#every single oc i make that has depression or every single character i like that has depression has always had a reason

[theelderhazelnut]

Baldur’s Gate 3

Warning: none

Pairings: Ombra x Astarion

Characters: Ombra (my oc), Astarion, Gale

Summary: Ombra, a metal bender, is merely tolerating her new companions because she has other plans in her mind. One of these people disgust her to the core, but her depressed soul eventually find him “lovely”. Her busy, calculated mind can finally rest for one night. But does this vampire deserve her love truly?

Author’s note: Yay my first fic for BG3! I may post more drabbles like this untill I start posting the whole story of Ombra! I really love how these two work out together. Extroverted, charming boyfriend x introverted, also charming girlfriend.

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Out there around the camp, the fire was burning in my death; the death of my soul actually. The thick fabric of my tent was strong enough to shelter me for a while until I get rid of my stupid “companions”. Astarion, however, was the most stupid of them all.

I pushed away the fabric slightly to peeked at his tent which was a few meters away from mine. The gentle light of a lantern dimly lit his private place. He was awake; probably reading or taking notes. His voice rang in my ear.

“Even your spirit is of iron. I like that.”

I would be in a much more peaceful state of mind if he would shut his mouth for five minutes. But the more I explored in my heart, the more I realized that I would miss hearing his voice, his rich British accent, and the way his crimson eyes flamed with naughtiness.

I am always direct with my emotions. I either love someone to death, or I don’t even flinch if they are tortured in front of me. But my mind was beginning to be confused about him. At first, I loathed him just like how I felt about everybody else around me. He was no different. He was just a regular talkative, narcissistic, immature person who believed each and every one of his opinions were valuable.

But now, I couldn’t forget about the way his pale eyebrows rested, and his smile became true when he witnessed my monotone tone become a bit harsher when I was lol easily annoyed by others. When I pushed them away, and gave structres for our next move with a permanent glare on my face. And when I don’t seem to be bothered by the death of our companions.

If my calculations weren’t bteraying me, I would say that Astarion understood me, deeply. His guesses were seemingly right about the real person I was beneath these twenty layers of defense. This real person was as harsh as my outer facade, just even weirder.

I heard him stepping out of his tent, and I immediately closed the fabric door.

My heart raced in my chest.

I listened closely. His footsteps were approaching untill they stopped near the fire place.

“If it wasn’t for her analysis skills, I would not hesitate to throw her out of our way.” Gale whispered.

My lips curved donwards into a smirk.

“We owe her all this information we have gained untill now. Also, her presense is quite an entertainment for me.”

“Your opinion about her seems to be altering, Astarion.”

I didn’t hear him expressing anything as a response, istead he walked towards my tent. Quickly but silently, I crawled to my sheets, pretending to be asleep. A few moments passed after what seemed to be hours, untill I felt him sitting beside me. He didn’t say a single word, but his gaze weighed heavy on my figure.

“Are you asleep?” He murmured softly.

“…no… .” I replied with my eyes closed.

“So, may I?”

I opened my eyes to make sure he was not about to kiss me. Astarion gestured to my side.

“You may.” I crossed my arms, watching him getting comfortable next to me. He lied down on his side, and rested his head on his palm to hold it up.

“I couldn’t sleep either.” Slowly, he reached out his hand towards my face, and once he was not rejected, he shoved a wavy strand behind my ear. I wanted to grab his hand and keep it there, telling him how much I enjoyed this little act of affection. But instead I hid behind my stone face and kept glaring at him.

“Why?” I asked.

“Well, I was thinking about some certain things.” His voice trailed off as his eyes roamed down my body.

I kept looking at him, silently seeking explanation.

“Can I ask you something?” His grin faded away “Would you please don’t abandon us?” The blue cloud of sadness shadowed over his usually sunny gaze.

I raised my eyebrows in concern. “Who said I’m going to leave?”

“I am well aware that you are only tolerating this…” He searched for the right word. “…this companionship. I see that you are constantly looking forward to the tiniest chance to separate your way.” He put his hand on my shoulder.

“Stay with me, Atoosa. Please.”

My heart melted once Astarion called me by my real name instead of “Ombra”; a nickname so widely used by people that it had almost replaced the real one. It was just a simple Persian name untill he said it, and it was the most soothing lullaby.

And he just begged me to stay by his side not because he needed my iron bending powers and strategic mind, but because he’d miss me. Myself.

I frowned. “Why do you care?”

His eyes widened in shock. “We-well I am very sorry that I have found beauty in you! In your terrifying manners! In the way you don’t care about anything but your own goals! I am very sorry that I love you!”

My heart forgot to beat for a second. I did not trust my own ears. Astarion knew very well how to get what he wants by mere words. He knew how to fold those words in golden paper and sell it to you.

“Not all of your actions agree with that, Astarion. I’m not here to play your game.”

Suddenly, a large hand grabbed my jaw firmly, and forced me to look at him straight into the eyes. They were burning with anger and desperation.

“How many more days do I have to claw at any chances to save you from danger? How much more do I have to watch you from afar? How many nights do I have to stay wide awake horrified that you might leave us tomorrow? We two resemble more than you think.” Astarion closed his eyes and sighed deeply, loosening his grip around my jaw. “My apologies, darling.” He kissed where his fingers were pressed to although I did not feel any pain.

I leaned in and attached my lips to his. They were soft and cold. My heart beat blasted in my head as he kissed me back. The warmth of his mouth dropped on the dry skin of mine. Perhaps this time it was better to trust my heart, and let it rule over my exhausted brain. He was the angel to sew the bloodied feathers of my broken wings. He was the one on whose shoulders I could lean my head and sigh all my pain out without scaring him away.

I loved him.

“How can I just forget about you and run off?” I whispered.

Astarion chuckled, magnetising even more blood to my cheeks. “Ah, I knew you had a heart somewhere deep in your chest.”

I smiled. Astarion was the ray of sunshine through the thick clouds gaurding my heart.

All of a sudden, life was saturated with colors. I found joy in it.

For the first time in a long while, Astarion reminded me what happiness felt like.

#ombra the ironhead #bg3 ombra #my writing #baldur’s gate 3 #baldur’s gate 3 oc #Baldur’s gate 3 tav #bg3 #bg3 oc #bg3 tav #astarion #bg3 astarion #baldur’s gate 3 astarion #astarion x oc #astarion x tav #gale #gale of waterdeep #bg3 gale #bg3 fanfiction #baldur’s gate 3 fanfiction

[animeshrink]

Do you think Kakashi has OCD? The whole handwasching thing looks like a compulsion to me.

Ooh, good question!

*First, as a caveat and disclaimer, it’s hard to diagnose a fictional character and I am not making light of any IRL diagnoses, as OCD can be debilitating. So any and all answers are for entertainment-educational purposes only. If anyone suspects they may need additional services or therapy, please seek local professional help or if in immediate crisis, in the US, call 988*

As for your question.

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is considered an anxiety disorder or part of the anxiety family. Kakashi does have numerous symptoms of anxiety: he has anxiety attacks; displays symptoms of social anxiety; uses a security object in Icha Icha; has self-derogatory behaviors,  etc….So with that said, there is such a thing as trauma-induced OCD, in which a person can develop OCD or OC symptoms following a trauma, and Kakashi has a ton of trauma. Couple that trauma with someone who already has a genetic predisposition to anxiety and depression (his dad displayed severe anxiety and depression) and you will have someone who is at increased risk of developing trauma-induced OCD.  

For OCD, you have the obsessive and/or compulsive components. For example with the handwashing there’s usually an obsession that yields distress or discomfort, (e.g., being dirty, feeling contaminated, or something to that effect) and the compulsion, or action to relieve the distress of the obsession (e.g., the handwashing to remove the contamination). So, for Kakashi, what was his obsession? He had intrusive thoughts of seeing Rin’s blood to where those intrusive thoughts became an obsession. Would his washing Rin’s blood off be seen as a compulsion? Yes. It relieved his distress associated with intrusive thoughts of seeing Rin’s blood on his hands. What was his reasoning for the handwashing? To relieve distress.

When treating OCD, one of the first things assessed is if there is a history of trauma because untreated intrusive thougts can become obsessive thoughts.  So,for Kakashi, did he have intrusive thoughts – Yes, definitely. Did the intrusive thoughts become obsessive – Yes.  Now, here’s the tricky part, to be diagnosed with OCD, the person needs to have the presence of obsessional thoughts and/or compulsions, which Kakashi did have. However, the obsessions and compulsions must: 1) be time-consuming, last more than an hour a day, and 2) cause significant distress, and 3) impair work or social functioning. Does Kakashi meet this criteria? Yes, he had obsessions and compulsions. Do we know how much of his day they occupied – later we do, but more about that in a minute. Or how much his work and/social life was impaired? More about that later, as well.

If left untreated, OCD symptoms potentially last YEARS or even a lifetime. And we know how great nonexistent a mental healthcare system the shinobi world had, so Kakashi's would have been untreated. So, theoretically, if Kakashi has OCD, his symptoms would have lasted for years, into OG Naruto and into Shipudden, right? So, did his compulsions last for years? Or was it a one-time thing? More on that later. I know, so much left for later discussion, huh?

Obsessions and compulsions are often (spontaneously) replaced with new ones – it’s typically not just one and true OCD usually does not just go away on its own, just the obsessions and compulsions tend to cycle, with new ones appearing to replace the old ones, so, to outsiders, it looks like the disorder disappears.  So, his handwashing may not have lasted years - that we know of. However, and a big HOWEVER, one can argue that he replaced his handwashing with visiting the graves of his loved ones for HOURS. EVERY. SINGLE. DAY and that DID, in fact, last for years and DID affect his work and social life functioning – he was HOURS late to everything because he was arguably compulsing at the gravesites/memorial stone.

Along the same line, the reasons he was at the graves - he has obsessive thoughts about being considered a "bad person," as demonstrated in the war arc when he keeps repeating that he's trash and scum and tells Obito he's right. Odds are those thoughts are always present, or preoccupy a lot of headspace and time, but he doesn't verbalize them publicly (usually only at the graves/memorial stone). That would be considered obsessive behavior.

One can potentially argue that wearing his mask in public could constitute OC behavior - as it appeared to cause marked distress to him if he was faced with removing the mask - even at an early age. Note it's not uncommon for adults with OC behavior to display OC behavior as children, but that's another answer... And yes, he doesn't wear a mask as Sukea, but he wears makeup and gets to "hide," so in essence, it's another mask.

So, all of that just to say in this very long answer, that, yes, in all likelihood, Kakashi has symptoms congruent with trauma-induced OCD with potential OC symptoms/behaviors beginning in early childhood. Or you could say that he already had OC behaviors as a kid, but trauma made it worse.

#kakashi hatake has ocd #kakashi hatake #hatake kakashi #anime therapy #kakashi needs therapy #naruto therapy #naruto #kakashi has ocd

[beevean]

Really enjoy reading your analyses of Netflixvania. Makes me feel like I'm not crazy for disliking the series, since it seems most people really like it. I'm not a huge Castlevania fan (I wasn't even aware of any Castlevania manga until I read your posts), but the fight with Dracula at the end of season 2 just felt really off to me. Like every single character came out of it ten times worse than when they started. So I'm curious, what do you think of how Dracula was defeated?

I'm glad you liked it! <3 And I completely understand. The show gets praised to high heavens from everyone, and while I can dismiss the occasional "god i want to smother myself in alucard's tiddies" post, the long articles gushing about the stellar animation and carefully woven characters leave me more at loss... And like I said, it's not even a matter of being a fan of the games, the writing itself is seriously flawed.

Anyway, the Dracula sequence has me conflicted.

Pros:

Dracula is appropriately shown to be an absolute beast in combat. Three against one can barely scratch the guy. And Godbrand says in an earlier episode that Dracula hasn't been feeding regularly, meaning he's also in a weakened state. It is, in theory, viscerally satisfying to see.

The animation finally reaches the standards that the general praise attributes to it. That is to say, it's really fucking cool. I appreciated the focus given to his giant Hellfire attack, since it's his most iconic one (although I don't think it should be touched with anything, but eh)

The "my boy" sequence is the most heartwrenching scene in the show, both because it's simply well written, because I like the poetry that a monster like Dracula can only be put down by his own human emotions, and because Graham McTavish's back must have hurt so bad, carrying the show like that. Seriously, he's leagues above every other voice actor.

Cons:

Dracula being an absolute beast only makes me angrier in retrospect because the rest of S2 painted him as a Depressed Old Man™ slumping in his chair and being too Tired to properly supervise the war he started. "Carmilla has made her move" no shit you absolute dumbass, you and your lackey Isaac allowed her to do so! You were aware that she was dangerous and you didn't care!! Where were you all this time!!!

(and don't give me "well drac doesn't lift his own ass until the very last possible moment in the games either, it's lore accurate". that is a sign of arrogance and power. like drac doesn't need to lift a finger to stop intruders in their tracks, his legions of hell can do all the work. only if you actually, physically reach him, then he starts to fight. In the show he was so apathetic, that I almost lowkey agree with Carmilla's frustrations... and that's the point. It was artificial conflict for the sake of propping this OC.)

Dracula no-selling every attack paints the heroes as weak. Especially Trevor, who after making such a scene of the Morning Star in a previous episode can only piss him off with it.

Trevor punching Dracula, and him recognizing him as a Belmont because of that. The sheer lack of respect towards Trevor as a character and the source material cannot be contained :^)

(and this is minor, but I don't like how Sypha is the one getting scarred by the encounter. Alucard also got scarred by his father way back at the beginning, as he loves to flaunt. Meaning, Trevor is the only one who wasn't impacted by him, which boggles my mind - the scars that game Trevor has on his face and chest aren't there for show! They mark him as the Legendary Belmont who first survived against the Dark Lord! Why do y'all hate this guy so much?)

Alucard steals the entire glory. In a vacuum, it makes sense because they have the closest, most interesting relationship. Lore wise, this should have been Trevor's moment and once again he gets deprived of it. The Belmonts just don't have a legacy in the show.

Overall, For Love is a very well written emotional payoff to a huge waste of time. I don't care that Alucard is setting to kill his father because we barely know how he feels about that. I don't care that Trevor is finally about to fulfill his own legacy because the show kept spitting on it. Sypha is just there to be OP I guess. Their entire "arc" in S2 was them getting cooped up in the Belmont Hold, and Alucard and Sypha having fun being the biggest dicks to Trevor. They didn't even train! The most they did was to conveniently find that the castle uses an engine to move.

dracula doesn't even turn into anything :< where's my giant goat/bat monster form :<

... so I have more negatives than positives lmao. I agree with your general assertion that everyone looks worse than they should. However, there are genuine aspects to praise. I guess the scene is beautiful if you're a fan of Dracula and Alucard, and really disappointing if you're a fan of Trevor :P

#anti netflixvania #also yay i'm very happy that you learned about the existence of the cod mangas <3

[sprout-fics]

I just wanted to drop in and say, I really love your work. Like, a lot. Like I don’t even think I get tired of reading it. We can see you put A LOT of effort into your work and that alone brings me joy. You, plus three other authors are basically the only ones that have fed me during this long hyper fixation with COD which has probably lasted around a year or so. I get so immersed with the characters and I enjoy people giving actual thought instead of just writing whatever will get them attention. And tbh the fandom isn’t as abundant as it was before, and now I can only really find smut (which I don’t mind cuz I feel that some pieces of smut allows us to see into the characters more which I love cuz I feel like during sex you can see the depths of them and how they act and why they have certain dynamics— but atp most of the smut feels like pure brain rot but I digress) and your stories really help me enjoy the characters. Going back and reading and analyzing the characters plus your ocs is so much fun! The research you do to make it so believable and i know, you know this much because you said you literally study it (which to me that’s so cool 😭 ) and it really makes me think about the characters a lot. I swear every time you post feels like a reward, like it doesn’t have to be a fic but just a thought you had of your oc or the characters you write for. It’s always a joy seeing a post by you. But please do take care! You’re not a typing machine to be overwhelmed with these stories and you are certainly not getting payed for these. You do them for your own enjoyment and I hope you keep doing them because YOU want to.

So I will finish this blabbering session by saying thank you very much for your stories! Now they are pretty much engraved in my brain (I swear I feel like I memorized most of the lines of your stories) and I will never forget the care and effort you put into them! 👍🏻

ps- sorry for errors it’s literally so late rn

This has been sitting in my inbox for so long because I can't stop looking at it. I've read this a dozen times and I tear up every single time. This means more to me than I can ever say.

I have an incredible amount of doubt about my own writing. It's a fatal flaw that I am constantly comparing myself to others and wondering why the stories I have so much passion for don't get as much interaction as them. Yet I also know that I went through a long period of writing only the stories others wanted to see, and not the stories I was invested in, and it led to horrible burnout and anxiety- to the point where it fed into my depression.

There's still days I feel like that, but I'm trying very very hard to focus on writing the stories I enjoy, on writing them when I feel like it, and not treating myself like a content machine. I'm proud of my writing. I know there are things I can improve, but I'm proud of the things I create, and hearing this is something I cannot express enough gratitude for.

Thank you. Many hugs <3

#rainy day tag #words of encouragement

[sassykattery]

Blue Christmas

The holidays got me feeling down so I threw together a little something.

CW: Altaira is afab oc, uses she/her pronouns. Talks about some family issues/dysfunction, depression around the holidays. Reference to having sex at the end.

Pairing: Diavolo x oc! Altaira (established romantic relationship)

Characters: Altaira, Diavolo, Barbatos, Lucifer, mention brothers.

Themes: Romance, holidays, depression, family, found family

Minors and ageless blogs DNI

18+ only

Enjoy

"Yes... Yes, this is perfect! I finally found the perfect gift for Altaira, wouldn't you agree?" Diavolo admired his work aloud, turning his head to look at Barbatos for approval.

They stood in the greater living room where the Christmas tree was, grand and tall, the topper nearly scraping the ceiling. It was decorated in the royal color palette, red, black, and gold galore. Beautiful garlands encircled the tree, spiraling down around the delicate ornaments adorning the branches. Beneath the tree were mountainous piles of presents, nearly reaching halfway up the tree.

Barbatos cocked his head. "My lord? You used the singular "gift"... You bought precisely seventy-nine for her?"

"Isn't it wonderful?! Her first Christmas as my partner! I had to surpass any and all expectations, of course. Oh, she'll be so pleased," Diavolo beamed.

"I see. And... what did you tell her that you wanted for Christmas?" Barbatos inquired, tweaking the branches on the palace Christmas tree.

"I'm going to assume you're not shopping last minute for me by asking, so I'll tell the truth: Nothing."

"Nothing? My lord?" Barbatos cocked his head again.

"Yes! I simply want to see the joy on her face as she opens every single one. I can't be distracted! Plus, anything I ever want, I already have or can get easily. This year... I just want her," Diavolo replied with a softened smile as he thought fondly of Altaira.

"I'm here, Diavolo. Let's make this quick, I have six brothers and a lone human they all feel frisky for at home to get back to," Lucifer groaned as he walked in. "Today, Mammon and Satan– hell's bell's, what is this? Please tell me..."

"It's all for Altaira!" Diavolo gestured excitedly, his smile gleaming and tone jovial.

Lucifer frowned and folded his arms. The Demon Lord immediately lost his grin and folded his arms as well, seeing the look on his friend's face.

"Speak your mind, Lucifer," Diavolo commanded.

"...Have you ever asked Altaira how she feels about the holidays?" Lucifer asked.

"I imagine she loves them much like other humans, and we do as well," Diavolo answered, a bit naively.

Lucifer sighed. "I recommend you have a lengthy conversation about that the next time you see her... preferably before you give her all of... that," he gestured vaguely toward the mountains of presents.

"She's never expressed discomfort in it before," Diavolo replied in defense.

"Sure, but she's polite to a fault," Lucifer answered.

"How do you mean?"

"Altaira knows how much you love parties and celebrating... But you and I both know she's more of an introvert and prefers to be alone in her rooms," Lucifer explained. "She's not going to deny you a holiday party."

Diavolo stewed on this, unable to deny what his friend said. "She's never told me otherwise. Has she told you?"

Lucifer smirked. "From a person in a dysfunctional family to another, she and I have an understanding. And yes, we've talked about it. But it's better if she explained it to you directly."

He began to walk away from the royals and back to the House of Lamentation.

Diavolo stared at the Christmas presents he'd bought for her, all wrapped in the finest papers and bows. Black and rose gold they were, her royal color cast with glittering embellishments and designs.

Surely she loves Christmas... doesn't she?

"Hi honey," Altaira murmured as Diavolo brushed up against her, leering over her shoulder to see what she was doing. He watched as she signed some documents as her half of the royal decrees were being made for the new year at her desk in her personal office in the palace.

"That can wait until after the holiday, my love," he murmured, observing her.

"It's fine, I don't mind working," she answered.

Diavolo chuckled. "Aren't we a pair: One of us who avoids work and the other who actively seeks it," he commented in reply. She didn't say anything else, so he continued, "Is there a reason you're working?"

Altaira went silent as she pondered his question.

"The holidays aren't my favorite time of year," she answered simply. "It's easier to work and be occupied than to sit around and think about it."

He slipped his arm around her waist, pulling himself closer, his torso pressed to her flank, his head bowed low to talk to her.

"Can I be so privileged as to know why?" He asked softly.

She put her pen down and gave it some thought.

"The holidays wear on me after a while. It's exciting at first, getting everyone gifts and sharing joy... but the closer we get, the more stressful it is. Do I have a gift for everyone? Do I need to wrap or buy a gift bag? Is this enough? What are we eating? Who's hosting? And then there's the back and forth, the arguing, the miscommunication, the fights," She explained. "It's... a lot."

Diavolo nodded along, understanding her concerns. He waited until she was done.

"I hear you... It is a lot," he answered. "And I know that you tend to be hard on yourself. You raise your expectations and feel disappointed when they're not met. As far as the rest goes..." Diavolo chuckled and put his other hand on her shoulder. "That's what you do with the people you love. You fight, talk, argue, and so on because you want them around you. If you didn't talk at all... Well, would you even call them your family?"

Altaira sighed and looked to the side. "Well... Yes. I do. A good portion of my family I don't talk to because it's just easier than fighting with them."

The prince sat with this information for a moment, getting more to the root of her holiday blues.

"Since I don't have much family around, and I don't have your lived experiences, I don't know if I can speak much on that... But I hope that doesn't turn out to be the case with your family here," he finally replied.

"Darling, I–" Altaira quickly turned to face him, craning her neck back to look up at him. "I could never, and you know why? Because you're my chosen family. You and everyone else here I chose to call my own. I don't speak to my family to keep the peace. I think if I chose to stop talking to any of you, it'd start the next Unholy Wars." Diavolo smirked, and she relaxed. "My love, no matter how agitated or irate I get, I love you so much. I can't imagine my life without you."

"I understand, and I appreciate your words of affirmation. I just hope maybe someday... things can change for you. I just want you to be happy. But I don't wish to patronize you," he replied with a gentle smile. "However, knowing all of this begs the question... Do you wish to not celebrate Christmas?"

Altaira sighed. "No, honey, I do want to celebrate it. As grinchy as I can be about the whole thing, I come to enjoy parts of it. Like being with you," she answered.

He smiled wider. "We can do that."

"I don't mind doing our parties and whatnot... don't cancel them on my accord. Just make sure I have a glass in my hand and food in the other."

"I can make that happen."

"I did go ahead and get you something," she added with an ornery grin.

His brow went up. "May I know what it is?"

"Me, with a side of Demonus and some alone time in your room," she purred softly.

Immediately, his golden eyes were alight with lust and excitement. "Is that right? I can think of no greater gift, my treasure," he answered with a soft voice filled with trepidation. He paused. "Maybe one."

It was her turn to raise a brow.

"Let me put my ring on that finger, and that'll be the greatest gift I'll ever receive," he added. Altaira chuckled and patted his chest.

"We'll see," she replied as she walked away from her desk.

Diavolo followed her out and eyed the Christmas tree as they walked by the greater living room, spying the little rose gold box sitting between some of the branches up high and out of her line of sight.

"Yes, we will."

Thanks for reading <3

Tags: @delphi-dreamin @biteable-pink-pixie @attic-club-sandwich @flemmingbamse @itsmeninerz

#obey me #obey me shall we date #sassywrites #sassystories #obey me fanfic #obey me diavolo #diavolo x altaira #diavolo x oc #diavolo x fem oc #selfship

[garden-of-athena]

coming back to the voltron renaissance in 2023 made me think about the old fandom and the new fandom, and how they never changed.

mostly the hate for sheith and the fanon interpretations of the paladins. i was a sheith shipper and i still love them so much. but back then and even now, people will label those who like sheith, no matter who they are, "p*dos", "incest shippers", or simply "proshippers". this issue has been talked about in the past, but i still see it in the voltron fandoms renaissance, so i just wanted to put my two cents about this issue.

since the hate was born from the fanon interpretations i will start there (please keep in mind that these are my opinions and im writing about the things ive seen personally, back then and even now):

i will start with lance actually. lance in canon is the flirty, happy, jokester, or as pidge said "the goofball". he flirts with women sometimes, makes jokes, but overall he is a capable paladin, and he is great at longe range weapons. he has his own set of insecurities and has expressed homesickness in the show when they were still in space. his insecurities came from thinking what he brings to the team isnt enough. this isnt a rant about the show itself (mostly) so i wont be talking about his missed potential here, many lance lovers already did that. now in his fanon version ive seen, especially back then, his insecurities and homesickness was turned up to a 100. he had depression, and hid it behind a happy facade. this isnt my problem with the fanon character. i completely understand projecting onto a character ypu relate to, i do it all the time. my issue, in a lot of fandoms not just voltron, is that sometimes people bash other characters or make them unnecessarily mean just to angst another character. i personally hate character bashing with a passion. it honestly makes me a little mad sometimes, because the character is the exact opposite of what the fandom portrays them as. im not trying to generalize the entire fandom, but i see this a lot in almost every fandom. its usually only a single character that gets bashed too. when i look at something for the character from a show/book/etc i want the actual character, preferably with hcs i find cool, not oc content made out of them. i like oc content separately thats another thing, but making characters into what theyre not defeats the purpose of liking them in the first place. thats what i almost always saw with "langst". unnecessary character bashing, mostly keith, almost always keith. was the team mean to him sometimes? yes! but lance wasnt the defenseless victim in any way, he retaliated. thats the whole point of his own "rivalry" with keith. to push each others buttons. i love when people make hcs for characters even if i dont like them, but not when it erases another character entire personality or watering it down. that was my issue with fanon lance. he wasnt hated by the team. do i have hcs that dont align with canon at all? yes yes i do!!! thats okay!! but i try to keep their personalities the same.

next up shiro, my sweet winter child. shiro is the "hero", always willing to do whats good for the majority. hes the leader, the champion of the empire, hes calm when he needs to be, but hes also playful sometimes, and adventurous, and (from the pre-kerb flashbacks) even a little bit of an adrenaline junkie probably. most importantly, hes young. not a teen young, but a young-adult. his trauma made him seem more "mature" and "responsible", and yes while he is responsible, he is nowhere near parental kinda responsibility. his fanon interpretation make him a father figure to all, tired™️, wants to die, single father to 4 children, etc etc. personally, i dont see it. hes at most an older brother figure to the garrison trio. also he is keiths best friend. not parental figure but best friend. he is maybe the dad friend of the group and thats a maybe. because of the “father figure” hc, a lot of people hated on sheith bc “ew dude thats his dad/brother”. this kinda thing is not exclusive to the vld fandom either, because genshin has this issue too. i wont be talking about it in depth but another ship i like, zhongxiao, is hated because of the very popular “father/son” hc that is not canon. fandoms need to learn that just because a hc is really popular doesnt mean it is actually canon. the fanon shiro has the feel of a middle aged dad, when in reality hes barely in his mid twenties. he makes stupid laser sounds, jumps off of cliffs in a hover bike, and goes on rides past curfew with keith. he was the youngest pilot to ever go to the edge of the solar system, it was literally said in the show. he was most likely 21-23 pre-kerb and 25 in s1. people forget that yes shiro aged a bit in space but so did the others. also he was dead for like 3 season so i dont think he aged that much then. he died when he was 25-26, i really dont think people age when they die but thats just me idk. if you age shiro up while keeping the other paladins in the 16-18 range thats weird, and if you attack people because of that thats weirder. his responsible nature probably was caused by his trauma when he was the champion. he had to mature to survive.

now, onto my specialest boy, my babygirl, my universe, keith. i will admit that i have a bias when it comes to him, but its probably not what youre thinking. first things first, ill say this again in another post too, i hc keith as strictly mlm, meaning i dont like any pairings with him that involve a female character, especially acxa (bc shes my gf). this does NOT mean that i will harass people who like it. it just means i will block you if you reblog or like posts with it, because thats what youre supposed to do if you see something you dont like. this was just a heads up just in case. back to the actual rant. keiths canon character is that he has trouble trusting people, but hes still kind, thoughtful, and sometimes playful too. like in s1 where he was having fun with the team. he has a edgy exterior, likely because he wants to drive people away before they can reject him. he has trouble understanding social cues and such, he is fiercely loyal and protective of his loved one(s). his fanon interpretation watered him down to "edgy teen", or sometimes an asshole. he was seen as emo and angsty, friends are for the weak, and "shiros emo son/brother". they took away the times he has shown vulnerability and kindness. when he put others no matter what above him during survival. he is not someone that would be mean for absolutely no reason, his rivalry with lance was mostly one-sided because lance initiated and he retaliated. his inability to understand social cues was most likely due to a) growing up in the foster system b) people not making an effort to know him, like shiro did, and shrugging him off as the emo loner kid and c) his year alone in the desert after his expulsion. some people made him up to be an asshole, or just plain stupid (lance sometimes got the "dumb one" treatment from the show but ive never seen it in the fandom, feel free to correct me). he was seen as edgy and emo for acting the way he did in s3 after shiro disappeared and before they found him. the treatment keith got, from both the show and the fandom, was so so bad. especially when it came to his trauma, grief, and his self-sacrificing tendencies. after shiro disappeared post-s2 keith lashed out, he was tense, from losing shiro AGAIN. there are, as we all know, 5 stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. he had just gotten shiro back after everyone told him he was dead and then he lost him yet again, this time with no logical explanation as to why or how. he just disappeared, seemingly into thin air. there was no logical explanation, he couldnt linger in denial like before, because there was nothing to deny. shiro was gone. the others didnt understand, because they werent as close to shiro as keith was. he was their leader, their role model, their friend, sure but he was keiths best friend. the one person that didnt give up on keith even when everyone else did. their attempt at comfort fell flat, because they didnt understand what keith was going through, except for maybe pidge. keith didnt "get over it" at all, and it showed. it showed in his leadership, when he kept going after lotor, even if they kept getting their asses handed to them. i could make a separate long rant about hoe keith mental well being was always shrugged off, his sacrifices. another instance, was naxela, or however you spell it idk. keith almost sacrificed himself, almost died, to save everyone else. he was so so close to doing it that if lotor was even a second late he wouldve died. and no one acknowledged that, not even an "are you okay" from matt, who begged him not to do it. hell, shiro(kuron) even congratulated him for taking the shield down and saving them. imagine how fucked up it wouldve been if keith succeeded. keith self-sacrifices are never brought up, never acknowledged. the cartoon excuse wont work because the show did cover heavy topics at times. keiths inability to see himself as invaluable and important was further encouraged by the "mission before the individual" mindset. im about to lose my point and start ranting about keith.

now, sheith;

no sheith isnt incest. they arent and never was actual brothers (adopted or otherwise). the "youre my brother" line is what people always refer to in an arguement, but that isnt evidence. bc in s2 keith said "youre like a brother to me". "oh they have a brotherly relationship you cant ship them-" yes i can. yes i absolutely can. that arguement is literally just "smh cant two people be friends". because they are best friends first. and it was always keith saying those things, never shiro so i can make the arguement that if they had a brotherly relationship it was one sided. in the black paladins episode (still my favorite along the the bom) the clone didnt have a reaction to the "youre my brother" line, he specifically had a reaction to "i love you". there was a pause between those two lines, so i can make the argument that keith thought shiro only saw him as a brother, but when that didnt work, he confessed. but even without my own argument, they still are never brothers, otherwise they wouldnt have put a direct paralel between shiros ex-boyfriend and keith.

no sheith isnt a p*edo ship. keith in s1 was 18, and that wasnt even confirmed after a while. shiro was 25. in s6 keith was 21 and shiro, being dead, was most likely still 25. most people, like me, who shipped sheith started shipping them in s1, because it was clear they had a positive history. keiths first word was "shiro?" in the softest most vulnerable voice ever. shiro always showed concern for keith, the way the looked at each other was enough for people to like them as a ship. their wiki has an incredible amount of moments between them that can be interpreted as romantic. the ages were never an issue, if they were they wouldnt have said that they could be interpreted as romantic. even with the pre-kerb argument, because the ages arent confirmed, it never was.

this point is for shunk, shance, etc too. but bc sheith was and still is public enemy no1, i talk about them. sheith was popular, and at the time any ship with keith and lance that wasnt klance was hated by them, but sheith especially so. the fandom calmed down for a bit and now its back, i think, from what i saw. but the sheith argument is still going on. i got back into vld because of a keith edit i saw on tiktok, i wont lie. but the not so surprising thing was that sheith is still public enemy no1. you cant go one second without someone hating sheith and making fun of the shippers. its a "proship" apparently. hell my favorite keith editor literally has "shaladins dni". the hate for sheith specifically is still so strong. and its exhausting, i dont like people calling me a proshipper simply for liking a fictional ship that is in no way a proship.

i sat down for like probably an hour writing this just to get my thoughts out. i have been thinking about this for so long, even if this doesnt make sense or its stupid i really dont care. maybe tomorrow ill hate it, maybe ill delete it even who knows. im really glad that there are places where sheith is no longer shot on sight.

#sheith #voltron #rant post #really long post #this is just me ranting #feel free to ignore or tell me im wrong #im gonna be back to posting deranged posts after this dw dw

[omori-aus-archive]

OMORI OC: Eriko/Erika

FINALLY got around to making an OC. Ref is by @shrimperini.

PERSONAL

Her name is Eriko, nicknamed Erika. Eri is made from the kanji for blessing and reason. Ko is from the kanji for child. Erika, depending on the kanji, means "Blessed village/country of flowers".

She’s the older sister of Mari and Sunny. She’s approximately a year to three years older than Mari (so at most 22 years old) and has a variant of albinism (hence the eyes and hair).

She’s much taller than Hero and Artist (approximately 8 feet, because queens deserve to be tall), athletic, tattooed, and her defining trait is her rebellious nature.

She’s also a huge fan of Nightwish and Within Temptation and the most likely to commit an actual crime.

She is FASCINATED by zombies, witchcraft, and horror films, especially cosmic ones. She’d pay a lot of money to be learn witchcraft….

In regards to her size, it’s abnormally large for someone her age and heritage.

REGARDING THE SIBLINGS AND MARI'S DEATH

-Pre-canon-

Erika gives Sunny and Mari each a wash-off tattoo of their choice every single birthday. For Sunny, she also buys comics and plays games with him. For Mari, she will cook with her and bring her to concerts.

-During Canon-

She’s well aware that Mari died of an accident and that Sunny was somehow involved. She doesn’t blame Sunny. Instead, she blames her parents for their treatment of the two and herself for not being able to help her siblings enough.

She would take it upon herself to take care of Sunny, even though she was unemployed and currently going through some college.

Technically, she DOES have a Headspace counterpart. But she’s a fusion with Mari, based on the beta character Inko, and solely in Black Space as a representation of their shared remorse and sorrow.

With the mask, Inko looks more or less identical to Mari (just in a white kimono). Without the mask, she's more or less identical to Erika, though outlines of Mari and Erika appear along side her in pain (Left, purple, and emotional for Mari. Right, red, and physical for Erika).

-Post-game-

Her sibling relationship with Sunny is honestly tighter, because she’s desperate to make sure the past doesn’t repeat itself.

Her relationship with Mari though is…complicated. She still loves her and misses her, but…after finding out about the truth of the accident, she’s…disappointed that Mari and Sunny never told her what was going on.

She’s frustrated that Mari let her perfectionism blind her and didn’t let her help combat said perfectionism.

In remembrance of the pain and trauma Sunny and the group went through…and to remind her to never let Sunny bear the pain by his lonesome, Erika has Sunny and Basil’s SOMETHINGS tattooed on her.

-The Bad Ends-

Erika feels like she’s failed Sunny and Mari, having lost Mari to a preventable accident and Sunny to a preventable suicide. She did her best and yet it did nothing to stop these tragedies.

Erika unleashes her anger and sorrow at the group, truly believing that all of them and herself share a portion of the blame. And her parents? She makes sure that they regret treating their own children poorly.

-Mari and Sunny Live-

If both siblings survive, Erika tries her best to help Sunny calm down, before eventually talking to Mari. She’s honest with her emotions and explains that she’s disappointed and sad more than anything.

Erika explains that Mari shouldn’t be going after perfection, as it doesn’t exist, instead saying that her life is already “perfect” thanks to Sunny and her friends. Needless to say, this is a huge wake-up call for Mari. Unintentionally, this makes the guilt hurt a bit more.

Erika does her best to pull Mari and Sunny away from depressing thoughts and runs away with them, finally fed up with their parents’ treatment of them.

I’m not gonna go over #omari AUs as I think that Erika would be exactly the same with Mari as she is with Sunny.

RELATIONSHIPS

Love Interest: Artist (yes, Artist's an adult, as she's Angel's legal guardian).

Friends: Mincy, the Bread Twins, Polly, and other few individuals.

Acquaintances: Kel, Aubrey, and the Hooligans. She is, at best, okay with them. She’s also chill with Vix (@donuqx-art's OC).

Dislikes: Hero and Basil. She stopped Basil from falsifying Mari’s death.

Hates: Her parents, Kel’s parents, Aubrey’s parents, and Basil’s parents. From what she can tell, Faraway is cursed with AWFUL parenting. Which is why she has been trying to raise Mari and Sunny herself.

#omori #mari omori #omori mari #omori sunny #sunny omori #omori oc #Erika Omori

[letstalkwhump]

Let's Talk Whump

Welcome to Let’s Talk Whump, a series of interviews that spotlight the amazing people in our whump community! I’m Malice and I’ll be your host today. 

Here today to talk all things whumpy is the brilliant @another-whump-sideblog!

We’re thrilled to have you here! Do you mind starting us off with an introduction?

You can call me Cam, my favorite color is green and I have a snowglobe collection!

Let’s get straight to the point! What does whump mean to you? 

To me, whump is any media that focuses on pain (of any kind) and how the characters cope (or don’t cope) with it.

And how did you find the whump community? What made you want to join? 

I first got super into whump during a depressive episode. I’m not sure exactly why, but it was comforting. I read pretty much all I could find in the fandoms I was in, and then I just started searching whump in general! I actually don’t remember the first whump fic I read, fanfic or OC, or else I’d shout it out. For quite a while I was reading a lot of whump without interacting at all, out of fear of people realising I was into whump, but eventually I got over that and even started sharing some of my own whump writing!

Do you think your view on whump has changed since you joined? 

I’ve gotten a lot more into OC whump and less into fandom whump as time goes on. I’ve also gotten less afraid of publically liking whump.

Everyone’s favourite question: Favourite whump tropes!

I like pet whump and torture whump a lot. I also like long recovery arcs with imperfect caretakers. And I’m always a big fan of unreliable narrators.

Do you have a favourite piece you've written?

I really like the first chapter of Jane’s Pets. The style is pretty fun and I think it’s a good introduction to the series.

I love the format and second person pov! It’s a really intriguing idea! What does your writing routine usually look like?

I tend to write at complete random, whenever I’ve got a free moment. I write in my phone’s notes app, which is a bad choice but it would take too much work to switch over to something else at this point.

Do you find that some things are easy for you to write? Is there something you struggle with writing? 

I’d like to think I’m pretty good at describing characters’ inner feelings, and I know I’m not great at setting a scene or describing how things look or feel or things like that. I love writing dream sequences because then things can not make sense physically and I can purely focus on the emotion. I also struggle with editing. I tend to edit only very rarely, and usually only after I’ve already posted something. I just known that if I say ‘I can’t post this until I’ve edited it’ I would post things very very rarely lol.

And is there anything you're working on at the moment? 

I’m working on the season finale of season two of Jane’s Pets right now! I’ve also been trying to work on describing the world outside of my characters’ heads and not starting every single scene in medias res.

Do you have a joke or pun you would like to share to spread some smiles today?

Did you hear about the performer who fell through the floor?

It was just a stage they were going through!

I haven’t heard that one before, it’s good! Is there any writing advice you’d like to share?

Just have fun! I guess I don’t really have advice for professional writers, but for those of us here just writing stuff and putting it on the internet for free, there’s no need to get bogged down in what you ‘should’ be doing in your writing. Just do what makes you happy! 

Shout out to your favourite writing/whump blogs, bffs or people who've inspired you.

The first friends I made in the whump community were @whumpyourdamnpears and @whump-in-the-closet! Both are great people who I’m glad I’ve gotten to know!

Finally, is there anything you'd like to add?

Thanks for interviewing me, this was fun!

Thank you so much for joining us , @another-whump-sideblog ! 

And to all you swell folks at home, have a whump-derful day!

[fuckthisshitimin]

I am tortured by how good this fic I wrote during lockdown and never finished is. It's a damned Harry Potter AU. With Attack on Titan character. My protagonist is painfully 14 when he starts dating an adult, and 15 when they start having sex. It's one of the most self-indulgent fic I ever wrote. It's over 90k. I never published a line of it. I spent the day reading it and it hit the nail on the head every single time. The document stops when the protagonist is called out by a friend for relapsing after being sober for a month and saying "Fuck you I can do what I want", and his friend answering "And is that what you want?"

I wrote this when I was 20 and it's very much my teenage dream given flesh. There's everything. Drama, dogs, depression, drugs, friends giving haircuts and piercings to each other, vampire boyfriend, righteous anger, angst, the world very much revolving around my protagonist, pissing on Hogwarts, my first ever OC... It's so good. It is everything it is meant to be. It's so 'problematic' and 'unrealistic' in a way that feels so so so so so so good because it manifests and magnifies everything that was fucking with my mind. I can read my gender identity crisis seeping through the lines.

I so so want to finish it and publish it and the morality of it has me in shambles. I do Not Want to interact with the HP fandom, mostly. But guys it's so good. Some teacher messes up with my protagonist? He stops talking for a full month and his catatonic state is like. Everyone's problem. It's so satisfying. There's a line in this fic that is word for word something my then boyfriend had told me that crushed my heart. The projection is on fucking point. And also it stops when my protagonist is low and I want to see him get better. I can't try and take the best parts or the essence of it to rewrite it because I wouldn't write that story today and that's what makes it perfect. I can maybe finish it but rewrite things? Impossible. Aaaaah.

[narzissenkreuz-ordo]

i want to delete twitter So Badly. for multiple reasons but the fact that on my hsr doodle account has the biggest following and reception ive EVER had with any of my art, its still so hard to get traction on ANYTHING.

like i dont want to sound like im chasing for clout or demanding people interact with my stuff. it sucks so fucking bad that unless you already have 20k+ followers or whatever youre a nobody and it

and its so disheartening especially when a silly doodle i spent 30 minutes on gets like x10 times the attention as stuff i actually put effort and time and love into. especially since id LIKE to be able to illustration/character design a a career somewhat (its my only marketable skill) and idk how im supposed to stand out if no one can actually see my stuff.

and the fact. that ive applied for over 25 different zines the past year and got rejection emails every. single. time. makes me really want to give up honestly. i like drawing and sharing my stuff and drawing for ME via my ocs but i guess i just dont have the stomach to tirelessly market myself over and over and over and hopes for a very very slim chance to get any sort of opportunity. and idk. i dont like saying my art sucks or talk down to myself but ive been really self conscious as of late i guess. and arghh i made myself super depressed now :(

#i want to do hsr and genshin merch but the sticker store i DID have hope flopped massively so i dont want to pay to have stuff made #if its just gonna sit in a box unused like my last acrylic charm drop a few years ago #man i rlly do feel like shit now jfdklsfds #yappin

[calmlythrilling]

GET TO KNOW ME MEME

Name: Prinny, or on a very select few gaming platforms, Ele Pronouns: She/he/they Sexuality: I prefer to not label it Single/Taken: Taken, I think it's been 5 years? (i'm horrible with time)

THREE FACTS

- I technically made one singular game sprite for a pokemon fangame when I was in highschool. - I really like ciphers. I blame Gravity Falls, genuinely. The one cipher I've never seem to get right is Affine. It uses two different algebraic equations and it frustrates me to no end that I was in advanced math classes but never could properly understand how to use those equations. Every now and again I try again anyway to understand. Affine's my mortal enemy and I will defeat her one day. - I own like thirty different Olaf related Things. As in the Frozen snowman, yes. My favorite is this off putting garden gnome you could only nab at Kmart. Here's a picture of one if you're curious on what it looks like. I love talking about him.

EXPERIENCE

HOW LONG - Since out of the womb. I'm...almost not kidding, preschool age I did a lot of "playing pretend" and it was usually as pokemon with this one other pokemon obsessed kid, and at the time I was really obsessed with Chatot. Otherwise, my brother really liked starting up larp sessions with his nerf toys well into 7th grade I want to guess. For text based roleplay I'd have to guess when I was about 10 or so - parents gave me early access to facebook and at that time undertale was really popular.

WHAT PLATFORMS - Facebook was my first one, and then after that was either deviantart or minecraft - I don't really recall. After that I went to discord for rps and eventually twitter, and now I write on here!

BEST EXPERIENCE - Discord was really good functions wise if that makes sense(the organization you can put into it seperate chatrooms themed roleplays stuff like that) but I think I met the wrong group of people - they had it drilled into me for a WHILE that writing characters from canons was the equivalent of stealing someone else's stuff and you deserved to be bashed for doing such. You could only ever write and make ocs. If you wanted to write a canon character they endorsed just using the guy as a faceclaim and using a different name though! Twitter was where I have met my current friend group, and that has to count for something I think. Tumblr's has been the best in terms of people though.

MUSE TYPE

FEMALE OR MALE - Males. I guess my favorite types of characters tend to be men? As a kid I always loved the neurodivergent coded nerds or those that said they just say they were inventors, scientists, journalists, etc, or those labelled as evil/villains. The media I watch typically have these guys be men.

FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT - if anyone comes to me anymore about writing smut i think I'd just block them on the spot. I think otherwise I tend to write angst over fluff - even though writing angst can make me worry more over not writing properly, if that makes sense.

PLOT OR MEMES - memes. 100%. I can plot if needed but once that's been done I find myself having a lot of anxiety about "doing it right" and it's worse with plotted dynamics - I think I rush them because I know the end goal is X thing. With memes I find myself a lot less worried - I go with the flow and just writing on instinct and find myself more focused on getting the reply done and what could happen in the future - maybe this, or this, or this.

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES - I find myself writing longer replies whether I want to or not. For others, though, I just want a length I can respond to - I never really want people to both trying to match my length.

BEST TIME TO WRITE - I'm at my computer and phone a lot, so I think I'm pretty flexible? It's moreso however the day goes for me, if I end up sick or if my mood is really low or if I'm just mentally exhausted. So I can't really say for certain. I do have more struggles when it's winter though - seasonal depression issues - so hopefully when summer comes about it won't be so severe.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSES? - Half of the time I don't like answering this - I don't like being told I'm just like my villain muses, my anxiety tries enough to convince me I'm a terrible person when I'm likely not, so for mental sanity I will be saying no in regards to those people. There's my other half of muses though that are like Stanford or Zane, that I'm a lot more comfortable with saying yes I am like them, even if just a little bit.

#crushing those plaza heroes(dash games) #out of these shadows(ooc)

[queenofthecats]

Is it just me, or has their been an extreme misogynistic wave in every fandom? Not even just anime or manga, but even in every single type of media. Don’t even get me started on the weird fetishization of gay men, taking men’s trauma who are genuinely complex characters, and making them ugly twinks? Not to mention, the sudden second wave of romanization of mental illness?

Even shows that don’t have men as much, and revolve around the women, it’s happening. Why are all the female characters being gender bent with horrible x readers or ocs? I don’t think this is support for the queer community as much as I think it’s just another wave of misogyny and fetishizing. As a lesbian, it’s so uncomfortable. You can read stories about gay men, but that is not what most of you guys doing. You can head-cannon characters, but again, that’s not what is going on.

Don’t even get me started on the taking of lesbian characters and making them like men. These people will explicitly mention they do not like men, but somehow is in love with a male insert? Lady Dimitrescu and Velma especially.

I’m so tired of not being able to find any sapphic media in most fandoms, unless extremely main stream, because straight men find it attractive or straight women feel disgusted.

Not every character needs to be a male twink or lesbian who somehow is in love with men? Not to mention, the people who write this crap have no idea of what ACTUAL queer people are like.

I can’t even watch any type of media without this crap popping up. It’s so funny how you can find millions of fan fictions, edits, and all that for men who y’all make twinks, but people have to search for hours to find lesbian media.

Also, rewriting a male character as gay and making him feminine doesn’t excuse him of his actions. Nor does his trauma. I have met people with actual trauma that these characters have, I have been to mental hospitals, have depression and family issues and everything, it’s not an excuse. It’s not “hot.”

People feel embarrassed in real life, and it causes people daily struggles.

MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEMS, PEOPLE WITH TRAUMA, AND QUEER PEOPLE AREN’T YOUR FUNNY LITTLE PLOT TWIST OR FETISHIZATION. WE ARE REAL PEOPLE. If you genuinely can’t write people without making them be fetishized and for other people’s views instead of representation for said communities, then maybe you are just a bad writer. You can write trauma. You can write queer people. You can write people with mental health struggles. All without fetishizing them.

Pro tip: if the media you’re writing about said group is mostly viewed by people not in said group, especially while they’re leaving disgusting comments, you aren’t doing it right. Do research, talk to people, do whatever to stop writing characters like this. If you’re not going to write it like the struggle that queer people, people with trauma, and people with mental health issues face, then don’t write it.

#lgbt #lesbian #gay #media #video games #tv shows #fanfictions #mental health #trauma #anime #comics #manga #yall are nasty #fetishization #so tired

[cdelphiki]

Hey, Delphiki, I just needed to ask. I recently started writing for real and as I reread your stories I was impressed with the way you described places and body language. Please tell me you have any sources and it's not a five year writing experience thing or something. I have spent the entire afternoon trying to describe a characters bedroom

That’s funny you point out I describe places well, because I actually describe as little as humanly possible. I almost never describe a character’s looks unless it is directly important to the scene (like, his tan skin was ashen white, or his blue eyes glowed green, etc) and only describe rooms when it’s important. (So like I’ll have Jason walk into his bedroom and gawk at the fact there’s a couch there, but he hasn’t even noticed the curtains or the wall color or whether it’s a carpet or a hardwood floor. He doesn’t mention there’s a carpet until it gets in the way of him playing with legos, etc.)

I am personally a huge fan of allowing the reader to imagine everything themselves. It would be very difficult to create art from my Life Happens story, mainly because I guarantee you no one, or very few people, picture the OCs the way I do. I know exactly what they look like, but every single reader has created their own picture in their own heads because I never mentioned Jordan’s skin color or Paul’s body type. Which doesn’t make the readers wrong, by the way. I love that fiction can be interpreted a million different ways by a million different people.

As for sources, no I don’t have any. I took fiction writing in college, one single semester of it, and used it as a way to learn “the rules” so I could then discard whatever rules I don’t like. I have carded through the Elements of Fiction Writing series and have it up on my shelf, but I can’t claim to reference it often. Because I’m not presently pursuing publication, I just write however I feel like writing. This is the style I’ve settled into after writing consistently for 5 years.

I guess for your immediate struggle, ask yourself this: is this important? Does the reader need to know exactly how the room looks? What is important the reader know? Certain things are important, like the bed your character is laying on, or the carpet fibers she’s running through her fingers as she stresses about something, but the over all picture of the room might be meaningless. Unless you want the yellow wallpaper to symbolize depression. (Which I personally hate and will never do LOL but entire classes are centered around discussing that kind of meaning in fiction so it’s perfectly valid to write in that way if you want.)

[silverbladexyz]

Congratulations on 100 followers! You deserve every Single one of them for how amazing your writing is!

I noticed you were doing matchups so I decided to participate for fun, feel free to do anyone else’s if mine doesn’t have enough info for you! Sorry for being all over the place with it😓

I’m a 5’4” 1/16th Russian, 1/8th Asian Caucasian female and I’m 18 years old. I’m generally pretty energetic, but not overbearing energetic and I only fall asleep when my eyelids tell me to (unless I have homework due for a class I’m falling behind in the next day) and I’m not one to leave my dorm unless I need to eat or go to class or meet my friends/family. I take responsibility if I know no one else is going to do it in a messy organized way. I’m easily taken advantage of because of my naivety and gullibility. I act like I know more about death, murder, and dark things like that when really, I’m too weak to actually hurt a fly. I love to write stories, read manga, and watch anime. I’m not good at arguing my points, but I can make people addicted to things I’m obsessed with. If I become interested in something, I become obsessed with it, so I have read the light novels, Beast AU, seen the entire series twice and Dead Apple. I don’t mind spoilers though. I love making new OCs for different shows (but I’m EXCESSIVELY SADISTIC about it) and I love to read Yandere!Reader, Suicidal!Reader, Depressed!Reader, and [other anime character]!Reader, Character x Readers to soothe my depressive tendencies. I have severe epilepsy that’s near incurable and my grades are mostly A’s and B’s except for a couple classes with D’s. I eat like one or two meals a day (sometimes none because of medication) and when I do, it’s like two pieces of pizza or a tiny bowl of alfredo pasta, so I’m really skinny and light. I have slight acne, but it’s not too noticeable. You asked for people we dislike, I’m apologizing in advance, but I’ll just give you the characters I do like, crush wise or think-they’re-cool-and-would-want-to-be-friends wise. (I’m a total simp for Chuuya or Dazai’s death glare, especially when a slight shadow covers it)

Characters: Dazai, Ranpo, Yosano, Kyoka, Kenji, Tanizaki, all Beast!ADA except the President and Kunikida, Kouyou, literally any Chuuya from any plot point, Akutagawa, Gin, Tachihara, Elise (don’t match me with her, she’s just really cool and funny but way too young), PM! Dazai (both Beast! AU and regular series), Mark, Fyodor (the dub accent tho❤️❤️❤️), Nikolai, Tecchou, Jouno, Teruko, Odasaku

I have a problem…😅😓😭

Heyyy sariel!!! Tysm, and no, it's not too over the place, and the info was quite sufficient 💗

The images do not belong to me. They belong to their original owners.

Calculating...

Your sibling figure is... KENJI MIYAZAWA!!!

-He's such a sunshine omg

-Kenji is always smiling and encouraging you. He always manages to brighten up your day, and he loves seeing you smile as well

-I feel like he wouldn’t really understand the dark things you like (he’s too innocent for that) but he will smile and say ‘That’s so cool!’

-Kenji is interested in reading your stories. He will always give you constructive feedback, and it actually gives you motivation to write. He’s always the first one to read your stories <3

-Kenji is lowkey worried for your health, because he has never met anybody who ate quite little food, or sometimes nothing at all. Definitely gets you some light but nutritious food from his own village, and trust me those foods work like magic

-He doesn’t mind chilling in your dorm with you. You could be studying, reading, doing whatever, and Kenji will either doze or read a book to keep you company. He makes little to no noise or distractions, and his presence actually helps you focus more on studying

-If you need help with moving something heavy, just ask Kenji! With his super strength, it’s easy for him to move almost anything, and he loves helping you. He would even like to give you piggyback rides if you asked

-Hugs and headpats!!! Kenji was probably a bit inexperienced when it came to platonic affection, but in time he’ll love it and he might even start doing it back to you. Sometimes, his headpats would end up ruffling your hair and making it look like a mess, but he would stop if you asked him to

-He will read and watch the mangas and animes that you recommend to him. Just please keep it suitable for him

-Kenji would like to take you to his village one day and to let you meet everybody back at his hometown. He knows that you would be welcomed, and he’s quite excited everytime you ask him about his village

-If anybody takes advantage of you, Kenji wouldn’t be afraid to teach them a lesson with his super strength. But everybody in Yokohama knows not to make Kenji angry anyways, so you’re safe ^-^

-If you’re having a bad day, Kenji will smile and say some of the sweetest things ever to you that just makes you smile too. He knows just how to cheer you up, and he’ll be happy to cheer you up forever <3

-He does ask Yosano on some tips for your health, or he sometimes sends back to his village for some medicinal herbs that always worked

-Overall, he is the BEST YOUNGER BROTHER EVER! Also he’ll never be annoying towards you, because he is too sweet to do that 💗

And your parent figure is... YOSANO AKIKO!!!

-Yosano is a chill, but kind of strict parent figure

-She worries about your health, and buys you medicine that helps you. She wishes that she could heal you with her ability, but unfortunately her ability could only heal physical wounds. She does make you food that helps you become stronger though

-Yosano also likes dark stuff herself, especially morbid stuff. So you two could literally have a chat about anything dark and not worry that the other person can’t take it. However, Yosano does remind you about the value of human life

-If you’re feeling depressed, Yosano will try her best to help you with it. She has a few ways to help your depression, and they work all the time. However, if you want to be left alone for a while, she understands and won’t push you

-Yosano is pretty strong. So if anybody hurts you, you bet that she’s going to bring her cleaver, beat them up and also teach them a lesson that they’ll never forget. She is pretty intimidating when she wants to be

-Brings you out shopping with her sometimes, but she doesn’t buy too much stuff since she doesn’t want you to carry anything that you can’t handle. She’ll also buy you whatever you want, as long as she approves of it

-If you ever get hurt, Yosano would give you extra special treatment. She reserves the best bed in the infirmary for you, and she’ll make sure that you aren’t in any sort of pain

-Anime nights!!! Basically you two would chill at your dorm or hers while watching any type of anime you liked while eating popcorn. Yosano likes spending time with you and she has pretty similar tastes in anime. I headcanon she likes Tokyo Ghoul and Assassination Classroom

-Also tries to be a good mother figure to you. If you engage in activities that are harmful to you, Yosano would be quite strict and bans them from you. But please understand that she wants the best for you

-Overall, a headstrong, cool mother figure that is a girlboss

And last but not least, your mentor is... DAZAI OSAMU!!!

-Dazai doesn’t really mind your knowledge and interest in dark stuff. Afterall, he was the demonic prodigy of the Mafia, and people all around him were accustomed with death and blood and whatnot. Doesn’t mean that he won’t be a drama queen when you do say something quite dark

-He does hate how you get taken advantage of though. Dazai knows how easily people could get manipulated and used, and he himself is familiar with the act. But the thought of somebody taking advantage of his student? Definitely gives you tips and hints on how to recognise signs of manipulation, and it actually helps

-Dazai has quite an interesting way of teaching you. He’ll probably suddenly show up at a random time to talk with you, then he’ll disappear afterwards leaving you having no idea what was going on. But slowly, the pieces fall into place and at the end of it, you’d have learned something new as well

-He’d still be his usual self around you; which means talking about su1c1de, women, and just being chaotic. Many times you have to save him from his su1c1de attempts, but it’s often because it was part of his plan for solving a case

-He is also a kind of chill mentor. Dazai won’t lecture you unless it was absolutely necessary. Even then, you still don’t want him to lecture you because he can be scary if he wants to

-Dazai uses any opportunity to turn stuff into a lesson. He’ll do it discreetly though, and it’s so discreet you wouldn’t even notice that it was by his intentions

-He is a bit concerned for your health. Afterall, he knows that having a fragile body could hinder many plans and jeopardize your safety even more. But he asks Kunikida to train you in some basic self-defence that your body could handle

-So Dazai teaches you how to be cunning. More specifically, he teaches you how to outwit the enemy, and how to gather more information than your opponent. His lessons are quite interesting, and more than once his tactics had proven quite helpful to you

-He would give you hard cases that he knows you could handle. Dazai is one to push you past your limits, but he will make backup plans if you somehow couldn’t handle it

-Dazai cares for you in his own Dazai way. Which means that you’ll always have his support; even if you couldn’t notice it, but it’s definitely there. He knows that you can handle yourself, but Dazai will still help you if he thinks you need it

-He would also teach you the tricks to winning an argument. Dazai himself is quite witty and quick-thinking, and he would love to see you be able to win an argument. But please don’t go around starting arguments because you can win them now, even if Dazai finds it amusing

-Dazai would probably open up to you slightly, but his mask is still there. Please tell him that you appreciate him for teaching you and how much you care for him. He isn’t used to any sort of affection and I guarantee you it’ll be a sight to see

-Overall, Dazai is a strange and interesting mentor who actually wants to see you succeed

@sariel626

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[starrygalaxy04]

"Psycho" {MLQC Lucien x Reader}

Summary : After a bad breakup, you use singing as your coping mechanism. You just happened to be singing a little too loud, and Lucien comes in to check on you and even joins in. (Gavin is an OC, not the MLQC character)

(Song used in this fic is "Psycho" by Taylor Acorn)

(Characters except Reader are not mine, neither is the song!!!)

You just couldn't keep it together. The anger, the pain, it all was desperate to be set free. Gavin had cheated yet again, a serial cheater in the worst way. This was the last straw, and when you said you were done, he spat the harshest words at you. Called you every single insult in the book that every scorned and unwilling-to-take-accountability boyfriend would throw at his girl before she left.

So now you're back home, your heels cast aside as your Spotify blares from your TV. You know you have neighbors, but can't bring yourself to care as you blare your angry playlist, singing and screaming at the top of your lungs. Your ruined mascara has long dried, and your hair is a mess of tangles. You just keep singing, venting out all of those emotions you could never vent any way else.

A knock on the door breaks you out of your singing binge. Surely it was a neighbor who was about to fuss at you to turn the music down. You huff before opening the door, only to find a concerned Lucien standing behind it. His pale eyes are wistful with a hint of concern as he looks down at you.

"Are you alright? You're blaring your angry songs."

Out of everyone you knew, Lucien was the only one who knew just by the song what playlist you were listening to. He had become so accustomed to your music taste that a single song would tell him entirely how you felt. You don't reply, instead moving aside so he can come in.

He walks in, taking in the state of the living room as you shut the door. There's half eaten take out, which you planned on finishing before you began your singing binge. Your shoes rest in two entirely different places, and your jacket is slung over the back of the couch. The TV is still playing songs from a playlist simply titled "ANGY". Yes, something was definitely wrong.

Lucien looks back at you with furrowed brows as the song changes, your eyes glued to the lyrics scrolling on the screen. Its the staple song you picked out for that good-for-nothing man. Lucien looks at the lyrics then to you, waiting for the damn to break. You're silent til the chorus, and then you begin screaming all over again.

"So, let's play a game

Where I throw a little brick through your pretty little face You're easy on the eyes but you're easier to hate An angel's gonna fall if you come around If my name's still on your tongue, then I'll rip it out

Since I'm already the bad guy in your head, I'll hit you with my car and I'll leave you for dead And I'll always like the view from the high road but baby for you, I'll be your psycho I'll be your psycho

I'll be your psycho

I'll be your psycho"

Lucien seems to easily put two and two together, coaxing you into sitting down as you continue to sing, tears streaming down your face as you scream the chorus one last time. It seems to be cathartic for you, so he lets you. The lyrics don't even seem to phase him as he wraps a comforting arm around you.

He doesn't ask questions as the song ends. He doesn't have to. He simply hands you your takeout, making sure you finish eating before getting you a glass of water. He watches you, makes sure you drink it, before he turns down the volume of the music.

"I assume things went for the worst?" He looks almost sad, placing a comforting hand on your shoulder.

He had been partly your therapist throughout this entire relationship and had been the first one to suggest that if your ex was standing you up he wasn't the right fit. He hadn't pushed you on it, but you know part of him loves and hates to be proven right. He's proud of you for doing the right thing, but is also here to listen to you. Whether its depressed or sad rambling, or just screaming angry songs to get those emotions out.

"Want me to join in?"

His voice is soft, a smile on his lips. You wordlessly nod, changing the song to something he's more familiar with. You both sing along, albeit much more quietly, spending the night in the comfort of his arms. It would take a while for the wounds to heal, but with Lucien around it didn't seem so bad.

#mlqc lucien #mlqc x reader #mlqc #mldd #hurt/comfort #screaming #songfic #drabble #Youtube

[novantinuum]

ooh pen/paintbrush/pastels for aryll?

Thank you much for sending some in, fren <3<3

Writer/OC meme source

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Pen- What’s one minor moment your character regrets? A small mistake, but something they “can’t erase”?

In a sad way, a lot of the little things young Aryll regrets are moments when she gets hurt on the road, or has to admit to her weariness or hunger. She fear that she's just slowing her brother down... and every single second they linger on the road is a second of his important quest he can't ever get back.

Another thing she regrets years later... is the fact that her first meeting with Purah didn't exactly give the best impressions. Child Aryll was quite overbearing in her excitement during that introduction, and she feels like the researcher has been a bit standoffish ever since. Like... Purah tolerates Aryll, but she doesn't get the sense that she particularly likes her.

I think Purah's opinion of Aryll softens the older she gets- but they're never "besties" or anything. There's always gonna be a bit of friction with those two.

Paintbrush- How often does your character “brush over” conflict instead of facing it head on? Is there something specific they don’t like to face, or do they avoid conflict as a whole?

Hmm... So, especially as she grows older, Aryll is the sort of person who is more than willing to tackle physical conflict, but emotional conflict is daunting to navigate. She kind of inherits some of Link's worst emotional repression traits over time, just via subconscious emulation.

The largest conflict she has not to date (as of Young Adult Aryll in TotK times) gotten around to fully processing are those lingering fears of abandonment. This stems right back to her older brother essentially disowning the family back pre-Calamity, disappearing from their lives without a trace or even an explanation. Aryll likes to believe that she's gotten over the lingering scars of this with the Link she knows now, but I think it still bothers her that she'll never understand the reason he walked away in the first place. (Aka Link has never gotten back those memories, and at this point probably never will.) Thus, I think there's a small part of her that feels like she's eternally destined to walk on eggshells around him, least he decide to leave her behind again.

On a related note, I have a mid TotK fic scene in mind that (content warning: mental illness, suicide attempt) involves Aryll responding in a bit of an ugly way to Link's gloom sickness heightened depression. She does not take too well to learning that her brother tried to drop himself off a sky island without his paraglider, and momentarily makes it about her in her mind. Y'know, in that sort of "how dare you almost kill yourself and leave ME behind" sort of way. She IS able to course correct when called out on it by another individual... and from then on re-centers herself to give as much support to Link as she's able. I think it only makes sense that this would be her instinctual first reaction with her personal traumas, though. A realistic fatal flaw.

Pastels- Give me three colors that best represent your OC. Now give me three colors that your OC likes best. Is there an overlap?

Ooohohoh, color theory! Love me some of this.

Okay, so as the author, picked from a piece of artwork I did of Aryll... here are the three colors I feel best encompass her story:

The light yellow was color picked right from the shiny part of her hair- and it not only represents her as a person and her connection with her brother- also a blonde- but also her sunny disposition and ability to look on the brighter side of things. She is the daylight of Link's journey, even when the clouds set in and the roads grow stormy.

The turquoise was color picked from some "green fire" on the background of The Ballad of Aryll's cover art, and represents Aryll's connection to the spiritual realm... a very large part of her character and story which will be explored more as the story goes on.

The sorta burnt red color was colored picked from the red of the combo Hylian/Sheikah crest on Aryll's shield, and represents her heritage. It's a color seen associated a lot with both societies.

On Aryll's side, I feel like she'd very much love the light yellow and the red- and some of the art I've drawn of her features her clothed in these colors, but turquoise is the odd one out. It's not a color she would choose for herself. If she could pick a third color all her own, it'd be this:

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