study groups pov or the worlds pov #but if u watch from troy and abeds pov.. of course its canon i mean just look at them #community #trobed #abed nadir #troy barnes

[subsequentibis]

it's actually just hit me that there's like... not really romance plots in dungeon meshi. they don't pair the cast off arbitrarily at the end. basically any character could be read as aroace/aspec really easily. that's honestly super cool!! it's refreshing to have a mainstream piece of media with the kind of approach to character relationships that emphasizes how important everyone's connections to each other are without making them explicitly romantic.

#ignore me #dungeon meshi #like obviously i love to read romance in bc im a hopeless romantic #but i like having the option to read that in Myself rather than have it forced #and i like that my aro & ace friends can see themselves in the characters in that way #like.... shuro's driven by romance but his stuff is fairly minor in the scope of things all told? #but i think that & chilchuck's marriage are kind of easy to read as moooore like. #societal expectation that you get married & reproduce & etc than like Deep Romance. esp wrt chilchuck #anyway now im just rambling

[finncakes]

"I'd be up shit's creek by myself. I was by myself. It's not great."

"Yeah. No, it's not."

#critical role #orym of the air ashari #orym #ashton greymoore #cr spoilers #ashrym #biting and gnawing my leg off i WILL be thinking abt this for the next month #and YEs i do think ashton has some sorta something feelings going on for orym. no i will not elaborate i just know these things #it's my autism enhanced perception. i know what ashton is. #on a non-ashrym related note: SO glad someone FINALLY checked on orym #also glad i wasn't reading into things thinking ashton was noticing orym being off. he made some Faces that i hoped meant they noticed. #orym needed someone to say this to him. he needs someone to keep him grounded. #as much as i love fearne and orym and i DO think she's helped him for the better...fearne is not a very grounding person #but that's what's good about her #i think ashton could be a very good gronded person for orym. platonically or romantically. #as much as ashton likes to toot their horn abt being unstable and wild and chaotic... #they're probably the most level-headed and grounded after orym #they're more likely to pick the more chaotic choice but they do it in such a calm and chill way y'know? #i have a lot of ashton thoughts. i think he's so wrong to have raised his hand esp after fcg's freakout. #he didn't raise a hand against them #okAY I WILL. stfu now byeeeee

[yurihotline]

"STUPID FAGGOT LITTLE COCKSUCKER" will never be unfunny to me bc im afraid if it does become unfunny people will become misogynistic towards Yukari again, it LITERALLY fixed fandom's interpretation of her as inaccurate as it is.

is it inaccurate? Yeah, obviously. Is it funny? YES. Is it better than the old persona fandom view of calling Yukari a bitch for just being a teenage girl? absolutely. I'd much rather have hater Yukari jokes than those uh. "interesting" takes about how she acted in the answer

EDIT 3/10/24: here's the tags incase someone reblogs it with just #persona or smth bc half the post is in the tags

And this one for good measure

#a lot of people esp a couple years ago called Yukari a bitch when she's just a teen girl and that's so unfair #ESPECIALLY IN THE ANSWER. #people treated her like she was literally satan for grieving over someone she genuinely loved and held dearly #imagine grieving over someone you loved (and were implied to be the romantic interest of) and some bitchless motionless mf just calls you a #- bitch and treats you like literal satan for the sin of.... #... uh hold on [reads paper] #...being a little irritable when grieving (understandably so too) #augh i hate persona fandom especially personatwt #persona 3 #megami tensei #megami ibunroku persona #persona #persona 3 reload #persona 3 fes #yukari takeba #yukari persona 3 #rant post #fandom discourse #persona discourse #persona 3 the answer #persona 3 yukari #discourse #fuck it what if we called yukari discourse yukourse it'd be funny

[riacte]

so hey guys i finished dungeon meshi yesterday and i'm still thinking about it

#ria.txt #i spoiled myself so at first i was like 'this is bonkers wtf are they doing in those last few chapters?????' #but then it was like. yeah. i see #love those ch when it's just clearly putting the squad into Situations #also. izutsumi #what i really liked was how tightly the protagonist and the deuteragonist were wound up in the overall themes #the plot the themes the conflict the characters it was very neatly connected #hence i am also now accidentally invested in whatever going on between laios and marcille #not just platonic not romantic not enemies i just think they work well tgt and deeply care for each other its great watching them develop #it's the leader + most trusted advisor / anxious girlfailure + the annoying freak she's somehow attached to vibes #haha that rabbit chapter with marcille. hahha i was like what the fuck man. it was funny and then boom whump [tears streaming down my face] #those shapeshifter chs were sooo much fun esp seeing other chara's perceptions of each other. stealing that #the changeling ones were great too elf senshi is the fucking funniest he looks sooooooo unserious #marcille's evolving perception with death starting with saving falin and saving the squad and her nightmares of outliving everyone- #-and her dad and her 'temper tantrum' and UGH when at the end she said she was fine with falin not coming back.... WAAA. OUGH. #i think dunmeshi handled the trope of 'prophecy of chosen one becoming king' pretty well and it makes sense why laios is the protag #the worldbuilding is so thoughtful as well i liked seeing different characters with different worldviews interact #very solid and well rounded series wooo #the main 4 has such a fun dynamic together #anyways. dunmeshi au..... #more like borrowing the worldbuilding bc charas are too nuanced for a one to one comparison #ren is like some prince of his own species but he's like 34th in line and no one cares about him so he fucks off to eat monsters #which is why he's both snobbish AND a total freak when it comes to his food taste #false is originally in for the money from ren and plans to scam him but unfortunately the cringefail swag captures her #martyn is Obnoxiously Clueless and thinks he's smart but he's not. he's resourceful but also pathetic and crazy #stress cant cook but she thinks she does so everyone goes (≖_≖ ) when she picks up a pot. they delegate her to killing and chopping duty #the mvp is iskall who keeps on saving everyone's asses and somehow has resources for everyone #i think ren is actually aware false is going to scam him but he has too much money to spend anyway and he thinks shes cool so he lets her?? #and somehow she doesnt take the money and run. and goes back to eating monsters w/ the party. everyone is crazy

[wildmelon]

i don't understand the urge to write hate think pieces about video game characters/their writing on here like at all

#NOT constructive criticism HATE #the wyll fans esp are critical geniuses #i mean actual mean spirited morally superior hate posts #like guess what guys: i used to dislike gale #and i just kept that shit to myself bc why would i come ruin everyone's fun why does it matter #then i spent more time w the character and engaging with him and it opened my eyes! love him now! it's chill #there r a couple things i do find triggering also... wyll's first kiss being locked behind a persuasion check #and really just the whole premise of astarion's first romantic encounter #but like ik that's a ME thing and it's not inherently evil and there are many ways to interpret etc #but yeah i just never kiss wyll that night #astarion i have more trouble with and im trying to headcanon my way out of it after avoiding his romance for awhile #i just personally can't deal with the idea of someone engaging in sex while dissociating/not being wholeheartedly engaged #now im rambling lol but yeah confessions #lush.talk

[eff-plays]

Honestly a lot of the romance pipeline joaks just aren't relatable to me at all.

Zevran > Fenris > Solas > Astarion? What is the man of mid Solas doing among those kings? He's nice like they're not, powerful like they're not, and doesn't play into the trope of being mean/"evil" and sexy. He also has so much power over Lavellan, which the others do not have over their love interests. Get him out of there. Yes they're all sad elves but that's it. Surface level reading.

Also I don't think Cullenites who are now obsessed with Astarion like Astarion for the same reasons I do. That is all I will say on the matter because I am seeing a large gathering of people outside my window and they seem to be chanting wishes of my death and gripping pitchforks.

#also fun fact the reason i deleted my old DA blog was because i was an avid cullen despiser and people hated that #so ppl going from cullen to astarion is like oouf ... why #explains why all the astarion fics are like that though #if someone fell for cullen's bullshit they will miss a lot of astarion's depth probably I MEAN WHAT AHHAHA i would never say that #ALSO i actually quite like solas and would've loved to romance him with my trevelyan #he's a great character and i love his demeanor and voice and personality and he was great friends with my trev #so adding a romantic angle to that whole angst would've been delish #solavellan in particular just gives me the ick #esp the popular fandom perception of it #anyway haha *gets shot and killed by the DA fandom* #bg3 #dragon age

[lovesickeros]

putting my thoughts under the cut in case people dont want to spoil themself on arle voicelines

currently obsessed with the view our current harbingers have of the Tsaritsa. both childe and arlecchino greatly respect her even if arlecchino is dubiously loyal to the Tsaritsa at best. they both talk about her as a figure who is gentle and compassionate, completely at odds with both the organization she allows to commit horrible acts (dottore. its a lot of dottore. he canonically took children from the hoth under the old knave if they were no longer considered "useful" and used as test subjects). shes described as someone with no love left for her people yet the harbingers we've heard talk about her never seem to describe her in such a manner. of course, childe mentions she had to harden herself to complete her goal, but he still notes that shes too gentle. the more we learn about her the more i want to meet her purely because she is contradictions all the way down and its great!!! taking whatever scraps i can get and its perfectly in line with my characterization too so i stay winning

#not a fic #shaking like a rabid dog TSARITSA LORE TSARITSA LORE TSARITSA LORE #lore that actually follows how i characterize her too!!!!!! #a woman who is the goddess of love yet so clearly incapable of it and still it peeks through anyway #a horrible contradiction of the goddess of love and the tsaritsa. the cryo archon. #a woman who is gentle and loving and adoring at her very core but she cannot love. she cannot allow herself to love #despite the fact it was the very thing she was known for. she was the goddess of love and now she must sever a part of her #the fatui as a whole is all about “the greater good. no matter the cost” and it shows through every member!! #also the themes of “love” are shown through her harbingers as well in interesting way that i adore #childe and arlecchino themselves especially. #childe is all about familial love. he adores his family and esp his younger siblings. he'll do anything to make them happy #contrasted by arlecchino's lack of emotion at all. she cares for the kids but does she love them? maybe. but she is not a good “father” #she is still a harbinger. still raising children to be soldiers in the name of the tsaritsa. #but also her + clervie as a theme of love (however you see them aside) #i wont go too in depth but scara and his is familial as well (ei. and later nahida) #and also signora (romantic. rostam) is the turning point in her story. it made her into the crimson witch of flames!!! #something something love is consuming. and it consumed her (also applicable to arle to an extent) #okay ill shut up now this has been ur daily tsaritsa yapping

[colrana]

a pearl is formed when an intruder enters a mollusk. the mollusk reacts to the intruder by layering calcium carbonate and conchiolin over the intruder for years

#megan ito #parker macmillan #fanart tag #Blaseball #blaseball tag #yes its something i actually drew TODAY and not old art!!!!!! #yes parker gets shucked #yes megan ito is the intruder #yes their relationship cannot be contained to any notion of platonic or romantic ideals. theyre not divorced but a secret third thing #they also never dated but also did but also didnt because they shared a room together out of megans offer and theres only one bed #but the one bed holds pain and loneliness and quiet offers and truces and stalemates #also to anyone: my open offer is please send in parker and megan asks abt my interpand ill love you FOREVER esp if youve seen my animatics #id be so happy to elaborate more on the trifecta of insanity

[sodademon]

hiyori loves the sound of juns voice as much as his own

#soda art #ensemble stars #enstars #hiyori tomoe #jun sazanami #hiyojun #you could also read this as platonic but i do think its romantic #like i know hiyori loves to gossip to jun as much as the moon loves the sun #but i know they swap. hiyori liking conan has me mentally ill on the potential that they read manga and watch anime together #and that hiyori loves to hear jun be himself bc smth smth theyre two souls in one but they have their differences #theyre watching bsd or hyouka or some other detective anime !!! imagine !!! im having a wobbly!! #got a little experimental w the colours but i think it works #esp w the hair LOL #but god yeah ive been feeling like absolute garbage these past few days idk how this came out but im so happy it did #kf the outfits look similar to smth else i enjoy. kissing you #i POSTED TO THE WRONG BLOG SHGKJTEGNKENK #reupload yayyay #theres a bunch of mistakes but idc also. ball

[danothan]

this bad boy can fit so much hope and love in him !

#dc #danbles #the flash #barry allen #batman #batflash #tracy you are after my own heart #this made my chest feel tight i love them too much #even more than some actual romantic ships of mine #smth smth trauma bond smth smth autism to autism communication #also. the thing abt wally. #i can’t think abt that too hard esp with the context of barry reconnecting brucce with his late father #*bruce #like all that and then barry’s surrogate son is lost to him #goddd the batfam/flashfam crossover stuff gets me good #thank you tracy for reaffirming my belief that bruce holds barry in an almost reverent light #bruce 🤝 me: barry must be cherished at all costs

[dragonsarecats]

golden deer appreciation post. you guys are so fucking normal i love that for you <3

#fe3h #doing a playthrough of black eagles with a friend #and my god they're such freaks (endearing) #black eagle house #golden deer house #fire emblem three houses #claude von riegan #edelgard von hresvelg #fire emblem #like the golden deer have their quirks sure sure they have their Intense Malaise whatever #but god they're so normal (esp. about byleth) and i honestly love that for them #every goddamn member of the black eagles is going to die on the SPOT if the professor doesn't return their undying love (romantic or platon #meanwhile the deer are like yeah thats our professor aren't they neat? points to byleth glowing in the corner #not that the unhinged feralness isn't appealing of course it very much is #i just think the golden deer are Good for byleth in a way that's hard to describe lol

[barredandromeda]

i think its crazy that some perachel shippers think canon percy would have chosen rachel over annabeth if she didnt stop herself from being a choice (their words not mine) ? did we read the same books ? love the ships you want to have happened but canon percy was enamored with annabeth like. canon books percy chose annabeth over and over and over and would have never picked anyone else over her romantically ?

#i love fanon ships i promise but cmon #i ship soo many non percabeth ships but percabeth is the canonist canon ship and they wouldnt have not been together? #esp over rachel? #love rachel with all my heart that girl is a dream i love her but percys love for annabeth just. exceeds any romantic interest he has for- #-anyone else in the books like pleaase girl #post #seashel #pjo #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percabeth #not tagging perachel cause this is like. sorta anti? in canon anyway #summer solace #double co lets go (explode)

[outofthiisworld]

💜// too sleepy to work on drafts/asks BUT never too sleepy to think about Ophelia for the 100th time today.

rn i’m thinking about how at first glance she’s a Perfect Porcelain Doll, but then you look CLOSER and her flesh is barely held together by the seams— constantly pulling and stretching and ripping and tearing but mending itself over and over and over. you touch it and you can feel it shift and rip and close again and again under your fingertips in the span of seconds.

veins full of cosmic static and plasma that glow and pulse and bulge under sometimes translucent skin— they haven’t carried blood in so long and if you press your ears against her chest: you’d hear a low, deep hum in a hollow ribcage.

#💜… musings #👽 … ooc #body horror tw #//romantizing the horrors of my female muse as a coping mechanism from my own horrors don’t mind me #//i rly wanna re-render her macabre features on her ref cause like always I’m like ‘we can push it MOOOOOORE! MOOOOOOOOOOOOORE!!!’ #//anyways. i love 2nd perspective so much. should be used more esp with horror and creepy things

[trans-ruffboi]

so my Opp Onion is that Anders' Martyr spell (and entire Vengeance mode) is functionally the same thing as blood magic in that it's Justice using Anders' actual life force, because the way that mortals do blood magic is effectively an (occasionally clumsy) out-of-Fade recreation of how spirits/demons do magic, but Anders and Justice cannot accept this because of their own (valid due to circumstances but misled) fears.

like, spirits are made entirely of magic and the Fade itself, and they can cast spells or use magical effects because of that. more powerful spirits can use more powerful spells. and when they're in the Fade, this is NBD because the magic they're using is easily replaced by absorbing more of the Fade's ambient energy, and the world is incredibly mutable. and even out of the Fade, there is ambient magic around that they can recover with, but it takes longer and is more difficult. (this gets all sorts of fucked up by the Breach but that's later)

but where blood magic comes in is that, to a creature made of magic, mana and life force aren't all that different. so if a spirit like, say, Audacity, were to teach a mage their magic, how they get power and use it, then large amounts that power would likely have to come from the life force because mortals are limited in mana in a way that spirits aren't. like Merrill said, she'd use lyrium if she had buckets of the stuff, but she doesn't, so she's working with blood. and if a spirit like, say, my best friend Justice over here, were to help his mage use magic, or use magic through him, converting the life force spent in battle into mana that Anders knows how to use seems like a very natural thing for them to do.

and even mortals have a connection between mana and life force. there's a physical draw on connecting to the Fade for magic, and it's mentioned in the codex "Mana and the Use of Magic" from the Mage Origin and in Merrill's home in DA2 (wow a link between life force and mana in Merrill's house in particular?) that a mage can overtax their mana and start burning their life force and hurt themselves.

blood magic is just directly accessing that life force instead of reaching into the Fade and burning the whole mana pool first. but Anders and Justice don't see what they do as blood magic the way Merrill sees hers as blood magic because blood magic is what demons do, and Justice isn't (CAN'T be) a demon.

as we see from spirits like Justice or Cole, many spirits don't even really know the difference between spirits and demons (Justice pretty directly says that for him it's because of fear that understanding demons will bring him closer to becoming one), but blood magic is associated with demons because spirits believe teaching it is something a demon does, that demons are the ones over-concerned about mortals and have mortals use their own bodies separate from the pure Fade to do magic wrong. you see Anders' question Merrill trying to see if she could've done blood magic without a demon telling her because to him that'd be relatively okay, and I definitely think a lot of his hatred for blood magic isn't just the indoctrination or his palatability argument, it's because Justice is very much afraid of being a demon.

and these are all beliefs shaped by mortals as well, because what exists in and shapes the Fade reflects the mortal world. spirits' fears of demons are shaped by mortals' fears of demons, and how spirits manifest to interact with mortals and each other is shaped by mortal feelings and actions.

anyways, Anders is the loml and also a big hypocrite. but he has to deny that part because he and Justice are running on at least 25% fear at all times. they both want to help each other so so badly, but they don't quite understand what they're doing. and even if I don't buy that Anders' rage perverted Justice, them both being afraid of themselves, and each other, and of hurting each other, is definitely holding themselves back and causing them pain.

#anyway this is my stream of consciousness about blood and spirit magic and you'll likely get another about healing and blood magic later #bc for example if you've got a grip on your own life force for using as mana #then it's probably real fuckin difficult for anybody but you to reach into that life force and patch you up huh #also i think this makes Solas' statement about blood magic legit just being magic make sense from his pre-Veil viewpoint #esp if you go for the elves-used-to-be-spirits theory #ive seen one fic thats addressed it like this and i think about it every day #Justice dragon age I love you~ #Justice and Anders love each other (romantic or otherwise) and want a better world for each other but they're both so so afraid #anders #anders dragon age #justice dragon age #da2 #dao #dragon age 2 #dragon age