#extremely depressing

[chaosinstigator]

ngl… my excitement for this weekend literally vanished last night

#daniel ricciardo #danny ric #dr3 #f1 #formula 1 #dutch gp 2023 #I’m trying so hard to find it back but - #listen danny fans yall know #the emotional toll we’ve been through the last year #or two years depending on how long you’ve been watching but I’m baby I’ve only been here for a year #but seeing him lose his happiness and his seat… spending the first half of the season without him just going nutto for the glimpses we got #here and there and then BAM surprise we get him back! but no it’s 2 races and then A MONTH OF BREAK #but it’s okay bc he’s excited he’s ready he’s COOKING and then yesterday #the emotional roller coaster I am exhausted #I can’t imagine how he feels after all this but we know he’s got great people around him thankfully #anyways yes so now that I have a taste of him enjoying being back in a car.. seeing another x amount of races he’s forced to sit out feels #extremely depressing #I honestly don’t know if I’m up for it and like ofc I do root for other drivers but they’re not Danny yknow? idk maybe I’m just a lil dumb #joey rambles #sorry sorry I’m in a sad girl moment tm rn #which is not great since I have to go to a work thing tonight

[dreamingdeadly]

me coming online eager to spam people with my mutuals' homestuck art on this special day only to find half of them have mysteriously disappeared

#granted this was on insta. tumblr/twt homestucks i know youre still around and i appreciate you for it #cant find most of my old insta homestuck mutuals though #extremely depressing #chat #homestuck

[butevrythinggoesaway]

Okay but Pavitr is quite a cheerful guy, so I think it'd be funny if he teamed up with Noir at some point, like the sheer difference between them. Pavitr is like it can always get better while Benj is lying in a gutter with someone pooring cheap booze over him

#i don't think this counts as spoilers #we already know from trailers that he's happy to be spiderman #and noir is like. depression extreme #into the spider verse #spider-man noir #spider man noir #spider noir #spiderverse #spiderman noir #spidernoir #marvel noir #spider-noir #pavitr prabhakar #spiderman india #atsv #across the spiderverse

[isolatedgirlthing]

#plushies #plushblr #stuffed animals #i sleep with a bunch of plushies in my bed every night #at least 1 always hugged to my chest #i dont understand how some people dont tbh #i didnt for years but i was also extremely depressed so

[super-nova5045]

sylvia plath, todd anderson and virginia woolf (aka ACTUAL tortured poets) watching taylor “im breaking up with my boyfriend for his intense depression and blaming it on him, im dating a racist who enjoys watching woc being brutalized and harasses young woc artists, i sent my fans out on a hate train to attack a young woc actress for a line she had to say as part of her job to show how mentally ill her character was, im dating a maga supporter, i refuse to say anything about a current genocide despite being the most influential person in the world right now, i am a billionaire, i fly 13 minute flights and have the highest carbon emission of any celebrity, i am a known white feminist who only speaks about issues when it affects me and has constantly let my fans get away with extreme racism and even encouraged it by associating myself with known racists” swift call herself a tortured poet (her writing sounds like a bunch of thesaurus words slapped over gabba hanna and rupi kaur-esque poetry that was created purely as a trinket for an edgy pinterest board)

#anti taylor swift #like she can be problematic that’s okay #there are SO many problematic artists i like #but she’s not even that good #like read sylvia plath or virginia woolf or listen to LDR or fiona apple or mitski or lorde or boygenius or olivia rodrigo #aka her peers #and realise how much better they are #they truly write art because they have a compassion and rawness for it #whereas taytay only writes to get more money LOL #she’s so extremely privileged that her life is not at all relatable and now she tries to make it so #by romanticizing the most mundane #thats never been your brand babe now it’s going to sound like dogshit #GUTS by olivia rodrigo is better because it has such an intensity to it. liv means what she says and you can feel it! #fiona apple means what she says when she writes about begging her lover to love her back! #mitski means what she says when she writes that she is self destructive and puts herself in bad situations since that’s all she knows! #lana means what she says when she writes about her suicide attempt at 15 because of constant abuse from her mother and crippling depression #all of it such haunting and beautiful works because it truly comes from the soul and isn’t a cash grab #Anyway i’m so sorry virginia and sylvia and todd #todd anderson #AND JOE ALWYN #joe alwyn my favourite man ever #joe alwyn #dead poets society #anderperry #sylvia plath #virginia woolf #the bell jar #lana del rey #fiona apple #mitski

[nipuni]

My dad died yesterday, he was 63

I would like to share a little about him and our story if anyone wants to read, this is not a happy story

My parents divorced when I was three and I went to live with my mom so I saw my dad's life in snapshots, once a week at first and then once a year when he moved abroad and I would spend the summers with him. Every time I would catch up with him he would have a different partner or apartment.

My time with him was always fun, he was laid back, adventurous and open, he would let me do all kinds of crazy stuff while my mom was the strict one. He was a genius to me, he taught me how to program my own games when I was nine, he would make me take computers and appliances apart and reassemble them to teach me how they worked, he made me love science, the outdoors and travelling. He was great at teaching and cooking and driving. He worked on tours for famous musicians as a sound tech, he made 3D films for museums and theme parks when it was all very new, he was a photographer, a programmer, electrician, mechanic, artist and could play many instruments and write poetry!!

The first crack between us was when there was a huge split between my mom's side of the family and his over money and a lot of ugly truths stared coming to light. I realized that when it came to money he was willing to put himself before me and the fights between him and my mom were awful. But in the end once the dust settled we both pretended it never happened.

One weekend I went to visit him and realized his current girlfriend would stick around at last and she had a daughter almost my age!! I now had a little sister and I loved it.

A year later the country fell apart and he fled abroad along with them and even though I missed them I would visit for months at a time every year. I saw him start his life over, he started his own company and I was so proud of him!!

Everything was great for eight years, until one day he told me that my step mom and sister left him and he would sell everything and come back to the country. This was the last time I would ever hear of them, they vanished, I mourned my step sister for years. This was also when his life fell apart.

At 17 adulthood came with a lot of revelations. My mom told me that my dad had been an addict since he was very young, before I was born, my whole life, cocaine and alcohol amongst other things, and everyone around him had been putting up with it and helping him but couldn't take it anymore. He had cheated on her when they had me and had cheated on my step mom too. He would lie to get what he wanted and trusting him was getting increasingly harder.

All of my memories of him were now seen through a different lens. I felt betrayed. I could now tell every time he had been high, and knew where the money he asked of me when to, I was aware of every little lie. I was angry and frustrated at him for the pain he caused my mom and everyone around him. And for squandering the potential I knew he had, for always making the wrong decisions, one mistake after another. And I hated feeling this way the most.

After he came back to the country alone he could never recover, he would relapse, overdose, refuse rehab or any medical help. He would escape psychiatrics facilities and hospitals in the middle of the night, he was a menace!! lmao.

Our relationship was still good despite all this, different but still standing, he had always been my friend even if he wasn't the best at being a dad or partner, I would always scold him and tell him of different job opportunities I came up with for him to try out but now there was this distance between us. I became the parent of the relationship in a way and he didn't like being told what to do. I saw him spiral and I was scared for him.

I've always heard all these stories about addicts finding purpose and fighting for their loved ones, so every time he would jokingly talk to me about how high he was and seemed to enjoy it despite my warnings and pleading it made me feel like I was not enough of a reason to get better, as self centered as it may be I was a teen and I felt powerless to stop him, insignificant. People could get better for their children, but not for me.

I knew this way of thinking was flawed and selfish and he was the one struggling, I knew he was a victim. I spent the last of my teenage years and early twenties trying to fight back this feeling so I could preserve our relationship, we always kept in contact but over time he changed and was no longer the person I knew.

He became a stranger, often times incoherent and delusional, his views changed, he was paranoid, his addiction got worse and worse and now all I could feel was pity and guilt, our once good relationship was now reduced to a few interactions where he would ask me for money, I knew I was possibly funding his self destruction and he was likely lying to me but he also needed to pay for medication and so I couldn't refuse him.

I had my own life now, a husband and plans for the future. When I decided to move abroad a few years ago I knew our hug goodbye could be the last, he was broke and unstable but I thought once I was settled and had a job and a citizenship I could have enough money to get him tickets to visit and show him the life I had made for myself like he had done in my childhood.

But then Covid happened, and he would never agree to make calls. Soon after he was diagnosed with cancer, I would ask about his health and he would say he was fine. He wasn't fine, he was smoking 4 packs a day. He got the cancer removed but refused further treatment, he said he didn't have any purpose left in life and no reasons to keep living, he had a stroke and couldn't feel half his body when he was forcibly hospitalized, his cancer had spread and he hadn't been eating for a long time, he hid all this from me, I first heard it from my aunt in tears over the phone yesterday, he tried to escape the hospital in the night and had to be tied up and sedated, he never woke up.

He died alone, all that is left of his family is me and my aunt and we both live in different countries. There is nobody there to even bury him. I feel like I abandoned him. I've always known I would feel this way when this day came, in a way I've been mourning him for many years and have carried this guilt for even longer.

I had the coolest dad, cocaine took him away. I wish this had a better and uplifting message. I just wanted to get this off my chest. He taught me a lot and made me who I am, and I have a lot of great memories with him. He struggled all of his life with his mental health and despite it all he was still amazing and deserved so much better.

He always said that when he was a ghost he would follow me around, I hope he isl!! so I can live for both of us, I love you dad!! and I'm so sorry 🕯️

#personal #extremely so #tw death #tw drugs #I'm sorry for the depressing post

[horror-aesthete]

#shame edward little power hour #hes a sweetheart but hes definantly the most gormless of crozier's... informal rat pack? #its especially funny in the book where little and jopson have more scenes togeather #crozier's two sons #and its like- thomas jopson; beautiful. caring. super type a. hyper competent #and edward little- what if a potato was sentient and had depression #personal #amc the terror #the terror #extremely cursed terror posting #horror movie memes

[tangledinink]

Did leo deal with his pregnancy differently or was it the same as donnie?

Leo's pregnancy was very different from Donnie's! For him, quite frankly, the pregnancy was the easy part.

the really hard part came after.

[ ✩ the gemini ✩ ]

#handing postpartum depression to leo like its a present. merry christmas-- #he and donnie have. like. basically the opposite experiences in a lot of ways. #dont worry tho leo gets better. he has his whole ass family and lots of friends and a wonderful partner to get him through it #antidepressants are also extremely helpful #but for the first month or two after kame is born his stupid hormones and brain chemicals really put him through it #also the fact that leos baby was the most high maintenance fussy anxious cry-y baby ever did NOT help tbh #gemini au #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #tmnt #tmnt 2k18 #rottmnt leo #rise leo #tw pregnancy #cw pregnancy #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the turtles #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt disaster twins #fidgetwing #usagi kame

[chunkysoup22]

#sorry for not being the artist i used to have been extremely busy and extremely depressed #my art #twilight sparkle #mlp

[prwlnglthr]

manic depression has a-captured my soul...

#old vent art! whenever I spiral I do these extremely fast sloppy doodles to try and keep me from TOTALLY losing it #the mixed-manic ones are much much more fun to look at than the depressive spiral ones... #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #fe3h #spx art #spx fanart #spx digishit #spx chicken scratch

[1im-perfect1]

I love how the interview with the vampire trailer is sexy and mysterious and then the show is a borderline dark comedy about the retelling of vampire history's most cringe fail marriage between the worst case of catholic guilt and eldest daughter syndrome being romanced by a dumpster fire gremlin that thinks more with his heart and dick than his non-existent brain and the coolest character in the whole story is their murderous daughter

#and the interviewer is an almost old flame of the vampire #that spends half of his screentime making snarky comments about the vampire and his ex-husband #to adapt it to a modern audience they could have gone extremely dark and nihilistic or embrace the camp and weirdness #I'm glad they went with the latter bc it gives them more room to explore the story and themes #Instead of just going for dark and gloomy and depressing #iwtv #iwtv amc #iwtv spoilers #lestat de lioncourt #louis de pointe du lac #claudia de lioncourt #daniel molloy #Interview with the vampire

[artbytesslyn]

its important to remember that long term chronic pain rewires your brain so even after you find a treatment plan that relieves some or all of that pain, you're still gonna have days where you wanna tear all your hair out.

it might feel like it's for no reason! but its cos your brain has new highways in it and traffic still goes thru there whether it makes sense or not

if you're having a bad day, just let your body have a break. Don't try to rationalize it cos the conclusion you might come to is 'wow even with treatment I'm useless' and that's always bad. If your brain and body are telling you "I Can't Do That Right Now", even if you can't figure out the reason, just listen

#tess talks #this is very hard to put into words #also you might be on meds that simulate the depressive episodes #that chronic pain aftermath might leave you with #the brain is extremely complicated #if you're having a bad day just let your body have a break #those mixed up signals of body pain and mental pain are #sometimes the exact same signals #you aren't useless for experiencing pain or the aftermath of it #chronic pain

[barghest-land]

making myself sad by drawing arthur

#rdr2 #barghestland #arthur morgan #i don't draw him often #tbh.. that's like.. my second time drawing him or something? #not because i don't like him (i love him so much ok) #but drawing him just makes me extremely sad #im on chapter 6 again im not ready for this #i wanna hug him and tell him he's a good man:( #i also need a hug as well this shit is depressing #if ya wanna have a crying session invite me or something

[pathetic-gamer]

#alan wake #alan wake 2 #its honestly a little funny how EXTREMELY not okay he is even when he's still got the Cool Guy persona up in the first game #tormented by nightmares from a young age. anger management issues. assaults paparazzi. described by his agent as 'manic depressive.' #lowkey obsessive about his wife. presumably has substance abuse issues. so deeply unwilling to confront and accept his own #flaws that he *may* have created an entire extradimentional being that killed dozens of people about it. no qualms about using #people's real lives to his advantage in his stories (see AWAN dialog with the scientist lady). calls himself basically a god even though #he didnt even get out of the dark place by himself (and never would have). generally an shitheaded asshole. #definitely a character of all time #(to be fair though he's significantly less of an asshole in aw2)

[mamawasatesttube]

timcassie is so compelling to me. they were not into each other even a little bit. it was such a messy coping mechanism fuelled entirely by grief. they were making out with each other because they were both substituting each other for kon. cassie was far more aware she was doing this than tim was. unironically, dating a girl here is one of the gayest things tim has done

#rimi talks #it is SO messy and its so fun. i don't think geoff even realized the implications but they sure are there when you read it #god... you know its BAD when modern comics have me missing tt03 of all Fucking comics #but like. todays ''tell don't show'' writers would N E V E R do something this interesting #tom taylor would be all. oh! tim we shouldn't kiss. i'm just substituting you for kon because i miss him and you were his best friend! #and then he'd have tim go oh wow cassie you're right i didn't realize that! my bad. all forgiven? yay!!! :) #GOD YOU KNOW ITS BAD OUT HERE WHEN I THINK *GEOFF* DID SOMETHING RIGHT. GOD. GOD #GEOFF MY MORTAL ENEMY GEOFF. grits teeth yeah geoffrey i have to give you this one............ #its just such a deliciously unhealthy coping mechanism. theyre a MESS. theyre using each other. theyre only able to go on bc of each other #its not a romance but it IS a codependency #bart isn't even dead yet when this happens. like. he's just off being the flash. #bart (extremely depressed bc he couldnt stop sbp and hold him in the speed force forever): :| ok #not his circus. not his monkeys. #well it is his monkeys even if he left the circus. but he's too depressed to deal with it #but its so fun. this relationship is haunted. there's a ghost in the middle. they both want to kiss him instead of each other. #tim #cassie #timcassie

[ascesabo]

currently up and thinking about how buggy lore gets more and more painful the longer you think about it. like. i could talk about this stupid clown for AGES. he makes his clown-ness his entire personality but it's so painfully clear he doesn't have a single ounce of joy or whimsy left in his little chop-chop body. he's a full-blown hater!! he gave up on his dreams because he wanted his best friend, who he wholeheartedly believed shone brighter than he ever could, to reach it for the both of them!! he probably hasn't known genuine happiness since he broke up with shanks in the rain!! his beef with luffy escalated tenfold the moment he saw the hat!! he stayed in the east blue for years when he had a whole map and probably knew the way back into the grand line!! he loves flashiness and attention but hasn't ever uttered a word about growing up with the roger pirates or being the childhood friend of one of the four emperors!!! this clown has spent his whole life yearning for something that will never return!!!! he has a big red clown nose!!! every bad thing that has ever happened to him was because he wanted so badly to be loved!!!

#buggy the clown #one piece #buggy #shanks #red haired shanks #shuggy #head in hands #what happened to her? #she spent too much time thinking about implied buggy lore #he makes me so so sad #oda gave a clown depression and accidentally created one of the most well written characters in the series #did i mention that he's now in a polycule with an ex-mafia boss and a vampire swordsman #and his consent in the matter is extremely questionable #he just keeps letting things happen to him #buggy d clown ‼️ #please god give this poor clown a happy ending #i want better for him